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Liu Yuqing

卷四：1.目录

卷ー

序李炳银/001

哥德巴赫猜想徐迟/001

船长柯岩/021

痴情理由/040

中国姑娘鲁光/ 086

三门李逸闻乔迈Z 138

胡杨泪孟晓云/ 150

原野在呼唤王兆军/ 163

热血男儿李士非/ 183

卷二

中国农民大趋势（节选）李延国/219

理论狂人陈祖芬/261

神圣忧思录张敏/283

强国梦（节选）赵瑜/315

伐木者,醒来!（节选）徐刚Z358

步鑫生现象的反思周嘉俊Z397

昆山之路杨守松/ 425

飞向太空港（节选）李鸣生/465

东方风来满眼春陈锡添/526

好梦将圆时江永红/539

智慧风暴（节选）王宏甲/573

卷四

4万:400万的牵挂张雅文/ 625

香港回归祖国10周年回眸长江/ 670

木棉花开李春雷/695

休息的革命（缩写本）王宏甲刘建/716

闪着泪光的事业蒋巍/758

让百姓做主朱晓军李英/ 777

难回故里郭冬Z 817

卷五

国家何建明/855

蛟龙探海（节选）许晨/ 915

袁隆平的世界（节选）陈启文/950

“神舟”天路兰宁远/ 1011

智慧之翼李青松/ 1044

附录改革开放四十年优秀报告文学存目Z 1060

卷四：2.400万的牵挂

4万:400万的牵挂

4 million cardiovascular patients to be saved

高官厚禄拴不住的心灵 A soul that cannot be restrained by high position and wealth. 张雅文 Zhang Yawen 亲爱的读者,在我上手术台之前,我要把我所釆访、所亲历的一切告诉你们,希望中国几百万像我一样徘徊于生命边缘的心脏病同胞能认识他-----著名心外科专家刘晓程。愿上帝赐我神来之笔,否则我将有愧于我的主人公,有愧于千千万万亟待拯救的生命,也有愧于我这颗生死未卜的心。 —作者题记 Dear readers, Before I go into surgery, I want to share with you all that I have interviewed and experienced, in the hope that millions of Chinese people like me, who are on the brink of death, struggling with heart disease, can get to know him - the renowned cardiothoracic surgery expert, Liu Xiaocheng. May God grant me the gift of God, otherwise I will feel sorry for my protagonist, and for the millions of lives that urgently need to be saved, and for my own heart that is in great danger. Author's Preface

序 Preface 读者朋友,当你看到这份来自国务院的数据报告,一定会感到振聋发曠,触目惊心。 “心血管病是人类健康和生命的主要杀手之一。我国现有400多万心血管病人等待手术,而全国每年仅能完成4万多例。泰达国际心血管病医院的建成,将为改善我国心血管的治疗做出贡献,给广大心血管病患者带来福音。”（摘自吴仪发给泰达国际心血管病医院开业典礼的贺词） My dear readers, when you read this report from the State Council, you will surely feel shocked and dismayed. "Cardiovascular disease is one of the major killers of health and life. Currently,there are more than 4 million cardiovascular patients waiting for surgery in China, and only 40,000 operations can be performed each year nationwide. The completion of TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH) will contribute to the improvement of cardiovascular treatment in China and bring good news to the majority of cardiovascular patients." (From Wu Yifa's congratulatory message to the opening ceremony of TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH). 另据报道:中国每天有1万多人死于心脑血管、癌症等疾病。北京平均每小时就有一人死于心血管疾病。

It is also reported that more than 10,000 people in China die from cardiovascular, cerebrovascular diseases, cancer and other diseases every day. On average, one person dies of cardiovascular disease every hour in Beijing. 中国现有400多万需要手术的心脏病人,但得到手术的比例仅为1% ,剩下那几百万心脏病患者将揣着“破碎”的心,日夜盼望着白衣天使能拯救他们的生命。但是,或因昂贵的医疗费用,或因排不上号住不上院,或因庸医的误诊,多少病人苦苦等了三年五年,甚至十年八年,从而错过了最佳治疗时间,过早地结束了本该延续几十年的生命。而排不上号住不上院、交不起医疗费的,多是那些没职没权没钱没关系的普通百姓,尤其苦了那些贫苦农民和下岗职工。 There are more than 4 million heart disease patients in China who need surgery, but only 1% of them got operated, leaving millions of heart disease patients with "broken" hearts, hoping day and night for doctors to save their lives. However, due to the high cost of medical treatment, inability to get hospitalized, or misdiagnosis by incompetent doctors, many patients have suffered for three or five years, or even eight to ten years, thus missing the best time for treatment and ending their lives prematurely. And those who are unable to get hospitalized or can’t afford afford medical bills are mostly ordinary people with no job, no power and no money, especially the poor farmers and laid-off workers who are particularly struggling.

这种严重的供需失衡现象,深深地触动了一位医生的良知,他因此而做出的ー 次次惊人之举,像地震一般震撼着中外医疗界,震撼着千百万亟待拯救的生命,也 震撼着中国亟待改革的医疗体制一

The severe imbalance between supply and demand deeply touched the conscience of a doctor, and as a result, his grand gestures have shocked the domestic and foreign medical community and the millions of lives that urgently need saving, and also shaken China's healthcare system to be reformed . 面对ー个个乞求的生命,他不知该把这张生死牌发给谁贝多芬说:“我要扼住命运的咽喉,它绝不能使我完全屈服!噢,能把生命活上千百次该有多美!” 生命是美好的,但它属于人只有一次,任何人都扼不住命运的咽喉。 In the face of countless patients begging him to save their lives, he got lost. He don’t want to give up on any patient but he can’t save them all. Beethoven once said: "I will take fate by the throat; it shall not wholly overcome me. Oh, it is so beautiful to live — to live a thousand times!" Life is beautiful, but it belongs to a person only once, and no one can take fate by the throat.

1987年5月,春天带着不可抗拒的活力,从遥远的天际涌来,冲破坚硬的寒冷, 把鲜活的生命撒向枯黄的世界。饱尝了严冬的寒冷与沙尘的北京人,踏着春色,漫步在华灯初放的长安街上,欣赏着绚丽多姿的夜景,享受着春天的馈赠。但在全国唯ーー家心血管病专科医院一北京阜外医院ー间门诊室里,却上演着司空见惯而又令人痛心的一幕。一位中等身材、精明干练、两眼蓄满善良与睿智的中年医生,被一群走投无路的心脏病患者及家属团团围住,一直下不了班。他就是两年前从澳大利亚留学归来、38岁的主治医师刘晓程。 In May 1987, spring came with irresistible vitality from the distant horizon, breaking through the hard cold and bringing vivid life into the dead yellow land. After experiencing the cold of the severe winter and sandstorms in Beijing, people went out and strolled along Chang'an Avenue in the springtime to admire the beautiful and colorful night scene, and enjoy the gifts from spring. However, in the outpatient clinic of the only specialized cardiovascular hospital in China, Fuwai Hospital, a common yet heartbreaking scene is unfolding. A middle-aged doctor of average build, astute and capable, with eyes full of kindness and wisdom, is surrounded by a group of desperate heart disease patients and their family members, unable to leave work. He is Dr. Liu Xiaocheng, a 38-year-old attending physician who just returned two years ago after finishing his overseas study in Australia.

“刘大夫,听说你是佳木斯人,俺是鹤岗煤矿的,咱们是老乡呢。”ー个又黑又瘦的下井汉子怀抱3岁的孩子,操着山东口音,跟刘晓程一个劲儿地套着近乎,“刘大夫,求你看在老乡的面上救救俺老婆,俺们再也等不起了。她都快不行了！刘大夫……”汉子说不下去了,低头呜咽起来。他身边瘦弱的女人用胳膊肘碰碰他,嗫嚅道:“要不俺不治了,俺回家。”却遭到汉子的一声呵斥:“你不治就得死！你死了俺的两个娃咋办?呜呜……”下井汉子挖煤塌方被砸断一条腿都不曾掉过泪,现在却被老婆的病急得放声大哭。他ー哭,女人和孩子也跟着哭起来。 "Dr. Liu, I heard you're from Jiamusi. I'm from the Hegang . We're fellow townspeople," said a thin, dark-skinned man holding his 3-year-old child and speaking in a Shandong accent, as he was buttering up Liu Xiaocheng, "Dr. Liu, please save my wife given that we’re from the same town. We can't wait any longer. She's dying ! Dr. Liu, please..." The man suddenly stopped and lowered his head, crying. Beside him, his frail wife nudged him with her elbow and said in a weak voice, "Why not we just giving up treating and go home?" But she was met with a rebuke from the man, "If you die, what will happen to our two children? " The coal miner had never shed a tear even when his leg was broken in a coal mining accident, but now he cried out loud because of his wife’s illness. As he cried, his wife and child also began to cry.

刘晓程刚想安慰那汉子几句,却被ー个穿着破旧、满脸沧桑的中年农民打断了。 “刘大夫,俺把房子都卖了,还借了一万多元钱。俺爷儿俩从黑龙江跑北京两趟了,这次再手术不上,俺们全家就活不下去了！求你看在家乡人的面上救救俺儿子吧,他オ14岁。俺爷儿俩给你下跪了！” Liu Xiaocheng had just wanted to comfort the man, but was interrupted by a middle-aged farmer in shabby clothes and with a weathered face "Doctor Liu, I've sold my house and borrowed over ten thousand yuan. We have traveled to Beijing twice from Heilongjiang. If my son don't have the surgery this time, our whole family weren’t going to live ! Please, for the sake of our hometown, save my 14-year-old son. My son and I fall on our knees to beg you!" “别别！千万别……”刘晓程急忙上前制止,但晚了,一老ー小“扑通”一声跪在了他面前。瘦得像铅笔杆似的少年瞪着满含泪水的大眼睛,可怜兮兮地望着刘晓程。父亲却发出ー阵令人心碎的哭号:“刘大夫,求你救救俺儿子吧！救救俺全家吧！呜呜……" "No,no! Please don't..." Liu Xiaocheng hurriedly stepped forward to stop him, but it was too late. The farmer and his son fell on their knees in front of him. The skinny teenager, stared at Liu Xiaocheng with tearful eyes, looking pitiful. The wails of the father was heartbreaking, "Dr. Liu, please save my son! Save my whole family! Please..."

望着这对父子,望着这ー张张求生的面孔,刘晓程的眼睛湿润了,ー种深深的疚痛与同情,紧紧地攫住了他那颗虽然每天被病人揉搓却依然慈悲的心。他知道, 这些普通老百姓本来就很穷,偏偏又患上这样那样的心脏病。 As Liu Xiaocheng looked at the father and son, and the desperate expressions on the patients, his eyes became moist with a deep sense of guilt and sympathy. He tightly grasped his still compassionate heart, which was rubbed and massaged by patients every day. He knew that these ordinary people were already very poor, and yet they were afflicted with various heart diseases. 他们卖房卖地拖儿带女,千里迢迢地跑到北京,整夜整夜地排队挂号,把全部希望寄托在医生身上,但他却令他们大失所望。他们苦苦地哀求他,给他下跪,不为别的,只为ー张小小的八院单张求生的“通行证”。 They sold their house and land and brought their children to Beijing, queuing up all night long for a doctor's appointment and placing all their hopes on the doctors. However, he disappointed them greatly. They begged him desperately, even kneeling before him, not for anything else, but for a small permit for their son, Zhang Xiaoxiao, to receive medical treatment.

他何尝不想大笔ー挥,给每人开ー张入院单, 让他们痛痛快快地接受手术,痛痛快快地活下去?可他每天只能开ー张入院单,一个月只有30张的权力。一下午就要接待五六十个患者,许多病人都需要手术,他真不知该把这张“生死牌”发给谁。30多年的坎坷生涯从没有难倒过他,可是面对一群向他哭诉的家乡父老,他却难过得不止一次地掉下泪来。他觉得自己有愧于做一名医生。 He also wished to help all the patients get hospitalized and operated so that they can live longer. However, in fact he can only get one patient hospitalized each day and and thirty per month. For just one afternoon, he has to receive fifty or sixty patients, and many of them need surgery. He doesn't know to whom he should give this "life and death card". All those hardships throughout his 30-year medical career has not beaten him, but facing a group of folks from his hometown crying before him, he has shed tears more than once. He felt he didn’t deserve to be a doctor. 这时,药剂科的丁飞主任手拿ー包方便面走进来,进门就嗔怪他:“刘大夫,都10点钟了,快吃点方便面吧!你天天这么折腾,早晚会被折腾死的!”丁主任看到刘晓程天天被患者“糊”得可怜,心疼得几次落下泪来。 At this moment, Ding Fei,the Director of the Pharmacy Department walked in with a pack of instant noodles in hand and said "Doctor Liu, it's already 10 o'clock. Eat some instant noodles to fill your stomach! You're always working so hard every day. You'll be worked to death sooner or later!" Director Ding saw how Liu Xiaocheng was constantly being overwhelmed by patients, and felt so sorry for him that he cried several times. 可是,面对一群看病比登天都难的父老乡亲,面对ー个个本应该尽快手术的心脏病人,刘晓程却无论如何也不忍心离开。令他终生难忘的是那位27岁的姑娘。此刻,她就像死人似的,瞪着一双美丽而无神的大眼睛,凄婉地望着他。 However, facing a group of fellow villagers who had difficulty seeing a doctor , and numerous heart disease patients who should have received surgery as soon as possible, Liu Xiaocheng couldn't bear to leave. Among them, there was a 27-year-old girl who he would never forget . She looked like a dead person, staring at Liu mournfully with a pair of beautiful but dull eyes. “你为什么不早点来?”刘晓程问她。 "Why didn't you come here earlier?" Liu Xiaocheng asked her. 姑娘的眼泪卿地掉下来了,忙从衣兜里哆哆嗦嗦掏出ー张已经发黄的入院通知单,双手像捧着命根子似的,小心翼翼地捧到刘晓程面前,啜泣道:“我8年前就来了,开了入院单没有床位,大夫让我回家等通知,可我等了 8年也没等到通知,实在等不了啦!” The girl's tears fell uncontrollably, and she hurriedly took out a yellowing hospitalization admission slip from her pocket, holding it in her trembling hands as if clinging to her lifeline. She carefully handed it to Liu Xiaocheng, sobbing: "I came here 8 years ago, but there were no beds available after I got the hospitalization admission slip. The doctor asked me to wait for further notice at home. But 8 years passed, I still didn't receive any notification. I couldn't wait any longer!" 刘晓程的脑袋“轰”的一声,忙接过那张已经被8年时光磨损出几处破洞起了毛边的入院单,看到上面赫然写着“1979年4月23日”,心里不由得发出ー阵惊愤的慨叹:可悲呀! 8年,一个心脏病患者手拿入院单却没有等来住院通知! 一个严重的先天性心脏病患者怎么能等得了8年?人的一生又有几个大好的8年? 8年, ー个花样的少女变成了27岁的大姑娘,而ー颗破碎的心却因漫长的8年而失去了治疗机会。 Stunned, Liu hurriedly took the worn and frayed admission slip, the date of which read "April 23, 1979". Seeing this, he couldn't help but let out a sad but indignant sigh: how pitiful! How could a heart disease patient with a hospitalization admission slip still couldn’t get hospitalized even after 8 years of waiting ? How could a severe congenital heart disease patient wait for eight years? How many eight years does a person have in their life? In eight years, a beautiful young girl turned into a 27-year-old woman, but her broken heart lost the chance for treatment due to the long wait.

现在,她的心脏已经无法接受手术了,等待她的只能是死亡。可她完全可以不死,完全可以活好多年,完全可以结婚生子,过正常人的生活,可这一切,就因为8年的耽搁而变得永远不可能了。 Now, her heart cannot undergo surgery anymore, and the only thing awaited her is death. But she could have lived , could have had many more years, could have married and had children, and lived a normal life as an average person. However, all of this has become forever impossible because of the eight years of waiting. 这位来自黑龙江农村的姑娘并不知道刘晓程的内心,而是可怜巴巴地乞求道: “求求您刘大夫,让我住院手术吧,我实在等不了啦。我不想死,我オ27岁,我已经等了 8年啦!” The girl from rural Heilongjiang didn't know Liu Xiaocheng's inner thoughts. She begged pitifully, "Please Dr. Liu, let me be hospitalized for surgery, I can't wait any longer. I don't want to die, I'm only 27 years old, and I've already waited for 8 years!" 面对这双对生命充满渴求的眼睛,面对足足等了8年却不得不提前告别人生的家乡姐妹,刘晓程无论如何也不忍心告诉她实情。他怎么能告诉她:“你不能手术了,你只能回家等死了。”他怎么能说出这种没有人味的绝情话?

Her eyes was filled with a strong desire for life. She had spent 8 years  waiting for treatment but had to say goodbye to life ahead of time. Liu Xiaocheng couldn't bear to tell her the truth whatever. How could he tell her, "You can't have surgery, you can only go home and wait for death." He couldn’t say such heartless and inhumane words.

他想:如果这些病人是我的兄弟姐妹,是我的亲生父母,看着他们得的并非不治之症,只是因为住不上院而ー拖再拖,最后不得不提前告别人世,我该是怎样一番心境?该是何等痛苦? He thought: If these patients were my siblings, my biological parents, they suffered from curable illnesses but couldn’t get hospitalized, and eventually have to say goodbye to this world prematurely due to years of waiting. what kind of emotions would I have? How painful would it be? 他心里忽然发出ー阵悲愤的质疑:为什么天远地远初次来就诊的病人就已经是手术禁忌证了?为什么还是手术适应证的病人又要争那张维系生命的小纸片?为什么得到了这张纸片的人还要继续等下去,甚至一直等到死?我这个医生再出这种门诊,再发这种毫无价值的纸片,还有什么意义?我到底是救死扶伤的医生,还是误人性命的“罪魁”?我是诚实善良的大夫,还是整天用谎言安抚病人及家属的“骗子”? Suddenly, a surge of sorrow and indignation welled up in him, prompting him to question: why patients who come here for the first visit from far away are already considered unsuitable for surgery? Why do patients who are suitable for surgery have to fight for that little piece of paper that holds their lifeline? And why did those who got that slip had to continue waiting, even until death? What is the point of me, as a doctor, making diagnosis and giving out these worthless slip? Am I really a doctor who saves lives, or am I the culprit who endangers lives? Am I an honest and kind-hearted doctor, or a fraud who constantly placates patients and their families with lies? 宁可再被毁灭一次,也要学习! I would rather be destroyed again than to stop learning! 刘晓程出生于黑龙江省佳木斯市。父母都是1945年参加革命的医务工作者。母亲是妇产科医生,父亲是佳木斯医学院著名的外科主任刘沛。刘晓程是姊妹五个中唯一的男孩儿。 Liu Xiaocheng was born in Jiamusi City, Heilongjiang Province. Both his parents were medical workers who participated in the revolution in 1945. His mother was an obstetrician and his father was Liu Pei, a famous chief of surgery of the Jiamusi Medical College(the precursor of the department of medicine of Jiamusi University) . Among his five siblings, Liu Xiaocheng was the only boy. 1968年,刘晓程下乡到宝清县生产建设兵团。艰苦、压抑的“知青”生活,过分的体力透支,使他得了肺结核,每天咳嗽,低烧不止。下乡的第四个年头,他提前返城了。 In 1968, Liu Xiaocheng was sent to Baqing County Production and Construction Corps as the sent-down, or "educated" youth (also known as the zhiqing). The life there was hard and oppressive. Overworked and exhausted, he suffered from tuberculosis, coughing and having a low-grade fever every day. In the fourth year of his time there, he returned to the city ahead of schedule. 不久,被打成“反动学术权威”的父亲落实政策,刘晓程获得了一个工作指标, 面临当工人和实验员的选择,犹豫再三,他走进了令人谈虎色变的“臭老九”行列, 成为佳木斯医学院生理教研室一名实验员。并非子承父业,他不想当医生,他也不喜欢整天跟生理不健全的人打交道。他从小最崇拜爱因斯坦和爱迪生。但正像马克思所说:当年轻人选择职业时,社会早已经为他决定好了。 Soon after, his father, who was labeled as“the reactionary (bourgeois) academic authority” had policies implemented against him. Liu Xiaocheng was offered a job, facing a choice between becoming a worker or a laboratory assistant. After much hesitation, he chose to be a laboratory assistant in the Physiology Department of Jiamusi Medical College, entering this unpopular career. Despite both both his parents were medical professionals, he did not want to become a doctor, nor did he like dealing with people who were physically ill. From an early age, he admired Einstein and Edison most. But, as Marx said, “But we cannot always attain the position to which we believe we are called; our relations in society have to some extent already begun to be established before we are in a position to determine them.”

实验员,就是洗刷各种试管和器皿,把兔子、青蛙、老鼠准备好,供大学生实验时使用。但工作之余可以旁听老师的讲课,这是刘晓程选择当实验员的真正原因。一位在“文革”中也被打成“反动学术权威”的老医生气得骂他:“你还要念书?吃ー百个豆还不知豆腥气?” The work of a so-called a laboratory assistant was to washed various test tubes and vessels, prepared rabbits, frogs, and mice for students to use in experiments. But, in spare time, he was allowed to attend lectures given by professors, which was the real reason why Liu Xiaocheng chose to be a laboratory assistant. A senior doctor who was also labeled as“the reactionary (bourgeois) academic authority” during the Cultural Revolution once scolded him: "You still want to study? 但对刘晓程来说,求知成了他最需要的精神食粮。他宁可因求知而再次遭到毁灭,也不愿浑浑噩噩地混下去了。他不相信中国会永远像现在这样知识无用。没有知识,ー个国家靠什么发展? 一个民族靠什么前进? But for Liu Xiaocheng, seeking knowledge became his most necessary spiritual nourishment. He would rather be destroyed again for seeking knowledge than continue to live a meaningless life. He did not believe that China would always be a place where knowledge was useless. Without knowledge, how could a country develop? What would a nation rely on to move forward? 他ー边工作,ー边玩命地学习。初、高中学的是俄语,改学英语必须从ABC学起,晚间说梦话都叽里咕噜地背着英语单词。一年后,就是张铁生高考交白卷1973年,医学院基础研究所以满票通过,推荐他走进了哈尔滨医科大学,成为一名 24岁的“工农兵”大学生。 While working, he studied with all his might. He learned Russian in junior and senior high school, but had to start from ABC when he changed to learning English. He even muttered English words in his sleep. One year later, in 1973, the year when Zhang Tiesheng left his college entrance exam paper blank, The Institute of Basic Medical Sciences (IBMS) of the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences (CAMS) passed unanimously to recommend Liu Xiaocheng to Harbin Medical University. Since then, Liu became a 24-year-old “Worker-Peasant-Soldier students”. 当他满怀鸿鹄之志跨进校门准备苦读时,却发现梦寐以求的大学校园,到处充斥着声嘶力竭的政治口号,以及越来越离奇的“教育革命”，偌大的校园竟然放不下ー张平静的课桌。

When he entered the university with great ambitions to study hard, he found that the university campus that he had dreamed about was filled with political slogans and increasingly bizarre "education revolutions". and he couldn’t find anywhere peaceful to study.
1979年,“十年浩劫”结束后,刘晓程决定报考研究生。当他一切准备就绪,手拿《招生简章》准备填写志愿的那天夜里,父亲突患脑血栓住进医院。紧接着,结婚不久的妻子又因妊娠中毒症,怀孕七个月的第一个孩子流产了。

In 1979, after the The Cultural Revolution ended, Liu Xiaocheng decided to apply for graduate school. Everything was prepared,however, on the night he was ready to fill out his application form. His father suddenly suffered cerebral venous thrombosis (CVT) and was hospitalized. Shortly after, his newly married wife, who was seven months pregnant, suffered from gestosis and miscarried. And that was his first child. 沉重的打击接踵而至,ー边是需要呵护的亲人,ー边是大学学府强烈的呼唤, 面对人生的最后一次抉择,他ー连数天彻夜无眠。 Heavy blows came one after another. On the one hand, there were his loved ones who needed care, and on the other hand, there was the graduate school which he desired for. Faced with the last choice of his life, he stayed up all night for days... “生老病死是人生规律,你不要管我,今年你一定要考!为了学本事干事业,你能考到伦敦、纽约オ好呢。那オ是你对父母的最大孝敬!”父亲对守候在病榻前的儿子语重心长地说。 "Birth, aging, sickness, and death are the laws of life. Don't worry about me. You must take the post-graduate entrance examination this year! It’s even better if you can make to London and New York for further study . That's the best present for us!" Liu’s father said to him, who was waiting by his sickbed, with a solemn tone. “你去考吧,我们以后还会有孩子的,别惦着我。二位老人我会尽力照顾的。” 从小同窗、一向贤惠善良的妻子洪依舒也一再鼓励他。 "You should take the exam. We will have kids in the future, so don't worry about me. I will take care of your parents." His wife,Hong Yishu, repeatedly encouraged him. They had been his classmate since childhood. She was always that kind and virtuous. 刘晓程含着泪,在研究生志愿栏里一连写下三个志愿:第一志愿,北京中国医学科学院心血管病研究所阜外医院;第二志愿,阜外医院;第三志愿还是阜外医院! 阜外医院是中国心血管病研究和治疗的最高权威机构,他立志要成为一名优秀的心血管外科医生。 With tearful eyes, Liu Xiaocheng wrote down three choices\universities in the postgraduate admission\application form: The first choice was Fuwai Hospital Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences (CAMS); the second and third choices were also Fuwai Hospital. Fu Wai Hospital is first-class hospital specializing in cardiovascular diseases in China for cardiovascular disease research and treatment. He aspires to become an outstanding cardiovascular surgeon. 1979年秋,30岁的刘晓程以骄人的成绩,考进了中国医学科学院心血管研究所阜外医院,成为一名心血管外科研究生。他发誓:一定要无愧于阜外医院和导师的录取,无愧于父母和妻子的支持,更无愧于自己的选择！ In the autumn of 1979, 30-year-old Liu Xiaocheng ,with outstanding results in the exam, was admitted by Fuwai Hospital Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences (CAMS), a cardiovascular research institute, and became a graduate student in cardiovascular surgery. He vowed to live up to the expectations of Fuwai Hospital , his mentor, his parents, wife, and himself. 许多研究生同窗跟刘晓程一样,都经历过蹉駝岁月,都格外珍惜这来之不易的求学机会。刘晓程更是怀着强烈的求知欲,在广博的医学海洋里没日没夜地搏击, 连吃饭和睡觉都变成多余的了,只有学习オ是生命中最需要的。听英语录音,ー听就到凌晨4点;上课的路上,要背会30多个英语单词……他决心把空耗的时光夺回来。 Many of Liu Xiaocheng's fellow graduate students have also experienced difficult times and cherish their hard-won learning opportunities. Liu Xiaocheng, in particular, was driven by a strong thirst for knowledge and tirelessly immersed himself in the vast ocean of knowledge of medicine day and night, to the extent that eating and sleeping became unnecessary, with learning being the most essential part of his life. He would listen to English recordings until 4 a.m., and memorize more than 30 English words on his way to class... He was determined to reclaim the wasted time. 3年后,刘晓程以出色的成绩完成学业,并留在阜外医院工作。1984年,阜外医院又破例提前送他去澳大利亚留学深造 Three years later, Liu Xiaocheng completed his studies with outstanding results and was offered a job at the Fuwai Hospital. In 1984, Fuwai Hospital made an exception, sending him to Australia for further education.

你是人,我也是人,凭什么不如你? We are both human. Why should you be any better than me? 美国前总统卡特说:“我们不可能人人都像牛顿、法拉第或爱迪生那样有伟大的发现,也不可能像米开朗琪罗或拉斐尔那样有传世之作,但我们可以抓住平凡的机会并使之不平凡,进而使我们的人生变得更加壮丽。” 澳大利亚很美,碧水,蓝天,风光旖旎〇 Former US President Jimmy Carter once said, "We cannot all make great discoveries like Newton, Faraday, or Edison, nor can we create enduring masterpieces like Michelangelo or Raphael. But we can seize ordinary opportunities and make them extraordinary, thus making our lives more magnificent." Australia is very beautiful, with blue water, blue sky, and picturesque scenery. 但是,第一次踏上澳洲的刘晓程却无暇光顾这一切,第二天就走上了手术台, 面临两台大手术,而且要给主刀医生当第一助手。 However, Liu Xiaocheng, who set foot in Australia for the first time, had no time to enjoy all of this. The next day, he went straight to the operating room. He had two major surgeries and had to serve as the first assistant to the chief surgeon. 第一次走进布里斯班市查理王子医院心血管外科手术室,一切都是陌生的,金发碧眼的医护人员,令人眼花缭乱的各种器械,几位主刀医生各自不同的操作方式,叽里哇啦一句都听不懂的俚语、方言……更糟糕的是,他就像从慢悠悠的牛车上卸下来的一枚螺丝,忽然被拧到ー台高速运转的机器上,ー上来就得适应人家那种快节奏、高效率的工作方式,丝毫不存在你是新来乍到给点时间让你适应ー说。而且主刀医生盛气凌人,开ロ就训人:“拿骨子!不不!不是剪刀,是骨子!你懂不懂英语?不懂回去学会再来!” Entering the cardiovascular operating room of The Prince Charles Hospital（TPCH) in Brisbane for the first time, everything was unfamiliar to Liu Xiaocheng. The blonde and blue-eyed medical staff, dazzling array of medical instruments, different operating styles of the chief surgeons, slangs and dialects that he couldn't understand at all... To make things worse, he felt like a screw taken off a slow-moving cart and was suddenly twisted onto a high-speed machine. He had to adapt to their fast-paced and efficient way of working even without any time to adjust as a new arrivals. Moreover, the chief surgeon was domineering, scolding Liu , "Hand me the bone nipper! No, not scissors, bone nipper! Do you understand English? If not, go back when you have mastered it!" 嗨,那场面别提有多狼狈了,当场他就出现了“文化休克”,也就是老百姓所说的傻眼了,听不懂人家说什么,当然不知道该做什么。按照手术惯例,主刀医生给病人开完胸,建立起体外循环,助手就该从患者腿上取完大隐静脉,递给主刀医生做搭桥术了。可他没有取完静脉,主刀医生立刻嗔怪起来:“太慢了！简直太慢了！”这使刘晓程越发手忙脚乱,大汗淋漓,不知所措了。

Not to mention how embarrassing the scene was. At that moment, Liu Xiaocheng experienced a "culture shock," which is what people call being stunned. He couldn't understand what others were saying, so he didn't know what to do. According to the surgical protocol, after the lead surgeon opens the patient's chest and establishes extracorporeal circulation, the assistant should take the great saphenous vein(GSV)from the patient's leg and hand it to the lead surgeon for Coronary artery bypass grafting (CABG). However, he didn't finish taking the vein as expected , and the lead surgeon immediately scolded him, "Too slow! It's just too slow!" This made Liu Xiaocheng even more flustered, sweating profusely and feeling helpless.

主刀的奥布来恩博士是世界著名的心外科专家,刘晓程只是一名中国留学生, 遭训斥是在所难免的。可是,对于自尊心极强的刘晓程来说,却像童年唯ーー次挨父亲的皮带ー样。父亲的皮带是抽在他的屁股上,而这次却是抽在他脸上,抽在ー个中国人的自尊心上。他发誓:“我就不信你们能做到的我做不到！你是人,我也是人,我凭什么不如你?我一定要把你们的技术学到手,绝不能给中国人丢脸!” The lead surgeon, Dr. Mark F. O'Brien, was a world-renowned cardiothoracic surgery expert , while Liu Xiaocheng was just a Chinese student studying abroad. It was inevitable that he would be scolded. However, for a proud person like Liu Xiaocheng, it was like being hit by his father with a belt when he was a child. However, his father only hit his buttocks, but this time he felt himself got hit in the face and his self-esteem as a Chinese people suffered. He swore, "I don't believe that I can't do what you can do! You're a human being.So am I. Why couldn’t I be as good as you? I must learn your techniques and I would never disgrace our Chinese people!" 下了手术台,他急忙把主刀医生的操作程序全部记录下来,把剩下的静脉搜集起来,从护士长那借来手术器械,回到宿舍苦练搭桥术,设计出各种高难度的吻合方法,边缝边做思索,边画图……几个月下来,他不仅把四位医生不同的操作方式背得滚瓜烂熟,而且对四位医生的手术方案取长补短,形成一套自己的独特手术方法。 After getting off the operating table, he hurriedly recorded all of the surgeon's procedures, collected the remaining veins, borrowed surgical instruments from the head nurse, and returned to his dormitory to practice Coronary artery bypass grafting. He had designed various high-difficulty methods of Anastomosis. He would think and draw diagrams as sewing. After several months, he not only memorized the different surgical techniques of the four doctors, but also integrated their strengths and weaknesses to form his own unique surgical method. 白天,他要给四位导师当第一助手,常常忙得连杯咖啡都顾不上喝。一台手术下来,导师去喝咖啡,他却忙着写手术记录,填卡片,下术后医嘱,看下一台手术造影片子,没等做完,下一台手术护士又在叫他:“刘医生,手术开始了!”他ー天最多跟过五台大手术,从早8点一直忙到晚9点,回到宿舍累得连眼皮都抬不起来了。在一次主动脉瘤的手术中,患者突然大出血,奥布来恩博士竟然无端地冲刘晓程发起火来:“谁让你把着的（指血管）？” During the day, he served as the first assistant to the four mentors, often too busy to even have a cup of coffee. After one surgery, the mentor would go for coffee, but he would be busy writing surgical records, filling out cards, giving post-operative instructions, examining the next surgery's films, and before he was done, the nurse for the next surgery would already be calling him: "Doctor Liu, the surgery has started!" He had followed at most five major surgeries in a day, working from 8 am to 9 pm, often too exhausted to even lift his eyelids when returning to the dormitory. In one surgery for an aortic aneurysm, the patient suddenly experienced massive bleeding, and Dr. Mark F. O'Brien inexplicably began to blame Liu Xiaocheng, saying, "Who told you to hold onto the blood vessel?" “你让我把着的!”刘晓程早已受够了导师的傲慢与训斥,破天荒地顶了他ー句,心里却愤愤地说,“你牛什么牛?不就是你们国家比我们国家富点儿吗,有什么了不起的！我们国家早晚会富起来的,早晚有超过你们的那天！你说你是虔诚的天主教徒,还说大家在上帝面前都是兄弟姐妹,其实你根本看不起我！我告诉你, 我跟你ー样是人,不是一条狗。你别张口就来训斥我！我一定要教训教训你,导师也应该学会尊重人。今后,绝不许你再侮辱我的人格!” "You let go of me!" Liu Xiaocheng talked back. He was already fed up with his supervisor's arrogance and reprimands. He thought to himself indignantly, "What's the big deal? Isn't it just that your country is a little richer than ours? Our country will become wealthy sooner or later, and we will eventually surpass you! You say you're a devout Catholic and that we're all brothers and sisters in God's eyes, but actually you look down on me! I'm telling you, I'm just like you, a human being, not a dog. So stop scolding me ! I'm going to teach you a lesson that you, as a supervisor, should learn to respect people. From now on, you are not allowed to insult my dignity again!" 血止住了,奥布来恩主动向刘晓程搭讪,刘晓程却不理睬他。第二天上班,奥布来恩又主动跟刘晓程打招呼,刘晓程装作没听见。 The bleeding stopped and Dr. Mark F. O'Brien took the initiative to strike up a conversation with Liu Xiaocheng, but Liu Xiaocheng ignored him. The next day at work,Dr. Mark F. O'Brien greeted Liu Xiaocheng again, but Liu Xiaocheng pretended not to hear him. 奥布来恩是个虔诚的天主教徒,在权威与人格、傲慢与尊严的较量中,他心理开始失衡了,开口向刘晓程道歉:“对不起,晓程,昨天是我的错,我向你道歉。”接着又说:“晓程,今天你来主刀,我来给你当助手!” 刘晓程不敢相信自己的耳朵,因为澳大利亚的法律严格规定,外国医生只能当助手,不能主刀手术。 “我让你做的,一切后果由我承担。”奥布来恩说。 Dr. Mark F. O'Brien was a devout Catholic, but in the struggle between authority and personality, arrogance and dignity, he began to feel guilty. He apologized to Liu Xiaocheng, saying, "I'm sorry, Xiaocheng. It was my fault yesterday, and I apologize to you." Then he added, "Xiaocheng, you come to perform the operation today, and I'll be your assistant!" Liu Xiaocheng couldn't believe what he had just heard because Australian law strictly prohibits foreign doctors from performing operations as the lead surgeon. "I'll take responsibility for everything you do," Dr. Mark F. O'Brien said. 于是,就在这所世界著名的澳大利亚查理王子医院手术室里,中国医生第一次走到主刀位置,第一次打破澳大利亚严格而冷酷的法律,划开了洋人的胸膛……当刘晓程以熟练的技法,稳健而准确、轻快而严密地做完心脏搭桥术,在场所有的人都惊呆了。奥布来恩绝没有想到这个多次被自己训斥的中国留学生,竟然有这样一手好功夫。 So, for the first time in the operating room of a world-famous hospital-- The Prince Charles Hospital in Australia,, a Chinese doctor took the position of the lead surgeon, breaking the stern , rigid and unrelenting Australian law, and cut open the chest of a westerner... When Liu Xiaocheng completed Coronary artery bypass grafting (CABG) in a skillful, steady, accurate but easy way, everyone present was amazed. Dr. Mark F. O'Brien never expected that this Chinese student, who had been reprimanded by him many times, had such good surgical skills. 当晚,奥布来恩请刘晓程共进晚餐。两人从此成为要好的朋友。 “晓程,你是我见过的最有骨气、最优秀的中国人。”奥布来恩向刘晓程举起酒杯,“我相信你会成为世界一流的心外科专家。” “你也是我见过的最优秀的心外科专家,最令人敬佩的导师!”刘晓程说道。奥布来恩虽然傲慢,却丝毫不讲师道尊严。 That night,Dr. Mark F. O'Brien invited Liu Xiaocheng to dinner. From then on, the two became close friends. "Xiaocheng, you are the most outstanding Chinese person with great guts I’ve ever met," Aubrey raised his glass to Liu Xiaocheng. "I believe you will become a world-class cardiothoracic surgery expert." "You are also the most excellent cardiothoracic surgery expert I have ever met, the most admirable mentor!" Liu Xiaocheng said.

Dr. Mark F. O'Brien was arrogant but not condescending.

一次,刘晓程发现奥布来恩没有切开极容易被忽略的薄内膜就要开始做血管吻合,就急忙提醒了他。奥布来恩连声道谢:“谢谢！太谢谢你了,晓程。我的疏忽险些危及患者的生命。” Once, Liu Xiaocheng noticed that Dr. Mark F. O'Brien was about to start a vascular anastomosis without cutting the easily overlooked thin inner membrane, so he quickly reminded him. Dr. Mark F. O'Brien thanked him, saying, "Thank you! Thank you so much, Xiaocheng. My negligence almost endangered the patient's life." 在这里,任何人的脸面都不重要,重要的是人的生命,是如何做好每一个手术细节,使手术最大限度地获得成功。几位导师还采纳了刘晓程提出的一些改良手术的建议,风趣地称它为“刘氏法”。导师们一切为了病人、ー丝不苟的治学精神, 使刘晓程受益匪浅,成为他ー生工作的典范。 Here, no one's face is important, what is more important is human life and how to have a good command of details in each surgery so as to maximize the success of the operation. Several mentors even adopted some of Liu Xiaocheng's suggestions for improving the surgery, humorously calling them the "Liu Methods." The mentors' rigorous academic spirit featured by putting patients first , has greatly benefited Liu Xiaocheng and set a paradigm for his lifelong work. 从此,奥布来恩不顾法律约束,不仅让刘晓程在洋人身上主刀,而且做ー些连澳大利亚本国高级医生都轮不到的高难手术。一年内,刘晓程参加了 600多例手术,主刀完成50多例,仅冠状动脉搭桥就做了二三十例,患者最高年龄83岁,无ー例死亡或发生并发症。 From then on, disregarding legal constraints, Dr. Mark F. O'Brien not only allowed Liu Xiaocheng to perform surgery on western patients, but also some high-risk surgeries that even senior Australian doctors had no access to. Within a year, Liu Xiaocheng participated in more than 600 surgeries, completing over 50 of them as the lead surgeon, including 20-30 cases of Coronary artery bypass grafting successfully with no deaths or complications,among which the oldest patients reached 83 years old. 刘晓程以其独特的人格魅力及高超的医术,终于赢得了同行们的爱戴与尊重。留学一年期限到了,奥布来恩主动带刘晓程去州卫生主管部门申请延期,让他再研修一年。 With his unique personality charm and superb medical skills, Liu Xiaocheng finally won the love and respect of his colleagues. When the one-year overseas study period came to an end, Dr. Mark F. O'Brien took the initiative to accompany Liu Xiaocheng to the state health department to apply for an extension, allowing him to continue his studies for another year.

1985年,国际心脏外科会议在澳大利亚召开,走上讲台,代表澳大利亚查理王子医院做学术报告的不是别人,正是我们优秀的刘晓程。他流利的英语、精湛的发言,令全场震惊,从而成为第一个享此殊荣的外国人。 In 1985, the XVIII World Congress of the International Society for Cardiovascular Surgery was held in Australia. It was our outstanding Liu Xiaocheng who represented The Prince Charles Hospital in Australia to give a academic report. He stunned the audience with his fluent English and excellent speech, becoming the first foreigner to receive this honor. 留学期限到了,奥布来恩让刘晓程把家属接来,一切手续由他办理。他说这里的条件比中国好得多,对刘晓程今后的发展大有益处。 When his duration of study abroad was coming to an end, Dr. Mark F. O'Brien offered to help Liu Xiaocheng bring his family over and prepare all the paperwork. He believed that the conditions in Australia were much better than in China and it would be of great benefits to Liu Xiaocheng. 在查理王子医院,一名普通医生的年收入高达几十万美元;而在阜外医院,一名主任医师的年收入也不过几千元人民币。而且,中国留学生陪读热方兴未艾,多少人都梦寐以求地想借此机会搭上出国的列车,从而开始另一番人生之旅。从阜外医院ー起来澳洲留学的医生已经把家属接来了,劝刘晓程也这样做。可是,刘晓程却忘不了童年时代,父亲多次给他讲的钱学森等科学家从美国归来报效国家的故事。他舍弃不掉对祖国、对家乡的那份刻骨铭心的眷恋。 At The Prince Charles Hospital, an ordinary doctor's annual income reached hundreds of thousands of dollars, while at Fuwai Hospital , a chief physician's annual income was only a few thousand yuan. In addition, the trend of accompanying study abroad among Chinese students was still popular, and many people dreamed of taking this opportunity to go abroad and embark on a new journey in life. Doctors who came to Australia from Fuwai Hospital together with Liu Xiaocheng had already brought their families over. They advised Liu Xiaocheng to do the same. However, Liu Xiaocheng could not forget the story his father told him so many times in his childhood about scientists such as Qian Xuesen who returned to China from the United States to serve the country. He couldn't abandon the deep affection he had for his country and hometown. 一次,他跟同事到澳大利亚花城土温巴山去旅游,看到山顶有ー只标着世界各国方位的坐标,就面向自己的祖国,迎着落日的余晖,唱起了思乡曲:“乡间小路,带我回家。那个地方,我永远属于她……”唱着唱着,一行思乡的泪不知不觉地流了下来。他知道,他的心永远属于那个虽然贫穷却不能忘怀的祖国,属于那个无论多么优越的条件都无法取代的母亲! Once, he went on a trip to Toowoomba,the Garden City of Australia with his colleagues. On the mountaintop, he saw a coordinate marked with directions of various countries in the world. Then bathed in the sunset glow, he began singing a homesick song in the direction of his hometown: "The country road leads me home, the small town where I always belong to ..." As he sang, tears of homesickness flowed unconsciously down his face. He knew that his heart would always goes to his motherland, which, despite its poverty, he could never forget, and , which will never be replaced any other rich country. “导师,中国的病人太多,太苦了,那里非常需要医生。如果我们学成了都留在国外,那谁去解救他们呢?中国有句俗话,叫作’儿不嫌母丑,狗不嫌家贫’。这里的条件虽然优越,但并不需要我。我的祖国虽然很穷,但她需要我,我也需要她。” 刘晓程婉言谢绝了导师的挽留。 "Teacher, there are too many patients in China. They are suffering a lot. My country needs doctors desperately. If we all decide to stay abroad after finishing our studies, who will rescue them? There is a saying in China, 'Children will not detest their mother for being ugly, and dogs will not detest their owners for being poor.' The conditions here are superior and I am not that needed here. While my motherland is poor, she needs me, and I also need her." Liu Xiaocheng politely declined the teacher's retention. 奥布来恩听了很受感动,说:“我很理解你,也很赞成你的选择。回国以后有什么困难尽管告诉我,需要学什么欢迎你再来〇我的邀请永远对你有效〇” Dr. Mark F. O'Brien was deeply moved by Liu Xiaocheng's words, saying "I understand you very well and totally agree with your decision. If you have any difficulties after returning home, please let me know.And if you need to learn anything, you are always welcome to come back." 随同刘晓程一起归来的,还有整整两箱子国内奇缺的体外循环插管和接头。在查理王子医院,刘晓程看到在国内奇缺的体外循环插管和接头,用过一次就丢进了垃圾袋,而在国内用过几百次都舍不得丢掉,就对同事们说:“我的国家还很穷, 可不可以请你们别丢掉这些东西,让我攒起来带回国去用?”同事们不但没有耻笑他,反而帮他将这些东西ー根根地收集起来,刷干净,消好毒,替他保存起来。 Together with Liu Xiaocheng, there were also two full boxes of extracorporeal circulation tubes and connectors that were in short supply in China. At The Prince Charles Hospital, Liu Xiaocheng saw that these items, which were in short supply in China , were were used once and then being discarded in a trash bag, but in China, they would be used hundreds of times before being thrown away. He said to his colleagues, "My country is still very poor. Can you please not throw away these items and let me take them back to my country to use?" His colleagues did not laugh at him, but instead helped him collect and clean every single item and keep them for him. 阜外医院麻醉科主任看到这两箱东西,高兴地喊起来:“噢,太好了。这可解决大问题了!” When the head of anesthesiology at Fuwai Hospital saw these two boxes, he shouted with joy, "Oh, this is great! They’ll help a lot!" “我的不幸的乡土哟,我恨你,我又不能不爱你!” 这是巴金老人多年前发出的感慨。 "Oh, my unfortunate hometown, I hate you, but I cannot help loving you!" This was an expression of lament from the writer Ba Jin many years ago. 像许多海外归来的学子ー样,刘晓程怀着满腔热血扑向朝思暮想的祖国,扑向自己的事业。他的心就像喷薄欲出的太阳,充满了激情与渴望,渴望把自己所学的医术全部报效给祖国,报效给民众,拯救那些亟待手术的病人。 Like many overseas returnees, Liu Xiaocheng returned to his homeland with full passion and aspiration for his career. His heart was like a bursting sun, filled with passion and eagerness to use his medical skills to serve the country and the people, and to save those patients who were in urgent need of surgery. 可是,他很快就发现,面对阜外医院原先那种慢节奏、低效率的工作环境,就像当初到查理王子医院突然面临那种快节奏、高效率的环境ー样,他同样感到不适应了。他觉得自己就像ー颗日夜运转磨得程亮的螺丝,忽然被拧到ー辆慢悠悠的牛车上,无论怎样卖カ气都快不起来了。 However, he soon realized that he was not adapted to the slow-paced and inefficient working environment at Fuwai Hospital, just like when he first faced the fast-paced and high-efficiency environment at The Prince Charles Hospital. He felt like a screw that had been running and polished day and night, yet suddenly being put on a slow-moving cart, unable to speed up no matter how hard he tried. 他感到痛苦而茫然,一系列的问题常常叩击着他彻夜难眠的心:阜外医院每年仅能做1000例手术,排号却排到了 14000例。按照现有的速度,许多病人要等到 10年以后才能手术。全国需要手术的心脏病人有300多万,而全国每年仅能手术的不到1%。 He was in pain and confusion. Series of questions often haunted him in those sleepless nights. For example, although Fuwai Hospital could only perform 1,000 surgeries per year, there were already 14,000 patients on the waiting list. At the current rate, many patients would have to wait for 10 years before they could undergo surgery. There were more than 3 million heart diseases patients in need of surgery in the country, but less than 1% could undergo surgery each year. 那300多万患者不知等到猴年马月才能手术,而绝大多数病人一直等到死都上不了手术台。这种尖锐的供求矛盾何时才能解决?在澳大利亚,他一年可以做几百例手术。回到国内,他这位主管四个病区的主治医生一年只能做88 例。全院上自院长下至年轻医生,都想多干工作,多救病人,可都觉得有劲使不出来。这到底是为什么? Those 3 million patients didn’t know how long they have to wait, yet most patients may never have a chance to get on the operating table in their lifetime. When would this sharp supply-demand contradiction be resolved? In Australia, he could perform hundreds of surgeries in a year, but as an attending in charge of four wards, he could only perform 88 surgeries per year. From the hospital president to the young doctors, everyone wanted to do more work and save more patients, but they all felt powerless. Why ? 1987年春节期间,阜外医院派刘晓程带队到黑龙江省牡丹江市开展心脏手术。他看到家乡十几万心血管病人处在投医无路、求治无门的水深火热之中,感到很痛心。一天,ー个农民带着患有严重先天性法乐式四联症心脏病的13岁男孩, 顶风冒雪找到刘晓程,说他带着儿子跑了好几家医院,都做不上手术,求刘晓程救救他儿子。 During the Spring Festival period in 1987, Fuwai Hospital sent Liu Xiaocheng to Mudanjiang City, Heilongjiang Province to perform heart surgeries. He saw that more than 100,000 cardiovascular patients in his hometown were in desperate need of medical treatment but had no access to it. He felt very distressed. One day, a farmer brought his 13-year-old son with Tetralogy of Fallot(TOF) to Liu Xiaocheng during a heavy snowstorm, saying that he had taken his son to several hospitals but could not get him the surgery. He begged Liu Xiaocheng to save his son. 可是,刘晓程带队出来时阜外医院有指示:到条件差的地方开展心脏手术,不要做复杂的,以免发生意外。刘晓程留下父子俩的地址,劝父子俩先回去等候消息。父子俩一走,刘晓程立刻电话请示阜外医院的导师郭加强院长。郭院长问他有没有把握,他说:“虽然有风险,但我还是有把握的!”郭院长说:“那你就做吧,但一定要慎重,要预防术后并发症。” However, when Liu Xiaocheng and his team left Fuwai Hospital, they were instructed not to perform complex surgeries in areas with poor conditions to avoid accidents. Liu Xiaocheng took down the father and son's address, and asked them to go back and wait for news. As soon as they left, Liu Xiaocheng immediately called the hospital's mentor, President Guo Jiaqiang, for permission. Guo asked him if he had confidence in that, and he answered, "Although there are risks, I am still quite confident!" Guo said, "Then you can do it, but you must be careful and prevent postoperative complications." 于是,刘晓程不顾外面风雪交加,乘着牡丹江励副市长的三菱吉普,立刻去追赶那对父子。吉普车在风雪弥漫的山路上颠簸了三四个小时,几次险些翻到沟里. So, disregarding the harsh snowstorm outside, Liu Xiaocheng immediately went to chase the father and son, riding in the Mitsubishi jeep of Li, the vice mayor of Mudanjiang. The jeep bounced on the snowy mountain road for three to four hours, nearly flipping into the ditch several times.

晚间9点多钟,终于在距离小说《林海雪原》所描写的“座山雕”威虎厅不远的偏僻山沟里,找到了父子俩的家间东倒西歪、窗户上钉着塑料布、房顶压着厚厚积雪的破草房。屋里除了几张瘦骨嶙峋的脸,只有一盏如豆的油灯呼呼啦啦地摇 曳。直到许多年后,刘晓程都忘不了这个“家”。
Finally, at over 9 o'clock in the evening, they found the father and son's home in a remote mountain valley not far from the Tiger Mountain  described in the novel the Tracks in the Snowy Forest, The house was leaning and crooked, with plastic sheeting nailed to the windows and a thatched roof covered in thick snow. Except for a few emaciated faces, there was only a small oil lamp flickering in the room. Liu Xiaocheng still remembered this "home" for many years to come.

半夜12点,当父子俩乘火车,搭马车,艰难地跋涉了十几个小时,雪人似的回到家里时,眼前的情景就像ー盏灯,猛然照亮了爷儿俩几乎冻僵的心,也照亮了这个被世界遗忘的家庭。 At midnight, the father and son returned home like two snowmen after a grueling journey of over ten hours by train and horse-drawn carriage. The scene in front of them was like a lamp suddenly illuminating their almost frozen hearts and the forgotten family.

农民汉子一把抓住刘晓程的手,老泪纵横地哭喊道:“刘大夫,你是俺们全家的救命恩人哪!俺们做梦都没想到啊!” The peasant man grabbed Liu Xiaocheng's hand, crying and exclaiming, "Doctor Liu, you are our family's savior! We’ve never even dreamed of this!" 这个五口之家本来就穷得叮当响,孩子有病更是雪上加霜,四处磕头作揖借了几千元钱,可都扔在铁道线上了,两次去北京手术都排不上号。农民汉子呼天不应,叫地不灵,几次想ー头撞死在北京大街上,可转而ー想,自己死了一家老小怎么办?现在,北京来的大夫却顶风冒雪找上门来了,来接儿子回去手术,天底下竟然有这么好的医生?!他不敢相信这是真的。 This family of five was already extremely poor, and the child's illness added insult to injury. They begged and bowed all around to borrow a few thousand yuan, but it was all spent on train tickets. They couldn't even get a surgical appointment during their two trips to Beijing. The peasant man was made desperate, even considering suicide on the streets of Beijing, but then he thought, "What would happen to my family if I died?" Now, a doctor from Beijing had braved the wind and snow to find them and take their son for surgery. Can there really be such a good doctor in the world? He couldn't believe it was true. “刘大夫,你这北京来的专家,用市长的车来接俺儿去做手术,俺不是在做梦吧?” “文化大革命”期间,刘晓程的父亲冒着坐牢的危险,顶着造反派的压カ,抢救过被医生放弃、濒临死亡的农村孩子。今天,刘晓程担着手术风险,在风雪弥漫的山路上跑了上百里路,为了找到ー个素不相识的农家孩子。因为他知道,在这极其偏僻、方圆几十里见不到人烟的山沟里,ー个患有严重先天性心脏病的孩子,如果不能尽快地接受根治手术,那将意味着什么。如果这次巡回医疗不能为孩子手术, 这孩子就不知会等到哪年哪月了。 During the "Cultural Revolution," Liu Xiaocheng's father ran the risk of being put to prison and withstood the pressure of being recognized as rebel groups to save a rural child who had been given up on by doctors and were on the verge of death. Today, Liu Xiaocheng himself took the risk of surgery and traveled hundreds of miles on snowy mountain roads to find a rural child he had never met before. He knew that in this extremely remote mountain valley and for a child with a serious congenital heart disease, if he could not receive curative surgery as soon as possible, what will that mean? If he could not get surgery during this mobile medical tour, it’s unknown when he would be able to receive treatment. 刘晓程连夜把父子俩接回医院,第二天就为孩子成功地做了手术。这次巡回医疗,他在牡丹江成功地做了 8台心脏手术。 Liu Xiaocheng brought the father and son back to the hospital overnight and successfully operated on the child the next day. During this mobile medical tour, he successfully performed eight heart surgeries in Mudanjiang. 巡回医疗很快就结束了,可是,黑龙江十几万心脏病同胞求医无门、备受煎熬的情景,却历历在目,一直蹂嘛着刘晓程的心。 The mobile medical tour soon ended, but the scene of tens of thousands of heart disease patients in Heilongjiang suffering and seeking medical help but failing was still vivid in Liu Xiaocheng's mind, breaking his heart. 回国两年,他的内心苦苦思索了两年,斗争了两年。经过多少个不眠之夜的思考,这位海外归来的学子斗胆发出了天问:造成这种日益尖锐的供求矛盾的原因到底是什么?难道仅仅是因为我们穷吗? After returning to his home country for two years, he struggled and pondered in numerous sleepless nights over the reasons behind the increasingly sharp supply and demand contradictions. He wondered if poverty was the only reason for it. “不!我们不单单是经济和科技落后,还有封建思想残余及诸多因素造成的低效率和看不见摸不着却处处存在着的内耗!这种内耗大量地表现在扯皮、推诿,或有劲使不上的工作上。 "It's not just because we are economically and technologically behind, but also because of the remnants of feudal thinking and many other factors that lead to inefficiency and hazards that almost existed everywhere. This kind of hazards were often manifested in disputes, shirking responsibilities, or jobs where one cannot fully apply oneself. 在大城市科研单位里死争死挤,却难以发挥作用的人,何止ー二?有了技术人才,宁可自己封存不用,也不肯放走的大单位,何止ー二?教了三年打铁,临出徒オ放手让他打一把炉钩子的师傅,又何止ー二? 一代又一代,周而复始。可悲的传统观念,根深蒂固的封建思想残余……难啊,我们的知识分子真是太少又'太多’了！ There are countless people in scientific research units in big cities who were struggling in and unable to exert their abilities. There are also large nits that would rather keep technical talent in storage than let them go. Moreover, there are also masters who teach apprentices to forge iron for three years, but still cannot let them make a hook. “谭嗣同为了唤起中华民族的觉醒,甘愿献出生命。他在断头台前从容地喊出了“死得其所,快哉快哉”的千古绝唱。谭嗣同大义凛然、视死如归的精神,令多少人感慨不已。 In order to awaken the Chinese nation, Tan Sitong was willing to sacrifice his life. Before the execution, he calmly shouted "To die for a just cause is a happy death." Tan Sitong's spirit of righteousness and fearlessness in the face of death left many people deeply moved. 资产阶级革命家为国为民尚有如此壮烈之举,我们20世纪的共产党人就不能牺牲点儿什么,来治治有目共睹的通病和顽症吗?”（这段激越之词,摘自 1993年刘晓程以全国优秀中青年干部身份,在人民大会堂向中直机关和科研院校代表做的报告《人生蹉註,丹心一片,为国为民,不虚此生》〇）

If a bourgeois revolutionary can make such a heroic sacrifice for his country and people, why can't we, as Communist Party members of the 20th century, sacrifice something to cure those common problems in our society? (This passionate speech was excerpted from Liu Xiaocheng's report "Life may be wasted, but with unwavering dedication, for the country and the people, this life is not in vain." , which he delivered in 1993 as an outstanding young cadre to representatives of Work Committee for Offices Directly under the CCCPC and scientific research institutes at the Great Hall of the People.

这番令有识之士感慨万千的肺腑之言,无疑是对中国医疗体制与传统观念的挑战。但是,他太渺小了,他仅仅是一名留学归来、满怀忧国忧民之心的医生。他所能左右的仅仅是他自己,而非ー个沉寂几十年、远远滞后于社会发展的国家医疗体制。于是,他向自己提出了一个天大的难题:我为什么不能回到家乡,为备受病痛折磨的父老乡亲建一所心血管病专科医院? These heartfelt words that have moved many wise people undoubtedly challenge the traditional beliefs and healthcare system in China. However, Liu is too insignificant - he is just a doctor who returned from studying abroad and is deeply concerned about the country and its people. He could only control himself, rather than a healthcare system that had been stagnant for decades and lagged far behind the society's development. Therefore, he questioned himself: why can't he return to his hometown and build a specialized cardiovascular hospital for his folks who have been suffering from illness and pain? 于是,他做出了一个重大抉择:回家乡,为家乡父老做点儿カ所能及的事！可他觉得,这样做太对不住妻子和儿子了。他和妻子结婚八年分居了六年。现在,妻子刚从东北调到北京邮电医院,孩子被安排在师资雄厚的大木仓小学。阜外医院刚分给他两室ー厅的住房,一家三口终于在北京落户了,刚刚有了一个安稳的家。可现在,他却要亲手砸碎它……ー想到这些,ー种深深的自责便噬啮着他的心:我有什么权毁掉这一切?又有什么资格把他们母子再拖回到前途未卜的动荡之中? So he made a major decision: to go back to his hometown and do what he could for his folks. But he felt that he was not being fair to his wife and son by doing so. They had been separated for six of the eight years they had been married. Now his wife had just been transferred from the Northeast China to Beijing Postal Hospital, and their son was enrolled in Damu Cang Elementary School with real qualified teachers. Fuwai Hospital had just assigned him a two-bedroom apartment, and the family had finally settled down in Beijing. But now he had to destroy it with his own hands... The thought of all this self-blame gnawed at his heart: what right did he have to ruin everything? And what qualifications did he have to drag his wife and son back into the uncertain and tumultuous future? 又是ー个无眠之夜。刘晓程在与妻子彻夜长谈 “看到家乡人倾家荡产地跑到北京来找我,看着他们走投无路、求医无门的样子,我常常觉得自己很无能。你想想,如果那些人是我们的父母,是我们的兄弟姐妹,眼看着他们排不上号,住不上院,病情一天比ー天严重,你说我们心里是什么滋味?”刘晓程长叹了一声,“唉,老百姓看病真难哪。尤其咱们黑龙江,天寒地冻,心脑血管的发病率均居全国之首……” It was another sleepless night. Liu Xiaocheng had a long conversation with his wife, "Seeing people from my hometown come to Beijing, bankrupt and helpless and lacking access to medical treatment, I often feel powerless. Think about it, if those people were our parents, our brothers and sisters, seeing them unable to get medical treatment, unable to get hospitalized, and their condition worsening day by day, what would we feel?" Liu Xiaocheng let out a long sigh, “It's really difficult for ordinary people to get medical treatment. Especially in our freezing Heilongjiang province, the incidence of cardiovascular and cerebrovascular diseases ranks first in the country..." 妻子洪依舒瞪着大眼睛幽幽地望着他,许久不说话。 His wife, Hong Yishu, stared at him with big eyes and didn't say a word for a long time. 她理解晓程内心的痛苦。她经常看见他夜里辗转反侧,唉声叹气。可是,看看这个来之不易的家,想想眼前这令多少人可望而不可即的一切,她实在不忍心丢下。可她太了解晓程的个性了,只要他认准的事,哪怕是刀山火海也毫不退却。“文革”期间大串联,一群学生豪言壮语要步行去北京见毛主席,坚持到最后的只有晓程和另一名男同学,一双脚都走烂了。

She understood the pain in Xiaocheng's heart. She often saw him toss and turn at night, sighing. But looking at this hard-won home and everything that is out of reach for so many people, she couldn't bear to leave. However, she knew Xiaocheng's personality too well. Once he decided on something, he never retreated, even when facing death. During the "Cultural Revolution", a group of students made a bold statement that they would walk to Beijing to see Chairman Mao, but in the end, only Xiaocheng and another male classmate persisted until their feet were worn out.

刘晓程见妻子久不言语,就说:“我知道你为我付出得太多了。这样吧,你和孩子留在北京,我ー个人回黑龙江。” “别说了。”妻子打断了他,“从我的工作和孩子的教育考虑,我确实不想走,可我怎么能放心让你ー个人回去?我还是带着孩子跟你ー起走吧。” “……”刘晓程一时语塞,一把搂过这位行动永远胜过语言的妻子,久久地拥在怀里。 Seeing his wife silent for so long, Xiaocheng said, "I know you have sacrificed too much for me. How about you and the child stay in Beijing, and I go back to Heilongjiang alone."

"Stop ," his wife interrupted him, "I really don't want to leave when considering my work and our child's education, but how can I let you go there alone? Let me and our child go with you." "..." Liu Xiaocheng was speechless for a moment. He hugged his wife, whose actions always speak louder than words, and held her tightly for a long time. 为了慎重,刘晓程专程回佳木斯去征求父母的意见。 Being cautious, Liu Xiaocheng made a special trip back to Jiamusi to seek his parents' opinions. 父亲,他心中永远的太阳! His father was the eternal sun in his heart! 克林顿曾说:“母亲告诉我永远不要放弃,不要屈服,不要停止微笑。无论发生多么可怕的事,第二天一早起床,母亲都会微笑着站在我面前,她从不把痛苦露给别人。” Clinton once said, "My mother told me never to give up, never to surrender, and never to stop smiling. No matter how terrible things happened, my mother would wake up the next morning and stand in front of me with a smile on her face, never revealing her pain to others." 克林顿有一位伟大的母亲,刘晓程则有一位伟大的父亲。 Clinton had a great mother, and Liu Xiaocheng had a great father. 父亲刘沛是佳木斯医学院享誉四方的外科专家。他精湛的医术、高尚的医德, 不知恩泽过多少人。老人家过80大寿,佳木斯市委书记带着市委、市政府的“五大班子”去为老人祝寿。1988年,刘晓程和父亲同时享受首批国务院政府特殊津贴。 Liu Pei, Xiaocheng's father, was a renowned surgeon at Jiamusi Medical College. His superb medical skills and noble medical ethics have benefited countless people. When he turned 80, the Secretary of the CPC Jiamusi Municipal Committee led leaders from Jiamusi Party committee, Jiamusi Municipal People's Government, the Standing Committee of Jiamusi Municipal People's Congress, Chinese People's Political Consultative Conference of Jiamusi Municipal Committee, and military went to congratulate him. In 1988, Liu Xiaocheng and his father were both awarded the first batch of The special government allowance 父亲对晓程的管教很严。一次,父亲得知晓程从家里悄悄拿了两元钱买栗子吃,又对母亲说谎,第一次用皮带把晓程的屁股抽成了紫茄子。7岁的晓程却永远记住了父亲的教诲:“做人要诚实!不许说谎,说谎是万恶之源!” Liu Xiaocheng’s father was very strict with him. Once, when his father found out that he had secretly taken two yuan from home to buy chestnuts and lied to his mother, he used a belt to whip Xiaocheng's butt until it turned purple. Xiaocheng, who was only seven years old at that time, would always remember his father's teachings: "Be honest! Don't lie. Lying is the root of all evil!" 在晓程的记忆里,父亲每天早晨5点就去病房查房,父亲常常蹲在厕所里观察病人的大便,以便做出准确的诊断。晓程不记得父亲让他给吃不上饭的病人送过多少次饺子,也不记得父亲掏钱给过多少贫病交加的病人,不知父亲从家里给病人偷偷拿过多少鸡蛋,更不记得多少病人感激涕零地跪倒在父亲面前,他只记得病人看到父亲眼里所流露出的目光---那种拜见上帝般的感激与崇敬。这给他幼小心灵打上了永不磨灭的烙印。 In Xiaocheng's memory, his father would do his rounds in the hospital at 5 am every morning. His father often squatted in the toilet to observe the patients' stools in order to make an accurate diagnosis. Xiaocheng didn’t remember how many times his father asked him to deliver dumplings to patients who couldn’t afford meals, or how many poor and sick patients his father gave money to. He didn't know how many eggs his father had secretly taken from home for the patients, and he didn't remember how many patients knelt down before his father in tears of gratitude. He only remembered the look in the patients' eyes when they saw his father--a kind of gratitude and reverence as if they were meeting God. This left an indelible mark on his young heart. 多年前,一位市委书记夫人乳房上长了一个良性肿瘤,要出省治疗,让父亲刘沛出诊断。父亲却说:“用不着出省,没必要花那份钱!”一句话把市委书记夫人顶了回去。 Many years ago, the wife of a municipal party secretary developed a benign tumor on her breast and wanted to go out of the province for treatment. She asked Liu Pei, father of Liu Xiaocheng for diagnosis and he suggested that it be unnecessary to go out of the province for treatment." “文革”期间,ー个罕见的患先天性中肠旋转不全的农家孩子,被医生放弃治疗,家属被告知准备后事了。孩子父母抱着奄奄一息的孩子正悲恸欲绝,被打成 “日本特务”“反动学术权威”的父亲在清扫垃圾,急忙奔过来说:“千万不要放弃孩子,我能治!” During the Cultural Revolution, a child from a rural family suffered from a rare disease Congenital intestinal malrotation and was abandoned by doctors. The child's parents were told to prepare for the worst . As they held their dying child in their arms, Liu Xiaocheng’s father, who had been labeled a "Japanese spy" and“the reactionary (bourgeois) academic authority ”, was cleaning up garbage. He rushed over ,saying "Don't give up on the child, I can treat him!" 造反派立刻质问他:“你敢承担这孩子手术的后果吗?” 父亲说:“一切后果由我来负!” The Red Guards immediately questioned him, "Do you dare to bear the consequences of this child's surgery?" The father replied, "I will bear all the consequences!" 这时,忽然响起一阵惊天动地的口号:“打倒日本特务刘沛!打倒反动学术权威刘沛!敌人不投降我们就叫他灭亡!” Suddenly, a deafening chant rang out: "Down with Japanese spy Liu Pei! Down with reactionary academic authority Liu Pei! If the enemy doesn't surrender, we'll make them perish!" 就在一片“打倒”与“灭亡”的口号声中,身陷囹圄的父亲担着可能毁掉自己一生声誉,甚至可能因“陷害”革命群众而被判刑、被枪毙的风险,脱掉清扫服,匆匆走上了久违的手术台……孩子得救了,父亲又回到“牛棚”里继续清扫厕所。 Amidst the deafening chants of "down with" and "perish", Liu’s father, who was imprisoned, removed his cleaning clothes and quickly walked onto the long awaited surgical table, risking his lifelong reputation being destroyed and even facing the possibility of imprisonment or execution for "framing" the revolutionary masses. The child was saved, and the father returned to the "cowshed" to continue cleaning the toilets. “名誉与生命相比,毕竟是微不足道的。在毁誉与病人的生命面前,必须勇敢地选择后者,这オ是ー个好医生。”这是父亲的人生信条,也是他对儿子的训诫。 "Compared with life, honor is insignificant. Between infamy and patient's lives, one must courageously choose the latter. That's what makes a good doctor" said the father. This is also his life creed and his admonition to his son. 父亲不媚上、不卑下,博爱济贫,珍爱他人生命的做人准则,成为刘晓程一生的楷模。“文革”期间,刚学会游泳的晓程不顾淹死的危险,跳进松花江救起一名遇险的教师。当了医生以后,他更是处处以父亲为楷模,以母亲的遗训为座右铭,严格自律。母亲73岁那年,因患严重风湿病连筷子都拿不住,却颤抖着双手为儿子留下一条遗训:“医乃仁术,好自为之。”这条遗训一直挂在晓程的办公室里。 The father was neither servile nor domineering , but he is kind, loving help the poor and seeing cherishing other people's lives as his creed, setting a role model for his son Liu Xiaocheng throughout his life. During the Cultural Revolution, Xiaocheng, who had just learned to swim, risked drowning and jumped into the Songhua River to save a teacher in distress. After becoming a doctor, he strictly disciplined himself with his father as his role model and his mother's teachings as his motto: "To be a doctor is to practice benevolence" This teachings has been hanging in Xiaocheng's office. “风萧萧兮塞外寒,壮士一去兮不复还!” "The wind howls in the cold of the frontier, the valiant warrior sets out and never returns!" Hsiao-hsiao soughs the wind,oh- Cold the waters of the Yi. The knight who leaves you now, oh- You shall nevermore see. 父亲得知刘晓程决定回黑龙江创业,竟说出一番令晓程大为感动的话。 When Liu Xiaocheng decided to go back to Heilongjiang, his father said something that deeply moved him. “当初我让你出去闯荡,是为了让你多学本领;现在我像当初一样支持你回来, 你应该把学的东西为家乡父老贡献出来。” 得到父亲的支持,刘晓程回黑龙江创业的决心越发坚定了。 "At first I let you go out to make a living, in order to let you learn more skills; Now, just like before, I support you to come back, hoping that you could contribute what you’ve learned to folks back home." With his father's support, Liu Xiaocheng's determination to return to Heilongjiang to restart his career became even stronger. 此刻,中国正处在“出国热”的大潮之中,多少海外学子都挖空心思留在美国、澳大利亚等发达国家。当然,他们的选择无可厚非,人各有志,中国封闭得太久了, 耽误得也太久了,人人都有选择人生道路的权利。但是,我们不能不为刘晓程逆潮流而动,选择艰苦人生的勇气而叫好,不能不对他“先天下之忧而忧,后天下之乐而乐”、以天下为己任的境界而肃然起敬。 At this moment, China was in the midst of a "going abroad boom". Most overseas students were doing everything they could to stay in developed countries like the United States and Australia. Of course, their choices were understandable - everyone had their own aspirations and the right to choose their own path in life. And China had been too closed off for so long that it was far behind the world. However, we cannot help but admire Liu Xiaocheng's courage to swim against the tide and choose a more difficult path in life. We should also respect his willingness to " be the first to worry about the nation's woes and the last to share in its prosperity." and to take on the responsibility of making the world a better place. 1987年5月13日深夜,刘晓程来到儿子床前,抚摸着熟睡中的儿子脸蛋,轻声道:“儿子,爸爸也许对不起你。爸爸没权利剥夺你现有的条件,等你长大以后也许会埋怨爸爸,到那时爸爸再向你解释吧。” Late on the night of May 13, 1987, Liu Xiaocheng came to his son's bedside and gently touched his sleeping face. "Son, maybe I have let you down for not taking good care of you. I don't have the right to take away what you have now, and maybe you will resent me when you grow up. If that happens, I'll explain everything to you." 经过两年的痛苦挣扎,ー颗崇高的心灵终于得到了解脱。他的心境变得从未有过的旷达与坦然,就像暴风雨过后的大海,浩瀚而平静,又像鼓满风帆的航船,期待着新的远航。他开始伏案疾书,给院领导写《请调报告》 After two years of painful struggle, his noble spirit finally had been set free. His state of mind became magnanimous and serene, like the vast and calm sea after a storm, or a sailboat in full sails waiting for a new journey. He began to write a "Transfer Request Letter" to the head of the hospital. 这不是一份普通的《请调报告》,而是一次自我心灵的剖白,ー张人生价值的答卷,ー份向旧医疗体制宣战的檄文 This is not an ordinary "Transfer Request Letter", but a confession of one's heart, an answer sheet of one's life values, and a declaration of war against the old healthcare system. “20岁时,我为‘人为什么活着’这个严肃的问题而苦恼过,求索过。在那个动荡的年代,我心中的希望之光泯灭过,我也曾颓废过,消沉过。但我终于自拔了,振作了,并在坎坷的道路上奋斗了 20年。 “When I was 20 years old, I struggled and searched for the serious question of 'why do people live.' In those turbulent times, the light of hope in my heart was once extinguished, and I was disillusioned and depressed. But I finally pulled myself out, picked myself up, and struggled for 20 years on a tough road. 而今,作为一名80年代的中年知识分子, 作为一名炎黄子孙,我又为‘怎样度过余生’这个严肃的问题,而苦苦思索,认真探求。经过人生的苦、辣、酸、甜,我真正地认识到,人为了自己活着,就会永远感到空虚和不满足,而为了人民去工作和奋斗,就会感到充实。这种思索与探求,使我的心灵得到净化,使我抛弃了小我,去追求人生的真谛。 “Now, as a middle-aged intellectual of the 80s, as a Chinese , I am again earnestly thinking and exploring the question of“how to spend the rest of my life”. Having been through the ups and downs of life, I truly realized that if a person lives for themselves, they will always feel empty and unsatisfied. While if they work and strive for the people, they will feel fulfilled. This kind of thinking and exploration has purified my soul, and made me abandon my selfishness to pursue the true meaning of life. “到阜外医院8年,我由一名基层医院的普通医生,成长为一名心血管外科主治医生。回想8年来的一幕幕,我不禁心潮澎湃,思绪难平,对给予我一切的阜外医院和我的启蒙导师,心中充满了对亲生父母般的赤子之情,有着永远不能忘怀的感激与眷恋…… "During my eight years at Fuwai Hospital, I grew from an ordinary doctor to an attending in cardiovascular surgery. Looking back on the past 8 years, I can't help but feel overwhelmed with emotions and, and my heart is filled with gratitude and attachment to Fuxing Hospital and my mentor that gave me everything, like my own parents... “我国现有300多万心脏病人等待着手术,而全国每年仅能完成几千例,存在着严重的供求矛盾。心血管疾病虽然不像霍乱、天花等烈性传染病那样被视为洪水猛兽,但却毫不留情地吞噬着千万人的生命。 "There are currently more than three million heart disease patients in China waiting for surgery, but only a few thousand operations can be completed each year, thus there is a serious contradiction between supply and demand. Although cardiovascular disease is not considered as deadly as cholera, smallpox and other acute contagious diseases, it ruthlessly devours the lives of millions of people. 我由衷地赞同、支持我院当前所搞的心血管外科临床协作和建立全国培训中心,但也清楚地看到,当前这种协作方式达到真正奏效的难处……我觉得,各地方搞心血管外科唯一有效的途径是建立心血管专科医院。像阜外医院、上海胸科医院等有实カ的大医疗中心,应向全国搞协作和培训,不应像蜻蜓点水,飞走后又是ー潭死水;而应像ー架播种机,到祖国的沃土上去播种……舍出几个卒子,甚至几员大将,必将走活ー盘死棋。 “I wholeheartedly support the clinical collaboration and establishment of a national training center in cardiovascular surgery that our hospital is currently working on, but I also clearly see the difficulties in achieving real effectiveness through this collaborative approach... I think that the only effective way for local areas to develop cardiovascular surgery is to establish specialized cardiovascular hospitals. Large medical centers , such as Fuwai Hospital and Shanghai Chest Hospital, should cooperate and train medical professionals nationwide, rather than just touching the surface. They should act like a sower, sowing on the fertile land of our country... Sacrificing a few soldiers, or even a few generals, will undoubtedly lead to a successful outcome in this difficult situation." “黑龙江是我的故乡,那里因气候寒冷,经济文化落后,先后天心脏病的发病率都高于全国平均数,10万病人处在投医无路、求治无门之中。我决心抛弃北京优越的生活条件,离开培养我的阜外医院,为家乡水深火热中的父老兄弟筹建一座心血管病医院,为中国的心血管外科事业开辟一条新路。我深知,自己的精力有限, 时光有限,业务水平和行政能力也有限,也许今生今世难遂夙愿。但我情愿做铺路石,做人梯,让后人继续去开拓,去登攀。我的离去,对阜外医院的损失只是暂时的、局部的,却有可能改变家乡千万人的命运。我向领导正式提出,请把我当作第一粒种子播下去吧!” “Heilongjiang province is my hometown. Due to its cold climate and underdeveloped economy and culture, the incidence of heart disease has been higher than the national average. 100,000 patients lacked access to medical treatment. I made the decision to leave behind the comfortable living conditions of Beijing and Fuwai Hospital that trained me, to build a cardiovascular hospital for my suffering folks and to open up a new path for China's cardiovascular surgery. I know my energy, time, expertise, and administrative abilities are limited, and my wish may never come true in this lifetime. However, I am willing to be the stepping stone for future generations. My departure may cause temporary and partial loss to Fuwai Hospital, but it is likely to change the fate of millions in my hometown. I formally request that leaders take me as the first seed and plant me in my hometown!"

10页报告,一蹴而就。 A 10-page report, all in one go. 他最后写道:“心底无私天地宽。站在人生的十字路口,我的心境从未像现在这样开朗,头脑从未像现在这样清晰,决心从未像现在这样坚定。风萧萧兮塞外寒,壮士一去兮不复还!” In the end, he wrote, "With an unselfish heart, the world is vast. Standing at the crossroads of life, I have never been more open-minded, more clear-headed and more determined than I am now. The wind howls in the desolate north, and once a brave warrior departs, he never returns!" It was written with a touch of sorrow and desolation. 写得有几分悲壮,几分苍凉。 The writing has a touch of tragedy and desolation. 这份在阜外医院建院以来从未有过的《请调报告》,就像一枚炸弹,在医院里掀起一场轩然大波。人们猜测着刘晓程调离阜外的真正原因,是领导对他重视不够,还是家属安排不周?仔细ー想,阜外医院对他不错,送他出国留学;破格提拔他为四个病区的负责人;刚分给他两居室的住房;他妻子被调到邮电部医院…… This "Transfer Request Letter" that had never happened since the establishment of Fuwai Hospital was like a bomb, causing a huge wave in the hospital. People speculated about the real reason for Liu Xiaocheng's transfer away from Fuwai. Was it because the leaders hadn't valued him enough or because of the inconsiderate arrangements for his family? But in reflection, Fufang Hospital had treated him well. They sent him abroad to study, promoted him as the head of four wards, just allocated him a two-bedroom apartment, and his wife was transferred to the Postal and Telecommunications Hospital. 而且在学术上,他成功地完成了全院第一例正后壁梗后室壁瘤切除术并搭了两支桥;他使术后停跳45分钟的病人心脏复苏;他参与了国家“七五”攻关重点科研“冠心病心肌血重建方法”的研究和协调工作;他建立起液氮保存的同种生物瓣实验室,并将该瓣首次应用于临床,填补了国内空白。这ー课题获得国家自然科学基金和中国医学科学院科研基金…… Furthermore, in terms of academics, he successfully completed the first operation of resecting the posterior ventricular wall tumor and created two bypasses, revived a patient's heart that had stopped beating for 45 minutes after surgery, participated in the research and coordination of the national key scientific research project "Coronary Heart Disease Myocardial Blood Reconstruction Method," and established a laboratory for preserving homograft bioprosthetic valve in liquid nitrogen, and applied it to clinical practice for the first time, filling the gap in the domestic field. This project also got funding from The National Natural Science Foundation of China and the research fund of Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences (CAMS)...

“晓程,是工作不顺心,还是院领导考虑不周?院领导一直很器重你,希望你不要走。”院党委书记陈德林同志找刘晓程谈话。 "Xiaocheng, is it because of your work being unsatisfactory or because the hospital leaders are not considerate enough ? The leaders has always valued you, and hopes you won't leave." Chen Delin, the party secretary of the hospital, talked to Liu Xiaocheng. “告诉我,晓程,到底因为什么?”郭加强院长是刘晓程的研究生导师。刘晓程是郭院长最得意的弟子,两人私交甚好。郭院长直言不讳地问道。 "Tell me, Xiaocheng, what's the real reason?" Guo Jiaqiang, the hospital dean, is Liu Xiaocheng's mentor. Liu Xiaocheng is Guo Jiaqiang's prized pupil, and they have a good relationship with each other. Guo Jiaqiang asked straightforwardly. “导师,黑龙江是心血管病的高发区,10万心血管病人急需手术,那里更需要我。我准备在黑龙江建一座心血管病医院!” "Mentor, Heilongjiang is a high-risk area for cardiovascular diseases, and there are 100,000 cardiovascular patients in urgent need of surgery. They need me more over there. I plan to build a cardiovascular disease hospital in Heilongjiang!" “噢,原来是这样,并不是因为人际关系或者待遇问题……”郭院长的心里感到ー丝安慰,“我看你还是把关系留在阜外,先回去干一段看看再说,觉得不理想再回来嘛。” "Oh, I see. It's not because of personal relationships or treatment ." hospital director Guo Jiaqiang felt a bit relieved in his heart. "I suggest you keep the relationship at Fufang and go back to work there for a while. If you don't find it ideal, then come back." “谢谢导师,可我必须破釜沉舟,背水一战,否则会动摇我的意志” "Thank you, mentor, but I have to go all out, or else it will shake my determination." “你还是好好考虑考虑吧!” "Well, you may as well think about it carefully ." 院领导不放,刘晓程只好去找曾担任佳木斯合江地委书记、现任中组部副部长的曹志同志说情。曹志给卫生部陈敏章部长写信说:“刘晓程立志到下面去,为人民解除病痛,这种精神应给予支持。” Given that the hospital leader refused to let him go, Liu Xiaocheng had to go to Comrade Cao Zhi, who had served as the secretary of the Hejiang local party committee in Jiamusi and is now the Vice minister of the Organization Department of the Central Committee of the CPC, to intercede. Cao Zhi wrote a letter to Chen Minzhang, the Ministry of Health, saying, "Liu Xiaocheng is determined to go to the grassroots to relieve the people of their illnesses. This spirit should be supported." 看到刘晓程去意坚决,郭加强院长只好忍痛放行。 Seeing that Liu Xiaocheng was determined to leave, Director of the hospital Guo Jiaqiang had to reluctantly let him go. “既然是这样,我也就不勉强留你了。今后无论遇到什么困难尽管告诉我,导师的大门永远冲你晓程敞开着!” "Since you were determined, I won't force you to stay. Whatever difficulties you encounter in the future, just tell me. As your mentor, my door will always be open to you! My doors will always be open to you, Xiaocheng!" “谢谢导师的关怀!” "Thank you for your concern, mentor!" 临行前,一群收入微薄的护士凑钱请刘晓程到烤鸭店去吃烤鸭,约好每人送给他几句话,可到了餐桌上一句话都讲不出来,只有一片呜咽声。中层干部送别会上,一位副主任说:“晓程,你想到了我们大家想过的事,却做出了我们没有勇气做的事。” Before leaving, a group of low-paid nurses pooled their money to invite Liu Xiaocheng to a roast duck restaurant, each of them planning to say a few words to him. But when they sat down to eat, no one could say anything except for sobs. At the farewell party held for middle leaders, a deputy director said, "Xiao Cheng, you thought what we all thought, but did what we didn't have the courage to do." 后来,这位副主任果然去了海南。一群研究生把刘晓程拉进宿舍,几杯薄酒为他饯行:“晓程你先走,我们为你壮行。这条路走对了,我们毕业后也回家乡!” Later, the deputy director did go to Hainan. A group of graduate students dragged Liu Xiaocheng into their dormitory and gave him a little farewell party with wine. "You go first, Xiaocheng. We'll cheer for you. You chose the right path, we'll come back to our hometown after graduation too! 院器械处给刘晓程送来大量的器械,并把空压机换了马达,怕他用坏了没处修;麻醉科主任给他送来一大袋麻醉用品;历来有“把家虎”之称的监护室护士长, 破天荒地送给他ー堆难买的小器械;药剂科的丁飞主任眼含热泪叮嘱他:“今后不管什么紧缺药,只要阜外有的就有你晓程的！”病房的病人听说他要走,纷纷爬起来为他送别。 The medical equipment department of the hospital sent a large number of medical devices to Liu Xiaocheng, and even replaced the motor of the air compressor for fear that he would break it and have nowhere to repair it. A Head of Anesthesiology sent him a big bag of anesthetic supplies. The head nurse of the Intensive Care Unit, who has always been known as "the guardian of the hospital," sent him a pile of hard-to-buy small equipment unexpectedly. The Director of Pharmacy, Ding Fei, with tears in his eyes, urged him, "No matter what scarce medicine is needed in the future, as long as Fuwai has it, you can also have it, Xiaocheng!" When the patients in the ward heard that he was leaving, they all got up to bid him farewell. 人们赞扬刘晓程的妻子洪依舒很伟大,竟然舍弃北京优越的环境,跟丈夫回黑龙江去受苦,这在一般女人是做不到的。刘晓程也觉得妻子很了不起,但在临行前一天晚间,洪依舒看到昨天还温馨流溢的家,忽然变得冷冷清清一无所有了,她哭了。他拥着她在空空荡荡的屋里站了很久。他知道,这个家再也不属于他们了。 People praise Liu Xiaocheng's wife Hong Yishu for her greatness, because she gave up the privileged environment of Beijing and went back to Heilongjiang with her husband to suffer, which was something that most women cannot do. Liu Xiaocheng also thought that his wife is amazing, but on the evening before they left, Hong Yishu saw the home that was warm and affectionate yesterday suddenly became deserted and empty and cried. He held her in the empty house for a long time. He knew that this home no longer belonged to them. 世界因为他而改变The world changed because of him. 凤凰卫视资讯台总编阮次山先生说:“如果一个人年过30,你胸中的理想依然存在,你必然会有前途。就是做ー个升斗小民,也可以选择做ー个什么样的升斗小民。” Mr. Ruan Cishan, the chief editor of Phoenix TV News, said, "If a person is over 30 years old and still holds onto their ideals, they are bound to have a bright future. Even if they are just an ordinary person, they can still choose to be an extraordinary one." 1987年6月14日,刘晓程起程回黑龙江。 On 14 June 1987, Liu Xiaocheng sets off for Heilongjiang. 决心回黑龙江之后,他的首选地是故乡佳木斯。春节放假期间,他曾找到市政府领导谈,说他要回佳木斯建一所心血管病医院,为家乡父老做点贡献。这位领导却以资金紧张为由回绝了他。之后,他来到距离佳木斯很近的牡丹江市。牡丹江的东安医院曾派医生到阜外医院学习过心脏手术,他曾带过他们的进修生。 After making the decision to return to Heilongjiang, his first stop was his hometown of Jiamusi. During the Chinese New Year holiday, he approached the Municipal government leaders to discuss about building a cardiovascular hospital in Jiamusi so as to contribute to his folks. However, the leader rejected with the excuse that money was tight. Liu then went to Mudanjiang city, which is close to Jiamusi. Dong'an Hospital in Mudanjiang had previously sent doctors to learn how to do heart surgery at Fuwai Hospital, and Liu had trained some of them. 1987 年春节期间,他带着巡回医疗队就在东安医院做过8台心脏手术。这次,他向牡丹江市政府领导说明了来意,立刻受到市政府领导的欢迎,并任命他为东安医院的党支部书记兼院长。就这样,以美丽的镜泊湖著称的牡丹江市,张开双臂热烈欢迎这位赤子的到来。 During the 1987 Chinese New Year holiday, he performed eight heart surgeries with a mobile medical team at Dong'an Hospital. This time, he explained his intentions to the Mudanjiang Municipal People’s Government and was warmly welcomed and appointed as the secretary of the hospital's Party branch and the hospital director. Thus, the beautiful city of Mudanjiang, famous for its Jingpo Lake, warmly welcomed this passionate man. 然而,随着他们一家三口的到来,一些流言蜚语却像空气ー样悄悄地弥漫开来。 “他肯定是在北京干不下去了,要不从国家大医院跑到这大集体医院来干啥?”“听说在镜泊湖给他盖了一幢别墅呢。要不,他从北京跑这穷地方来图啥呀?” However, with their arrival, some rumors quietly went viral. "He must have been unable to carry on his work in Beijing, why else would he left a national hospital to this collective hospital?" "I heard that a villa was built for him at Jingbo Lake. Why would he come to this poor place from Beijing?" 东安医院是一所区级大集体医院,小日本侵略中国时盖的,半个多世纪的风剥雨蚀,早已经老掉牙了。墙壁ー碰就掉白灰,地板使劲ー踩就会陷下去。全院仅有 2000平方米房舍、70张床位,却有200多名职エ。医院穷得叮当响,背负几十万元的外债,没有像样的麻醉师,没有得力的助手,没有像样的器械…… Dong'an Hospital is a district-level collective hospital built during the War of Resistance Against Japan. With a history of more than half a century, it has already become old and weathered. The walls peeled off at the touch, and the floor sank underfoot. The entire hospital had only 2000 square meters of housing and 70 beds, but there were more than 200 staff members. The hospital was so poor that it had external debt of tens of thousands of yuan and had no competent anesthesiologists, no capable assistants, and no decent medical equipment... 刘晓程一家三口挤在ー间狭小的办公室里。难怪老百姓要问:刘晓程来牡丹江到底图啥? Liu Xiaocheng and his family crowded together in a small office. No wonder the people asked: Why did Liu Xiaocheng up come to Mudanjiang? 可是,刘晓程却感到ー种从未有过的畅快,终于扔掉一切束缚,可以甩开膀子干了。第二天他就走上了手术台。就在这所简陋得令人难以置信的医院里,就在这间用竹竿支起塑料布、用来接住屋顶剥落的白灰及缓霜滴水的手术室里,靠几位仅受过初级训练的医护人员协助,他ー台接一台做起了世界最先进的心脏手术,一周就完成了十几例。 However, Liu Xiaocheng felt an unprecedented sense of liberation. He could finally lay himself out. The next day, he began performing surgery. In this shabby hospital, in this operating room set up with bamboo poles and plastic sheets used to catch the falling white powder and melting frost water from the roof, and with only a few medical personnel with basic training assisting him, he performed the most advanced heart surgeries in the world one after another, completing more than a dozen in a week. 这里还经常停电,ー停电体外循环机就停了,只能用手摇泵继续手术。一次, 《健康报》的两名记者来采访又遇到停电,从未见过心脏手术的记者用颤抖的手擎着手电,为刘晓程继续手术照明。过后,两名记者带着一群患者家属去找市长“请愿”,市长特批为东安医院增加了双路电,这オ解决了停电问题。 Power outages often occurred here, and when the power went out, the cardiopulmonary bypass unit stopped working, and they had to continue the operation by using a hand pump. Once when two journalists from Health News came to interview, the power went out again. The journalists ,who had never seen heart surgery before, held a torch with their trembling hands to illuminate the surgery for Liu Xiaocheng. Afterwards, the two journalists took a group of patients' families to petition the mayor and the mayor approved an increase in the electricity supply to Dongan Hospital, which eventually solved the power outage problem. 牡丹江能做心脏手术的消息不胫而走,各地的心脏病患者纷至沓来。小小东安医院原来门可罗雀,现在却一下子火爆起来。但刘晓程深知,即使他长出三头六臂日夜不停地手术,也远不能解决医患之间严重的供需矛盾,必须尽快培训出ー批能独当一面的心外科医生。可是,医院要钱没钱,要人オ没人才,要培养出ー批心外科医生,谈何容易? The news that heart surgeries could be performed in Mudanjiang spread quickly. Heart disease patients all came in from all over the place. The once deserted Dongan Hospital suddenly became popular. However, Liu Xiaocheng knew that even if he had three heads and six arms and performed surgeries day and night, it would not solve the serious supply and demand imbalance between doctors and patients. They must train a group of independent and competent cardiac surgeons as soon as possible. However, the hospital had no money, no talent, and it was not easy to train such a group of cardiac surgeons. 但是,在刘晓程眼里,一切困难都不过是脚下的沙砾,人生的道路就是由诸多沙砾组成的。他ー边手把手地教年轻医生手术,ー边四处抽调人才,ー边游说各级领导筹建心血管病医院。他教诲年轻人:“你们这些人要以天下为己任,要让自己尽快成熟起来!拿破仑说,不想当元帅的士兵不是好士兵。我要告诉你们,不想超过师傅的徒弟就不是好徒弟!” But in Liu Xiaocheng's eyes, life was bound to be full of difficulties. He taught young doctors how to perform surgery step by step, while recruiting talents and persuading leaders at all levels to build a cardiovascular hospital. He taught young people, "You must take the world as your own responsibility and grow mature as soon as possible! Napoleon once said, "A soldier who does not want to be a marshal is not a good soldier." And I want to tell you that a student who does not want to surpass his teacher is not a good disciple!"

在刘晓程看来,每个人心灵深处都隐藏着ー种激情,只要你把他们心中的激情点燃,人人都会焕发出ー种不可估量的能量,只有周围的人都能充满激情地对待エ作,对待生活,才能形成一股强大的核心力,才能干出一番事业。 In Liu Xiaocheng's view, there is a passion hidden deep in everyone's heart. As long as you ignite it , he will radiate an immeasurable amount of energy. Only when those around you treat their work and life with passion can a strong core force be formed, and a great career can be achieved. 刘晓程的到来就像ー团火,点燃了死气沉沉几十年的医院,也点燃了一颗颗沉闷多年的心。大家纷纷被激励出从未有过的生机与活力。 Liu Xiaocheng's arrival was like a bonfire, igniting the hospital that had been depressing for decades, and igniting the hearts that had been depressed for years. Everyone was inspired with vitality and vigor that has never been seen before. 这里的医生从未见过心脏四联症根治术,不懂心脏换瓣,更没有见过国内只有少数医生能做的冠状动脉搭桥术。刘晓程就带领大家去电影院,趁人家放电影空隙,借用电影放映机来观看病人带来的心脏造影片子。可是,刚ー开机片子就忽然起火了,吓得放映员急忙关掉了机器。 The doctors here had never seen a complete repair for Tetralogy of Fallot, did not understand heart valve replacement, and had never seen a Coronary artery bypass grafting (CABG) that only a few doctors in China could perform. Liu Xiaocheng led everyone to the cinema and used the movie projector to watch the heart imaging films brought by the patients during breaks in the screenings.However, as soon as the machine was turned on, the film caught fire and the projectionist quickly turned off the machine. 原来国产造影片子放映机拉不动,ー拉就烧。他只好带着大家在观片灯下一片一片用放大镜看,边看边给大家讲解各种心脏手术,看完一个造影片子要花六七个小时。 It turned out that the domestic imaging film cannot be watched with projector which could not be pulled, and if it was pulled, the film would burn itself. He had no choice but to bring everyone to watch the films one by one under the observation lamp with a magnifying glass, explaining various heart surgeries while watching. It took six or seven hours to watch one imaging film. 为了强化医护人员的英语,在资金十分紧张的情况下,他为大家订购大量的外文书籍和期刊,请来全市最好的英语教师教大家口语。他要求医护人员平时尽量用英语对话。而且,在导师奥布来恩博士的帮助下,这所小小的大集体医院竟然派出30多名医护人员到查理王子医院留学。 To strengthen the English skills of medical staff, even in a very tight financial situation, he ordered a large number of foreign books and journals for everyone and invited the best English teachers in the city to teach everyone to speak English. He required medical staff to speak English as much as possible in their daily conversations. In addition, with the help of his mentor, Dr. Mark F. O'Brien, this small collective hospital actually sent more than 30 medical staff members to study at The Prince Charles Hospital. 刘晓程不仅重视医术,更重视全院医护人员的医德。 Liu Xiaocheng not only valued medical skills, but also valued the medical ethics of all hospital staff. 他向全院职エ提出:“假如病人是你的父母、兄弟、姐妹和孩子,你该怎样对待?”他第一次打出了“患者就是上帝”的口号。手术失败了,他和大家一起寝食无味;手术成功了,他和大家一起欢呼雀跃。为了抢救亟待输血的病人,他毫不犹豫地伸出自己的胳膊;为了一个复杂手术,他16个小时没下手术台;为了救活ー个病人,他三天三夜未合眼,晕倒在手术台上…… He proposed to the entire hospital staff: "If the patient was your parent, brother, sister, or child, how would you treat them?" He was the first to put forward the slogan "Patients were Gods". If the surgery failed, he and everyone else would lose his appetite; if the surgery succeeded, he would cheered with others. In order to save a patient who urgently needed a blood transfusion, he unhesitatingly extended his own arm; for a complex surgery, he did not leave the operating table for 16 hours; to save a patient's life, he did not sleep for three days and three nights, and even passed out by the operating table... 每当手术结束,当刘晓程向病人家属出示从他们亲人心脏上取下的病理标本, 从病人家属颤抖的双手上,从他们感激涕零的目光中,医护人员似乎读懂了人生的真谛一“人为什么活着”这个简单而复杂的命题。试想,还有什么比拯救他人的生命而使自己活得更崇高、更充实、更有价值呢? Every time when the surgery ended and Liu Xiaocheng showed the pathological specimen taken from the patient's heart to the patient's family, the medical staff seemed to understand, from their trembling hands and grateful eyes, the truth of life ----the simple yet complex proposition of "why do we live?"

What could be more noble, fulfilling, and valuable than saving the lives of others?

刘晓程说:“有人曾说,世界上三种人是最幸福的,ー种是母亲看孩子洗澡;另ー种是大人看小孩玩沙子;最后ー种就是我们医生治好了病人。” Liu Xiaocheng said, " Someone once said that there are three kinds of people in the world who are the happiest: mothers who watch their children take a bath; adults who watch children play in the sand; and finally, doctors who healed the sick." 一天,一位55岁的农民苦苦地哀求刘晓程救救他,说他不想死,家里上有老下有小,一大家子人都等着他呢。刘晓程却发现这位农民的心脏像篮球似的,任何搭桥术对他极度衰竭的心脏来说都无济于事了,要想拯救他的生命,只能做心脏移植。但就现状,到哪儿能弄到ー颗鲜活的心脏给ー个农民换上? One day, a 55-year-old farmer begged Liu Xiaocheng to save him. He said he didn't want to die, and that he had a large family to support. However, Liu Xiaocheng found that the farmer's heart was like a basketball, and no coronary artery bypass grafting would work for his severely weakened heart. The only way to save his life was heart transplant. But given the current situation, where could they get a fresh heart to replace the farmer's? 也许,这位农民前世修来ー份天缘,就在这时传来ー个消息,说一名被判处死刑的杀人犯临死前良心发现,要求死后把自己的器官捐给社会。听到这个不知真假的消息,刘晓程急忙跑到看守所,费尽口舌见到了罪犯。 Perhaps the God repay this farmer for his good deeds in his past life. At that critical moment, news came that a prisoner on death row had a change of heart before his execution and wanted to donate his organs to society. Upon hearing this possibly true news, Liu Xiaocheng rushed to the prison and went to great lengths to meet the criminal. 罪犯20多岁,男性,一副心如死灰的表情。The criminal was a young man in his twenties, with a dead expression on his face. 刘晓程问他:“你真决定要把自己的器官捐给社会吗?” Liu Xiaocheng asked him, "Are you really determined to donate your organs to society?" 青年毫无表情地点点头。

The young man nodded expressionlessly.

“你为什么要捐献自己的器官呢?” "Why do you want to donate your organs?" “为了赎罪……”

 "To atone..."

“你不为你的决定后悔吗?” "Don't you regret your decision?" “有啥可后悔的,人都死了留着它有啥用!”

 "What's there to regret? "I'm dying, What's the point of keeping my organs?"

刘晓程向青年伸出ー只手来,青年却迟疑着:“我手上沾满了鲜血” Liu Xiaocheng reached out his hand to the young man, but the young man hesitated,saying "I had blood on my hands." “我是医生,我手上也沾满了血。” "I'm a doctor, I had blood on my hands, too." “可你是为了救人……”

"But you're saving lives..."

“我为你感到遗憾,因为你是法盲。可我很敬佩你做出这样的决定,我要谢谢你。” "I feel sorry for you because you are ignorant of the law. But I admire your decision, and I want to thank you." 青年疑惑地盯着刘晓程,迟疑地伸出手来握住他的手:“你……为什么要谢我?” The young man stared at Liu Xiaocheng, looking puzzled and surprised. After a long while, he extended his hand and shook Liu Xiaocheng's hand. "Why are you thanking me?" “因为你将拯救另外一个人的生命。” "Because you will save another person's life." 青年用那呆滞的、走到人生尽头的目光,茫然而惊讶地望着刘晓程,久久不动。 The young man looked at Liu Xiaocheng with a dull, life-ending gaze, bewildered and surprised, and did not move for a long time. 刘晓程跟这个即将告别人世的青年成了朋友,ー连几次来探望他。临刑前ー天晚上,他还为青年设了一顿便宴。 Liu Xiaocheng became friends with this young man who was about to bid farewell to the world, and visited him several times. The night before his execution, Liu Xiaocheng held a small party for the young man. “刘大夫,你这么把我当人,我死了也知足了。”青年满眼泪水,将杯中酒ー饮而尽。

"Dr. Liu, you treat me like a human being. Even if I die, I will die satisfied." The young man said with tears in his eyes and drained his glass of wine.

在ー个烟雨蒙蒙的清晨,刘晓程目送着青年一步ー步向刑场走去,青年留下的最后一句话是:“如果我能早点遇到你,也许不会走到今天。”刘晓程感到遗憾,他拯救过千万人的生命,唯独拯救不了这个年轻人。令他聊以自慰的是,他帮助青年实现了最后的夙愿。就在这一天,那位55岁的农民获得了第二次生命。手术做得相当成功,时间是1992年7月5日。 On a misty morning, Liu Xiaocheng watched as the young man walked step by step towards the execution ground. The last words the young man left behind were, "If I had met you earlier, maybe I wouldn't have ended up like this." Liu Xiaocheng felt regretful, as he had saved millions of lives but was unable to save this young man. But to his relief, he had helped the young man fulfill his final wish. On the same day, the 55-year-old farmer received a second chance to live through a successful surgery. The operation was done on July 5, 1992. 紧接着,刘晓程又为一名38岁的农民成功地完成了心脏移植。医护人员给两名移植心脏的病人起名叫大宝和二宝。痊愈之后,大宝和二宝戴着红袖标,为医院担任起警卫和导诊员。 Following that, Liu Xiaocheng successfully performed a heart transplant for a 38-year-old farmer. The medical staff named the two transplant recipients "Big Treasure" and "Little Treasure". After they recovered, Big Treasure and Little Treasure wore red armbands and served as security guards and guides for the hospital. 在完成心脏移植的基础上,刘晓程又完成了我国首例心、肺联合移植术,使小小牡丹江医院成为全世界能开展此项手术的五十家医院之一,使我国跻身于世界心血管外科的先进行列。国际心肺移植协会邀请牡丹江医院加入了世界心肺移植协会。 On the basis of completing a heart transplant, Liu Xiaocheng has completed China's first Heart-lung transplantation (HLTx), making the small Mudanjiang Hospital one of the fifty hospitals in the world that could perform such a operation and enabling China to advance to the forefront of the world's cardiovascular surgery. The International Society for Heart and Lung Transplantation (ISHLT) invited Mudanjiang Hospital to join it. 当年,“八女投江”的故事曾为牡丹江塑造了血染的风采。而今,刘晓程又使牡丹江名声大噪。他的事迹震撼了国内外专家、学者。卫生部部长陈敏章写信表示祝贺。国外一些专家、学者纷纷向他伸出援助之手。 Years ago, the story of the "Eight Women Die a Martyr" had given Mudanjiang much reputation for patriotism. Now, Liu Xiaocheng has brought fame to Mudanjiang once again. His deeds have deeply impressed domestic and foreign experts and scholars. Chen Minzhang, Minister of the Ministry of Health of the People's Republic of China, sent a letter of congratulations. Some foreign experts and scholars have extended their helping hands to him. 联邦德国某厂家赠给牡丹江医院200根体外循环插管;加拿大朋友说服了加拿大政府,为牡丹江医院提供了价值240万元人民币的设备;美国10位朋友在1989年9月,顶着美国政府的压力,带着20万美元的捐赠设备专程来到牡丹江。美国慈善机构总裁麦根先生问刘晓程:“你为什么在国内国外都要牺牲自己?” A German manufacturer donated 200 extracorporeal circulation catheters to Mudanjiang Hospital. Friends from Canada convinced the Canadian government to provide equipment worth 2.4 million yuan to Mudanjiang Hospital. In September 1989, under pressure from the US government, 10 American friends brought a donation of equipment worth $200,000 to Mudanjiang. Mr. McGin, the president of An American charity organization, asked Liu Xiaocheng: "Why do you contributing yourself both at home and abroad?" 刘晓程回答:“为了千千万万贫困的病人。” Liu Xiaocheng replied, "For the millions of poor patients." 麦根总裁大为感动:“我来中国27次了,中国要求援助的单位很多,但我决定将你的名字放在我们名单的第一位。你缺什么尽管告诉我,我会全力支持你!” Mr. McGin was greatly moved and said, "I have been to China 27 times, and there are many units in China that request aid, but I decided to put your name at the top of our list. Tell me what you need, and I will do my best to support you!" 5年之内,麦根总裁4次援助刘晓程价值十几万美元的药品及器材。麦根不仅亲自带器材来中国,还派儿子从美国专程飞到中国给刘晓程送器材及药品。 Within five years, Mr. McGin assisted Liu Xiaocheng four times with drugs and equipment worth tens of thousands of dollars. Mr. McGin not only brought the equipment to China himself, but also sent his son from the United States to China to deliver the equipment and drugs to Liu Xiaocheng. 澳大利亚的朋友利用假期纷纷自费飞到牡丹江,来举办讲座,与刘晓程在简陋的手术室里同台手术。临行前夜,导师和澳大利亚的朋友一定要去看看刘晓程的妻子和儿子。当看到著名心血管医生一家三口住在简陋的办公室里,他们的眼睛湿润了,紧紧地拥抱着刘晓程说:“我们还会来的!”等他们再来时,给刘晓程带来ー个惊人的好消息:经澳大利亚朋友的努力,澳大利亚国际发展援助署决定,为牡丹江医院培养专科技术人才。 Liu's friends from Australia all used their holidays to come to Mudanjiang at their own expense to give lectures and perform operations in the simple operating room with Liu Xiaocheng. On the eve of their departure, Liu’s mentors and his Australian friends insisted on visiting Liu Xiaocheng's wife and son. When they saw the old office where a famous doctor like Liu xiaocheng and his family lived, their eyes were moist, and they hugged Liu Xiaocheng tightly, saying, "We will come back!" And when they arrived in China again, they brought Liu Xiaocheng astonishing news: with the efforts of Liu's Australian friends, the Australian International Development Assistance Bureau (AIDAB) decided to train specialized technical personnel for Mudanjiang Hospital. 江泽民说:“晓程啊晓程,你是晓得事业能够成功啊!” 1989年10月6日,对于几百万心脏病人来说,是ー个非同寻常的日子。 Jiang Zemin, 5th President of the People's Republic of China, said, "Xiaocheng, you know how to make the cause successful!" October 6th, 1989 was an extraordinary day for millions of heart disease patients. 下午3点,应国家人事部之邀,31名海外归来的天之骄子,英姿勃发地走进了中南海小会议厅,与江泽民总书记座谈。刘晓程也在其中。 At 3:00 pm, 31 outstanding overseas returnees, invited by the Ministry of Personnel of the People's Republic of China, walked into the small conference hall of Zhongnanhai with great spirit to have a discussion with Jiang Zemin, 5th President of the People's Republic of China. Liu Xiaocheng was among them. 到牡丹江以后,刘晓程一直在为筹建心血管专科医院的巨额资金而四处奔波。尽管黑龙江省、牡丹江市领导对他大力支持,在财政十分紧张的情况下,为筹建新医院投资1000万元,但距离创建一所现代化心血管医院还相距甚远。 After arriving in Mudanjiang, Liu Xiaocheng had been working tirelessly to raise the huge funds needed to build a specialized cardiovascular hospital. The leaders of Heilongjiang Province and Mudanjiang City gave him great support and invested 10 million yuan in the preparation of the new hospital despite financial constraints, but it was still a long way from creating a modern cardiovascular hospital. 他正在为资金问题发愁,忽然接到国家人事部的邀请,请他赴京参加江总书记与留学生代表的座谈。聪明过人的他立刻意识到机会来了。所以,当江泽民总书记面带微笑地坐下来,30名留学生还沉浸在兴奋与拘谨之中,坐在前排的刘晓程却第一个发言了。 As Liu was worrying about the funding issue, he suddenly received an invitation from the Ministry of Personnel of the People's Republic of China to attend a symposium between Mr.Jiang Zemin and representatives of overseas students in Beijing. Smart as he was, he immediately realized that this was an opportunity. Therefore, when Mr.Jiang Zemin sat down with a smile, and when the 30 overseas students were still immersed in excitement and restraint, Liu Xiaocheng, sitting in the front row, was the first to speak. “我是从澳大利亚留学归来的刘晓程,我在牡丹江东安医院工作。当年,我的导师让我留在澳大利亚,我说:中国有句老话,叫作 “儿不嫌母丑,狗不嫌家贫”。澳大利亚虽然条件优越,但并不需要我;我的国家虽然很穷,却很需要我。为了报效国家,我从澳大利亚回到祖国。为了拯救更多的心脏病人,我又从阜外医院回到了黑龙江。 "I am Liu Xiaocheng, who returned from studying abroad in Australia, and I work for Dong'an Hospital in Mudanjiang now. When I was studying abroad, my mentor once wanted me to stay in Australia, but I said there is an old saying in China that goes "A child will not dislike their mother for being ugly, and a dog will not dislike their home for being poor." Although Australia has privileged environment, they don't need me. My country, though poor, needs me. So I returned to my homeland from Australia to serve my country. And now, in order to save more heart disease patients, I returned to Heilongjiang from Fuwai Hospital. 目前,我国有三四百万心脏病人需要手术,可我们每年仅能手做1%的手术,存在着严重的供需矛盾。许多病人都在苦苦地等待着手术,可绝大部分病人一直等到死都排不上号。所以,我们计划在牡丹江创建一所心血管病专科医院。 Currently, there are three to four million heart disease patients in China who need surgeries, but we can only perform 1% of the surgeries needed each year, resulting in a serious supply-demand contradiction. Many patients are waiting desperately for surgery, but most of them cannot get an operation in time and die waiting. Therefore, we plan to establish a specialized cardiovascular disease hospital in Mudanjiang. 今天,我请江总书记支持我,请在座的各位领导支持我,帮助我们解决资金问题! 这不是支持我个人,而是支持广大留学生报效祖国的事业,支持我们解决老百姓的疾苦!” Today, I ask Mr. Jiang and all the leaders here to support me and help us solve the funding issue. This is not just about supporting me personally, but about supporting the undertakings of overseas students serving our country and about solving the sufferings of the people!" “好!晓程同志讲得太好了’江泽民同志立刻赞扬道,“我就喜欢晓程说的那句话,儿不嫌母丑,狗不嫌家贫。如果中国人都像晓程同志这样,以天下为己任,那我们中国的发展就快了嘛！晓程同志,请你放心,我一定全力支持你！在座的各位也一定全力支持你!” "Good! What Comrade Xiaocheng just said is extremely correct." Mr.Jiang Zemin immediately praised "I really like the words Xiaocheng used, 'A child will not dislike their mother for being ugly, and a dog will not dislike their home for being poor.' If all Chinese people were like Comrade Xiaocheng, taking the world as their own responsibility, then our country's development would be faster! Comrade Xiaocheng, please rest assured that you have my full support! All the leaders present will also fully support you!" “那我代表家乡的父老乡亲谢谢您,谢谢江总书记的支持!”刘晓程急忙说道。 "Then, on behalf of the people in my hometown, I want to thank you, Mr.Jiang, for your support!" Liu Xiaocheng hurriedly replied. 会议原定两个小时,却开了 3个多小时。末了,江泽民同志握着刘晓程的手, 笑道:“晓程啊晓程,你是晓得事业能够成功啊!” The originally scheduled two-hour meeting lasted for over three hours. In the end, Jiang Zemin shook hands with Liu Xiaocheng and said with a smile, "Xiaocheng, you know how to make the cause succeed!" 座谈会不久,国务院开会并形成会议纪要:“支持刘晓程同志创建心血管病医院,此事由李铁映和宋健同志负责。” Not long after the symposium, the State Council held a meeting and formed minutes: "Support Comrade Liu Xiaocheng in establishing a cardiovascular hospital, and this matter is entrusted to Comrades Li Tieying and Song Jian." 第二天,《人民日报》发出消息:澳大利亚归来的留学生刘晓程,为了解决百姓疾苦,向江泽民总书记提出创建心血管医院的建议,得到江总书记的大力支持。之后,江泽民同志在会上多次表扬刘晓程,胡锦涛同志也接见了刘晓程。 On the second day, the People's Daily reported that Liu Xiaocheng, a student returning from Australia, proposed to create a cardiovascular hospital to address the suffering of the people, and received strong support from General Secretary Jiang Zemin. Later, Comrade Jiang Zemin praised Liu Xiaocheng several times during meetings , and Comrade Hu Jintao also met with him. 得知国务院形成会议纪要的当天,刘晓程和副院长王铁林连夜起草报告,两人带着省、市各级政府的批文火速赶到北京,找宋健、李铁映同志批示,说服国家计委、科委、财政部、卫生部、物资部等各级部门的领导…… On the day that Liu Xiaocheng learned that the State Council had formed a meeting minute, he and Vice President Wang Tielin drafted a report overnight, and with the approval documents of governments at the provincial and municipal levels, they rushed to Beijing to seek approval from Comrades Song Jian and Li Tieying, and to persuade leaders of various departments such as the State Planning Commission (China), the Central Science and Technology Commission , the Ministry of Finance of the People's Republic of China, the Ministry of Health, and the Ministry of Materials... “李科长,我是黑龙江牡丹江东安医院的刘晓程。这是我们申请创建心血管医院的报告。为了解决众多被病痛折磨得走投无路、处在水深火热之中的心脏病人, 我们要在牡丹江创建一所心血管病专科医院,得到了江总书记的支持,请您也给予大力支持!您不是在支持我个人,而是在支持千千万万排不上号、住不上院的心脏病人,支持我们的兄弟姐妹,支持我们的医疗事业……” "Director Li, I am Liu Xiaocheng from Dong'an Hospital in Mudanjiang, Heilongjiang. This is our report on the proposal to establish a cardiovascular hospital. In order to solve the problems faced by numerous heart disease patients who are tormented by diseases but have no access to medical treatment, we want to establish a specialized cardiovascular hospital in Mudanjiang. We have received the support of General Secretary Jiang and hope that we can also your full support. You are not supporting me personally, but supporting countless heart disease patients who are unable to get treatment, supporting our brothers and sisters, and supporting our country’s medical cause..." 游说完科长游说处长,游说完处长再游说局长,ー个接ー个地游说,说得口干舌燥,脚上磨出了血泡,ー连几天连饭都顾不上吃。 Liu Xiaocheng lobbied the section chief, and then the department head, the bureau chief , one by one, tirelessly until he got thirsty, had blisters on his feet, and even forgetting to eat for several days. 人们常说,精诚所至,金石为开。 People often say that faith will move mountains. 他们一心为百姓解决疾苦的真诚,深深感动了所有有社会良知的人。财政部李明安司长说:“财政,财政,理财参政。这钱给谁与不给谁,就是最大的政治!你们ー心为百姓办事,我们虽然财力有限,但一定要支持你们!” Their sincerity in solving the sufferings of the people deeply moved all those with social conscience. Li Ming'an, Minister of the Ministry of Finance, said, "Finance, namely participating in politics with financial management. The decision of whom to give money to and whom not to give money to is the biggest political issue. You have been serving the people wholeheartedly, and although our financial resources are limited, we must support you!" 中央各部委相继为牡丹江新医院筹集了 2000万资金及中央外汇。刘晓程为其换过心脏瓣膜的北京建筑设计院高级设计师潘志英同志提出:“即使不给钱也要帮刘晓程设计医院大楼。”牡丹江的群众得知新医院开办经费不足,纷纷送去钱、布匹、冰箱、彩电 Central ministries successively raised 20 million yuan in funds and foreign exchange for the new Mudanjiang Hospital. Pan Zhiying, Senior designer at the Beijing Institute of Architectural Design who had undergone heart valve replacement surgery performed by Liu Xiaocheng, suggested , "We must help Liu Xiaocheng design the hospital building even not being paid." When the people of Mudanjiang learned that the funding for the new hospital was insufficient, they sent money, cloth, refrigerators, and color TVs there immediately. 1991年7月31日,中国第二所心血管病专科医院在牡丹江市隆重开业。已经成为全国人大秘书长的曹志同志、各部委领导及黑龙江省委书记、省长都来参加典礼。当时,洪水冲垮了铁路,却没有阻挡住中外朋友前来参加开业庆典。 On July 31, 1991, the second specialized cardiovascular hospital in China was grandly opened in Mudanjiang City. Cao Zhidong, Secretary-General of the National People's Congress, leaders of various ministries, the Secretary of the CPC Heilongjiang Provincial Committee and the Governor of the Heilongjiang Province.all attended the opening ceremony. At that time, the flood had washed away the railway, but it did not stop Chinese and foreign friends from attending the opening ceremony. 奥布来恩博士和查理王子医院院长斯太堡先生,带着刻有中澳两国地图、用红线连接两座城市以表示姊妹医院的牌匾（另ー块相同的牌匾挂在查理王子医院）及15箱医疗器材,专程来参加新医院的开业典礼。说来奇怪,数天阴雨绵绵,这天9点钟剪彩时却忽然云开雾散,艳阳高照。人们说,老天都为之感动了。 Carrying a plaque with maps of China and Australia on which a red line connects the two cities to indicate sister hospitals (another identical plaque was hung at The Prince Charles Hospital and 15 boxes of medical equipment, Dr. Mark F. O'Brien and Mr. Staub, the director of Prince Charles Hospital, came specifically to attend the opening ceremony of the new hospital. Strangely, after days of continuous rain, the clouds suddenly cleared and the sun shone brightly at 9 o'clock when the ribbon was cut. People said that even the God was moved. 刘晓程来牡丹江7年,为来自全国23个省的3000多名患者做了心脏手术,病人成活率高达98.6%;他6天内完成了 2例心脏移植,完成了中国首例心、肺移植; 他创建了中国第二所现代化心血管医院;他培养出ー批能独立操作的心外科医生; 为黑龙江省医院、哈尔滨儿童医院、哈尔滨242医院及印度尼西亚万隆医院等多家医院,培养了大批全套心血管技术专业人才。 Liu Xiaocheng has been in Mudanjiang for 7 years and has performed heart surgeries for over 3,000 patients from 23 provinces across China and the survival rate of his patients is as high as 98.6%. He completed 2 heart transplants within 6 days, including the first heart and lung transplant in China. He established the second modern cardiovascular hospital in China and trained a group of independent cardiac surgeons. He has also trained numerous cardiovascular professionals for many hospitals including the Heilongjiang Provincial Hospital, Harbin Children's Hospital, Harbin 242 Hospital, and the Bandung Hospital in Indonesia. 短短7年,千千万万个生命因他而改变了命运,因他而提高了生存质量。但是,没人知道刘晓程家庭的故事,无论是对过世的还是活着的,他都欠下ー笔永远无法弥补的人情债。 In just seven years, the fate of countless lives has changed, and their quality of life has been improved because of him. However, no one knows the story of Liu Xiaocheng's family. Liu owes a debt of gratitude that can never be repaid, to both those who passed away and those who are still alive. 1991年12月10日,处于弥留之际的母亲,用她游丝般的声音艰难地呼唤着儿子:“晓程,晓程……”老人想在离开人世前再见儿子一面。可是,此刻的晓程却东渡日本,正为建立新的双边关系而奔忙。等他赶回佳木斯,留给他的却是蒙在白单下的母亲遗容了。 On December 10th, 1991, Liu Xiaocheng's mother was dying . On her deathbed, he called out to her son with a weak voice, "Xiaocheng, Xiaocheng..." The old woman wanted to see her son one last time before she left the world. However, at that moment, Xiaocheng was in Japan working to establish new bilateral relations. When he returned to Jiamusi, he found his mother had already passed away. “妈妈,晓程回来晚了 !晓程对不起您啊!”晓程趴在母亲遗体上痛不欲生。 "Mum, I'm xiaocheng. I came back too late! I'm sorry, Mum!" Lying on his mother's body, Xiaocheng cried out in agony . 儿子是心脏病专家,却没能为死于心衰的母亲尽一点儿カ。儿子抢救过千万人的生命,唯独没能抢救生养自己的母亲。儿子心灵深处留下了永远无法释怀的疚痛与遗憾。但是,母亲留给儿子的那张“医乃仁术,好自为之”的条幅,却像母亲那双慈祥的眼睛,永远激励着儿子,彪炳着儿子恢宏的事业,勉励着儿子永远以仁者之心对待病人。 He is an expert in heart disease but was unable to do anything for his mother who died of heart failure. He has saved the lives of millions of people but was unable to save the life of the one who had gave him life, which left him guilt and regret deep in his heart that can never be got over. However, the banner that his mother left for him,"To be a doctor is to practice benevolence" is like his mother's kind eyes, always inspiring him to pursue his magnificent career and to treat patients with kindness. 镜泊湖距离牡丹江市仅ー百多公里,那里湖光山色,景致很美。他却从没带妻儿去过。妻子在牡丹江二院眼科工作,3天一个夜班,他忙她也忙,家里弄得盆朝天碗朝地的没个家样。夜半归来,他常常看到小手小脚黑乎乎的儿子手拿吃剩ー半的面包,蜷缩在沙发上睡着了,他忙把儿子抱到床上,给孩子脱去鞋袜盖好被子, 内心酸酸的,充满了自责:“儿子,爸爸对不起你。如果真有来世,爸爸一定当个好父亲。” Jingbo Lake is only a hundred kilometers away from Mudanjiang City, and it is beautiful there with its picturesque mountains and lake. However, he has never taken his wife and children there. His wife works in the ophthalmology department of Mudanjiang Second People's Hospital, working three-night shifts in a row. They are both busy, so their house is always messy. When he comes home late at night, he often sees his son sleeping on the sofa with a half-eaten bread in his dirty hand. He hurriedly carries his son to bed, takes off his shoes and socks and covers him with a blanket, feeling guilty in his heart, "Son, Daddy is sorry for not taking good care of you. If there really were a next life, Daddy would be a good father." 来世是虚幻的,现实オ是真实的。他的个性决定了他今生的选择,也决定了他今生的命运。

However the fact is that there is no after life at all. Liu's personality determines his choices and fate in this life.

1994年5月的一天上午,市委领导来到牡丹江心血管病医院礼堂,向全院职エ公布了一个消息:中组部发来调令,刘晓程被提拔为中国医学科学院及中国协和医科大学副院长及副校长 One morning in May 1994, the leaders of the municipal party committee came to the auditorium of Mudanjiang Cardiovascular Hospital and announced a piece of news to the entire hospital staff: The Organization Department of the Central Committee of the Chinese Communist Party issued an order to promote Liu Xiaocheng to Vice President of Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences (CAMS) and Peking Union Medical College. 全场顿时鸦雀无声,人们都像傻了一样。 The whole room suddenly fell silent, and people were stunned. 瞬间,7年来许许多多斑斓灿烂的回忆,充盈在所有人的脑海,撞击着他们敏感而脆弱的神经,全场响起一片抽泣声。这是怎样艰苦而又痛快淋漓的7年啊! In an instant, colorful and brilliant memories of the past 7 years came to everyone's mind, hitting their sensitive and fragile nerves, and the room was filled with sobbing. What a difficult yet enjoyable 7 years it was! 春的觉醒,夏的苦斗,秋的收获,冬的拼搏。水与血的交融,不似亲人,胜似亲人,既是领导又是导师,既是情同手足的兄长,又是望“子”成龙的“严父”。因他而改变了多少人的命运,因他而拯救了多少个不幸的家庭。在人们心目中,他是一座伟岸奇绝的山峰,让人在污泥浊气中领略着圣者的风范;他又是一本内容丰富的书,令人百读不倦。然而,他却要调走了。

Awakenings in Spring, struggles in summer, harvest in autumn , and  hard work in winter . The fusion of water and blood is not like family, but better than family. Liu is both a leader and a mentor, a brother with sibling-like affection, and a strict “father” who hopes for his "children" to succeed. He has changed the fate of many people and saved the lives of many unfortunate families. In people's hearts, he is a towering and extraordinary mountain peak, allowing people to appreciate the demeanor of a saint in the midst of filth and foul air; he is also a book with rich contents, which people can never get tired of. However, he has to leave now.

此刻,坐在台上的刘晓程也是泪眼朦胧。他舍不得离开这些风雨同舟的同事。全院职エ跟着他没日没夜地折腾了 7年,苦了 7年。现在刚刚好转,他却被调走了。 Liu Xiaocheng, sitting on the stage at this moment, also has tears in his eyes. He is reluctant to leave his colleagues who have gone through thick and thin with him for 7 years. All the staff in the hospital have worked tirelessly day and night with him for the past 7 years. Now, just as things were getting better, he was to be transferred. 他为职エ盖的120套宿舍刚刚收尾,托儿所刚刚动エ,他本想为职エ创造更多的福利,可是…… The construction of 120 sets of housing for the staff was just finished, and the building if the kindergarten has just started. He wanted to create more benefits for his colleagues, but... 他觉得对不住这些患难与共的同事,可他不能不听从中央的调动。老百姓更不愿让他走。许多群众听说刘晓程被调走了,ー连几天堵在医院门口要见他…… He feels sorry for his comrades who have shared the hardships with him, but he cannot disobey the central government's transfer. The general public are even more unwilling to let him go. Hearing that Liu Xiaocheng was to be transferred, Many people even blocked the hospital gate for several days to see him... 调令来了三个月,刘晓程一直没动身。他向新接任的院长ーー交代清楚,又看着年轻弟子主刀做完了最后ー批高难手术……临走,他像导师叮嘱自己一样叮嘱弟子们:“记住,今后遇到什么困难都要告诉我,我的大门永远冲你们敞开着 Three months after the transfer order came, Liu Xiaocheng still didn’t moved. He explained everything to the newly appointed hospital director and watched as his young students completed the final batch of difficult surgeries. Before leaving, he did the same thing his mentor had done for him. He advised his students to always inform him of any difficulties they may face, and that his door will always be open to them, 动身那天,全院职エ及病人用泪水和歌声为他送行:“送战友,踏征程……革命生涯常分手……一路多保重……” 歌声中饱含着情同手足的深情,也饱含着难舍难分的悲伤。 On the day of his departure, the staff and patients of the hospital bid him farewell with tears and songs: "Farewell, comrade who will embark on a new journey...In a revolutionary career, partings are common...Take care all the way..." The songs were filled with brotherly love and deep sadness at the thought of parting. 然而,谁都没有料到,调回北京的第六个年头,2000年,刚刚51岁的刘晓程却向卫生部递交了辞呈。高官厚禄,为什么留不住他? However, no one expected that in his sixth year of being transferred back to Beijing , the year of 2000, Liu Xiaocheng, who just turned 51 years old, submitted his resignation to the Ministry of Health. Why the high position and salary couldn't keep him ? 又像当年一样,人们对他百思不得其解:刘晓程为什么要辞职?是没有得到提拔重用,还是领导班子不和,还是想下海去赚大钱? Just like before, people were puzzled by his decision. Why did Liu Xiaocheng resign? Was it because he didn't receive a promotion, because of conflicts with the leadership team, or because he wanted to make more money in the private sector? 这时的刘晓程已经是中国医学科学院党委书记兼副院长,管辖着协和、阜外、肿瘤、整形等六大医院,十几个国家级研究所,30名院士、2000多名教授和数万名职エ,权カ大得令人羡慕。 At this time, Liu Xiaocheng was the Party Secretary and Deputy Director of the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences, overseeing six major hospitals including Peking Union Medical College Hospital, Fuwai Hospital, Beijing Cancer Hospital, and a plastic surgery hospital, as well as more than ten national research institutes, 30 academicians, over 2,000 professors, and tens of thousands of staff. His power was enviable. 他处事果断,一身正气,群众威望很高。他又是博士生导师。1994年,他创建了协和医院的心外科;1996年,他在国内率先使用了动脉心脏搭桥。据国外统计,静脉搭桥十年的通畅率为42%-45%,动脉搭桥为 90%—95%。他在心外科领域声誉很高。北京一些医院在心脏手术中遇到难题, 常常向他求救。 He was decisive, upright, and highly respected by the people. He was also a doctoral supervisor. In 1994, he established the cardiac surgery department at Peking Union Medical College Hospital, and in 1996, he was the first in China to perform coronary artery bypass graft. According to statistics from abroad, the patency rate for venous bypass after ten years is 42%-45%, while that for coronary artery bypass graft is 90%-95%. He was highly regarded in the field of cardiac surgery, and many hospitals in Beijing often sought his help when they encountered difficulties in cardiac surgery. 在他任职的6年里,工作干得相当出色,上下一片赞誉。他被评为“国家级有突出贡献的中青年专家”“全国先进工作者”“有突出贡献的回国留学人员 ” 英国剑桥和美国北卡罗来纳国际传记中心将其列入《国际知识分子名人录》《国际传略词典》等国际权威传略文献;他的事迹被拍成电视专题片《求索》《脊梁》及故事片《归国的留学生》;他被选为党的“十四大”代表…… In his six years in office, he did an outstanding job, and was highly praised by all. He was awarded "Young and Middle-Aged Experts Nationally Acknowledged for their Outstanding Achievements", "National Advanced Worker," and "Overseas Returnees with Outstanding Contributions." He was also listed in international authoritative biographical literature such as "the International Who's Who of Intellectuals" and "Dictionary Of International Biography". His story was made into television documentaries such as Pursuit of Wonder and "Backbone," as well as the movie "Returning Overseas Students." He was also selected as a representative for The 14th National Congress of the Communist Party of China. 1995年卫生部派他到中央党校学习,参加了被人们称为“黄埔军校”的第一批省、部级学习班,该班学员大部分都被提拔到省、部级领导岗位。刘晓程也被中组部列为卫生部副部长人选。 In 1995, he was sent by the Ministry of Health to study at the Party School of the Central Committee of CPC and participated in the first batch of provincial and ministerial-level official training classes, which were called 'The Republic of China Military Academy' by people. Most of the students in the class were promoted to provincial and ministerial leadership positions. Liu Xiaocheng was also listed by the Organization Department of the Central Committee of the Chinese Communist Party as a candidate for the deputy minister of the Ministry of Health. 1996年,世界卫生组织向中国要一名助理总干事,卫生部首推刘晓程,希望他能为世界卫生事业做出贡献。世界卫生组织助理总干事年薪10万美金,可以带家眷,工作地址坐落在瑞士美丽的日内瓦湖畔。刘晓程赴瑞士接受即将担任世界卫生组织总干事的布伦特兰女士的面试。布伦特兰女士让他谈谈对世界卫生组织的认识,刘晓程谈到世界卫生组织应为人类防治疾病、提高健康水平做出贡献。布伦特兰女士却问他:“你怎么看待在本组织中的男女平等问题?” In 1996, the World Health Organization (WHO) requested an assistant director-general from China. The Ministry of Health recommended Liu Xiaocheng, hoping that he could contribute to the global health cause. The WHO Assistant Director-General's annual salary was 100,000 US dollars, and it allowed the employee to bring their family and work in Geneva, Switzerland, a beautiful city located on the shore of Lake Geneva. Liu Xiaocheng went to Switzerland to attend the interview by Ms. Gro Harlem Brundtland, who was going to become the Director-General of the WHO. Brundtland asked him to talk about his understanding of the WHO. Liu Xiaocheng said that the WHO should contribute to disease prevention and health improvement for humanity. Brundtland then asked him, "How do you view gender equality within this organization?" 刘晓程说:“男女平等是人类社会和各级国际组织应为之努力的永恒主题,但不是世界卫生组织所应关心的首要问题。世界卫生组织应该关心和解决危及全人类健康的迫切问题,不仅仅是本机构内职员的性别比例。” Liu Xiaocheng replied, "Gender equality is a timeless theme that human society and international organizations at all levels should strive for, but it is not the primary concern of the WHO. The WHO should focus on and address urgent issues that threaten human health, not just the gender ratio of its staff." 生性秉直、刚直不阿的刘晓程从不会顺情说好话,更不会取悦他人。无论是在这位出身名门的挪威前首相面前,还是在美国前总统老布什面前,他都不失ー个炎黄子孙的人格与尊严。 Being naturally straightforward and uncompromising, Liu Xiaocheng never speaks something to please others, whether in front of Gro Harlem Brundtland, a former prime minister of Norway, or former US President George H.W. Bush. He always maintains his dignity and integrity as a descendant of the Yellow Emperor. 1997年,刘晓程受美国“艾森豪威尔外国高级访问学者基金会”之邀,随同中国首批30位著名中青年学者及管理者出访美国。美国为每位来访者出资4万美金,让其自定考察项目,任其在美国随便考察。说是考察,其实就是向来访者灌输美国价值观。两个月考察结束后,董事会主席老布什总统亲自出席考察结业式,并让每位来访者提ー个问题,由老布什来回答。 In 1997, Liu Xiaocheng was invited by the Eisenhower Fellowship Program to visit the United States along with the first group of 30 renowned young and middle-aged scholars and managers from China. The US government provided each visitor with $40,000 to conduct their own investigation projects and freely explore the US. This so-called investigation program was actually a way for visitors to absorb American values. After two months of investigation, President George H.W. Bush personally attended the closing ceremony and answered questions from each visitor. 刘晓程却给老布什出了道难题。他说:“总统先生,据我所知,美国年生产总值 10万亿美元,其中14. 5%用于卫生事业,但美国却有2200万国民没有医保。美国建国以来,宪法修改了 20多次,联邦宪法和很多州宪法在衣、食、住的基础上,又把教育列为基本人权。 Liu Xiaocheng posed a difficult question to President George H.W. Bush. He said, "Mr. President, as far as I know, the US has a GDP of 10 trillion dollars, with 14.5% allocated to healthcare. However, there are 22 million Americans without health insurance. Since the founding of the US, the constitution has been amended over 20 times. The federal and many state constitutions recognize education as a basic human right, along with food, clothing, accommodation and transport. 我赞同受教育权应是文明社会的基本人权,但不知总统先生如何看待教育与健康的顺位?如果教育是基本人权,那么健康更应是基本人权。没有健康,人们怎么接受教育?请问您如何看待这一问题?如何解释花这么多钱用于卫生事业,却有那么多国民得不到医疗保险问题。” I agree that the right to receive education should be a basic human right in a civilized society, but I wonder how you, Mr. President, prioritize education and healthcare. If education is a basic human right, then healthcare should be even more so. Without health, how can people receive education? How do you explain spending so much money on healthcare and yet so many citizens still cannot access medical insurance?" 老布什向这位看上去温文尔雅却有着独立见解的中国人礼貌地笑了笑,说: “这个问题提得很好,确实是美国的实际情况。但我对卫生领域所知不多,您的问题我解答不了。很抱歉!” President George H.W. Bush politely smiled at this Chinese scholar who is seemingly gentle yet with independent thinking, saying, "That's a very good question, and it is indeed a reality in the United States. However, I don't know much about healthcare, and I cannot answer your question. I'm sorry!" 刘晓程不但没有遭到排斥,反而成了最受欢迎的中国学者,后来成为美国“艾森豪威尔外国高级访问学者基金会”中国出访人员的考官及国际顾问委员会在中国邀请的唯一顾问。 Instead of being excluded, Liu Xiaocheng became the most popular Chinese scholar and later the examiner of the Eisenhower Fellowship Program for Chinese visitors and the only advisor to The International Advisory Committee (IAC) . 但是,布伦特兰女士不是老布什。世界卫生组织助理总干事的职位刘晓程落选了。后来得知,布伦特兰女士是一位女权主义者,但布伦特兰女士给刘晓程发来一封信,说她很敬佩刘晓程的人格和才干。 However, Ms. Gro Harlem Brundtland was not President George H.W. Bush. Liu Xiaocheng was not elected as the Assistant Director-General of the World Health Organization. It later turned out that Miss Brundtland was a feminist, but Ms. Gro Harlem Brundtland sent a letter to Liu Xiaocheng saying that she admired his personality and talent. 此刻的刘晓程,坐在中国医学科学院党委书记兼副院长的位置上,可以说要什么有什么,名誉、地位、专车、宽敞的住房,前呼后拥,风光无限,而且,只要他好好干,别出什么差错,卫生部副部长的位置在等着他呢 Now, Liu Xiaocheng is the Party Secretary and deputy director of the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences. He got anything he wants - prestige, status, luxury car, spacious housing, and endless admiration. As long as he doesn't make any big mistakes in work, he is likely to be promoted to Deputy Minister of the Ministry of Health. 人们不禁要问:你刘晓程到底还要什么?你还有什么不满足的?你还折腾什么劲儿? People can't help asking, "What else does Liu Xiaocheng want? What are you still not satisfied with? Why are you still strive for?" 一位政治家曾说,每个人都有自己的生存法则,只有读懂了他独特的生存法则,才能理解他人生的潮起潮落,云卷云舒;才能理解他所选择的山高路险,河流湍急。蹉距岁月,留给他的并非都是蹉距. A politician once said that everyone has his own way of survival, and only by understanding his unique way of survival can one understand the ups and downs of their life, and the challenges they chose.The years were not all wasted for him. 瞿秋白在牺牲前曾说:“光明和火焰从地心里钻出来的时候,难免要经过好几次的尝试,试探自己的道路,锻炼自己的力量。”

Qu Qiubai said before his sacrifice, "When light and fire drill out of the earth, they must go through several attempts to explore their path and train their strength."

ー个人的经历,决定着ー个人的情感与人生。 One's personal experiences determine their emotions and life. 1968年冬天,北国边陲黑龙江特别冷,零下42て,不少南方来的“知青”都冻坏了手脚。凌晨2点,正是老百姓称为“鬼駆牙”的时刻,在宝清县建设兵团853农场 21团一座最原始、最古老的石灰窑里,一群身穿黄棉袄的“知青”已经开始劳作了。

In the winter of 1968, it was especially cold in the northern border of Heilongjiang, reaching minus 42 degrees Celsius. Many "educated" youth from the south froze their hands and feet. At 2 o'clock in the morning, which the locals called "ghost hour," a group of "educated" youth wearing yellow cotton-padded jackets had already begun working in the most primitive and ancient lime kiln in the 21st regiment of the 853 farm of the Baqing County Production and Construction Corps.

那个年代能穿上黄棉袄是ー种荣耀,ー种革命的象征。唯有一个瘦弱的少年身穿一身黑棉袄。只见他第一个跳进刚出完石灰、滚烫的石灰窑里开始“平窑”。这种原始的石灰窑形状如同日本鬼子的炮楼,上面填石灰石和煤,下面出烧透的石灰。直径几米的上口既是进料口,又是烟囱。 In those days, wearing a yellow cotton-padded jacket was a symbol of honor and revolution. Only a thin and weak teenager wore a black cotton-padded jacket. He was the first to jump into the freshly produced lime and scorching hot kiln to start "leveling the kiln." This primitive lime kiln was shaped like a Japanese fort, with lime stones and coal piled on top and burned lime going out from the bottom. The top, with a diameter of several meters, was both the feeding port and the chimney. 所谓“平窑”,就是蹦到冒着火苗和浓烟的窑里,徒手把堆得小山似的石灰石码平。外面零下42て,窑里有五六十度, ー冷ー热,温差ー百多度。黑棉袄少年忍受着炼狱般的痛苦,拼カ码着石头。别人换班上去休息了,他却仍然继续干下去,直到把整个窑平完了,他オ筋疲カ尽地爬上窑顶。他的黑棉袄肩头蒙上一层厚厚的、汗水浸透的白花花的盐卤,刚发下来的皮手套磨出了窟窿,露出冒着血丝儿的十个指尖儿,ー碰就钻心般地疼痛。 "Leveling the kiln" meant jumping into the kiln, which was emitting flames and thick smoke, and using bare hands to flatten the pile of lime stones. While it was minus 42 degrees Celsius outside, the kiln was 50-60 degrees Celsius inside, with a temperature difference of more than 100 degrees Celsius. The teenager in the black cotton-padded jacket endured the hellish pain and worked hard to flatten the stones. While others took turns to rest, he continued to work until he leveled the entire kiln and climbed onto the top of the kiln, completely exhausted. His black cotton-padded jacket was covered with a thick layer of sweat-soaked white brine on his shoulders, and the newly leather gloves were worn out, revealing ten fingertips with blood-red blisters that throbbed with pain at the slightest touch. 苦难犹如手中的铁锤,而少年的身躯却像脚下的石头,在无数次的锤炼中变得无比坚强,就像他和战友们写在石灰窑上的《石灰吟》诗:“粉身碎骨浑不怕,要留清白在人间!” Hardship is like a hammer in one's hand, but the teenager's body was like the stone under his feet, becoming incredibly strong after countless rounds of hammering, just like the poem "Song of the Lime" written by him and his comrades on the lime kiln: "Though broken into pieces, you will have no fright; You'll purify the world by washing it e'er white."

“文革”时期,头戴ー顶“黑五类”狗崽子的帽子,已经压得人喘不过气来,而这位少年居然戴了三顶帽子:爷爷是地主;父亲是“日本特务”兼“反动学术权威”。三次抄家,母亲被剃“鬼头”,父亲被关进“牛棚”。ー个好端端的知识分子之家,转眼就变得支离破碎了。 During the "Cultural Revolution," under the tittle of the "Five Black Categories" was already suffocating, but this teenager had three titles: his grandfather was a landlord, his father was a "Japanese spy" and “the reactionary academic authority”. After three rounds of house raids, his mother was shaved bald, and his father was thrown into the cow shed." The family, which was originally a well-established intellectual household, was suddenly torn apart. 接踵而至的打击,使高中还没有毕业的晓程感到十分痛苦。他极カ想用革命行动来证明自己是革命的,极カ想改变“黑五类”狗崽子的命运,就割破手指写成血书,强烈要求到生产建设兵团去改造自己。因为“黑五类”子女无权加入生产建设兵团,所以只能用血书自荐。然而,并非是血书起了作用,而是853农场21团宣传队需要一名手风琴手。当时能拉手风琴的凤毛麟角。少年晓程オ华横溢,聪慧过人,不仅拉一手好手风琴,还唱一手好歌。直到今天,他偶尔还会拉起心爱的手风琴唱起《三套车》呢。 A series of successive blows made Xiaocheng, who had not yet graduated from high school, feel very painful. He desperately wanted to prove himself as a revolutionary through revolutionary actions and wanted to change the fate of the "Five Black Categories". Thus, he cut his fingers and wrote a blood letter, strongly demanding to go to the Production and Construction Corps to transform himself. He could only apply through a blood letter, for the children of the "Five Black Categories" were not eligible to join the Production and Construction Corps. However, it was not the blood letter that worked, but rather the Propaganda Team of the 21st regiment of the 853 farm needed an accordionist. At that time, few people was able to play the accordion. Young Xiaocheng was talented and intelligent. He could not only play the accordion well but also sing well. Even today, he occasionally plays his beloved accordion and sings "San Tao Che". 他成了生产建设兵团里最下等的公民,一切脏活、累活非他莫属,烧石灰,打炮眼,淘粪,伐木头……然而,对ー个19岁的少年来说,更大的伤害并不是体力的透支,而是无休止的心灵打击。生产建设兵团的“知青”都是腰扎宽皮带,身穿黄棉袄,ー副准解放军的打扮,唯独他没有这个资格,他只能穿黑棉袄。853农场的宣传队员都可以载歌载舞,登台表演,唯独他一人只能躲在幕后为别人伴奏,不许登台露脸。而且有人监视着他的ー举ー动。 He became the lowest citizen in the Production and Construction Corps. All the dirty and tiring work was assigned to him, such as burning lime, handling explosives, shoveling manure, and cutting wood... However, for a 19-year-old young man, the greater harm was not the physical exhaustion but the endless spiritual blows. The "educated youth" in the Production and Construction Corps all dressed in wide leather belts and yellow cotton-padded jackets, a dress similar to that of the army, but he was not allowed to wear it. He could only wear a black cotton-padded jacket. All the members of the 853 Farm's propaganda team could sing and dance, and perform on stage, except for him who could only hide behind the scenes and accompany others, not allowed to perform on stage. And there was also someone watching his every move. 他那颗孤寂痛苦的心灵在蛮荒空旷的世界里,踽踽独行,无人为伴,找不到解脱,更找不到欢乐。 His lonely and painful heart wanders in the barren and desolate world, without companionship, unable to seek joy or liberation. 唯有一天劳动结束了,月亮升起来了,他背着自己心爱的手风琴来到郊外,尽情地拉起来。一群“知青”闻声而来,眼含泪水唱起了俄罗斯歌曲: “茫茫大草原,路途多遥远。有位马车夫,将死在草原……”歌声充满了悲凉与感伤。只有在这时,他心中的孤独与苦闷オ会随着琴声发泄出来,才能感受到人与人之间那份应有的平等与和谐。 Only when the day's work was done and the moon rose, he brought his beloved accordion to the outskirts where he could feel free to play it . Hearing the beautiful sound, a group of "educated youth" came over, singing a Russian song with tears in their eyes: "The vast grasslands, the road is long and far. A coachman is dying on the grassland..." The song was full of sadness and sentimentality. Only at this moment could he release his loneliness and frustration through the sound of the accordion, and feel the equality and harmony that should exist between people. 逆境能使人叛逆、颓废,也能使人迸发出无坚不摧的毅カ。像后来许多有成就的“知青”ー样,无论怎样艰难困苦,无论怎样受尽凌辱,他从没有气馁过。他心灵深处一直蕴藏着ー股岩浆般的激情。它渴望着喷发,渴望着人生的转机,苦苦地等待着机会。 Adversity can make people rebellious and decadent, but it can also ignite an unstoppable spirit in people. Like many successful "educated youth" later on, no matter how hard the situation is and no matter how much humiliation he had suffered, he never gave up. In the depths of his heart, a magma-like passion was always brewing. It longed to erupt and awaited a turning point in life with bitter patience. 他抓到ー切能抓到的书来读,《毛泽东选集》《国家与革命》《马克思的青年时代》……读得最多的是那本影响了几代人的《钢铁是怎样炼成的》。奥斯特洛夫斯基的那段名言影响了他一生:“人的一生应该这样度过,当他回首往事时,不因虚度年华而悔恨,也不因碌碌无为而羞耻……” He grasped any books he could get access to, including Selected Works of Mao Tse-tung, State and Revolution, Karl Marx: The Early Years...But the one he has read the most was the book that had influenced several generations-----How the Steel Was Tempered. Nikolai Ostrovsky's famous quote influenced him for a lifetime: "The most precious thing is life and we only have life once. The person's life should be spent this way: When he looks back, he does not regret for wasted years, not because of mediocrity and shame ..." 蹉跎的岁月,没有尊严的生活,超出承受力的体能透支,把ー个天真少年抛到了人生的最底层,使他成为ー个逆境中的弱者,饱尝了底层人的艰辛与困苦,也饱尝了一个弱者的渺小与渴望,从而使他与底层百姓结下ー种深厚的、永远不可割舍的情感。 The years with camels, a life without dignity, and physical exhaustion beyond endurance, threw a naive young boy to the bottom of life, making him a weakling in adversity, experiencing the hardships and difficulties of the bottom people, as well as the smallness and aspirations of a weakling, thereby forming a deep and unbreakable emotional bond with the common people. 这段生活影响了他的一生,也决定了他的一生。 This period of life has influenced his entire life and determined his destiny. 这也是他屡屡做出惊人之举,向自己、向医疗体制提出挑战的原因之一。他的心是属于平民百姓的,任何官位与金钱都无法撼动他的初衷。 This is also one of the reasons why he has done something extraordinary again and again and challenged himself and the healthcare system. His heart belongs to the common people, and no official position or money can shake his original intention. 闪光的“琉璃塔”,却包裹着ー颗痛苦的灵魂 The shining "Glass Tower" conceals a painful soul. 艾森豪威尔曾说过这样的话:“我们切不可把短暂的人生都放在无谓的名利上,不可把浮躁和骚动强加给我们生命的宝贵时光。” As Eisenhower once said: "We should not waste our short lives on meaningless fame and fortune, nor should we impose fickleness and turmoil on the precious time of our lives." 在刘晓程看来,中国改革开放20多年来,其他行业都在突飞猛进地发展,医疗卫生事业却一直裹足不前。老百姓看病难、手术难的根本问题没有得到解决。 In Liu Xiaocheng's view, the healthcare industry has been lagging behind in the past 20 years of China's reform and opening up while other industries have made rapid progress . The fundamental problems of difficult access to medical treatment and surgery for the general public have not been resolved. 就拿心血管病来说,全国有400多万心血管病人需要手术,每年仅能手术四五万例, 只占百分之一ニ。而且,药品层层扒皮,吃回扣,从药厂卖到老百姓手里要翻上几倍、几十倍,甚至上百倍。 Taking cardiovascular disease as an example, there are over 4 million cardiovascular patients in China who need surgery, but only 40-50,000 surgeries can be performed each year, accounting for only 1-2% of the total. Moreover, drugs are marked up layer by layer, with kickbacks being taken at each level, so the price of medicine can be several times, dozens of times, or even hundreds of times higher from the factory to the hands of the people. 得一次感冒,没有几百元休想治好;住一次院,没有几千元、上万元就别想出院;医生对病人开大处方,大检查;你头痛,就让你做CT,做核磁共振,说怀疑是肿瘤,你不敢不做;你嗓子痛,就给你开几百元的药;你要手术,除了支付昂贵的费用,还要给医生送红包,少则几千,多则上万…… If you catch a cold, you cannot be cured without spending several hundred yuan; if you get hospitalized, you cannot be discharged without spending several thousand yuan or even tens of thousands of yuan. Doctors prescribe large amounts of medication and tests for patients; if you have a headache, you will be told that it might be a tumor and asked to do a CT scan and an MRI, which you dare not to refuse; If you have a sore throat, you are prescribed several hundred yuan worth of medication; If you need surgery, in addition to paying expensive medical bills, you also need to give a red envelope to the doctor, which can range from a few thousand to tens of thousands of yuan.....

有的医院不愿收医保病人,因为医保是后付款,愿意收现金;不愿收疑难病患者,怕担风险。有的医院为病人做心脏造影,居然连“备皮”都不做。有的医生竟然给心绞痛病人打杜冷丁止痛。

Some hospitals are unwilling to accept patients with medical insurance because medical insurance is paid after treatment, thus they prefer cash payments; some are also unwilling to accept patients with difficult-to-treat conditions, for fear of risk. Some don't even prepare properly for patients undergoing heart imaging tests. Even some doctors give angina patients Pethidine for pain relief. 老百姓说,去医院看一次病,半夜三更去排队挂号,楼上楼下ー顿折腾,没病也气（急）出病来了。而且,中国享受医保的人数只占全国人口的8% ,92%的下岗工人、个体户、8亿农民都不能享受医保。 Patients complain that going to the hospital for treatment means queuing for registration late into the night. The constant commotion from upstairs and downstairs is frustrating, even causing illness when one wasn't initially sick. Moreover, only 8% of the country's population enjoys medical insurance, while 92% of laid-off workers, self-employed individuals, and 800 million farmers cannot enjoy medical insurance. 医生收红包已经成了极普遍的现象,成了行规,不给红包医生就不高兴,患者也提心吊胆,怕医生给自己小命“穿小鞋”。一名主刀“名医” 一年可以成为百万富翁。可想想那些穷苦农民和下岗工人,省吃俭用、卖房卖地,甚至卖血凑的一点儿血汗钱,花着昂贵的医疗费不算,还要给医生送“红包”。有的穷苦农民,卖房卖地还不够给医生送红包的呢。 It has become extremely common for doctors to receive red envelopes. Even it has become a norm. If a doctor doesn't receive a red envelope, he or she will get upset, and patients are also worried that doctors will harm them. A famous lead surgeon can become a millionaire in a year. Imagine those poor farmers and laid-off workers who have sold their houses, their land, and even their blood but could only scrape together a little bit of money. Except for the expensive medical bills, they even have to give doctors "red envelopes." Some poor farmers can't even afford to give doctors a red envelope by selling their houses and lands. 这哪是让老百姓治病,分明是让老百姓“致穷”,要老百姓的命嘛!这种不顾脸面、不顾尊严、明目张胆的索要行为,哪还是什么救死扶伤的“白衣天使”?简直就是趁火打劫的强盗! This is not even curing patients, but making people poor and even taking their lives! This kind of shameless, dignity-ignoring, and blatant solicitation behavior is not what a "white angel" who saves lives and heals the wounded should do. Only a robber who takes advantage of people in distress would do that! 悲哀呀,我的同行们!刘晓程不禁发出悲愤的慨叹:从希波克拉底到李时珍, 古今中外,历来都崇尚医学,尊重大夫,救死扶伤从来都是有灵魂的人从事的事业。为什么到了我们这一代,却变得这般见钱眼红,这般不近人情了? It's sad, my fellow colleagues! Liu Xiaocheng couldn't help letting out a sigh with sadness and indignation: From Hippocrates to Li Shizhen, throughout history and at home and abroad, medicine has always been revered, doctors have been respected, and saving lives and healing the wounded has always been a profession pursued by people with souls. Why has our generation become so unkind and obsessed with money ? 但是,刘晓程绝非ー个只看现象不看本质的肤浅之辈。他觉得一味地谴责医生收“红包”并不公平。几次全国人大会议都提出了医生收红包问题,可有谁透析过“红包”现象形成的原因?有谁了解过医生的付出与收获的严重失衡,以及“红包”背后所蕴藏的深刻的社会问题? However, Liu Xiaocheng is not a shallow person who only looks at appearances and not the essence. He believes that it is not fair to simply condemn doctors for receiving "red envelopes." The phenomenon of doctors receiving red envelopes has been raised several times at the National People's Congress, but has anyone analyzed the reasons behind the "red envelopes" phenomenon? Has anyone tried to explore the serious imbalance between the doctor's efforts and rewards, as well as the profound social problem behind the phenomenon? 刘晓程认为,“红包”现象是医疗体制造成的。人所共知,早在20世纪80年代就出现了“脑体倒挂”的民谣:“搞导弹的不如卖茶叶蛋的,操手术刀的不如操剃头刀的。” Liu Xiaocheng thinks that the "red envelopes" phenomenon is caused by the healthcare system. It is well known that as early as the 1980s, there was a folk song of misrepresentation: "Those who develop missiles are not as wealthy as those who sell tea eggs, and those who wield surgical knives are not as wealthy as those who wield barber knives." 20世纪90年代以来,改革开放使多少人富得流油,一名歌星的出场费高达几万元,甚至几十万;一个房地产开发商转眼就腰缠百万、千万,甚至上亿元;一名大权在握的官员不贪不占,也有大把大把的额外进项,更不用说那些灰色收入了。 Since the 1990s, the reform and opening up has made many people rich . The appearance fee of a singer can be as high as tens of thousands or even hundreds of thousands of yuan, a real estate developer can become a millionaire or even a billionaire in the blink of an eye. Even an official in a position of power can have plenty of extra income without being greedy or taking advantage, not to mention those gray income. 可是,一位拯救他人生命的主任医师,月工资不过3000元。这个收入远远低于世界其他国家,连亚非拉一般发展中国家都不如,只高于亚洲个别社会主义国家。中国医生吃的是草,挤的却是奶。他们拿着微薄的收入,却要承担救死扶伤的天职。 However, a chief physician who saves lives earns a salary of only 3,000 yuan per month. This income is far lower than that of the rest of the world and is lower than that of the average developing countries in Asia, Africa and Latin America, and only higher than that of a few socialist countries in Asia. Chinese doctors live on meager incomes, but shoulder a heavy responsibility of saving lives and helping the wounded. 医生也是人,也要生存,也要生儿育女赡养老人,也要生活,他们为什么不能像别人ー样富起来?他们心理能平衡吗?医生收“红包”是他们兜里空,患者送“红包”是为了买安全。 Doctors are also human beings, they also need to survive, have children and support their elderly parents. Why can't they become wealthy like others? Do they think it is fair? Doctors receive "red envelopes" because of their meager income , and patients give "red envelopes" to buy safety. 刘晓程觉得,“红包”现象只是我国医疗卫生体制浮出水面的冰山一角。改革 20多年来,我国医疗卫生体制远远滞后于社会发展,存在着严重的问题。13亿老百姓对此怨声载道,600万医务工作者更是满腹牢骚。 Liu Xiaocheng believes that the "red envelope" phenomenon is only the tip of the iceberg of the problems of China's medical and health system. In the more than 20 years since the reform, China's medical and health system has lagged far behind social development and has serious problems. The 1.3 billion people in China are full of complaints about this, and the 6 million medical workers are even more dissatisfied. 他觉得,首先政府对公立医院定性不准,是建立福利型、公益型的医院,还是建立福利加公益型的医院?没有明确定性,使公立医院处于两难的尴尬境地。 He believes that first of all, the government has not properly defined public hospitals, whether they should be welfare-oriented, public-interest-oriented, or both. The lack of clarity puts public hospitals in a dilemma. 加拿大、英国、澳大利亚、新加坡等发达国家,实行全民医保,病人住院连伙食费都有补助。而我国政府对公立医院的投入,除退休职エエ资外,只够发在岗员エ 20%的エ资。院长难为无米之炊,只好向职工宣布:“你们的工资和奖金只能由你们自己去挣!”这种明显的利益驱动机制,必然导致内行哄外行、采购吃回扣、医生收“红包”、医院坑病人的局面!而且,公立医院大多都背着沉重的包袱,许多医疗单位的冗员多达三分之一。 Developed countries such as Canada, the United Kingdom, Australia, and Singapore have implemented Universal health coverage , with subsidies for patients' meals during hospitalization. However, the Chinese government's investment in public hospitals, apart from retirement benefits, can only covers 20% of the salaries of on-duty staff. Unable to pay the salary, hospital directors are forced to declare to their employees, "You have to earn your own salary and bonuses!" Such an obvious profit-driven mechanism inevitably leads to the situation where insiders cheat the layman, procurement involves kickbacks, doctors receive "red envelopes," and hospitals swindle patients. Moreover, most public hospitals carry a heavy burden, with up to one-third staff of medical units being redundant.

其次,政府对医疗卫生重视不够,投入太少。 Secondly, the government has not paid enough attention to healthcare and has invested too little. 按照世界健康的社会形态,政府对医疗卫生的投入应该随着国民经济的发展, 形成逐年上升的趋势,而在中国却恰恰相反,政府对医疗卫生的投入是越来越低。 According to the social norms of world health, government investment in healthcare should increase every year along with the development of the national economy. However, in China, it is the opposite.Government investment in healthcare is decreasing. 去年“非典”过后,新任卫生部部长吴仪在全国卫生工作会议上讲道:“改革开放以来,我国卫生事业费占财政支出的比重逐年下降,已由20世纪80年代的平均 3.1%下降到2002年的1.7%,大大低于发达国家,也低于大多数发展中国家。 After the SARS outbreak last year, the new Minister of the Ministry Health, Wu Yi, said in a national healthcare conference, "Since the reform and opening-up, the proportion of healthcare expenditures in the government budget has been decreasing year by year, from an average of 3.1% in the 1980s to 1.7% in 2002, which is much lower than that of developed countries and most developing countries. 2001年,在世界卫生组织191个成员国中,我国政府人均卫生投入占卫生总费用的比重居第131位。1995年,全国疾病预防控制机构的支出中,财政拨款占75. 2% ； 2002年,这ー比重下降到41.7% 。我国政府的卫生投入不适应公共卫生发展的需要。美国对医疗卫生的投入占国民生产总值的15%,加拿大占9%,日本占7%,就连许多发展中国家都远远高于中国。

In 2001, among the 191 member countries of the World Health Organization, China ranked 131st in terms of government per capita healthcare investment as a proportion of total healthcare expenditures. In 1995, government funding accounted for 75.2% of the national disease prevention and control agency's expenditures. In 2002, this proportion decreased to 41.7%. Chinese government's healthcare investment is inadequate to meet the needs of public health development. The United States invests 15% of its GDP in healthcare, Canada invests 9%, Japan invests 7%, and even many developing countries invest more than China.

而且,我国的医疗资源严重不足,却又存在着严重的浪费现象。 Furthermore, there is a severe shortage of medical resources in China, and there is also serious waste. 国家对城市建设、街道布局都有明确的规划,但对医院建设却没有统ー规划。仅北京东单地区,不足5平方公里,却设有协和、北京、同仁等三大医院。而且,中央各大部委、中央党校等单位,都建起漂亮的、配有高档医疗设施的医院（而不是卫生所）。

The country has clear planning for urban construction and street layout, but there is no unified planning for hospital construction. In the Dongdan region of Beijing alone, which is less than 5 square kilometers, but boasts three major hospitals, including Peking Union Medical College Hospital, Beijing Hospital, and Beijing Tongren Hospital. Moreover, units like central ministries, the Party School of the Central Committee of CPC, have built beautiful hospitals with high-end medical facilities instead of clinics.

这些医院的利用率很低,大多都在低水平上重复。这还不够,人们正在以更快的速度在北京疯狂地建医院。按北京现有的医疗状况,每千人所拥有的床位、大夫、核磁共振等医疗设施,超过了亚洲四小龙。 These hospitals have low utilization rates. Furthermore, people are building hospitals in Beijing at an even faster rate. According to Beijing's current medical situation, the number of beds, doctors, and medical equipment, such as MRI, that per thousand people have exceeds that of the Four Asian Tigers. 但在边远地区却存在着严重的缺医少药现象。在发达国家,国家配备的医疗机构往往是塔形的,除了国家中心医院,社区要配备ー、二级医院,病人可根据病情去医院就诊,而不会出现感冒、发烧也去协和排队了。 However, there is a severe shortage of medical resources in remote areas. In developed countries, national medical institutions are usually arranged in a pyramid structure, and in addition to national central hospitals, communities should be equipped with first- and second-level hospitals. Patients can choose different hospitals based on their conditions so that they do not need to wait in line at top hospitals like Peking Union Medical College Hospital for a common cold or fever. 再次,国家没有自己的医药科エ委,国家对民族医药业支持力度不够,致使大量昂贵的洋药、洋器械涌入中国市场,大大地加重了老百姓的负担。 In addition, China lacks its own pharmaceutical committee, and the support from the government towards the traditional Chinese medicine industry is insufficient, which has resulted in a large influx of expensive foreign drugs and medical equipment into the Chinese market, significantly increasing the burden on ordinary people. ー个进口冠状动脉球囊扩张管要上万元,ー个冠状动脉支架高达一至三万元, ー个心脏瓣膜要两万元,ー个心脏起搏器最贵的高达十几万……有人为了拿回扣, 极カ帮助外商促销,使中国的药厂被挤垮,使本来就虚高的药价越发虚高。 For example, a imported NC Traveler RX Coronary Dilatation Catheter costs over 10,000 yuan, a coronary stent costs between one to three ten thousand yuan, a heart valve costs 20,000 yuan, and the most expensive pacemaker costs over 100,000 yuan. Some people even help foreign companies promote their products in order to receive kickbacks, causing Chinese pharmaceutical factories to collapse and driving up the already inflated drug prices. 心脏病人做一次支架或搭桥,少则四五万,多则十几万。想想,中国的老百姓能吃饱肚子才几年?有的地区至今连温饱都没解决,他们怎么能消费得起这些与国情极不相称、只有发达国家才能消费的洋器材、洋药品? 一个月收入不过几百元的普通家庭,几万元对他们来说意味着什么?意味着卖房卖地、东挪西借,一家老小背上几十年的外债过日子!

A heart patient's cost for a stent or a bypass surgery ranges from 40,000 to over 100,000 yuan.Think about it, how many years can China's ordinary people get enough to eat? In some areas, they haven't even solved the clothing and food problems. How can they afford these foreign medical equipment and medicines that are extremely incompatible with China's national situation and are only affordable to developed countries? For an average family with a monthly income of only a few hundred yuan, tens of thousands of yuan means they have to sell their house, borrow from relatives and friends, and carry decades of debt so as to get by.

昂贵的药品,昂贵的器材,再加上不菲的“红包”，“三座大山”压在中国老百姓头上,有多少人被压得喘不过气来?又有多少本来就一贫如洗的家庭,雪上加霜, 越发穷得叮当响?又有多少人被疾病折磨得家破人亡? Expensive drugs and medical equipment, along with generous red envelopes, facing this "three heavy burdens", how many people are struggling to breathe under this pressure? How many poor families are becoming even poorer? How many people have died and how many family has fallen apart from illness ? 中国有强大的国防科エ委。我们可以让火箭上天,宇宙飞船遨游太空。中国已经成为世界第一电话大国、第六经济大国、世人瞩目的军事强国,可我们为什么不能成立医药科工委,让中国老百姓享受物美价廉的国产医药产品? China has a powerful Commission for Science, Technology and Industry for National Defense. We can launch rockets into space and send spacecraft to explore the universe. Moreover, China has become the world's largest telephone country, the sixth largest economy, and a military powerhouse that attracts global attention. Why can't we establish a Commission for Science, Technology and Industry for Medicine and let the Chinese people enjoy cheep and cheerful domestically-produced medical products? 刘晓程觉得,政府对医疗卫生事业的管理,只存在自由竞争,没有宏观调控,没有形成有效的医疗保障体系。目前,农村合作医疗被挤垮,卫生防疫站形同虚设, ー些传染病又卷土重来,成为百万群众的大敌。 Liu Xiaocheng thinks that the government's management of the healthcare industry only allows free competition while lacks macro control and an effective medical security system. Currently, Rural cooperative medical scheme (RCMS) has been squeezed out, and Epidemic Prevention Station are weak or non-existent. Some infectious diseases have made a comeback, posing a major threat to millions of people. 中国的地方病防治机构大部分都已取消,而各地的地方病却仍然相当严重。中国的艾滋病人数已引起世界的高度关注,仅河南就有38个“艾滋村”。中国艾滋病的发展趋势已经到了决战临界点, 如果再控制不住,其后果不堪设想……这ー系列的问题不能不令人担忧。 Most of China's local disease prevention and control institutions have been canceled, but local diseases in various regions are still quite serious. The number of AIDS patients in China has attracted global attention, with 38 "AIDS villages" in Henan alone. The trend of AIDS in China has reached a critical point, and if it cannot be controlled, the consequences will be unimaginable. These series of problems are worrying. 刘晓程觉得,中国的医疗卫生体制是中国最滞后、最需要改革的领域之一。它就像ー辆老朽的牛车,在万马奔腾的大好形势下慢悠悠地转着,承受着老百姓怨声载道的唾骂与责怪,丝毫没有进展。几年前,曾发生过这样的事,中央政府就医疗卫生改革问题让各部委提出方案,八大部委对中国卫生体制都提出了提案,唯有卫生部本身没有提案。 Liu Xiaocheng thinks that China's healthcare system made no progress even when bearing the complaints and blames of the people. It is now one of the most backward and in urgent need of reform. A few years ago, the central government asked ministries to propose plans for medical and health care reform. The Eight Grand Ministries proposed plans for China's healthcare system, but the Ministry of Health itself did not propose any. 刘晓程觉得医疗卫生关系到国计民生,关系到国家的安全稳定,关系到老百姓生存的基本权利,关系到老百姓的生死存亡,弄不好,是要死人的。他虽然身在高位,却不是一个唯“官”是从的人。面对医疗卫生界的弊端,身为中国医学科学院党委书记兼副院长的他,觉得自己有责任、有义务向上级反映。因此,他多次向卫生部、向中央有关领导进谏。 Liu Xiaocheng believes that medical and health care is related to the national economy and well-being, national security and stability, people’s basic rights and their lives. If not handled properly, people will die. Although he is in a high position, he is not a person who only listens to "officials." Faced with the drawbacks of the medical and healthcare fields, as the Party Secretary and Deputy Director of the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences, he feels responsible and obligated to report to the higher authorities. Therefore, he has repeatedly put forward relevant proposals to the Ministry of Health and relevant leaders of the central government. 他提出:国家应该加强对医疗卫生的宏观调控,建立明确的医疗卫生保障体系;政府对公立医院应该有明确的定性,不应把公立医院变成商业性医院,商业操作必然导致医院坑病人、医生骗患者的局面;政府应加大对医疗卫生的投入,改变目前这种远远落后于发达国家、连许多发展中国家都不如的局面。 He proposes that the government should strengthen macro-control over healthcare, establish a definitive healthcare security system; the government should have a clear definition for public hospitals and not turn them into commercial hospitals. Commercial operations will inevitably lead to problems like hospitals cheating patients and doctors taking advantage of the sick; the government should increase investment in healthcare and change the current situation that China's healthcare far behind developed countries and even many developing countries. 国家穷,没有那么多资金投入,可以增加吃、喝、玩、乐等娱乐业及房地产暴利的税收,用来解决国民的医疗卫生问题;国家应该成立医药科エ委,支持民族医药业的发展。医疗卫生的改革是“ 一把手的工程”,只有中央政府高度重视,痛下决心,从上而下地进行改革,中国的医疗卫生才能真正启动改革机制,才能改变老百姓看病贵、手术难的现状,才能造福于百姓,将纳税人的钱返回到纳税人身上。 If a country is poor and short of funds, it can increase taxes on profiteering industries like entertainment industries that focuses on eating, drinking, and relaxing and real estate industries so as to solve the healthcare problems of the people. A Commission for Science, Technology and Industry for Medicine should be established to support the development of ethnic medicine. Healthcare reform is a " A High Priority Project". Only when the central government attaches great importance, makes a painful decision, and carries out top-down reforms can China's healthcare truly start the reform mechanism, change the current situation of expensive medical treatment and inaccessibility to surgeries, benefit the people, and return taxpayers' money to taxpayers. 高度的社会责任感强烈地呼唤着他、驱使着他,使他ー次次做出了非同寻常的惊人之举。 The strong sense of social responsibility strongly calls for him, driving him to make extraordinary and amazing feats again and again. 2000年4月28日,身为中国医学科学院、中国协和医科大学党委书记、副院长、副校长的刘晓程,同中国医学科学院、中国协和医科大学院长和校长ー起,联名向主抓医疗卫生的国务院副总理上书,向副总理当面反映原卫生部某领导“抵制卫生系统教育管理体制改革;对卫生领域的科技体制改革能拖就拖;任人唯亲,不公平正派;沽名钓誉;搞非组织活动;对违法乱纪者姑息养奸,使中国医学科学院和协和医科大学体制改革无法进行”等诸多问题。 As Party Secretary and Deputy director of the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences and Vice President of Peking Union Medical College, Liu Xiaocheng, together with presidents of Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences and Peking Union Medical College, jointly wrote to Vice Premier in charge of medical and health care, reporting to him in person about the ideological style problems of some former leader in the Ministry of Health such as "resisting the reform of the education management system in the healthcare system, delaying the reform of the scientific and technological system in the medical and health field, cronyism, unfairness, fishing for fame and compliments, engaging in non-organizational activities, and tolerating and conniving with malfeasants, which have made it impossible for the system reform of the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences and Peking Union Medical College to proceed". 他们在信中最后写道:“如果XX X 部长这样对待中国的卫生事业又得不到限制和纠正,我们二人唯一的选择是共同愤然辞职,以谢天下!” In the letter, they wrote, "If Minister XX continues to treat China's health care system in this way and fails to be restricted and corrected, our only choice is to resign as an apology to the world!" 刘晓程对副总理直言不讳地讲道:“有些人不是以天下社稷为己任,而是’唯上唯书不唯实’。长此下去,中国的医疗卫生事业非毁在这些人手里不可!中国的医疗事业已经到了非改革不可的时候了!” 后来发生的ー系列事情,充分证明了他的正确性。 Liu Xiaocheng spoke frankly to the Vice Premier: "Some people do not take the country and the people as their own responsibility, but only focus on their own interests. If this continues, China's healthcare industry will be ruined by these people! China's healthcare industry has reached a point where reform is necessary!" Subsequently, a series of events proved his words. 2003年,中国爆发了震惊世界的“非典”,令中国政府及国人猛醒。卫生部部长被撤职。“非典”过后,政府亡羊补牢,增加投入,但仍然没有从根本上解决问题。多少有识之士发出强烈呼吁:“中国爆发’非典’是偶然中的必然。中国必须加强医疗体制的改革!” In 2003, China experienced the shocking "SARS" epidemic, which awakened the Chinese government and people. The Minister of the Ministry of Health was dismissed from his position. After the SARS epidemic, the government increased investment to address the problem, but the issue was not fundamentally resolved. Many insightful individuals appealed strongly: "The SARS outbreak in China was inevitable accident. China must strengthen the reform in healthcare system!" 2003年12月17日,《参考消息》转载美国《时代》周刊一篇题为《世界卫生组织官员认为中国公共卫生系统需要改革》的文章写道:“联合国1998年的调查发现,中国贫困线以下的人口中,不少人因为曾经生过ー场大病致贫”，“全国4000个基层防疫中心要自己提供50%以上的预算,而在其他多数国家,类似机构都是由国家出资”，“许多在毛泽东时期已经基本得到控制的传染病现在又重新抬头,肺结核、乙肝等传染病现在又开始扩散。 In December 17, 2003, "Reference News" reprinted an article from the US magazine Time titled "WHO Officials Believe China's Public Healthcare System Needs Reform". The article stated that "In 1998，an UN investigation found that many people living below the poverty line in China fell into poverty because they had suffered from serious illnesses", "4000 grassroots epidemic prevention center in the country have to provide more than 50% of their budget themselves, while in most other countries, similar institutions are funded by the state", "many infectious diseases that had been largely controlled during the Mao Tse-tung era have now resurfaced, and diseases such as tuberculosis and hepatitis B are now spreading again." 现在中国有5%的人是乙肝病毒携带者,而在美国只有1%。世界卫生组织2000年的ー份报告显示,191个成员国中,中国的医疗体系排名第144位,落后于印度尼西亚和孟加拉。中国卫生部统计显示,去年中国有81万人感染了血吸虫病,几乎比1988年增加了一倍”，“在中国的所有国际组织都发出了明确信号:中国的公共卫生系统需要改革。但是迄今为止,我们还没有看到任何回应。” In China, 5% of the population are carriers of the Hepatitis B virus, compared to only 1% in the United States. According to a report by the World Health Organization in 2000, China's healthcare system ranked 144th out of 191 member countries, behind Indonesia and Bangladesh. According to statistics from The Ministry of Health of the People's Republic of China, last year 810,000 people were infected with schistosomiasis in China, nearly doubling the number in 1988. "All international organizations in China have sent a clear message: China's public health system needs reform. But so far, we have not seen any response." 2003年,国务院颁布了《突发公共卫生事件应急条例》《中医药条例》《医疗废物管理条例》《乡村医生从业管理条例》…… In 2003, the State Council issued Regulation on the Urgent Handling of Public Health Emergencies, Chinese Medicine Ordinance, Regulations on the Administration of Medical Wastes, Regulation on the Administration of the Practice of Rural Doctors, and more. 温家宝总理上任不久就说:“要把群众看病贵、看病难的问题当作本届政府的ー项重要工作。” Premier Wen Jiabao said shortly after taking office: "Treating the high cost of medical treatment and difficulty of seeing a doctor as one of the key tasks of this government." 这一切,都印证了刘晓程三年前的呼吁。但在当时,他提出的许多建议、多次进谏,都在毫无反馈的时光中无声无息地消失了。他只能发出无奈的感叹:“难哪！医疗界的改革太难了！” All of this confirms Liu Xiaocheng's appeal three years ago. However, at that time many of his suggestions and proposals received no response. Helplessly, he could sigh : "It's difficult to promote reform in the medical community. 邓小平同志曾说过:“经济体制改革必须和政治体制改革同步。”中国医疗体制的改革必须涉及政治体制改革。这远远不是ー个刘晓程所能改变的。 Comrade Deng Xiaoping once said: "Economic system reform must be synchronized with political system reform." The reform of China's healthcare system must involve political system reform, which is not something that Liu Xiaocheng can change.

他感到自己虽然坐在中国医学科学院党委书记兼副院长的位置上,但他仍然是棋盘上的ー个小卒。尽管他使出浑身解数,可他瘦弱的肩膀仍然推不动这部陈旧的机器,因此陷入难以名状的苦闷之中。他觉得自己下过乡,当过“黑五类”,饱尝过蹉駝岁月之磨难,也留过洋,受过中央总书记接见,与美国总统座谈过,大荣大辱都领教过,到了这把年龄,一切都看淡了 ,唯独看不淡的是那份为人为医的天职。 He felt that even though he sat in the position of the Party Secretary and Deputy Director of the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences, he was still a small pawn on the chessboard. Despite his best efforts, his weak shoulders were still unable to move this outdated machine, thus he fell into an indescribable state of depression. He was once set down to the countryside, being labeled as the "Five Black Categories" and endured the hardships of life. He had also studied abroad, met with the General Secretary of the Communist Party of China and had discussions with the President of the United States. At this age, he had become indifferent to everything, except for his unwavering dedication to the medical profession. 古语说,不为良相则为良医。他觉得中国的医疗改革,任重而道远,自己已经 51岁了,再这样耗下去实在耗不起,与其整天在文山会海、接来送往的繁杂琐事中空耗生命,莫不如趁自己还有足够的体力和精力,做点儿カ所能及的事,为中国的卫生事业闯出一条新路,为饱受病痛折磨的心血管病人带来一点儿福音,也算不枉活一生。自己瘦弱的肩膀既然推不动事业的发展,就下去建一所梦想中的医院,用实际行动去为老百姓造点儿福吧。 As the old saying goes, if one cannot become a good prime minister, one should become a good doctor. Liu felt that the healthcare reform in China was a long and arduous task. But he is already 51, he could not afford to waste any more time on endless paperwork and trivial matters. Instead of wasting his life on these things, he wanted to use his remaining strength and energy to do something he could, to find a new way for China's healthcare system and bring some good news to the patients suffering from cardiovascular diseases. It would not be a waste of life if he could build his dream hospital with his weak shoulders, and bring benefits to the common people through his practical actions. 2000年12月31日,当人们沉浸在新千年到来的喜悦之中,一个知天命之人却站在新旧千年的交叉路口上,迎着扑面而来的千年之风,向卫生部正式提出:第一辞去一切官职,第二要求提前退休。因为只辞职不退休,还要受人事制度约束,不能随便离开单位易地工作。于是,他再一次向自己、向传统观念、向医疗体制发出了挑战。 On December 31, 2000, while people were immersed in the joy of the arrival of the new millennium, a person who understood his destiny stood at the crossroads of the old and new millenniums, facing the strong wind of the new century and proposing to the Ministry of Health that he asked for resignation from all his official positions, and requested an early retirement. Because if he only resigned without retiring, he would still be constrained by the personnel system and could not easily leave his unit for work elsewhere. Thus, he once again posed challenges to himself, traditional concepts, and the healthcare system. 从中央到下属的各级组织,纷纷向他发出挽留与恳谈。但,一切努力都是枉然。领导和员エ们,为他举行了盛大的告别宴会。

Organizations at all levels, from the central to the subordinate, sent him requests to stay and pleas to reconsider. However, all efforts were in vain. As a result, the leaders and employees had to hold a grand farewell party for him.

临走前,他把所有的荣誉证书付之一炬。帮他收拾东西的党办主任看到这么多国家级的荣誉证书化为灰烬,十分心疼,几次呼喊着从火堆里抢出来:“哎呀,这是全国先进工作者证书,烧了多可惜呀「’ Before leaving, he set fire to all his certificates of honor. The Director of the Party Office who helped him pack saw so many national-level certificates turn to ashes, feeling heartbroken. He had tried several times to save them from the flames, shouting " Oh my God, this is the certificate for national advanced worker, it's such a pity to burn it! " 刘晓程却说:“留着它有什么用?过眼烟云,什么都没用了。”他只让党办主任留下ー个蓝色医疗证;这个留着,等我得大病的时候用。” But Liu Xiaocheng said, "What's the use of keeping them? It only belongs to the past and now it's useless." He only let the Director of the Party Officekeep the blue medical certificate, saying, "Keep this, I'll use it if I get seriously ill." 无官一身轻,万岁老百姓。 Without any official position, he is now free as a common people. 2001年元月,ー个挣脱了体制束缚、摆脱了功名利禄、打碎了世俗桎梏的人, 迎着新千年的曙光,气宇轩昂地走出了办公室,目送他的是一片惋惜而又充满敬佩的目光…… In January 2001, a man who had broken free from the shackles of the system, freed himself from fame and fortune, and shattered the shackles of convention, walked out of his office under the dawn of the new millennium. Everyone watched him away with regret and admiration... 在当今这物欲横流的世界里,有几人能够抵住官位的诱惑,又有几人能挡住金钱的吸引?反之,为金钱和官位折腰,甚至断送性命的人,却如雨后春笋,屡禁不绝。相比之下,我们不能不为刘晓程超凡的人生境界而赞美、而叫好,而献上一束鲜花了。 In today's world of materialism, how many people can resist the temptation of official positions, and how many can resist the lure of money? On the contrary, people who bow to money and power, for which some even cost their lives, are as common as mushrooms after rain, and are difficult to eradicate. In comparison, we cannot help praising and applauding Liu Xiaocheng's extraordinary life state, and offer him a bouquet of flowers. 我可以丢掉一切,唯独丟不下病人 "I can give up everything, except for my patients," 刘晓程说:“我上辈子可能欠别人的太多,这辈子来偿还了。” 他从澳大利亚留学归来时,就梦想有一天在中国的土地上创建一所世界一流的心血管病医院,让国人也享受世界一流的医疗服务,从而实现自己“博爱、济贫” 的抱负。

Liu Xiaocheng said, "Maybe I owed someone too much in my previous life, and I have to repay it in this life." When he returned from studying in Australia, he dreamed of building a world-class cardiovascular hospital in China so that the Chinese people could enjoy world-class medical services and realize his ambition of "Universal Love and charity."

然而,岁月沧桑,花开花落,梦想一直还是梦想,转眼年过半百,但他心中的梦想并未因时光的流逝而泯灭。辞官以后,他决心要实现这个梦。他很快就遇到了知音,天津市委、市政府,天津开发区管委会的几位领导全力支持他提出的宏大构想一在天津经济技术开发区（英文字头缩写TEDA,简称“泰达”）创建一座世界一流的国际心血管病医院。 However, time passed, flowers bloomed and withered, and the dream remained a dream. As he turned fifty, his dream had not been extinguished by the passage of time. After resigning from his official position, he was determined to realize this dream. He soon found a kindred spirit, and several leaders of the Tianjin Party committee, Tianjin People's Government, and the Administrative Committee of Tianjin Economic-Technological Development Area (abbreviated as TEDA) fully supported his grand idea of building a world-class international cardiovascular hospital in the Tianjin Economic-Technological Development Area (abbreviated as TEDA) . 企盼十几年的梦,终于可以实现了。 After more than a decade of anticipation, the dream can finally come true. 52岁的他,完全沉浸在实现梦想的兴奋中。就像14年前到牡丹江一样,他以超人的精力,火一般的激情,率领几十名职エ,ー边借天津开发区医院的房舍开展心脏手术,ー边创建心血管病医院。 At the age of 52, Liu is completely immersed in the excitement of realizing his dream. Just like 14 years ago when he went to Mudanjiang, he led dozens of medical professionals with his superhuman energy and fiery passion to perform heart surgeries on the premises of the Tianjin Development Area Hospital, while establishing the cardiovascular hospital “这两年是空前的辛苦,却是空前的欣慰厂’这是刘晓程最深切的感受。 “These two years have been extremely hard, but also extremely fulfilling," This is the deepest feeling of Liu Xiaocheng. 2002年10月末的一天傍晚,秋风瑟瑟,凉意袭人。从天津塘沽狭窄的火车站ロ走出一位憔悴不堪的中年农民,怀里抱着骨瘦如柴的妇女。他们从牡丹江上车坐了二十几个小时的硬座,他足足抱了她二十几个小时。 On a windy and chilly evening in late October 2002, a haggard middle-aged farmer with a thin, emaciated woman in his arms walked out of the narrow Tanggu railway station in Tianjin. They had been on a hard-seat train for over twenty hours from Mudanjiang, and he had been holding her for over twenty hours. 这妇女患有严重风湿性主动脉瓣、二尖瓣双瓣膜心脏病,已属晚期,心衰三度,不能行动,体重不足38公斤。她的生命就像秋风ー样盘旋在细若游丝般的呼吸中,随时可能飘走。十几年来,他们倾家荡产跑了好多家医院,最大的收获就是那份沉甸甸的、被宣判死刑的病历……这次,他们终于打听到刘晓程的下落,就怀着最后ー线希望千里迢迢跑来找他。 The woman suffered from severe rheumatic mitral and aortic valvular heart disease in the late stages, with Third degree heart failure and inability to move, and weighed less than 38 kilograms. Her life was so vulnerable as if she would pass away at any moment. They had spent their life savings and visited many hospitals over the past decade, but what they got was the heavy and death-sentence-like medical records. This time, they finally found out where Liu Xiaocheng was, and came to him with their last hope after traveling a long distance. 中年农民抱着妻子ー出站口,有人迎了上来:“请问你们是从牡丹江来的吧? ” “嗯哪。你是……”中年农民不觉ー愣。 A middle-aged farmer holding his wife was greeted at the station exit: "Are you from Mudanjiang?"

"Yes, we are. And who are you?" The middle-aged farmer was surprised. “我是刘院长派来接你们的。”在电话里得知病人不能行走,刘晓程派孔祥荣 主任开车来接他们。

"Director Liu sent me sent to pick you up.”Upon learning that the patient could not walk, Director Liu Xiaocheng sent Doctor Kong Xiangrong to drive to pick them up. ー听是刘院长派车来接自己,这对走投无路、连卧铺都买不起的农民夫妇来说,实在受宠若惊,眼里顿时泪花闪闪。 Hearing that Director Liu sent a car to pick them up, the farmer and his wife, who were penniless and couldn't even afford a sleeper ticket, were overwhelmed with gratitude and tears filled their eyes. 可是,面对被多家医院宣判死刑、随时可能死去的重患,面对刚刚起步、还没有拿到心脏手术正式批文的开发区医院的有限条件,这个手术到底做还是不做?重大的抉择考问着刘晓程,也考问着与他共同创业的全体职エ。 However, facing the critically ill patient who had been declared terminally ill by multiple hospitals and could die at any time, and facing the limited conditions of the hospital, which had just started and had not yet obtained the official approval for heart surgery, whether to do the operation or not became a major decision challenging Liu Xiaocheng and all his colleagues with whom Liu started the business. 做,失败了,对刘晓程、对刚刚起步的事业的负面影响是不可低估的;不做,找个借口将病人推出去,等待病人的只有一个字:死。而且病人的病情容不得半点儿拖延。

If they did it but failed, the negative impact on Liu Xiaocheng and the fledgling hospital would be immeasurable. If they didn't do it, and made an excuse to refuse the patient, the patient would only face one fate: death. And the patient's condition couldn't tolerate any delay.

有过无数次类似经历的刘晓程,丝毫没犹豫,手ー扬,命令道:“准备手术「’这是刘晓程一贯的作风。 Liu Xiaocheng, who had countless similar experiences, didn't hesitate for a moment. He moved his hand and commanded, "Prepare for surgery." This was Liu Xiaocheng's usual style. 10月27日,天津市卫生局组织专家来评审开展手术的条件,答应下周一（10 月31日）发批文。但病人的病情已无法再拖,刘晓程恳请卫生局领导和专家组,破例批准他先手术后补批文。他为病人高度负责的精神感动了大家,默许他“违法” 于次日进行手术。 On October 27th, the Tianjin Health Bureau organized a panel of experts to evaluate the conditions for performing the surgery and promised to issue the approval on the following Monday (October 31st). However, the patient's condition could no longer be delayed. Liu Xiaocheng pleaded with the leaders of the health bureau and the expert group to make an exception, allowing him to perform the surgery before the approval was granted. His sense of responsibility for the patient moved everyone, and they silently allowed him to "break the law" to perform the surgery the next day. 麻醉师是借的,体外循环医生是借的,手术室护士长是现请来的…… The anesthesiologist was borrowed and so was the extracorporeal circulation doctor , and the operating room chief nurse was newly hired. 10月28日9点,全院职エ聚集在手术室门口,一双双沉重的目光,默默地目送着病人进了手术室……这是医院的第一例心脏手术,大家都知道这次手术成败的分量。对全院来说,她不仅是一条生命,而且是ー个开端。从上午9点一直到深夜 23点,ー连!4个小时,全院职エ的心都一直悬着。 At 9 o'clock on October 28th, all the hospital staff gathered at the entrance of the operating room, silently watching the patient enter the operating room with heavy hearts. This was the hospital's first cardiac surgery, and everyone knew the weight of its success or failure. To the hospital, she was not just a life, but also a beginning of this new hospital. From 9 am until 11 pm, for a total of 14 hours, the hearts of all the hospital staff were hanging in suspense. ー个濒临死亡的灵魂一直徘徊在无影灯下。刘晓程要为病人心脏实施主动脉瓣、二尖瓣双瓣膜替换术,而且由于病人肝功能极差,渗血不止,无法关胸。23 ：15, 死神终于退却,手术获得了极大成功。 A soul on the brink of death lingered under the shadowless lamp. Liu Xiaocheng had to perform double valve replacement of aortic and mitral valves. on the patient's heart. Additionally, due to the patient's poor liver function and continued bleeding, he couldn't close the chest. At 23:15, the Grim Reaper finally retreated, and the surgery was a great success. 10月28日从此成为泰达国际心血管病医院的纪念日---为了纪念ー个普通农妇的新生,也为了纪念救死扶伤精神在国际心血管病医院永远发扬光大。 October 28th became the commemoration day of TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH), to commemorate the rebirth of an ordinary farmer woman and to perpetuate the spirit of saving lives and helping others in the hospital forever. 术后,8名医护人员对病人日夜轮流监护。病人没有毛衣,护士长车慧将自己的毛衣送给她;医生护士每次打饭都多打ー份,给买不起饭菜的病人丈夫。数天后,病人痊愈出院了。农民夫妇握着刘晓程的手久久泣不成声,末了说道:“俺们这辈子报答不了你,只能等下辈子报答了「’ After the surgery, eight medical staff took turns to monitor the patient day and night. The patient had no sweater, so the head nurse, Che Hui, gave her own sweater to her; the doctors and nurses always ordered an extra portion of food for the patient's husband who couldn't afford meals.A few days later, the patient recovered and was discharged. The farmer couple held Liu Xiaocheng's hand and wept for a long time, saying, "We cannot repay you in this lifetime, we can only repay you in the next." 如果不是遇到刘晓程,如果不是医院为她免去两万多元的医疗费用,如果不是全体医护人员对他们关怀备至,这对濒临绝境的农民夫妇,很难说会走到哪ー步。 If it weren't for Liu Xiaocheng, if it weren't for the hospital waiving their medical expenses of over 20,000 yuan, and if it weren't for the caring attention of all the medical staff, it's hard to say where this farmer couple on the brink of desperation would have ended up. 刘晓程任心外科医生25年,手术8000多例,不知经历过多少这样的事情。患者的感谢信多得数都数不清。老抗联战士、黑龙江省老省长陈雷同志赠给他一幅牌匾,刻着“晓界生死,程接古今”八个大字。 Liu Xiaocheng has been a cardiothoracic surgeon for 25 years and has performed over 8,000 surgeries. He has experienced countless similar situations, and he has received numerous letters of gratitude from patients. The old veteran of the Anti-Japanese War and former governor of Heilongjiang Province, Comrade Chen Leitong, presented him with a plaque inscribed with the words" Xiao Jie Sheng Si, Cheng Jie Gu Jin" 但,刘晓程不是神医,在拯救濒危病人的手术中也有失败的时候。 However, Liu Xiaocheng is not a miracle doctor. There were also times when he failed to save endangered patients during surgery. 一名23岁的年轻人两年前在某医院做了心脏肿瘤切除,但术后效果不佳,又复发了,生命垂危。一家三口苦苦哀求刘晓程为其做心、肺移植术。刘晓程深知这种手术风险极大,成功率极低,尤其这种晚期肿瘤加上第一次手术已形成广泛粘连的病情,更增加了手术的风险。 Two years ago, a 23-year-old young man underwent heart tumor removal at a certain hospital, but the postoperative effect was not good and it recurred, putting his life in danger. His family begged Liu Xiaocheng to perform a heart and lung transplantation for him. Liu Xiaocheng knew very well that the risks of such an operation were extremely high and the success rate was very low, especially in this late-stage tumor case with extensive adhesion resulting from the first surgery, which further increased the risk of surgery. 但不做心、肺移植,病人必死无疑。做,也可能生, 但没有十分把握。如果失败了,他也可能因此而名誉扫地,可他必须竭尽全力去做,这是他做人的准则。 However, if the patient didn't receive the heart and lung transplantation, he would undoubtedly die. If he did it, he might live, but there was no absolute certainty. For Liu Xiaocheng, if he failed, he might lose his reputation, but he had to do his best, which was his principle as a human beings. “我不敢保证他能活,但我会尽全力。”他坦诚地告诉病人家属。 "I cannot guarantee that he will survive, but I will do my best," he told the patient's family. 手术那天,小伙子面带微笑向亲人告别,看来他心里做好了各种准备。 On the day of the surgery, the young man smiled and said goodbye to his relatives, as if he had prepared himself mentally for all kinds of outcomes. 手术进行了十几个小时,很遗憾,死神还是夺走了年轻人的生命。遗体已经装上车了,家属却坚决不走,必须要见刘院长,谁劝都不听。 The surgery lasted for more than ten hours, but unfortunately, the angel of death still took the young man's life. The body had already been loaded onto the vehicle, but the family insisted on seeing Director Liu, and no one could persuade them to leave. 大家都为刘晓程捏了一把汗,以为家属要找他算账,就说:“刘院长,你可要挺住啊!” Everyone was nervous for Liu Xiaocheng, thinking that the family was going to hold him accountable, saying "Director Liu, you must hang in there!" 刘晓程却说:“没什么挺不住的,我们尽力了ド’ However, Liu Xiaocheng said, "There's nothing I can't handle. We did our best." 没想到,死者父母见到刘晓程却扑通一声跪下了,拽都拽不起来。 Unexpectedly, the parents of the deceased knelt down as soon as they saw Liu Xiaocheng and couldn't be pulled up. “刘院长啊,我儿子上手术台前一再叮嘱我,说他死了也要我来谢谢您!”死者父亲握住刘晓程的手,悲恸欲绝,“刘院长啊,我替我儿子来向您道谢了。您为他尽カ了!” "Director Liu, my son repeatedly told me before he went into surgery that even if he died, I had to thank you in person !" The father of the deceased held Liu Xiaocheng's hand, grieving and thanking him, "Director Liu, I am here to thank you on behalf of my son. You did your best for him!" 此情此景,催人泪下。不是为了生者,而是为了告慰死者,来感谢一位并没有救活死者的医生。 The scene was so emotional that it brought tears to everyone's eyes. It wasn't for the living, but to console the dead by thanking a doctor who tried his best but still failed to save the patient. “我很遗憾,没能救活他。”刘晓程的声音沙哑,他已经耗尽了体力与精力。 "I'm sorry I failed to save him," Liu Xiaocheng's voice was hoarse, he had already exhausted his physical and mental strength. “刘院长您千万别这么说,您已经尽力了。我儿子死而无憾了！” "Don't say that, Director Liu. You did everything you could. My son passed away without any regrets!" 没过几天,这位名叫郑铭长的死者家属将一幅写着“仁心仁术除疾患,全心全意为患者。柳叶神术冠天下,济世丹心惠众生”的牌匾,送到了刘晓程面前。 A few days later, the family of the deceased, named Zheng Mingchang, presented a plaque to Liu Xiaocheng with the words ""With compassion and skill, he cures illnesses, dedicating his whole hearts to patients. As a remarkable expertise,Liu Xiaocheng is renowned worldwide, and his benevolent spirit benefits all beings." 死者家属给医生送牌匾,在当今的医疗界,谁曾听说过? Who has ever heard of a family of the deceased giving a plaque to a doctor in today's medical community? 中国的老百姓已经够苦了, 我们还是为老百姓积点儿德吧! The Chinese people have suffered enough, let's accumulate some virtue for them! 与刘晓程一起共事的人都承认,刘晓程的精力过人,工作效率更惊人。 Those who worked with Liu Xiaocheng all recognized that he had extraordinary energy and astonishing work efficiency. 2002年3月28日,新医院破土动エ,不到一年半,2003年9月26日,投资7.2 亿、亚洲最大、占地11万平方米的泰达国际心血管病医院,在天津经济技术开发区举行隆重的开业典礼。 On March 28, 2002, the groundbreaking ceremony for the new hospital was held. In less than a year and a half, on September 26, 2003, the TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH), which cost 720 million yuan, was opened with great ceremony in the Tianjin Economic-Technological Development Area. 这座设有600张病床,集医疗、教学、科研与康复四位一体的心血管病医院,是天津经济技术开发区继摩托罗拉、丰田、雅马哈、雀巢、三星等3700家企业之后,又ー家令世界瞩目的企业。 This cardiovascular hospital, which has 600 beds and integrates medical treatment, teaching, research, and rehabilitation, is the latest world-renowned enterprise to settle in the zone after 3,700 other companies such as Motorola, Toyota, Yamaha, Nestle, and Samsung. 卫生部副部长朱庆生同志在开业典礼上宣读了吴仪的贺信。信中写道:“心血管病是人类健康和生命的主要杀手之一。我国现有400万心血管病人等待手术, 而全国每年仅能完成4万多例。泰达国际心血管病医院的建成,将为改善我国心血管病的治疗做出贡献,给广大心血管病患者带来福音……” At the opening ceremony, Vice Minister of the Ministry of Health Zhu Qingsheng read out a congratulatory letter from Wu Yi, which reads "Cardiovascular disease is one of the major killers of human health and life. There are currently 4 million cardiovascular disease patients in China waiting for surgery, while just over 40,000 surgeries can be completed per year in the whole country. The construction of TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH) will contribute to improving cardiovascular disease treatment in China and bring good news to cardiovascular disease patients..." 这所世界一流的医院,是刘晓程的理想、意志与追求的完美体现,它处处充满了人文关怀。医院里刻着刘晓程一生的座右铭“博爱济世”。走廊里,装有防止病人摔倒的软包扶梯;住院处设有病人休息的阳光室;宽敞、舒适的病人家属等候区, 摆有沙发、茶几、大型薄屏彩电…… This world-class hospital is a perfect reflection of Liu Xiaocheng's ideals, will, and pursuits, and it is full of humanistic care everywhere. The hospital bears Liu Xiaocheng's lifelong motto "Universal Love and Alleviating Suffering". The corridors are equipped with soft package escalators to prevent patients from falling; the admission office has a sunny room for patients to rest; the spacious and comfortable patient family waiting area is furnished with sofas, coffee tables, and large thin-screen color TVs... 病人可以享受高档的“总统”病房,也可以享受 50元一天的二人普通病房。所有病房都配有日本原装多功能床、电话、小型薄屏彩电、卫生间、热水、纯净水、中央空调,医院还设有咖啡厅、商业街、花店、贵重物品存放处、24小时快餐厅、商务中心、屋顶儿童乐园。 Patients can enjoy the high-end "presidential" ward or the standard double ward for 50 yuan per day. All rooms are equipped with Japanese multifunctional beds, telephones, small thin-screen color TVs, bathrooms, hot water, purified water, central air conditioning, and the hospital also has a café, shopping street, flower shop, valuables storage, 24-hour fast food restaurant, business center, and rooftop children's playground. 医院配有世界最先进的各种检测、治疗心血管疾病的高科技仪器:双梯度核磁共振、十六排CT、ECT、平板式数字减影心导管机、三维实时成像彩色В超……还有一台病人不用穿刺动脉做心脏造影,就可以确诊有无心脏病的世界第三台、欧亚第一台电子束СТ。 The hospital is equipped with the world's most advanced high-tech instruments for detecting and treating cardiovascular diseases, such as dual-gradient nuclear magnetic resonance, 16-row CT, ECT, flat-panel digital subtraction angiography machines, and real-time 3D imaging color ultrasound... There is also the third machine in the world and the first in Eurasia that can diagnose heart disease without the need for arterial puncture. 在这儿,病人不用端着大小便到处找化验室,医院特为他们设立了可以传递标本的特殊卫生间。化验室设有全自动条码扫描、运送、分检、离心、取样的检验线,按一下电钮,就通过自动物流系统传到化验室,医生可以通过信息系统随时看化验结果。全院看不到胶片和纸张,这是中国真正的数字化医院。 Here, patients do not need to carry their bodily waste to different laboratories for testing. The hospital has special bathrooms where specimens can be sent for testing. The laboratory has fully automated barcode scanning, transportation, sorting, centrifugation, and sampling lines. With just a press of a button, the specimens are sent to the laboratory through an automatic logistics system, and doctors can view the results at any time through the information system. The hospital is truly digitalized, and there are no films or papers visible throughout the hospital. 刘晓程以院长身份公开向社会承诺:“国际心血管病医院对每种疾病将实行公开、透明的每收费限价,保证收费低于医保部门核定的单病平均收费标准,保证以优质的服务为广大群众解除疾苦。坚决杜绝吃回扣、收红包、大检查、大开方的各种不正之风!” As the hospital's director, Liu Xiaocheng publicly promised to society that "TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH) will implement transparent pricing for each disease and ensure that the charges are lower than the single-disease average charge standard set by the medical insurance department. We are committed to relieve the suffering of the people with high-quality services. We will firmly put an end to the unhealthy tendency such as kickbacks, red envelopes, excessive examinations, and over-prescription!" 医院规定,对请不起专家的贫困病人,将主动为其安排专家,而专家的报酬将在医院的二次分配中解决,与病人交费不挂钩。 The hospital stipulates that for poor patients who cannot afford specialists, the hospital will proactively arrange specialists for them, and the specialists' remuneration will be solved through the hospital's second distribution, which is not related to the patients' fees. 医院对各种医疗设备及药品全部实行公开竞价招标。由于对厂家压价压得太低,厂家推销员拖着哭腔说:“刘院长你压得也太狠了,还让我们厂家活不活?”

The hospital adopts open competitive bidding for all medical equipment and drugs. Due to the low price pressure on manufacturers, sales representatives from the companies even pleaded with tearful voices, saying, "Director Liu, you're pressing us too hard. Will our company still survive?"

刘晓程却说:“你还是考虑让老百姓活不活吧!这些仪器和耗材的价钱,最后都要压到老百姓头上。中国的老百姓已经够苦了,卖房卖地来看病。我们还是为老百姓造点福吧!我们ー不要回扣,二不需要培训。你把压到老百姓头上的虚高价钱压到最低,看我们能不能接受?” However, Liu Xiaocheng replied, "You should consider more about the common people ! The prices of these instruments and consumables will eventually be paid by the common people. Chinese people have already suffered too much. They sell houses and land to seek medical treatment. Let's bring more benefits to the common people! We don't want kickbacks, and we don't need training either. You need to push down the inflated prices that paid by the common people and see if we can accept them." 王铁林是刘晓程的大学同窗,曾与刘晓程共同创建了牡丹江心血管病医院,是刘晓程的金兰之交。这次得知刘晓程又要创建国际心血管病医院,王铁林毅然辞去珠海中山大学第五医院院长之职,到这担任行政副院长,跟刘晓程一起创建这所医院。 Wang Tielin, Liu Xiaocheng's university classmate and a close friend, had previously co-founded the Mudanjiang Cardiovascular Hospital with Liu Xiaocheng. Hearing Liu Xiaocheng decide establish an international cardiovascular hospital , he resigned from his position as the director of the fifth affiliated Hospital Sun Yat-sen University without hesitation and then join this new hospital as the deputy dean, working together with Liu Xiaocheng to establish it. 这位中国医院建设和装备学会副秘书长兼《中国医院建设和装备》杂志副总编,在中国医疗建设方面享有很高的声誉。这次建筑国际心血管病医院,创造了包括开办费在内每平方米6000元的最低成本,以及利用不到一年半时间建成一座大型现代化医院的世界纪录。 Wang Tielin, serves as the Deputy Secretary-General of the China Association of Medical Equipment Hospital Architecture and Equipment Branch and the Deputy Editor-in-Chief of the Chinese Hospital Architecture & Equipment magazine, enjoying a high reputation in the field of medical construction in China. During the construction of TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH), he achieved the lowest cost per square meter, including start-up expenses, at 6,000 yuan, and set a world record by completing a large-scale modern hospital in less than a year and a half. 在购置设备的竞价中,刘晓程和王铁林一个唱红脸,ー个唱白脸。刘晓程思维敏捷,口才雄辩;王铁林性格内向,沉稳多思。两人对西门子、飞利浦等几十个商家单兵教练,轮番轰炸,让商家分头单独报价,从上午一直唇枪舌剑到第二天凌晨 4点。 During the bidding process for equipment procurement, Liu Xiaocheng and Wang Tielin played different roles. Liu Xiaocheng was quick-thinking and eloquent, while Wang Tielin was introverted and thoughtful. They took turns pressuring dozens of vendors, including Siemens and Philips, bombarding them to provide separate quotations. This intense negotiation lasted from morning till 4 a.m. the next day. 商家从未见过这样的院长,人家都是趁机想大捞一把,他俩却分文不要。商家不得不被院长的人格所折服,最后以令人咂舌的低价成交:一台全功能手术台从 18万降到10万,刘晓程还向厂家白要了两台； 700张日本原装全功能病床以2. 5折成交,还白送两套总统电动轮椅;一台西门子呼吸机要价4万美元,最后以1.9万美元成交。 The merchants had never seen a director like this before. Others would take advantage of the situation to make a big profit, but these two didn't want a single cent. The merchants couldn't help but be impressed by the director's integrity. In the end, they made an astonishing deal: a fully functional operating table was reduced from 180,000 to 100,000 yuan, and Liu Xiaocheng even managed to get two additional ones for free from the manufacturer. They also negotiated a deal for 700 original Japanese fully functional hospital beds at 2.5 times below the original price and received two sets of presidential electric wheelchairs for free. A Siemens ventilator was originally priced at $40,000, but it was finally sold at $19,000. 三天三夜,成交了 !.8亿元人民币的仪器和设备。 In just three days and three nights, instruments and equipment worth 180 million yuan were successfully procured. 在这里,病人不用给医生送红包,医生绝对不敢拿你的小命“开玩笑”。刘晓程不仅率先垂范,而且公开宣布:“那些被红包喂肥了的’专家’,技术再好也不能登上我们搭的舞台,因为我们的薪水填不满他们的欲壑!救死扶伤的事业是有灵魂的人从事的事业,没有同情心的人是不能从事这种职业的!如果发现哪个医生收红包,将立刻开除!” In this hospital, patients do not need to give doctors red envelopes, and doctors would never dare to make fun of people’ lives. Liu Xiaocheng not only sets an example himself but also announces, "Those 'experts' who have been fattened by red envelopes, no matter how skilled they are, will never step into our hospital because our salaries cannot fulfill their insatiable desires! The mission of saving lives and providing medical care is a pursuit of those with a soul. Those without compassion cannot engage in this profession! If any doctor is found accepting red envelopes, they will be immediately dismissed!" 早在牡丹江心血管病医院,曾发生过这样的事。刘晓程发现一名弟子多次向病人索要钱物,多次批评屡教不改。最后一次,病人借钱给弟子买了两条烟。刘晓程得知此事后对弟子说:“你不配做我的弟子,我们从此断绝师徒关系！但我给你找条出路,送你到北京中日友好医院去进修!”弟子哭了,一再认错。 Similar things have occurred in the Mudanjiang Cardiovascular Hospital. Liu Xiaocheng discovered that one of his students repeatedly extorted money and items from patients, despite repeated criticisms and admonishments. In the final instance, the patient borrowed money to buy the doctor two cigarettes. Upon hearing that, Liu Xiaocheng said to his mentee, "You are unworthy of being my mentee, and our teacher-student relationship ends here! However, I will find a way for you and send you to China-Japan Friendship Hospital.| 刘晓程却愤然道:“病人连手术费都交不起,天天吃窝头！你竟然去搜刮病人的救命钱,你还有良心吗?你不配当医生!”两人从此断绝了师徒关系,但仍然是朋友。 Liu Xiaocheng angrily retorted, "The patient can't even afford the surgery fees and has to eat plain buns every day! And yet you should extort money from for them, do you have any conscience left? You're not worthy of being a doctor!" From then on, their mentor-mentee relationship was severed, but they remained friends. 刘晓程对国际心血管医院的全体职エ讲道:“大家都得挣钱养家糊口,这是生存的需要。但别忘了我们手中操着他人的性命,我们不能昧着良心赚黑钱！我要让你们有尊严,有人格,合法地通过劳动获得应得的报酬！而不能收受红包,让老百姓骂我们是毫无人性、毫无自尊的白眼狼!” Liu Xiaocheng spoke to all the staff at TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH), "Everyone needs to earn a living, to support their families and that’s the basic need of survival. But let's not forget that we hold people's lives in our hands. We can't earn dirty money without conscience! I want you to have dignity, and to receive fair compensation for your labor in a legal way. We can't accept red envelopes and let the people call us heartless, self-respectless wolves!" 但在当今,不正之风猖獗,职业道德沦丧,孔方兄主宰一切的现实中,不少人对刘晓程的做法感到不可思议。有人甚至提出非议:“他是为了赚大钱オ提出辞职的。这所国际医院一定有他的股份,要不他オ不会下那么大气力呢!” However, nowadays. Corruption is rampant, professional ethics are lost, many people find Liu Xiaocheng's actions unbelievable. Some even criticized him, saying, "He resigned just to make big money. He must have shares in this international hospital; otherwise, why would he put in so much effort?" 刘晓程却淡然一笑,快言快语道:“我要想赚钱还不容易吗!我可以去国外,也可以去‘走穴‘,一年赚个几百万不成问题!何必要什么股份?再说,这是政府投资的非营利性公立医院,没有我刘晓程一分钱。 Liu Xiaocheng smiled lightly and said bluntly, "If I wanted to make money, wouldn't it be easy? I could go abroad or do some freelance work, earning millions yuan easily in a year. Why would I need shares? Besides, this is a non-profit public hospital invested by the government. I don't have a penny invested. 钱是身外之物,生带不来,死带不去,要那么多有什么用?人各有志。我感兴趣的不是钱,而是建医院。如果需要, 我可以再建几所这样的医院,这就可以大大缓解心脏病人看病难的问题了。我オ不在乎别人说什么呢。谁愿意说谁说,事实会证明一切!” Money is something outside of me; it can't buy health or rebirth and can't be taken away when we die. What's the point of having so much money? Everyone has their own goals. I'm interested in building hospitals instead of money. If needed, I can build more hospitals like this to greatly alleviate the problem of heart disease patients struggling to get medical treatment. I don't care what others say and the facts will prove everything!" 这些年来,刘晓程一直在自我牺牲,在国内国外都是这样。正因为他的牺牲, 从而改变了多少病人及家属的命运?正因为他的牺牲,又改变了多少医生的命运? 他的弟子遍布广东、厦门、大连、北京、牡丹江等许多城市,他们都成了当地心外科的顶梁柱。协和医院的副主任医生苗齐、泰达国际心血管病医院的心外科主任孔祥荣,都是刘晓程手把手带出来的弟子。 Over the years, Liu Xiaocheng has been self-sacrificing, both when he was at home and abroad. It is because of his sacrifice that the destinies of countless patients, their families and doctors changed . His students are spread across many cities, including Guangdong, Xiamen, Dalian, Beijing, and Mudanjiang, and they have all become the backbone of local cardiovascular surgery departments. Miao Qi, the Deputy Chief Physician at Peking Union Medical College Hospital, and Kong Xiangrong, the Director of TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH) are both students personally trained by Liu Xiaocheng. 刘晓程决心把这所国际心血管病医院建成一座技术现代化、管理科学化、人员素质高能化的世界一流的医院,把它办成一所深受百姓信赖、收费合理、真正救死扶伤的医院。因此,必须有一个卓越的专家群体,有一批优秀的管理人才。 Liu Xiaocheng is determined to transform this international cardiovascular hospital into a world-class hospital with advanced technology, scientific management, and highly skilled personnel and one that is trusted by the people, with reasonable fees, and genuinely saves lives and helps the injured. Therefore, it is necessary to have an excellent group of experts and a team of outstanding management personnel. 他以自己独特的人格魅力,吸引了国内外大批致カ于救死扶伤事业的有识之士及医学界的精英。他的研究生同窗、麻醉专家薛玉良,心内科专家熊鉴然,心内科专家齐向前,放射专家朱杰敏,他手把手教出来的大弟子、心外科专家孔祥荣,超声专家黄云洲,受聘于沙特阿拉伯皇家医院手术室护士长的车慧……ー批“海归”骄子及医学专家纷纷舍弃高额的薪水,投奔到刘晓程麾下。

With his unique charisma, he has attracted numerous visionary individuals and medical elites from both domestic and international backgrounds who are dedicated to the cause of saving lives. Xue Yuliang, his former post-graduate classmates and also an anesthesia expert; Xiong Jianran, a cardiology expert; Qi Xiangqian, a cardiology expert; Zhu Jiemin, a radiology expert, as well as Kong Xiangrong his top student and also a cardiothoracic surgery expert, and Huang Yunzhou, an ultrasound expert are just a few examples. Many "overseas returnees" and medical professionals have forsaken high salaries to join Liu Xiaocheng's team. Che Hui, who was appointed as the head nurse of the operating room at a royal hospital in Saudi Arabia, is one of them.

“刘院长身上闪光的东西激励着我们,呼唤着我们,使我们心灵深处蕴藏的美好理想被激发出来,燃烧起一股干事业的热情。他的人格魅力就像一双红舞鞋,跟他在ー起就像着了魔似的,即使累得筋疲カ尽也心甘情愿。” "Liu Director's shining qualities inspire us, calling out to us, igniting the beautiful ideals hidden deep within our souls and fueling a passion for accomplishing great things. His charisma is like a pair of red dancing shoes, and being with him feels like being under a spell. Even if we are exhausted, we willingly embrace it." “刘晓程的品格光彩照人,他是时代的楷模。我佩服他的学识和胆量,更佩服他不媚上,不卑下,处处为老百姓着想的品格。” "Liu Xiaocheng's character shines brightly, and he is an exemplar of our time. I admire his knowledge and courage, but more importantly, I admire his integrity of always considering the well-being of the common people." “我来这里不是为了来挣钱,而是为了实现ー个医务工作者的人生价值,为了刘院长提出的博爱、济世的抱负。我喜欢这里纯洁、简单、没有内耗的人际关系,エ作起来痛快!”这是投奔者的心声,也是对刘晓程的评价。 "I came here not to earn money but to fulfill the life value of a medical professional, to fulfill Director Liu's vision of Universal Love and Alleviating Suffering. I love the pure, simple, and harmonious interpersonal relationships here. It feels refreshing to work in such an environment!" This is the voice of the followers of Liu Xiaocheng, and it is also their evaluation of him. 一次聚餐,精明干练的护士长车慧向刘晓程敬酒,风趣地说:“院长,我们每个人都擎起一片天,就会托起你这轮太阳。你这太阳的光芒再回照到我们身上,我们将永远跟国际心血管医院在ー起!” During a gathering, the capable head nurse, Che Hui, raised her glass to Liu Xiaocheng, humorously saying, "Director, if each one of us holds up a piece of the sky, we will support you as the sun. When your sunlight shines back on us, we will always be with the TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH)!" 是的,刘晓程把博爱、济世的阳光洒向医院的每ー个角落,洒向每一位患者和职エ。患者没钱回家,他悄悄掏钱塞给患者;全院号召献血,他第一个伸出胳膊;医院新调来职エ,他为他们安排好大到住房、孩子上学,小到煤气、冰箱等一切日用品,乃至一把门锁……有人说,刘晓程是一座纵览群山的高峰,迎风斗雪,奇绝险峻。有人说,他是虚怀若谷的大丈夫,内心坦荡,豪情万丈。 Indeed, Liu Xiaocheng spreads the sunlight of Universal Love and Alleviating Suffering to every corner of the hospital, illuminating every patient and staff member. When patients have no money to go home, he discreetly gives them money. When the hospital is called upon to donate blood, he is the first to extend his arm. When new staff members arrive, he arranges everything for them, from accommodation and enrollment of their children to daily necessities like gas, refrigerators, and even a door lock. Some say that Liu Xiaocheng is a towering peak, braving snow and wind, awe-inspiring and perilous. Others say he is a magnanimous man with a broad heart, open-minded and full of passion. 但是,人生总有遗憾,刘晓程最愧疚的是对不住亲人。他不止一次地说:“如果真有来世,我什么都不干,一定做个好父亲、好丈夫、好儿子厂’ However, in life, there are always regrets, and Liu Xiaocheng's greatest regret is not being able to fulfill his duties to his loved ones. He has said more than once, "If there truly was an afterlife, I would do nothing but be a good father, a good husband, and a good son." 今生今世他是永远做不到了。在北京工作的妻子,对拼命三郎的丈夫永远牵着ー颗心,因为他也是个心脏病患者。她对他的奢望不高,只希望他活着,只要他活着就好 In this lifetime, he can never achieve that. His wife, who works in Beijing, always carries a worried heart for her hardworking husband because he himself is also a heart disease patient. Her expectations for him are not high; she simply hopes that he stays alive, as long as he is alive, everything is good. 为了尽孝,刘晓程把90岁高龄的父亲接到天津开发区。尽管近在咫尺,他也只能隔三岔五打个电话,个把星期闪电式地看一眼风烛残年的老父亲罢了。 In order to fulfill his filial duty, Liu Xiaocheng brought his 90-year-old father to the Tianjin Development Area Hospital. Despite being close by, he could only call him occasionally and visit his elderly father for a brief moment every couple of weeks. 采访者变成患者,明天我将走上手术台

I am an interviewer, Tomorrow I will receive an operation.

也许,这就是天意。 Perhaps, this is fate. 我和刘晓程来自同一座城市,但并不相识。2003年10月8日,佳木斯准备出一本报告文学集,朋友邀我来写刘晓程,这オ第一次结识他。 Liu Xiaocheng and I are from the same city, but we didn't know each other. On October 8, 2003, Jiamusi was preparing to publish a collection of reportage, and a friend invited me to write about Liu Xiaocheng. That was the first time I met him. 我也是个心脏病患者,2003年9月做了心脏支架,但术后感觉一直不好。采访时,我请刘晓程看看我做心脏支架造影的片子。他和几位专家会诊后告诉我,说我心脏除了支架部位还有六处病变,最严重的部位已经堵塞了 90%,随时可能发生心梗,要想彻底解决心脏问题,必须搭五至六个桥,建议我尽快做搭桥手术。 I am also a heart disease patient. In September 2003, I had a Heart Stent Implantation, but I had been feeling unwell since the surgery. During the interview, I asked Liu Xiaocheng to review my cardiac stent imaging film. After consulting with several experts, he told me that my heart had six additional lesions besides the stent area. The most severe blockage had reached 90%, and I could have a heart attack at any time. To completely resolve my heart problems, I needed to undergo bypass surgery to graft five or six vessels. He advised me to have surgery as soon as possible. Chapter Nine 听到这番话,我完全惊呆了,悲哀与绝望一下子把我吞没了。想想啊,ー个拳头大的心脏除了支架部位,居然还有六处堵塞。这哪还是什么心脏,简直是ー只破筛子啊!令人费解的是,一个月前我刚刚做完支架,当地医生说我心脏还有两处堵塞,但短时间内不会发生危险,他们并没有告诉我这么严重啊!而且,不单是对疾病与死亡的恐惧,还有导致这场疾病的原因带给我的委屈与愤慨,远比疾病带给我的痛苦更加令我难以承受。 Upon hearing these words, I was completely stunned. Grief and despair engulfed me in an instant. Just imagine, a small heart should have six additional blockages besides the stent area. What kind of heart is this? It's more like a broken sieve! It's bewildering that just a month ago, after having the stent placed, local doctors informed me of only two blockages in my heart, assuring me that there was no immediate danger. They didn't disclose the severity to me! Not only am I afraid of the disease and death, but also the injustice and indignation caused by the factors leading to this illness, which is far more unbearable than the pain inflicted by the disease itself. 我父母都没有心脏病,都是七八十岁オ过世。而我这个国家一级速滑运动员出身的作家,身体一直很棒,精力充沛过人。我先生总是亲切地叫我“活兔子”。 Neither of my parents had heart disease and they both passed away in their seventies or eighties. As a writer with a background as a national-level speed skater, my health had always been excellent, and I had an extraordinary level of energy. My husband affectionately called me an "energetic rabbit."

我曾孤身ー人赴俄罗斯、乌克兰、韩国、比利时、荷兰等好多国家采访,连战火纷飞的车臣都去过。我一生都坚持锻炼,2000年冬天,每晚还游泳1000米呢。可是三 年后的今天,我竟然变成了一个亟待拯救的心脏病重患。这个极大的落差实在令我无法接受。

I had traveled alone to various countries for interview, including Russia, Ukraine, South Korea, Belgium, the Netherlands, and even the war-torn Republic Of Chechnya. I I have been exercising all my life. In the winter of 2000, I even swam 1,000 meters every night. But today, three years later, I have turned into a critically ill heart patient in desperate need of salvation. This tremendous contrast is truly something I cannot accept. 我知道,这完全是因为创作《盖世太保枪口下的中国女人》那部电视剧造成的。长时间的过度疲劳,加上屡遭侵权与伤害,接连打了三起官司,我受不了那种投告无门、欲哭无泪、长达数年的摧残与折磨,得了严重心脏病。 I know that all of this is entirely due to the creation of the TV series A Chinese Women at Gestapo Gunpoint. Prolonged excessive fatigue, coupled with repeated infringement and harm, and three consecutive lawsuits, I couldn't bear the torment and devastation of being helpless, on the verge of tears, for several years, which led to severe heart disease. 当时,眼看着自己自费赴欧洲采访、呕心沥血三年的作品被他人夺走,谁能不玩命地抗争啊?可现在ー想,与生命相比,一部电视剧又算得了什么?三起官司都赢了,又怎能弥补我生命的巨大损失?那些侵权事件只不过是我生命之旅一段令人唾弃的游戏,应该把它扔进垃圾袋,让它永世不再打扰我的宝贵人生了 ! At that time, seeing my self-funded trip to Europe for interviews and the three years of painstaking effort being taken away by others, who wouldn't fight desperately? But now, when I think about it, what does a TV series matter compared to life itself? Even though I won all three lawsuits, how can it make up for the enormous loss in my life? Those infringement incidents were nothing more than a despicable game in my life. They should be thrown into the garbage bag, never to disturb my precious life again! 当一个人濒临死亡,她对生命的诠释与理解,跟以往有着截然不同的含义。 When a person is on the brink of death, their interpretation and understanding of life will be completely different. 可是,人生最大的悲哀莫过于清醒过来已近黄昏,一切都悔之晚矣。 However, the greatest sorrow in life is to wake up when dusk is approaching and realize that it is too late for regrets. 我本来是来采访的,现在却成了亟待拯救的病人。这种极大的落差几乎把我击倒了。 I initially came here for an interview, but now I have become a patient in desperate need of salvation. This tremendous contrast almost knocked me down. 我觉得生命随时可能离我而去,可我还有多少创作计划没有实施,还有多少美好人生没有享受啊?我是那么热爱生活,热爱创作,热爱人生,现在,这颗破碎的心却跟我过不去了。我对刘晓程说:“我オ60岁,正是创作的黄金时代。我不要多, 再给我15年就行。我太爱创作了。” I feel that I might die at any moment, but I still have so many creative plans to be fulfilled and so many years of beautiful life to be enjoyed. I have such a deep love for life, for creation, for living. Now, this broken heart is causing me so much pain. I said to Liu Xiaocheng, "I'm only 60 years old, which is the golden age of creation. I don't need much, just give me another 15 years. I love creating too much." 刘晓程却说:“把你那颗破碎的心交给我吧。15年太保守了,你准备再创作20 年吧。” But Liu Xiaocheng said, "Give your broken heart to me. Fifteen years is too conservative. How about preparing to create for another 20 years?" 我知道他在安慰我。 I know he is comforting me. 刘晓程找来内科副主任林文华医生当我的“保健医生”,并给林主任下了“死令”,要他指导我用药,必须保证在我术前不发生意外。 Liu Xiaocheng sought Dr. Lin Wenhua, the associate chief physicians of the Department of Internal Medicine, to become my "care physician." He issued a "death order" to Dr. Lin, instructing him to guide my medication and ensure that no accidents occur before my surgery. 我觉得刘晓程这个人物太难得了,在当今医疗界实属凤毛麟角。我决定把这篇报告文学写完再手术,我要向约稿的朋友有个交代,万一我没有走下手术台那就遗憾了。我要告诉那些像我ー样徘徊于生死边缘的心脏病同胞:中国有这样一位院长,有这样一所医院 I feel that Liu Xiaocheng is an extraordinary individual, a rare gem in today's medical community, so I decide to finish writing this report literary work before the surgery. I want to fulfill my commitment to my friends who commissioned the work. It would be regrettable if I couldn’t survive the surgery. I want to let those who, like me, hover on the brink of death know that in China, there is such a excellent director like him, and there is a wonderful hospital like the TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH). 于是,我揣着这颗破碎的心,忍受着随时发生的心绞痛,用我顽强之笔,蘸着生命之墨,竭力撰写着这篇报告文学。我每天都如履薄冰般地走在生命的边缘,很怕ー不小心踩重了,踩碎了十分脆弱的生命,使我过早地陷入死亡之谷。 So, carrying this broken heart, enduring the angina that could strike at any moment, dipping my resilient pen into the ink of life, I am diligently composing this report literary work. Every day, I walk on the edge of life as if treading on thin ice, afraid that one wrong step will crush the fragile life and plunge me prematurely into the valley of death. 从此,一向活泼、开朗、奔放的我,一向与歌声和笑声相伴的我,却再也不能从心底发出笑声了。我曾试图用美国总统罗斯福的名言擦拭我心灵的泪:“将死亡视为不可逃避的平常事实而加以接受,便可以永远地解脱对死亡的恐惧。” From that moment on, I, who used to be lively, cheerful, and unrestrained, always accompanied by songs and laughter, can no longer let out laughter from the depths of my heart. I tried to wipe away the tears in my soul with the famous quote of U.S.President Roosevelt, "Accept death as an unavoidable fact, and you can be forever freed from the fear of death." 我也曾试图用创造人类奇迹的科学家霍金的痛苦来稀释我的痛苦,用他的意志来坚强我的意志。但我却发现,我不是一位伟人,我只是ー个平凡的作家。一向自诩无比坚强、任何苦难都不曾使其低头的我,原来如此脆弱,如此不堪ー击。生命原来如此脆弱。 I also attempted to alleviate my pain with the suffering of the scientist Hawking, who created miracles for humanity, and strengthen my will with his determination. However, I discovered that I am not a great figure; I am just an ordinary writer. I, who always boasted of being immensely strong, never bowing down in the face of any hardship, turned out to be so fragile, so vulnerable. Life is indeed so fragile. 傍晚,我和先生漫步在海边,看潮起潮落,听渔歌唱晚,看美丽的タ阳西下,倾听他人的欢声笑语,而我却只有忧伤和叹息。万家灯火照不亮我阴暗的心,强劲的海风吹不散我心头的愁绪。然而,不管有多么痛苦,我都必须接受这个残酷得令人绝望的现实。这就是命运。 In the evening, my husband and I strolled along the beach, watching the ebb and flow of the tide, listening to the fishermen's evening songs, and watching the beautiful sunset. I heard the joyous voices and laughter of others, while I could only feel sad and sighs. The myriad lights of the households couldn't illuminate my darkened heart, and the strong sea wind couldn't dispel my melancholy. However, no matter how painful it was, I had to accept this cruel and despairing reality, this is fate. 在这段时光里,我深切地感受着一个人对于生命的强烈渴望,感受着病人渴望医生来拯救自己生命的殷切企盼,感受着任何人都无法排遣的无望与悲怆,也感受着一个人徘徊于生死边缘的孤独与无助。 During this period of time, I keenly felt the intense longing for life that one person possesses, experienced the fervent hope of a patient yearning for a doctor to save their life, felt the hopelessness and sorrow that no one could dispel, and also experienced the loneliness and helplessness of lingering on the brink of death. 我体会着400万心脏病同胞所遭受的、任何语言都无法描述的痛苦煎熬。而我只需要煎熬几个月,可那400万同胞却要煎熬几年,十几年,甚至一直煎熬到死。那是怎样ー种漫长而绝望、痛苦而无助的煎熬啊? I understood the indescribable suffering endured by four million heart disease patients. While I only had to endure for a few months, those four million patients had to suffer for years, even decades, until their death. What an agonizing, prolonged, hopeless, and painful ordeal it must be! 我的心脏病同胞们,我太理解你们了 ! My fellow heart disease patients, I truly understand you! 2004年3月8日,我终于完稿了。 On March 8, 2004, I finally completed the manuscript. 夜里,我给先生写了一封长信。尽管刘晓程一再说:“雅文大姐你应该相信我, 我一定要还给你生命!”可我知道,心脏手术风险很大,我必须做好各种准备。 At night, I write a long letter to my husband. Despite Liu Xiaocheng repeatedly saying, "Yawei, you should trust me. I will definitely give you back your life!" But I know that heart surgery carries great risks, and I have to prepare myself for that. 把该做的事情都做完了,把该交代的事情都交代完了,3月9日,在先生的陪同下,我住进了我所描写过的泰达国际心血管病医院。 Everything prepared , on March 9, I get hospitalized, accompanied by my husband,into the TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH) that I had depicted in my writing 3月15日,刘晓程将亲自为我主刀手术。 On March 15th, Liu Xiaocheng personally performed the surgery on me. 14日晚,手术部主任薛玉良来询问我以往麻醉的情况,是否有过敏史;担任手术助手的外科医生王正清、张嵬来询问我是否是疤痕体质;手术室的两名护士也前来探望。医院规定,凡是手术,相关医护人员都要来探视病人。 On the evening of the 14th, the head of the surgical department, Xue Yuliang, came to inquire about my previous anesthesia history and whether I had any allergies. The surgical assistants, Wang Zhengqing and Zhang Wei, asked if I had a tendency for scarring. Two nurses from the operating room also came to visit. It was a hospital regulation that all relevant medical staff should visit the patient before surgery. 晚间,中国作协领导打来电话,黑龙江作协领导和文学院领导来看望我,好多朋友都打来电话安慰我、鼓励我。两位素昧平生的外企大学教师---我忠实的读者,听说我要手术,竟然专程从北京跑到天津医院来为我祈祷。他们二人和林文华副主任将手搭在我的手上,虔诚地为我祝福,为我祈祷,祝福我闯过这道生死大关。那个场面太感人了,令我刻骨铭心,永志难忘。 In the evening, leaders from the China Writers Association called, and leaders from the Heilongjiang Writers Association and the literature institute came to visit me. Many friends called to comfort and encourage me. Two foreign university teachers whom I had never met, but are loyal readers of my work, heard that I was going to have surgery. They actually traveled all the way from Beijing to the hospital in Tianjin just to pray for me. The two of them, along with the associate chief physicians Lin Wenhua, placed their hands on mine, sincerely blessing and praying for me, wishing me success in overcoming this life-and-death ordeal. That scene was incredibly touching, etched into my memory, and unforgettable. 亲爱的读者,明天,我将带着亲人与朋友的祝福走上手术台了。 Dear readers, tomorrow I will step onto the operating table with the blessings of my loved ones and friends. 我无法预测我生命的裂谷到底有多深,我不知道我脆弱的生命能否跨过这道裂谷。如果跨过去了,我将获得新生;如果跨不过去,我将化作一缕白烟,同这美好而残酷的世界永别了。那么,这篇作品将成为我的遗作。 I cannot predict how deep the chasm in my life is, nor do I know if my fragile life can cross that chasm. If I can cross it, I will gain a new life. If I cannot, I will turn into a wisp of smoke, bidding farewell to this beautiful yet cruel world. Then, this work will become my legacy. 亲爱的读者朋友,无论我能否再见到你们,都请你们记住,这里有一位院长,有一所医院,有一群生命的守护天使……这里,将会给濒危的心血管病人带来生的希望无论你是富人,还是穷人。 Dear reader friends, whether or not I can see you again, please remember that there is a dean, a hospital, and a group of guardian angels of life here... It will bring hope for endangered cardiovascular patients, regardless of whether you are rich or poor. 再见了,我的朋友! Farewell, my friends! 补记:我终于活过来了! Update: I have finally survived! 当我周身插着各种管子躺在监护室里昏睡着,只觉得有人拍了拍我的脸,说: “醒醒吧,雅文大姐!今天是3月16日了。手术做完了,给你搭了六个桥,把你破碎的心修好了。” As I lay in the intensive care unit, with various tubes inserted all over my body, I was in a drowsy state. I felt someone gently patting my face and saying, "Wake up, Sister Yawen! Today is March 16th. The surgery is done, and they have performed six bypass grafts to repair your broken heart." 我听出是刘晓程,却睁不开眼睛。我的第一反应是:我还活着！但又不太敢相信,这么快就手术完了,不太可能吧?我哪里知道,从3月15日上午9点20分我被推进手术室,已经过去二十多个小时了。医生从我两只小臂及胸内取下3支动脉,为我心脏搭了 6个桥,手术做得非常成功。 I recognized the voice as Liu Xiaocheng's, but I couldn't open my eyes. My initial reaction was: I'm still alive! But I couldn't quite believe it. Could the surgery really be over so quickly? Little did I know that more than twenty hours had passed since I was wheeled into the operating room at 9:20 am on March 15th. The doctors took three arteries from my forearms and chest to create six bypass grafts for my heart. The surgery was a great success. 当确信一切都是真的,我无法描述我对刘晓程及所有医护人员的那份感激,任何语言都是苍白、无カ的,只有真正“死”过一回,亲身经历过获得第二次生命的人,才能体会到什么叫救命之恩。 Once I was certain that it was all real, I couldn't describe the gratitude I felt towards Liu Xiaocheng and all the medical staff. Any words would be pale and insufficient. Only someone who has truly "died" once and experienced receiving a second chance at life can understand the profound sense of gratitude for being saved. 接下来,在我处于极度虚弱,刀口剧痛,连咳痰、翻身、喝水一切都不能自理的日子里,我受到医护人员的百般呵护。从监护室到普通病房,从护士长、护士、护エ到林文华副主任以及我的外科主治医生王正清,都时刻监护着我的病情,帮我服药、捶背、翻身、洗头……对我照顾得无微不至。 Next, during the days when I was extremely weak, experiencing intense pain from the incision, unable to do anything independently, even coughing, turning over, or drinking water, I received meticulous care from the medical staff. From the intensive care unit to the regular ward, from the head nurse, nurses, and attendants to the associate chief physicians Wenhua and my attending surgeon Wang Zhengqing, they constantly monitored my condition, helped me with medication, massaged my back, assisted with turning over, and even washed my hair... They took care of me in every detail. 我第一次感到病人在医院里是主人,而不是处处要看医护人员脸色甚至用“红包”去取悦他们的“小媳妇”。可我仍然心存疑虑:是不是因为我采访过刘晓程,所以他们对我格外关照? For the first time, I felt like a patient was the master in the hospital, rather than having to constantly please the medical staff or even give "red envelopes" to win their favor. But I still had doubts: Was it because I had interviewed Liu Xiaocheng that they were especially attentive to me? 林文华副主任的一句话,使我感到ー丝释疑。他说:“这里是一年一签合同,实行全员聘任制。所以人人都要把自己最优秀的一面展现给患者,展现给工作。” 看来,体制决定着一切。 Words from the associate chief physicians Lin Wenhua alleviated my doubts. He said, "Here, we have annual contracts and implement a system where all staff members are appointed. Therefore, everyone has to show their best side to the patients and in their work." It seems that the system determines everything. 我能下地走动了,看到许多病友都享受着和我同样的待遇,听到病友对医护人员赞不绝ロ,我还采访了两名外国病人,心中的疑虑这オ打消。 I was able to walk around and see many fellow patients enjoying the same level of care as me. I heard praises from patients towards the medical staff, and I even interviewed two foreign patients. The doubts in my heart were then completely dispelled. 46岁的艾尔伯特是来华工作的加拿大人,3月22日半夜11点,突发心梗,凌晨2点,被救护车送到泰达国际心血管病医院急诊室。当时,他胸痛剧烈,血压下降,病情危重。 Albert, a 46-year-old Canadian working in China, experienced a sudden heart attack at 11:00 pm on March 22nd. By 2:00 am, he was brought to the emergency room of TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH) by an ambulance. At that time, he was suffering from severe chest pain, a drop in blood pressure, and his condition was critical. 曾在加拿大工作多年的内科主任齐向前医生,立刻给他做了心脏介入手术,放了一个支架,病情明显改善,第二天就下床走动了。但要彻底解决心脏问题,还需做搭桥手术。但加拿大保险公司不相信中国的医疗技术,不同意支付艾尔伯特的保险。艾尔伯特却说:“不支付我自费也要做!这医院太好了。 Dr. Qi Xiangqian, the chief of medicine who had worked in Canada for many years, immediately performed interventional cardiology on him, placing a stent. His condition significantly improved, and the next day he was able to get out of bed and walk. However, to completely resolve his heart problem, he needed to undergo Coronary artery bypass grafting. The Canadian insurance company, however, did not believe in the medical technology in China and refused to cover Albert's insurance. However, Albert said, "Even if I have to pay out of my own pocket, I want to have the surgery done in this hospital. It's excellent here. 在加拿大,只有我太太照顾我,在这里大家都来照顾我,我非常满意。”后来,加拿大保险公司给刘晓程打来电话,最终同意支付艾尔伯特的保险。于是,艾尔伯特成为发达国家在中国做心脏搭桥手术的第一人。而且,加拿大的保险公司与泰达国际心血管医院正式签约,今后加拿大人在中国突发心脏病,都到该院来就诊。 In Canada, only my wife look after me, but here everyone takes good care of me, and I am very satisfied." Later, the Canadian insurance company called Liu Xiaocheng and ultimately agreed to cover Albert's insurance. As a result, Albert became the first person from a developed country to undergo Coronary artery bypass grafting in China. Moreover, the Canadian insurance company officially signed a contract with TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH), so that in the future, if Canadians experience a sudden heart attack in China, they can come to this hospital for treatment. 但是,台湾出生的美籍华人陈先生就没这么幸运了。51岁的陈先生在外企中芯国际公司任职,3月12日凌晨1点,突发心梗,凌晨2点,被救护车送进天津某大医院急诊,一直等到下午2点,陈先生已经神志不清,医院オ为他做了心脏造影,并放入ー个支架。 However, Mr. Chen, a Taiwanese-born American citizen, was not as fortunate. Mr. Chen is 51 years old and works in Semiconductor Manufacturing International Corporation. At 1:00 am on March 12th, he experienced a sudden heart attack and was brought to an emergency room in a major hospital in Tianjin by an ambulance at 2:00 am. He had to wait until 2:00 pm in the afternoon, by which time Mr. Chen was already in an altered state of consciousness. The hospital then performed a cardiac angiography and inserted a stent for him. 医生说他心脏发生弥漫性病变,需要做搭桥手术,但远端血管太细,搭桥只能解决80%的问题。陈先生夫妇感到痛苦而茫然,跟医护人员搞得很不愉快。有关保险公司同意用直升机送陈先生去香港或台湾手术,又怕途中发生意外。 The doctor said that he had diffuse coronary artery disease and needed to undergo Coronary artery bypass grafting. However, the distal blood vessels were too narrow, and the bypass surgery could only solve 80% of the problem. Mr. Chen and his wife felt distressed and bewildered, which led to a tense relationship with the medical staff. The insurance company agreed to transport Mr. Chen to Hong Kong or Taiwan by helicopter for the surgery, but they were concerned about potential accidents during the journey. 这时,台湾长庚医院著名心脏专家李英雄先生通过朋友打来电话,让陈先生立刻去找刘晓程。于是,他们来到国际心血管病医院。看过造影片子,刘晓程说: “我可以解决你全部的心脏问题。” At this time, Dr. Li Yingxiong, a renowned cardiac specialist from Chang Gung Memorial Hospital in Taiwan, called Mr. Chen through a friend and urged him to immediately seek Liu Xiaocheng's assistance. Consequently, they went to TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH). After reviewing the angiography films, Liu Xiaocheng said, "I can solve all of your heart problems." 陈夫人顿时激动得热泪盈眶:“上帝,我们终于从地狱逃了出来,来到了天堂。我真不敢相信中国还有这么好的医院,这么好的医生!真不知该如何感谢你们ド’ 刘晓程为两名外国人成功地各搭了五个桥,目前二人均已康复。后来,陈先生听说医院为ー个被遗弃的孤儿做手术,还寄来了 10000元赞助费。 Mrs. Chen was instantly moved and tears welled up in her eyes. She said, "Oh my God, we have finally escaped from hell and arrived in heaven. I can't believe there is such a good hospital and such excellent doctors in China! I don't know how to thank you enough." Liu Xiaocheng successfully performed five bypass surgeries for the two foreigners, and both of them have since recovered. Later, Mr. Chen heard that the hospital had performed surgery on an abandoned orphan and sent a sponsorship fee of 10,000 yuan. 术后第19天,我怀着虽然虚弱但却“健康”的心,带着外科全体护士送给我的中国“同心结”,带着内、外科主治医生的叮嘱,在我先生和孩子的陪同下,踏上了回家的路。 On the 19th day after the surgery, with a weak but "healthy" heart, I embarked on the journey back home accompanied by my husband and child, carrying the Chinese "heart knot" given to me by the surgical nurses and the instructions from the attending surgeons in both the general surgery and the cardiac surgery departments. 没有比此时此刻更能体会活着是多么美好的了。 There is no better moment than this to truly appreciate how wonderful it is to be alive. 坐在车里,有一种恍若隔世之感,对窗外的一切感到既陌生,又亲切,有一种看不够的贪婪。20天前还枯黄的树已经变绿了,ー排排小白桦顶着鹅黄色的新绿, 在风中轻轻摇曳。阳光暖暖的,风柔柔的,树绿绿的,一切都是那么美好。来时的灰暗心情已经全部消失,生命又属于我了,我心中又充满了新的希望。 Sitting in the car, I feel a sense of detachment from the world outside. Everything appearing is both unfamiliar and familiar. I, with a greedy desire, try to take it all in. The trees, once withered and yellow just 20 days ago, are now lush green; rows of small white birches are adorned with a fresh golden green, gently swaying in the wind. The sunlight is warm, the breeze is gentle, the trees are verdant—everything is so beautiful. The gloomy mood I had when I arrived has completely vanished, and life belongs to me once again, filling my heart with new hopes. 一路上,我一直在为自己庆幸,庆幸上苍让我结识了刘晓程,结识了这所医院。可是,另一种思绪却不时地缠绕着我,令我胡思乱想…… Throughout the journey, I have been grateful for myself, grateful that fate allowed me to meet Liu Xiaocheng and come to this hospital. However, another thought occasionally lingers and troubles me, causing my mind to wander... 我在想,假如那位朋友没有邀我来采访刘晓程,那么,我对自己的病情可能ー直糊里糊涂的,说不定哪天会突发心梗……假如我不是一名作家,不享受医保,我只是穷山沟里一名农妇,或者只是一名每月仅有一二百元的下岗女工,根本没有能カ支付两次十几万元的手术费用,那么,我将如何面对这场灾难?又将会有怎样ー番人生结局? I wonder, what if my friend didn't invite me to interview Liu Xiaocheng? Then, I might have remained oblivious to my own condition, and who knows, one day I might have suffered a sudden heart attack... If I weren't a writer, but someone without medical insurance such as a peasant woman living in a poverty-stricken mountain village, or a laid-off female worker surviving on a monthly income of only a couple hundred yuan, how would I face this catastrophe? What would be the outcome of my life? 转而又想,我那400万像我一样徘徊于生死边缘的心脏病同胞,他们什么时候也能像我ー样,获得手术机会,轻轻松松地活下去?中国老百姓看病贵、手术难的问题,什么时候才能真正得到解决? On the other hand, I think of the 4 million heart disease patients who, like me, are teetering on the edge of life and death. When will they have the opportunity to undergo surgery and continue living easily ? When will the problems of expensive medical expenses and inaccessibility surgeries for the Chinese people truly be resolved? 最后,我要告诉朋友们:好好珍爱自己的生命吧,生命属于我们只有一次! Lastly, I want to tell my friends: Please cherish your lives, for we only have one life to live!

(Originally published in "Beijing Literature" 9th Issue, 2004) （原载《北京文学》2004年第9期）

卷四：8.难回故里

卷四：8.难回故里难回故里 Hard to go back home 郭冬我舅,台湾海军陆战队上尉,河南籍老兵,一生中挫折大于平顺。像很多漂泊的中国人ー样,他把“回家”当成了无可置疑的生命追求与归宿,然而“叶落”却未能“归根”。 My uncle was a former Taiwan Marine Corps (TMC) captain from Henan province, who encountered more setbacks than smooth sailing throughout his life. Like many wandering Chinese people, he considered "going home" as an their pursuit and destination in life. However, the "fallen leaves" were unable to "return to their roots." 舅舅走了,和他相同命运的老兵已经或即将抵达天国。这些被政治强カ所侵吞的ー批特殊人,早被自己原先所属的社会所抛弃,因而他们就比其他海外游子, 更渴望被原来的生存空间接受。 My uncle passed away, and so did other veterans who suffered the same fate . These victims of politics, have long been abandoned by the society they originally belonged to. Therefore, they yearn more than other overseas compatriots to be accepted by their homeland. 他们正在带走ー个时代,那个时代中关于他们的秘密,将沉入深不可测的海底,无声无息地融化。而他们,这些在历史记录中原本就是缺位或ー笔带过的小人物群体,再过二三十年,也就成了远离后人记忆的缥缈的孤帆远影。 They are taking away an era with them, and the secrets about them from that era will sink under the sea and dissolved into nothingness. As for them, this group of insignificant individuals who were not recorded in history or just briefly mentioned, they will not be remembered in another twenty or thirty years. 当舅舅在台北荣民总医院辞世时,我清楚,夺走舅舅生命的,剥夺他回家意愿的,不仅仅是病魔,甚至不仅仅是众所周知的两岸局势。 When my uncle passed away at Taipei Veterans General Hospital, it became clear to me that what took his life and kept him from returning home was not only his illness but also the Cross-strait tensions. 第一章你从哪里来,我的舅舅 Chapter 1 The truth of uncle's origins 初次见面 First Encounter 1988年4月23日,ー个普通的日子,母亲派我接舅舅。 April 23, 1988, an ordinary day. My mother sent me to pick up my uncle at the train station. 母亲交代的线索是,你舅洪洲,57岁,台湾人,乘坐京广线列车抵达北京站。 The only clue my mother gave me was that my uncle, Hongzhou, 57 years old, a Taiwanese, would arrive at Beijing railway station by train. 我不知道这个年月会被载进中国当代史,一当然,舅舅并非历史人物,他在庞大的台湾海军陆战队中,不过是个退役上尉;我也没有意识到ー个世人瞩目的事件正急剧降落到我们居住的这片土地上。 Little did I know that this date would be recorded in contemporary Chinese history. Of course, my uncle was not a historical figure; he was just a retired captain in the Taiwan Marine Corps (TMC) . Nor was I aware that a momentous event was about to rapidly descend upon the land where we resided. 没有车次、时间,只有等待。我站在熙熙攘攘的人流中,ー见港台模样的壮年男性出站,就迎上搭话:“请问是洪洲先生吗? ” Without knowing the train number or time, all I could do was wait. Standing among the bustling crowds, whenever I saw a middle-aged man who appeared to be from Hong Kong or Taiwan, I approached and asked, "Excuse me, are you Mr. Hongzhou?" “不,不是,不是不是。” "No, no, I'm not. " 无数张矜持或自负的脸面从身边闪过,无数只滑轮皮箱从脚边拉走 Countless faces flashed by, and numerous wheeled suitcases were pulled away at my feet. 那个下午,我伫立在北京站出口,足足等了两个小时。 That afternoon, I stood at the exit of Beijing railway station, waiting for a full two hours. I turned around and headed home, thinking to myself, "I won't wait anymore. When he left home years ago, he made my grandmother wait in anguish for a lifetime. Now it's my turn to wait." 姥姥临终前对舅舅的评价是,到底不是亲生儿子啊,说走就走了,连个信也没有。姥姥对舅舅的彻底失望,使我一直不肯原谅这个没有见过面的人。 Upon her death, my grandmother's last impression of my uncle was that he wasn't her biological son after all and that's why he left without saying a word or leaving a letter. My grandmother's complete disappointment made me unwilling to forgive my uncle, even though I had never met him. 我掉头往家走,心说:不等了,当年他离家出走,让姥姥苦等了一生,现在又轮到我来等。 Thus, I turned around and headed home, thinking to myself, "I don’t want to wait anymore. When he left home years ago, he made my grandmother wait in anguish for a lifetime. Now it's my turn to wait." 第二天凌晨,尖锐的电话铃声长响不断,是母亲的电话。她的语气充满兴奋: “你舅昨天午夜到家,飞机降落在天津,他是从天津搭乘出租车到北京的。” The next early morning, the telephone kept ringing . It was my mother calling. Her voice was filled with excitement. "Your uncle arrived home yesterday at midnight. The plane he had took landed in Tianjin, and then he took a taxi from there to Beijing." 我才知道,舅舅作为台湾当局“允许民众赴大陆探亲”方案实施后的首批老兵之一,是从台湾飞到香港,后经罗湖口岸到广州,再到北京的。他们这些想家想了近40年的人们相约着出来,就像鸟儿逃离了樊笼。 That's when I learned that as one of the first batch of veterans allowed by the Taiwan authorities to visit the mainland under the "Allowing People to Visit the Mainland" program, my uncle flew from Taiwan to Hong Kong, then crossed the Luohu Port to Guangzhou, and finally arrived in Beijing by train. These people who had been missing home for nearly 40 years made an appointment to visit their home in mainland, just like birds finally escaping from their cage. 舅舅没能购买到从广州直达北京的火车票。他在信中说,想圆梦,沿着京广线一路看下来,看内地,看河南,看黄河,ー解思乡之苦。 My uncle failed to buy a ticket of the nonstop train from Guangzhou to Beijing. In his letter, he mentioned that he want to fulfill his dream of traveling along the Jingguang Railway where he can see the mainland, the Henan province and the Yellow River so as to relieve his homesickness. 1988年的广州车站售票窗口前,人头攒动,纷乱熙攘。舅舅已经不习惯无序状态,惊讶地注视着推来操去的人潮。他不知道,大陆的改革正从这个门户,壮阔地涌向北方大地。 In 1988, the ticket windowa at Guangzhou railway station was crowded and chaotic. My uncle, not accustomed to such disorder, watched in astonishment as the bustling crowds moved around. Little did he know that the reforms in mainland China were surging towards the northern lands through this gateway. 有人走到他身边,是票贩子。“北京软卧哦?没福气啦!”贩子劝他,“改搭飞机快得很咧!”舅舅急于逃离广州,立马从皮夹里抽出美元,以3倍价格购买了抵达天津而不是北京的飞机票。 Someone approached him; it was a scalper. "Soft sleeper to Beijing? What a pity! No ticket left! " . The scalper persuaded him, "Take a plane instead; it's much faster!" Eager to escape Guangzhou, my uncle immediately took out US dollars from his wallet and purchased a plane ticket to Tianjin instead of Beijing for triple the price. 我直奔母亲家,推开门,正见舅舅的笑脸。 I rushed to my mother's house, pushed open the door, and saw my uncle's smiling face. ー股暖暖情谊径直地流淌到我心里。 My heart was warmed immediately by some kind of kinship. 这就是后来留在我印象里的舅舅。他壮壮实实,腰板挺得很直,是那种训练有素的军人气质;他身着毛料西装,染过的头发有序地分梳在两边;眼睛不大,一笑就眯起来,显得很亲切。 That's my impression of my uncle from then on. He was sturdy and stood upright , displaying the demeanor of a highly trained military man. He wore a woolen suit, and his dyed hair was neatly combed on both sides. His eyes were not big, and narrowed when he smiled, which made him look so kind. 这是ー张和善的面孔,和善到让你忘记了姥姥的哀怨,忘记了几十年生活境遇的区别,忘记了彼此的距离,仿佛大家从来就是这样ー起生活,素无间隙。 He has a kind face, so kind that it made me forget my grandmother's resentment, forget decades of different life and the distance between us. It felt as if we had lived together all along. 舅舅第一次置身于我们这个人丁兴旺的大家庭,喜得不知怎么办オ好。他看看这个,看看那个,老是眯着眼笑。

Being in our big family for the first time, uncle was overwhelmed with joy, looked here and there and always had eyes squint when he smiled.我扎进厨房,赶紧干活。在中国人欢聚的场合,吃饭是第一位的。

I hurried into the kitchen and start working. In Chinese family reunion, eating is of utmost importance. 舅舅随我进了厨房,慈爱地看着我,将红包塞给我。可能是青少年时代屡经冷遇,我一直不习惯收礼,再说昨天还在埋怨人家,今天咋好收红包呢? My uncle followed me into the kitchen, looking at me lovingly and putting a red envelope into my hands. Due to the indifference I met with in teenage years, I was not accustomed to receiving gifts. Besides, I was complaining about him yesterday, so how could I accept his red envelope today? 舅舅看出了我的尴尬,用毋庸置疑的口气说:“小冬,这是’人头份’,大人小孩都有份!”他抓住我的手不放,很有力气。他的手又宽又厚,无名指上戴着ー个很大的绿翠戒指。 Seeing my embarrassment, uncle comforted, "Xiaodong, don't be shy . Take it. Everyone will have a red envelope. It's yours!" He held onto my hand firmly, his grip strong. His hands were big, with a large emerald ring on his ring finger. 舅舅在北京住了两个月。最让他骄傲的是,当返乡老兵凑在台北聊天时,旁人说大陆亲戚要钱要物,而舅舅却说他收到的东西多得带不走。在往后多年的日子里,一提这事,他就笑眯了双眼。 My uncle stayed in Beijing for two months. The proudest moment of him was when he chated with other veterans who had also come home, others were complaining that their mainland relatives asked him for money and gifts , while he could show off having received so many things that he couldn't take them all. In the following years, whenever this was mentioned, he would smile. 听妈妈讲那过去的事情 Listening to my mom tell the past events “老天送给我们ー个舅舅。” "God sent us an uncle." I said. 妈妈摇头:“哪里!你舅50多年前就在咱家落根,和咱们血脉相连了。” 妈妈就给我们兄弟姐妹讲开了一 My mom shook her head, saying, "No! Over 50 years ago, your uncle joined our family and we became part of each other ." My mom began to tell us siblings about the story of my uncle's origin. 你们都知道的,你舅不是我亲弟,这要从家世说起。 As you all know, your uncle is not my biological brother, but let's start with our family background. 你姥姥是河南人,家境殷实,嫁给你姥爷后,光景就差下来。可姥爷没让姥姥失望,他是个有远见的人,早早从商,到县城开办馒头铺,起名玉兴馍铺。凭着诚信发达,雇伙计,买骡子,还盖起了二层小楼。 Your grandmother was from Henan, and her family was well-off, but after marrying your grandfather, their fortunes declined. However, my grandfather didn't disappoint my grandmother. He was a visionary and started a business early on, opening a steamed bun shop in the county called Yuxing Steamed Bun Shop. Through honesty and hard work, he made a fortune, hired employees, bought mules, and even built a two-story building. 你们都知道孟子的话,“不孝有三,无后为大”,你姥姥接受的就是这种文化。她接连生养我们姐妹イ三,没有儿子。不管族人是否数落,她自己就被“无后”的观念压得抬不起头。痛苦的还在后头,我的姐姐和妹妹先后死于疾病, 只剩下我这个中腰的。尽管我从小学念到师范,成绩拔尖,远近有名,但都不能给这个家庭带来继承香火的荣耀。 According to Mencius, "Having no male heir was once considered as one of the three most unfilial behaviors." That was the cultural belief of your grandmother. She gave birth to us three sisters one after another but had no son. Regardless of whether our relatives criticized her, she was burdened by the concept of having no male heirs. Worse still, my older sister and younger sister died from illnesses, leaving only me, the middle child. Despite excelling academically and being well-known for my excellent academic performance from primary school to college, I couldn't bring the glory of carrying on the family's lineage. 一件偶然的事情挽救了这个家。那是1932年,时逢大灾,黄河泛滥,土路上满是背井离乡的人。有人捎来口信,说一家逃荒人要给儿子找条活路。 A chance event saved this family. It was in 1932 when a major disaster occurred. The Yellow River flooded, and the roads were filled with people forced to leave their homes. Someone brought news that a refugee family was looking for a chance for their son to live. 姥爷当即说:“咱认下这个儿,让他传宗接代。”姥姥自然同意,买了小孩衣服,我们一家三口搭坐驴车,往邻村赶了去。 Your grandfather immediately said, "Let's adopt this child and let him continue the family line." Of course, your grandmother agreed. We bought clothes for the child, and the three of us traveled by donkey cart to the neighboring village. 那是个风沙天,很冷。我们进了人家里,就见ー对衣衫褴褛的夫妻在等。 It was a windy and sandy day, very cold. As we entered the house, we saw a ragged couple waiting. 男孩2岁,没穿衣裳,裹在ー堆破布里。我伸出手指逗他,男孩闭着眼睛全无反应。他娘怕我们不要,赶紧解释:“小孩没奶吃,到现在还不会说话。” The 2-year-old boy was not wearing clothes; he was wrapped in a pile of tattered cloth. I reached out my finger to play with him, but the boy kept his eyes closed and showed no response. His mother, fearing that we would dislike him, quickly explained, "The child have no breast milk to drink and still can't speak." 你姥姥的眼泪掉下来,低头给孩子穿衣裳,又掏出准备好的10块银圆,捧给逃荒人。那夫妻俩又喜又悲,千恩万谢地去了。走出门口,他们再次回头张望穿上了新衣裳的男孩,但孩子仍旧闭着眼睛没反应。 Tears welled up in your grandmother's eyes. She bent to dress the boy, then took the prepared 10 silver dollars and handed it to the refugee couple. The couple was both happy and sad, repeating their thanks as they left. As they walked out the door, they turned back to look at their child wearing new clothes, but he still had his eyes closed and showed no response. 你们猜得对,这就是舅舅了。 You guessed it right; that boy was my uncle. 家里算是有了儿子,之后请客接风,把男孩视为珍宝。 With a son in the family, we held a celebratory feast, regarding him as some kind of treasure. 当地一位有相面奇术的方士称:“这孩子命里缺水,必须取个多水的名字。"

A local fortune-teller specialized in physiognomy said, "This child's destiny lacks water, so he must have a name associated with water."

一番推算之后,算命人拍了板:“水大为洪,有水必有洲,就叫’洪洲’吧。” After some calculations, the fortune-teller said, "Water brings forth floods, and where there is water, there must be land. Let's name him 'Hongzhou' (Floodplain)." 我突然有了悟性,拦住妈妈的话:“是不是水太大,把舅舅放到了被水包围的 '洲‘ーー台湾岛?” Getting the idea, I interrupted my mother, " That's why my uncle is destined to be confined to Taiwan Island?" 妈妈警告我:“不要乱讲话,你舅可能还不知道自己的身世!” My mother warned me, "Don't speak recklessly. Your uncle may still not know his true identity!" 舅舅的回忆 Uncle's Memories 一夜之间,舅舅完成了身份的转换。 Overnight, my uncle underwent a complete transformation of identity. 他照样挺着军人的腰板,照样洋溢着军人的气质,可腰里拴上了妈妈家门的钥匙。他喜欢听钥匙啪啦啪啦撞击的声响,那意味着找到了家,他喜欢这种提示 He still stood upright like a soldier and exuded the qualities of a military man, but now he had the keys to my mother's house dangling from his belt. He enjoyed the sound of the keys clinking together, as it meant finding a home. He cherished such kind of reminder. 他哼着常香玉、马金凤、崔兰田的豫剧段子,进进出出居民楼。 He would hum the Yu opera excerpts of Chang Xiangyu, Ma Jinfeng, and Cui Lantian as he went in and out of residential buildings. 邻居们会说话儿:“是舅舅来啦?看您姐弟俩长得多像!" The neighbors would say, " Your brother came to see you ? Look how much you siblings resemble each other!" 舅舅笑眯了眼:“亲姐弟能不像?” Uncle would smile with narrowed eyes and say, "Can't siblings look alike?" 那时,我遍查报纸,都找不到河南豫剧团到京演出的消息,只好一趟趟送来赶制的豫剧录像带,像《卷席筒》《斩包拯》《穆桂英挂帅》《花木兰》《秦雪梅吊孝》《抬花轿》《香囊记》《陈三两爬堂》,足有二三十盘。那是舅舅最快乐的时光,他和着豫剧带子的旋律,用戴着绿翠戒指的大手,一下一下拍打着沙发扶手,不时哼唱出声来。 During that time, I searched through newspapers but couldn't find any news about the Henan Yu opera Troupe performing in Beijing. So I would diligently bring home videotapes of Yuzhou opera shows that were rushed and recorded, including "Rolling the Mat," "Zhan Baozheng," "Mu Guiying Takes Command," "Hua Mulan," "Qin Xuemei Mourns Her Mother," "Carrying the Bridal Sedan Chair," "Fragrant Sachet Chronicles," and "Chen Sanliang Climbs the Stage," totaling about twenty to thirty tapes. It was the happiest time for my uncle. He would accompany the melodies of the Yu opera tapes, using his big hands adorned with the green jade ring, repeatedly tapping the armrest of the sofa while occasionally humming along. 我知道,舅舅渴望这种温馨的家庭生活,已经很久了。但有时,他也会发出ー声悠长的叹息。 I knew that my uncle had long yearned for this warm family life. However, sometimes he would let out a long sigh. 我忍不住,就问舅舅为什么叹气。舅舅的眼圈红了:“想你姥姥咧,她一天好日子没过上,要是能像现在这样,手拉手,ー起看戏听戏,我死也知足了〇" Unable to hold back, I asked my uncle why he sighed. His eyes welled up with tears as he replied, "I miss your grandmother. She never had a good life. If we could be like this now, holding hands and watching plays together, I would die content." 那天,舅舅向我讲述了他的童年一 That day, my uncle shared with me memories of his childhood. 你姥姥,我叫娘。在娘身边的日子,是我这辈子最有福气的时候。娘爱爹爱,我从2岁玩到6岁,凡事不愁。那时,咱家乡下有地,县城有铺,是出名的好人家。 Your Grandma, namely my mother. The days by mother's side were the happiest and most blessed times of my life. Mother and father both loved me. From the age of 2 to 6, I had nothing to worry about. Back then, our family had land in the countryside, and a shop in the county town, known for being well-off. 一次,馍铺伙计耍笑我的处境是要星星不给月亮,我ー听就吵着让爹给摘月亮。爹是铺东家,平常少言寡语,伙计害怕他,我可不怕。爹聪明,用剪子把蛋糕皎成月牙,月牙黄黄的,他捧在手心里哄我:“看,刚给我儿摘下的月亮,趁着软,快吃吧。” Once, the employee from the steamed bun shop made a joke about me, saying I wanted stars but wouldn't settle for the moon. Hearing that, I insisted that dad pick the moon for me. Dad owned the shop and was usually reserved. The worker was afraid of him, but I wasn't. Dad was clever. He used scissors to shape a cake into a crescent moon, yellow and shining. He held it in his palm and coaxed me, saying, "Look,my baby. I just plucked this moon for you. It's soft now , so eat it quickly." 说来好笑,昨天你妈告诉我,就因为爹娘偏疼我,她那时还哭了咧。 It's really funny . Yesterday, your mother told me that she once cried because mom and dad favored me. 我像富家子弟那样,6岁念书。只要我愿意,爹能一直供我,可惜我不成器,ー进学堂就逃课,跑到村外瞎折腾,结果只念了两三年。这是我这辈子最悔的事。 I was like a rich child, staring going to scholl at the age of 6. As long as I wanted to study, dad will support me financially all the way. Unfortunately, I was undeserving. I skipped classes as soon as I entered school and ran around outside the village aimlessly. As a result, I only studied for two or three years. It's the biggest regret of my life. 我闹出了圈,给家里惹过大祸。 Once, I did something that put the family in big trouble. 一次,绑匪趁我出村玩耍,劫了我,要价1〇担赎粮。尽管咱家不短吃喝, 可1担100斤,10担粮是1000斤啊,够全家吃上一年的。这对小生意人来说, 等于揭了房顶啦。 While I was playing outside the village and was taken away by kidnappers who demanded a ransom of 500KG grains . Even though our family was not lacking in food, but the 500KG grains is enough to feed the whole family for a year. For small business people like us, it was a huge loss. 我被绑匪关在茅草屋里,心想爹ー准不赎我了,就闭着眼睛等死。那时, 我小心眼里好怕呀。 I was kept in a thatched hut by the kidnappers, thinking that dad must be unwilling to pay me. I closed my eyes, waiting for death. But actually I was so scared in my mind. 谁知没过多久,绑匪“咪当” 一声拉开门,朝我说:“你爹来了,回家吧。” But soon, "Bang !" , the kidnappers opened the door saying, "Your father has come. Go home." 我以为是绑匪戏耍,不理他。可绑匪又说:“你爹来了,回家吧!” I thought they were playing a trick on me, so I ignored them. But the bandits said again, "Your father has come. Go home!" 我腾地跳起来,站在屋门ロー看,可不,爹来了,正卸车哩。那骡车上码的粮食好高啊!我见着绑匪没哭,被关在茅草屋里没哭,可一见骡车上像小山一样的粮食,我哇地哭了!那是爹娘起早贪黑干活挣的哩! I jumped up and looked out the door. That's exactly dad! He was unloading the "ransom grain". The grain on that mule cart was so massive ! I hadn't cried in front of the kidnappers and even when I was locked in the thatched hut. But when I saw a larege amount of"ransom grain" on the cart, I burst into tears! It was what mom and dad worked hard day and night to earn! 爹抱起我,用手帕给我抹泪。他的眼神,让我ー辈子忘不了,多疼爱、多怜惜! 卸完车,爹把我安顿在空车上,他ー个指头没戳,一句气话没说,搂着我就赶车回家。娘在村口等了一整天,她泪流满面地把我抱在怀里,我当时就感动得哭开了。就为这,我心里许下愿,要当孝子,日后为爹娘养老送终! Dad lifted me up and wiped away my tears with a handkerchief and I will never forget his eyes that full of love and compassion! After unloading the grian, dad settled me on the empty cart. He didn't scold me. Instead, he just hugged me and we hurried back home. Mother had been waiting at the village entrance all day. With tears streaming down her face, she held me in her arms, and at that moment, I was so moved that I cried and I promised to myself to be a filial son and support mom and dad in their old age. 家里的买卖越做越大,人家的馒头是一斤5个,咱的馒头随便抓起4个, ー称准有1斤多,不使碱,面白面暄,价钱还便宜。爹会做生意,给老客户发了优惠折子,回头客越来越多,馍铺就开了分号。爹成了县城里的人物,他仍旧少言寡语,可在街上一走,人们全迎着这位身着狐皮长袍的老板打招呼。爹不再干活,凡事不问,全交给账房管,伙计也多了起来。 The family business grew as years went by, for the steamed buns in our shop was not only cheap but also of good quality. And dad was good at doing business. He gave discounts to regular customers, bringing people back again and again. As a result, the steamed bun shop opened a branch. Dad became a prominent figure in the county but he remained reserved. When he walked on the street, people would greeted this boss a fox fur robe. Dad no longer worked and didn't ask about anything; everything was handed over to the accountant to manage, and there were more employees. 要是没有后来的变故,这个家的日子该有多好! If it weren't for the changes later, we would live a much better life. 爹不大回家了,在外头娶了二房,就是你二姥姥。我们私下管她叫老二。 Father married a second wife outside and rarely came home.We privately called her "Lao Er" (Second). 当时,我是孩子,不明白爹为啥娶二房。俺娘是全村公认的美女子,她双眼皮,大眼睛,黑黑的头发拢在脑后,又能干又善良,我可为娘骄傲了。那ー次,娘哭了,哭过后,她平静地对爹说:“恁别在外头住,搬回来ー起过吧。” At that time, I was a child and didn't understand why dad would marry a second wife. My mom was recognized as a beauty in the whole village with double eyelids, big eyes, and black hair tied at the back of her head. She was capable and kind-hearted, and I was so proud of my mom. That time, mom cried, and after crying, she said to dad calmly, "Don't live outside, move back home together." 就这样,老二进了家,我的好日子也到了头。这老二比娘年轻多了,仗着爹宠幸,把谁都不放在眼里。一天,那年轻女人戳着我的头说:“嘿,小子,你大了,不能吃白饭,卖馍去吧〇”老ニー句话就改变了我的身份,这样,我10岁那年,就成了小伙计,每日领馍外卖,回家报账交钱。卖不掉,没饭吃。 That's how Lao Er entered the family, and my good days came to an end. Lao Er was much younger than Mother, and she didn't care about anyone because dad favored her. One day, that young woman poked my head and said, "Hey, kid, you've grown up. You can't just eat for free. Go sell steamed buns!" Her words changed my status. So, at the age of 10, I became an worker of the shop, delivering steamed buns for takeaway every day. If I couldn't sell them, I had nothing to eat. 有一次,没卖完馍,老二不让吃饭。娘看见,不干了,她碰上讨饭逃荒的都送馍,咋能看我饿肚子?老二不怕娘,喊开了:“这小子是啥人,凭啥吃白饭?” 娘平时不多言语,可这会寸步不让:“啥人?他是我的儿,吃白饭也理当!”老ニー甩头,叭地把笼屉扣上了。 Once, when I failed to sell all the steamed buns, Lao Er didn't let me eat. Mom saw it and couldn't stand it anymore. She even gave away steamed buns to those who begged for food during famine times. How could she let me go hungry? Lao Er wasn't afraid of Mom，shouting, "Who is this kid? For what reason can he eat for free?" Mom, who usually didn't say much, stood her ground, "Who is he? He is my son! Of cause he can eat for free. " Lao Er turned her head, slammed the bamboo steamer shut. 平时的积恨涌上心头,我跺脚朝老二喊:“你个贱小婆!” Resentment accumulated over the years surged within me. I stomped my feet, shouting at Lao Er, " What a wretched woman!" 我把“贱”字拉得又重又长。娘愣了,赶紧回身护住我。

I elongated the word "wretched" in a loud voice. Mom was stunned and quickly turned to protect me.

老二“嗷”地ー叫扑上来,隔着娘,照我脸上就是一巴掌。 Then Lao Er let out a loud roar and pounced on me, reaching across my mom to slap me in the face. 小冬啊,就从那时起,我右边的耳朵聋了,到现在还听不真。 From that moment, Dong, my right ear became deaf, and to this day, I still can't hear clearly. 后来,日本鬼子打来了,馍铺开不成了。我姐,就是你妈,去抗日;老二生了儿子,爹带着老二单过。自打那以后,这个家就散了,从此我再也没有见过爹。 Later, the Japanese invaders arrived, and the shop couldn't continue operating. My sister, namely your mother, then joined the War of Resistance Against Japan, while Lao Er gave birth to a son, and my father lived with her. Since then, our family fell apart, and I never saw my father again. 娘领着我躲日本兵,回到村里。娘种地纺线,有口馍,先给我吃;扯块布, 先给我做衣服。我懂事早,每日抢着帮娘担水劈柴,怕娘想姐心疼,总是哄着她高兴。要是用几个字形容我和娘这8年的日子,那就是:相依为命！后来, 抗战胜利了,姐来信让我们去江苏徐州找她,我们三口才算团聚了。 Mom led me to hide from the Japanese invaders and returned to our village. She worked in the fields and spun thread. As long as he got some food,she would give me first. And she would use any available cloth to make clothes for me. I matured early and eagerly helped my mother carry water and chop firewood every day. I was afraid that my mother would worry my sister and feel distressed, so I always tried to make her happy. If there are a few words to describe the last 8 years of my life with my mother, that will be we are dependent on each other! Later, when the war ended, my sister sent a letter inviting us to join her in Xuzhou, Jiangsu. It was only then that our small family could be reunited. 不知妈啥时进屋的。 I don't know when my mother entered the room. 妈插话:“洪洲呀,咱们从江苏徐州迁到湖南长沙,是1948年吧?” She interjected, "Hongzhou, we moved from Xuzhou, Jiangsu to Changsha, Hunan in 1948, right?" 舅说:“是的,姐。” Uncle said, "Yes, sister." 妈终于道出了应当在1948年说的话:“那是咱家最难的日子,你姐夫买了扁担夢筐,要你卖菜贴补家用,你、你怎么不吭一声就离开家了?” Finally, my mother spoke about something that should have been said in 1948, "Those were the hardest days for our family. Your brother-in-law bought a carrying pole and a large bamboo basket, planing to let you sell vegetables to support the family. Why didn't you say a word and just leave home?" 我知道,这是舅舅最难过也是最难面对的事情。 I understood that this was the most difficult and painful thing for my uncle to face. 他挺直的腰板弯下来,声音低得像自语:“我那是被抓壮丁抓走了……” 妈的声音也软下来:“你知道咱娘伤心一辈子临终还念叨洪洲洪洲的吗?” 舅受不住了,他抬起头,眼眶里溢满泪水。 His straightened back bent down, murmuring, "I was taken away for conscription..." Mother's voice also softened. "Do you know that our mother was heartbroken her whole life and even muttered your name on her deathbed?" Uncle couldn't hold back anymore. He raised his head, tears overflowing from his eyes. “我,我,我呀……”舅说,“我想娘想了一辈子啊,姐!” “I, I, I...”Uncle said, "I’ve also missed our mother my whole life, sister!" 他爆发出一声男子汉的呜咽。 He let out a sob. 舅舅失踪的真相 The Truth behind Uncle's Disappearance 舅舅为什么出走? 我家两代老人为这个问题寻思了半辈子。现在,我从妈妈与舅舅断断续续的谈话中,摘出了下面这段家事。 Why did Uncle leave ? This question has puzzled two generations of our family for half a lifetime. Now, from the sporadic conversations between my mother and uncle, I have extracted the following family story. 让我们回到1948年的长沙。 Let's go back to the year 1948 in Changsha. 那时我还没出生,上面有三个哥姐。爸爸在20世纪末被中国作家协会授予抗战作家纪念牌,当年他是报纸主编,写过发过很多抗战诗歌,可战争ー结束,他就失业了。 I wasn't born yet, but there were three older siblings above me. At the end of the 20th century, my father was awarded the War of Resistance against Japanese Writer Commemorative Plaque by the Chinese Writers Association. He was a newspaper editor and had written and published many poems in the theme of War of Resistance against Japanese However, when the war ended, he became unemployed. 爸爸送爷爷去台湾时,停靠在广州黄埔港的轮船“噗噗”地冒着白汽。时任国民党军军官的爷爷紧紧拥抱着爸爸,颤声说:“我的儿子,报馆关张了,你失去薪俸, 老人孩子等着吃喝,为什么还留在大陆?”爸爸不回答为什么,只是坚定地重复: “我不走。”爷爷踏上轮船的那一刻,说了一句令爸爸终生难忘,后来几次转述给我的话:“你,真的相信那些’左‘派朋友?” When my father accompanied my grandfather to Taiwan, the ship docked at Huangpu Port in Guangzhou was emitting white steam. My grandfather, who was then an officer of the National Army, held my father tightly in his arms and said in a quavered voice, "My son, the newspaper has closed down, you have lost your salary. The elderly and children are relying on you for food. Why are you still staying on the mainland?" My father didn't answer why, he just repeated, "I won't leave." At the moment my grandfather boarded the ship, he said something that my father would never forget, and later recounted to me several times: "Do you truly believe those 'leftist' friends?" 爸爸的眼泪流下来。这是父子俩多年不同的政见。 Tears streamed down my father's face. It was a disagreement in political views between father and son that lasted for many years. 招手,招手,招手;再见,再见,再见。 Waving,; goodbye. 那逐渐缩小的身影,最后消失了,永远消失在了两个人的生涯里。 That figure of grandfather became smaller and eventually disappeared, forever disappearing from the lives of those two individuals. 爸爸和爷爷从此没能再见。 From that day on, my father and grandfather were never able to see each other again. 冬季的长沙,空荡而寒冷。 Winter in Changsha, empty and cold. 爸妈、姥姥、舅舅和我哥姐,一家老少七口人围着炭盆吃饭。那时,爸爸做起小生意,妈妈钩织帽子外卖。不巧,幼小的哥姐赶上发烧,两支盘尼西林下去,家里就断了炊。 My parents, grandmother, uncle, and my older siblings, a family of seven, gathered around a charcoal brazier to eat. At that time, my father started a small business, and my mother crocheted hats to sell. Unfortunately, my older siblings fell ill with a fever. After paying for two doses of penicillin, our family go bankrupt, unable to afford food. 炭盆里发出的红光,越来越弱,最后,火星全熄了。姥姥叹着气,把炭盆扣到木门外,家里没钱买木炭了。妈妈钩织帽子的手,冻肿得老高。 The red glow from the charcoal brazier grew weaker and weaker until the sparks extinguished completely. Grandmother sighed and placed the brazier outside the wooden door. We couldn't afford to buy charcoal anymore. My mother's hands, used to crochet hats, were swollen from the cold. 那年舅舅18岁,挑着夢筐上街卖菜。 That year, my uncle was 18 years old and went out to sell vegetables carrying a large bamboo basket. 他心气老高,每逢迎着太阳上菜的时候,都在盘算ー个希望,咋能让家里的日子变ー变呢? With high aspirations, whenever he faced the sun while selling vegetables, he pondered how to change the poor situation of our family. 变化的时刻来了。 Then, the moment of change arrived. 两个军人兜头迎上来,舅舅刚想招呼买菜,两人开口了 :“喂,送你去个吃饭的地方。” Two soldiers approached him, and just as my uncle was about to greet them, they spoke: "Hey, we'll take you to a place where you'll have free food." 舅舅看势头不妙,抓起夢筐要跑,但一个人已经按住了他的肩。舅舅挣扎着喊:“我有娘,得问娘!”另ー个人随手撇了夢筐说:“先看看兵营再问娘。” Sensing something is not right, my uncle grabbed the bamboo basket and tried to run, but one of the soldiers held onto his shoulder. Struggling, my uncle shouted, "I have a mother, I have to ask my mother!" The other person casually tossed aside the bamboo basket and said, "Let's see the barracks first, then ask your mother." 在抓兵人的押解下,舅舅挪动着双脚。 Under the escort of the soldiers, my uncle shuffled his feet. 那时,舅舅是个没有见过世面的乡村孩子,不知道全国的战争形势,不知道辽沈战役中解放军全歼国民党军47万人,淮海战役接着开打;不知道国民党军屡战屡败、屡败屡退,为补充兵力而大规模抓壮丁;不知道共产党已经在筹备建立中华人民共和国。 At that time, my uncle was a naive village boy who had barely left the village. He didn't know the overall war situation in the country, unaware that in the Liaoshen campaign, the Communist People's Liberation Army had annihilated 470,000 National Army, and the Huaihai Campaign was about to begin. He didn't know that the National Army had suffered repeated defeats and retreats, leading to the massive conscription of able-bodied men. He was unaware that the Communist Party of China was preparing to establish the People's Republic of China. 被50年后的舅舅评述为“是权カ之争也是治国方略之争”的这场国共战争, 给予当年舅舅的心理感受只是恐惧与茫然。舅舅分不清共产党、国民党、解放军、国民党军,更不知道自己成了壮丁。 This war between the Communists and the Nationalists, which my uncle would later describe as a "struggle for power and national governance strategy," only instilled fear and confusion in his young mind. He couldn't distinguish between the Communist Party of China(CPC), Kuomintang (or the Nationalist Party of China) , the Communist People's Liberation Army, and the National Army, let alone realize that he had become one of the conscripted men. 走啊走,太阳升高了。 Uncle walked and walked, and the sun rose higher. 舅舅心里也升起了一个太阳,早先盘算的那个希望亮堂起来:穿上一年半载军装,拿上钱回家,娘和姐就能吃饱饭了 ! In his heart, there was also a sun rising, illuminating the dreams he had been thinking about: "As long as I wear a military uniform for a year or two, then I get some money and go back home so that mom and sister could have enough to eat! 舅舅轻松起来,索性挣脱押解人的手臂,自己大步走进了兵营。 Feeling relieved, my uncle managed to free himself from the grip of the escorting soldiers and confidently strode into the barracks. 历史在这里停住了脚步,舅舅的农民身份就在这一刻结束,从此,他成了国民党军士兵。 From then on, my uncle's identity as a farmer ended. From then on, he became a soldier in the National Army. 第二章一江之隔 Chapter 2: Separated by a river 海峡这边与那边 On one side of the strait, and on the other 国民党军队伍不分日夜一径朝南开,舅舅慌起来,他知道家在北边,想逃走,可就地正法的案例使他的思维转了向。舅舅在这个乌合之众的群体里第一次认识了自己的智慧和组织能力,他鼓动伙伴,先干,瞅机会跑。 The National Army marched day and night, heading south without a break. My uncle grew anxious. He knew his home was in the north, and wanted to escape. However, given the risk of being condemned to death, he changed his mind. Within this 'rabble', my uncle discovered his own intelligence and organizational skills. He rallied his fellows and planned to take action and seize an opportunity to flee away. 军队再歇脚的时候,他们南行到了一个无名的小岛。所有的士兵都在叫骂,不明白军队为啥不打仗,径直朝远离家乡的蛮荒之地撤退。 When the army rested, they reached an unnamed small island. The soldiers were all cursing, unable to understand why the army didn't go to the battlefield and was instead retreating to a remote and desolate land far from their hometowns. 舅舅继承了爹娘少言寡语的性格,这使他在那批叫骂的士兵中显得老成稳重, 从而引起了长官的注意。几个月后,舅舅没找到逃跑机会,反倒ー步ー步升任当了排长,每日带着士兵在小岛上操练。

My uncle inherited his parents personality, being reserved, which made him appear more mature and steady among the soldiers who were cursing. This caught the attention of the commanding officer. Several months later, my uncle couldn't find an opportunity to escape, but instead, he was promoted step by step and became a platoon leader. Every day, he led the soldiers in training on the small island. 他后来对我说,在这段日子里,能够冲淡他思乡情绪的是ー只白色小狗。那狗儿每日夜间定时叫他起床查夜,于是舅舅就不管军规军法,醒了就抱着狗儿在兵营里巡查。新兵都害怕他的威严,说没见过排长的笑脸。可舅舅说,如果不是怕牵连整排人,他早开小差找娘去了 ! He later told me that during this time, the only thing that could alleviate his homesickness was a small white dog. The dog would wake him up every night to check the surroundings. So, my uncle disregarded military regulations. When he woke up, he would patrol the barracks while carrying the dog. The new recruits were all afraid of his authority, for they had never seen their platoon leader smile. But my uncle said that if it weren't for the fear of implicating the entire platoon, he would have secretly gone to find his mother! 小岛上的日子有了头,队伍集合待发。ー心一意指望回家的士兵,在茫茫大海的涛声中,在人民解放军的炮声中,在大船停泊、小船乱撞的码头,在万千士兵向北方捶胸顿足的哭喊声中,在无数人抓着绳梯苦苦爬向大船舱门的时刻,骤然明白了自己的处境。 The days on the small island came to an end, and the troops assembled for departure. The soldiers, who had hoped with all their hearts to return home, suddenly realized their situation amidst the sound of the roaring sea, the artillery fire from the Communist People's Liberation Army, the bustling docks with large and small ships colliding, the desperate cries and shouts of thousands of soldiers towards the northward direction, and the countless people desperately climbing the rope ladder to reach the entrance of the large ship 1949年,120万大陆国民党军人、军属分批登上了开赴台湾的舰艇。那时,舅舅撒手放走了悲声哀号的小白狗。 In 1949, 1.2 million mainland soldiers of the National Army and their families boarded the ships bound for Taiwan in batches. At that time, my uncle bid farewell to the grieving little white dog. 经过整编,舅舅进入了正规的海军陆战队。这海军陆战队是台军参谋本部直属的战略预备队,专门担负陆上、海上快速反应作战任务,是被视为“攻势作战”的兵种,也是被其他士兵羡慕的兵种。 After reorganization, my uncle entered the Taiwan Marine Corps (TMC). The Marine Corps was a strategic reserve force directly under the command of the General Staff Headquarters of The Ministry of National Defense of the Republic of China (MND). It was responsible for rapid response operations on land and at sea, considered a "offensive warfare" branch, and envied by other soldiers. 就在这个部队乱哄哄换防时,舅舅出乎意料地见到了一个极为重要的人。 Just as chaos ensued during the rotation of troops, my uncle unexpectedly saw a very important person. 那时,舅舅率队在台湾ー个小城市的车站待命。他正窝火的当儿,身边走过了几位年长军官。舅舅看呆了,为首的人儒雅挺拔,像谁呢……像、像、像姐夫!那当然不是姐夫,从年龄上说,应当是姐夫的父亲! At that time, my uncle's unit was stationed at a train station in a small city in Taiwan. While he was feeling irritated, several senior military officers walked by him. My uncle was stunned when he saw the leader among them, who was refined and upright, resembling someone... , resembling my brother-in-law! Of course, it couldn't be my brother-in-law; considering the age, it should be my brother-in-law's father! 各位读者,舅舅的姐夫,就是我的父亲啊! Dear readers, my uncle's brother-in-law is my father! 舅舅腾地跳起来,他知道,迟上几分钟,在人山人海中就永远找不到长官了! My uncle jumped up in a hurry. He knew that if he hesitated for a few minutes, he would never be able to find the officer amidst the crowd! 舅舅火速冲上前,叭地立正、行礼。儒雅挺拔的长官站定,和蔼地说:“小鬼,你有事?”舅舅说:“长官,我姐夫是X X,您是不是……” My uncle rushed forward, stood at attention, and saluted. The refined and upright officer stopped and kindly asked, "What's the matter, young lad?" My uncle said, "Sir, X X is my brother-in-law, are you his father?" 舅舅紧张地看着长官,好似那人决定着他的命运。长官笑了,一把抓住他的手说:“好哇好哇,我们是亲戚,我给你留个地址!” My uncle nervously looked at the officer, as if that person held his fate in his hands. The officer smiled and grabbed his hand, saying, "Good, We're relatives. I'll leave you an address!" 我爷爷从勤务兵手里接过笔,匆匆写着字。这位高官在返回大陆无望的第二年,接走了除我父亲以外的所有家眷。 My grandfather took the pen from the orderly and hastily wrote down the address. In the second year when there was no hope of returning to the mainland, this high-ranking official took away all the family members except my father. 天助我家。许多年后,就是凭着这层关系,我们在台湾的叔叔姑姑,当然还有舅舅,到北京找到了我们一家。 Fortune favored our family. Many years later, it was through this connection that our relatives in Taiwan, including uncles, aunts, and of course, my uncle, found us in Beijing. 在台湾,不能忍受的事接连发生。最可怕的是头几年部队开不出饭,士兵日日以番薯、野菜充饥。 In Taiwan, unbearable things happened one after another. The most terrible thing was that for the first few years, the army couldn't provide enough food, and the soldiers had to rely on sweet potatoes and wild vegetables to alleviate their hunger. 官兵不知道,蒋介石当局与美国签署了有关共同防御的规定,把从大陆带来的黄金倾力投入军费里。几十年后公布的数字证明,20世纪50年代台湾军费开支占财政总预算的70%以上,60年代还占50%,而官兵与家属却在他们“同心同德、返乡复国”的教义下忍饥挨饿！ The soldiers didn't know that the Nationalist Government of Chiang Kai-shek had signed an agreement with the United States on joint defense, and they poured the gold brought from the mainland into military expenses. Decades later, the revealed figures proved that in the 1950s, Taiwan's military expenditure accounted for over 70% of the total budget, and in the 1960s, it still accounted for 50% or more. Meanwhile, the soldiers and their families suffered from hunger under the doctrine of "unity and return home." 从策略上看,蒋介石当局将台湾作为休养之地,推出“一年准备,两年反攻,三年扫荡,五年成功”的计划。也就是说,蒋介石当局预计在!954-1955年重新占领大陆。 From a strategic point of view, the Nationalist Government of Chiang Kai-shek saw Taiwan as a place for rest and implemented a plan called “prepare for one year, counterattack in two years, sweep out the enemy in three years and succeed within five years.” In other words, the Nationalist Government of Chiang Kai-shekes expected to reoccupy the mainland between 1954 and 1955. 成为牺牲品的,不光是1949年赴台的60万官兵与60万随军家眷,加上1950 年从海南岛、舟山群岛等地陆续赴台的官兵及家眷,赴台者已达200万之众。 The sacrifices included not only the 600,000 soldiers and 600,000 accompanying family members who went to Taiwan in 1949 but also the 2 million soldiers and their families who arrived in Taiwan from Hainan Island, Zhoushan Islands, and other places in 1950. 蒋介石当局只好草草安置眷属,台湾的学校、寺庙、农舍、牛棚塞满了大陆人。这些后来被称为“眷村”的贫民窟,全台湾有763个,眷户高达96082家。后来从眷村走出来的名人,比如宋楚瑜、吴小莉、李立群、邓丽君等人,在撤至台湾初期,都与他们的父兄共渡艰难,不得不以番薯、菜叶充饥。

The Nationalist Government of Chiang Kai-shek hastily settled the family members. Schools, temples, cottages, and cowsheds in Taiwan were packed with mainlanders. These slums, later known as "military dependents' villages," numbered 763 across Taiwan, with a total of 96,082 households. Many celebrities who later emerged, such as James Soong, Wu Xiaoli, Li Liqun, and Teresa Teng, experienced hardships with their fathers and brothers during the initial period of retreat to Taiwan and had to rely on sweet potatoes and vegetable leaves to satisfy their hunger.

就像割倒的韭菜那样,ー拨ー拨的士兵倒下去了。饥饿,浮肿,水土不服。 Like fallen chives, soldiers toppled one after another. Hunger, edema, and difficulties adapting to the new climate. 舅舅饿得头昏眼花,站不直身子。那年头,如果石头是软的,他也会往嘴里填。舅舅和老兵们凑ー堆,常常互相按脸按腿,比比谁按下去的小坑深,接下来就是骂娘,把这个龟孙那个龟孙的劣迹痛数一番,横竖不管军规军法。 My uncle was so hungry that he felt dizzy and couldn't stand up straight. In those days, if stones were soft, he would have stuffed them into his mouth. My uncle and the old soldiers gathered together and often pressed each other's faces and legs, competing to see whose indentations were deeper, and then they would curse and recount the shortcomings of officers, disregarding military rules and regulations. 之后就是痛哭。 After that, they would burst into tears. 台湾海峡被封锁了。再大胆的人也不敢冒“通敌叛国”罪名叨唠回家,于是, 士兵们就在军营里发疯般地哭爹喊娘。 The Taiwan Strait was blocked. Even the boldest individuals didn't dare to risk being accused of "collaboration and treason" and talk about going home. So, the soldiers went crazy in the barracks, crying and calling for their parents. 舅舅独自守着无边无涯的大海,一宿一宿地落泪,一宿一宿地与娘说话。他想起了我姥姥纺纱织布的情景,那时姥姥哼着豫剧唱腔,他围着织布机跑,边耍边应和;他想起了我姥姥牵着他的小手串门的情景,姥姥帮他穿上锦缎丝袄,戴上撑有两根铜棍花瓣的帽子,那花瓣一走ー颤,惹得一街娃儿艳羡; My uncle guarded the boundless sea alone, night after night, shedding tears and talking to his mother who is far away from him. He recalled the scene of my grandmother spinning and weaving and humming the tunes of Yu opera while he ran around the loom, playing along. He remembered my grandmother holding his small hand as they visited their neighborhoods, my grandmother helping him put on a silk jacket embroidered with brocade, and wearing a hat with two copper stick petals, which would tremble as long as one moved, attracting envy from children on the street. 他想起了我姥姥受二姥姥排挤的情景,发誓终生保护我姥姥不受气;他甚至幻想满地跑着他洪洲的娃儿 He remembered my grandmother being mistreated by Lao Er and swore to protect my grandmother from any harm. He even fantasized about running around with his own children. 深沉难耐的苦,是从故乡从亲人中被剥离出来的孤独之苦。舅舅不知道,那苦オ刚刚萌芽,它将发芽长大,之后缠绕舅舅一生,逼得他后来几近发疯。 The deep and unbearable suffering was the loneliness caused by being separated from his homeland and loved ones. My uncle didn't know that this pain had just sprouted and would grow, haunting him for his entire life and almost driving him to madness. 退役的日子 Life after retirement 大半辈子的光阴,说没就没了 Half a lifetime of time vanished, just like that. 舅舅受不了部队里种种非人道束缚,以台湾海军陆战队第651团上尉副连长的职务提前退役,兵籍号码629581。按规定,他享有终身俸。由于习惯了简朴生活,他每月花销不多,后来又找了一份工作,日久天长,积蓄渐渐多起来〇 Unable to bear the inhumane restraints in the military, my uncle retired early from his position as a deputy platoon leader with the rank of captain in the Taiwan Marine Corps (TMC) 651st Regiment, with service number 629581. According to regulations, he was entitled to a lifelong pension. Since he was accustomed to a simple life, his monthly expenses were not high. Later, he found another job, and over time, his savings gradually increased. Chapter Eleven 一天,他在同乡老柳家喝酒,悲痛中突然倒地,这时他才知道,无痕的是积淀进心底的哀伤。老柳太太果断地招呼人把舅舅抬进了医院。 One day, while drinking with fellow villagers at the Liu family's house, he suddenly collapsed in sorrow. It was then that he realized the hidden sorrow that had accumulated in his heart. Mrs. Liu decisively called for someone to take my uncle to the hospital. 心肌梗塞。 Heart Attack 医生说:“你岁数大了,不要吸烟不要喝酒不要急躁。” The doctor said, "You're old, don't smoke, don't drink, and don't be irascible." 他听话,戒了烟酒,那时房价正低,他打算购买ー套房子,在台北过安生日子。 He followed the doctor's advice, quit smoking and drinking. At that time, housing prices were low, so he planned to buy a house and live a peaceful life in Taipei. 老柳太太也是河南人,这个家她说了算。爽快热情的柳太太当机立断:“洪洲兄弟,把房子盖我家房顶上,咱就成了一家人!” Mrs. Liu, also from Henan, had the final say in their household. The generous and enthusiastic Mrs. Liu made up her mind, saying "Brother Hongzhou, let's just build a house on top of my house, and we'll become one family!" 这里是台北万大路,穷人居住的地方,面临着城市改造。 Liu’s house was on Wanda Road in Taipei where most people are poor and faced urban redevelopment. 舅舅犹豫,怕给别人添麻烦老柳是厚道人,退伍老兵,看太太定了调,就也カ劝舅舅搬了来。 My uncle hesitated, afraid of causing trouble for others. Mr. Liu, being an honest man and a retired soldier, saw that his wife had made up her mind and persuaded my uncle to move in as well. 舅舅禁不起两人劝说,敲定了,盖房! Unable to resist their persuasion, my uncle agreed and they started building the house! 盖了三间。原来楼下的三间,柳先生一家照旧住;楼上新起的三间,是舅舅的家。后来,舅舅说,那盖房钱足够在好地界买套新房。 Three rooms were built in total. The original three rooms downstairs remained occupied by the Liu family, while the newly built three rooms upstairs became my uncle's home. Later, my uncle said that the money spent on building the house would have been enough to buy a new house in a better location. 就这样,舅舅成了柳家人。每日下班回来,一起吃饭、打牌、聊天,倒也其乐融融。可后来,舅舅发现事情不对,柳太太掌管着老柳的账目,也月月收走他的退休金, That's how my uncle became a member of the Liu family. They would eat together, play cards, and chat after work every day.But later, my uncle discovered that something was wrong. Mrs. Liu controlled Mr. Liu's finances and would even take away his retirement pension every month. 舅舅开销得伸手要钱。

My uncle had to ask her for money to cover his expenses.

舅舅不愿被管束,在ー次取来退休金后,留下一半,柳太太就变了脸。 My uncle didn't want to be controlled, so one day he withdraw his retirement pension on his own but left half of it . However, Mrs. Liu's attitude changed. 这之后,柳家的孙子孙女三天两头缠着舅舅要零花钱,柳太太与女儿每逢出国旅游也张ロ朝舅舅要钱。 After that, the grandchildren of the Liu family would frequently pester my uncle for pocket money, and Mrs. Liu and her daughter would often ask my uncle for money whenever they went on international trips. 舅舅每日上班,越来越少在柳家吃饭,也越来越懒得爬回自己的二楼新居,但仍旧仗义地缴纳着生活费,也照样管着柳家孙子孙女的零花钱。他有时也反问自己:咋把日子过成这样了呢?但他总是有理由说服自己:人家把你送进医院救了你的命,这恩情不比啥大? My uncle started to work everyday so he ate less and less at the Liu family's house. He also didn't go back to his new apartment, but he still paid his share of the living expenses and continued to give pocket money to the Liu family's grandchildren. Sometimes he questioned himself, "How did I end up living like this?" But he always found reasons to convince himself: "They saved your life by sending you to the hospital. Isn't this favor just as significant?" 寻找大陆亲人 Searching for mainland relatives 当年血气方刚的士兵,背驼了,腰弯了,白发上头了。许多老兵如同当年舅舅的景况,在路上被抓到兵营,家里毫不知情,因此,多年来,他们只想传递给亲人ー句话,就一句:我活着。为这三个字,老兵们忍了十年、十年又十年,但后来不能忍了,爹娘逐渐衰老了。他们开始冒着坐牢的危险相聚,商讨怎样将话递给爹娘。 Those young and spirited soldiers of the past have now become hunched, bent, and with gray hair. Many veterans, just like my uncle back then, were captured on the road and taken to military camps without telling their families. For many years, all they wanted to convey to their loved ones was "I am alive." The veterans endured for ten years, then another ten years, all for those three words. But eventually, they couldn't bear it any longer as their parents grew older. They began risking imprisonment to gather together and discuss how to deliver the message to their parents. 各位读者,这里说的“坐牢的危险”并不夸张。台湾作家廖信忠在《台湾老百姓自己的故事》里用“白色恐怖”形容当时台湾的政治氛围,“这个词对于台湾的意义,大部分就是指国民党自统治台湾以来对异议分子或嫌疑者的肃清及迫害。台湾人民长期处在这种环境里,有话不敢说,有意见不敢表达”; Dear readers, the mention of the "danger of imprisonment" here is not an exaggeration. Taiwanese writer Liao Xinzong described the political atmosphere in Taiwan at that time as the "White Terror (Taiwan)" in his book Our Taiwan in These Years. This term mostly refers to the elimination and persecution of dissidents or suspects by the Kuomintang since they ruled Taiwan. The people of Taiwan lived in such an environment for a long time, where they dared not speak their minds or express their opinions." 廖信忠还提到这种政治高压对下一代的渗透:“蒋中正的影响カー直到20世纪80年代末90年代初都还存在,在我小学时都还要背’蒋公遗嘱’,音乐课也要学唱’蒋公纪念歌’;而每次老师ー提到蒋介石或'国父’孙中山先生时,大家都要正坐或立正一下表示尊敬。” Liao Xinzong also mentioned the infiltration of this political pressure on the next generation: "Chiang Kai-shek's influence persisted until the late 1980s and early 1990s. . When I was in elementary school, we had to memorize "Chiang Kai-Shek 's Last Testament" and in music class, we had to sing the "Chiang Kai-shek Memorial Son". Whenever the teacher mentioned Chiang Kai-shek or Father of the Nation: Sun Yat-sen, we had to sit up straight or stand at attention to show respect." 20世纪80年代后期,我在台湾的叔叔委托我给他寄一本《鲁迅书信集》,按照他的指点,我首先将《鲁迅书信集》包上封皮,写上其他书名,寄至香港,然后由香港朋友改换成香港印刷品包装,再寄至台湾。叔叔在信中说:一定要谨慎,查出来是要坐牢的! In the late 1980s, my uncle in Taiwan entrusted me to send him a copy of Selected letters of Lu Xun. Following his instructions, I first covered the book with a different book cover, wrote other book titles on it, and sent it to Hong Kong. Then, my friends in Hong Kong would replace the packaging with Hong Kong-printed materials before sending it to Taiwan. My uncle wrote in his letter: "Be careful, if it is discovered, we will go to jail!" 像老兵的忍耐达到极限ー样,这个时代的忍耐也涨到了极限。 Just like the veterans' endurance reached its limit, the endurance of that era also reached its limit. 1979年1月1日,全国人大常委会发表《告台湾同胞书》,称人民解放军停止对金门炮击,希望实现通航通邮。 On January 1, 1979, the Standing Committee of the National People's Congress issued the "Message to Compatriots in Taiwan," ordering the Communist People's Liberation Army to stop the bombardment of Kinmen (Quemoy) and expressing the hope to open up postal and transportation (especially airline) links between Mainland China and Taiwan.

1981年,台湾《时报周刊》、台北《展望》杂志社就“中国统ー”主题举办专题座谈会。 In 1981, China Times Weekly (CTW) and Look Magazine in Taipei held special symposiums on the theme of "China's Reunification." 1982年6月,由蒋经国之子蒋孝武任社长的台湾《自由中国之声》杂志发表专论,主张中国和平统一分“三个阶段”进行。 In June 1982, an article was published in The Voice of Free China magazine, with Jiang Xiaowu, the son of Chiang Ching-kuo, serving as the president, advocating for peaceful reunification of China in "three stages." 后来,美籍华人陈香梅谈到了这段历史。她在2004年8月21日答新华社记者问时,披露台湾老兵回乡探亲问题由邓小平率先提出。她说,20世纪80年代初, 邓小平向她提议,可以先让在台湾的老兵回家探亲,说大家都是中国人,都有父母、兄弟姐妹、老婆、孩子。于是,陈女士就去台湾,向台湾方面转达了这层意思。 Later on, Chinese American Chen Xiangmei talked about this period of history. In an interview with Xinhua News Agency on August 21, 2004, she revealed that it was Deng Xiaoping who first proposed the idea of allowing Taiwanese veterans to return home to visit their families. She said that in the early 1980s, Deng Xiaoping proposed to her that veterans in Taiwan should be allowed to go home to visit their families, saying that we were all Chinese and had parents, brothers and sisters, wives and children. Consequently, Ms. Chen went to Taiwan to convey this message to the Taiwanese government. 老兵们从台湾当局禁止收听的大陆广播中,知晓了有关探亲的一切信息。就为邓小平上述通情达理的见识,舅舅念念不忘邓小平的恩德。他最后一次到北京时,有位艺人给他画像,把他的脸孔描画得蛮像邓小平,舅舅竟然乐出了声,把它带回台湾,贴在了自家墙头上。当然那是后来的事。 The veterans learned about all the information regarding visiting their families from mainland broadcasts that were prohibited by the Taiwanese government. Because of Deng Xiaoping's sensible insight, my uncle never forgot Deng Xiaoping's kindness. During his last visit to Beijing, an artist drew a portrait for him, depicting his face resembling Deng Xiaoping. My uncle was so delighted that he brought it back to Taiwan and hung it on the wall of his own home. Of course, that came later. 老兵们费尽心机地寻找着与家乡沟通的途径。功夫不负有心人,机会来了。 The veterans made every effort to find ways to communicate with their hometowns. Finally, their efforts paid off. The opportunity came. 那是ー个阳光明媚的日子,老兵们邀请几位赴台的香港生意人喝茶。戴着金丝眼镜的香港人很斯文很仗义,说都是中国人都是手足同胞都有父母妻小自然可以转信;老兵们感动得眼圈发红,说不会让他们白干,自会付些酬劳。 It was a sunny day when the veterans invited several Hong Kong businessmen who had visited Taiwan to have tea. These Hong Kong individuals, wearing wire-rimmed glasses, were cultured and generous in aiding needy people. They said that as compatriots who also have loved parents, wives, and children, they were ready to help them relay letters. The veterans were deeply moved, their eyes welling up with tears, and they vowed not to let the businessmen work for free. 香港人说,那就不客气了,在商言商,冒着杀头危险转信还是要多收些手续费的。老兵们放下茶碗,齐刷刷声明不怕花钱。香港人说生意人讲信用,你们五天后交信交钱,两个月后自会见到大陆亲人回信。 The Hong Kong individuals replied that they would not stand on ceremony. Business just does what business does. Given there was a risk of severe punishment, they would still charge a higher fee for relaying letters. The veterans put down their teacups and unanimously declared that no matter how much money it costs, they would pay for it. The Hong Kong businessmen asked the veterans to trust them, and to hand over the messages and payment after five days and promised that the veterans would receive letters from their relatives on the mainland within two months. 老兵们呼地站起来相拥而泣。他们全不顾茶馆高雅幽静的氛围,不睬茶客们抗议的目光,只管捶胸顿足,高喊老天开眼了。 The veterans suddenly stood up and embraced each other in tears. They paid no attention to the elegant and tranquil atmosphere of the tea house, ignoring the disapproving glances from other customers. Instead, they shouted desperately , "Heaven has finally opened its eyes!" 舅舅兴冲冲地跑到彰化市去找我叔叔要地址,爷爷和叔叔都住在彰化市。与舅舅比起来,我爷爷幸运得多,他早就托付九龙的朋友转信,舅舅去彰化时,爷爷、叔叔已经与爸爸互通过好几封信了。 My uncle hurriedly went to Changhua City to find my another uncle to ask for the address of my family. Both my grandfather and my another uncle lived in Changhua City. Compared to my uncle, my grandfather was much luckier. He had entrusted a friend in Kowloon to relay letters long before , and by the time my uncle went to Changhua, my grandfather and uncle had already exchanged several letters with my father. 我爷爷一生低调,信中从不炫耀个人业绩。父亲告诉我,爷爷オ华横溢,诗书棋画均有造诣,说我们后代无人能及。讲到通信,还有个趣事。我爷爷能写一手好字,他在托付九龙朋友转信前,就亲临香港将写给我父亲的信直接寄到了湖北云梦老家。爷爷当然不知道我们早到了北京,他的信居然没有被拦截,直接投递到了村庄。 My grandfather led a low-profile life and never boasted about personal achievements in his letters. My father told me that my grandfather was talented in various fields, including poetry, calligraphy, weiqi, and painting, surpassing any of his descendants. Speaking of exchanging letters, there is an interesting story. My grandfather had excellent handwriting. Before entrusting his friend in Kowloon to relay the letters, he personally went to Hong Kong to sent a letter to my father in Hubei Yunmeng, our ancestral hometown, during his visit to Hong Kong. Little did my grandfather know that we had already moved to Beijing. Surprisingly, his letter was not intercepted and was delivered directly to our village. 那是我们的“文化大革命”期间,海外来信一律被视为投敌叛国的证据,可就因为信封上的ー笔好字,生产大队会计舍不得上交,把它珍藏下来了。爷爷没能够坚持到我父亲以大陆作家身份访台的90年代,他老人家由于中风,在病榻上躺了几年,80年代后期就故在彰化了。 It was during the "Cultural Revolution," a time when overseas letters were considered evidence of betrayal or treason. However, because of the beautiful calligraphy on the envelope, the accountant at the production brigade couldn't bear to hand it over and kept it as a treasure. Unfortunately, my grandfather didn't live long enough to see my father visit Taiwan in the 1990s as a mainland writer. Due to a stroke, he spent the last few years of his life bedridden and passed away in Changhua in the late 1980s. 舅舅开始书写生平第一封信。他很不自信,不停涂改,后来还是把笔交到了老柳女儿个中学生手里。舅舅说一句,中学生写一句,正写在兴头上时,柳太太插了一句:“洪洲,你别是剃头挑子ー头热吧?”舅舅看了她一眼,发现她表情怪怪的,大有不愿意舅舅与大陆亲人联系之意。 My uncle began writing his first letter. Lacking confidence, he made constant revisions. In the end, he handed the pen to the daughter of Liu, a middle school student who wrote what my uncle said simultaneously. They were both quite engrossed in the process when Mrs. Liu interrupted and said, "Is it just spur of the moment?" My uncle glanced at her and noticed her strange expression, sensing that she was unwilling to let him establish contact with his mainland relatives. 老兵们的信足有一提包,连同另ー提包台币,以及几十年沉甸甸的期盼,全部交到了香港人下榻的饭店。戴着金丝眼镜的香港人仍旧很斯文很仗义,慢慢重复着请放心之类的安慰话;老兵们也仗义地邀请香港人喝酒,举杯庆祝就要实现的愿望,他们似乎已经难以承受即将到来的喜悦之重。 A full bag of the veterans' letters, another full bad Taiwanese dollars and decades of anticipation were entrusted to the hotel where the Hong Kong businessmen stayed. They still wearing their wire-rimmed glasses, remained cultured and generous, repeating comforting words like "please rest assured." In return, the veterans hospitably invited them for a drink, raising their glasses to celebrate the impending realization of their wishes. It seemed that they were overwhelmed with the joy that was about to come. 之后是等待,等待。ー个月,两个月,半年,所有的老兵都没有收到回信。 Then came the endless waiting. One month, two months, half a year passed,but none of the veterans received any replies. ー个在老兵们心中多次跳闪的猜疑变成了判断,那被事实证明了的判断如同钢鞭一般直抽老兵们的心窝:香港人敛足钱,回港过好日子去了 !被欺骗的老兵悲愤地集体号啕,当他们醒悟到要清算几位香港人的无耻行为时,オ发现根本就没有留下他们的任何信息。 The suspicions that has risen in the veterans' hearts multiple times turned into fact, which was proven true and broke their hearts: those Hong Kong businessmen had taken the money and returned to Hong Kong to live a good life! The deceived veterans collectively wailed in sorrow and anger. When they realized they needed to hold several Hong Kong individuals accountable for their despicable actions, they discovered that there was no trace of their whereabouts. 天无绝人之路。与老兵一样,这个时代的有识之士在保持了数十年的缄默后, 迸发出ー叠震耳欲聋的吼声。 There is always a way when there seems to be none. Like the veterans, the enlightened individuals of this era, after decades of silence, letting out a deafening roar. 1986年4月,高雄市议会通过提案,要求国民党当局准许外省籍人士与大陆亲人通信,“以慰亲情”！ In April 1986, the Kaohsiung City Council passed a proposal demanding that the Kuomintang authorities allow Mainlander in Taiwan to communicate with their mainland relatives to relieve their homesickness. 1986年成立的民进党,主张“人权至上,不分党派,人道为先,亲情第一 ”,于 1987年初发动“返乡省亲运动” ！ In 1986, The Democratic Progressive Party (DPP) was established, advocating for "human rights supremacy, transcending party affiliation, prioritizing humanitarianism, and placing family ties first." In early 1987, they launched the "Homecoming and Family Reunion Movement"! 1987年4月18日,多位国民党籍“立委”提出质询,要求台湾当局重新检讨 “三不”政策,以符合现实需要! On April 18, 1987, several Kuomintang "legislators" raised inquiries, demanding that the Taiwanese government reconsider the The Three-Noes Policy to meet the needs of reality! 1987年5月2日,台北6000余位大陆籍人士成立了 “外省人返乡探亲促进会”,要求准许他们返回大陆故乡。他们穿着写有“想家”两字的白衬衫,散发传单,游行示威。5月10日,他们齐聚台北中山纪念馆前,举办“遥念母亲”活动。这个组织的声明打动了无数人的心: On May 2, 1987, more than 6,000 Mainlander in Taiwan in Taipei established the "Association for Promoting Homecoming Visits by Mainlander Taiwanese" and demanded permission to return to their mainland hometowns. They wore white shirts printed with words "Missing Home" and distributed leaflets while marching in demonstrations. On May 10, they gathered in front of the Chiang Kai-shek Memorial Hall in Taipei and held an event called "Distant Thoughts of Mother." The declaration of this organization touched the hearts of countless people: 由于严厉的禁制,40多年来,多少人把刻骨铭心的思亲念头压抑在内心深处,我们已为国民党耗尽了宝贵的青春,并已沉默了40年,现在该是我们大家团结起来,站出来讲话的时候了。我们只求,父母若健在,让我们回去奉上一杯茶;若不在,则让我们回去献上一炷香 Due to strict restrictions, for over 40 years, many people have suppressed their heartfelt longing for their families deep inside. We have exhausted our precious youth for the Kuomintang and remained silent for 40 years. Now is the time for all of us to unite, speak up, and take action. We only ask that if our parents are still alive, let us go back and offer them a cup of tea; if they have passed away, let us go back and burn incense in their honor. 舅舅这个生有反骨的人,无疑支持所有抗议活动。他是国民党员,曾经信奉国民党中央,但当腐败现实击碎了他的返乡梦想之后,他就自由脱党,拒交党费了。 My rebellious uncle undoubtedly supported all the protest activities. He was a member of the Kuomintang and used to believe in the party's central leadership. However, when the harsh reality shattered his dream of returning home, he left the party and refused to pay party fees. 1987年初,蒋经国指示有关部门研议开放民众赴大陆探亲的可能性。 In early 1987, Chiang Ching-kuo instructed relevant departments to study the possibility of allowing the public to visit the mainland to reunite with their relatives. 1987年7月27日,台湾交通主管机关、内政主管机关联合宣布,解除自1979 年4月实行的不许台湾同胞以港澳作为出境旅游第一站的限制,允许台湾民众前往香港旅游,但不准进入大陆。此举使两岸离散的有钱人陆续前往香港会面。 On July 27, 1987, the Ministries of Transportation and Interior, jointly announced the lifting of restrictions that had been in place since April 1979, which prohibited Taiwanese compatriots from making Hong Kong or Macau their first destination for outbound travel. Taiwanese people were allowed to travel to Hong Kong but were not permitted to enter the mainland. This move led to the wealthy individuals who had been separated across the strait gradually traveling to Hong Kong for meetings. 1987年10月14日,国民党中常会通过了台湾居民赴大陆探亲方案,“允许民众赴大陆探亲;除现役军人及公职人员外,凡在大陆有血亲、姻亲、三等亲以内之亲属者,均可申请到大陆探亲”。 On October 14, 1987, the Kuomintang Central Standing Committee passed the proposal for Taiwan residents to visit the mainland, "allowing people to visit the mainland; except for active-duty military personnel and public officials, anyone with relatives up to the third degree of kinship on the mainland can apply to visit the mainland." 冰山坍塌了。 The iceberg collapsed. 这之前,我家也从爷爷信中知道了舅舅的地址,于是托香港朋友转信,一封、两封,在丢失了几封信以后,终于有一天,舅舅收到了我们的信,而我家也收到了舅舅通过香港朋友转寄来的信。 Before that, my family learned my uncle's address from my grandfather's letter. So we asked a friend in Hong Kong to forward the letters. After losing several letters, one day, my uncle finally received our letter, and my family also received the letter my uncle had sent through our friend in Hong Kong. 读者朋友,请注意这里,舅舅在万大路住所丢失过几封信,我后面还会提到这件事。 Dear readers, please pay attention here. My uncle lost several letters at his residence on Wanda Road, and I will mention this later. 从那以后,舅舅再不用别人代言,他用心一笔一画地向我们诉说着真情。 Since then, my uncle no longer needed someone else to write on his behalf. He personally write letters to convey his true feelings to us. 从1948年提着扁担夢筐跨出家门的那个早晨起,舅舅最不能忘记的,就是自己终日看惯了的、将头发盘在脑后的日日操劳的我姥姥。在他眼里,娘就是村庄, 就是家园。他盼了太多的时日,渴望像小时候那样在娘怀里哭泣、倾诉,可终于,这些期盼在1975年,他45岁正领兵操练的辛苦岁月,变成了永不能实现的梦想。 Since that morning when he stepped out of the house carrying a shoulder pole and a bamboo basket in 1948, the thing my uncle would never forget was my grandmother, who worked tirelessly every day with her hair tied up behind her head. In his eyes, grandmother was the village, the home. He had waited for too many years, longing to cry and confide in his mother's arms like he did when he was a child. But finally, in 1975, when he was 45 years old and leading troops in training, those hopes turned into an unattainable dream. 我姥姥是在当代中国的“史无前例”时代,因感冒转肺炎离世的。她熬到了 “文革”结束前1年,经历了我家最屈辱的日子。噩耗在10年后オ传递给了舅舅, 当舅舅从北京家信中知道姥姥病故的消息时,哭得瘫软在地上。他在心中一次次描绘的与娘相聚相拥的亲热画面,为爹娘端饭送水的温馨场面,都在那一刻坠落在地板上了。当时,舅舅就发誓,不能为爹娘养老送终,也要回乡建墓立碑。

During the "unprecedented" era of contemporary China my grandmother passed away due to a cold that turned into pneumonia. She endured until one year before the end of the Cultural Revolution and experienced the most humiliating days for our family. The news of her passing was transmitted to my uncle ten years later. When my uncle learned about my grandmother's death from the letters sent from our home in Beijing, he cried and collapsed on the ground. The warm scenes he had repeatedly imagined, reuniting and embracing his mother, serving meals and water to his parents, all vanished at that moment. At that time, my uncle swore that if fail to take care of his parents in their old age, he should return home to build graves and for them

后来,就有了 !988年4月23日,舅舅作为民众赴大陆探亲首批人中的ー员, 从台湾到香港到广州到天津,再到北京我们家的那次行动。 Later, on April 23, 1988, my uncle became one of the first group of people to visit the mainland for family reunions. He traveled from Taiwan to Hong Kong, then to Guangzhou, Tianjin, and finally to our home in Beijing. 那一次,我们不许舅舅花钱,送给他的东西不算,还为他购买了不少礼物。比如,送给台湾荣民总医院医生的珍贵狐皮,因为那位医生主刀救了他的命;送给柳太太的兰州夜光杯,因为柳太太在他病情发作时果断送他上医院劳苦功高;送给エ厂老板的宜兴紫砂茶具,因为老板对他很关照;送给エ厂小友的玉镯,因为小友们常给他过生日…… On that visit, we didn't let my uncle spend any money. Apart from the things we gave him, we also bought him many gifts. For example, we gave a precious fox coat to the doctor at the Taipei Veterans General Hospital because that doctor saved his life. We gave a Jiuquan luminous cup to Mrs. Liu because she decisively sent him to the hospital when his condition worsened with great dedication. We gave Yixing purple clay tea sets to the boss at the factory be cause the boss took good care of him. We gave a jade bracelet to the young friends at the factory because they often celebrated his birthday. 舅舅整理了两大皮箱礼物,满心欢喜,因为他能够以自己的方式还报台北朋友对他的关爱了。可是,他也发愁,这一路太辛苦,要从北京到广州,经罗湖口岸到香港,飞到台湾,再从台湾桃园机场回到台北万大路, My uncle carefully packed two large suitcases of gifts, feeling joyful because he could repay the kindness of his friends in Taipei in his own way. But he also worried because the journey was too arduous, from Beijing to Guangzhou, passing through the Luohu Port to Hong Kong, then flying to Taiwan, and finally from Taoyuan Airport to Wanda Road in Taipei. “到桃园机场是夜里,连公车都没有,只好搭计程车!”舅舅叹ロ气。我知道,舅舅舍不得乘坐出租车,他对别人大方,可把再少的钱花在自己身上也心疼。我担心的是另外一件事,这一路行程,对舅舅这样患有陈旧性心梗的病人来说,是个可怕的考验。 "When I arrived at Taoyuan Airport, it was late at night, and there were no buses. I had to take a taxi!" my uncle sighed. I knew my uncle was reluctant to take a taxi, for he was very stingy with himself but generous to others but felt pained even spending a small amount of money on himself. However, I was concerned about another matter: this journey would be a terrible test for my uncle, a patient with a history of heart attacks. 舅舅历尽辛苦,终于回到台北了。后来我才知道,那夜,柳家全体人都开灯等候着舅舅。当他肩扛手提地跨进万大路家门时,老老少少都跑出来,把我们全家十几口人精心准备的大大小小礼物,兴奋地拉拽进了各自房间。当舅舅无奈地爬向二层自己的住所时,还能听见柳家女人孩子分抢东西的嬉闹声。如果不是因为后来柳太太与舅舅发生了剧烈的争吵,大概他们的日子会一直这样过下去。 My uncle went through hardships and finally returned to Taipei. Later, I learned that on that night, the entire Liu family turned on the lights waiting for him. When he shouldered his bag and stepped into the door of the Wanda Road house, people of all ages rushed out and excitedly dragged in the various gifts that our whole family had carefully prepared. As my uncle reluctantly climbed to his second-floor residence, I could still hear the playful noise of the Liu family's women and children fighting over the gifts. If it weren't for the intense quarrel that later broke out between Aunt Liu and my uncle, their days would probably have continued in this manner.

第三章第三次回大陆 Chapter 3: Return to the Mainland for the Third Time 回老家 Returning to Hometown 1990年10月,舅舅第三次到北京。他将返回河南老家为爹娘建墓立碑。 In October 1990, my uncle returned to Beijing for the third time. He was going back to our ancestral home in Henan to build graves for his parents. 前面说过,我姥姥生有三女,长女、三女早年夭折,因此姥姥随二女即我母亲生活,并拉扯大了我们五兄妹。姥姥故去后,她老人家的景泰蓝骨灰坛就供放在母亲家,像她老人家生前那样与我们照旧ー起生活。我姥爷根据新中国的一夫一妻制, 与二姥姥在贵州定居,姥爷于1962年故于灾荒,二姥姥还健在。 As I mentioned earlier, my maternal grandmother had three daughters. The eldest and the third daughter passed away at an early age. Therefore, my grandmother lived with her second daughter, who is my mother, and raised the five of us siblings. After my grandmother's passing, her blue-and-white porcelain urn was placed in my mother's house, just like when she was alive, continuing to be a part of our lives. According to the monogamous system in the new China, my grandfather settled in Guizhou with his second wife. My grandfather passed away in 1962 during a famine while his second wife is still alive. 亲爱的读者,下面的事情有些琐碎,可是,这些事情改变了舅舅的一段人生计划,所以请您慢慢看。 Dear readers, the following events may seem trivial, but they had a significant impact on my uncle's life plan, so please bear with me as I explain. 舅舅以他多年带兵形成的组织能力实施着自己的心愿。第一,他计划为我姥爷兄弟两人在老家各建一座墓,我姥爷的墓分为三室,除姥爷与姥姥各居一室外, 还留有二姥姥之位〇 Using his organizational skills developed over many years of leading troops, my uncle began implementing his plans. Firstly, he planned to build two tombs for my grandfather and his brother in our ancestral home. My grandfather's tomb had three chambers, with one chamber for my grandfather, one for my grandmother, and the remaining one for his second wife, Lao Er. 第二,他联系上了远在贵州的二姥姥,请求二姥姥同意为我姥爷移墓。第三,他联系上了我姥爷弟弟的孙子金柱,因为要为姥爷弟弟即金柱爷爷建墓,要金柱协助。

Secondly, he contacted Lao Er, who was living far away in Guizhou, and requested her permission to move my grandfather's tomb. Thirdly, he got in touch with Jinzhu, the grandson of my grandfather's brother, as he needed assistance in building a tomb for Jinzhu’s grandfather.

这三件事,舅舅筹备了两年半。除我二姥姥坚决拒绝为姥爷移葬外,其他事情都很顺利。舅舅偕我母亲先行赴县里联系丧葬事宜,我母亲在县里有些声望,县乡又注重政策,所以很快落实了墓地。其余,舅舅统筹安排,把活儿摊派下去,造墓的造墓,刻碑的刻碑,打棺材的打棺材,有条不紊。 My uncle spent two and a half years preparing for these three matters. Except for Lao Er adamantly refusing to move my grandfather's burial site, everything else went smoothly. My uncle and my mother went to the county in advance to handle the funeral arrangements. My mother had some influence in the county, and the local authorities also valued policies, so the cemetery was quickly arranged. With my uncle's overall planning and delegating of tasks, everything proceeded in an orderly manner. Those responsible for building the tombs built them, those responsible for carving the gravestones carved them, and those responsible for making the coffins made them, all in a systematic manner. 这里说的金柱,小我几岁,早年随他母亲从村里进了安阳市。他母亲开烟酒小店,他在工厂干供销。金柱受了舅舅的委托,闲时就到乡下督エ。他母亲与舅舅是叔伯姐弟,以前虽无往来,可这次一见面,他们的激动与热情并不亚于我家。 The person mentioned here, Jinzhu, is a few years younger than me. In his early years, he moved from the village to Anyang City, Henan Province with his mother. His mother ran a tobacco and liquor store while he worked in a factory handling supply and sales. During his free time, Jinzhu would go back to the countryside at my uncle's request. His mother and my uncle were cousins, although they had no previous contact. However, when we met this time, their excitement and warmth were no less than that of our family. 舅舅回乡,惊动了县对台办,县上人再三表示欢迎舅舅落户,乡里也说要为他分地盖房。舅舅不知是否动了心,没答应也没拒绝,只是搓着大手笑。毕竟,他少小离乡,时时惦念的就是这一方水土。 My uncle's return to the hometown attracted the attention of the county's Taiwan Affairs Office, and they repeatedly expressed their welcome for my uncle to settle there. The village also promised to allocate land for him to build a house. My uncle neither accepted nor rejected the offer; he simply rubbed his hands together and smiled. After all, he had left his hometown at a young age, and he always yearned for thia place. 1990年11月,天气冷了。舅舅筹划的送姥爷姥姥返乡的大事启动了。我向单位请了假,捧着姥姥的骨灰坛,随舅舅、妈妈回老家。 In November 1990, the weather turned cold. The grand event planned by my uncle to bring back our grandparents' ashes to the hometown began. I took leave from work and accompanied my uncle and mother to our ancestral home, holding my grandmother's porcelain urn. 如同舅舅1988年在广州车站购票那样,卧铺票极难买,我在北京站排了半宿队オ拿到了去往安阳的硬卧票,心疼得舅舅ー个劲地说:“回北京的票得让金柱帮忙买!” Similar to my uncle buying train tickets at the Guangzhou station in 1988, it was extremely difficult to get sleeper tickets. I waited in line at the Beijing station for half the night and managed to secure hard sleeper tickets to Anyang. My uncle felt sorry for me and said, "We'll have Jinzhu help us buy the tickets for our return to Beijing!" 我们到达安阳车站时,天刚刚放亮,金柱迎上来。那是我第一次见到柱子,他个子不高,胖墩墩的,ー只眼睛有些红,满脸挂着淳朴的笑。我与妈妈被安排坐进吉普车,金柱却拦下了舅舅。我就听见车外金柱与舅舅的对话。 When we arrived at Anyang railway station, it was just getting light outside. Jinzhu came to greet us. It was my first time meeting him. He was not tall, a bit chubby, with a slightly red eye, and a simple smile on his face. My mother and I were arranged to sit in a jeep while Jinzhu stopped my uncle. I overheard their conversation from inside the car. 金柱:“舅,我娘昨天回村,把烟酒带了去,让您别再买了。” （我想,姨真厚道,办丧事要用不少烟酒呢。） Jinzhu: "Uncle, my mother returned to the village yesterday and took the tobacco and liquor with her. She told you not to buy them anymore." (I thought to myself, Auntie is really generous. Funeral arrangements require a lot of tobacco and liquor, after all.) 舅舅:“柱子,我送给你母亲的日本彩电收到没有?” Uncle: "JinZhu, did you receive the Japanese color TV that I sent to your mother?" 金柱:“收到了收到了,您给的24K足金戒指,我给了妈,还有给XX、XX、X XX的,谢谢啊。” Jinzhu: "Yes, we received it. Thank you for the 24K pure gold ring you bought. I gave one to my mom, one to XX, XX, and XX. Thank you." 舅舅:“怎么不知道回封信呢,让我记挂。” Uncle: "Since you've received .Why didn't you send a letter in return? I've been worried." 金柱:“……” Jinzhu: "..." 舅舅:“金柱,我问你,我上次寄给你的20件台湾产新衣服,让你分给XX、X X、XXX,你怎么都换成了旧衣服,让人家骂我?……” Uncle: "Jinzhu, let me ask you this. Last time, I sent you 20 brand-new clothes made in Taiwan and asked you to distribute to XX, XX, and XXX. How come you exchanged them all for old clothes which made people scold me?..." 我有些吃惊,赶紧看妈妈,正好迎上她的目光。妈妈显然也不知道这件事,对我摇摇头,我明白她要我别管。 I was somewhat surprised and quickly looked at my mother, who happened to meet my gaze. Obviously, she was also unaware of this matter and shook her head, indicating that I shouldn't get involved. 舅舅与金柱上了车,空气很沉闷。金柱没话找话:“舅,你们回北京从郑州搭火车吧?” My uncle and Jinzhu got on the car, and the atmosphere became oppressive Jinzhu tried to find something to say: "Uncle, are you returning to Beijing by train from Zhengzhou?" 舅舅没吭声,好像还在生气。我问:“车票好买不?”金柱瞟了一眼舅,ロ气大起来:“俺亲妹子在郑州铁路上工作,铁路局就跟咱家开的ー样。”我赶紧敲定:“柱子,三张郑州到北京的火车卧铺票,交给你办行不?”金柱眨着那只很红的眼睛ー口应承:“没问题。”我用手推舅舅:“金柱帮咱买火车票呢〇”舅舅的脸开朗起来了。 My uncle remained silent, seemingly still angry. I asked, "Are train tickets easy to buy?" Jinzhu glanced at my uncle, saying, "My younger sister works at the railway in Zhengzhou, and the railway bureau treats us just like family." I quickly made a decision, "Jinzhu, can you help buy three sleeper tickets from Zhengzhou to Beijing?" Jinzhu blinked his reddened eyes and readily agreed, saying, "No problem." I nudged my uncle with my hand and said, "Jinzhu will help us buy the train tickets, okay?" My uncle's face brightened up. 吉普车向我们祖辈生活过的村庄疾驶,我的心装满了神圣,我要将姥姥送还给她所思念的这片土地,要在这个地方陪舅舅生活几天,一同圆他的故乡梦。 The jeep sped towards the village where our ancestors lived. My heart was filled with a sense of reverence. I wanted to return my grandmother to the land she longed for, and I intended to stay with my uncle in this place for a few days, fulfilling his dream of returning to his hometown. ー辆手摇纺车在我眼前晃动,是姥姥在讲述她的青春,是姥姥在讲述老辈人的故事。就从这辆纺车里,摇出了绵长的线,线儿像这个中原村庄的历史一样长,像这里人们的情义ー样长。现在,我陪姥姥回村了,这个令姥姥和舅舅梦魂牵绕的村庄一定很美丽吧?

A spinning wheel appeared before my eyes, and it seemed to tell the story of my grandmother's youth and the tales of the older generation. This is spinning wheel spun a thread as long as the history of this central plains village, as long as the bonds among the people here. Now, I accompanied my grandmother back to the village. This village that haunted my grandmother and uncle for years must be incredibly beautiful, right?

ー个小时,两个小时,那坑坑洼洼的土路颠簸得我骨头生疼。我紧紧抱住姥姥的骨灰坛,不敢说话。 An hour, two hours, the bumpy dirt road shook my bones and made them ache. I tightly held onto my grandmother's ashes and dared not speak. 太阳升得老高了。终于,咔的一声,吉普车很响地拉上手刹,停稳了。 The sun was high in the sky. Finally, with a loud "click," the jeep pulled up the handbrake and came to a stop. 我睁开眼睛,跳下车,顿觉茫然。这个仿佛滞留在苍茫旷远历史中的小村庄, 就是姥姥和舅舅铭心刻骨思念的家乡?盘桓于中原大地几千年的那文明种族的活力,在哪儿呢?留在这里厮守着村庄的后人们,你们明亮的瓦房呢?你们可心的新衣呢?你们如同集市一样繁华的小街呢?我去过改革春风掠过的江南土地,那里, 每踏上一步,都像是踩着一首亮丽的田园诗。 I opened my eyes, jumped out of the car, and felt a sense of confusion. Is this small village, seemingly trapped in a vast and distant history, the hometown that my grandmother and uncle missed so much? Where is the vitality of that civilized race that has thrived in the Central Plains for thousands of years? Where are the bright tiled houses of the descendants who guard this village? Where are their beloved new clothes? Where is the bustling little street, vibrant like a marketplace? I have been to the Jiangnan land having going through reforms, where every step feels like walking on a beautiful pastoral poem. 这里是初冬。我拉好毛围巾,树叶黄了,飘零的树叶落在我肩上。一条枯瘦的狗夹着尾巴,从吉普车旁倏地跑过。紧跟着,我看见了在路上找食的羊、猪、鸡、鸭, 尽管它们看来瘦弱无カ,可却像自己的主人ー样享受着无人干预的自由。 It was early winter here. I wrapped my woolen scarf tightly around my neck. The leaves had turned yellow, and falling leaves landed on my shoulders. A skinny dog passed by with its tail tucked between its legs. Following closely behind, I saw sheep, pigs, chickens, and ducks searching for food on the road. Although they appeared thin and frail, they seemed to be enjoying the freedom of being their own masters. 舅舅俨然成了人物,认识与不认识的村民们都围上来,数说着他的孝道。舅舅在头里走,步履稳健,后面簇拥着一群大人和孩子。我猜想他当年带兵打仗就是这样在队伍的前面走。 My uncle became a prominent figure. Villagers, whether familiar or unfamiliar, gathered around him, praising his filial piety. Walking at the front, my uncle showed a steady stride, followed by a crowd of adults and children. I imagined that this must have been how he led troops and marched at the front. 舅舅被引到ー间土屋里,我和妈妈坐在当院。很快,我发现事情不对劲了。用土坯垒起的小院满是人,大家争着朝舅舅的小屋挤,出来的人面带笑容,没进去的人着急万分。 My uncle was led into a mud house, and my mother and I sat in the courtyard. Soon, I realized something went wrong. The small courtyard made of adobe was filled with people, all scrambling to squeeze into my uncle's little house. Those who came out wore smiles on their faces, while those who couldn't get in were anxious. My grandfather from the clan accompanied my mother into the house, and with a solemn expression, he called my uncle to the funeral hall. My uncle hurriedly put away the gifts, but the crowd did not disperse. 我也挤进去,ー看,便退了出来。原来舅舅在兴致勃勃地分发礼物,他见男的发电子手表,见女的给纯金戒指。喜出望外的男人女人们张着两手,不出声地在空中争夺物件。 I squeezed my way inside but quickly backed out. It turned out my uncle was enthusiastically distributing gifts. He gave electronic watches to men and pure gold rings to women. The delighted men and women extended their hands, silently competing for the items in the air. 族里爷爷陪着妈妈进屋了,表情严肃地唤舅舅一道去灵棚。舅舅赶忙收起礼物,可人群并不离散。 An old man from the clan accompanied my mother into the house, and called my uncle to the funeral hall with a solemn expression. My uncle hurriedly put away the gifts, but the crowd did not disperse 村里空地上搭起了庄重肃穆的灵棚,姥爷、姥姥的遗像悬挂正中,供桌上摆放着水果点心饭菜,还有香炉蜡抨以及ー些供器;灵台左右两侧悬挂着白布帘,是守灵的位置;灵台下,两ロ黑漆棺材很厚重醒目。族里爷爷介绍说,棺木如何如何好, 油漆了多少多少遍,舅舅点着头。 A solemn and dignified mourning hall was set up on the open space in the village. The portraits of my grandfather and grandmother hung in the center, while the altar table displayed fruits, snacks, meals, as well as incense burners and various offerings. White curtains were hung on the left and right sides of the memorial tablet, signifying the location of the vigil. Below the memorial tablet, two black lacquered coffins stood prominently, heavy and eye-catching. The elder in the clan introduced how excellent the coffins were, mentioning the number of times they had been painted, and my uncle nodded in agreement. 姥姥的棺木里放了骨灰坛,姥爷的棺木里放了我从北京买来的一套西服,还摆放了舅舅带来的一些物品,以及老礼道规定的东西。 Inside my grandmother's coffin was the urn containing her ashes, and inside my grandfather's coffin was a set of suits I bought from Beijing, along with some items brought by my uncle and the customary items according to the old ritual. 因贫穷而寂寞的小村喧腾起来,杀猪的、炒菜的、蒸馍的、摆席的,穿梭不停,周围十里八村的乡亲听说有个台湾孝子回乡办丧事,也纷纷赶来看热闹。这个村庄的人气就像滚开了锅的沸水。 The once impoverished and lonely village became bustling. People were busy with slaughtering pigs, stir-frying dishes, steaming buns, and setting up tables. People from the surrounding villages and beyond heard that a filial son from Taiwan had returned to his hometown to hold the funeral for his parents, and they all came to watch the funeral avidly. The atmosphere in the village was as lively as boiling water in a pot. 我们全都穿上了粗白布孝服,立在灵棚下,迎送着ー批批吊唁的远亲与宾客。所有前来吊唁的人都会对舅舅说上一句:“爹娘没白疼你ー场啊!” We all dressed in coarse white mourning clothes, standing under the mourning hall, welcoming distant relatives and guests who came to pay their respects. Everyone who came to offer condolences would say to my uncle, "Your parents didn't raise you in vain!" 我想,对舅舅来说,这是最中听最受用的夸奖。这句话这场面,他一定等待多年了。 I believe that for my uncle, this was the most comforting and the nicest praise he has ever heard. He had been waiting for this moment and these words for many years. 那天夜里,我与舅舅为姥爷、姥姥守灵。 That night, my uncle and I at the wake for my grandparents' spirits. 长明灯亮着。 The eternal flame was burning. 舅舅突然对我说:“小冬,办完丧事,我死也闭眼了。” Suddenly, my uncle said to me, "Xiaodong, when the funeral is over, I can finally close my eyes." 我不许他瞎说。 I didn't allow him to say such things. 舅舅的表情极为平静,他说:“先前我就剩这一件事没办,现在办了,心就安了。” My uncle's expression was extremely calm as he said, "This was the one thing I had left to do. Now that it's done, my heart is at peace." 我知道,舅舅的心脏先天狭窄,在台北万大路发病那次,荣民总医院为他做了冠状动脉造影,造影显示:三根主动脉,ー根堵塞,ー根正常,ー根发育不良。医生连续疏通那根堵塞的动脉血管,竟然失败了,最后,没有安放支架,也没有“搭桥” 〇医生拉着舅舅的手,郑重地说:“您是依靠ー根正常动脉支撑的人,要比任何人都在意自己。” I know that my uncle has congenital heart stenosis. During the incident on Wanda Road in Taipei, the Taipei Veterans General Hospital performed a coronary angiography for him. The angiography showed that out of the three main arteries, one was blocked, one was normal, and one was underdeveloped. The doctors attempted to clear the blocked artery but failed. In the end, no stent and bypass was placed. The doctor held my uncle's hand and solemnly said, "You are someone who relies only on one normal artery for support. You have to take better care of yourself than anyone else." 我安慰舅舅,说科学正在进步,说只要小心不会出问题,说好日子刚开头要有信心,说他的生命属于全家,说我姥姥、姥爷的在天之灵会保佑他。 I comforted my uncle that science is advancing, that as long as he is careful, nothing will go wrong, that the good days are just beginning and he should have confidence, that his life belongs to the whole family, and that my grandparents' spirits in heaven would protect him. 舅舅不作声。他这个人就是这样,你很难说服他什么。有时我觉得自己难以企及他独自遨游了太久的境界。我感觉到,坐在灵棚里的他,仿佛是在面对他自己的遗骸,从容地盘点着如何发落自己。我突然想,他是不是想在这片土地上落户, 百年后也葬在爹娘身边? My uncle remained silent. That's just how he is; it's hard to convince him of anything. Sometimes I feel that I can hardly reach the level he has attained through his solitary wanderings. I sensed that as he sat in the mourning hall, it was as if he was facing his own remains, calmly assessing his fate. I suddenly wondered if he wanted to settle in this land and be buried next to my grandparents a hundred years later. 第二天上午9时,是出殡的时辰,即“辰时发引”。摔盆、烧纸、起杠,鼓乐齐鸣, 花圈挽联纸人纸马一片。舅舅打幡,我搀扶着妈妈,出殡队伍浩浩荡荡不见队尾。 The next morning at 9 o'clock was the time for the funeral procession, known as the "Chen Shi Fa Yin." The sound of smashing bowls, burning bank notes of the dead, and beating gongs and drums filled the air. Floral wreaths, couplets, paper figures, and paper horses were everywhere. My uncle carried the funeral banner, and I supported my mother as we joined the procession. The funeral procession was immense, and there seemed to be no end to it. 至今我也不明白,哪些是孝属哪些是亲友哪些是观者,大概金柱爷爷那ー支的后人很多吧。只记得通往墓地的路有3里地长,70岁的母亲本已坚持不住,而到达墓地前的几十米,整个队伍的行进改成了疾跑,这一点杠夫本有交代,但母亲还是几乎瘫倒在我身上。

To this day, I still don't understand who among them were relatives, friends, or spectators. Perhaps many were descendants of Grandfather Jinzhu. I only remembered that the road to the cemetery was three miles long, and my 70-year-old mother was already struggling. But in the final tens of meters before reaching the grave, the entire procession began to run, as if it had been arranged by the pallbearers. However, my mother almost collapsed in my arms.

之后,杠夫将棺木摘肩落地,大绳将灵棺缓缓系入墓内,我清清楚楚地看到,姥爷这ロ墓里,除了姥姥外,还留了二姥姥的位置。 Afterward, the pallbearers lifted the coffins from their shoulders and gently lowered them into the grave with the help of a large rope. I clearly saw that in my grandfather's grave, in addition to my grandmother, there was also a place reserved for my second grandmother. 我姥爷弟弟的那口墓里,也系下了由舅舅定做的黑漆木棺。 In my grandfather's younger brother's grave, there was also the tailored black lacquered wooden coffin bought by my uncle. 那天,酒席摆了一路,十里八村相识不相识的人不用招呼,坐下就吃就喝,女人、小孩儿的嘴里口袋里都塞得鼓鼓囊囊的。 That day, a large feast was prepared, and people from the surrounding villages, whether familiar or unfamiliar, sat down to eat and drink without being invited. Women and children's mouths and pockets were filled to the brim. 晚上,舅舅订了电影放映。人们如同过年一样,在屏幕正反面摆放了多排条凳,女人边嗑瓜子边聊天,男人边抽香烟边看电影,个个悠闲。小孩则在屏幕下钻来钻去。 In the evening, my uncle arranged for a movie screening. People set up multiple rows of benches on both sides of the screen, just like during the New Year's celebration. Women chatted while eating snacks; men smoked and watched the movie, all leisurely. Children played around under the screen. 我们回了屋,就听见金柱妈正对舅舅说笑。金柱妈从年轻时进安阳市就很少回村,这次为办丧事,特意关闭她的烟酒小店回来了。她黑黑瘦瘦的,ー开ロ就笑, 看着挺厚道。她说话速度很快:“洪洲啊,别忘了给我烟酒钱,烟是XX条,酒是X X箱,糖是XX斤,ー共是XXX元人民币。” When we returned to the house, we heard Jinzhu's mother laughing and joking with my uncle. Jinzhu's mother rarely came back to the village since she moved to Anyang City when she was young. She specifically closed her tobacco and liquor store and came back for the funeral. She was thin and dark, but she smiled a lot and seemed kind-hearted. She spoke quickly, saying, "Hongzhou, don't forget to give me money for cigarettes and alcohol. XX packs of cigarettes, XX crates of liquor, XX kilograms of sugar. So that will be XXX yuan altogether." 这话可不厚道,我方明白自己原先估计的金柱妈自愿奉献烟酒钱是没影的事。话说回来,这次发送的死者不是有金柱妈的公公吗?从情从理说,她怎能朝舅舅要钱呢?我是小辈人,不便说话,倒是旁边陪同的乡干部打抱不平了:“这位大姨,您的烟酒咋按高价算呢?比咱乡里商店的货贵多了!” That was an dishonest. I could clearly see that my initial estimation of Jinzhu's mother voluntarily purchasing tobacco and alcohol was far from reality. Moreover, the funeral was also held for Jinzhu's mother's father-in-law? From a moral standpoint, how could she ask my uncle for money? As a younger generation, it wasn't appropriate for me to speak up, but a local official who accompanied us couldn't tolerate it and said, "Auntie, why are you calculating the cigarettes and alcohol at such high prices? They are much more expensive than the goods in our village stores!" 金柱妈收了笑,眼ー瞪,就要发火。 Jinzhu's mother stopped smiling and stared, ready to get angry. 舅舅赶紧给金柱妈搭了个台阶,高门大嗓地招呼:“姐,金柱,咱结账!” My uncle quickly tried to defuse the situation and said loudly, "Sis, Jinzhu, let's settle the bill!" 我就见金柱揉着那只很红的眼睛,掏出已经准备好的本本,开始念账了。账老长,什么墓碑、刻字、棺木、油漆、轿夫、香烟、白酒、面粉、生猪、青菜、豆腐、粉条、供品、响器班、放电影,念了一页又一页,舅舅手里没有计算器,也不打算盘,只是听。 I saw Jinzhu rubbing his red eye and taking out a prepared notebook, starting to read the bill. The bill was long, mentioning everything from tombstones, engravings, coffins, paint, sedan bearers, cigarettes, liquor, flour, live pigs, vegetables, tofu, noodles, offerings, musical instruments, to movie screenings. She read page after page, and my uncle didn't have a calculator or abacus in his hands; he just listened. 金柱准备得很充分,高声大嗓地念着,直到舅舅摆手叫停,这账就算结完了。我知道,舅舅先前把一大笔美元交给了金柱,金柱现在就是报告这笔美元的去处吧。之后,舅舅分别递给金柱妈与金柱一些钱和首饰,大概这些礼物的数量未及他们的期望值,所以两人从屋里出来时,脸都拉得老长。 Jinzhu was well-prepared, reading with a loud voice, until my uncle waved his hand to stop her, indicating that the bill was settled. I knew that my uncle had given a large sum of dollars to Jinzhu earlier, and now he was reporting on what those dollars were spent on. Afterward, my uncle handed some money and jewelry to Jinzhu's mother and Jinzhu respectively. Perhaps the quantity of these gifts didn't meet their expectations, so when the two came out of the house, they were disappointed and annoyed. 后来我问过舅舅:“那账对不对?”舅舅笑了,他眯着眼反问我:“你说对不对? ” 他后来告诉我,预算里已经留出了贪污账,幸亏没超得太多。 Later, I asked my uncle, "Was the bill correct?" My uncle smiled and squinted his eyes as he asked me in return, "Do you think it was correct?" He later told me that he had already factored in embezzlement in the budget, luckily without exceeding too much. 舅舅居住的小屋又挤满了人,没有得到手表与戒指的伸手抢,竟然把手伸到了舅舅的口袋里,而得到东西的人也不走,磨着舅舅请戏班唱三天大戏。 My uncle's small house was crowded once again. People who didn't get a chance to get the watches and rings reached their hands into my uncle's pockets. And the ones who received the gift didn't leave; they insisted that my uncle hire a theater troupe to perform a three-day play. 我和妈妈在院里坐着,一任舅舅兴致盎然地散发他带来的最后财物。突然,舅舅拨开人群脱身出来了,他脸孔涨红,似乎有些恼。看身后没人跟上来,他从裤兜里摸出五个红绒小包递给我说:“就剩这五个戒指了,你替我保管。”我ー看,那全是有台湾良记银楼保单的足金戒指,就赶紧掖进口袋里。回到北京后,舅舅用去三枚,至今还有两枚我替他保管着。 My mother and I were sitting in the courtyard while my uncle enthusiastically distributed his remaining belongings. Suddenly, my uncle pushed through the crowd and came out. His face was red, and he seemed annoyed. Seeing no one followed him, he reached into his trouser pocket and took out five small red velvet pouches, handing them to me, saying, "These are the last five rings. Please keep them for me." I took a look, and they were all pure gold rings from Taiwan's Liangji Silver Shop, each with an insurance policy. I quickly tucked them into my pocket. After returning to Beijing, my uncle used three of them, and I am still keeping the other two for him. 第三天五更,我和舅舅都睡不着,就在村头溜达。 On the third day, before dawn, neither my uncle nor I could sleep, so we strolled at the village entrance. 舅舅对我说:“没有你姥姥、姥爷收留,我早死在逃荒路上了。” My uncle said to me, "If it weren't for your grandparents taking me in, I would have died on the famine-stricken road." 我心说,我们ー家老老少少几年来小心谨慎呵护的这个秘密,敢情您早就知道了, I thought to myself that this secret that our entire family has been carefully guarding for years, it seems like you already knew about it long ago. 于是追问一句:“您咋知道自己身世的?” So I asked him, "How did you find out about your background?" 舅舅说:“我还是小孩子的时候,就有村里人告诉我了。所以,我一直感谢爹娘花1〇担粮食赎我之恩。” My uncle said, "When I was still a child, someone in the village told me. That's why I've always been grateful to my parents for spending 500KG grain in redeeming me." 现在,我觉得什么都能对舅舅说了,就把想了好几天的另ー个问题和盘托出: “舅啊,我不知道您的亲爹娘是朝哪个方向逃荒走的,您要是愿意,我陪您朝那个方向磕头,也算谢他们生您ー场。” Now, I feel like I can tell my uncle everything, so I finally brought up another question that had been on my mind for several days, "Uncle, I don't know which direction your biological parents took when they fled the famine. If you're willing, I'll accompany you and kowtow in that direction as a way of expressing gratitude for their giving birth to you." 这毕竟是舅舅与亲生爹娘相守相离的土地,他们的血脉,他们的亲情,是生死不变的永恒事实。我想,这里不正是舅舅与亲爹娘对话的最好时机与场景吗? After all, this was the land where my uncle was separated with his biological parents. Their bloodline, their bond, was an unchanging and eternal fact of life. I thought this would be the best opportunity and setting for my uncle to have a conversation with his biological parents. 完全没想到,舅舅ー摆大手,口气不容置疑:“我在海边想的是你姥姥、姥爷,从来没想过他们。生我不养我的人……” Unexpectedly, my uncle waved his hand dismissively, with an unquestionable tone, and said, "When I was on the seaside, all I think about is only your grandparents instead of the people who gave birth to me but didn't raise me...I’ve never thought about them." 他没有说完。 He didn't finish his sentence. 冬天的晨曦露头晚,我看不清楚舅舅的表情,可感觉到了他的失望。他的失望,似乎不是来自将他遗弃的亲生爹娘,而是来自多年期盼的实现。在年复一年的期盼中,他将脚底下这块生他养他的土地描画得特别美好。其实,当他第一次从北京返台听见其他老兵议论时,就应当有这份心理准备的。 On a winter morning, the dawn was late to appear, and I couldn't see my uncle's expression clearly, but I could sense his disappointment. His disappointment didn't seem to come from his biological parents who abandoned him, but from the realization of his long-awaited dreams. In years of anticipation, he painted this land beneath his feet as something exceptionally beautiful. In fact, when he first returned to Taiwan from Beijing and heard the discussions among other veterans, he should have been mentally prepared for this. 他分明叹了一口气。也许是感到了灵与肉的分离。他的身子是着着实实落在故土上了,可他这个人却成了故人眼里的台湾客人。他在心里积蓄几十年的炽热情感,本来是要倾カ抛洒在故乡沃壤中的,可现在他突然明白自己与这片土地,与自己想了几十年的这个村落,一丁点关系都没有了。乡干部昨天还在等待他关于分地盖房的答复,他该怎样回答呢? He let out a sigh. Perhaps he felt the separation of spirit and flesh. He was stepping on his homeland physically, but he himself had become a visitor in the eyes of the locals. The intense emotions he had accumulated in his heart for decades were meant to be poured out on the fertile land of his hometown, but now he suddenly realized that he had no connection with this land and the village he had longed for over the years. The village officials were still waiting for his response regarding land distribution and house construction. How should he answer? 舅舅和我坐在田壇上,各想各的。许久,他用大手捏碎了一块土坷垃,下了决心:“一回家!” My uncle and I sat on a field terrace, lost in our own thoughts. After a while, he crushed a clump of soil in his large hand and made up his mind: "Let's go back home." 我明白这两个字的含义。就从此刻起,他放弃了脚下这块抚养他长大的土地, 割舍了这个曾经带给他无尽欢乐,令他疯狂思念过的家乡。现在,他只有北京的姐姐家了。 I understood the significance of these two words. From this moment on, he gave up the land that had raised him, severed ties with the homeland that had once brought him endless joy and intense longing. Now, he only had his sister's home in Beijing. 吃早饭时,一位爷爷建议,村里人会堵着我们要钱,不如赶明儿个清早上路 During breakfast, an elderly man suggested that the villagers might confront us and demand money, so it would be better to leave early the next morning. 说来有点黑色幽默的味道。第四天早晨,我们在村领导的指挥下,爬上拖拉机,就像做了亏心事的人ー样,匆匆逃离了那个曾经被舅舅日想夜思,现在又埋葬着亲人的故乡。 It had a touch of dark humor. On the fourth morning, under the command of the village leaders, we climbed onto a tractor and hastily fled from the homeland that had once haunted my uncle and now buried his loved ones.

拖拉机轰轰地驶在起伏不平的黄土路上。抬眼望去,收了秋的大地一片平坦。我突然想起“平均”这个概念。大自然不讲平均,物竞天择,动物纷争。现如今的社会也不讲平均,改革催生的竞争意识已经铺遍大江南北。想过好日子的父老乡亲们啊,应该上哪里竞争,上哪里去淘换自己那一份幸福呢?为什么一定要厮守着姥姥们留下的老纺车老田地老房子呢? The tractor roared along the bumpy yellow dirt road. Looking up, the land that had been harvested appeared flat. I suddenly thought of the concept of "average." Nature doesn't adhere to the principle of average; it's survival of the fittest, with animals competing against each other. Nowadays, society also doesn't adhere to averages; the spirit of competition spurred by reforms has spread across the country. For the fellow villagers who aspire to a better life, where should they compete? Where should they go to seek their own happiness? Why must they cling to the old spinning wheel, old fields, and old houses left behind by their grandparents? 小路上蹿来ー辆自行车。听姥姥说,我妈是全县第一位学会骑自行车的女学生。那时,不仅全县闺女艳羡的目光追踪着妈妈,就连绑匪也寻思开了活计。幸而我妈离家抗日去了 Suddenly, a bicycle came zooming by. Grandma told me that my mom was the first female student in the entire county to learn how to ride a bicycle. At that time, not only were the girls in the entire county envious of my mother's skill. She even attracted the attention of the kidnappers. Fortunately, my mother left home to join the War of Resistance Against Japan.

骑自行车的是一位不相识的女子,她大概有30多岁,将头包裹在方布巾里,只露出了眼睛。她边挥舞手臂,边朝我们叫喊。我寻思该不是要钱的吧?

The woman riding the bicycle was a stranger to us. She appeared to be in her thirties, with her head wrapped in a square cloth, only her eyes visible. She waved her arms and shouted towards us. I wondered if she was asking for money.

拖拉机慢下来,那女子就紧蹬车轮,跟着拖拉机并头骑。拖拉机轰轰地叫着,女子就盖过拖拉机的声音,大声朝我们喊话,她说自己是谁家的媳妇正在打离婚要上城打工朝舅舅借些盘缠钱…… The tractor slowed down, and the woman pedaled closer, riding alongside the tractor. Despite the roaring noise of the tractor, her voice overpowered it as she shouted loudly towards us. She claimed to be someone's wife and said she was seeking a divorce to go to the city for work. She asked for some money as a loan from my uncle.. 舅舅没有吱声,他是个要面子的人,我知道,他带来的钱已经花净,要不,后来在郑州买火车票、吃饭,他不会任我掏钱。 Uncle remained silent. He was a proud man, and I knew that the money he brought had already been spent. Otherwise, he wouldn't have let me pay for the train ticket and meals later in Zhengzhou. 金柱食言了,没有帮我们买火车卧铺票,他和他的母亲,就像那些吃完酒席的人ー样不辞而别。

Jinzhu broke his promise. He didn't help us buy sleeper tickets for the train. He and his mother left without saying goodbye, just like those attending the feast.

我趴在郑州火车站窗口,对ー脸冷漠的女售票员说:“这是我们的证明,购买到北京的卧铺,软卧硬卧都行。” I leaned against the ticket window at Zhengzhou Railway Station and said to the indifferent female ticket seller, "This is our ID cards. I want to buy 3 sleeper tickets to Beijing, either soft or hard sleeper." 叭一三张硬座票飞出来,这就是说,老人们只能坐硬座到北京。 Suddenly, three hard seat tickets were handed out, which meant that mom and uncle could only sit in hard seats all the way to Beijing. 我赶紧把脸贴近窗ロ,请求道:“两张,行不行?给老人!”

I quickly leaned closer to the window and pleaded, "Can you help us buy just two sleeper tickets. We got 2 old people here!"

女售票员梗着脖子不看我,用河南话喊:“下ー个!” The female ticket seller just ignored me and shouted in the local Henan dialect, "Next!" 我们没有地方可去,离开车还有七八个钟点的时候,就站在郑州车站前圈起的广场候车区里,排在队首,以为能够按序上车。哪知道,后来广播里刚一宣布准许上车,队列就乱了,没有人维持秩序,没有人排队,我们立即被后面不排队的强大人流推擦着,一下就冲散了。 We had nowhere else to go. When there were still seven or eight hours before the train departure, we stood in the waiting area at the square in front of Zhengzhou Station, lining up at the front, thinking that we could board the train in order. Little did we know, as soon as the announcement allowing boarding was made on the loudspeaker, the queue became chaotic. There was no one maintaining order, no one forming a line. Immediately, we were jostled and pushed by the big crowd behind us who didn't bother to queue properly, and we were quickly dispersed.

我从来没有见过那种阵势,人们挥舞着拳头,生生打开前面的人,自己往前冲。我死死护着妈妈往前跑,只怕妈妈跌倒。及至上了火车,才发现舅舅没有跟上来, 就返身去找舅舅,走了好远,才见舅舅坐在通道上已经动弹不得,蜂拥而上的人群似乎没有看见地上的人,呼啸着穿过他。

I had never seen such a situation before. People were waving their fists, forcefully pushing their way through the crowd, even pushing others aside. I held onto my mother tightly and ran forward, fearing that she might fall. When we finally got on the train, I realized that my uncle hadn't made it aboard. I turned back to look for him and walked a long way before finding him sitting on the aisle, unable to move as the surging crowd seemed oblivious to the person on the ground, rushing past him.

我赶紧搀起舅舅,那一刻,我发现他的脚已经难以吃劲。后来,他靠着我的臂膀好不容易上了火车。列车启动后,我反复与列车长交涉,才换上了一席软卧。就那样,妈妈与舅舅合坐在ー张软卧铺上。 I quickly helped my uncle up, and in that moment, I noticed that his legs were already weak. Later, with great difficulty, he managed to board the train leaning on my arm. After the train started moving, I repeatedly negotiated with the train conductor until we were able to exchange for a soft sleeper berth. That way, my mother and uncle sat together on one soft sleeper bed. 故乡的风,在火车两侧呼啦啦地吹。小村庄低落下去,最后和遥远的地平线ー般高了。舅舅闭着眼睛,不肯扭过头回望他的故乡。自此,他与它不再彼此相属。舅舅到底坐上了京广线的火车,那个在台湾拟制的,给他带来过无限希望和遐想的返回故乡的梦,现在是结束了。 The wind of my hometown blew vigorously on both sides of the train. The small village gradually receded just as low as the distant horizon. My uncle kept his eyes closed, refusing to turn his head and look back at his homeland. From then on, they no longer belonged to each other. My uncle finally boarded the train on the Beijing-Guangzhou line, the dream of returning to his hometown that had brought him infinite hope and imagination, now coming to an end. 我想,在他心里,故乡一定幻化成了碎影,星星点点隐进他深沉的记忆中。 I believe that in his heart, his homeland must have transformed into fragmented shadows, scattered and hidden deep within his memories. 实实在在的是伤痛。北京医院的X光片显示,舅舅的脚踝骨折,必须打石膏。 The pain was real. The X-ray at a Beijing hospital revealed that my uncle had a fractured ankle and needed to have a cast applied. 第四章家在哪儿 Chapter 4: Where is Home 办理收养公证 Applying for Adoption Notarization 1993年5月,舅舅第五次到北京。 In May 1993, my uncle went to Beijing for the fifth time. 温馨的家庭阳光,是怎样辐射进舅舅心房的?一什么事?什么时候?通过哪ー扇门窗? How does the warm family sunshine radiate into Uncle's heart? Through what event? When? And through which door or window? 哦,是我们合家商议,要给舅舅安排ー个未来的家。 Oh, it’s when my entire family decided to arrange a future home for my uncle. 舅舅的态度很坚决:我不娶太太,把小冬过继给我,我有了这个女儿养老送终, 再无所求。 My uncle's stance was firm. He won't get married. He only wanted to adopt me. He said with me supporting him as his daughter in his old age, and he would had a full life. 那时,舅舅的身体已经很不好,连续心绞痛,多次住院了。老来无依的担忧袭击着他,他需要一个能够养老的家。 At that time, my uncle's health was already poor. He suffered from frequent angina and had been hospitalized several times. The worry of being alone in old age haunted him, and he needed a home where he could spend his twilight years. 对舅舅的请求,爸妈慨然允诺,看来他们已经商量好久了,我与丈夫泰来虽然刚刚知道,但也没意见。 My parents readily agreed to my uncle's request. It seemed that they had already discussed it for a long time. Although my husband Tailai and I had just found out about it, we also had no objections. 不管把家安在哪儿,我们都得去公证处办理过继公证。 No matter where my uncle decide to settle down, we have to go to the notary office to apply for the adoption notarization. 北京市公证处的民事组长是个胖胖的女同志,她纠正我说:“是办理收养公证。”同时告诉我们程序:先办大陆公证,之后由台湾海峡交流基金会核准大陆公证书后,再到台湾方面办理收养公证。 The head of the Civil Affairs Division at the Beijing Notary Public Office is a chubby female comrade. She corrected me and said, " What you should apply for is the adoption notarial certificate." She also informed us about the procedure: first, we need to apply for the notarization in the mainland of China, and then, after the mainland notarization is approved by the Straits Exchange Foundation, we can proceed with the adoption notarization on the Taiwan, China . 于是,我们按照要求,分别东奔西走,准备了一大摞证明材料:台湾的、大陆的, 舅舅的、爸妈的、我的、丈夫的,工作单位的、派出所的……然后,我们又偕三位老人ー起到公证处办理手续。还好,事情算是顺利,过了一段时间,我们就领取了京证台字〔1993〕第492号收养公证。公证书这样记录着: So, as requested, we rush round, preparing a pile of relevant testimonial materials from Chinese Taiwan, the mainland of China, our workplaces and the local police station... and materials of uncle, my parents, me, and my husband. Then, with the accompany of three elderly people in my family, we went together to the notary office to complete the procedures. Fortunately, everything went smoothly, and after some time, we received the Adoption Notarization Certificate in the mainland of China which reads: 兹证明洪洲与XX、XXX （作者注:XX、X XX是我父母亲的名字,下同）商定,并征得被收养人郭冬的同意,洪洲于1993年8月23日收养XX,X XX之女郭冬为养女，洪洲为郭冬的养父。北京市公证处公证员XX 1993年9月7日 This certifies that Hongzhou, XX, and XXX (Note: XX and XXX are the names of my parents, the same applies below) have agreed, and with the consent of the adoptee Guo Dong, Hongzhou adopted Guo Dong as his daughter on August 23, 1993. Hongzhou is hereby recognized as Guo Dong's adoptive father.

Notary Officer XX Beijing Notary Public Office September 7, 1993 公证书是法定机关对于民事上权利义务关系所做的证明,舅舅自然懂。领到公证书时,舅舅已经回到台北,我就在电话里给他一字一字地念,他显然十分重视。我的话音刚一落,他就落实道:“这就是说,自1993年9月7日起,北京市公证处确认了我和你的养父养女关系!” The adoption notarial certificate is an official certification by a statutory authority regarding the rights and obligations in civil matters, and my uncle understood its significance. When he received the notarial certificate, he was already back in Taipei, so I read it out to him word by word over the phone, and he clearly valued it. As soon as I finished speaking, he confirmed, "So this means that as of September 7, 1993, Beijing Notary Public Office has confirmed our father-daughter relationship!" 我说:“是啊是啊,舅呀,我是不是得改称呼啦?” I said, "Oh, Uncle, should I change how I address you?" 舅舅在电话那头哈哈大笑,他说:“等台湾公证员协会的文件下来,咱就改口! 我要告诉所有战友,我有个教授女儿!” Uncle laughed heartily on the other end of the phone and said, "Once the documents from the Taiwan Notary Public Association come, we'll make the switch! I'll tell all my comrades that I have a professor daughter!" 我赶紧声明:“舅,是副教授!” I quickly clarified, "Uncle, I’m just an associate professor!" 舅舅说:“那你明天当正的,我后天再告诉他们!” Uncle replied, "Then you'll become a full professor tomorrow, and I'll let them know the day after!" 我说:“行!” I said, "Okay!" 我们就笑。说实话,我很感动,也很感谢,舅舅为人低调内敛,他在不经意间冒出的话,说明他因我而骄傲,这是我们交往中出现的绝无仅有的一次话题,以后再也没有过。 We laughed. Honestly, I was deeply moved and grateful. Uncle was usually reserved and understated, but his casual words showed that he was proud of me. It was a unique topic that arose in our relationship, and it never happened again. 那是个秋天,可春风吹进了舅舅的心田,他的希望发芽长叶了。后面的事情如我们所愿,台湾海峡交流基金会于1993年12月31日发来了公证书核对证明文本。 It was autumn, but a spring breeze blew into Uncle's heart, and his hopes began to sprout and grow leaves. As we had hoped, the Straits Exchange Foundation sent the notarized verification of the adoption on December 31, 1993. 舅舅收到台湾海峡交流基金会发来的公证书核对证明文本后,抛却了所有的不快。按照程序,他再到台北公证员协会办理完我们的收养公证,新生活就要开始了！ After receiving the notarized verification from the Taiwan Strait Exchange Foundation, Uncle let go of all the unpleasantness. Following the procedure, he went to the Taipei Notary Public Association to complete our adoption notarization, and a new life was about to begin! 这时,一件意想不到的事情发生了。 However, at that moment, something unexpected happened. 前面提到,如果不是因为柳太太与舅舅发生了剧烈的争吵,他们的日子会一直在万大路过下去。从舅舅的薪水不再交给柳太太起,他们之间的相处就存了疙瘩。后来,舅舅不断回大陆,不断动用自己的储蓄,这就使柳太太十分气恼。 As mentioned earlier, if it weren't for the intense quarrel between Mrs. Liu and Uncle, their lives would have continued on Wan Da Road. Since Uncle stopped giving his salary to Mrs. Liu, there was a rift between them. Later, Uncle kept returning to the mainland and using his savings, which infuriated Mrs. Liu. 大概读者也猜到了,舅舅与柳太太的最大冲突,就在于舅舅发现了被柳太太扣押的北京来信。在舅舅看来,亲人所书写的每一封信,都是他生活的光亮,是他生存的寄托,更何况柳太太扣掉的是来自北京的最初两封信,那时舅舅正望眼欲穿地等待着亲人的消息。这是他们仅有的一次吵架,也是终结他们关系的争吵。这场无人能够调解也无可避免的战争爆发后,柳太太冲上楼,把舅舅的铺盖和箱子ー股脑扔到了楼梯口! As readers may have guessed, the major conflict between Uncle and Mrs. Liu arose when Uncle discovered that Mrs. Liu had withheld the letters from Beijing. To Uncle, each letter written by his family was a source of light in his life, a solace in his existence. Moreover, Mrs. Liu had withheld the first two letters from Beijing, the very letters Uncle had been eagerly waiting for from his loved ones. This was their only fight, and it marked the end of their relationship. After this unavoidable and irreconcilable war erupted, Mrs. Liu rushed upstairs and threw Uncle's bedding and suitcase down the stairs! 舅舅陷在沙发里,往舌头下塞了一片硝酸甘油,之后拉开搁放存折的抽屉。如果此时他给我打个电话,事情还有逆转的可能。我会劝他冷静,还会给柳太太打电话,尽量平息他们的矛盾。 Uncle sank into the couch and put a tablet of nitroglycerin under his tongue. He then opened the drawer where he kept his bankbook. If he had called me at that moment, there might have been a chance to reverse the situation. I would have advised him to stay calm and would have called Mrs. Liu to try to alleviate their conflict. 可是没有,舅舅习惯了自我决断。他的存款已经不够在繁华的台北市买房,他当天就去往台北新庄市购买了一套两居室。他要用那所新房迎接我和泰来的到来。 But it didn't happen. Uncle was accustomed to making decisions on his own. His savings were no longer sufficient to buy a house in bustling Taipei, so he immediately went to Xin Zhuang in Taipei and purchased a two-bedroom apartment. He intended to welcome me and Tai Lai in that new home. 离开万大路时,舅舅将当年花重资建盖的二层小楼与冰箱、彩电、录影机、空调、衣柜等所有值钱物件都留在了柳家。他弯下腰,拥抱着已经坐在轮椅上的战友老柳。 When leaving Wan Da Road, Uncle left behind the two-story building he had built at great expense, as well as the refrigerator, color TV, VCR, air conditioner, wardrobe, and all other valuable items in the Liu family's possession. He bent down and embraced his fellow soldier, Liu, who was already confined to a wheelchair. 他们互相都感受到了对方的衰老,都预感到是最后的告别,便手拉手,强忍眼泪,互道珍重。柳太太一定后悔了,她跟着不望她一眼的舅舅,追到院门ロ,伤感地说:“洪洲,有空来坐坐。” They both felt each other's aging and sensed that it would be their final farewell. Holding hands, suppressing their tears, they bid each other farewell. Mrs. Liu must have regretted it. She followed Uncle who did not even look at her to the courtyard gate, saying sorrowfully, "Hong Zhou, come visit when you have time." 舅舅的男子汉尊严昂起了头,他转过身,不看她,一字ー顿地说:“我日后如果讨饭……” Uncle, with the dignity of a man, raised his head and turned away without looking at her, saying firmly, "If I ever have to beg in the future..." 柳太太赶紧说:“哪里、哪里会讨饭,你是吉人自有天相厂’ Mrs. Liu interrupted, "No, you will never have the chance to beg. You are a good people who will have good fortune." 舅舅只管说下去,仍旧一字ー顿:“我日后如果讨饭,走到你这ー家,要绕过,去下一家!” Uncle continued, word by word, "If I ever have to beg in the future and happen to pass by your house, I will go around and visit the next one!" 他拖着行李箱,头也不回。 He dragged his suitcase and didn't look back. 坦率地说,我后来反省过这件事,也给柳太太打过电话。且不说舅舅当年将房子建在柳家屋顶上是对是错,只说他迁离万大路,离开柳家这件事,难说是上策,因为那套位于台北新庄市的新房,后来招惹了无人能够预料的灾祸。 To be frank, I later reflected on this matter and also called Mrs. Liu. Setting aside the question of whether it was right or wrong for Uncle to build the house on top of the Liu family's roof, leaving Wan Da Road and the Liu family was not necessarily the best decision, for it turned out that the house in Xin Zhuang City, Taipei, brought my uncle an unforeseen disaster later. 迁进新庄市新房最初的日子愉快无比。没有人管束,没有人伸手要钱,自己是自己的,自由自在。舅舅变得轻松起来,时常哼着豫剧唱段。他有了自己的电话, 老是打电话问我愿意当记者还是教书,说他主张泰来当自由撰稿人。 The initial days of moving into the new house in Xin Zhuang City were incredibly joyful. There was no one to control him and no one asking him for money. He was his own master, free and at ease. Uncle became more relaxed and often hummed tunes from Yu opera. He had his own telephone and would frequently call me to ask if I wanted to become a journalist or a teacher. He advocated for Tai Lai to become a freelance writer. 后来他又想起给自己找个活,说我们仁可以ー起经商,他喜欢前店后厂的房,他愿意坐堂卖货, 让我们当老板。总之,舅舅经常为自己一厢情愿的翻新花样,激动得睡不着觉。 Later, he thought about finding a job for himself and suggested that we start a business together. He liked the idea of having a shop in the front and a factory at the back, and he was willing to sit in the shop selling goods while we acted as the bosses. In short, Uncle often indulged in his own wishful thinking and got so excited that he couldn't sleep. 就在我们以为交上好运,好人得了好报时,舅舅在台北办理的公证活动撞上了红灯 Just when we thought we had good luck and that got rewarded for our good deeds, something went wrong with Uncle's notarization process in Taipei. 我知道,舅舅这ー辈子最怕填表写字,最不愿意与老兵之外的人打交道。可这两件事,他都赶上了。 I knew that Uncle dreaded filling out forms and writing, and he was reluctant to interact with anyone except for veterans. But he encountered both of these things this time. 当舅舅将一摞材料送进台北公证员协会的窗口后,公证员告诉他,台北市收养政策有多条规定,舅舅只有一条不符合,那就是:养父养女年龄应当相差20年。舅舅绝望地申辩:“我和外甥女年龄相差19年零8个月,是19年零8个月、19年零8 个月啊!”公证员温和而果断地摇摇头:“先生,不能办理。” After Uncle handed over a stack of documents through the window of the Taipei Notary Public Association, the notary informed him that there were several regulations regarding adoption in Taipei, and Uncle only failed to meet one: the age difference between the adoptive father and daughter should be 20 years at least. Uncle desperately argued, "The age difference between me and my niece is 19 years and 8 months! It's just 2 months from the standard." The notary gently but decisively shook their head and said, "Sir, it cannot be processed." 舅舅跌坐在公证员协会门口,用手捂着胸口。 Uncle slumped down at the entrance of the notary public association, holding his chest with his hand. 后来的事情发展令我吃惊,一生宁折不弯的舅舅竟然违了自己的性格,独自去寻访前台湾“行政院长”郝柏村。 What happened later surprised me. Uncle, who had always been unyielding, went against his own character and visited the Premier of the Republic of China (ROC) , Hau Pei-tsun, alone. 舅舅这样一位普普通通的老兵,怎么敢惊动郝柏村?他为什么去找郝柏村,而不是别的主管高官?我倏地想起了舅舅给我讲述过的一段经历。 How could Uncle, an ordinary veteran, dare to disturb Hau Pei-tsun? Why did he go to see Hau Pei-tsun, instead of other high-ranking officials? Suddenly, I remembered a story Uncle had told me before. 金门之战 The Battle of Kinmen 1992年,舅舅带给我们ー包邮票。他点着其中一枚的画面说:“在这个地方, 我九死一生!” In 1992, Uncle brought us a package of stamps. Pointing to one of them, he said, "In this place, I narrowly escaped death!" 那是金门。 It was Kinmen. 我叫起来:“哇,舅,你敢跟解放军开战!” I exclaimed, "Wow, Uncle, you dared to fight against the Communist People's Liberation Army!" 舅舅眯着笑眼,只有饱经沧桑的人才能表现出那份淡定。 Uncle squinted his eyes with a smile, displaying the calmness that only someone who had experienced many hardships could show.

我为此去查金门史料。 I decided to look up the historical records of Kinmen. 金门岛及烈屿、小金门,大大小小计13个岛屿。大金门岛长20公里,东距厦门10公里,形状似哑铃,东部多高山,西部多丘陵,北岸为黄白色沙质硬滩,适宜大规模登陆。 Kinmen Island, along with Lieyu and Lesser Kinmen Island, consists of a total of 13 islands. Kinmen, Main island is 20 kilometers long and 10 kilometers east of Xiamen. It has a dumbbell-like shape, with high mountains in the east and hills in the west. The northern coast is composed of yellow-white sandy beaches, suitable for a big landing. 那时,在美国艾森豪威尔政府的支持下,蒋介石当局频频向金门增兵,除了大担、二担两个小岛已有蒋军驻守外,至1958年夏季,金门已增至10万蒋军。无疑, 金门成了两军必战之地。 At that time, with the support of The Eisenhower Administration, the Nationalist Government of Chiang Kai-shek frequently reinforced Kinmen. Apart from Dadan Island and Erdan Island, two small islands already occupied by the Kuomintang (KMT) forces, there were 100,000 KMT soldiers stationing in Kinmen by the summer of 1958. Undoubtedly, Kinmen had become a battleground for both sides. 1958年7月17日晚,中国国防部部长彭德怀传达了炮击金门的决定。

On the evening of July 17, 1958, China's Defense Minister Peng Dehuai conveyed the decision of the bombardment of Kinmen (Quemoy). 1958年7月18日晚,毛泽东召集各军事部门负责人开会指出:金门炮战,意在击美。 On the evening of July 18, 1958, Mao Tse-tung convened a meeting with military department heads, stating that the bombardment of Kinmen (Quemoy) aimed at attacking the United States. 1958年7月19日至8月中旬,解放军调集兵力,在福建前线部署了地面炮兵 36个营、海岸炮兵6个连,459门火炮,海军80余艘舰艇和海、空军200余架飞机。 From July 19 to mid-August 1958, the Communist People's Liberation Army deployed 36 Field artillery battalions, 6 Coastal Artillery companies, 459 artillery pieces, more than 80 naval vessels, and over 200 aircraft from the navy and air force along the Fujian front. 金门炮击最激烈的时刻,蒋介石派遣蒋经国到金门督战。 During the height of the bombardment of Kinmen (Quemoy), Chiang Kai-shek dispatched Chiang Ching-kuo to oversee the battle. 蒋介石操着浙江奉化口音对儿子说:“我最不放心金门,那个岛离大陆太近,离台湾却很远,我10万将士人人抱定拼死一战的决心,坚守5日,美国必会出兵助战。如3天都守不到,那就没有人会来救它了。你要常去金门,越有紧急情况越要去。金门必须确保无虞, 那里的事情办不好,你就不要回来。” Speaking in his native accent from Fenghua, Zhejiang, Chiang Kai-shek said to his son, "I'm most worried about Jinmen. That island is too close to the mainland but far from Taiwan. Each of the 100,000 soldiers there is determined to fight to the death and hold on for five days. The United States will surely send troops to assist if we can't hold on for three days. If we can't hold on for even three days, no one will come to rescue it. You must frequently visit Kinmen and go there whenever there is an emergency. Kinmen must be secure. If things there aren't handled well, don't bother coming back." 为遵父训,蒋经国一生共去金门123次。 Following his father's instructions, Chiang Ching-kuo visited Jinmen a total of 123 times during his lifetime. 美国政府不负蒋介石所望,紧急向台湾海峡调遣海、空力量。美国海军第七舰队主力远道而来,美国第一批海军陆战队近4000人在台湾南部登陆,远在中东地区的第六舰队舰只也驶向台湾海峡。不到1〇天,小小的台湾海峡就布满了航空母舰、重型巡洋舰、驱逐舰等各种现代化军舰,而天上也盘旋着第九十六巡逻航空队、第一海军陆战队航空队的飞机。台湾海峡成了举世瞩目的战场。 The U.S. government lived up to Chiang Kai-shek's expectations and urgently deployed naval and air forces to the Taiwan Strait. The main force of United States Seventh Fleet came from afar, and the first batch of nearly 4,000 U.S. Marines landed in southern Taiwan. The naval vessels of United States Sixth Fleet, located in the Middle East region, also sailed toward the Taiwan Strait. Within less than ten days, the small Taiwan Strait was filled with various modern warships, including aircraft carriers, heavy cruisers, and destroyers, while aircraft from The 96th Aero Squadron and The 1st Marine Aircraft Wing hovered in the sky. The Taiwan Strait became a highly watched battlefield. 舅舅部队在这时接到了上岛命令。 At this time, Uncle's unit received the order to go to the island. 那不过是小金门的ー个岛屿,上司规定,要派员先行侦察,然后根据侦察结果部署作战计划。 It was just a small island in Lesser Kinmen Island. The superiors stipulated that personnel should be sent for reconnaissance first, and then operational plans should be deployed based on the reconnaissance results. 命令一下达,没有打过仗的士兵便人人自危。ー个说法不胫而走:解放军海陆空拉好了一张网,谁上金门谁个是死! Once the order was issued, soldiers who had never been in battle felt anxious. A saying went viral: the Communist People's Liberation Army had set up a net on land, sea, and air, and whoever went to Kinmen was as good as dead! 与舅舅相熟的人央求:“洪洲,不要派俺啊。” People familiar with Uncle pleaded, "Hongzhou, don't send me." 与舅舅不熟的人央求:“长官,我还小,俺娘等俺养老啊。” People unfamiliar with Uncle also pleaded, "Commander, I'm still young, my mother is waiting for me to support her in her old age." 舅舅担任分队地面指挥,原本不执行具体任务,然而他禁不起年轻部下的央告,竟身先士卒地跨上了战车。按规定,四人ー车,也就是说,还有三个士兵应该与他同车。 Uncle was assigned as the ground commander but wasn't supposed to carry out specific tasks. However, he couldn't resist the pleading of his young subordinates and ended up being the first to board the vehicle . According to the regulations, there should be four soldiers in one vehicle , which meant three more soldiers should have joined him. “老吴厂”舅舅大手ー摆,招呼战友; “Wu”, Uncle, with his broad gestures, beckoned to his comrades, “他们小,咱俩去执行任务,两人ー车” " They are too young. Let's go on the mission together, just the two of us in one vehicle ." 老吴磨磨蹭蹭,不情愿地钻进车,发动机轰响起来。舅舅挂上挡,ー脚踩下油门,老吴嘶叫起来:“洪洲,娘就俺ー个儿呀” Reluctantly, Wu climbed into the vehicle , the engine roared to life. Uncle shifted into gear and pressed the accelerator, and Wu shouted, "Hongzhou, my mother is relying on me alone!" Old Wu shouted, "Hongzhou, my mother is relying on me alone!" 舅舅立马踩住刹车,痛痛快快地说:“好,你下车,我自己去!” Uncle immediately stepped on the brakes and calmly said, "Alright, you get off, I'll go alone." 他的平静与宽容,令老吴和所有的士兵吃惊。 His calmness and tolerance surprised Wu and all the soldiers. 老吴下车后,跺着脚对跑远的战车喊:“洪洲,你回不来,俺为你娘送终” After Wu got off the vehicle , he stomped his feet and shouted to the retreating vehicle , "Hongzhou, if you don't come back, I'll take care of your mother!" 那是一次凶吉难测的侦察。舅舅开着美制两栖突击战车,轰隆隆地下海,又轰隆隆地爬坡登陆。28岁的舅舅也许并不知道打什么仗,也并不愿意伤害谁或被谁伤害,可是当没有人情愿执行任务的时候,血气方刚的他宁愿代替兄弟们上阵。 That was a reconnaissance mission full of uncertainties. Uncle drove an American-made Assault Amphibious Vehicle (AAV), roaring and plunging into the sea, and then rumbling up the slopes to land. At the age of 28, Uncle perhaps didn't know what kind of battle he was about to face, nor did he want to harm anyone or be harmed. But when no one was willing to carry out the mission, his youthful ardor led him to take the place of his brothers in battle.

天上盘旋着低空搜索的共产党飞机,车旁穿梭着炸开花的弹皮。海涛阵阵,硝烟茫茫。ー个小时,两个小时,三个小时……在每一分每一秒都存在死亡威胁的恐怖时刻,舅舅的水陆战车跑遍了小岛的每一个角落。

Communist aircraft hovered low in the sky, and shells exploded around the vehicle, creating bursts of smoke. The sound of the waves and the vast expanse of gunpowder filled the air. For one hour, two hours, three hours... in every minute and every second of terrifying moments with the constant threat of death, Uncle's amphibious vehicle traversed every corner of the small island.

“报告,”舅舅用无线电喊话,“岛上空无一人,报告完毕「’ “Report,”Uncle radioed, "There is no one on the island, report completed." “很好,返航!”对讲机那头喊。 "Very well, return!" came the response from the other end of the intercom. 我们不知道舅舅是不是愿意返航,反正,当金门之战后的第四年,也就是1962 年,蒋介石计划反攻大陆,拟派海军陆战队从青岛登陆,舅舅第一个报了名。他的想法很单纯:山东紧挨河南,从青岛登陆就跑回河南老家,谁给他蒋军卖命!当然, 由于蒋介石取消了登陆计划,舅舅也就放弃了自己逃跑回家的梦想。 We didn't know if Uncle was willing to return or not. In any case, in the fourth year after the Battle of Kinmen, which was in 1962, Chiang Kai-shek planned a counterattack on the mainland and intended to send the Marine Corps to land in Qingdao. Uncle was the first to sign up. His idea was simple: Shandong Province is adjacent to Henan Province, so he would land in Qingdao and then run back to his hometown in Henan. Who asked him to devote himself to the Jiang's army! However, since Chiang Kai-shek canceled the landing plan, Uncle also gave up his dream of escaping and returning home. 接下来的事,使舅舅兴奋了许多年。 What happened next excited Uncle for many years. 孤胆作战的舅舅,受到了嘉奖。颁奖会上,39岁的国民党第九师师长郝柏村向他走来。 Uncle, who fought alone, received commendation. At the awards ceremony, General Hau Pei-tsun, the 39-year-old commander of the Kuomintang's 9th Division, approached him. 郝柏村是蒋军中最年轻的将军。这位黄埔军校第12期毕业生,1956年初就担任金门防卫司令部的炮兵指挥官,睿智过人,他上任后就推倒金门炮兵阵地上的全部沙包掩体,建立了永久性的钢筋水泥掩体,因此,当解放军的密集炮火摧毁了岛上蒋军几乎全部通讯系统时,唯独郝柏村的师部通讯还一直与“总统”办公室保持着联系。 Hau Pei-tsun was the youngest general in the National Army. He was a graduate of the Whampoa Military Academy's 12th class and had assumed command of the Kinmen Defense Headquarters' artillery unit in early 1956. He was remarkably wise. Upon taking office, he demolished all the sandbag bunkers on the artillery positions of Kinmen and built permanent reinforced concrete shelters. Therefore, when the intensive artillery fire from the Communist People's Liberation Army destroyed almost all of the communication systems on the island, only Hao Bocun's division headquarters remained in contact with the "President's" office. 据统计,郝柏村当时驻守的小金门承受了解放军发射炮弹总数的近一半,有 578人阵亡。在ー次视察途中,郝柏村刚离开厕所,一发炮弹便轰然炸掉了厕所的左角。这个长着浓眉的郝柏村,简直就是蒋军中的传奇人物。 According to statistics, the Lesser Kinmen Island., where Hau Pei-tsun was stationed, endured nearly half of the total number of shells fired by the Communist People's Liberation Army, with 578 soldiers killed. During one of his inspections, just after Hau Pei-tsun left the restroom, a shell hit and blew up the left corner of the restroom. This thick-browed Hau Pei-tsun was truly a legendary figure in the National Army. 39岁的将军把金灿灿的绶带披在28岁的舅舅肩头上,他大概是舅舅一生中接触过的最高级别长官。最让舅舅不能忘记的是下面的场景,郝师长使劲摇着舅舅的手激动地说:“洪洲啊,你是我们大家的榜样!” The 39-year-old general draped the golden ribbon over the shoulders of the 28-year-old Uncle. He was probably the highest-ranking officer Uncle had ever come into contact with. The scene that Uncle could never forget was when General Hao grasped his hand tightly and said excitedly, "Hongzhou, you are an example for all of us!" 气壮山河的呼声,长久不息的掌声,全场有节奏的“洪洲一洪洲一”的呐喊声,无疑是舅舅此生获得的最高赞誉。所有人都看到,冷面的舅舅,绽开了一脸灿烂的猩红。 The resounding cheers, the prolonged applause, and the rhythmic shouts of "Hongzhou, Hongzhou" throughout the venue undoubtedly constituted the highest praise Uncle received in his lifetime. Everyone could see that the usually stern Uncle had a bright, radiant smile on his face. 1958年后,金门之战渐渐演变成了象征性战役。中共中央、中央军委规定,逢年过节停炮三天;再往后,一般炮弹只装宣传品,打炮就变成了政治攻势。这样的 “炮战”,从1958年秋冬延续到1979年元旦,整整打了 20年。舅舅早就不闻不问, 也早就不提当年之勇了。 After 1958, the Battle of Kinmen gradually evolved into a symbolic campaign. The Central Committee of the Chinese Communist Party and the Central Military Commission stipulated a three-day ceasefire during holidays and festivals. Later on, ordinary shells were filled with propaganda materials, and the artillery fire turned into a political offensive. This kind of "artillery battle" lasted for 20 years, from the autumn and winter of 1958 to New Year's Day in 1979. Uncle had long ceased to pay attention and no longer mentioned his past valor.

第五章舅舅的婚姻 Chapter 5: Uncle's Marriage 1995年4月,舅舅第六次进北京。 In April 1995, Uncle went to Beijing for the sixth time. 他明显衰老了,进家一会儿,就歪躺在床上。 He's visibly aged and would lie down on the bed shortly after entering the house. 我守在舅舅身边,劝他长留北京,或是购置ー套房子,娶个老伴;或是搬进我和泰来的家,安度晚年。 I stayed by Uncle's side, persuading him to settle in Beijing and buy a house, and find a companion for his old age. Alternatively, I suggested he move into my and Tailai's home to spend his twilight years. “我何尝不想有个家?”舅舅坐起身,叹ロ气,“小冬啊,我也本是有过家眷的人!” "I do want to have a home," Uncle said, sitting up and sighing. "Xiaodong, I was once married!" 我不相信。与舅舅办公证时,我无数次阅读过他的户籍,那上面明明填写的是 “未婚”。他是在何时、何地有过家眷,能在何时、何地有过家眷呢? I didn't believe him. When we applied for his ID card, I had read his household registration countless times, and it clearly stated "unmarried." When and where did he have a family and how ? 舅舅赶紧说:“小冬,你别用这样的眼神看我。这件事在我心里存了太久,我本来想烂在肚里的。” Uncle quickly said, "Xiaodong, don't look at me with that kind of expression. This matter has been weighing on my heart for too long. I originally wanted to keep it to myself." 我不吭声,舅舅这人独处惯了,心里搁得住事,他不想告诉人的,你再问也没用。 I remained silent. Uncle was accustomed to solitude, capable of keeping all the things to himself. If he didn't want to tell anyone, no amount of questioning would yield an answer. 我把茶杯捧给舅舅,他开始述说了。一段陈年往事,随着茶水飘出的雾气,徐徐铺展开来。 I handed Uncle a cup of tea, and he began to speak. A long-forgotten story unfolded slowly with the mist from the tea. 读者朋友,我想您听完,可能会和我ー样感慨,舅舅的这段经历,简直就像个民间故事。 Dear reader, I believe that after listening, you may feel the same as me. Uncle's experience is like a folk tale. 江西妹俚A Jiangxi woman 这件事,发生在舅舅被抓壮丁后不久,1948年的冬季。 This incident occurred shortly after Uncle was conscripted in the winter of 1948. 舅舅换上军装,随部队往南开,一天一天地行军,走到江西收了脚。舅舅当然不知道蒋介石登陆台湾之前背水ー战的攻略,还奇怪队伍怎么会在江西安营扎寨, 让他们过上了农家生活。 Uncle changed into his military uniform and marched south with the troops. Day after day, they stopped until they reached Jiangxi. Uncle had no knowledge of Chiang Kai-shek's strategy of fighting to the death before retreating to Taiwan. He found it strange that why the troops would set up camp in Jiangxi, allowing them to experience life in rural areas. 舅舅出身农民,进小村如鱼得水,每日抡镐挥锹、担水劈柴,毫不惜カ。身边几个没出过村的河南小兵都听舅舅的话,指望舅舅能带他们回家。 Coming from a peasant background, Uncle adapted easily to the village life, wielding a hoe and shovel, carrying water and chopping firewood without hesitation. The few young soldiers from Henan who had never left their village followed Uncle's lead, hoping he could bring them back home. 那是个偶然,排长发现了舅舅的鼓动能量,命他做了班长。于是,就在江西ー个偏僻的小村庄里,舅舅成为村民们热议的人物。 It was a coincidence that the platoon leader noticed Uncle's leadership qualities and appointed him as a squad leader. Thus, in a remote village in Jiangxi, Uncle became a person of great interest among the villagers. 紧跟着,美事从天降。 Soon after, a stroke of luck came his way. 房东大妈对舅舅说:“班长呀,你多大?”舅舅正要担水,停下脚步说:“周岁18 咧,大妈。”房东拉住舅舅的扁担,扯他进场屋,郑重地说:“我看你是个下カ气做活的人,我家妹俚20岁,许给你愿意不?”舅舅憋红了脸,抓住扁担要走。房东说:“上面长官管不到你的,不说谁晓得?往后她就是你的人,随你到哪里去。” The landlady asked Uncle, "Squad leader, how old are you?" Uncle, about to fetch water, stopped and said, "I just turned 18, aunty." The landlady grabbed hold of Uncle's shoulder pole and pulled him into her courtyard. She said solemnly, "I can see that you're a capable and hardworking person. My younger sister, is 20 years old. Would you like to marry her?" Uncle blushed, held onto his shoulder pole and tried to leave. The landlady said, "Your superiors won't have any say in this. Who would know if we didn't tell them? From now on, she will be yours, and you can take her wherever you go." 妹俚在里屋嗡嗡地织布,麻麻利利,织出的布泻到了地上。妹俚一定是听见了,织布机突然没了声响。 The girl was humming as she wove cloth in the inner room, working diligently and skillfully. She must have heard the conversation, for the sound of the weaving machine suddenly ceased. 妹俚结结实实,人好手巧,咋能让她失望呢? The girl was kind and dexterous, and how could Uncle let her down? 舅舅的血ー热,忘记了我姥姥。他吐出了一个字:“中。” Uncle's blood boiled, and forgot about my grandmother. He uttered a single word, "Okay,I will marry her." 就这样,没有法律文书认定,只有月亮做证的是,我们这一代有了个舅妈。咱们假定舅妈叫崔氏,在村庄由班长说了算的小天下,舅舅不请示,不汇报,与崔氏过上了新婚日子。他差不多忘记了自己是一个兵,也忘记了带弟兄们回家的承诺。 That's how it happened. Without any legal documents and with only the moon as a witness, we had an aunt. Let's call her Cui. In this small village where the squad leader's word was law, Uncle didn't seek permission from or report to anyone and started a new life with Cui. He almost forgot that he was a soldier and the promise he made to bring his comrades home. 天暖了,舅舅赶着拉犁的牛下田,崔氏在田壇上跟着走。舅舅说:“恁和我,就是牛郎织女。”崔氏崇拜地望着舅舅:“你晓得的蛮多嘲。”舅舅大笑:“我娘会讲好多故事,会唱好多戏文哩!” As the weather warmed up, Uncle plowed the fields with the oxen, and Cui followed along in the field. Uncle said, "We are like the Cowherd and Weaver Girl." Cui looked at Uncle with admiration and said, "You are knowledgeable ." Uncle laughed, "My mother used to tell me many stories and she can sing many drama text." 村庄里有条沿河的沟,长了满满ー沟绿野菜,舅舅查岗回来,就与崔氏一起给猪挖野菜。崔氏说:“卖了猪,有了盘缠,我跟你回家看娘。”舅舅就拉住她的手,指着延伸进荒野的黄褐色土路说:“就从这儿往北走,恁记住,是河南。” There was a ditch along the river in the village, filled with wild green vegetables. After patrolling, Uncle and Cui would gather the vegetables for the pigs. Cui said, "Once the pigs grow up and sold out. We will have some money, I'll go with you to visit your mother." Uncle held her hand and pointed to the dusty road extending into the wilderness, saying, "We'll head north from here, remember, it's Henan." 崔氏是个贤惠女人,没出过村庄,踏踏实实持家,一心一意跟定了自己的男人。每当黄昏时分,舅舅就帮她挑好水,烧上几把柴,不等饭熟,就去兵营吃饭了。崔氏不知道,就是那座简陋的茅草房,成为舅舅生平唯一的小家;她给予的温暖,也是舅舅这一生中难得的情爱。 Cui was a virtuous woman who had never left the village. She managed the household well and devoted herself wholeheartedly to her husband. Every evening, when dusk approached, Uncle would help her fetch water and gather firewood, but he would leave and eat at the barracks before the meal was done. Cui didn't know that their modest thatched cottage had become Uncle's only home in his entire life. The warmth she provided was also a rare affection in Uncle's life. 可惜,日子仅仅过了两个月,猪儿长得正壮实,队伍就开拔了。 Unfortunately, their time together lasted only two months, just as the pigs were growing strong and sturdy, the unit was ordered to move out. 舅舅记起了自己是ー个兵。他对泪水涟涟的崔氏说:“我要是回来,ー准接你, 咱们去找我娘,往后和娘过日子;要是2年没音讯,你就改嫁。” Uncle remembered that he was a soldier. He said to tearful Cui, "If I come back, I will definitely come for you. We'll go find my mother and live with her. But if you don't hear from me for two years, then you should remarry." 崔氏顺着长满野菜的绿沟跑,踩塌了一沟野菜;之后又跳上延伸进荒野的黄褐色土路,如果队伍往北开,她就跟着走。可队伍朝南开了,崔氏一屁股坐在路边大哭起来。 Cui ran alongside the ditch filled with wild vegetables, trampling over them. Then she jumped onto the dusty road extending into the wilderness. If the unit headed north, she would follow. But the unit went south, and Cui sat down on the roadside and burst into tears. 从此,这个队伍再没有给过舅舅一方像江西村庄那样的自由天地,他也就永远失去了逃离队伍的可能。 From then on, this unit never gave the same freedom that Uncle had experience in the village of Jiangxi. He had lost the possibility of escaping from the unit forever. 从此,那ー沟绿野菜,那沿沟奔跑的自己的女人,幻化成了硕大的影像,在舅舅脑海中闪回了一辈子。 And that ditch filled with green vegetables, that woman who ran along the ditch, transformed into a vivid image that haunted Uncle's mind throughout his life. 舅舅喝着茶,不再说话。 Uncle drank his tea and fell silent. 我脑海里一直晃动着那个沿沟追跑的年轻女子形象。有谁知道,这女子是多么悲哀、多么绝望?她等待了多少年?吃了多少苦?算起来,现在舅舅65岁,崔氏应该是67岁,正常的话她当健在。我就对舅舅说:“有没有地址?我陪您去江西走ー趟!” In my mind, the image of the young woman chasing after him along the ditch kept swirling. Who knew how sad and desperate she was? How many years has she waited? How much hardship has she endured? Considering that Uncle is now 65 years old, Cui should be around 67 if she is still alive. So I said to Uncle, "Do you have an address? I'll accompany you on a trip to Jiangxi!" 舅舅染过的头发有序地分在两边,微微晃动:“十多年前,我就给这个小村写过信,人家没有回音,怕是改嫁了,咱对不起人,不能再打扰了。” Uncle's dyed hair was neatly parted on both sides and swayed slightly. He said, "Over ten years ago, I wrote a letter to this small village, but there was no response. Perhaps she has remarried. I have already caused enough trouble, and I shouldn't disturb her anymore." 我知道,蒋介石政权逃台初期,为反攻大陆,下达了禁婚令,禁止所有赴台军人结婚;违者,军法处置。 I know that during the early period of Chiang Kai-shek's regime's escape to Taiwan, a marriage ban was imposed to prevent all soldiers going to Taiwan from getting married. Violators would face death penalty. 就这样,无数赴台军人沸腾的情爱、宝贵的青春年华,都被葬送进冷冰冰的反人性的禁婚令里。数万万老兵被抓时孑然ー身,返乡时依旧孤影相伴。我的叔叔, 一位卓尔不群的国军文员,在禁婚令废止后,只好与一位自己不喜欢的女子结婚, 抑郁追随了他终生。 In this way, countless soldiers' passionate love and precious youth were buried in the cold and inhumane marriage ban. Tens of millions of veterans were left alone when they were captured and remained solitary when they returned home. My uncle, an outstanding soldier of the National Army, had no choice but to marry a woman he didn't like after the marriage ban was lifted. He lived his life in depression. 我想探究到舅舅的心底,就问:“舅啊,您在台湾过了大半辈子,就没遇见ー个可心女子?” I wanted to delve into my uncle's innermost feelings, so I asked, "Uncle, didn't you meet a woman you liked during your time in Taiwan for more than half a lifetime?" 舅舅的话又让我吃惊了,他说:“怎么没有?我还有儿子呢。” Once again, my uncle's words surprised me. He said, "How could I not? I even have a son." 唉唉唉,你这个舅舅啊,到底藏掖着多少我不知道的事! Oh, Uncle, how many things are you hiding from me? “都是陈芝麻烂谷子的事了,”舅舅说,“哪里想瞒你!” "It's all trivial matters of the past," my uncle said, "I didn't intend to hide them from you!" 我续了水,茶水飘出的雾气重新弥漫开来。往事一定触动了舅舅的伤处,他用大手捧着茶杯,讲得很慢,语调里掺着凄凉。 I refilled the water, and the mist from the tea began to diffuse again. The past must have touched a sore spot in my uncle's heart. He held the teacup in his large hands and spoke slowly, his tone filled with sorrow. 读者朋友,下面的事情,就像一部出乎人们意料的悲剧作品情节。 Dear readers, the events that follow are like unexpected tragic plot twists in a play. 台北之恋 Love in Taipei 舅舅是个不畏惧军法军规的人,当他意识到已经没有可能再与崔氏团聚时,正好遇到一位姑娘。 My uncle was a man who had no fear of military law and regulations. When he realized that it was no longer possible to reunite with Mrs. Cui, he happened to meet a young lady. 姑娘是居住在眷村的大陆女子。舅舅没有说她的姓名,我们姑且称她为郑小姐。郑小姐是护士,干干净净,犹如天使一般圣洁。他们可能在谁家初遇,也可能被谁介绍相识,这些都不知道,知道的是他们经历了花前月下的盟誓,度过了海边肌肤相亲的夜晚,他们焕发出了年轻人轰轰烈烈的激情,决心永生永世不分离〇 The young lady was a woman from Chinese mainland living in the military dependents' village. My uncle didn't mention her name, so let's call her Miss Zheng for now. Miss Zheng was a nurse, pure and clean, as if she were a holy angel. They might have met at someone's house or been introduced by someone; it's unknown. What we know is that they experienced a passionate courtship under the moonlight, spent nights by the sea intimately, and they radiated the fiery passion of young people, vowing never to be separated for eternity. 如果就这样悄悄幽会,如果就这样组织ー个地下家庭,他们说不定能够坚守到废止禁婚令的一天,那时将这份纯洁的爱情告白于天下,他们就成为世界上最幸福的伉俪。 If they quietly continued their secret rendezvous and formed an underground family, their love might be gone public when the marriage ban was lifted. At that time, they could have proudly proclaimed their pure love to the world and become the happiest couple in the world. 可是,有一天事情急剧地朝反方向逆转。 However, one day things took a sharp turn in the opposite direction. 那是ー个没有月亮的夜晚。他们原约定晚上7点见面,这时舅舅接到了公务, 原本应该辞掉约会,可他辞掉了公务。他站立在街头的屋檐下等候。 It was a moonless night. They had agreed to meet at 7 o'clock in the evening, but my uncle received official duties and should have canceled the appointment. However, he canceled his official duties instead and stood waiting under the eaves of a street. 7点,8点,9点……舅舅的脚麻木了,腿麻木了。军人不喜欢坐,他是个固执的人,郑小姐不来,他就会永远站下去。 7 o'clock, 8 o'clock, 9 o'clock... My uncle's feet and legs grew numb. Soldiers don't like to sit; he was a stubborn man. If Miss Zheng didn't come, he would stand there forever. 第二天凌晨3点,郑小姐到了。 At 3 o'clock in the morning of the next day, Miss Zheng arrived. 舅舅等待她开腔,或是解释,或是抱歉,不管说什么,舅舅都希望郑小姐说点什么。可是,没有,郑小姐什么都没说。 My uncle waited for her to speak, to explain or apologize, no matter what she said, he just hoped she would say something. But she didn't say anything, not a word. 军人胸腔里的怨火倏地蹿出来,他伸出大大的巴掌扇过去。 The resentment in the soldier's chest burst out, and he slapped her with his big hand. 郑小姐的眼泪涌出来,她猛转身,怀着愤怒疾步去了。 Tears welled up in Miss Zheng's eyes. She turned around abruptly and left angrily. 没有人举报舅舅。所有战友都想修复这场历时不足1年的恋情。人们说解铃还须系铃人,唯有舅舅道歉才能挽回爱情。人们说舅舅脾气太大应该好好改ー改, 可舅舅说她小郑心里有我自然回来,没我不回来也不可惜! No one reported my uncle. All his comrades wanted to mend this relationship that had lasted less than a year. They said the one who started it should be the one to end it, and only by apologizing could my uncle salvage the love. They said my uncle had a bad temper and should change for the better. However, my uncle said, "If Zheng Xiaozheng still loves me, she'll naturally come back. If she doesn't come back, it's not a loss!" 不知道郑小姐心里有没有舅舅,也不知道那晚她迟到的原因,反正,郑小姐没有回来。 It was unknown if Miss Zheng still loved my uncle or the reason for her lateness that night. Anyway, Miss Zheng did not come back. 几个月后,舅舅的战友老张带来的消息令所有人大吃ー惊:郑小姐生下了舅舅的儿子。 A few months later, everyone was shocked by the news brought by my uncle's comrade, Lao Zhang: Miss Zheng had given birth to my uncle's son. 舅舅捶胸顿足,才知道郑小姐那晚迟到的原因可能与怀孕相关。 My uncle beat his breast, realizing that the reason for Miss Zheng's lateness that night might be related to her pregnancy. 可是,心寒彻骨的郑小姐没有留给舅舅认错的机会。舅舅的战友老张说,郑小姐患了精神病,住进医院,只能将儿子送还给舅舅。 However, the heart-chilling Miss Zheng did not give my uncle a chance to apologize. Lao Zhang, my uncle's comrade, said that Miss Zheng had developed a mental illness and was admitted to a hospital. They could only send the son back to my uncle. 不管舅舅多么渴望以自己的儿子为中原父母续上香火,不管舅舅多么憎恶束缚人性的军法,他都清楚自己的处境。为军规,他无法收留儿子;为儿子,他不能让孩子蒙羞成长。唯一的办法,是将儿子暂时留在有妻有女的战友老张家里。 No matter how much my uncle longed to continue his family line with his own son, no matter how much he detested the binding military law, he understood his predicament. Due to the regulations, he couldn't take in his son; for his son's sake, he couldn't let the child grow up in shame. The only solution was to temporarily leave his son in the care of his comrade Lao Zhang, who had a wife and daughter. 就这样,儿子随了张姓,为不忘家乡,起名张中原。 That's how his son became part of the Zhang family, taking the surname Zhang. And in order to remember his hometown, they named him Zhang Zhongyuan. 张中原一天一天长大,他知道洪洲叔叔与父亲亲密无间,知道洪洲叔叔总是给他钱花,不知道洪洲叔叔每月向父亲提供着他的全部生活开销,也不知道他的生母长年住在医院里。 Zhang Zhongyuan grew up day by day. He knew that Uncle Hongzhou and his father were close , and Uncle Hongzhou always gave him pocket money. However, he didn't know that Uncle Hongzhou provided his father with all his living expenses every month, nor did he know that his biological mother lived in the hospital all year round. 张中原长成了壮小伙。老张无数次地说:“洪洲,告诉孩子实情吧。”可舅舅说:“老张,再等等吧,你付出的心血太多,那样对你不公平啊「’ As time went by, Zhang Zhongyuan grew into a strong young man. Lao Zhang had said countless times, "Hongzhou, tell the child the truth." But my uncle said, "Zhang, let's wait a little longer. You've put in so much effort; it wouldn't be fair to you." 张中原到了娶妻的年龄,舅舅花钱筹办了婚事;张中原到了生子的年龄,生了两个女儿--张台凤、张台凰,舅舅倾其所有。应该说,除了没有名分,舅舅也算儿孙满堂了。 When Zhang Zhongyuan reached the age to marry, my uncle spent money to arrange the wedding. When he reached the age to have children, he had two daughters—Zhang Taifeng and Zhang Taihuang. My uncle gave everything he had for his son's family. It could be said that apart from the lack of official recognition, my uncle had a houseful of children and grandchildren. 张中原有一份稳定的收入,每日骑着摩托车去公司上班,舅舅看着高兴。 Zhang Zhongyuan had a stable income. He commuted to work on a motorcycle every day, which made my uncle happy. 日子就这样一天一天地过,没有大惊大喜,也没有大悲大怨。平安是福,舅舅这样说。 Days passed by peacefully, without great joy or sorrow. "Peace is a blessing," my uncle would say. 可是,有一天,不平安了。 But one day, peace was shattered 报信人说,32岁的张中原在台北出了车祸,当街身亡。 The messenger said that 32-year-old Zhang Zhongyuan had been killed in a car accident in Taipei, right on the street. 梦想,又一次被轰毁。 Dreams were once again shattered. 舅舅觉得天塌下来了。他闭住眼睛,泪水横流,恨不得死在当街上的是自己。 My uncle felt like the sky was falling. He closed his eyes, tears streaming down his face, wishing that it was himself lying dead on the street. 孙女台凤、台凰的母亲,就是舅舅的亲儿媳,决定改嫁,后来偕二女嫁到了另ー座城市。自此,舅舅已经没有太多理由去看望自己的骨血。他偶尔带上ー笔钱看望孙女,倒使儿媳妇吃惊。就这样,舅舅与她们越来越少走动,更无法亲ロ言说事情真相。到老张去世后,已经无人为整个事情正名。 The mother of his granddaughters, Taifeng and Taihuang, who was also his own daughter-in-law, decided to remarry and eventually moved to another city with their two daughters. Since then, my uncle had fewer reasons to visit his own flesh and blood. He would occasionally bring some money to see his granddaughters, much to the surprise of his daughter-in-law. As a result, my uncle interacted less and less with them and couldn't even speak the truth about the situation. After Zhang's death, there was no one left to set the record straight for the whole situation. 他只剩下了自己。 He was alone. 幼年失去父母,中年失去妻子,晚年失去儿子。 He lost his parents in his youth, his wife in middle age, and his son in old age. 人生的几股飓风刮过去了,风过无痕。 The hurricanes of life had swept past, leaving no trace behind. 公安局的罚款 The fine from the Public Security Bureau 其实,我们说服舅舅居京的工作已经进行好几年了,舅舅就是担心时局有变, 不敢住在北京。却不过我们的盛情,这次进京,他ーロ就答应了。 In fact, we had been persuading my uncle to take a job in Beijing for several years. He was concerned about the changing political situation and was afraid to live in Beijing. But despite our insistence, he finally agreed this time to come to Beijing. 到京两天后,舅舅感到体力恢复了些,爸爸陪着他去派出所报户ロ。 Two days after arriving in Beijing, my uncle felt his strength returning. My father accompanied him to the local police station to register his residence. 舅舅的腰板又挺起来了,用木梳将头发有序地分在两边,不知道他是不是想以那种训练有素的老兵形象进出共产党的派出所,反正他的神态很好。 My uncle straightened his back, used a wooden comb to neatly part his hair on both sides. I don't know if he intended to present himself as a disciplined old soldier when entering and leaving the Communist Party's police station. He appeared in good spirits. 我们完全没想到,ー个意外的变故中止了本可能实现的计划。 We never expected that an unexpected incident would disrupt the plans that could have been realized. 户籍科的年轻民警看看机票说:“先生,您超过了 24小时,按规定得去局里报户口。” The young police officer from the household registration department looked at the plane ticket and said, "Sir, you have exceeded the 24-hour limit. According to regulations, you need to report to the local bureau." 年迈的爸爸陪着有病的舅舅叫了出租车,去局里报户口。没有人告诉他们详细地址,两位老人找啊找,找了两个小时。路上,舅舅就感到心绞痛,含了硝酸甘油。 My elderly father accompanied my sick uncle and hailed a taxi to go to the local bureau to report the residence. No one told them the detailed address, and the two elderly people searched and searched for two hours. Along the way, my uncle felt angina and took a nitroglycerin tablet. 区公安分局户籍科的民警很和气,但也很坚决:按规定,罚款500元人民币。 The police officer from the household registration department in the district was friendly but firm: according to regulations, there was a fine of 500 yuan. 舅舅的脾气上来了 : “我要不报户ロ呢?” My uncle's temper flared up, "What if I don't report my residence?" 民警依然和气而坚决:“您自己负责后果。” The police officer remained friendly yet resolute, "You will be responsible for the consequences." 罚款交了,临时户口报上了,而舅舅也躺在床上了。 The fine was paid, and the temporary residence was reported, but my uncle was also lying in bed. 晚上,他单方面推翻了集体确认的家庭结论,一句话甩出来:“我是外乡人,绝不把家安在北京!” That night, he unilaterally overturned the collective consensus on the family's decision and blurted out, "I am an outsider, I will never settle my family in Beijing!" 这句话算是板上钉钉,到死他都没有更改。 This statement was final, and he never changed it until his death. 我说:“舅舅,派出所罚款,事出有因,我有责任,应当在24小时之内去派出所说明,但这是个偶然,它与您定居北京没有必然关系。” I said, "Uncle, the fine from the police station has a reason, and I should take the responsibility. I should have gone to the police station to explain within 24 hours, but it's just an accident. It doesn't necessarily mean you can't settle in Beijing." 这话讲出来,我都觉得太原则,硬邦邦的,好像是在念文件。舅舅ー摆手,根本不想听。 When I said these words, I felt that they were too principled and rigid, as if I was reading from a document. My uncle waved his hand, not wanting to listen at all. 我换个角度说服他:“您是大陆人,叶落归根总要回乡啊。” I tried to persuade him from a different angle, "You are a mainland Chinese, and as the saying goes, fallen leaves return to their roots. You should come back to your hometown." 舅舅纠正我:“大陆、台湾都是中国的,台湾也是我的家。” My uncle corrected me, "Both Chinese mainland and Chinese Taiwan are part of China, and Taiwan is also my home." 这是我第一次知道舅舅的观点,他反对“台独”。 It was the first time I learned about my uncle's viewpoint. He was against "Taiwan independence". 我挨着舅舅坐下来,轻声问:“您真的不想回大陆吗?” " I sat down next to him and asked softly, "Do you really not want to go back to Chinese mainland?"

舅舅好久オ说:“哪里是我不想……” My uncle took a long time to speak, "It's not that I don't want to..." 两行浑浊的泪水从他紧闭的眼窝中流淌下来了,他的声音充满了委屈:“是人家不要我啊。” Two muddy tears flowed from his tightly closed eye sockets, and his voice was filled with grievances, "It's that people don't want me." 1999年1月,舅舅大病初愈,第七次来北京。 In January 1999, my uncle came to Beijing for the seventh time after recovering from a serious illness. 我从舅舅脸上读出了岁月的沧桑,他的背微驼,已经不再拥有军人挺拔的形体。但是,我知道,他心里永远有一股坚韧的精神。 I could see the traces of time on my uncle's face, his back slightly hunched, no longer possessing the upright posture of a soldier. However, I knew that he always had a resilient spirit in his heart. 果然,舅舅说:“明年咱俩去贵州,看望你二姥姥。” Sure enough, my uncle said, "Next year, let's go to Guizhou to visit Lao Er." 我说:“您还想为我姥爷迁墓啊?” I said, "Do you still want to relocate my grandfather's grave?" 舅舅用手撑着沙发扶手,慢慢坐下来:“看天意吧。” My uncle supported himself on the armrest of the sofa and slowly sat down, saying, "Let's see what fate has in store." 我一口答应去贵州。当时我没有料到,老天可能不会恩赐给我们这个机会。 I readily agreed to go to Guizhou. At that time, I didn't anticipate that fate might not grant us this opportunity. 舅舅摆手时,我见他的手指空空的,就问:“舅,您的戒指咋没了?” When my uncle waved his hand, I noticed that his finger was empty, so I asked, "Uncle, where is your ring?" 舅舅手上的戒指老是被人要走。我曾经为他购买过ー块上好的玉,舅舅回台北到金店打了一个金配玉的大戒指,戴了 2年就没了。 My uncle's ring was always being taken away by someone. I had once bought him a good piece of jade, and my uncle had it made into a large ring in a gold shop in Taipei. However, it was lost after wearing it for two years. 舅舅说:“让台湾工厂里的小女工抓跑了。” My uncle said, "One of the young female workers in the Taiwanese factory took it." 我埋怨他:“戒指很大呢,小女工要你就给?” I complained to him, "The ring is quite big, and you just gave it to a young worker?" 舅舅一笑:“钱是身外物呀。” My uncle laughed, "Money is just an external possession." 我说:“舅,您下次来,我送您ー块缅甸A翠,咱打ー个更大的戒指,您不能再送人。” I said, "Uncle, next time you come, I'll give you a piece of Burmese jadeite, and we'll make an even bigger ring. You can't give it away anymore." 舅舅笑得很开心:“一言为定。” My uncle laughed happily, "Deal." 我与舅舅早已经像父女ー样生活,每次他进京,我都会给他准备ー笔零用钱。舅舅每次委托我兑换的美元,我都坚持在他离境前塞回他的皮箱。 I have been living with my uncle as if he were my father. Every time he came to Beijing, I would prepare some pocket money for him. Every time my uncle entrusted me to exchange US dollars for him, I insisted on putting them back in his suitcase before he left. 舅舅临走前委托我给他买些礼物,说是所在工厂里有位常姓女工,在他住院期间受老板委托负责护理,不怕脏累,极其友好,要买高级狐皮送给常小姐,还要买ー件上好的皮夹克送给常小姐的先生,常家先生开计程车,用得上。我都照办,到王府井建华皮货店买了上等皮货。 Before leaving, my uncle entrusted me to buy some gifts for him. He said there was a female worker surnamed Chang in the factory who had been entrusted by the boss to take care of him during his hospitalization. She wasn't afraid of dirt or tiredness and was extremely friendly. He wanted to buy a high-quality fox fur for Miss Chang and a fine leather jacket for Miss Chang's husband, Mr. Chang. Mr. Chang worked as a taxi driver and could make use of it. I followed his instructions and bought a top-quality leather goods at the Jianhua Leather Shop in Beijing Wangfujing Street . 那时,我还没有注意这位常姓女工,不知道她已经介入了舅舅的生活。 At that time, I didn't pay much attention to this Miss Chang and didn't realize that she had already involved in my uncle's life. 我和哥哥商量,既然无法劝说舅舅居京,就动员他在北京找一位太太,随他去台湾,帮他料理生活。舅舅考虑了两个月,直到离京オ点头同意。我与哥哥在婚介所为舅舅填表寻偶,大概想去台湾的人不少,没几个月,女方填写的约见单就累积了厚厚一摞。我们锁定了一位50岁的护士长,我用挂号信, 将护士长的照片及详细资料寄给了舅舅。 My brother and I discussed that since we couldn't persuade our uncle to settle in Beijing, we should encourage him to find a wife in Beijing who is willing to accompany him to Taiwan and take care of his daily life. After considering for two months, my uncle finally agreed with a nod. My brother and I filled out a matchmaking form for my uncle at a matchmaking agency. There were quite a few people interested in going to Taiwan, and within a few months, we had accumulated a thick stack of meeting requests filled out by prospective matches. We decided on a 50-year-old head nurse, and I sent her photo and detailed information to my uncle via registered mail. 一封,没有回信,两封,还是没有回信。 One letter, no reply. Two letters, still no reply. 我耐不住,就给舅舅打电话。 I couldn't wait any longer, so I called my uncle. 电话是个年轻女人接的,我吓了一跳,赶紧说:“你好,请问你是哪位?” A young woman answered the phone, which startled me. I quickly said, "Hello, may I ask who you are? 对方很警惕:“你是谁?” The other person was cautious and asked, "Who is this?" 我说:“我是北京的,请让我舅舅听电话。” I said, "I'm from Beijing. Please let me talk to my uncle." 对方说:“他不在。” "He's not here." 我说:“请你转告我舅舅..” I said, "Please let him know that I called." 女人已经挂断了电话。 The woman hung up the phone. 我暗自思忖:她是谁呢?常小姐吗?可口音是北方人啊。 I wondered to myself, who was she? Miss Chang? But her accent sounded like someone from northern China. 晚上,舅舅回电话了。 In the evening, my uncle called back. 我问:“舅舅,您收到我的信没有?” I asked, "Uncle, did you receive my letters?" 舅舅很惊讶:“没有啊!” My uncle was surprised and said, "No!" 我说:“是挂号信呀。” I said, "They were sent by registered mail." 舅舅在北京的一次家庭聚会上说过,他有个单独信箱,那信箱里存着他的希望,他每天都要开锁看信。说完,他还乐呵呵地添了一句:“谁写信多,我回来有奖励呀。”那时,我们都笑起来了。 My uncle had mentioned at a family gathering in Beijing that he had a separate mailbox where he kept his hopes, and he would unlock it every day to read the letters. After saying that, he happily added, "I'll have a reward for whoever sends me the most letters when I come back." We all laughed at that time. 电话那头,舅舅没吭声。 On the other end of the phone, my uncle remained silent. 我明白是怎么回事了。怕舅舅为难,我岔开话题:“舅啊,我当教授了,批文下来啦。” I understood what was going on. Afraid of causing difficulties for my uncle, I changed the subject and said, "Uncle, I've become a professor. The approval dcame through." 这个原来带给过我们无比快乐的话题,此刻如同直落进棉花垛里,没有激起任何回响。 This topic that had once brought us immense joy now fell into a pile of cotton, without eliciting any response. “舅啊,你有事要告诉我? ”我问。 "Uncle, is there something you want to tell me?" I asked. 舅舅果然说了:“今天接你电话的人叫樊月,山东人,她嫁给了我的战友,战友上个月死了 ,她没地方住,坚持要住在我这里,我怎么撵她她都不走,我又不能推操拉拽,只好自己搬到外面住。你给我打电话时我就在别人家。” As expected, my uncle spoke, "The person who answered your call today is Fan Yue, a woman from Shandong. She married my comrade-in-arms, who passed away last month. She has nowhere to stay and insists on living with me. No matter how I try to drive her away, she won't leave. I can't push or drag her, so I had to move out and find a place to stay. When you called me, I was at someone else's house." 又停了停,舅舅说:“樊月不走,一定要嫁给我,她从家里追到家外,见人就说我收了她,很烦人。她比你都小,我怎么能娶她?她成天叨叨的,我不同意不成。” He paused for a moment and continued, "Fan Yue won't leave. She insists on marrying me. She followed me from my home to outside, telling everyone that I accepted her. It's annoying. She's younger than you, how can I marry her? She nags all the time, and I can't agree to it." 我的心倏地沉下,沉到了没有回声的深渊。 My heart sank abruptly, sinking into an abyss without echoes. 我只好问:“樊月品行怎么样?” I had no choice but to ask, "What is Fan Yue's character like?" 舅舅:“她对我倒是蛮好的,给我换着花样做饭,把屋子收拾得亮堂堂的。咳, 你不知道我这个屋原来有多乱!她还说要给我养老送终,不嫁我不离开台湾……” My uncle replied, "She's pretty good to me, cooks different dishes for me, and keeps the house clean and bright. Oh, you don't know how messy my place was before! She even says she wants to take care of me in my old age. If I don't marry her, she won't leave Taiwan..." 我的舅舅啊,您那种贯彻终生的成熟的清醒,到哪里去了? Oh, my uncle, where has your mature and clear-minded judgment gone? 我握着话筒,说着自知软弱无力的话:“您可要考虑好呀,舅！” I held the phone, uttering words that I knew were weak and powerless, "Uncle, you really need to consider it carefully!" 舅舅倒是胸有成竹:“你放心好了,按婚姻政策,我得回大陆登记。那时先到北京, 让你妈和你看看,你们批准了再结婚,行不?” Uncle seemed confident, saying, "Don't worry. According to marriage policies, I have to register in Chinese mainland. I'll go to Beijing first at that time and let your mother and you take a look. If you approve, then we can get married, alright?" 说到最后,他竟然笑起来。我能想象他眯缝着笑眼的样子。 At the end, he even laughed. I could imagine his smiling eyes squinting. 舅舅的心灵是不设防的心灵,他的善良永远如一泓清泉,明澈澈的。 My uncle's heart was an unguarded one, his kindness forever like a clear spring, transparent and pure 遗留的事情 Things after death 当舅舅从感情上已经接受樊月的时候,我就知道,他涉进了一条不归的河,他绝没有机会再从河的另ー头返回。可是我无法终止他的行为。 When my uncle had already accepted Fan Yue emotionally, I knew that he had entered a river from which there was no return. He would never have a chance to come back from the other side of the river. But I couldn't stop his actions. 舅舅不再给我们写信,甚至不再打电话。 Uncle no longer wrote us letters, nor did he call anymore. 1998年末,舅舅患直肠癌,做了切除手术。他不会再来北京,我原希望能够跟他在北京长谈的梦想算是破灭了。 At the end of 1998, my uncle was diagnosed with rectal cancer and underwent surgery. He wouldn't come to Beijing anymore, and my dream of having a long conversation with him in Beijing was shattered. 我不知道舅舅怎么会得了那种积劳积怨方易形成的气滞肠寒无法善终的绝症。他知足常乐、豁达开朗、淡然处世、与人无争,老天怎么会把这场灭顶之灾抛给他呢? I didn't know how my uncle ended up with such a terminal illness, a culmination of accumulated grievances and unresolved issues in his body. He was content, optimistic, indifferent to worldly matters, and never sought conflict. How could fate throw such a devastating calamity upon him? 1999年春节,我拨通了舅舅的电话。 During the Chinese New Year in 1999, I dialed my uncle's number. 舅舅ー听到我的声音就很感动,他说,正在做化疗,情况不是很好;他已经把遗产分配好了,让我转告母亲,也要我放心。我知道,他是暗示我,给我母亲与我都留够了钱。 Uncle was touched to hear my voice. He said he was undergoing chemotherapy and his condition wasn't good. He had already arranged his inheritance and asked me to inform my mother, assuring me not to worry. I knew he was hinting that he had set aside enough money for both my mother and me. 我的眼泪流下来,这时候怎么能谈遗产呢? Tears streamed down my face. How could we talk about inheritance at a time like this? 舅舅说:我知道你想来照顾我,按规定,除了你母亲,你们谁也不能来台湾,可是你母亲年近八旬,难以承受舟车之劳了。 Uncle said, "I know you want to come and take care of me, but according to regulations, except for your mother, none of you can come to Taiwan. However, your mother is almost eighty years old and it would be difficult for her to endure the hardships of the journey." 我想,当时樊月一定不在舅舅身边,因为舅舅为了让我高兴,还唱起了《卷席筒》,在北京家里时,他一高兴,就把录像带推进录像机里,用河南话说上一声:看看《卷席筒》! I thought at that moment Fan Yue must not have been by my uncle's side because, to make me happy, he even started singing "Juǎn Xí Tǒng" (a popular song). When he was at home in Beijing, whenever he felt joyful, he would put a videotape into the VCR and exclaim in his Henan dialect, "Let's watch 'Juǎn Xí Tǒng'!" 舅舅放下电话的时候,心情一定是沉重的,因为第二天,远在澳洲的大姐就给我打来了电话。舅舅要大姐转告我,他已经与樊月结婚,因无法向我启齿,没敢在电话里告诉我。 When my uncle hung up the phone, he must have been feeling heavy-hearted because the next day, my eldest sister, who was far away in Australia, called me. Uncle wanted my sister to tell me that he had already married Fan Yue. He couldn't bring himself to tell me over the phone. 后来,从台湾人嘴里,从大姐到台湾户证所查阅的户籍资料里,我知道了事情的大致面貌: Later, from the mouths of Taiwanese people and the household registration information searched by my eldest sister at the Taiwanese household registration office, I learned the general outline of the situation: 樊月,山东某市郊区女工,相貌姣好,在大陆死了丈夫后,嫁给台湾老兵;老兵死后,她在限期离台的最后日子里,ー举迁进舅舅住处,展开女人的全面攻势,要求嫁给舅舅;当舅舅处于癌症化疗阶段时,她不顾医生再三阻拦,坚持偕舅舅从台湾飞到香港,后经罗湖口岸到广州,再去往山东。 Fan Yue, a female worker from the outskirts of a city in Shandong Province, was a beautiful woman. After her husband died in Chinese mainland, she married an old Taiwanese veteran. After the veteran passed away, in the final days before the deadline for her to leave Taiwan, she forcibly moved into my uncle's residence and launched a full-scale emotional assault as a woman, demanding to marry my uncle. During the period when my uncle was undergoing chemotherapy, despite the doctors' repeated objections, she insisted on accompanying my uncle from Taiwan to Hong Kong, then crossing the Luohu Port to Guangzhou and finally heading to Shandong. 1999年1月15日,在北方严寒彻骨的季节里,在她老家与舅舅完成婚姻登记手续,并举办婚礼,大碗喝酒吃肉,之后オ放舅舅独自返回台湾。按照台湾规定,新婚妻子要在大陆等待,直到批准方可入台。 On January 15, 1999, in the bone-chilling cold of the northern season, in her hometown, she completed the marriage registration and held a wedding ceremony with my uncle. They drank heavily and ate meat from large bowls. Afterward, my uncle could be allowed to return to Taiwan alone. According to Taiwanese regulations, the newlywed wife had to wait in Chinese mainland until approval was granted for her to enter Taiwan. 就是那次的寒冷与酒宴,整个摧毁了舅舅正在恢复的身体机能,全面激活了经过化疗本已被抑制的癌细胞。那一次山东之行,樊月稳稳地把持局面,不准舅舅赴京,不准通知北京任何亲人,不准北京亲人参加婚礼,甚至不准舅舅触摸电话机。 It was the cold trip and the feast that completely destroyed my uncle's recovering physical functions, fully activating the cancer cells that had been suppressed by chemotherapy. During that trip to Shandong, Fan Yue firmly took control of the situation. She didn't allow my uncle to go to Beijing, inform any relatives in Beijing, or let Beijing relatives attend the wedding. She even prohibited my uncle from touching the telephone. 舅舅到底是舅舅,他固守了自己行为的最后防线。他坚持将自己终生所有钱款,分成几个存折,除樊月外,留给我母亲的存款是!00万台币,并将分配结果告知常小姐和几个战友。 But my uncle was still my uncle. He held on to the last defense line of his own actions. He insisted on dividing all his money into several bank books. Apart from Fan Yue, he left a deposit of 1 million Taiwanese dollars for my mother. He informed Miss Chang and several comrades about the distribution results. 这就是舅舅最后告诉我的都“分配好了”。当然,善良的舅舅不会想到,他留给我们的存款,一旦通过樊月之手,就根本到不了我们手里。樊月凭借着信誓旦旦的“转交”保证,到底将几个存折都拢在了自己手里。 That's what my uncle told me last, that "everything has been distributed." Of course, kind-hearted as he was, my uncle couldn't have imagined that once the money passed through Fan Yue's hands, it would never reach us. Fan Yue, with her solemn promise of "handing it over," had ultimately kept all the bank books in her possession. 最善良者也许是最不幸者。不设防的舅舅,良心安歇了。他没有想到欺骗,特别是来自枕边女人的欺骗。 The kindest person is perhaps the most unfortunate. My uncle, who didn't have any defenses, had his conscience at rest. He didn't anticipate deception, especially deception from the woman lying next to him. 1999年5月1日,我给舅舅住宅打电话,没人接听。 On May 1, 1999, I called my uncle's residence, but no one answered. 我顿感不祥,急拨给舅舅工厂的常小姐。常大叫:“你舅舅过世了,4月30 日!”我心一沉,紧问:“舅舅过世时你在身边吗? ”常答:“没有,他过世后我只看望了一次,医院就不许我去了!”停了停,她补充道,“洪州先生给你母亲留了 100 万！” 我放下电话,放声大哭！ I felt a sense of foreboding and urgently called Miss Chang from my uncle's factory. She shouted, "Your uncle passed away on April 30th!" My heart sank, and asked anxiously, "Were you with him when he passed away?" Chang replied, "No, after he passed away, I only visited him once, and then the hospital didn't allow me to go anymore!" After a pause, she added, "Mr. Hongzhou left 1 million for your mother!"I hung up the phone and burst into tears! 哭后,我不能相信,要自己证实。现在我的电话本上一片红色笔迹,就是那时抓起一支正在阅卷打分的红笔书写的。 After crying, I couldn't believe it. I had to confirm it myself. Now my phone book is filled with red ink, written with a red pen I grabbed while grading exam papers. 我打给台湾荣民总医院:“我是北京,请转接太平间！” I called the Taipei Veterans General Hospital and said, "I'm from Beijing, please transfer me to the mortuary!" 我对太平间说:“我是北京,请查ー下是否有位叫洪洲的先生死于4月30日?” 那边有了回复:“是的,一位叫洪洲的先生死于4月30日早晨。” I asked the mortuary, "I'm from Beijing, please check if there was a Mr. Hongzhou who died on April 30th?" They replied, "Yes, a Mr. Hongzhou passed away on the morning of April 30th." 我的眼泪再度涌流。 Tears streamed down my face again. 我又给泌尿科打电话:“我是北京,请查ー下,洪洲先生是不是死于直肠癌?” I called the urology department and said, "I'm from Beijing, please check if Mr. Hongzhou died of rectal cancer?" 回复:“不,不是。” The reply came, "No, he didn't." 我再给心血管科打电话:“我是北京,请查ー下,洪洲先生是不是死于心梗?” I called the cardiology department and said, "I'm from Beijing, please check if Mr. Hongzhou died of a heart attack?" 回复:“请找病房,洪洲先生住A191病房23床。” The reply came, "Please contact the ward. Mr. Hongzhou was in Ward A191, Bed 23." 我打给病房:“我是北京,我是病人家属。请找合作病房主任,我想查询A191 房23床病人洪洲的死亡原因。“ I called the ward and said, "I'm from Beijing, I'm a family member of the patient. Please find the head of the cooperating ward. I want to inquire about the cause of death of Mr. Hongzhou in Room A191, Bed 23." 回复:“病人死于心力衰竭与直肠癌并发症。” The reply came, "The patient died of heart failure and complications from rectal cancer." 据知,舅舅临终前痛苦万分,他始终记得樊月要给他养老送终的承诺,因此他的叨念一遍比一遍凄凉:樊月怎么还不来? It is known that my uncle suffered immense pain before his death. He always remembered Fan Yue's promise to take care of him in his old age, so his lamentations became more and more desolate: Why hasn't Fan Yue come yet? 据负责老兵事宜的台湾退伍会皇辅导员介绍,舅舅最后的历程应该是: According to the counselor Huang from the Taiwanese Veterans Association in charge of veterans' affairs, my uncle's final journey should be as follows: 1999年1月20日,舅舅自山东独自返回台湾。 On January 20, 1999, my uncle returned to Taiwan alone from Shandong. 1999年4月15日,舅舅因直肠癌复发,住进台湾荣民总医院。此时直肠癌已达四期,医生只好切除部分直肠,做了人工肛门,外接粪袋。 On April 15, 1999, my uncle was admitted to the Taipei Veterans General Hospital due to a recurrence of rectal cancer. By this time, the cancer had reached stage four, and the doctors had to remove a part of the rectum and create an artificial anus with an external fecal bag. 1999年4月30日凌晨,舅舅心力衰竭,肌体全面崩溃。临终前他不再讲任何话。 In the early morning of April 30, 1999, my uncle suffered heart failure, and his body completely collapsed. He no longer spoke before his death. 1999年4月30日,台湾退伍会迅速封闭舅舅的新庄住宅,查看票据,发现舅舅存折里仅剩2万元台币。所有大额存款,于1999年1月初樊月返山东前被悉数取出。退伍会还惊讶地发现,新庄住宅已经过户给上面提到的女工常小姐! On April 30, 1999, the Taiwanese Veterans Association quickly sealed my uncle's residence in Xinzhuang and checked the bills. They found that there were only 20,000 Taiwanese dollars left in his bank books. All the large deposits had been withdrawn before Fan Yue returned to Shandong in early January 1999. The association was also surprised to discover that the ownership of the Xinzhuang residence had been transferred to the female worker mentioned earlier, Miss Chang! 皇辅导员在电话里对我说:我们为房产事研究过,如果新庄住宅是最近过户的,我们会保护洪洲先生的利益,以洪洲病重神志不清为由,退伍会向有关方面申请过户无效,可是ー查底档,发现新庄住宅已经在2年前就过户给了常小姐! The counselor from the Veterans Association said to me over the phone, "We have researched the property matter. If the transfer of ownership of the Xinzhuang residence is recent, we will protect Mr. Hongzhou's interests. We can apply to invalidate the transfer on the grounds that Mr. Hongzhou was seriously ill and mentally unstable. However, upon checking the records, we found that the Xinzhuang residence had already been transferred to Miss Chang two years ago!" 明白了。樊月在2年前,她上一位丈夫还在世时,就为征服舅舅做努力了,这一点在她后来与我通电话时得到了证明。据知,常小姐在发现樊月的攻势后,捷足先登,竟然软磨硬泡地以极少的台币购得了新庄住宅的产权,不过允许舅舅长期居住在这套新宅。我与皇辅导员同样不理解,舅舅为什么能够突破自我保护的底线, 将正居住着的房产转让给常小姐呢?常小姐怎样说动了舅舅?与舅舅有着怎样的约定?这个谜底,在活着的人中,恐怕只有常小姐自己清楚。 I understand now. Fan Yue made efforts to conquer my uncle even when her previous husband was still alive, as I later confirmed in a phone call with her. It is known that after Miss Chang discovered Fan Yue's intentions, she acted swiftly and managed to acquire the ownership of the Xinzhuang residence for a minimal amount of money. However, she allowed my uncle to continue living in the house. Counselor Huang and I couldn't comprehend why my uncle would surpass his self-protective boundaries and transfer the property to Miss Chang. How did she persuade my uncle? What kind of agreement did they have? Only Miss Chang herself knows the answer to this puzzle. 退伍会放弃了对新庄住宅产权的查证,立即赶赴银行验看账目,发现舅舅账目上,除了上面说到的2万元台币外,还有利息10万元台币未及动用。哦,舅舅到底为自己留存了一笔可能被樊月忽略的利息款! The Veterans Association gave up on verifying the ownership of the Xinzhuang residence and immediately went to the bank to inspect the accounts. They discovered that besides the mentioned 20,000 Taiwanese dollars, there was an additional 100,000 Taiwanese dollars in interest that my uncle had not utilized. Ah, my uncle had left himself a sum of interest that Fan Yue might have overlooked! 皇辅导员说:“正是洪洲先生这两笔钱加上当月退休金,退伍会才能给舅舅办ー个比较体面的葬礼。” Counselor Huang said, "It is precisely because of these two amounts, combined with the monthly pension, that the Veterans Association can arrange a relatively decent funeral for your uncle." 1999年5月5日,身着ー袭黑色衣裤的樊月抵达台湾。 On May 5, 1999, Fan Yue arrived in Taiwan, dressed in black attire. 1999年5月12日,樊月以遗孀名义参加了我舅舅的追思会。面对来自台湾四面八方的老兵,披着黑纱的樊月不停跪拜,不停鞠躬,也不停地收取着礼金。她漂亮的脸上流着汗,神色倦怠,人们都说她可怜。 On May 12, 1999, Fan Yue attended my uncle's memorial service in the name of his widow. Facing veterans from all over Taiwan, Fan Yue, draped in a black veil, continuously knelt, bowed, and accepted monetary gifts. Sweat streamed down her beautiful face, and she appeared fatigued. People pitied her. 追思会很隆重,几十位战友前来告别,花篮花环连成一片。我姑姑姑父代表我们全家参加追思会,也送给了樊月ー笔不薄的礼金。 The memorial service was grand, with dozens of comrades bidding farewell, and flower baskets and garlands forming a sea of flowers. My aunt and uncle attended the memorial service on behalf of our entire family and also presented Fan Yue with a generous amount of money. 舅舅被安葬于台北县荣民墓地,樊月没有接受骨灰,委托退伍会代为保管。 My uncle was laid to rest at the Taipei County Veterans Cemetery, and Fan Yue did not accept his ashes. Instead, she entrusted the Veterans Association to take care of them. 2006年,我们为姥爷、姥姥和舅舅在北京建了墓,这是ー块很大的多穴墓地。我们希望,舅舅永远结束颠沛流离的日子,不再遭遇童年的绑架、青年的抓壮丁、壮年的妻离子散,不再受到贪财人的算计,不再孤独厮守。他的生命将得以轮回,就像小时候那样,又安睡在我姥爷、姥姥身边。 In 2006, we built a large multi-grave cemetery in Beijing for my grandfather, grandmother, and uncle. We hoped that my uncle would forever put an end to his tumultuous life, no longer experiencing the kidnappings of his childhood, the conscription of his youth, the separation from his family in his prime years, and no longer being manipulated by greedy individuals. He would no longer be lonely and would find solace. His life would come full circle, just like when he peacefully slept by the side of my grandparents in his childhood. 现在,我的首饰盒里躺着ー块碧绿鲜亮的缅甸A翠,也许有一天,我们能把舅舅的骨灰迎回来,那时,我就可以把这块绿翠送给舅舅了。 Now, lying in my jewelry box, is a vivid and bright green Burmese jadeite. Perhaps one day, we can bring back my uncle's ashes, and at that time, I can present this green jadeite to him. 舅舅,中国的一位普通人。没有人知道他出生于何省何县,没有人知道他生身父母的姓名、籍贯; 他在河南人看来是台湾人,他在台湾人看来是大陆人,他在北京警方被认为是台湾同胞,他在河南众亲友以及台湾柳太太、常小姐眼里是拥有财富的单身男人,他在妻子樊月眼里是个能够带来户籍与金钱的台湾丈夫。 My uncle, an ordinary person in China. No one knows which province and county he was born in or the names or hometowns of his biological parents. To the people in Henan, he was considered Taiwanese; to the people in Taiwan, he was seen as a mainlander ; to the Beijing police, he was regarded as a compatriot from Taiwan; to his relatives and friends in Henan and to Mrs. Liu and Miss Chang in Taiwan, he was a financially well-off single man. To his wife, Fan Yue, he was a Taiwanese husband who could bring her household registration and money. 这关乎ー个哲学命题一他是谁?从哪里来? This raises a philosophical question: Who is he? Where does he come from? 舅舅以长达68年的时间,不懈地寻找自己的家。这是灵魂对自己生命源头的膜拜,是生命对精神初始地的回归。不论这ー辈子有无荣华富贵,有无官位俸禄, 有无困顿屈辱,甚至有无肉体的生命形态,都不打紧,那种膜拜与回归正是中国化的人生归宿,它将无可阻挡地奔向安身立命之所,就仿佛是在完成前生的约定。 For 68 years, my uncle tirelessly searched for his own home. It was the homage of his soul to the origin of his life, the return of his spirit to its initial place. Regardless of whether he had wealth, official positions, or prestige in this lifetime, or whether he experienced hardships, humiliations, or even changes in his physical form, it doesn't matter. That homage and return are the true destination of a Chinese-style life. They will inevitably strive towards finding a place to settle down, as if fulfilling a predestined agreement from a previous life. 可是,当那终生约定不复存在的时刻,当那遥远的家园轰然坍塌的时刻,舅舅应该对谁膜拜?朝哪里回归? However, when that lifelong agreement no longer exists, when that distant homeland collapses, who should my uncle pay homage to? Where should he return to? 现在,围绕舅舅涌动过的ー层涟漪已经复归平静。可是,还有多少像舅舅ー样归心似箭的台湾老兵找不到回家的路?还有多少像樊月那样在法律许可范围内以结婚名义堵截老兵返乡的人?还有怎样厚重的国民劣根元素,那些与他沾亲或不沾亲的乡友故人,打压着与舅舅ー样的老兵? Now, the ripples that once surrounded my uncle have returned to calm. But how many Taiwan veterans, who are eager to return home, are still unable to find their way? How many people, like Fan Yue, legally use marriage as a means to block veterans from returning to their hometowns? How bad are the elements of national inferiority that oppress veterans like my uncle, whether they have connections with him or not? 历史的书记官,从不记录小人物徒劳的牺牲。可是,我的舅,天底下有着与我舅相同命运的或生或死的舅舅们啊,你们是否打算宽恕这个民族对你们牺牲的遗忘? 哦,宽恕会留下无奈和辛酸;可不宽恕,你们、我们、大家,这个民族,还应该做些什么呢? The scribe of history never records the futile sacrifices of ordinary people. But my uncle, and all the uncles out there who share the same fate, whether living or deceased, will you forgive this nation's forgetting of the sacrifices you made?

Oh, forgiveness will leave behind helplessness and bitterness. But if we don't forgive, what else should you, us, everyone, and this nation do?

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-Please translate from Chinese to English and use the [[Report_CN_EN#List_of_Common_Terms]]
+Please translate from Chinese to English and use the [[Report_CN_EN#List_of_Common_Terms]]. Also, you can jump back to the course homepage here: [[Chinese_Classics_Translation_Spring_2023]]
-There is a pdf file of 1078 pages to be translated.
 =Contents=
-=Suggestion for this semester's translation exercise=
 . Translator 胡欣怡 Hu Xinyi《岭南万户皆春色》[[Lingnan Englisch]] Proofreader: 陈彦希 Chen Yanxi (translated until here: https://bou.de/u/wiki/Lingnan_Englisch#.E6.9D.8E.E6.A2.93.E7.8E.89_Li_Ziyu), rest: 76000 characters
 . Translator: 陈彦希 Chen Yanxi《金银潭抗疫纪事》[[Goldbank Englisch]] Proofreader: 李心田 Li Xintian (currently being translated by professionals), 120000 characters
-. Translator: 李心田 Li Xintian《金银潭抗疫纪事》[[Goldbank Englisch]] Proofreader: 廖璐佳 Liao Lujia (currently being translated by professionals), 120000 characters
+. Translator: 李心田 Li Xintian [[Report_CN_EN_01]] Proofreader: 廖璐佳 Liao Lujia (currently being translated by professionals), 120000 characters
+. Translator: 廖璐佳 Liao Lujia [[Report_CN_EN_02]] Proofreader: 谢佳玉 Xie Jiayu 《大记录》 1087 pp., 1176110 characters
+. Translator: 谢佳玉 Xie Jiayu [[Report_CN_EN_03]] Proofreader: 张玉燕 Zhang Yuyan 《大记录》 1087 pp., 1176110 characters
+. Translator: 张玉燕 Zhang Yuyan [[Report_CN_EN_04]] Proofreader: 周晓兰 Zhou Xiaolan《大记录》 1087 pp., 1176110 characters
+. Translator: 周晓兰 Zhou Xiaolan [[Report_CN_EN_05]] Proofreader: 陈婧 Chen Jing《大记录》 1087 pp., 1176110 characters
+. Translator: 陈婧 Chen Jing [[Report_CN_EN_06]] Proofreader: 梁昕璐 Liang Xinlu《大记录》 1087 pp., 1176110 characters
+. Translator: 梁昕璐 Liang Xinlu [[Report_CN_EN_07]] Proofreader: 张文琦 Zhang Wenqi《大记录》 1087 pp., 1176110 characters
+. Translator: 张文琦 Zhang Wenqi [[Report_CN_EN_08]] Proofreader: 付静 Fu Jing《大记录》 1087 pp., 1176110 characters
+. Translator: 付静 Fu Jing [[Report_CN_EN_09]] Proofreader: 夏玲珑 Xia Linglong《大记录》 1087 pp., 1176110 characters
+. Translator: 夏玲珑 Xia Linglong [[Report_CN_EN_10]] Proofreader: 李彦 Li Yan《大记录》 1087 pp., 1176110 characters
+. Translator: 李彦 Li Yan [[Report_CN_EN_11]] Proofreader: 刘雨晴 Liu Yuqing《大记录》 1087 pp., 1176110 characters
+. Translator: 刘雨晴 Liu Yuqing [[Report_CN_EN_12]] Proofreader: 王芳玲 Wang Fanglin《大记录》 1087 pp., 1176110 characters
+. Translator: 王芳玲 Wang Fanglin [[Report_CN_EN_13]] Proofreader: 胡欣怡 Hu Xinyi《大记录》 1087 pp., 1176110 characters
+=Liu Yuqing=
+==卷四：1.目录==
+卷ー
+序李炳银/001
+哥德巴赫猜想 徐 迟/001
+船长柯岩/021
+痴情理由/040
+中国姑娘鲁光/ 086
+三门李逸闻乔迈Z 138
+胡杨泪孟晓云/ 150
+原野在呼唤 王兆军/ 163
+热血男儿李士非/ 183
+卷二
+中国农民大趋势（节选）李延国/219
+理论狂人 陈祖芬/261
+神圣忧思录 张 敏/283
+强国梦（节选）赵瑜/315
+伐木者,醒来!（节选）徐 刚Z358
+步鑫生现象的反思 周嘉俊Z397
+昆山之路杨守松/ 425
+飞向太空港（节选）李鸣生/465
+东方风来满眼春 陈锡添/526
+好梦将圆时 江永红/539
+智慧风暴（节选）王宏甲/573
+卷四
+万:400万的牵挂 张雅文/ 625
+香港回归祖国10周年回眸 长 江/ 670
+木棉花开李春雷/695
+休息的革命（缩写本）王宏甲 刘 建/716
+闪着泪光的事业 蒋 巍/758
+让百姓做主朱晓军李英/ 777
+难回故里郭冬Z 817
+卷五
+国家何建明/855
+蛟龙探海（节选）许 晨/ 915
+袁隆平的世界（节选）陈启文/950
+“神舟”天路 兰宁远/ 1011
+智慧之翼李青松/ 1044
+附录 改革开放四十年优秀报告文学存目Z 1060
+==卷四：2.400万的牵挂==
+万:400万的牵挂
+million cardiovascular patients to be saved
+高官厚禄拴不住的心灵
+A soul that cannot be restrained by high position and wealth.
+张雅文
+Zhang Yawen
+亲爱的读者,在我上手术台之前,我要把我所釆访、所亲历的一切告诉你们,希望中国几百万像我一样徘徊于生命边缘的心脏病同胞能认识他-----著名心外科专家刘晓程。
+愿上帝赐我神来之笔,否则我将有愧于我的主人公,有愧于千千万万亟待拯救的生命,也有愧于我这颗生死未卜的心。
+—作者题记
+Dear readers,
+Before I go into surgery, I want to share with you all that I have interviewed and experienced, in the hope that millions of Chinese people like me, who are on the brink of death, struggling with heart disease, can get to know him - the renowned cardiothoracic surgery expert, Liu Xiaocheng.
+May God grant me the gift of God, otherwise I will feel sorry for my protagonist, and for the millions of lives that urgently need to be saved, and for my own heart that is in great danger.
+Author's Preface
+序 Preface
+读者朋友,当你看到这份来自国务院的数据报告,一定会感到振聋发曠,触目惊心。
+“心血管病是人类健康和生命的主要杀手之一。我国现有400多万心血管病人等待手术,而全国每年仅能完成4万多例。泰达国际心血管病医院的建成,将为改善我国心血管的治疗做出贡献,给广大心血管病患者带来福音。”（摘自吴仪发给泰达国际心血管病医院开业典礼的贺词）
+My dear readers, when you read this report from the State Council, you will surely feel shocked and dismayed.
+"Cardiovascular disease is one of the major killers of health and life. Currently,there are more than 4 million cardiovascular patients waiting for surgery in China, and only 40,000 operations can be performed each year nationwide. The completion of TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH) will contribute to the improvement of cardiovascular treatment in China and bring good news to the majority of cardiovascular patients." (From Wu Yifa's congratulatory message  to the opening ceremony of TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH).
+另据报道:中国每天有1万多人死于心脑血管、癌症等疾病。北京平均每小时就有一人死于心血管疾病。
+It is also reported that more than 10,000 people in China die from  cardiovascular, cerebrovascular diseases, cancer and other diseases every day. On average, one person dies of cardiovascular disease every hour in Beijing.
+中国现有400多万需要手术的心脏病人,但得到手术的比例仅为1% ,剩下那几百万心脏病患者将揣着“破碎”的心,日夜盼望着白衣天使能拯救他们的生命。 但是,或因昂贵的医疗费用,或因排不上号住不上院,或因庸医的误诊,多少病人苦 苦等了三年五年,甚至十年八年,从而错过了最佳治疗时间,过早地结束了本该延 续几十年的生命。而排不上号住不上院、交不起医疗费的,多是那些没职没权没钱 没关系的普通百姓,尤其苦了那些贫苦农民和下岗职工。
+There are more than 4 million heart disease patients in China who need surgery, but only 1% of them got operated, leaving millions of heart disease patients with "broken" hearts, hoping day and night for doctors to save their lives. However, due to the high cost of medical treatment, inability to get hospitalized, or misdiagnosis by incompetent doctors, many patients have suffered for three or five years, or even eight to ten years, thus missing the best time for treatment and ending their lives prematurely. And those who are unable to get hospitalized or can’t afford afford medical bills are mostly ordinary people with no job, no power and no money, especially the poor farmers and laid-off workers who are particularly struggling.
+ 这种严重的供需失衡现象,深深地触动了一位医生的良知,他因此而做出的ー 次次惊人之举,像地震一般震撼着中外医疗界,震撼着千百万亟待拯救的生命,也 震撼着中国亟待改革的医疗体制一
+The severe imbalance between supply and demand deeply touched the conscience of a doctor, and as a result, his grand gestures have shocked the domestic and foreign medical community and the millions of lives that urgently need saving, and also shaken China's healthcare system to be reformed .
+面对ー个个乞求的生命,他不知该把这张生死牌发给谁
+贝多芬说:“我要扼住命运的咽喉,它绝不能使我完全屈服!噢,能把生命活上千百次该有多美!”
+生命是美好的,但它属于人只有一次,任何人都扼不住命运的咽喉。
+In the face of countless patients begging him to save their lives, he got lost. He don’t want to give up on any patient but he can’t save them all.
+Beethoven once said: "I will take fate by the throat; it shall not wholly overcome me. Oh, it is so beautiful to live — to live a thousand times!"
+Life is beautiful, but it belongs to a person only once, and no one can take fate by the throat.
+年5月,春天带着不可抗拒的活力,从遥远的天际涌来,冲破坚硬的寒冷, 把鲜活的生命撒向枯黄的世界。饱尝了严冬的寒冷与沙尘的北京人,踏着春色,漫 步在华灯初放的长安街上,欣赏着绚丽多姿的夜景,享受着春天的馈赠。但在全国 唯ーー家心血管病专科医院一北京阜外医院ー间门诊室里,却上演着司空见惯 而又令人痛心的一幕。一位中等身材、精明干练、两眼蓄满善良与睿智的中年医 生,被一群走投无路的心脏病患者及家属团团围住,一直下不了班。他就是两年前 从澳大利亚留学归来、38岁的主治医师刘晓程。
+In May 1987, spring came with irresistible vitality from the distant horizon, breaking through the hard cold and bringing vivid life into the dead yellow land. After experiencing the cold of the severe winter and sandstorms in Beijing, people went out and strolled along Chang'an Avenue in the springtime to admire the beautiful and colorful night scene, and enjoy the gifts from spring. However, in the outpatient clinic of the only specialized cardiovascular hospital in China, Fuwai Hospital, a common yet heartbreaking scene is unfolding. A middle-aged doctor of average build, astute and capable, with eyes full of kindness and wisdom, is surrounded by a group of desperate heart disease patients and their family members, unable to leave work. He is Dr. Liu Xiaocheng, a 38-year-old attending physician who just returned two years ago after finishing his overseas study in Australia.
+“刘大夫,听说你是佳木斯人,俺是鹤岗煤矿的,咱们是老乡呢。”ー个又黑又瘦的下井汉子怀抱3岁的孩子,操着山东口音,跟刘晓程一个劲儿地套着近乎,“刘大夫,求你看在老乡的面上救救俺老婆,俺们再也等不起了。她都快不行了！刘大 夫……”汉子说不下去了,低头呜咽起来。他身边瘦弱的女人用胳膊肘碰碰他,嗫 嚅道:“要不俺不治了,俺回家。”却遭到汉子的一声呵斥:“你不治就得死！你死了 俺的两个娃咋办?呜呜……”下井汉子挖煤塌方被砸断一条腿都不曾掉过泪,现在却被老婆的病急得放声大哭。他ー哭,女人和孩子也跟着哭起来。
+"Dr. Liu, I heard you're from Jiamusi. I'm from the Hegang . We're fellow townspeople," said a thin, dark-skinned man holding his 3-year-old child and speaking in a Shandong accent, as he was buttering up Liu Xiaocheng, "Dr. Liu, please save my wife given that we’re from the same town. We can't wait any longer. She's dying ! Dr. Liu, please..." The man suddenly stopped and lowered his head, crying. Beside him, his frail wife nudged him with her elbow and said in a weak voice, "Why not we just giving up treating and go home?" But she was met with a rebuke from the man, "If you die, what will happen to our two children? " The coal miner had never shed a tear even when his leg was broken in a coal mining accident, but now he cried out loud because of his wife’s illness. As he cried, his wife and child also began to cry.
+刘晓程刚想安慰那汉子几句,却被ー个穿着破旧、满脸沧桑的中年农民打断了。
+“刘大夫,俺把房子都卖了,还借了一万多元钱。俺爷儿俩从黑龙江跑北京两趟了,这次再手术不上,俺们全家就活不下去了！求你看在家乡人的面上救救俺儿子吧,他オ14岁。俺爷儿俩给你下跪了！”
+Liu Xiaocheng had just wanted to comfort the man, but was interrupted by a middle-aged farmer in shabby clothes and with a weathered face "Doctor Liu, I've sold my house and borrowed over ten thousand yuan. We have traveled to Beijing twice from Heilongjiang. If my son don't have the surgery this time, our whole family weren’t going to live ! Please, for the sake of our hometown, save my 14-year-old son. My son and I fall on our knees to beg you!"
+“别别！千万别……”刘晓程急忙上前制止,但晚了,一老ー小“扑通”一声跪在了他面前。
+瘦得像铅笔杆似的少年瞪着满含泪水的大眼睛,可怜兮兮地望着刘晓程。父亲却发出ー阵令人心碎的哭号:“刘大夫,求你救救俺儿子吧！救救俺全家吧！呜 呜……"
+"No,no! Please don't..." Liu Xiaocheng hurriedly stepped forward to stop him, but it was too late. The farmer and his son fell on their knees in front of him. The skinny teenager, stared at Liu Xiaocheng with tearful eyes, looking pitiful. The wails of the father was heartbreaking, "Dr. Liu, please save my son! Save my whole family! Please..."
+望着这对父子,望着这ー张张求生的面孔,刘晓程的眼睛湿润了,ー种深深的疚痛与同情,紧紧地攫住了他那颗虽然每天被病人揉搓却依然慈悲的心。他知道, 这些普通老百姓本来就很穷,偏偏又患上这样那样的心脏病。
+As Liu Xiaocheng looked at the father and son, and the desperate expressions on the patients, his eyes became moist with a deep sense of guilt and sympathy. He tightly grasped his still compassionate heart, which was rubbed and massaged by patients every day. He knew that these ordinary people were already very poor, and yet they were afflicted with various heart diseases.
+他们卖房卖地拖儿带女,千里迢迢地跑到北京,整夜整夜地排队挂号,把全部希望寄托在医生身上,但 他却令他们大失所望。他们苦苦地哀求他,给他下跪,不为别的,只为ー张小小的八院单张求生的“通行证”。
+They sold their house and land and brought their children to Beijing, queuing up all night long for a doctor's appointment and placing all their hopes on the doctors. However, he disappointed them greatly. They begged him desperately, even kneeling before him, not for anything else, but for a small permit for their son, Zhang Xiaoxiao, to receive medical treatment.
+他何尝不想大笔ー挥,给每人开ー张入院单, 让他们痛痛快快地接受手术,痛痛快快地活下去?可他每天只能开ー张入院单,一个月只有30张的权力。一下午就要接待五六十个患者,许多病人都需要手术,他真不知该把这张“生死牌”发给谁。30多年的坎坷生涯从没有难倒过他,可是面对一群向他哭诉的家乡父老,他却难过得不止一次地掉下泪来。他觉得自己有愧于做一名医生。
+He also wished to help all the patients get hospitalized and operated so that they can live longer. However, in fact he can only get one patient hospitalized each day and and thirty per month. For just one afternoon, he has to receive fifty or sixty patients, and many of them need surgery. He doesn't know to whom he should give this "life and death card". All those hardships throughout his 30-year medical career has not beaten him, but facing a group of folks from his hometown crying before him, he has shed tears more than once. He felt he didn’t deserve to be a doctor.
+这时,药剂科的丁飞主任手拿ー包方便面走进来,进门就嗔怪他:“刘大夫,都10点钟了,快吃点方便面吧!你天天这么折腾,早晚会被折腾死的!”丁主任看到刘晓程天天被患者“糊”得可怜,心疼得几次落下泪来。
+At this moment, Ding Fei,the Director of the Pharmacy Department walked in with a pack of instant noodles in hand and said "Doctor Liu, it's already 10 o'clock. Eat some instant noodles to fill your stomach! You're always working so hard every day. You'll be worked to death sooner or later!" Director Ding saw how Liu Xiaocheng was constantly being overwhelmed by patients, and felt so sorry for him that he cried several times.
+可是,面对一群看病比登天都难的父老乡亲,面对ー个个本应该尽快手术的心脏病人,刘晓程却无论如何也不忍心离开。令他终生难忘的是那位27岁的姑娘。 此刻,她就像死人似的,瞪着一双美丽而无神的大眼睛,凄婉地望着他。
+However, facing a group of fellow villagers who had difficulty seeing a doctor , and numerous heart disease patients who should have received surgery as soon as possible, Liu Xiaocheng couldn't bear to leave. Among them, there was a 27-year-old girl who he would never forget . She looked like a dead person, staring at Liu mournfully with a pair of beautiful but dull eyes.
+“你为什么不早点来?”刘晓程问她。
+"Why didn't you come here earlier?" Liu Xiaocheng asked her.
+姑娘的眼泪卿地掉下来了,忙从衣兜里哆哆嗦嗦掏出ー张已经发黄的入院通知单,双手像捧着命根子似的,小心翼翼地捧到刘晓程面前,啜泣道:“我8年前就来了,开了入院单没有床位,大夫让我回家等通知,可我等了 8年也没等到通知,实在等不了啦!”
+The girl's tears fell uncontrollably, and she hurriedly took out a yellowing hospitalization admission slip from her pocket, holding it in her trembling hands as if clinging to her lifeline. She carefully handed it to Liu Xiaocheng, sobbing: "I came here 8 years ago, but there were no beds available after I got the hospitalization admission slip. The doctor asked me to wait for further notice at home. But 8 years passed, I still didn't receive any notification. I couldn't wait any longer!"
+刘晓程的脑袋“轰”的一声,忙接过那张已经被8年时光磨损出几处破洞起了毛边的入院单,看到上面赫然写着“1979年4月23日”,心里不由得发出ー阵惊愤的慨叹:可悲呀! 8年,一个心脏病患者手拿入院单却没有等来住院通知! 一个严重的先天性心脏病患者怎么能等得了8年?人的一生又有几个大好的8年? 8年, ー个花样的少女变成了27岁的大姑娘,而ー颗破碎的心却因漫长的8年而失去了治疗机会。
+Stunned, Liu hurriedly took the worn and frayed admission slip, the date of which read "April 23, 1979". Seeing this, he couldn't help but let out a sad but indignant sigh: how pitiful! How could a heart disease patient with a hospitalization admission slip still couldn’t  get hospitalized even after 8 years of waiting ? How could a severe congenital heart disease patient wait for eight years? How many eight years does a person have in their life? In eight years, a beautiful young girl turned into a 27-year-old woman, but her broken heart lost the chance for treatment due to the long wait.
+现在,她的心脏已经无法接受手术了,等待她的只能是死亡。可她完全可以不死,完全可以活好多年,完全可以结婚生子,过正常人的生活,可这一切,就因为8年的耽搁而变得永远不可能了。
+Now, her heart cannot undergo surgery anymore, and the only thing awaited her is death. But she could have lived , could have had many more years, could have married and had children, and lived a normal life as an average person. However, all of this has become forever impossible because of the eight years of waiting.
+这位来自黑龙江农村的姑娘并不知道刘晓程的内心,而是可怜巴巴地乞求道: “求求您刘大夫,让我住院手术吧,我实在等不了啦。我不想死,我オ27岁,我已经
+等了 8年啦!”
+The girl from rural Heilongjiang didn't know Liu Xiaocheng's inner thoughts. She begged pitifully, "Please Dr. Liu, let me be hospitalized for surgery, I can't wait any longer. I don't want to die, I'm only 27 years old, and I've already waited for 8 years!"
+面对这双对生命充满渴求的眼睛,面对足足等了8年却不得不提前告别人生的家乡姐妹,刘晓程无论如何也不忍心告诉她实情。他怎么能告诉她:“你不能手术了,你只能回家等死了。”他怎么能说出这种没有人味的绝情话?
+ Her eyes was filled with a strong desire for life. She had spent 8 years  waiting for treatment but had to say goodbye to life ahead of time. Liu Xiaocheng couldn't bear to tell her the truth whatever. How could he tell her, "You can't have surgery, you can only go home and wait for death." He couldn’t say such heartless and inhumane words.
+他想:如果这些病人是我的兄弟姐妹,是我的亲生父母,看着他们得的并非不治之症,只是因为住不上院而ー拖再拖,最后不得不提前告别人世,我该是怎样一番心境?该是何等痛苦?
+He thought: If these patients were my siblings, my biological parents, they suffered from curable illnesses but couldn’t get hospitalized, and eventually have to say goodbye to this world prematurely due to years of waiting. what kind of emotions would I have? How painful would it be?
+他心里忽然发出ー阵悲愤的质疑:为什么天远地远初次来就诊的病人就已经是手术禁忌证了?为什么还是手术适应证的病人又要争那张维系生命的小纸片?为什么得到了这张纸片的人还要继续等下去,甚至一直等到死?我这个医生再出这种门诊,再发这种毫无价值的纸片,还有什么意义?我到底是救死扶伤的医生,还是误人性命的“罪魁”?我是诚实善良的大夫,还是整天用谎言安抚病人及家属的“骗子”?
+Suddenly, a surge of sorrow and indignation welled up in him,
+prompting him to question: why patients who come here for the first visit from far away are already considered unsuitable for surgery? Why do patients who are suitable for surgery have to fight for that little piece of paper that holds their lifeline? And why did those who got that slip had to continue waiting, even until death? What is the point of me, as a doctor, making diagnosis and giving out these worthless slip? Am I really a doctor who saves lives, or am I the culprit who endangers lives? Am I an honest and kind-hearted doctor, or a fraud who constantly placates patients and their families with lies?
+宁可再被毁灭一次,也要学习!
+I would rather be destroyed again than to stop learning!
+刘晓程出生于黑龙江省佳木斯市。父母都是1945年参加革命的医务工作者。母亲是妇产科医生,父亲是佳木斯医学院著名的外科主任刘沛。刘晓程是姊妹五个中唯一的男孩儿。
+Liu Xiaocheng was born in Jiamusi City, Heilongjiang Province. Both his parents were medical workers who participated in the revolution in 1945. His mother was an obstetrician and his father was Liu Pei, a famous chief of surgery of the Jiamusi Medical College(the precursor of the department of medicine of Jiamusi University) . Among his five siblings, Liu Xiaocheng was the only boy.
+年,刘晓程下乡到宝清县生产建设兵团。艰苦、压抑的“知青”生活,过分的体力透支,使他得了肺结核,每天咳嗽,低烧不止。下乡的第四个年头,他提前返 城了。
+In 1968, Liu Xiaocheng was sent to Baqing County Production and Construction Corps as the sent-down, or "educated" youth  (also known as the zhiqing). The life there was hard and oppressive. Overworked and exhausted, he suffered from tuberculosis, coughing and having a low-grade fever every day. In the fourth year of his time there, he returned to the city ahead of schedule.
+不久,被打成“反动学术权威”的父亲落实政策,刘晓程获得了一个工作指标, 面临当工人和实验员的选择,犹豫再三,他走进了令人谈虎色变的“臭老九”行列, 成为佳木斯医学院生理教研室一名实验员。并非子承父业,他不想当医生,他也不 喜欢整天跟生理不健全的人打交道。他从小最崇拜爱因斯坦和爱迪生。但正像马 克思所说:当年轻人选择职业时,社会早已经为他决定好了。
+Soon after, his father, who was labeled as“the reactionary (bourgeois) academic authority” had policies implemented against him. Liu Xiaocheng was offered a job, facing a choice between becoming a worker or a laboratory assistant. After much hesitation, he chose to be a laboratory assistant in the Physiology Department of Jiamusi Medical College, entering this unpopular career. Despite both both his parents were medical professionals, he did not want to become a doctor, nor did he like dealing with people who were physically ill. From an early age, he admired Einstein and Edison most. But, as Marx said, “But we cannot always attain the position to which we believe we are called; our relations in society have to some extent already begun to be established before we are in a position to determine them.”
+实验员,就是洗刷各种试管和器皿,把兔子、青蛙、老鼠准备好,供大学生实验时使用。但工作之余可以旁听老师的讲课,这是刘晓程选择当实验员的真正原因。 一位在“文革”中也被打成“反动学术权威”的老医生气得骂他:“你还要念书?吃 ー百个豆还不知豆腥气?”
+The work of a so-called a laboratory assistant was to washed various test tubes and vessels, prepared rabbits, frogs, and mice for students to use in experiments. But, in spare time, he was allowed to attend lectures given by professors, which was the real reason why Liu Xiaocheng chose to be a laboratory assistant. A senior doctor who was also labeled as“the reactionary (bourgeois) academic authority” during the Cultural Revolution once scolded him: "You still want to study?
+但对刘晓程来说,求知成了他最需要的精神食粮。他宁可因求知而再次遭到毁灭,也不愿浑浑噩噩地混下去了。他不相信中国会永远像现在这样知识无用。没有知识,ー个国家靠什么发展? 一个民族靠什么前进?
+But for Liu Xiaocheng, seeking knowledge became his most necessary spiritual nourishment. He would rather be destroyed again for seeking knowledge than continue to live a meaningless life. He did not believe that China would always be a place where knowledge was useless. Without knowledge, how could a country develop? What would a nation rely on to move forward?
+他ー边工作,ー边玩命地学习。初、高中学的是俄语,改学英语必须从ABC学起,晚间说梦话都叽里咕噜地背着英语单词。一年后,就是张铁生高考交白卷1973年,医学院基础研究所以满票通过,推荐他走进了哈尔滨医科大学,成为一名 24岁的“工农兵”大学生。
+While working, he studied with all his might. He learned Russian in junior and senior high school, but had to start from ABC when he changed to learning English. He even muttered English words in his sleep. One year later, in 1973, the year when Zhang Tiesheng left his college entrance exam paper blank, The Institute of Basic Medical Sciences (IBMS) of the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences (CAMS) passed unanimously to recommend Liu Xiaocheng to Harbin Medical University. Since then, Liu became a 24-year-old “Worker-Peasant-Soldier students”.
+当他满怀鸿鹄之志跨进校门准备苦读时,却发现梦寐以求的大学校园,到处充斥着声嘶力竭的政治口号,以及越来越离奇的“教育革命”，偌大的校园竟然放不下ー张平静的课桌。
+ When he entered the university with great ambitions to study hard, he found that the university campus that he had dreamed about was filled with political slogans and increasingly bizarre "education revolutions". and he couldn’t find anywhere peaceful to study.
+年,“十年浩劫”结束后,刘晓程决定报考研究生。当他一切准备就绪,手拿《招生简章》准备填写志愿的那天夜里,父亲突患脑血栓住进医院。紧接着,结婚不久的妻子又因妊娠中毒症,怀孕七个月的第一个孩子流产了。
+In 1979, after the The Cultural Revolution ended, Liu Xiaocheng decided to apply for graduate school. Everything was prepared,however, on the night he was ready to fill out his application form. His father suddenly suffered cerebral venous thrombosis (CVT) and was hospitalized. Shortly after, his newly married wife, who was seven months pregnant, suffered from gestosis and miscarried. And that was his first child.
+沉重的打击接踵而至,ー边是需要呵护的亲人,ー边是大学学府强烈的呼唤, 面对人生的最后一次抉择,他ー连数天彻夜无眠。
+Heavy blows came one after another. On the one hand, there were his loved ones who needed care, and on the other hand, there was the graduate school which he desired for. Faced with the last choice of his life, he stayed up all night for days...
+“生老病死是人生规律,你不要管我,今年你一定要考!为了学本事干事业,你能考到伦敦、纽约オ好呢。那オ是你对父母的最大孝敬!”父亲对守候在病榻前的儿子语重心长地说。
+"Birth, aging, sickness, and death are the laws of life. Don't worry about me. You must take the post-graduate entrance examination this year! It’s even better if you can make to London and New York for further study . That's the best present for us!" Liu’s father said to him, who was waiting by his sickbed, with a solemn tone.
+“你去考吧,我们以后还会有孩子的,别惦着我。二位老人我会尽力照顾的。” 从小同窗、一向贤惠善良的妻子洪依舒也一再鼓励他。
+"You should take the exam. We will have kids in the future, so don't worry about me. I will take care of your parents." His wife,Hong Yishu, repeatedly encouraged him. They had been his classmate since childhood. She was always that kind and virtuous.
+刘晓程含着泪,在研究生志愿栏里一连写下三个志愿:第一志愿,北京中国医学科学院心血管病研究所阜外医院;第二志愿,阜外医院;第三志愿还是阜外医院! 阜外医院是中国心血管病研究和治疗的最高权威机构,他立志要成为一名优秀的 心血管外科医生。
+With tearful eyes, Liu Xiaocheng wrote down three choices\universities in the postgraduate admission\application form: The first choice was Fuwai Hospital Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences (CAMS); the second and third choices were also Fuwai Hospital. Fu Wai Hospital is  first-class hospital specializing in cardiovascular diseases in China for cardiovascular disease research and treatment. He aspires to become an outstanding cardiovascular surgeon.
+年秋,30岁的刘晓程以骄人的成绩,考进了中国医学科学院心血管研究所阜外医院,成为一名心血管外科研究生。他发誓:一定要无愧于阜外医院和导师 的录取,无愧于父母和妻子的支持,更无愧于自己的选择！
+In the autumn of 1979, 30-year-old Liu Xiaocheng ,with outstanding results in the exam, was admitted by Fuwai Hospital Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences (CAMS), a cardiovascular research institute, and became a graduate student in cardiovascular surgery. He vowed to live up to the expectations of Fuwai Hospital , his mentor, his parents, wife, and himself.
+许多研究生同窗跟刘晓程一样,都经历过蹉駝岁月,都格外珍惜这来之不易的求学机会。刘晓程更是怀着强烈的求知欲,在广博的医学海洋里没日没夜地搏击, 连吃饭和睡觉都变成多余的了,只有学习オ是生命中最需要的。听英语录音,ー听 就到凌晨4点;上课的路上,要背会30多个英语单词……他决心把空耗的时光夺 回来。
+Many of Liu Xiaocheng's fellow graduate students have also experienced difficult times and cherish their hard-won learning opportunities. Liu Xiaocheng, in particular, was driven by a strong thirst for knowledge and tirelessly immersed himself in the vast ocean of knowledge of medicine day and night, to the extent that eating and sleeping became unnecessary, with learning being the most essential part of his life. He would listen to English recordings until 4 a.m., and memorize more than 30 English words on his way to class... He was determined to reclaim the wasted time.
+年后,刘晓程以出色的成绩完成学业,并留在阜外医院工作。1984年,阜外
+医院又破例提前送他去澳大利亚留学深造
+Three years later, Liu Xiaocheng completed his studies with outstanding results and was offered a job at the Fuwai Hospital. In 1984, Fuwai Hospital made an exception, sending him to Australia for further education.
+你是人,我也是人,凭什么不如你?
+We are both human. Why should you be any better than me?
+美国前总统卡特说:“我们不可能人人都像牛顿、法拉第或爱迪生那样有伟大的发现,也不可能像米开朗琪罗或拉斐尔那样有传世之作,但我们可以抓住平凡的 机会并使之不平凡,进而使我们的人生变得更加壮丽。”
+澳大利亚很美,碧水,蓝天,风光旖旎〇
+Former US President Jimmy Carter once said, "We cannot all make great discoveries like Newton, Faraday, or Edison, nor can we create enduring masterpieces like Michelangelo or Raphael. But we can seize ordinary opportunities and make them extraordinary, thus making our lives more magnificent."
+Australia is very beautiful, with blue water, blue sky, and picturesque scenery.
+但是,第一次踏上澳洲的刘晓程却无暇光顾这一切,第二天就走上了手术台, 面临两台大手术,而且要给主刀医生当第一助手。
+However, Liu Xiaocheng, who set foot in Australia for the first time, had no time to enjoy all of this. The next day, he went straight to the operating room. He had two major surgeries and had to serve as the first assistant to the chief surgeon.
+第一次走进布里斯班市查理王子医院心血管外科手术室,一切都是陌生的,金发碧眼的医护人员,令人眼花缭乱的各种器械,几位主刀医生各自不同的操作方式,叽里哇啦一句都听不懂的俚语、方言……更糟糕的是,他就像从慢悠悠的牛车上卸下来的一枚螺丝,忽然被拧到ー台高速运转的机器上,ー上来就得适应人家那 种快节奏、高效率的工作方式,丝毫不存在你是新来乍到给点时间让你适应ー说。 而且主刀医生盛气凌人,开ロ就训人:“拿骨子!不不!不是剪刀,是骨子!你懂不懂英语?不懂回去学会再来!”
+Entering the cardiovascular operating room of The Prince Charles Hospital（TPCH) in Brisbane for the first time, everything was unfamiliar to Liu Xiaocheng. The blonde and blue-eyed medical staff, dazzling array of medical instruments, different operating styles of the chief surgeons, slangs and dialects that he couldn't understand at all... To make things worse, he felt like a screw taken off a slow-moving cart and was suddenly twisted onto a high-speed machine. He had to adapt to their fast-paced and efficient way of working even without any time to adjust as a new arrivals. Moreover, the chief surgeon was domineering, scolding Liu , "Hand me the bone nipper! No, not scissors, bone nipper! Do you understand English? If not, go back when you have mastered it!"
+嗨,那场面别提有多狼狈了,当场他就出现了“文化休克”,也就是老百姓所说的傻眼了,听不懂人家说什么,当然不知道该做什么。按照手术惯例,主刀医生给病人开完胸,建立起体外循环,助手就该从患者腿上取完大隐静脉,递给主刀医生做搭桥术了。可他没有取完静脉,主刀医生立刻嗔怪起来:“太慢了！简直太慢了 ！”这使刘晓程越发手忙脚乱,大汗淋漓,不知所措了。
+ Not to mention how embarrassing the scene was. At that moment, Liu Xiaocheng experienced a "culture shock," which is what people call being stunned. He couldn't understand what others were saying, so he didn't know what to do. According to the surgical protocol, after the lead surgeon opens the patient's chest and establishes extracorporeal circulation, the assistant should take the great saphenous vein(GSV)from the patient's leg and hand it to the lead surgeon for Coronary artery bypass grafting (CABG). However, he didn't finish taking the vein as expected , and the lead surgeon immediately scolded him, "Too slow! It's just too slow!" This made Liu Xiaocheng even more flustered, sweating profusely and feeling helpless.
+主刀的奥布来恩博士是世界著名的心外科专家,刘晓程只是一名中国留学生, 遭训斥是在所难免的。可是,对于自尊心极强的刘晓程来说,却像童年唯ーー次挨 父亲的皮带ー样。父亲的皮带是抽在他的屁股上,而这次却是抽在他脸上,抽在ー 个中国人的自尊心上。他发誓:“我就不信你们能做到的我做不到！你是人,我也 是人,我凭什么不如你?我一定要把你们的技术学到手,绝不能给中国人丢脸!”
+The lead surgeon, Dr. Mark F. O'Brien, was a world-renowned cardiothoracic surgery expert , while Liu Xiaocheng was just a Chinese student studying abroad. It was inevitable that he would be scolded. However, for a proud person like Liu Xiaocheng, it was like being hit by his father with a belt when he was a child. However, his father only hit his buttocks, but this time he felt himself got hit in the face and his self-esteem as a Chinese people suffered. He swore, "I don't believe that I can't do what you can do! You're a human being.So am I. Why couldn’t I be as good as you? I must learn your techniques and I would never disgrace our Chinese people!"
+下了手术台,他急忙把主刀医生的操作程序全部记录下来,把剩下的静脉搜集起来,从护士长那借来手术器械,回到宿舍苦练搭桥术,设计出各种高难度的吻合方法,边缝边做思索,边画图……几个月下来,他不仅把四位医生不同的操作方式背得滚瓜烂熟,而且对四位医生的手术方案取长补短,形成一套自己的独特手术方法。
+After getting off the operating table, he hurriedly recorded all of the surgeon's procedures, collected the remaining veins, borrowed surgical instruments from the head nurse, and returned to his dormitory to practice Coronary artery bypass grafting. He had designed various high-difficulty methods of Anastomosis. He would think and draw diagrams as sewing. After several months, he not only memorized the different surgical techniques of the four doctors, but also integrated their strengths and weaknesses to form his own unique surgical method.
+白天,他要给四位导师当第一助手,常常忙得连杯咖啡都顾不上喝。一台手术下来,导师去喝咖啡,他却忙着写手术记录,填卡片,下术后医嘱,看下一台手术造影片子,没等做完,下一台手术护士又在叫他:“刘医生,手术开始了!”他ー天最多跟过五台大手术,从早8点一直忙到晚9点,回到宿舍累得连眼皮都抬不起来了。
+在一次主动脉瘤的手术中,患者突然大出血,奥布来恩博士竟然无端地冲刘晓程发起火来:“谁让你把着的（指血管）？”
+During the day, he served as the first assistant to the four mentors, often too busy to even have a cup of coffee. After one surgery, the mentor would go for coffee, but he would be busy writing surgical records, filling out cards, giving post-operative instructions, examining the next surgery's films, and before he was done, the nurse for the next surgery would already be calling him: "Doctor Liu, the surgery has started!" He had followed at most five major surgeries in a day, working from 8 am to 9 pm, often too exhausted to even lift his eyelids when returning to the dormitory.
+In one surgery for an aortic aneurysm, the patient suddenly experienced massive bleeding, and Dr. Mark F. O'Brien inexplicably began to blame Liu Xiaocheng, saying, "Who told you to hold onto the blood vessel?"
+“你让我把着的!”刘晓程早已受够了导师的傲慢与训斥,破天荒地顶了他ー句,心里却愤愤地说,“你牛什么牛?不就是你们国家比我们国家富点儿吗,有什么了不起的！我们国家早晚会富起来的,早晚有超过你们的那天！你说你是虔诚的天主教徒,还说大家在上帝面前都是兄弟姐妹,其实你根本看不起我！我告诉你, 我跟你ー样是人,不是一条狗。你别张口就来训斥我！我一定要教训教训你,导师也应该学会尊重人。今后,绝不许你再侮辱我的人格!”
+"You let go of me!" Liu Xiaocheng talked back. He was already fed up with his supervisor's arrogance and reprimands. He thought to himself indignantly, "What's the big deal? Isn't it just that your country is a little richer than ours? Our country will become wealthy sooner or later, and we will eventually surpass you! You say you're a devout Catholic and that we're all brothers and sisters in God's eyes, but actually you look down on me! I'm telling you, I'm just like you, a human being, not a dog. So stop scolding me ! I'm going to teach you a lesson that you, as a supervisor, should learn to respect people. From now on, you are not allowed to insult my dignity again!"
+血止住了,奥布来恩主动向刘晓程搭讪,刘晓程却不理睬他。
+第二天上班,奥布来恩又主动跟刘晓程打招呼,刘晓程装作没听见。
+The bleeding stopped and Dr. Mark F. O'Brien took the initiative to strike up a conversation with Liu Xiaocheng, but Liu Xiaocheng ignored him. The next day at work,Dr. Mark F. O'Brien greeted Liu Xiaocheng again, but Liu Xiaocheng pretended not to hear him.
+奥布来恩是个虔诚的天主教徒,在权威与人格、傲慢与尊严的较量中,他心理开始失衡了,开口向刘晓程道歉:“对不起,晓程,昨天是我的错,我向你道歉。”接着又说:“晓程,今天你来主刀,我来给你当助手!”
+刘晓程不敢相信自己的耳朵,因为澳大利亚的法律严格规定,外国医生只能当助手,不能主刀手术。
+“我让你做的,一切后果由我承担。”奥布来恩说。
+Dr. Mark F. O'Brien was a devout Catholic, but in the struggle between authority and personality, arrogance and dignity, he began to feel guilty. He apologized to Liu Xiaocheng, saying, "I'm sorry, Xiaocheng. It was my fault yesterday, and I apologize to you." Then he added, "Xiaocheng, you come to perform the operation today, and I'll be your assistant!"
+Liu Xiaocheng couldn't believe what he had just heard because Australian law strictly prohibits foreign doctors from performing operations as the lead surgeon.
+"I'll take responsibility for everything you do," Dr. Mark F. O'Brien said.
+于是,就在这所世界著名的澳大利亚查理王子医院手术室里,中国医生第一次走到主刀位置,第一次打破澳大利亚严格而冷酷的法律,划开了洋人的胸膛……当 刘晓程以熟练的技法,稳健而准确、轻快而严密地做完心脏搭桥术,在场所有的人 都惊呆了。奥布来恩绝没有想到这个多次被自己训斥的中国留学生,竟然有这样 一手好功夫。
+So, for the first time in the operating room of a world-famous hospital-- The Prince Charles Hospital in Australia,, a Chinese doctor took the position of the lead surgeon, breaking the stern , rigid and unrelenting Australian law, and cut open the chest of a westerner... When Liu Xiaocheng completed Coronary artery bypass grafting (CABG) in a skillful, steady, accurate but easy  way, everyone present was amazed. Dr. Mark F. O'Brien never expected that this Chinese student, who had been reprimanded by him many times, had such good surgical skills.
+当晚,奥布来恩请刘晓程共进晚餐。两人从此成为要好的朋友。
+“晓程,你是我见过的最有骨气、最优秀的中国人。”奥布来恩向刘晓程举起酒杯,“我相信你会成为世界一流的心外科专家。”
+“你也是我见过的最优秀的心外科专家,最令人敬佩的导师!”刘晓程说道。
+奥布来恩虽然傲慢,却丝毫不讲师道尊严。
+That night,Dr. Mark F. O'Brien invited Liu Xiaocheng to dinner. From then on, the two became close friends.
+"Xiaocheng, you are the most outstanding Chinese person with great guts I’ve ever met," Aubrey raised his glass to Liu Xiaocheng. "I believe you will become a world-class cardiothoracic surgery expert."
+"You are also the most excellent cardiothoracic surgery expert I have ever met, the most admirable mentor!" Liu Xiaocheng said.
+ Dr. Mark F. O'Brien was arrogant but not condescending.
+一次,刘晓程发现奥布来恩没有切开极容易被忽略的薄内膜就要开始做血管吻合,就急忙提醒了他。奥布来恩连声道谢:“谢谢！太谢谢你了,晓程。我的疏忽险些危及患者的生命。”
+Once, Liu Xiaocheng noticed that Dr. Mark F. O'Brien was about to start a vascular anastomosis without cutting the easily overlooked thin inner membrane, so he quickly reminded him. Dr. Mark F. O'Brien
+thanked him, saying, "Thank you! Thank you so much, Xiaocheng. My negligence almost endangered the patient's life."
+在这里,任何人的脸面都不重要,重要的是人的生命,是如何做好每一个手术细节,使手术最大限度地获得成功。几位导师还采纳了刘晓程提出的一些改良手术的建议,风趣地称它为“刘氏法”。导师们一切为了病人、ー丝不苟的治学精神, 使刘晓程受益匪浅,成为他ー生工作的典范。
+Here, no one's face is important, what is more important is human life and how to have a good command of details in each surgery so as to maximize the success of the operation. Several mentors even adopted some of Liu Xiaocheng's suggestions for improving the surgery, humorously calling them the "Liu Methods." The mentors' rigorous academic spirit featured by putting patients first , has greatly benefited Liu Xiaocheng and set a paradigm for his lifelong work.
+从此,奥布来恩不顾法律约束,不仅让刘晓程在洋人身上主刀,而且做ー些连澳大利亚本国高级医生都轮不到的高难手术。一年内,刘晓程参加了 600多例手术,主刀完成50多例,仅冠状动脉搭桥就做了二三十例,患者最高年龄83岁,无ー例死亡或发生并发症。
+From then on, disregarding legal constraints, Dr. Mark F. O'Brien not only allowed Liu Xiaocheng to perform surgery on western patients, but also some high-risk surgeries that even senior Australian doctors had no access to. Within a year, Liu Xiaocheng participated in more than 600 surgeries, completing over 50 of them as the lead surgeon, including 20-30 cases of Coronary artery bypass grafting successfully with no deaths or complications,among which the oldest patients reached 83 years old.
+刘晓程以其独特的人格魅力及高超的医术,终于赢得了同行们的爱戴与尊重。留学一年期限到了,奥布来恩主动带刘晓程去州卫生主管部门申请延期,让他再研 修一年。
+With his unique personality charm and superb medical skills, Liu Xiaocheng finally won the love and respect of his colleagues. When the one-year overseas study period came to an end, Dr. Mark F. O'Brien took the initiative to accompany Liu Xiaocheng to the state health department to apply for an extension, allowing him to continue his studies for another year.
+年,国际心脏外科会议在澳大利亚召开,走上讲台,代表澳大利亚查理王子医院做学术报告的不是别人,正是我们优秀的刘晓程。他流利的英语、精湛的发言,令全场震惊,从而成为第一个享此殊荣的外国人。
+In 1985, the XVIII World Congress of the International Society for Cardiovascular Surgery was held in Australia. It was our outstanding Liu Xiaocheng who represented The Prince Charles Hospital in Australia to give a academic report. He stunned the audience with his fluent English and excellent speech, becoming the first foreigner to receive this honor.
+留学期限到了,奥布来恩让刘晓程把家属接来,一切手续由他办理。他说这里的条件比中国好得多,对刘晓程今后的发展大有益处。
+When his duration of study abroad was coming to an end, Dr. Mark F. O'Brien offered to help Liu Xiaocheng bring his family over and prepare all the paperwork. He believed that the conditions in Australia were much better than in China and it would be of great benefits to Liu Xiaocheng.
+在查理王子医院,一名普通医生的年收入高达几十万美元;而在阜外医院,一名主任医师的年收入也不过几千元人民币。而且,中国留学生陪读热方兴未艾,多少人都梦寐以求地想借此机会搭上出国的列车,从而开始另一番人生之旅。从阜外医院ー起来澳洲留学的医生已经把家属接来了,劝刘晓程也这样做。可是,刘晓程却忘不了童年时代,父亲多次给他讲的钱学森等科学家从美国归来报效国家的故事。他舍弃不掉对祖国、对家乡的那份刻骨铭心的眷恋。
+At The Prince Charles Hospital, an ordinary doctor's annual income reached hundreds of thousands of dollars, while at Fuwai Hospital , a chief physician's annual income was only a few thousand yuan. In addition, the trend of accompanying study abroad among Chinese students was still popular, and many people dreamed of taking this opportunity to go abroad and embark on a new journey in life. Doctors who came to Australia from Fuwai Hospital together with Liu Xiaocheng had already brought their families over. They advised Liu Xiaocheng to do the same. However, Liu Xiaocheng could not forget the story his father told him so many times in his childhood about scientists such as Qian Xuesen who returned to China from the United States to serve the country. He couldn't abandon the deep affection he had for his country and hometown.
+一次,他跟同事到澳大利亚花城土温巴山去旅游,看到山顶有ー只标着世界各国方位的坐标,就面向自己的祖国,迎着落日的余晖,唱起了思乡曲:“乡间小路,带我回家。那个地方,我永远属于她……”唱着唱着,一行思乡的泪不知不觉地流了下来。他知道,他的心永远属于那个虽然贫穷却不能忘怀的祖国,属于那个无论多 么优越的条件都无法取代的母亲!
+Once, he went on a trip to Toowoomba,the Garden City of Australia with his colleagues. On the mountaintop, he saw a coordinate marked with directions of various countries in the world. Then bathed in the sunset glow, he began singing a homesick song in the direction of his hometown: "The country road leads me home, the small town where I always belong to ..." As he sang, tears of homesickness flowed unconsciously down his face. He knew that his heart would always goes to his motherland, which, despite its poverty, he could never forget, and , which will never be replaced any other rich country.
+“导师,中国的病人太多,太苦了,那里非常需要医生。如果我们学成了都留在
+国外,那谁去解救他们呢?中国有句俗话,叫作’儿不嫌母丑,狗不嫌家贫’。这里的条件虽然优越,但并不需要我。我的祖国虽然很穷,但她需要我,我也需要她。” 刘晓程婉言谢绝了导师的挽留。
+"Teacher, there are too many patients in China. They are suffering a lot. My country needs doctors desperately. If we all decide to stay abroad after finishing our studies, who will rescue them? There is a saying in China, 'Children will not detest their mother for being ugly, and dogs will not detest their owners for being poor.'  The conditions here are superior and I am not that needed here. While my motherland is poor, she needs me, and I also need her." Liu Xiaocheng politely declined the teacher's retention.
+奥布来恩听了很受感动,说:“我很理解你,也很赞成你的选择。回国以后有什么困难尽管告诉我,需要学什么欢迎你再来〇我的邀请永远对你有效〇”
+Dr. Mark F. O'Brien was deeply moved by Liu Xiaocheng's words, saying "I understand you very well and totally agree with your decision. If you have any difficulties after returning home, please let me know.And if you need to learn anything, you are always welcome to come back."
+随同刘晓程一起归来的,还有整整两箱子国内奇缺的体外循环插管和接头。 在查理王子医院,刘晓程看到在国内奇缺的体外循环插管和接头,用过一次就丢进了垃圾袋,而在国内用过几百次都舍不得丢掉,就对同事们说:“我的国家还很穷, 可不可以请你们别丢掉这些东西,让我攒起来带回国去用?”同事们不但没有耻笑 他,反而帮他将这些东西ー根根地收集起来,刷干净,消好毒,替他保存起来。
+Together with Liu Xiaocheng, there were also two full boxes of extracorporeal circulation tubes and connectors that were in short supply in China. At The Prince Charles Hospital, Liu Xiaocheng saw that these items, which were in short supply in China , were were used once and then being discarded in a trash bag, but in China, they would be used hundreds of times before being thrown away. He said to his colleagues, "My country is still very poor. Can you please not throw away these items and let me take them back to my country to use?" His colleagues did not laugh at him, but instead helped him collect and clean every single item and keep them for him.
+阜外医院麻醉科主任看到这两箱东西,高兴地喊起来:“噢,太好了。这可解决大问题了!”
+When the head of anesthesiology at Fuwai Hospital saw these two boxes, he shouted with joy, "Oh, this is great! They’ll help a lot!"
+“我的不幸的乡土哟,我恨你,我又不能不爱你!”
+这是巴金老人多年前发出的感慨。
+"Oh, my unfortunate hometown, I hate you, but I cannot help loving you!"
+This was an expression of lament from the writer Ba Jin many years ago.
+像许多海外归来的学子ー样,刘晓程怀着满腔热血扑向朝思暮想的祖国,扑向自己的事业。他的心就像喷薄欲出的太阳,充满了激情与渴望,渴望把自己所学的 医术全部报效给祖国,报效给民众,拯救那些亟待手术的病人。
+Like many overseas returnees, Liu Xiaocheng returned to his homeland with full passion and aspiration for his career. His heart was like a bursting sun, filled with passion and eagerness to use his medical skills to serve the country and the people, and to save those patients who were in urgent need of surgery.
+可是,他很快就发现,面对阜外医院原先那种慢节奏、低效率的工作环境,就像当初到查理王子医院突然面临那种快节奏、高效率的环境ー样,他同样感到不适应了。他觉得自己就像ー颗日夜运转磨得程亮的螺丝,忽然被拧到ー辆慢悠悠的牛车上,无论怎样卖カ气都快不起来了。
+However, he soon realized that he was not adapted to the slow-paced and inefficient working environment at Fuwai Hospital, just like when he first faced the fast-paced and high-efficiency environment at The Prince Charles Hospital. He felt like a screw that had been running and polished day and night, yet suddenly being put on a slow-moving cart, unable to speed up no matter how hard he tried.
+他感到痛苦而茫然,一系列的问题常常叩击着他彻夜难眠的心:阜外医院每年仅能做1000例手术,排号却排到了 14000例。按照现有的速度,许多病人要等到 10年以后才能手术。全国需要手术的心脏病人有300多万,而全国每年仅能手术的不到1%。
+He was in pain and confusion. Series of questions often haunted him in those sleepless nights. For example, although Fuwai Hospital could only perform 1,000 surgeries per year, there were already 14,000 patients on the waiting list. At the current rate, many patients would have to wait for 10 years before they could undergo surgery. There were more than 3 million heart diseases patients in need of surgery in the country, but less than 1% could undergo surgery each year.
+那300多万患者不知等到猴年马月才能手术,而绝大多数病人一直等到死都上不了手术台。这种尖锐的供求矛盾何时才能解决?在澳大利亚,他一年可以做几百例手术。回到国内,他这位主管四个病区的主治医生一年只能做88 例。全院上自院长下至年轻医生,都想多干工作,多救病人,可都觉得有劲使不出来。这到底是为什么?
+Those 3 million patients didn’t  know how long they have to wait, yet most patients may never have a chance to get on the operating table in their lifetime. When would this sharp supply-demand contradiction be resolved? In Australia, he could perform hundreds of surgeries in a year, but as an attending in charge of four wards, he could only perform 88 surgeries per year. From the hospital president to the young doctors, everyone wanted to do more work and save more patients, but they all felt powerless. Why ?
+年春节期间,阜外医院派刘晓程带队到黑龙江省牡丹江市开展心脏手术。他看到家乡十几万心血管病人处在投医无路、求治无门的水深火热之中,感到很痛心。一天,ー个农民带着患有严重先天性法乐式四联症心脏病的13岁男孩, 顶风冒雪找到刘晓程,说他带着儿子跑了好几家医院,都做不上手术,求刘晓程救救他儿子。
+During the Spring Festival period in 1987, Fuwai Hospital sent Liu Xiaocheng to Mudanjiang City, Heilongjiang Province to perform heart surgeries. He saw that more than 100,000 cardiovascular patients in his hometown were in desperate need of medical treatment but had no access to it. He felt very distressed. One day, a farmer brought his 13-year-old son with Tetralogy of Fallot(TOF) to Liu Xiaocheng during a heavy snowstorm, saying that he had taken his son to several hospitals but could not get him the surgery. He begged Liu Xiaocheng to save his son.
+可是,刘晓程带队出来时阜外医院有指示:到条件差的地方开展心脏手术,不要做复杂的,以免发生意外。刘晓程留下父子俩的地址,劝父子俩先回去等候消息。父子俩一走,刘晓程立刻电话请示阜外医院的导师郭加强院长。郭院长问他有没有把握,他说:“虽然有风险,但我还是有把握的!”郭院长说:“那你就做吧,但一定要慎重,要预防术后并发症。”
+However, when Liu Xiaocheng and his team left Fuwai Hospital, they were instructed not to perform complex surgeries in areas with poor conditions to avoid accidents. Liu Xiaocheng took down the father and son's address, and asked them to go back and wait for news. As soon as they left, Liu Xiaocheng immediately called the hospital's mentor, President Guo Jiaqiang, for permission. Guo asked him if he had confidence in that, and he answered, "Although there are risks, I am still quite confident!" Guo said, "Then you can do it, but you must be careful and prevent postoperative complications."
+于是,刘晓程不顾外面风雪交加,乘着牡丹江励副市长的三菱吉普,立刻去追赶那对父子。吉普车在风雪弥漫的山路上颠簸了三四个小时,几次险些翻到沟里.
+So, disregarding the harsh snowstorm outside, Liu Xiaocheng immediately went to chase the father and son, riding in the Mitsubishi jeep of Li, the vice mayor of Mudanjiang. The jeep bounced on the snowy mountain road for three to four hours, nearly flipping into the ditch several times.
+ 晚间9点多钟,终于在距离小说《林海雪原》所描写的“座山雕”威虎厅不远的偏僻山沟里,找到了父子俩的家间东倒西歪、窗户上钉着塑料布、房顶压着厚厚积雪的破草房。屋里除了几张瘦骨嶙峋的脸,只有一盏如豆的油灯呼呼啦啦地摇 曳。直到许多年后,刘晓程都忘不了这个“家”。
+ Finally, at over 9 o'clock in the evening, they found the father and son's home in a remote mountain valley not far from the Tiger Mountain  described in the novel the Tracks in the Snowy Forest, The house was leaning and crooked, with plastic sheeting nailed to the windows and a thatched roof covered in thick snow. Except for a few emaciated faces, there was only a small oil lamp flickering in the room. Liu Xiaocheng still remembered this "home" for many years to come.
+半夜12点,当父子俩乘火车,搭马车,艰难地跋涉了十几个小时,雪人似的回到家里时,眼前的情景就像ー盏灯,猛然照亮了爷儿俩几乎冻僵的心,也照亮了这个被世界遗忘的家庭。
+At midnight, the father and son returned home like two snowmen after a grueling journey of over ten hours by train and horse-drawn carriage. The scene in front of them was like a lamp suddenly illuminating their almost frozen hearts and the forgotten family.
+农民汉子一把抓住刘晓程的手,老泪纵横地哭喊道:“刘大夫,你是俺们全家的救命恩人哪!俺们做梦都没想到啊!”
+The peasant man grabbed Liu Xiaocheng's hand, crying and exclaiming, "Doctor Liu, you are our family's savior! We’ve never even dreamed of this!"
+这个五口之家本来就穷得叮当响,孩子有病更是雪上加霜,四处磕头作揖借了几千元钱,可都扔在铁道线上了,两次去北京手术都排不上号。农民汉子呼天不应,叫地不灵,几次想ー头撞死在北京大街上,可转而ー想,自己死了一家老小怎么办?现在,北京来的大夫却顶风冒雪找上门来了,来接儿子回去手术,天底下竟然有这么好的医生?!他不敢相信这是真的。
+This family of five was already extremely poor, and the child's illness added insult to injury. They begged and bowed all around to borrow a few thousand yuan, but it was all spent on train tickets. They couldn't even get a surgical appointment during their two trips to Beijing. The peasant man was made desperate, even considering suicide on the streets of Beijing, but then he thought, "What would happen to my family if I died?" Now, a doctor from Beijing had braved the wind and snow to find them and take their son for surgery. Can there really be such a good doctor in the world? He couldn't believe it was true.
+“刘大夫,你这北京来的专家,用市长的车来接俺儿去做手术,俺不是在做 梦吧?”
+“文化大革命”期间,刘晓程的父亲冒着坐牢的危险,顶着造反派的压カ,抢救过被医生放弃、濒临死亡的农村孩子。今天,刘晓程担着手术风险,在风雪弥漫的山路上跑了上百里路,为了找到ー个素不相识的农家孩子。因为他知道,在这极其偏僻、方圆几十里见不到人烟的山沟里,ー个患有严重先天性心脏病的孩子,如果不能尽快地接受根治手术,那将意味着什么。如果这次巡回医疗不能为孩子手术, 这孩子就不知会等到哪年哪月了。
+During the "Cultural Revolution," Liu Xiaocheng's father ran the risk of being put to prison and withstood the pressure of being recognized as rebel groups to save a rural child who had been given up on by doctors and were on the verge of death. Today, Liu Xiaocheng himself took the risk of surgery and traveled hundreds of miles on snowy mountain roads to find a rural child he had never met before. He knew that in this extremely remote mountain valley and for a child with a serious congenital heart disease, if he could not receive curative surgery as soon as possible, what will that mean? If he could not get surgery during this mobile medical tour, it’s unknown when he would be able to receive treatment.
+刘晓程连夜把父子俩接回医院,第二天就为孩子成功地做了手术。这次巡回医疗,他在牡丹江成功地做了 8台心脏手术。
+Liu Xiaocheng brought the father and son back to the hospital overnight and successfully operated on the child the next day. During this mobile medical tour, he successfully performed eight heart surgeries in Mudanjiang.
+巡回医疗很快就结束了,可是,黑龙江十几万心脏病同胞求医无门、备受煎熬的情景,却历历在目,一直蹂嘛着刘晓程的心。
+The mobile medical tour soon ended, but the scene of tens of thousands of heart disease patients in Heilongjiang suffering and seeking medical help but failing was still vivid in Liu Xiaocheng's mind, breaking his heart.
+回国两年,他的内心苦苦思索了两年,斗争了两年。
+经过多少个不眠之夜的思考,这位海外归来的学子斗胆发出了天问:造成这种日益尖锐的供求矛盾的原因到底是什么?难道仅仅是因为我们穷吗?
+After returning to his home country for two years, he struggled and pondered in numerous sleepless nights over the reasons behind the increasingly sharp supply and demand contradictions. He wondered if poverty was the only reason for it.
+“不!我们不单单是经济和科技落后,还有封建思想残余及诸多因素造成的低效率和看不见摸不着却处处存在着的内耗!这种内耗大量地表现在扯皮、推诿,或 有劲使不上的工作上。
+"It's not just because we are economically and technologically behind, but also because of the remnants of feudal thinking and many other factors that lead to inefficiency and hazards that almost existed everywhere. This kind of hazards were often manifested in disputes, shirking responsibilities, or jobs where one cannot fully apply oneself.
+在大城市科研单位里死争死挤,却难以发挥作用的人,何止 ー二?有了技术人才,宁可自己封存不用,也不肯放走的大单位,何止ー二?教了三年打铁,临出徒オ放手让他打一把炉钩子的师傅,又何止ー二? 一代又一代,周而复始。可悲的传统观念,根深蒂固的封建思想残余……难啊,我们的知识分子真 是太少又'太多’了！
+There are countless people in scientific research units in big cities who were struggling in and unable to exert their abilities. There are also large nits that would rather keep technical talent in storage than let them go. Moreover, there are also masters who teach apprentices to forge iron for three years, but still cannot let them make a hook.
+“谭嗣同为了唤起中华民族的觉醒,甘愿献出生命。他在断头台前从容地喊出了“死得其所,快哉快哉”的千古绝唱。谭嗣同大义凛然、视死如归的精神,令多少人感慨不已。
+In order to awaken the Chinese nation, Tan Sitong was willing to sacrifice his life. Before the execution, he calmly shouted "To die for a just cause is a happy death." Tan Sitong's spirit of righteousness and fearlessness in the face of death left many people deeply moved.
+资产阶级革命家为国为民尚有如此壮烈之举,我们20世纪的共产党人就不能牺牲点儿什么,来治治有目共睹的通病和顽症吗?”（这段激越之词,摘自 1993年刘晓程以全国优秀中青年干部身份,在人民大会堂向中直机关和科研院校 代表做的报告《人生蹉註,丹心一片,为国为民,不虚此生》〇）
+ If a bourgeois revolutionary can make such a heroic sacrifice for his country and people, why can't we, as Communist Party members of the 20th century, sacrifice something to cure those common problems in our society? (This passionate speech was excerpted from Liu Xiaocheng's report "Life may be wasted, but with unwavering dedication, for the country and the people, this life is not in vain." , which he delivered in 1993 as an outstanding young cadre to representatives of Work Committee for Offices Directly under the CCCPC and scientific research institutes at the Great Hall of the People.
+这番令有识之士感慨万千的肺腑之言,无疑是对中国医疗体制与传统观念的挑战。但是,他太渺小了,他仅仅是一名留学归来、满怀忧国忧民之心的医生。他所能左右的仅仅是他自己,而非ー个沉寂几十年、远远滞后于社会发展的国家医疗体制。于是,他向自己提出了一个天大的难题:我为什么不能回到家乡,为备受病痛折磨的父老乡亲建一所心血管病专科医院?
+These heartfelt words that have moved many wise people undoubtedly challenge the traditional beliefs and healthcare system in China. However, Liu is too insignificant - he is just a doctor who returned from studying abroad and is deeply concerned about the country and its people. He could only control himself, rather than a healthcare system that had been stagnant for decades and lagged far behind the society's development. Therefore, he questioned himself: why can't he return to his hometown and build a specialized cardiovascular hospital for his folks who have been suffering from illness and pain?
+于是,他做出了一个重大抉择:回家乡,为家乡父老做点儿カ所能及的事！可他觉得,这样做太对不住妻子和儿子了。他和妻子结婚八年分居了六年。现在,妻子刚从东北调到北京邮电医院,孩子被安排在师资雄厚的大木仓小学。阜外医院刚分给他两室ー厅的住房,一家三口终于在北京落户了,刚刚有了一个安稳的家。可现在,他却要亲手砸碎它……ー想到这些,ー种深深的自责便噬啮着他的心:我有什么权毁掉这一切?又有什么资格把他们母子再拖回到前途未卜的动荡之中?
+So he made a major decision: to go back to his hometown and do what he could for his folks. But he felt that he was not being fair to his wife and son by doing so. They had been separated for six of the eight years they had been married. Now his wife had just been transferred from the Northeast China to Beijing Postal Hospital, and their son was enrolled in Damu Cang Elementary School with real qualified teachers. Fuwai Hospital had just assigned him a two-bedroom apartment, and the family had finally settled down in Beijing. But now he had to destroy it with his own hands... The thought of all this self-blame gnawed at his heart: what right did he have to ruin everything? And what qualifications did he have to drag his wife and son back into the uncertain and tumultuous future?
+又是ー个无眠之夜。刘晓程在与妻子彻夜长谈 “看到家乡人倾家荡产地跑到北京来找我,看着他们走投无路、求医无门的样子,我常常觉得自己很无能。你想想,如果那些人是我们的父母,是我们的兄弟姐妹,眼看着他们排不上号,住不上院,病情一天比ー天严重,你说我们心里是什么滋味?”刘晓程长叹了一声,“唉,老百姓看病真难哪。尤其咱们黑龙江,天寒地冻,心脑血管的发病率均居全国之首……”
+It was another sleepless night. Liu Xiaocheng had a long conversation with his wife, "Seeing people from my hometown come to Beijing, bankrupt and helpless and lacking access to medical treatment, I often feel powerless. Think about it, if those people were our parents, our brothers and sisters, seeing them unable to get medical treatment, unable to get hospitalized, and their condition worsening day by day, what would we feel?" Liu Xiaocheng let out a long sigh, “It's really difficult for ordinary people to get medical treatment. Especially in our freezing Heilongjiang province, the incidence of cardiovascular and cerebrovascular diseases ranks first in the country..."
+妻子洪依舒瞪着大眼睛幽幽地望着他,许久不说话。
+His wife, Hong Yishu, stared at him with big eyes and didn't say a word for a long time.
+她理解晓程内心的痛苦。她经常看见他夜里辗转反侧,唉声叹气。可是,看看这个来之不易的家,想想眼前这令多少人可望而不可即的一切,她实在不忍心丢下。可她太了解晓程的个性了,只要他认准的事,哪怕是刀山火海也毫不退却。“文革”期间大串联,一群学生豪言壮语要步行去北京见毛主席,坚持到最后的只有晓程和另一名男同学,一双脚都走烂了。
+ She understood the pain in Xiaocheng's heart. She often saw him toss and turn at night, sighing. But looking at this hard-won home and everything that is out of reach for so many people, she couldn't bear to leave. However, she knew Xiaocheng's personality too well. Once he decided on something, he never retreated, even when facing death. During the "Cultural Revolution", a group of students made a bold statement that they would walk to Beijing to see Chairman Mao, but in the end, only Xiaocheng and another male classmate persisted until their feet were worn out.
+刘晓程见妻子久不言语,就说:“我知道你为我付出得太多了。这样吧,你和孩子留在北京,我ー个人回黑龙江。”
+“别说了。”妻子打断了他,“从我的工作和孩子的教育考虑,我确实不想走,可 我怎么能放心让你ー个人回去?我还是带着孩子跟你ー起走吧。”
+“……”刘晓程一时语塞,一把搂过这位行动永远胜过语言的妻子,久久地拥 在怀里。
+Seeing his wife silent for so long, Xiaocheng said, "I know you have sacrificed too much for me. How about you and the child stay in Beijing, and I go back to Heilongjiang alone."
+"Stop ," his wife interrupted him, "I really don't want to leave when considering my work and our child's education, but how can I let you go there alone? Let me and our child go with you."
+"..." Liu Xiaocheng was speechless for a moment. He hugged his wife, whose actions always speak louder than words, and held her tightly for a long time.
+为了慎重,刘晓程专程回佳木斯去征求父母的意见。
+Being cautious, Liu Xiaocheng made a special trip back to Jiamusi to seek his parents' opinions.
+父亲,他心中永远的太阳!
+His father was the eternal sun in his heart!
+克林顿曾说:“母亲告诉我永远不要放弃,不要屈服,不要停止微笑。无论发生多么可怕的事,第二天一早起床,母亲都会微笑着站在我面前,她从不把痛苦露给别人。”
+Clinton once said, "My mother told me never to give up, never to surrender, and never to stop smiling. No matter how terrible things happened, my mother would wake up the next morning and stand in front of me with a smile on her face, never revealing her pain to others."
+克林顿有一位伟大的母亲,刘晓程则有一位伟大的父亲。
+Clinton had a great mother, and Liu Xiaocheng had a great father.
+父亲刘沛是佳木斯医学院享誉四方的外科专家。他精湛的医术、高尚的医德, 不知恩泽过多少人。老人家过80大寿,佳木斯市委书记带着市委、市政府的“五大 班子”去为老人祝寿。1988年,刘晓程和父亲同时享受首批国务院政府特殊津贴。
+Liu Pei, Xiaocheng's father, was a renowned surgeon at Jiamusi Medical College. His superb medical skills and noble medical ethics have benefited countless people. When he turned 80, the Secretary of the CPC Jiamusi Municipal Committee led leaders from Jiamusi Party committee, Jiamusi Municipal People's Government, the Standing Committee of Jiamusi Municipal People's Congress, Chinese People's Political Consultative Conference of Jiamusi Municipal Committee, and military went to congratulate him. In 1988, Liu Xiaocheng and his father were both awarded the first batch of The special government allowance
+父亲对晓程的管教很严。一次,父亲得知晓程从家里悄悄拿了两元钱买栗子吃,又对母亲说谎,第一次用皮带把晓程的屁股抽成了紫茄子。7岁的晓程却永远记住了父亲的教诲:“做人要诚实!不许说谎,说谎是万恶之源!”
+Liu Xiaocheng’s father was very strict with him. Once, when his father found out that he had secretly taken two yuan from home to buy chestnuts and lied to his mother, he used a belt to whip Xiaocheng's butt until it turned purple. Xiaocheng, who was only seven years old at that time, would always remember his father's teachings: "Be honest! Don't lie. Lying is the root of all evil!"
+在晓程的记忆里,父亲每天早晨5点就去病房查房,父亲常常蹲在厕所里观察病人的大便,以便做出准确的诊断。晓程不记得父亲让他给吃不上饭的病人送过多少次饺子,也不记得父亲掏钱给过多少贫病交加的病人,不知父亲从家里给病人偷偷拿过多少鸡蛋,更不记得多少病人感激涕零地跪倒在父亲面前,他只记得病人 看到父亲眼里所流露出的目光---那种拜见上帝般的感激与崇敬。这给他幼小心灵打上了永不磨灭的烙印。
+In Xiaocheng's memory, his father would do his rounds in the hospital at 5 am every morning. His father often squatted in the toilet to observe the patients' stools in order to make an accurate diagnosis. Xiaocheng didn’t remember how many times his father asked him to deliver dumplings to patients who couldn’t afford meals, or how many poor and sick patients his father gave money to. He didn't know how many eggs his father had secretly taken from home for the patients, and he didn't remember how many patients knelt down before his father in tears of gratitude. He only remembered the look in the patients' eyes when they saw his father--a kind of gratitude and reverence as if they were meeting God. This left an indelible mark on his young heart.
+多年前,一位市委书记夫人乳房上长了一个良性肿瘤,要出省治疗,让父亲刘沛出诊断。父亲却说:“用不着出省,没必要花那份钱!”一句话把市委书记夫人顶了回去。
+Many years ago, the wife of a municipal party secretary developed a benign tumor on her breast and wanted to go out of the province for treatment. She asked Liu Pei, father of Liu Xiaocheng for diagnosis and he suggested that it be unnecessary to go out of the province for treatment."
+“文革”期间,ー个罕见的患先天性中肠旋转不全的农家孩子,被医生放弃治疗,家属被告知准备后事了。孩子父母抱着奄奄一息的孩子正悲恸欲绝,被打成 “日本特务”“反动学术权威”的父亲在清扫垃圾,急忙奔过来说:“千万不要放弃孩 子,我能治!”
+During the Cultural Revolution, a child from a rural family suffered from a rare disease Congenital intestinal malrotation and was abandoned by doctors. The child's parents were told to prepare for the worst . As they held their dying child in their arms, Liu Xiaocheng’s father, who had been labeled a "Japanese spy" and“the reactionary (bourgeois) academic authority ”, was cleaning up garbage. He rushed over ,saying "Don't give up on the child, I can treat him!"
+造反派立刻质问他:“你敢承担这孩子手术的后果吗?”
+父亲说:“一切后果由我来负!”
+The Red Guards immediately questioned him, "Do you dare to bear the consequences of this child's surgery?"
+The father replied, "I will bear all the consequences!"
+这时,忽然响起一阵惊天动地的口号:“打倒日本特务刘沛!打倒反动学术权威刘沛!敌人不投降我们就叫他灭亡!”
+Suddenly, a deafening chant rang out: "Down with Japanese spy Liu Pei! Down with reactionary academic authority Liu Pei! If the enemy doesn't surrender, we'll make them perish!"
+就在一片“打倒”与“灭亡”的口号声中,身陷囹圄的父亲担着可能毁掉自己一生声誉,甚至可能因“陷害”革命群众而被判刑、被枪毙的风险,脱掉清扫服,匆匆 走上了久违的手术台……孩子得救了,父亲又回到“牛棚”里继续清扫厕所。
+Amidst the deafening chants of "down with" and "perish", Liu’s father, who was imprisoned, removed his cleaning clothes and quickly walked onto the long awaited surgical table, risking his lifelong reputation being destroyed and even facing the possibility of imprisonment or execution for "framing" the revolutionary masses. The child was saved, and the father returned to the "cowshed" to continue cleaning the toilets.
+“名誉与生命相比,毕竟是微不足道的。在毁誉与病人的生命面前,必须勇敢地选择后者,这オ是ー个好医生。”这是父亲的人生信条,也是他对儿子的训诫。
+"Compared with life, honor is insignificant. Between infamy and patient's lives, one must courageously choose the latter. That's what makes a good doctor" said the father. This is also his life creed and his admonition to his son.
+父亲不媚上、不卑下,博爱济贫,珍爱他人生命的做人准则,成为刘晓程一生的楷模。“文革”期间,刚学会游泳的晓程不顾淹死的危险,跳进松花江救起一名遇险的教师。当了医生以后,他更是处处以父亲为楷模,以母亲的遗训为座右铭,严格自律。母亲73岁那年,因患严重风湿病连筷子都拿不住,却颤抖着双手为儿子留下一条遗训:“医乃仁术,好自为之。”这条遗训一直挂在晓程的办公室里。
+The father was neither servile nor domineering , but he is kind, loving help the poor and seeing cherishing other people's lives as his creed, setting a role model for his son Liu Xiaocheng throughout his life. During the Cultural Revolution, Xiaocheng, who had just learned to swim, risked drowning and jumped into the Songhua River to save a teacher in distress. After becoming a doctor, he strictly disciplined himself with his father as his role model and his mother's teachings as his motto: "To be a doctor is to practice benevolence" This teachings has been hanging in Xiaocheng's office.
+“风萧萧兮塞外寒,壮士一去兮不复还!”
+"The wind howls in the cold of the frontier, the valiant warrior sets out and never returns!"
+Hsiao-hsiao soughs the wind,oh- Cold the waters of the Yi.
+The knight who leaves you now, oh-
+You shall nevermore see.
+父亲得知刘晓程决定回黑龙江创业,竟说出一番令晓程大为感动的话。
+When Liu Xiaocheng decided to go back to Heilongjiang, his father said something that deeply moved him.
+“当初我让你出去闯荡,是为了让你多学本领;现在我像当初一样支持你回来, 你应该把学的东西为家乡父老贡献出来。” 得到父亲的支持,刘晓程回黑龙江创业的决心越发坚定了。
+"At first I let you go out to make a living, in order to let you learn more skills; Now, just like before, I support you to come back, hoping that you could contribute what you’ve learned to folks back home." With his father's support, Liu Xiaocheng's determination to return to Heilongjiang to restart his career became even stronger.
+此刻,中国正处在“出国热”的大潮之中,多少海外学子都挖空心思留在美国、 澳大利亚等发达国家。当然,他们的选择无可厚非,人各有志,中国封闭得太久了, 耽误得也太久了,人人都有选择人生道路的权利。但是,我们不能不为刘晓程逆潮 流而动,选择艰苦人生的勇气而叫好,不能不对他“先天下之忧而忧,后天下之乐而 乐”、以天下为己任的境界而肃然起敬。
+At this moment, China was in the midst of a "going abroad boom". Most overseas students were doing everything they could to stay in developed countries like the United States and Australia. Of course, their choices  were understandable - everyone had their own aspirations and the right to choose their own path in life. And China had been too closed off for so long that it was far behind the world. However, we cannot help but admire Liu Xiaocheng's courage to swim against the tide and choose a more difficult path in life. We should also respect his willingness to " be the first to worry about the nation's woes and the last to share in its prosperity." and to take on the responsibility of making the world a better place.
+年5月13日深夜,刘晓程来到儿子床前,抚摸着熟睡中的儿子脸蛋,轻声道:“儿子,爸爸也许对不起你。爸爸没权利剥夺你现有的条件,等你长大以后也许 会埋怨爸爸,到那时爸爸再向你解释吧。”
+Late on the night of May 13, 1987, Liu Xiaocheng came to his son's bedside and gently touched his sleeping face. "Son, maybe I have let you down for not taking good care of you. I don't have the right to take away what you have now, and maybe you will resent me when you grow up. If that happens, I'll explain everything to you."
+经过两年的痛苦挣扎,ー颗崇高的心灵终于得到了解脱。他的心境变得从未有过的旷达与坦然,就像暴风雨过后的大海,浩瀚而平静,又像鼓满风帆的航船,期待着新的远航。他开始伏案疾书,给院领导写《请调报告》
+After two years of painful struggle, his noble spirit finally had been set free. His state of mind became magnanimous and serene, like the vast and calm sea after a storm, or a sailboat in full sails waiting for a new journey. He began to write a "Transfer Request Letter" to the head of the hospital.
+这不是一份普通的《请调报告》,而是一次自我心灵的剖白,ー张人生价值的答卷,ー份向旧医疗体制宣战的檄文
+This is not an ordinary "Transfer Request Letter", but a confession of one's heart, an answer sheet of one's life values, and a declaration of war against the old healthcare system.
+“20岁时,我为‘人为什么活着’这个严肃的问题而苦恼过,求索过。在那个动荡的年代,我心中的希望之光泯灭过,我也曾颓废过,消沉过。但我终于自拔了,振 作了,并在坎坷的道路上奋斗了 20年。
+“When I was 20 years old, I struggled and searched for the serious question of 'why do people live.' In those turbulent times, the light of hope in my heart was once extinguished, and I was disillusioned and depressed. But I finally pulled myself out, picked myself up, and struggled for 20 years on a tough road.
+而今,作为一名80年代的中年知识分子, 作为一名炎黄子孙,我又为‘怎样度过余生’这个严肃的问题,而苦苦思索,认真探求。经过人生的苦、辣、酸、甜,我真正地认识到,人为了自己活着,就会永远感到空虚和不满足,而为了人民去工作和奋斗,就会感到充实。这种思索与探求,使我的心灵得到净化,使我抛弃了小我,去追求人生的真谛。
+“Now, as a middle-aged intellectual of the 80s, as a Chinese , I am again earnestly thinking and exploring the question of“how to spend the rest of my life”. Having been through the ups and downs of life, I truly realized that if a person lives for themselves, they will always feel empty and unsatisfied. While if they work and strive for the people, they will feel fulfilled. This kind of thinking and exploration has purified my soul, and made me abandon my selfishness to pursue the true meaning of life.
+“到阜外医院8年,我由一名基层医院的普通医生,成长为一名心血管外科主治医生。回想8年来的一幕幕,我不禁心潮澎湃,思绪难平,对给予我一切的阜外医院和我的启蒙导师,心中充满了对亲生父母般的赤子之情,有着永远不能忘怀的感激与眷恋……
+"During my eight years at Fuwai Hospital, I grew from an ordinary doctor to an attending in cardiovascular surgery. Looking back on the past 8 years, I can't help but feel overwhelmed with emotions and, and my heart is filled with gratitude and attachment to Fuxing Hospital and my mentor that gave me everything, like my own parents...
+“我国现有300多万心脏病人等待着手术,而全国每年仅能完成几千例,存在着严重的供求矛盾。心血管疾病虽然不像霍乱、天花等烈性传染病那样被视为洪水猛兽,但却毫不留情地吞噬着千万人的生命。
+"There are currently more than three million heart disease patients in China waiting for surgery, but only a few thousand operations can be completed each year, thus there is a serious contradiction between supply and demand. Although cardiovascular disease is not considered as deadly as cholera, smallpox and other acute contagious diseases, it ruthlessly devours the lives of millions of people.
+我由衷地赞同、支持我院当前所搞的心血管外科临床协作和建立全国培训中心,但也清楚地看到,当前这种协作方式达到真正奏效的难处……我觉得,各地方搞心血管外科唯一有效的途径是建立心血管专科医院。像阜外医院、上海胸科医院等有实カ的大医疗中心,应向全国搞协作和培训,不应像蜻蜓点水,飞走后又是ー潭死水;而应像ー架播种机,到祖国的沃土上去播种……舍出几个卒子,甚至几员大将,必将走活ー盘死棋。
+“I wholeheartedly support the clinical collaboration and establishment of a national training center in cardiovascular surgery that our hospital is currently working on, but I also clearly see the difficulties in achieving real effectiveness through this collaborative approach... I think that the only effective way for local areas to develop cardiovascular surgery is to establish specialized cardiovascular hospitals. Large medical centers , such as Fuwai Hospital and Shanghai Chest Hospital, should cooperate and train medical professionals nationwide, rather than just touching the surface. They should act like a sower, sowing on the fertile land of our country... Sacrificing a few soldiers, or even a few generals, will undoubtedly lead to a successful outcome in this difficult situation."
+“黑龙江是我的故乡,那里因气候寒冷,经济文化落后,先后天心脏病的发病率都高于全国平均数,10万病人处在投医无路、求治无门之中。我决心抛弃北京优越的生活条件,离开培养我的阜外医院,为家乡水深火热中的父老兄弟筹建一座心 血管病医院,为中国的心血管外科事业开辟一条新路。我深知,自己的精力有限, 时光有限,业务水平和行政能力也有限,也许今生今世难遂夙愿。但我情愿做铺路 石,做人梯,让后人继续去开拓,去登攀。我的离去,对阜外医院的损失只是暂时的、局部的,却有可能改变家乡千万人的命运。我向领导正式提出,请把我当作第 一粒种子播下去吧!”
+“Heilongjiang province is my hometown. Due to its cold climate and underdeveloped economy and culture, the incidence of heart disease has been higher than the national average. 100,000 patients lacked access to medical treatment. I made the decision to leave behind the comfortable living conditions of Beijing and Fuwai Hospital that trained me, to build a cardiovascular hospital for my suffering folks and to open up a new path for China's cardiovascular surgery. I know my energy, time, expertise, and administrative abilities are limited, and my wish may never come true in this lifetime. However, I am willing to be the stepping stone for future generations. My departure may cause temporary and partial loss to Fuwai Hospital, but it is likely to change the fate of millions in my hometown. I formally request that leaders take me as the first seed and plant me in my hometown!"
+页报告,一蹴而就。
+A 10-page report, all in one go.
+他最后写道:“心底无私天地宽。站在人生的十字路口,我的心境从未像现在这样开朗,头脑从未像现在这样清晰,决心从未像现在这样坚定。风萧萧兮塞外寒,壮士一去兮不复还!”
+In the end, he wrote, "With an unselfish heart, the world is vast. Standing at the crossroads of life, I have never been more open-minded, more clear-headed and more determined than I am now. The wind howls in the desolate north, and once a brave warrior departs, he never returns!" It was written with a touch of sorrow and desolation.
+写得有几分悲壮,几分苍凉。
+The writing has a touch of tragedy and desolation.
+这份在阜外医院建院以来从未有过的《请调报告》,就像一枚炸弹,在医院里掀起一场轩然大波。人们猜测着刘晓程调离阜外的真正原因,是领导对他重视不够,还是家属安排不周?仔细ー想,阜外医院对他不错,送他出国留学;破格提拔他为四个病区的负责人;刚分给他两居室的住房;他妻子被调到邮电部医院……
+This "Transfer Request Letter" that had never happened since the establishment of Fuwai Hospital was like a bomb, causing a huge wave in the hospital. People speculated about the real reason for Liu Xiaocheng's transfer away from Fuwai. Was it because the leaders hadn't valued him enough or because of the inconsiderate arrangements for his family? But in reflection, Fufang Hospital had treated him well. They sent him abroad to study, promoted him as the head of four wards, just allocated him a two-bedroom apartment, and his wife was transferred to the Postal and Telecommunications Hospital.
+而且在学术上,他成功地完成了全院第一例正后壁梗后室壁瘤切除术并搭了两支桥;他使术后停跳45分钟的病人心脏复苏;他参与了国家“七五”攻关重点科研“冠心病心肌血重建方法”的研究和协调工作;他建立起液氮保存的同种生物瓣实验室,并将该瓣首次应用于临床,填补了国内空白。这ー课题获得国家自然科学基金和中国医学科学院科研基金……
+Furthermore, in terms of academics, he successfully completed the first operation of resecting the posterior ventricular wall tumor and created two bypasses, revived a patient's heart that had stopped beating for 45 minutes after surgery, participated in the research and coordination of the national key scientific research project "Coronary Heart Disease Myocardial Blood Reconstruction Method," and established a laboratory for preserving homograft bioprosthetic valve in liquid nitrogen, and applied it to clinical practice for the first time, filling the gap in the domestic field. This project also got funding from The National Natural Science Foundation of China and the research fund of  Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences (CAMS)...
+“晓程,是工作不顺心,还是院领导考虑不周?院领导一直很器重你,希望你不要走。”院党委书记陈德林同志找刘晓程谈话。
+"Xiaocheng, is it because of your work being unsatisfactory or because the hospital leaders are not considerate enough ? The leaders has always valued you, and hopes you won't leave." Chen Delin, the party secretary of the hospital, talked to Liu Xiaocheng.
+“告诉我,晓程,到底因为什么?”郭加强院长是刘晓程的研究生导师。刘晓程是郭院长最得意的弟子,两人私交甚好。郭院长直言不讳地问道。
+"Tell me, Xiaocheng, what's the real reason?" Guo Jiaqiang, the hospital dean, is Liu Xiaocheng's mentor. Liu Xiaocheng is Guo Jiaqiang's prized pupil, and they have a good relationship with each other. Guo Jiaqiang  asked straightforwardly.
+“导师,黑龙江是心血管病的高发区,10万心血管病人急需手术,那里更需要我。我准备在黑龙江建一座心血管病医院!”
+"Mentor, Heilongjiang is a high-risk area for cardiovascular diseases, and there are 100,000 cardiovascular patients in urgent need of surgery. They need me more over there. I plan to build a cardiovascular disease hospital in Heilongjiang!"
+“噢,原来是这样,并不是因为人际关系或者待遇问题……”郭院长的心里感到ー丝安慰,“我看你还是把关系留在阜外,先回去干一段看看再说,觉得不理想再回来嘛。”
+"Oh, I see. It's not because of personal relationships or treatment ." hospital director Guo Jiaqiang felt a bit relieved in his heart. "I suggest you keep the relationship at Fufang and go back to work there for a while. If you don't find it ideal, then come back."
+“谢谢导师,可我必须破釜沉舟,背水一战,否则会动摇我的意志”
+"Thank you, mentor, but I have to go all out, or else it will shake my determination."
+“你还是好好考虑考虑吧!”
+"Well, you may as well think about it carefully ."
+院领导不放,刘晓程只好去找曾担任佳木斯合江地委书记、现任中组部副部长的曹志同志说情。曹志给卫生部陈敏章部长写信说:“刘晓程立志到下面去,为人民解除病痛,这种精神应给予支持。”
+Given that the hospital leader refused to let him go, Liu Xiaocheng had to go to Comrade Cao Zhi, who had served as the secretary of the Hejiang local party committee in Jiamusi and is now the Vice minister of the Organization Department of the Central Committee of the CPC, to intercede. Cao Zhi wrote a letter to Chen Minzhang, the Ministry of Health, saying, "Liu Xiaocheng is determined to go to the grassroots to relieve the people of their illnesses. This spirit should be supported."
+看到刘晓程去意坚决,郭加强院长只好忍痛放行。
+Seeing that Liu Xiaocheng was determined to leave, Director of the hospital Guo Jiaqiang had to reluctantly let him go.
+“既然是这样,我也就不勉强留你了。今后无论遇到什么困难尽管告诉我,导师的大门永远冲你晓程敞开着!”
+"Since you were determined, I won't force you to stay. Whatever difficulties you encounter in the future, just tell me. As your mentor, my door will always be open to you! My doors will always be open to you,
+Xiaocheng!"
+“谢谢导师的关怀!”
+"Thank you for your concern, mentor!"
+临行前,一群收入微薄的护士凑钱请刘晓程到烤鸭店去吃烤鸭,约好每人送给他几句话,可到了餐桌上一句话都讲不出来,只有一片呜咽声。中层干部送别会上,一位副主任说:“晓程,你想到了我们大家想过的事,却做出了我们没有勇气做的事。”
+Before leaving, a group of low-paid nurses pooled their money to invite Liu Xiaocheng to a roast duck restaurant, each of them planning to say a few words to him. But when they sat down to eat, no one could say anything except for sobs. At the farewell party held for middle leaders, a deputy director said, "Xiao Cheng, you thought what we all thought, but did what we didn't have the courage to do."
+后来,这位副主任果然去了海南。一群研究生把刘晓程拉进宿舍,几杯薄酒为他饯行:“晓程你先走,我们为你壮行。这条路走对了,我们毕业后也回家乡!”
+Later, the deputy director did go to Hainan. A group of graduate students dragged Liu Xiaocheng into their dormitory and gave him a little farewell party with wine. "You go first, Xiaocheng. We'll cheer for you. You chose the right path, we'll come back to our hometown after graduation too!
+院器械处给刘晓程送来大量的器械,并把空压机换了马达,怕他用坏了没处修;麻醉科主任给他送来一大袋麻醉用品;历来有“把家虎”之称的监护室护士长, 破天荒地送给他ー堆难买的小器械;药剂科的丁飞主任眼含热泪叮嘱他:“今后不 管什么紧缺药,只要阜外有的就有你晓程的！”病房的病人听说他要走,纷纷爬起来为他送别。
+The medical equipment department of the hospital sent a large number of medical devices to Liu Xiaocheng, and even replaced the motor of the air compressor for fear that he would break it and have nowhere to repair it. A Head of Anesthesiology sent him a big bag of anesthetic supplies. The head nurse of the Intensive Care Unit, who has always been known as "the guardian of the hospital," sent him a pile of hard-to-buy small equipment unexpectedly. The Director of Pharmacy, Ding Fei, with tears in his eyes, urged him, "No matter what scarce medicine is needed in the future, as long as Fuwai has it, you can also have it, Xiaocheng!" When the patients in the ward heard that he was leaving, they all got up to bid him farewell.
+人们赞扬刘晓程的妻子洪依舒很伟大,竟然舍弃北京优越的环境,跟丈夫回黑龙江去受苦,这在一般女人是做不到的。刘晓程也觉得妻子很了不起,但在临行前 一天晚间,洪依舒看到昨天还温馨流溢的家,忽然变得冷冷清清一无所有了,她哭 了。他拥着她在空空荡荡的屋里站了很久。他知道,这个家再也不属于他们了。
+People praise Liu Xiaocheng's wife Hong Yishu for her greatness, because she gave up the privileged environment of Beijing and went back to Heilongjiang with her husband to suffer, which was something that most women cannot do. Liu Xiaocheng also thought that his wife is amazing, but on the evening before they left, Hong Yishu saw the home that was warm and affectionate yesterday suddenly became deserted and empty and cried. He held her in the empty house for a long time. He knew that this home no longer belonged to them.
+世界因为他而改变The world changed because of him.
+凤凰卫视资讯台总编阮次山先生说:“如果一个人年过30,你胸中的理想依然存在,你必然会有前途。就是做ー个升斗小民,也可以选择做ー个什么样的升斗小民。”
+Mr. Ruan Cishan, the chief editor of Phoenix TV News, said, "If a person is over 30 years old and still holds onto their ideals, they are bound to have a bright future. Even if they are just an ordinary person, they can still choose to be an extraordinary one."
+年6月14日,刘晓程起程回黑龙江。
+On 14 June 1987, Liu Xiaocheng sets off for Heilongjiang.
+决心回黑龙江之后,他的首选地是故乡佳木斯。春节放假期间,他曾找到市政府领导谈,说他要回佳木斯建一所心血管病医院,为家乡父老做点贡献。这位领导却以资金紧张为由回绝了他。之后,他来到距离佳木斯很近的牡丹江市。牡丹江的东安医院曾派医生到阜外医院学习过心脏手术,他曾带过他们的进修生。
+After making the decision to return to Heilongjiang, his first stop was his hometown of Jiamusi. During the Chinese New Year holiday, he approached the Municipal government leaders to discuss about building a cardiovascular hospital in Jiamusi so as to contribute to his folks. However, the leader rejected with the excuse that money was tight. Liu then went to Mudanjiang city, which is close to Jiamusi. Dong'an Hospital in Mudanjiang had previously sent doctors to learn how to do heart surgery at Fuwai Hospital, and Liu had trained some of them.
+年春节期间,他带着巡回医疗队就在东安医院做过8台心脏手术。这次,他向牡丹江市政府领导说明了来意,立刻受到市政府领导的欢迎,并任命他为东安医院的党支部书记兼院长。就这样,以美丽的镜泊湖著称的牡丹江市,张开双臂热烈欢迎这位赤子的到来。
+During the 1987 Chinese New Year holiday, he performed eight heart surgeries with a mobile medical team at Dong'an Hospital. This time, he explained his intentions to the Mudanjiang Municipal People’s Government and was warmly welcomed and appointed as the secretary of the hospital's Party branch and the hospital director. Thus, the beautiful city of Mudanjiang, famous for its Jingpo Lake, warmly welcomed this passionate man.
+然而,随着他们一家三口的到来,一些流言蜚语却像空气ー样悄悄地弥漫开来。
+“他肯定是在北京干不下去了,要不从国家大医院跑到这大集体医院来干啥?”“听说在镜泊湖给他盖了一幢别墅呢。要不,他从北京跑这穷地方来图啥呀?”
+However, with their arrival, some rumors quietly went viral.
+"He must have been unable to carry on his work in Beijing, why else would he left a national hospital to this collective hospital?"
+"I heard that a villa was built for him at Jingbo Lake. Why would he come to this poor place from Beijing?"
+东安医院是一所区级大集体医院,小日本侵略中国时盖的,半个多世纪的风剥雨蚀,早已经老掉牙了。墙壁ー碰就掉白灰,地板使劲ー踩就会陷下去。全院仅有 2000平方米房舍、70张床位,却有200多名职エ。医院穷得叮当响,背负几十万元的外债,没有像样的麻醉师,没有得力的助手,没有像样的器械……
+Dong'an Hospital is a district-level collective hospital built during the War of Resistance Against Japan. With a history of more than half a century, it has already become old and weathered. The walls peeled off at the touch, and the floor sank underfoot. The entire hospital had only 2000 square meters of housing and 70 beds, but there were more than 200 staff members. The hospital was so poor that it had external debt of tens of thousands of yuan and had no competent anesthesiologists, no capable assistants, and no decent medical equipment...
+刘晓程一家三口挤在ー间狭小的办公室里。难怪老百姓要问:刘晓程来牡丹江到底图啥?
+Liu Xiaocheng and his family crowded together in a small office. No wonder the people asked: Why did Liu Xiaocheng up come to Mudanjiang?
+可是,刘晓程却感到ー种从未有过的畅快,终于扔掉一切束缚,可以甩开膀子干了。第二天他就走上了手术台。就在这所简陋得令人难以置信的医院里,就在这间用竹竿支起塑料布、用来接住屋顶剥落的白灰及缓霜滴水的手术室里,靠几位仅受过初级训练的医护人员协助,他ー台接一台做起了世界最先进的心脏手术,一 周就完成了十几例。
+However, Liu Xiaocheng felt an unprecedented sense of liberation. He could finally lay himself out. The next day, he began performing surgery. In this shabby hospital, in this operating room set up with bamboo poles and plastic sheets used to catch the falling white powder and melting frost water from the roof, and with only a few medical personnel with basic training assisting him, he performed the most advanced heart surgeries in the world one after another, completing more than a dozen in a week.
+这里还经常停电,ー停电体外循环机就停了,只能用手摇泵继续手术。一次, 《健康报》的两名记者来采访又遇到停电,从未见过心脏手术的记者用颤抖的手擎着手电,为刘晓程继续手术照明。过后,两名记者带着一群患者家属去找市长“请 愿”,市长特批为东安医院增加了双路电,这オ解决了停电问题。
+Power outages often occurred here, and when the power went out, the cardiopulmonary bypass unit stopped working, and they had to continue the operation by using a hand pump. Once when two journalists from Health News came to interview, the power went out again. The journalists ,who had never seen heart surgery before, held a torch with their trembling hands to illuminate the surgery for Liu Xiaocheng. Afterwards, the two journalists took a group of patients' families to petition the mayor and the mayor approved an increase in the electricity supply to Dongan Hospital, which eventually solved the power outage problem.
+牡丹江能做心脏手术的消息不胫而走,各地的心脏病患者纷至沓来。小小东安医院原来门可罗雀,现在却一下子火爆起来。但刘晓程深知,即使他长出三头六臂日夜不停地手术,也远不能解决医患之间严重的供需矛盾,必须尽快培训出ー批能独当一面的心外科医生。可是,医院要钱没钱,要人オ没人才,要培养出ー批心外科医生,谈何容易?
+The news that heart surgeries could be performed in Mudanjiang spread quickly. Heart disease patients all came in from all over the place. The once deserted Dongan Hospital suddenly became popular. However, Liu Xiaocheng knew that even if he had three heads and six arms and performed surgeries day and night, it would not solve the serious supply and demand imbalance between doctors and patients. They must train a group of independent and competent cardiac surgeons as soon as possible. However, the hospital had no money, no talent, and it was not easy to train such a group of cardiac surgeons.
+但是,在刘晓程眼里,一切困难都不过是脚下的沙砾,人生的道路就是由诸多沙砾组成的。他ー边手把手地教年轻医生手术,ー边四处抽调人才,ー边游说各级领导筹建心血管病医院。他教诲年轻人:“你们这些人要以天下为己任,要让自己尽快成熟起来!拿破仑说,不想当元帅的士兵不是好士兵。我要告诉你们,不想超过师傅的徒弟就不是好徒弟!”
+But in Liu Xiaocheng's eyes, life was bound to be full of difficulties. He taught young doctors how to perform surgery step by step, while recruiting talents and persuading leaders at all levels to build a cardiovascular hospital. He taught young people, "You must take the world as your own responsibility and grow mature as soon as possible! Napoleon once said, "A soldier who does not want to be a marshal is not a good soldier." And I want to tell you that a student who does not want to surpass his teacher is not a good disciple!"
+在刘晓程看来,每个人心灵深处都隐藏着ー种激情,只要你把他们心中的激情点燃,人人都会焕发出ー种不可估量的能量,只有周围的人都能充满激情地对待エ 作,对待生活,才能形成一股强大的核心力,才能干出一番事业。
+In Liu Xiaocheng's view, there is a passion hidden deep in everyone's heart. As long as you ignite it , he will radiate an immeasurable amount of energy. Only when those around you treat their work and life with passion can a strong core force be formed, and a great career can be achieved.
+刘晓程的到来就像ー团火,点燃了死气沉沉几十年的医院,也点燃了一颗颗沉闷多年的心。大家纷纷被激励出从未有过的生机与活力。
+Liu Xiaocheng's arrival was like a bonfire, igniting the hospital that had been depressing for decades, and igniting the hearts that had been depressed for years. Everyone was inspired with vitality and vigor that has never been seen before.
+这里的医生从未见过心脏四联症根治术,不懂心脏换瓣,更没有见过国内只有少数医生能做的冠状动脉搭桥术。刘晓程就带领大家去电影院,趁人家放电影空隙,借用电影放映机来观看病人带来的心脏造影片子。可是,刚ー开机片子就忽然起火了,吓得放映员急忙关掉了机器。
+The doctors here had never seen a complete repair for Tetralogy of Fallot, did not understand heart valve replacement, and had never seen a Coronary artery bypass grafting (CABG) that only a few doctors in China could perform. Liu Xiaocheng led everyone to the cinema and used the movie projector to watch the heart imaging films brought by the patients during breaks in the screenings.However, as soon as the machine was turned on, the film caught fire and the projectionist quickly turned off the machine.
+原来国产造影片子放映机拉不动,ー拉就烧。他只好带着大家在观片灯下一片一片用放大镜看,边看边给大家讲解各种心脏手术,看完一个造影片子要花六七个小时。
+It turned out that the domestic imaging film cannot be watched with projector which could not be pulled, and if it was pulled, the film would burn itself. He had no choice but to bring everyone to watch the films one by one under the observation lamp with a magnifying glass, explaining various heart surgeries while watching. It took six or seven hours to watch one imaging film.
+为了强化医护人员的英语,在资金十分紧张的情况下,他为大家订购大量的外文书籍和期刊,请来全市最好的英语教师教大家口语。他要求医护人员平时尽量用英语对话。而且,在导师奥布来恩博士的帮助下,这所小小的大集体医院竟然派出30多名医护人员到查理王子医院留学。
+To strengthen the English skills of medical staff, even in a very tight financial situation, he ordered a large number of foreign books and journals for everyone and invited the best English teachers in the city to teach everyone to speak English. He required medical staff to speak English as much as possible in their daily conversations. In addition, with the help of his mentor, Dr. Mark F. O'Brien, this small collective hospital actually sent more than 30 medical staff members to study at The Prince Charles Hospital.
+刘晓程不仅重视医术,更重视全院医护人员的医德。
+Liu Xiaocheng not only valued medical skills, but also valued the medical ethics of all hospital staff.
+他向全院职エ提出:“假如病人是你的父母、兄弟、姐妹和孩子,你该怎样对待?”他第一次打出了“患者就是上帝”的口号。手术失败了,他和大家一起寝食无味;手术成功了,他和大家一起欢呼雀跃。为了抢救亟待输血的病人,他毫不犹豫地伸出自己的胳膊;为了一个复杂手术,他16个小时没下手术台;为了救活ー个病人,他三天三夜未合眼,晕倒在手术台上……
+He proposed to the entire hospital staff: "If the patient was your parent, brother, sister, or child, how would you treat them?" He was the first to put forward the slogan "Patients were Gods". If the surgery failed, he and everyone else would lose his appetite; if the surgery succeeded, he would cheered with others. In order to save a patient who urgently needed a blood transfusion, he unhesitatingly extended his own arm; for a complex surgery, he did not leave the operating table for 16 hours; to save a patient's life, he did not sleep for three days and three nights, and even passed out by the operating table...
+每当手术结束,当刘晓程向病人家属出示从他们亲人心脏上取下的病理标本, 从病人家属颤抖的双手上,从他们感激涕零的目光中,医护人员似乎读懂了人生的 真谛一“人为什么活着”这个简单而复杂的命题。试想,还有什么比拯救他人的生命而使自己活得更崇高、更充实、更有价值呢?
+Every time when the surgery ended and Liu Xiaocheng showed the pathological specimen taken from the patient's heart to the patient's family, the medical staff seemed to understand, from their trembling hands and grateful eyes, the truth of life ----the simple yet complex proposition of "why do we live?"
+ What could be more noble, fulfilling, and valuable than saving the lives of others?
+刘晓程说:“有人曾说,世界上三种人是最幸福的,ー种是母亲看孩子洗澡;另ー种是大人看小孩玩沙子;最后ー种就是我们医生治好了病人。”
+Liu Xiaocheng said, " Someone once said that there are three kinds of people in the world who are the happiest: mothers who watch their children take a bath; adults who watch children play in the sand; and finally, doctors who healed the sick."
+一天,一位55岁的农民苦苦地哀求刘晓程救救他,说他不想死,家里上有老下有小,一大家子人都等着他呢。刘晓程却发现这位农民的心脏像篮球似的,任何搭桥术对他极度衰竭的心脏来说都无济于事了,要想拯救他的生命,只能做心脏移植。但就现状,到哪儿能弄到ー颗鲜活的心脏给ー个农民换上?
+One day, a 55-year-old farmer begged Liu Xiaocheng to save him. He said he didn't want to die, and that he had a large family to support. However, Liu Xiaocheng found that the farmer's heart was like a basketball, and no coronary artery bypass grafting would work for his severely weakened heart. The only way to save his life was heart transplant. But given the current situation, where could they get a fresh heart to replace the farmer's?
+也许,这位农民前世修来ー份天缘,就在这时传来ー个消息,说一名被判处死刑的杀人犯临死前良心发现,要求死后把自己的器官捐给社会。听到这个不知真假的消息,刘晓程急忙跑到看守所,费尽口舌见到了罪犯。
+Perhaps the God repay this farmer for his good deeds in his past life. At that critical moment, news came that a prisoner on death row had a change of heart before his execution and wanted to donate his organs to society. Upon hearing this possibly true news, Liu Xiaocheng rushed to the prison and went to great lengths to meet the criminal.
+罪犯20多岁,男性,一副心如死灰的表情。The criminal was a young man in his twenties, with a dead expression on his face.
+刘晓程问他:“你真决定要把自己的器官捐给社会吗?”
+Liu Xiaocheng asked him, "Are you really determined to donate your organs to society?"
+青年毫无表情地点点头。
+ The young man nodded expressionlessly.
+“你为什么要捐献自己的器官呢?”
+"Why do you want to donate your organs?"
+“为了赎罪……”
+  "To atone..."
+“你不为你的决定后悔吗?”
+"Don't you regret your decision?"
+“有啥可后悔的,人都死了留着它有啥用!”
+  "What's there to regret? "I'm dying, What's the point of keeping my organs?"
+刘晓程向青年伸出ー只手来,青年却迟疑着:“我手上沾满了鲜血”
+Liu Xiaocheng reached out his hand to the young man, but the young man hesitated,saying "I had blood on my hands."
+“我是医生,我手上也沾满了血。”
+"I'm a doctor, I had blood on my hands, too."
+“可你是为了救人……”
+ "But you're saving lives..."
+“我为你感到遗憾,因为你是法盲。可我很敬佩你做出这样的决定,我要谢谢你。”
+"I feel sorry for you because you are ignorant of the law. But I admire your decision, and I want to thank you."
+青年疑惑地盯着刘晓程,迟疑地伸出手来握住他的手:“你……为什么要谢我?”
+The young man stared at Liu Xiaocheng, looking puzzled and surprised. After a long while, he extended his hand and shook Liu Xiaocheng's hand. "Why are you thanking me?"
+“因为你将拯救另外一个人的生命。”
+"Because you will save another person's life."
+青年用那呆滞的、走到人生尽头的目光,茫然而惊讶地望着刘晓程,久久不动。
+The young man looked at Liu Xiaocheng with a dull, life-ending gaze, bewildered and surprised, and did not move for a long time.
+刘晓程跟这个即将告别人世的青年成了朋友,ー连几次来探望他。临刑前ー天晚上,他还为青年设了一顿便宴。
+Liu Xiaocheng became friends with this young man who was about to bid farewell to the world, and visited him several times. The night before his execution, Liu Xiaocheng held a small party for the young man.
+“刘大夫,你这么把我当人,我死了也知足了。”青年满眼泪水,将杯中酒ー饮而尽。
+ "Dr. Liu, you treat me like a human being. Even if I die, I will die satisfied." The young man said with tears in his eyes and drained his glass of wine.
+在ー个烟雨蒙蒙的清晨,刘晓程目送着青年一步ー步向刑场走去,青年留下的最后一句话是:“如果我能早点遇到你,也许不会走到今天。”刘晓程感到遗憾,他拯救过千万人的生命,唯独拯救不了这个年轻人。令他聊以自慰的是,他帮助青年 实现了最后的夙愿。就在这一天,那位55岁的农民获得了第二次生命。手术做得 相当成功,时间是1992年7月5日。
+On a misty morning, Liu Xiaocheng watched as the young man walked step by step towards the execution ground. The last words the young man left behind were, "If I had met you earlier, maybe I wouldn't have ended up like this." Liu Xiaocheng felt regretful, as he had saved millions of lives but was unable to save this young man. But to his relief, he had helped the young man fulfill his final wish. On the same day, the 55-year-old farmer received a second chance to live through a successful surgery. The operation was done on July 5, 1992.
+紧接着,刘晓程又为一名38岁的农民成功地完成了心脏移植。医护人员给两名移植心脏的病人起名叫大宝和二宝。痊愈之后,大宝和二宝戴着红袖标,为医院担任起警卫和导诊员。
+Following that, Liu Xiaocheng successfully performed a heart transplant for a 38-year-old farmer. The medical staff named the two transplant recipients "Big Treasure" and "Little Treasure". After they recovered, Big Treasure and Little Treasure wore red armbands and served as security guards and guides for the hospital.
+在完成心脏移植的基础上,刘晓程又完成了我国首例心、肺联合移植术,使小小牡丹江医院成为全世界能开展此项手术的五十家医院之一,使我国跻身于世界心血管外科的先进行列。国际心肺移植协会邀请牡丹江医院加入了世界心肺移植协会。
+On the basis of completing a heart transplant, Liu Xiaocheng has completed China's first Heart-lung transplantation (HLTx), making the small Mudanjiang Hospital one of the fifty hospitals in the world that could perform such a operation and enabling China to advance to the forefront of the world's cardiovascular surgery. The International Society for Heart and Lung Transplantation (ISHLT) invited Mudanjiang Hospital to join it.
+当年,“八女投江”的故事曾为牡丹江塑造了血染的风采。而今,刘晓程又使牡丹江名声大噪。他的事迹震撼了国内外专家、学者。卫生部部长陈敏章写信表示祝贺。国外一些专家、学者纷纷向他伸出援助之手。
+Years ago, the story of the "Eight Women Die a Martyr" had given Mudanjiang much reputation for patriotism. Now, Liu Xiaocheng has brought fame to Mudanjiang once again. His deeds have deeply impressed domestic and foreign experts and scholars. Chen Minzhang, Minister of the Ministry of Health of the People's Republic of China, sent a letter of congratulations. Some foreign experts and scholars have extended their helping hands to him.
+联邦德国某厂家赠给牡丹江医院200根体外循环插管;加拿大朋友说服了加拿大政府,为牡丹江医院提供了价值240万元人民币的设备;美国10位朋友在1989年9月,顶着美国政府的压力,带着20万美元的捐赠设备专程来到牡丹江。美国慈善机构总裁麦根先生问刘晓程:“你为什么在国内国外都要牺牲自己?”
+A German manufacturer donated 200 extracorporeal circulation catheters to Mudanjiang Hospital. Friends from Canada convinced the Canadian government to provide equipment worth 2.4 million yuan to Mudanjiang Hospital. In September 1989, under pressure from the US government, 10 American friends brought a donation of equipment worth $200,000 to Mudanjiang. Mr. McGin, the president of An American charity organization, asked Liu Xiaocheng: "Why do you contributing yourself both at home and abroad?"
+刘晓程回答:“为了千千万万贫困的病人。”
+Liu Xiaocheng replied, "For the millions of poor patients."
+麦根总裁大为感动:“我来中国27次了,中国要求援助的单位很多,但我决定将你的名字放在我们名单的第一位。你缺什么尽管告诉我,我会全力支持你!”
+Mr. McGin was greatly moved and said, "I have been to China 27 times, and there are many units in China that request aid, but I decided to put your name at the top of our list. Tell me what you need, and I will do my best to support you!"
+年之内,麦根总裁4次援助刘晓程价值十几万美元的药品及器材。麦根不仅亲自带器材来中国,还派儿子从美国专程飞到中国给刘晓程送器材及药品。
+Within five years, Mr. McGin assisted Liu Xiaocheng four times with drugs and equipment worth tens of thousands of dollars. Mr. McGin not only brought the equipment to China himself, but also sent his son from the United States to China to deliver the equipment and drugs to Liu Xiaocheng.
+澳大利亚的朋友利用假期纷纷自费飞到牡丹江,来举办讲座,与刘晓程在简陋的手术室里同台手术。临行前夜,导师和澳大利亚的朋友一定要去看看刘晓程的妻子和儿子。当看到著名心血管医生一家三口住在简陋的办公室里,他们的眼睛湿润了,紧紧地拥抱着刘晓程说:“我们还会来的!”等他们再来时,给刘晓程带来ー个惊人的好消息:经澳大利亚朋友的努力,澳大利亚国际发展援助署决定,为牡丹江医院培养专科技术人才。
+Liu's friends from Australia all used their holidays to come to Mudanjiang at their own expense to give lectures and perform operations in the simple operating room with Liu Xiaocheng. On the eve of their departure, Liu’s  mentors and his Australian friends insisted on visiting Liu Xiaocheng's wife and son. When they saw the old office where a famous doctor like Liu xiaocheng and his family lived, their eyes were moist, and they hugged Liu Xiaocheng tightly, saying, "We will come back!"
+And when they arrived in China again, they brought Liu Xiaocheng astonishing news: with the efforts of Liu's Australian friends, the Australian International Development Assistance Bureau (AIDAB)  decided to train specialized technical personnel for Mudanjiang Hospital.
+江泽民说:“晓程啊晓程,你是晓得事业能够成功啊!”
+年10月6日,对于几百万心脏病人来说,是ー个非同寻常的日子。
+Jiang Zemin, 5th President of the People's Republic of China, said, "Xiaocheng, you know how to make the cause successful!"
+October 6th, 1989 was an extraordinary day for millions of heart disease patients.
+下午3点,应国家人事部之邀,31名海外归来的天之骄子,英姿勃发地走进了中南海小会议厅,与江泽民总书记座谈。刘晓程也在其中。
+At 3:00 pm, 31 outstanding overseas returnees, invited by the Ministry of Personnel of the People's Republic of China, walked into the small conference hall of Zhongnanhai with great spirit to have a discussion with Jiang Zemin, 5th President of the People's Republic of China. Liu Xiaocheng was among them.
+到牡丹江以后,刘晓程一直在为筹建心血管专科医院的巨额资金而四处奔波。尽管黑龙江省、牡丹江市领导对他大力支持,在财政十分紧张的情况下,为筹建新 医院投资1000万元,但距离创建一所现代化心血管医院还相距甚远。
+After arriving in Mudanjiang, Liu Xiaocheng had been working tirelessly to raise the huge funds needed to build a specialized cardiovascular hospital. The leaders of Heilongjiang Province and Mudanjiang City gave him great support and invested 10 million yuan in the preparation of the new hospital despite financial constraints, but it was still a long way from creating a modern cardiovascular hospital.
+他正在为资金问题发愁,忽然接到国家人事部的邀请,请他赴京参加江总书记与留学生代表的座谈。聪明过人的他立刻意识到机会来了。所以,当江泽民总书记面带微笑地坐下来,30名留学生还沉浸在兴奋与拘谨之中,坐在前排的刘晓程却第一个发言了。
+As Liu was worrying about the funding issue, he suddenly received an invitation from the Ministry of Personnel of the People's Republic of China to attend a symposium between Mr.Jiang Zemin and representatives of overseas students in Beijing. Smart as he was, he immediately realized that this was an opportunity. Therefore, when Mr.Jiang Zemin sat down with a smile, and when the 30 overseas students were still immersed in excitement and restraint, Liu Xiaocheng, sitting in the front row, was the first to speak.
+“我是从澳大利亚留学归来的刘晓程,我在牡丹江东安医院工作。当年,我的导师让我留在澳大利亚,我说:中国有句老话,叫作 “儿不嫌母丑,狗不嫌家贫”。 澳大利亚虽然条件优越,但并不需要我;我的国家虽然很穷,却很需要我。为了报效国家,我从澳大利亚回到祖国。为了拯救更多的心脏病人,我又从阜外医院回到了黑龙江。
+"I am Liu Xiaocheng, who returned from studying abroad in Australia, and I work for Dong'an Hospital in Mudanjiang now. When I was studying abroad, my mentor once wanted me to stay in Australia, but I said there is an old saying in China that goes "A child will not dislike their mother for being ugly, and a dog will not dislike their home for being poor." Although Australia has privileged environment, they don't need me. My country, though poor, needs me. So I returned to my homeland  from Australia to serve my country. And now, in order to save more heart disease patients, I returned to Heilongjiang from Fuwai Hospital.
+目前,我国有三四百万心脏病人需要手术,可我们每年仅能手做1%的手术,存在着严重的供需矛盾。许多病人都在苦苦地等待着手术,可绝大部分病人一直等到死都排不上号。所以,我们计划在牡丹江创建一所心血管病专科医院。
+Currently, there are three to four million heart disease patients in China who need surgeries, but we can only perform 1% of the surgeries needed each year, resulting in a serious supply-demand contradiction.
+Many patients are waiting desperately for surgery, but most of them cannot get an operation in time and die waiting. Therefore, we plan to establish a specialized cardiovascular disease hospital in Mudanjiang. 今天,我请江总书记支持我,请在座的各位领导支持我,帮助我们解决资金问题! 这不是支持我个人,而是支持广大留学生报效祖国的事业,支持我们解决老百姓的疾苦!”
+Today, I ask Mr. Jiang and all the leaders here to support me and help us solve the funding issue. This is not just about supporting me personally, but about supporting the undertakings of overseas students serving our country and about solving the sufferings of the people!"
+“好!晓程同志讲得太好了’江泽民同志立刻赞扬道,“我就喜欢晓程说的那句话,儿不嫌母丑,狗不嫌家贫。如果中国人都像晓程同志这样,以天下为己任,那我们中国的发展就快了嘛！晓程同志,请你放心,我一定全力支持你！在座的各位 也一定全力支持你!”
+"Good!  What Comrade Xiaocheng just said is extremely correct."  Mr.Jiang Zemin immediately praised "I really like the words Xiaocheng used, 'A child will not dislike their mother for being ugly, and a dog will not dislike their home for being poor.' If all Chinese people were like Comrade Xiaocheng, taking the world as their own responsibility, then our country's development would be faster! Comrade Xiaocheng, please rest assured that you have my full support! All the leaders present will also fully support you!"
+“那我代表家乡的父老乡亲谢谢您,谢谢江总书记的支持!”刘晓程急忙说道。
+"Then, on behalf of the people in my hometown, I want to thank you, Mr.Jiang, for your support!" Liu Xiaocheng hurriedly replied.
+会议原定两个小时,却开了 3个多小时。末了,江泽民同志握着刘晓程的手, 笑道:“晓程啊晓程,你是晓得事业能够成功啊!”
+The originally scheduled two-hour meeting lasted for over three hours. In the end, Jiang Zemin shook hands with Liu Xiaocheng and said with a smile, "Xiaocheng, you know how to make the cause succeed!"
+座谈会不久,国务院开会并形成会议纪要:“支持刘晓程同志创建心血管病医院,此事由李铁映和宋健同志负责。”
+Not long after the symposium, the State Council held a meeting and formed minutes: "Support Comrade Liu Xiaocheng in establishing a cardiovascular hospital, and this matter is entrusted to Comrades Li Tieying and Song Jian."
+第二天,《人民日报》发出消息:澳大利亚归来的留学生刘晓程,为了解决百姓疾苦,向江泽民总书记提出创建心血管医院的建议,得到江总书记的大力支持。
+之后,江泽民同志在会上多次表扬刘晓程,胡锦涛同志也接见了刘晓程。
+On the second day, the People's Daily reported that Liu Xiaocheng, a student returning from Australia, proposed to create a cardiovascular hospital to address the suffering of the people, and received strong support from General Secretary Jiang Zemin. Later, Comrade Jiang Zemin praised Liu Xiaocheng several times during meetings , and Comrade Hu Jintao also met with him.
+得知国务院形成会议纪要的当天,刘晓程和副院长王铁林连夜起草报告,两人带着省、市各级政府的批文火速赶到北京,找宋健、李铁映同志批示,说服国家计委、科委、财政部、卫生部、物资部等各级部门的领导……
+On the day that Liu Xiaocheng learned that the State Council had formed a meeting minute, he and Vice President Wang Tielin drafted a report overnight, and with the approval documents of governments at the provincial and municipal levels, they rushed to Beijing to seek approval from Comrades Song Jian and Li Tieying, and to persuade leaders of various departments such as the State Planning Commission (China), the Central Science and Technology Commission , the Ministry of Finance of the People's Republic of China, the Ministry of Health, and the Ministry of Materials...
+“李科长,我是黑龙江牡丹江东安医院的刘晓程。这是我们申请创建心血管医院的报告。为了解决众多被病痛折磨得走投无路、处在水深火热之中的心脏病人, 我们要在牡丹江创建一所心血管病专科医院,得到了江总书记的支持,请您也给予大力支持!您不是在支持我个人,而是在支持千千万万排不上号、住不上院的心脏病人,支持我们的兄弟姐妹,支持我们的医疗事业……”
+"Director Li, I am Liu Xiaocheng from Dong'an Hospital in Mudanjiang, Heilongjiang. This is our report on the proposal to establish a cardiovascular hospital. In order to solve the problems faced by numerous heart disease patients who are tormented by diseases but have no access to medical treatment, we want to establish a specialized cardiovascular hospital in Mudanjiang. We have received the support of General Secretary Jiang and hope that we can also your full support. You are not supporting me personally, but supporting countless heart disease patients who are unable to get treatment, supporting our brothers and sisters, and supporting our country’s medical cause..."
+游说完科长游说处长,游说完处长再游说局长,ー个接ー个地游说,说得口干舌燥,脚上磨出了血泡,ー连几天连饭都顾不上吃。
+Liu Xiaocheng lobbied the section chief, and then the department head,  the bureau chief , one by one, tirelessly until he got thirsty, had blisters on his feet, and even forgetting to eat for several days.
+人们常说,精诚所至,金石为开。
+People often say that faith will move mountains.
+他们一心为百姓解决疾苦的真诚,深深感动了所有有社会良知的人。财政部李明安司长说:“财政,财政,理财参政。这钱给谁与不给谁,就是最大的政治!你们ー心为百姓办事,我们虽然财力有限,但一定要支持你们!”
+Their sincerity in solving the sufferings of the people deeply moved all those with social conscience. Li Ming'an, Minister of the Ministry of Finance, said, "Finance, namely participating in politics with financial management. The decision of whom to give money to and whom not to give money to is the biggest political issue. You have been serving the people wholeheartedly, and although our financial resources are limited, we must support you!"
+中央各部委相继为牡丹江新医院筹集了 2000万资金及中央外汇。刘晓程为其换过心脏瓣膜的北京建筑设计院高级设计师潘志英同志提出:“即使不给钱也要 帮刘晓程设计医院大楼。”牡丹江的群众得知新医院开办经费不足,纷纷送去钱、布匹、冰箱、彩电
+Central ministries successively raised 20 million yuan in funds and foreign exchange for the new Mudanjiang Hospital. Pan Zhiying, Senior designer at the Beijing Institute of Architectural Design who had undergone heart valve replacement surgery performed by Liu Xiaocheng, suggested , "We must help Liu Xiaocheng design the hospital building even not being paid." When the people of Mudanjiang learned that the funding for the new hospital was insufficient, they sent money, cloth, refrigerators, and color TVs there immediately.
+年7月31日,中国第二所心血管病专科医院在牡丹江市隆重开业。已经成为全国人大秘书长的曹志同志、各部委领导及黑龙江省委书记、省长都来参加典 礼。当时,洪水冲垮了铁路,却没有阻挡住中外朋友前来参加开业庆典。
+On July 31, 1991, the second specialized cardiovascular hospital in China was grandly opened in Mudanjiang City. Cao Zhidong,
+Secretary-General of the National People's Congress, leaders of various ministries, the Secretary of the CPC Heilongjiang Provincial Committee and the Governor of the Heilongjiang Province.all attended the opening ceremony. At that time, the flood had washed away the railway, but it did not stop Chinese and foreign friends from attending the opening ceremony.
+奥布来恩博士和查理王子医院院长斯太堡先生,带着刻有中澳两国地图、用红线连接两座城市以表示姊妹医院的牌匾（另ー块相同的牌匾挂在查理王子医院）及15箱医疗器材,专程来参加新医院的开业典礼。说来奇怪,数天阴雨绵绵,这天9点钟剪彩时却忽然云开雾散,艳阳高照。人们说,老天都为之感动了。
+Carrying a plaque with maps of China and Australia on which a red line connects the two cities to indicate sister hospitals (another identical plaque was hung at The Prince Charles Hospital and 15 boxes of medical equipment, Dr. Mark F. O'Brien and Mr. Staub, the director of Prince Charles Hospital, came specifically to attend the opening ceremony of the new hospital. Strangely, after days of continuous rain, the clouds suddenly cleared and the sun shone brightly at 9 o'clock when the ribbon was cut. People said that even the God was moved.
+刘晓程来牡丹江7年,为来自全国23个省的3000多名患者做了心脏手术,病人成活率高达98.6%;他6天内完成了 2例心脏移植,完成了中国首例心、肺移植; 他创建了中国第二所现代化心血管医院;他培养出ー批能独立操作的心外科医生; 为黑龙江省医院、哈尔滨儿童医院、哈尔滨242医院及印度尼西亚万隆医院等多家 医院,培养了大批全套心血管技术专业人才。
+Liu Xiaocheng has been in Mudanjiang for 7 years and has performed heart surgeries for over 3,000 patients from 23 provinces across China and the survival rate of his patients is as high as 98.6%. He completed 2 heart transplants within 6 days, including the first heart and lung transplant in China. He established the second modern cardiovascular hospital in China and trained a group of independent cardiac surgeons. He has also trained numerous cardiovascular professionals for many hospitals including the Heilongjiang Provincial Hospital, Harbin Children's Hospital, Harbin 242 Hospital, and the Bandung Hospital in Indonesia.
+短短7年,千千万万个生命因他而改变了命运,因他而提高了生存质量。但是,没人知道刘晓程家庭的故事,无论是对过世的还是活着的,他都欠下ー笔永远无法弥补的人情债。
+In just seven years, the fate of countless lives has changed, and their quality of life has been improved because of him. However, no one knows the story of Liu Xiaocheng's family. Liu owes a debt of gratitude that can never be repaid, to both those who passed away and those who are still alive.
+年12月10日,处于弥留之际的母亲,用她游丝般的声音艰难地呼唤着儿 子:“晓程,晓程……”老人想在离开人世前再见儿子一面。可是,此刻的晓程却东 渡日本,正为建立新的双边关系而奔忙。等他赶回佳木斯,留给他的却是蒙在白单 下的母亲遗容了。
+On December 10th, 1991, Liu Xiaocheng's mother was dying . On her deathbed, he called out to her son with a weak voice, "Xiaocheng, Xiaocheng..." The old woman wanted to see her son one last time before she left the world. However, at that moment, Xiaocheng was in Japan working to establish new bilateral relations. When he returned to Jiamusi, he found his mother had already passed away.
+“妈妈,晓程回来晚了 !晓程对不起您啊!”晓程趴在母亲遗体上痛不欲生。
+"Mum, I'm xiaocheng. I came back too late! I'm sorry, Mum!" Lying on his mother's body, Xiaocheng cried out in agony .
+儿子是心脏病专家,却没能为死于心衰的母亲尽一点儿カ。儿子抢救过千万人的生命,唯独没能抢救生养自己的母亲。儿子心灵深处留下了永远无法释怀的疚痛与遗憾。但是,母亲留给儿子的那张“医乃仁术,好自为之”的条幅,却像母亲那双慈祥的眼睛,永远激励着儿子,彪炳着儿子恢宏的事业,勉励着儿子永远以仁者之心对待病人。
+He is an expert in heart disease but was unable to do anything for his mother who died of heart failure. He has saved the lives of millions of people but was unable to save the life of the one who had gave him life, which left him guilt and regret deep in his heart that can never be got over. However, the banner that his mother left for him,"To be a doctor is to practice benevolence" is like his mother's kind eyes, always inspiring him to pursue his magnificent career and to treat patients with kindness.
+镜泊湖距离牡丹江市仅ー百多公里,那里湖光山色,景致很美。他却从没带妻儿去过。妻子在牡丹江二院眼科工作,3天一个夜班,他忙她也忙,家里弄得盆朝天碗朝地的没个家样。夜半归来,他常常看到小手小脚黑乎乎的儿子手拿吃剩ー半的面包,蜷缩在沙发上睡着了,他忙把儿子抱到床上,给孩子脱去鞋袜盖好被子, 内心酸酸的,充满了自责:“儿子,爸爸对不起你。如果真有来世,爸爸一定当个好父亲。”
+Jingbo Lake is only a hundred kilometers away from Mudanjiang City, and it is beautiful there with its picturesque mountains and lake. However, he has never taken his wife and children there. His wife works in the ophthalmology department of Mudanjiang Second People's Hospital, working three-night shifts in a row. They are both busy, so their house is always messy. When he comes home late at night, he often sees his son sleeping on the sofa with a half-eaten bread in his dirty hand. He hurriedly carries his son to bed, takes off his shoes and socks and covers him with a blanket, feeling guilty in his heart, "Son, Daddy is sorry for not taking good care of you. If there really were a next life, Daddy would be a good father."
+来世是虚幻的,现实オ是真实的。他的个性决定了他今生的选择,也决定了他今生的命运。
+ However the fact is that there is no after life at all. Liu's personality determines his choices and fate in this life.
+年5月的一天上午,市委领导来到牡丹江心血管病医院礼堂,向全院职エ 公布了一个消息:中组部发来调令,刘晓程被提拔为中国医学科学院及中国协和医科大学副院长及副校长
+One morning in May 1994, the leaders of the municipal party committee came to the auditorium of Mudanjiang Cardiovascular Hospital and announced a piece of news to the entire hospital staff: The Organization Department of the Central Committee of the Chinese Communist Party issued an order to promote Liu Xiaocheng to Vice President of Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences (CAMS) and Peking Union Medical College.
+全场顿时鸦雀无声,人们都像傻了一样。
+The whole room suddenly fell silent, and people were stunned.
+瞬间,7年来许许多多斑斓灿烂的回忆,充盈在所有人的脑海,撞击着他们敏感而脆弱的神经,全场响起一片抽泣声。这是怎样艰苦而又痛快淋漓的7年啊!
+In an instant, colorful and brilliant memories of the past 7 years came to everyone's mind, hitting their sensitive and fragile nerves, and the room was filled with sobbing. What a difficult yet enjoyable 7 years it was!
+春的觉醒,夏的苦斗,秋的收获,冬的拼搏。水与血的交融,不似亲人,胜似亲人,既是领导又是导师,既是情同手足的兄长,又是望“子”成龙的“严父”。因他而 改变了多少人的命运,因他而拯救了多少个不幸的家庭。在人们心目中,他是一座 伟岸奇绝的山峰,让人在污泥浊气中领略着圣者的风范;他又是一本内容丰富的 书,令人百读不倦。然而,他却要调走了。
+ Awakenings in Spring, struggles in summer, harvest in autumn , and  hard work in winter . The fusion of water and blood is not like family, but better than family. Liu is both a leader and a mentor, a brother with sibling-like affection, and a strict “father” who hopes for his "children" to succeed. He has changed the fate of many people and saved the lives of many unfortunate families. In people's hearts, he is a towering and extraordinary mountain peak, allowing people to appreciate the demeanor of a saint in the midst of filth and foul air; he is also a book with rich contents, which people can never get tired of. However, he has to leave now.
+此刻,坐在台上的刘晓程也是泪眼朦胧。他舍不得离开这些风雨同舟的同事。全院职エ跟着他没日没夜地折腾了 7年,苦了 7年。现在刚刚好转,他却被调走了。
+Liu Xiaocheng, sitting on the stage at this moment, also has tears in his eyes. He is reluctant to leave his colleagues who have gone through thick and thin with him for 7 years. All the staff in the hospital have worked tirelessly day and night with him for the past 7 years. Now, just as things were getting better, he was to be transferred.
+他为职エ盖的120套宿舍刚刚收尾,托儿所刚刚动エ,他本想为职エ创造更多的福利,可是……
+The construction of 120 sets of housing for the staff was just finished, and the building if the kindergarten has just started. He wanted to create more benefits for his colleagues, but...
+他觉得对不住这些患难与共的同事,可他不能不听从中央的调动。
+老百姓更不愿让他走。许多群众听说刘晓程被调走了,ー连几天堵在医院门口要见他……
+He feels sorry for his comrades who have shared the hardships with him, but he cannot disobey the central government's transfer. The general public are even more unwilling to let him go. Hearing that Liu Xiaocheng was to be transferred, Many people even blocked the hospital gate for several days to see him...
+调令来了三个月,刘晓程一直没动身。他向新接任的院长ーー交代清楚,又看着年轻弟子主刀做完了最后ー批高难手术……临走,他像导师叮嘱自己一样叮嘱弟子们:“记住,今后遇到什么困难都要告诉我,我的大门永远冲你们敞开着
+Three months after the transfer order came, Liu Xiaocheng still didn’t  moved. He explained everything to the newly appointed hospital director and watched as his young students completed the final batch of difficult surgeries. Before leaving, he did the same thing his mentor had done for him. He advised his students to always inform him of any difficulties they may face, and that his door will always be open to them,
+动身那天,全院职エ及病人用泪水和歌声为他送行:“送战友,踏征程……革命生涯常分手……一路多保重……”
+歌声中饱含着情同手足的深情,也饱含着难舍难分的悲伤。
+On the day of his departure, the staff and patients of the hospital bid him farewell with tears and songs: "Farewell, comrade who will embark on a new journey...In a revolutionary career, partings are common...Take care all the way..." The songs were filled with brotherly love and deep sadness at the thought of parting.
+然而,谁都没有料到,调回北京的第六个年头,2000年,刚刚51岁的刘晓程却向卫生部递交了辞呈。高官厚禄,为什么留不住他?
+However, no one expected that in his sixth year of being transferred back to Beijing , the year of 2000, Liu Xiaocheng, who just turned 51 years old, submitted his resignation to the Ministry of Health. Why the high position and salary couldn't keep him ?
+又像当年一样,人们对他百思不得其解:刘晓程为什么要辞职?是没有得到提拔重用,还是领导班子不和,还是想下海去赚大钱?
+Just like before, people were puzzled by his decision. Why did Liu Xiaocheng resign? Was it because he didn't receive a promotion, because of conflicts with the leadership team, or because he wanted to make more money in the private sector?
+这时的刘晓程已经是中国医学科学院党委书记兼副院长,管辖着协和、阜外、 肿瘤、整形等六大医院,十几个国家级研究所,30名院士、2000多名教授和数万名 职エ,权カ大得令人羡慕。
+At this time, Liu Xiaocheng was the Party Secretary and Deputy Director of the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences, overseeing six major hospitals including Peking Union Medical College Hospital, Fuwai Hospital, Beijing Cancer Hospital, and a plastic surgery hospital, as well as more than ten national research institutes, 30 academicians, over 2,000 professors, and tens of thousands of staff. His power was enviable.
+他处事果断,一身正气,群众威望很高。他又是博士生导师。1994年,他创建了协和医院的心外科;1996年,他在国内率先使用了动脉心脏搭桥。据国外统计,静脉搭桥十年的通畅率为42%-45%,动脉搭桥为 90%—95%。他在心外科领域声誉很高。北京一些医院在心脏手术中遇到难题, 常常向他求救。
+He was decisive, upright, and highly respected by the people. He was also a doctoral supervisor. In 1994, he established the cardiac surgery department at Peking Union Medical College Hospital, and in 1996, he was the first in China to perform coronary artery bypass graft. According to statistics from abroad, the patency rate for venous bypass after ten years is 42%-45%, while that for coronary artery bypass graft is 90%-95%. He was highly regarded in the field of cardiac surgery, and many hospitals in Beijing often sought his help when they encountered difficulties in cardiac surgery.
+在他任职的6年里,工作干得相当出色,上下一片赞誉。他被评为“国家级有突出贡献的中青年专家”“全国先进工作者”“有突出贡献的回国留学人员 ” 英国 剑桥和美国北卡罗来纳国际传记中心将其列入《国际知识分子名人录》《国际传略词典》等国际权威传略文献;他的事迹被拍成电视专题片《求索》《脊梁》及故事片 《归国的留学生》;他被选为党的“十四大”代表……
+In his six years in office, he did an outstanding job, and was highly praised by all. He was awarded "Young and Middle-Aged Experts Nationally Acknowledged for their Outstanding Achievements",
+"National Advanced Worker," and "Overseas Returnees with Outstanding Contributions." He was also listed in international authoritative biographical literature such as "the International Who's Who of Intellectuals" and "Dictionary Of International Biography". His story was made into television documentaries such as Pursuit of Wonder and "Backbone," as well as the movie "Returning Overseas Students." He was also selected as a representative for The 14th National Congress of the Communist Party of China.
+年卫生部派他到中央党校学习,参加了被人们称为“黄埔军校”的第一批省、部级学习班,该班学员大部分都被提拔到省、部级领导岗位。刘晓程也被中组部列为卫生部副部长人选。
+In 1995, he was sent by the Ministry of Health to study at the Party School of the Central Committee of CPC and participated in the first batch of provincial and ministerial-level official training classes, which were called 'The Republic of China Military Academy' by people. Most of the students in the class were promoted to provincial and ministerial leadership positions. Liu Xiaocheng was also listed by the Organization Department of the Central Committee of the Chinese Communist Party as a candidate for the deputy minister of the Ministry of Health.
+年,世界卫生组织向中国要一名助理总干事,卫生部首推刘晓程,希望他能为世界卫生事业做出贡献。世界卫生组织助理总干事年薪10万美金,可以带家眷,工作地址坐落在瑞士美丽的日内瓦湖畔。刘晓程赴瑞士接受即将担任世界卫生组织总干事的布伦特兰女士的面试。布伦特兰女士让他谈谈对世界卫生组织的认识,刘晓程谈到世界卫生组织应为人类防治疾病、提高健康水平做出贡献。布伦特兰女士却问他:“你怎么看待在本组织中的男女平等问题?”
+In 1996, the World Health Organization (WHO) requested an assistant director-general from China. The Ministry of Health recommended Liu Xiaocheng, hoping that he could contribute to the global health cause. The WHO Assistant Director-General's annual salary was 100,000 US dollars, and it allowed the employee to bring their family and work in Geneva, Switzerland, a beautiful city located on the shore of Lake Geneva. Liu Xiaocheng went to Switzerland to attend the interview by Ms. Gro Harlem Brundtland, who was going to become the Director-General of the WHO. Brundtland asked him to talk about his understanding of the WHO. Liu Xiaocheng said that the WHO should contribute to disease prevention and health improvement for humanity. Brundtland then asked him, "How do you view gender equality within this organization?"
+刘晓程说:“男女平等是人类社会和各级国际组织应为之努力的永恒主题,但不是世界卫生组织所应关心的首要问题。世界卫生组织应该关心和解决危及全人类健康的迫切问题,不仅仅是本机构内职员的性别比例。”
+Liu Xiaocheng replied, "Gender equality is a timeless theme that human society and international organizations at all levels should strive for, but it is not the primary concern of the WHO. The WHO should focus on and address urgent issues that threaten human health, not just the gender ratio of its staff."
+生性秉直、刚直不阿的刘晓程从不会顺情说好话,更不会取悦他人。无论是在这位出身名门的挪威前首相面前,还是在美国前总统老布什面前,他都不失ー个炎 黄子孙的人格与尊严。
+Being naturally straightforward and uncompromising, Liu Xiaocheng never speaks something to please others, whether in front of Gro Harlem Brundtland, a former prime minister of Norway, or former US President George H.W. Bush. He always maintains his dignity and integrity as a descendant of the Yellow Emperor.
+年,刘晓程受美国“艾森豪威尔外国高级访问学者基金会”之邀,随同中国首批30位著名中青年学者及管理者出访美国。美国为每位来访者出资4万美金,让其自定考察项目,任其在美国随便考察。说是考察,其实就是向来访者灌输美国价值观。两个月考察结束后,董事会主席老布什总统亲自出席考察结业式,并让每位来访者提ー个问题,由老布什来回答。
+In 1997, Liu Xiaocheng was invited by the Eisenhower Fellowship Program to visit the United States along with the first group of 30 renowned young and middle-aged scholars and managers from China. The US government provided each visitor with $40,000 to conduct their own investigation projects and freely explore the US. This so-called investigation program was actually a way for visitors to absorb American values. After two months of investigation, President George H.W. Bush personally attended the closing ceremony and answered questions from each visitor.
+刘晓程却给老布什出了道难题。他说:“总统先生,据我所知,美国年生产总值 10万亿美元,其中14. 5%用于卫生事业,但美国却有2200万国民没有医保。美国 建国以来,宪法修改了 20多次,联邦宪法和很多州宪法在衣、食、住的基础上,又把教育列为基本人权。
+Liu Xiaocheng posed a difficult question to President George H.W. Bush. He said, "Mr. President, as far as I know, the US has a GDP of 10 trillion dollars, with 14.5% allocated to healthcare. However, there are 22 million Americans without health insurance. Since the founding of the US, the constitution has been amended over 20 times. The federal and many state constitutions recognize education as a basic human right, along with food, clothing, accommodation and transport.
+我赞同受教育权应是文明社会的基本人权,但不知总统先生如何看待教育与健康的顺位?如果教育是基本人权,那么健康更应是基本人权。没有健康,人们怎么接受教育?请问您如何看待这一问题?如何解释花这么多钱用于卫生事业,却有那么多国民得不到医疗保险问题。”
+I agree that the right to receive education should be a basic human right in a civilized society, but I wonder how you, Mr. President, prioritize education and healthcare. If education is a basic human right, then healthcare should be even more so. Without health, how can people receive education? How do you explain spending so much money on healthcare and yet so many citizens still cannot access medical insurance?"
+老布什向这位看上去温文尔雅却有着独立见解的中国人礼貌地笑了笑,说: “这个问题提得很好,确实是美国的实际情况。但我对卫生领域所知不多,您的问题我解答不了。很抱歉!”
+President George H.W. Bush politely smiled at this Chinese scholar who is seemingly gentle yet with independent thinking, saying, "That's a very good question, and it is indeed a reality in the United States. However, I don't know much about healthcare, and I cannot answer your question. I'm sorry!"
+刘晓程不但没有遭到排斥,反而成了最受欢迎的中国学者,后来成为美国“艾森豪威尔外国高级访问学者基金会”中国出访人员的考官及国际顾问委员会在中国邀请的唯一顾问。
+Instead of being excluded, Liu Xiaocheng became the most popular Chinese scholar and later the examiner of the Eisenhower Fellowship Program for Chinese visitors and the only advisor to The International Advisory Committee (IAC) .
+但是,布伦特兰女士不是老布什。世界卫生组织助理总干事的职位刘晓程落选了。后来得知,布伦特兰女士是一位女权主义者,但布伦特兰女士给刘晓程发来一封信,说她很敬佩刘晓程的人格和才干。
+However, Ms. Gro Harlem Brundtland was not President George H.W. Bush. Liu Xiaocheng was not elected as the Assistant Director-General of the World Health Organization. It later turned out that Miss Brundtland was a feminist, but Ms. Gro Harlem Brundtland sent a letter to Liu Xiaocheng saying that she admired his personality and talent.
+此刻的刘晓程,坐在中国医学科学院党委书记兼副院长的位置上,可以说要什么有什么,名誉、地位、专车、宽敞的住房,前呼后拥,风光无限,而且,只要他好好干,别出什么差错,卫生部副部长的位置在等着他呢
+Now, Liu Xiaocheng is the Party Secretary and deputy director of the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences. He got anything he wants - prestige, status, luxury car, spacious housing, and endless admiration. As long as he doesn't make any big mistakes in work, he is likely to be promoted to Deputy Minister of the Ministry of Health.
+人们不禁要问:你刘晓程到底还要什么?你还有什么不满足的?你还折腾什么劲儿?
+People can't help asking, "What else does Liu Xiaocheng want? What are you still not satisfied with? Why are you still strive for?"
+一位政治家曾说,每个人都有自己的生存法则,只有读懂了他独特的生存法则,才能理解他人生的潮起潮落,云卷云舒;才能理解他所选择的山高路险,河流湍急。
+蹉距岁月,留给他的并非都是蹉距.
+A politician once said that everyone has his own way of survival, and only by understanding his unique way of survival can one understand the ups and downs of their life, and the challenges they chose.The years were not all wasted for him.
+瞿秋白在牺牲前曾说:“光明和火焰从地心里钻出来的时候,难免要经过好几次的尝试,试探自己的道路,锻炼自己的力量。”
+ Qu Qiubai said before his sacrifice, "When light and fire drill out of the earth, they must go through several attempts to explore their path and train their strength."
+ー个人的经历,决定着ー个人的情感与人生。
+One's personal experiences determine their emotions and life.
+年冬天,北国边陲黑龙江特别冷,零下42て,不少南方来的“知青”都冻坏了手脚。凌晨2点,正是老百姓称为“鬼駆牙”的时刻,在宝清县建设兵团853农场 21团一座最原始、最古老的石灰窑里,一群身穿黄棉袄的“知青”已经开始劳作了。
+ In the winter of 1968, it was especially cold in the northern border of Heilongjiang, reaching minus 42 degrees Celsius. Many "educated" youth from the south froze their hands and feet. At 2 o'clock in the morning, which the locals called "ghost hour," a group of "educated" youth wearing yellow cotton-padded jackets had already begun working in the most primitive and ancient lime kiln in the 21st regiment of the 853 farm of the Baqing County Production and Construction Corps.
+那个年代能穿上黄棉袄是ー种荣耀,ー种革命的象征。唯有一个瘦弱的少年身穿一身黑棉袄。只见他第一个跳进刚出完石灰、滚烫的石灰窑里开始“平窑”。 这种原始的石灰窑形状如同日本鬼子的炮楼,上面填石灰石和煤,下面出烧透的石 灰。直径几米的上口既是进料口,又是烟囱。
+In those days, wearing a yellow cotton-padded jacket was a symbol of honor and revolution. Only a thin and weak teenager wore a black cotton-padded jacket. He was the first to jump into the freshly produced lime and scorching hot kiln to start "leveling the kiln." This primitive lime kiln was shaped like a Japanese fort, with lime stones and coal piled on top and burned lime going out from the bottom. The top, with a diameter of several meters, was both the feeding port and the chimney. 所谓“平窑”,就是蹦到冒着火苗和浓烟的窑里,徒手把堆得小山似的石灰石码平。外面零下42て,窑里有五六十度, ー冷ー热,温差ー百多度。黑棉袄少年忍受着炼狱般的痛苦,拼カ码着石头。别人换班上去休息了,他却仍然继续干下去,直到把整个窑平完了,他オ筋疲カ尽地爬上窑顶。他的黑棉袄肩头蒙上一层厚厚的、汗水浸透的白花花的盐卤,刚发下来的 皮手套磨出了窟窿,露出冒着血丝儿的十个指尖儿,ー碰就钻心般地疼痛。
+"Leveling the kiln" meant jumping into the kiln, which was emitting flames and thick smoke, and using bare hands to flatten the pile of lime stones. While it was minus 42 degrees Celsius outside, the kiln was 50-60 degrees Celsius inside, with a temperature difference of more than 100 degrees Celsius. The teenager in the black cotton-padded jacket endured the hellish pain and worked hard to flatten the stones. While others took turns to rest, he continued to work until he leveled the entire kiln and climbed onto the top of the kiln, completely exhausted. His black cotton-padded jacket was covered with a thick layer of sweat-soaked white brine on his shoulders, and the newly leather gloves were worn out, revealing ten fingertips with blood-red blisters that throbbed with pain at the slightest touch.
+苦难犹如手中的铁锤,而少年的身躯却像脚下的石头,在无数次的锤炼中变得无比坚强,就像他和战友们写在石灰窑上的《石灰吟》诗:“粉身碎骨浑不怕,要留清白在人间!”
+Hardship is like a hammer in one's hand, but the teenager's body was like the stone under his feet, becoming incredibly strong after countless rounds of hammering, just like the poem "Song of the Lime" written by him and his comrades on the lime kiln: "Though broken into pieces, you will have no fright; You'll purify the world by washing it e'er white."
+“文革”时期,头戴ー顶“黑五类”狗崽子的帽子,已经压得人喘不过气来,而这 位少年居然戴了三顶帽子:爷爷是地主;父亲是“日本特务”兼“反动学术权威”。 三次抄家,母亲被剃“鬼头”,父亲被关进“牛棚”。ー个好端端的知识分子之家,转 眼就变得支离破碎了。
+During the "Cultural Revolution," under the tittle of the "Five Black Categories" was already suffocating, but this teenager had three titles: his grandfather was a landlord, his father was a "Japanese spy" and “the reactionary academic authority”. After three rounds of house raids, his mother was shaved bald, and his father was thrown into the cow shed." The family, which was originally a well-established intellectual household, was suddenly torn apart.
+接踵而至的打击,使高中还没有毕业的晓程感到十分痛苦。他极カ想用革命行动来证明自己是革命的,极カ想改变“黑五类”狗崽子的命运,就割破手指写成血书,强烈要求到生产建设兵团去改造自己。因为“黑五类”子女无权加入生产建 设兵团,所以只能用血书自荐。然而,并非是血书起了作用,而是853农场21团宣传队需要一名手风琴手。当时能拉手风琴的凤毛麟角。少年晓程オ华横溢,聪慧过人,不仅拉一手好手风琴,还唱一手好歌。直到今天,他偶尔还会拉起心爱的手风琴唱起《三套车》呢。
+A series of successive blows made Xiaocheng, who had not yet graduated from high school, feel very painful. He desperately wanted to prove himself as a revolutionary through revolutionary actions and wanted to change the fate of the "Five Black Categories". Thus, he cut his fingers and wrote a blood letter, strongly demanding to go to the Production and Construction Corps to transform himself. He could only apply through a blood letter, for the children of the "Five Black Categories" were not eligible to join the Production and Construction Corps. However, it was not the blood letter that worked, but rather the  Propaganda Team of the 21st regiment of the 853 farm needed an accordionist. At that time, few people was able to play the accordion. Young Xiaocheng was talented and intelligent. He could not only play the accordion well but also sing well. Even today, he occasionally plays his beloved accordion and sings "San Tao Che".
+他成了生产建设兵团里最下等的公民,一切脏活、累活非他莫属,烧石灰,打炮眼,淘粪,伐木头……然而,对ー个19岁的少年来说,更大的伤害并不是体力的透支,而是无休止的心灵打击。生产建设兵团的“知青”都是腰扎宽皮带,身穿黄棉袄,ー副准解放军的打扮,唯独他没有这个资格,他只能穿黑棉袄。853农场的宣传队员都可以载歌载舞,登台表演,唯独他一人只能躲在幕后为别人伴奏,不许登台露脸。而且有人监视着他的ー举ー动。
+He became the lowest citizen in the Production and Construction Corps. All the dirty and tiring work was assigned to him, such as burning lime, handling explosives, shoveling manure, and cutting wood... However, for a 19-year-old young man, the greater harm was not the physical exhaustion but the endless spiritual blows. The "educated youth" in the Production and Construction Corps all dressed in wide leather belts and yellow cotton-padded jackets, a dress similar to that of the army, but he was not allowed to wear it. He could only wear a black cotton-padded jacket. All the members of the 853 Farm's propaganda team could sing and dance, and perform on stage, except for him who could only hide behind the scenes and accompany others, not allowed to perform on stage. And there was also someone watching his every move.
+他那颗孤寂痛苦的心灵在蛮荒空旷的世界里,踽踽独行,无人为伴,找不到解脱,更找不到欢乐。
+His lonely and painful heart wanders in the barren and desolate world,  without companionship, unable to seek joy or liberation.
+唯有一天劳动结束了,月亮升起来了,他背着自己心爱的手风琴来到郊外,尽情地拉起来。一群“知青”闻声而来,眼含泪水唱起了俄罗斯歌曲: “茫茫大草原,路途多遥远。有位马车夫,将死在草原……”歌声充满了悲凉与感伤。只有在这时,他心中的孤独与苦闷オ会随着琴声发泄出来,才能感受到人与人之间那份应有的平等与和谐。
+Only when the day's work was done and the moon rose, he brought his beloved accordion to the outskirts where he could feel free to play it . Hearing the beautiful sound, a group of "educated youth" came over, singing a Russian song with tears in their eyes: "The vast grasslands, the road is long and far. A coachman is dying on the grassland..." The song was full of sadness and sentimentality. Only at this moment could he release his loneliness and frustration through the sound of the accordion, and feel the equality and harmony that should exist between people.
+逆境能使人叛逆、颓废,也能使人迸发出无坚不摧的毅カ。像后来许多有成就 的“知青”ー样,无论怎样艰难困苦,无论怎样受尽凌辱,他从没有气馁过。他心灵深处一直蕴藏着ー股岩浆般的激情。它渴望着喷发,渴望着人生的转机,苦苦地等 待着机会。
+Adversity can make people rebellious and decadent, but it can also ignite an unstoppable spirit in people. Like many successful "educated youth" later on, no matter how hard the situation is and no matter how much humiliation he had suffered, he never gave up. In the depths of his heart, a magma-like passion was always brewing. It longed to erupt and awaited a turning point in life with bitter patience.
+他抓到ー切能抓到的书来读,《毛泽东选集》《国家与革命》《马克思的青年时代》……读得最多的是那本影响了几代人的《钢铁是怎样炼成的》。奥斯特洛夫斯基的那段名言影响了他一生:“人的一生应该这样度过,当他回首往事时,不 因虚度年华而悔恨,也不因碌碌无为而羞耻……”
+He grasped any books he could get access to, including Selected Works of Mao Tse-tung, State and Revolution, Karl Marx: The Early Years...But the one he has read the most was the book that had influenced several generations-----How the Steel Was Tempered. Nikolai Ostrovsky's famous quote influenced him for a lifetime: "The most precious thing is life and we only have life once. The person's life should be spent this way: When he looks back, he does not regret for wasted years, not because of mediocrity and shame ..."
+蹉跎的岁月,没有尊严的生活,超出承受力的体能透支,把ー个天真少年抛到 了人生的最底层,使他成为ー个逆境中的弱者,饱尝了底层人的艰辛与困苦,也饱 尝了一个弱者的渺小与渴望,从而使他与底层百姓结下ー种深厚的、永远不可割舍 的情感。
+The years with camels, a life without dignity, and physical exhaustion beyond endurance, threw a naive young boy to the bottom of life, making him a weakling in adversity, experiencing the hardships and difficulties of the bottom people, as well as the smallness and aspirations of a weakling, thereby forming a deep and unbreakable emotional bond with the common people.
+这段生活影响了他的一生,也决定了他的一生。
+This period of life has influenced his entire life and determined his destiny.
+这也是他屡屡做出惊人之举,向自己、向医疗体制提出挑战的原因之一。他的心是属于平民百姓的,任何官位与金钱都无法撼动他的初衷。
+This is also one of the reasons why he has done something extraordinary again and again and challenged himself and the healthcare system. His heart belongs to the common people, and no official position or money can shake his original intention.
+闪光的“琉璃塔”,却包裹着ー颗痛苦的灵魂
+The shining "Glass Tower" conceals a painful soul.
+艾森豪威尔曾说过这样的话:“我们切不可把短暂的人生都放在无谓的名利上,不可把浮躁和骚动强加给我们生命的宝贵时光。”
+As Eisenhower once said: "We should not waste our short lives on meaningless fame and fortune, nor should we impose fickleness and turmoil on the precious time of our lives."
+在刘晓程看来,中国改革开放20多年来,其他行业都在突飞猛进地发展,医疗卫生事业却一直裹足不前。老百姓看病难、手术难的根本问题没有得到解决。
+In Liu Xiaocheng's view, the healthcare industry has been lagging behind in the past 20 years of China's reform and opening up while other industries have made rapid progress . The fundamental problems of difficult access to medical treatment and surgery for the general public have not been resolved.
+就 拿心血管病来说,全国有400多万心血管病人需要手术,每年仅能手术四五万例, 只占百分之一ニ。而且,药品层层扒皮,吃回扣,从药厂卖到老百姓手里要翻上几 倍、几十倍,甚至上百倍。
+Taking cardiovascular disease as an example, there are over 4 million cardiovascular patients in China who need surgery, but only 40-50,000 surgeries can be performed each year, accounting for only 1-2% of the total. Moreover, drugs are marked up layer by layer, with kickbacks being taken at each level, so the price of medicine can be several times, dozens of times, or even hundreds of times higher from the factory to the hands of the people.
+得一次感冒,没有几百元休想治好;住一次院,没有几千元、上万元就别想出院;医生对病人开大处方,大检查;你头痛,就让你做CT,做核 磁共振,说怀疑是肿瘤,你不敢不做;你嗓子痛,就给你开几百元的药;你要手术,除了支付昂贵的费用,还要给医生送红包,少则几千,多则上万……
+If you catch a cold, you cannot be cured without spending several hundred yuan; if you get hospitalized, you cannot be discharged without spending several thousand yuan or even tens of thousands of yuan. Doctors prescribe large amounts of medication and tests for patients; if you have a headache, you will be told that it might be a tumor and asked to do a CT scan and an MRI, which you dare not to refuse; If you have a sore throat, you are prescribed several hundred yuan worth of medication; If you need surgery, in addition to paying expensive medical bills, you also need to give a red envelope to the doctor, which can range from a few thousand to tens of thousands of yuan.....
+ 有的医院不愿收医保病人,因为医保是后付款,愿意收现金;不愿收疑难病患者,怕担风险。有的医院为病人做心脏造影,居然连“备皮”都不做。有的医生竟然给心绞痛病人打杜冷丁止痛。
+Some hospitals are unwilling to accept patients with medical insurance because medical insurance is paid after treatment, thus they prefer cash payments; some are also unwilling to accept patients with difficult-to-treat conditions, for fear of risk. Some don't even prepare properly for patients undergoing heart imaging tests. Even some doctors give angina patients Pethidine for pain relief.
+老百姓说,去医院看一次病,半夜三更去排队挂号,楼上楼下ー顿折腾,没 病也气（急）出病来了。而且,中国享受医保的人数只占全国人口的8% ,92%的下岗工人、个体户、8亿农民都不能享受医保。
+Patients complain that going to the hospital for treatment means queuing for registration late into the night. The constant commotion from upstairs and downstairs is frustrating, even causing illness when one wasn't initially sick. Moreover, only 8% of the country's population enjoys medical insurance, while 92% of laid-off workers, self-employed individuals, and 800 million farmers cannot enjoy medical insurance.
+医生收红包已经成了极普遍的现象,成了行规,不给红包医生就不高兴,患者也提心吊胆,怕医生给自己小命“穿小鞋”。一名主刀“名医” 一年可以成为百万富 翁。可想想那些穷苦农民和下岗工人,省吃俭用、卖房卖地,甚至卖血凑的一点儿 血汗钱,花着昂贵的医疗费不算,还要给医生送“红包”。有的穷苦农民,卖房卖地 还不够给医生送红包的呢。
+It has become extremely common for doctors to receive red envelopes. Even it has become a norm. If a doctor doesn't receive a red envelope, he or she will get upset, and patients are also worried that doctors will harm them. A famous lead surgeon  can become a millionaire in a year. Imagine those poor farmers and laid-off workers who have sold their houses, their land, and even their blood but could only scrape together a little bit of money. Except for the expensive medical bills, they even have to give doctors "red envelopes." Some poor farmers can't even afford to give doctors a red envelope by selling their houses and lands.
+这哪是让老百姓治病,分明是让老百姓“致穷”,要老 百姓的命嘛!这种不顾脸面、不顾尊严、明目张胆的索要行为,哪还是什么救死扶伤的“白衣天使”?简直就是趁火打劫的强盗!
+This is not even curing patients, but making people poor and even taking their lives! This kind of shameless, dignity-ignoring, and blatant solicitation behavior is not what a "white angel" who saves lives and heals the wounded should do. Only a robber who takes advantage of people in distress would do that!
+悲哀呀,我的同行们!刘晓程不禁发出悲愤的慨叹:从希波克拉底到李时珍, 古今中外,历来都崇尚医学,尊重大夫,救死扶伤从来都是有灵魂的人从事的事业。 为什么到了我们这一代,却变得这般见钱眼红,这般不近人情了?
+It's sad, my fellow colleagues! Liu Xiaocheng couldn't help letting out a  sigh with sadness and indignation: From Hippocrates to Li Shizhen, throughout history and at home and abroad, medicine has always been revered, doctors have been respected, and saving lives and healing the wounded has always been a profession pursued by people with souls. Why has our generation become so unkind and obsessed with money ?
+但是,刘晓程绝非ー个只看现象不看本质的肤浅之辈。他觉得一味地谴责医生收“红包”并不公平。几次全国人大会议都提出了医生收红包问题,可有谁透析过“红包”现象形成的原因?有谁了解过医生的付出与收获的严重失衡,以及“红包”背后所蕴藏的深刻的社会问题?
+However, Liu Xiaocheng is not a shallow person who only looks at appearances and not the essence. He believes that it is not fair to simply condemn doctors for receiving "red envelopes." The phenomenon of doctors receiving red envelopes has been raised several times at the   National People's Congress, but has anyone analyzed the reasons behind the "red envelopes" phenomenon? Has anyone tried to explore the serious imbalance between the doctor's efforts and rewards, as well as the profound social problem behind the phenomenon?
+刘晓程认为,“红包”现象是医疗体制造成的。人所共知,早在20世纪80年代就出现了“脑体倒挂”的民谣:“搞导弹的不如卖茶叶蛋的,操手术刀的不如操剃头刀的。”
+Liu Xiaocheng thinks that the "red envelopes" phenomenon is caused by the healthcare system. It is well known that as early as the 1980s, there was a folk song of misrepresentation: "Those who develop missiles are not as wealthy as those who sell tea eggs, and those who wield surgical knives are not as wealthy as those who wield barber knives."
+世纪90年代以来,改革开放使多少人富得流油,一名歌星的出场费高达几万元,甚至几十万;一个房地产开发商转眼就腰缠百万、千万,甚至上亿元;一名大权在握的官员不贪不占,也有大把大把的额外进项,更不用说那些灰色收入了。
+Since the 1990s, the reform and opening up has made many people rich . The appearance fee of a singer can be as high as tens of thousands or even hundreds of thousands of yuan, a real estate developer can become a millionaire or even a billionaire in the blink of an eye. Even an official in a position of power can have plenty of extra income without being greedy or taking advantage, not to mention those gray income.
+可是,一位拯救他人生命的主任医师,月工资不过3000元。这个收入远远低于世 界其他国家,连亚非拉一般发展中国家都不如,只高于亚洲个别社会主义国家。中 国医生吃的是草,挤的却是奶。他们拿着微薄的收入,却要承担救死扶伤的天职。
+However, a chief physician who saves lives earns a salary of only 3,000 yuan per month. This income is far lower than that of the rest of the world and is lower than that of the average developing countries in Asia, Africa and Latin America, and only higher than that of a few socialist countries in Asia. Chinese doctors live on meager incomes, but shoulder a heavy responsibility of saving lives and helping the wounded.  医生也是人,也要生存,也要生儿育女赡养老人,也要生活,他们为什么不能像别人 ー样富起来?他们心理能平衡吗?医生收“红包”是他们兜里空,患者送“红包”是为了买安全。
+Doctors are also human beings, they also need to survive, have children and support their elderly parents. Why can't they become wealthy like others? Do they think it is fair? Doctors receive "red envelopes"  because of their meager income , and patients give "red envelopes" to buy safety.
+刘晓程觉得,“红包”现象只是我国医疗卫生体制浮出水面的冰山一角。改革 20多年来,我国医疗卫生体制远远滞后于社会发展,存在着严重的问题。13亿老 百姓对此怨声载道,600万医务工作者更是满腹牢骚。
+Liu Xiaocheng believes that the "red envelope" phenomenon is only the tip of the iceberg of the problems of China's medical and health system. In the more than 20 years since the reform, China's medical and health system has lagged far behind social development and has serious problems. The 1.3 billion people in China are full of complaints about this, and the 6 million medical workers are even more dissatisfied.
+他觉得,首先政府对公立医院定性不准,是建立福利型、公益型的医院,还是建立福利加公益型的医院?没有明确定性,使公立医院处于两难的尴尬境地。
+He believes that first of all, the government has not properly defined public hospitals, whether they should be welfare-oriented, public-interest-oriented, or both. The lack of clarity puts public hospitals in a dilemma.
+加拿大、英国、澳大利亚、新加坡等发达国家,实行全民医保,病人住院连伙食费都有补助。而我国政府对公立医院的投入,除退休职エエ资外,只够发在岗员エ 20%的エ资。院长难为无米之炊,只好向职工宣布:“你们的工资和奖金只能由你 们自己去挣!”这种明显的利益驱动机制,必然导致内行哄外行、采购吃回扣、医生 收“红包”、医院坑病人的局面!而且,公立医院大多都背着沉重的包袱,许多医疗单位的冗员多达三分之一。
+Developed countries such as Canada, the United Kingdom, Australia, and Singapore have implemented Universal health coverage , with subsidies for patients' meals during hospitalization. However, the Chinese government's investment in public hospitals, apart from retirement benefits, can only covers 20% of the salaries of on-duty staff. Unable to pay the salary, hospital directors are forced to declare to their employees, "You have to earn your own salary and bonuses!"  Such an obvious profit-driven mechanism inevitably leads to the situation where insiders cheat the layman, procurement involves kickbacks, doctors receive "red envelopes," and hospitals swindle patients. Moreover, most public hospitals carry a heavy burden, with up to one-third staff of medical units being redundant.
+其次,政府对医疗卫生重视不够,投入太少。
+Secondly, the government has not paid enough attention to healthcare and has invested too little.
+按照世界健康的社会形态,政府对医疗卫生的投入应该随着国民经济的发展, 形成逐年上升的趋势,而在中国却恰恰相反,政府对医疗卫生的投入是越来越低。
+According to the social norms of world health, government investment in healthcare should increase every year along with the development of the national economy. However, in China, it is the opposite.Government investment in healthcare is decreasing.
+去年“非典”过后,新任卫生部部长吴仪在全国卫生工作会议上讲道:“改革开放以来,我国卫生事业费占财政支出的比重逐年下降,已由20世纪80年代的平均 3.1%下降到2002年的1.7%,大大低于发达国家,也低于大多数发展中国家。
+After the SARS outbreak last year, the new Minister of the Ministry Health, Wu Yi, said in a national healthcare conference, "Since the reform and opening-up, the proportion of healthcare expenditures in the government budget has been decreasing year by year, from an average of 3.1% in the 1980s to 1.7% in 2002, which is much lower than that of developed countries and most developing countries.
+年,在世界卫生组织191个成员国中,我国政府人均卫生投入占卫生总费用的 比重居第131位。1995年,全国疾病预防控制机构的支出中,财政拨款占75. 2% ； 2002年,这ー比重下降到41.7% 。我国政府的卫生投入不适应公共卫生发展的需要。美国对医疗卫生的投入占国民生产总值的15%,加拿大占9%,日本占7%,就连许多发展中国家都远远高于中国。
+ In 2001, among the 191 member countries of the World Health Organization, China ranked 131st in terms of government per capita healthcare investment as a proportion of total healthcare expenditures. In 1995, government funding accounted for 75.2% of the national disease prevention and control agency's expenditures. In 2002, this proportion decreased to 41.7%. Chinese government's healthcare investment is inadequate to meet the needs of public health development. The United States invests 15% of its GDP in healthcare, Canada invests 9%, Japan invests 7%, and even many developing countries invest more than China.
+而且,我国的医疗资源严重不足,却又存在着严重的浪费现象。
+Furthermore, there is a severe shortage of medical resources in China, and there is also serious waste.
+国家对城市建设、街道布局都有明确的规划,但对医院建设却没有统ー规划。 仅北京东单地区,不足5平方公里,却设有协和、北京、同仁等三大医院。而且,中央各大部委、中央党校等单位,都建起漂亮的、配有高档医疗设施的医院（而不是卫生所）。
+ The country has clear planning for urban construction and street layout, but there is no unified planning for hospital construction. In the Dongdan region of Beijing alone, which is less than 5 square kilometers, but boasts three major hospitals, including Peking Union Medical College Hospital, Beijing Hospital, and Beijing Tongren Hospital. Moreover, units like central ministries, the Party School of the Central Committee of CPC, have built beautiful hospitals with high-end medical facilities instead of clinics.
+这些医院的利用率很低,大多都在低水平上重复。这还不够,人们正在以更快的速度在北京疯狂地建医院。按北京现有的医疗状况,每千人所拥有的床位、大夫、核磁共振等医疗设施,超过了亚洲四小龙。
+These hospitals have low utilization rates. Furthermore, people are building hospitals in Beijing at an even faster rate. According to Beijing's current medical situation, the number of beds, doctors, and medical equipment, such as MRI, that per thousand people have exceeds that of the Four Asian Tigers.
+但在边远地区却存在着严重的缺医少药现象。在发达国家,国家配备的医疗机构往往是塔形的,除了国家中心医 院,社区要配备ー、二级医院,病人可根据病情去医院就诊,而不会出现感冒、发烧 也去协和排队了。
+However, there is a severe shortage of medical resources in remote areas. In developed countries, national medical institutions are usually arranged in a pyramid structure, and in addition to national central hospitals, communities should be equipped with first- and second-level hospitals. Patients can choose different hospitals based on their conditions so that they do not need to wait in line at top hospitals like Peking Union Medical College Hospital for a common cold or fever.
+再次,国家没有自己的医药科エ委,国家对民族医药业支持力度不够,致使大量昂贵的洋药、洋器械涌入中国市场,大大地加重了老百姓的负担。
+In addition, China lacks its own pharmaceutical committee, and the support from the government towards the traditional Chinese medicine industry is insufficient, which has resulted in a large influx of expensive foreign drugs and medical equipment into the Chinese market, significantly increasing the burden on ordinary people.
+ー个进口冠状动脉球囊扩张管要上万元,ー个冠状动脉支架高达一至三万元, ー个心脏瓣膜要两万元,ー个心脏起搏器最贵的高达十几万……有人为了拿回扣, 极カ帮助外商促销,使中国的药厂被挤垮,使本来就虚高的药价越发虚高。
+For example, a imported NC Traveler RX Coronary Dilatation Catheter costs over 10,000 yuan, a coronary stent costs between one to three ten thousand yuan, a heart valve costs 20,000 yuan, and the most expensive pacemaker costs over 100,000 yuan. Some people even help foreign companies promote their products in order to receive kickbacks, causing Chinese pharmaceutical factories to collapse and driving up the already inflated drug prices.
+心脏病人做一次支架或搭桥,少则四五万,多则十几万。想想,中国的老百姓能吃饱肚子才几年?有的地区至今连温饱都没解决,他们怎么能消费得起这些与国情极不相称、只有发达国家才能消费的洋器材、洋药品? 一个月收入不过几百元的普通家 庭,几万元对他们来说意味着什么?意味着卖房卖地、东挪西借,一家老小背上几 十年的外债过日子!
+ A heart patient's cost for a stent or a bypass surgery ranges from 40,000 to over 100,000 yuan.Think about it, how many years can China's ordinary people get enough to eat? In some areas, they haven't even solved the clothing and food problems. How can they afford these foreign medical equipment and medicines that are extremely incompatible with China's national situation and are only affordable to developed countries? For an average family with a monthly income of only a few hundred yuan, tens of thousands of yuan means they have to sell their house, borrow from relatives and friends, and carry decades of debt so as to get by.
+昂贵的药品,昂贵的器材,再加上不菲的“红包”，“三座大山”压在中国老百姓 头上,有多少人被压得喘不过气来?又有多少本来就一贫如洗的家庭,雪上加霜, 越发穷得叮当响?又有多少人被疾病折磨得家破人亡?
+Expensive drugs and medical equipment, along with generous red envelopes, facing this "three heavy burdens", how many people are struggling to breathe under this pressure? How many poor families are becoming even poorer? How many people have died and how many family has fallen apart from illness ?
+中国有强大的国防科エ委。我们可以让火箭上天,宇宙飞船遨游太空。中国已经成为世界第一电话大国、第六经济大国、世人瞩目的军事强国,可我们为什么不能成立医药科工委,让中国老百姓享受物美价廉的国产医药产品?
+China has a powerful Commission for Science, Technology and Industry for National Defense. We can launch rockets into space and send spacecraft to explore the universe. Moreover, China has become the world's largest telephone country, the sixth largest economy, and a military powerhouse that attracts global attention. Why can't we establish a Commission for Science, Technology and Industry for Medicine and let the Chinese people enjoy cheep and cheerful domestically-produced medical products?
+刘晓程觉得,政府对医疗卫生事业的管理,只存在自由竞争,没有宏观调控,没有形成有效的医疗保障体系。目前,农村合作医疗被挤垮,卫生防疫站形同虚设, ー些传染病又卷土重来,成为百万群众的大敌。
+Liu Xiaocheng thinks that the government's management of the healthcare industry only allows free competition while lacks macro control and an effective medical security system. Currently, Rural cooperative medical scheme (RCMS) has been squeezed out, and Epidemic Prevention Station are weak or non-existent. Some infectious diseases have made a comeback, posing a major threat to millions of people.
+中国的地方病防治机构大部分都已取消,而各地的地方病却仍然相当严重。中国的艾滋病人数已引起世界的高度 关注,仅河南就有38个“艾滋村”。中国艾滋病的发展趋势已经到了决战临界点, 如果再控制不住,其后果不堪设想……这ー系列的问题不能不令人担忧。
+Most of China's local disease prevention and control institutions have been canceled, but local diseases in various regions are still quite serious. The number of AIDS patients in China has attracted global attention, with 38 "AIDS villages" in Henan alone. The trend of AIDS in China has reached a critical point, and if it cannot be controlled, the consequences will be unimaginable. These series of problems are worrying.
+刘晓程觉得,中国的医疗卫生体制是中国最滞后、最需要改革的领域之一。它就像ー辆老朽的牛车,在万马奔腾的大好形势下慢悠悠地转着,承受着老百姓怨声 载道的唾骂与责怪,丝毫没有进展。几年前,曾发生过这样的事,中央政府就医疗 卫生改革问题让各部委提出方案,八大部委对中国卫生体制都提出了提案,唯有卫生部本身没有提案。
+Liu Xiaocheng thinks that China's healthcare system made no progress even when bearing the complaints and blames of the people. It is now one of the most backward and in urgent need of reform. A few years ago, the central government asked ministries to propose plans for medical and health care reform. The Eight Grand Ministries proposed plans for China's healthcare system, but the Ministry of Health itself did not propose any.
+刘晓程觉得医疗卫生关系到国计民生,关系到国家的安全稳定,关系到老百姓生存的基本权利,关系到老百姓的生死存亡,弄不好,是要死人的。他虽然身在高位,却不是一个唯“官”是从的人。面对医疗卫生界的弊端,身为中国医学科学院党委书记兼副院长的他,觉得自己有责任、有义务向上级反映。因此,他多次向卫生部、向中央有关领导进谏。
+Liu Xiaocheng believes that medical and health care is related to the national economy and well-being, national security and stability, people’s basic rights and their lives. If not handled properly, people will die. Although he is in a high position, he is not a person who only listens to "officials." Faced with the drawbacks of the medical and healthcare fields, as the Party Secretary and Deputy Director of the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences, he feels responsible and obligated to report to the higher authorities. Therefore, he has repeatedly put forward relevant proposals to the Ministry of Health and relevant leaders of the central government.
+他提出:国家应该加强对医疗卫生的宏观调控,建立明确的医疗卫生保障体系;政府对公立医院应该有明确的定性,不应把公立医院变成商业性医院,商业操作必然导致医院坑病人、医生骗患者的局面;政府应加大对医疗卫生的投入,改变目前这种远远落后于发达国家、连许多发展中国家都不如的局面。
+He proposes that the government should strengthen macro-control over healthcare, establish a definitive healthcare security system; the government should have a clear definition for public hospitals and not turn them into commercial hospitals. Commercial operations will inevitably lead to problems like hospitals cheating patients and doctors taking advantage of the sick; the government should increase investment in healthcare and change the current situation that China's healthcare far behind developed countries and even many developing countries.
+国家穷,没有那么多资金投入,可以增加吃、喝、玩、乐等娱乐业及房地产暴利的税收,用来解决国民的医疗卫生问题;国家应该成立医药科エ委,支持民族医药业的发展。医疗卫生的改革是“ 一把手的工程”,只有中央政府高度重视,痛下决心,从上而下地进行改革,中国的医疗卫生才能真正启动改革机制,才能改变老百姓看病贵、手术难的现状,才能造福于百姓,将纳税人的钱返回到纳税人身上。
+If a country is poor and short of funds, it can increase taxes on profiteering industries like entertainment industries that focuses on eating, drinking, and relaxing and real estate industries so as to solve the healthcare problems of the people. A Commission for Science, Technology and Industry for Medicine should be established to support the development of ethnic medicine. Healthcare reform is a " A High Priority Project". Only when the central government attaches great importance, makes a painful decision, and carries out top-down reforms can China's healthcare truly start the reform mechanism, change the current situation of expensive medical treatment and inaccessibility to surgeries, benefit the people, and return taxpayers' money to taxpayers.
+高度的社会责任感强烈地呼唤着他、驱使着他,使他ー次次做出了非同寻常的惊人之举。
+The strong sense of social responsibility strongly calls for him, driving him to make extraordinary and amazing feats again and again.
+年4月28日,身为中国医学科学院、中国协和医科大学党委书记、副院长、副校长的刘晓程,同中国医学科学院、中国协和医科大学院长和校长ー起,联名 向主抓医疗卫生的国务院副总理上书,向副总理当面反映原卫生部某领导“抵制卫生系统教育管理体制改革;对卫生领域的科技体制改革能拖就拖;任人唯亲,不公平正派;沽名钓誉;搞非组织活动;对违法乱纪者姑息养奸,使中国医学科学院和协和医科大学体制改革无法进行”等诸多问题。
+As Party Secretary and Deputy director of the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences and Vice President of Peking Union Medical College, Liu Xiaocheng, together with presidents of Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences and Peking Union Medical College, jointly wrote to
+Vice Premier in charge of medical and health care, reporting to him in person about the ideological style problems of some former leader in the Ministry of Health such as "resisting the reform of the education management system in the healthcare system, delaying the reform of the scientific and technological system in the medical and health field, cronyism, unfairness, fishing for fame and compliments, engaging in non-organizational activities, and tolerating and conniving with malfeasants, which have made it impossible for the system reform of the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences and Peking Union Medical College to proceed".
+他们在信中最后写道:“如果XX X 部长这样对待中国的卫生事业又得不到限制和纠正,我们二人唯一的选择是共同愤然辞职,以谢天下!”
+In the letter, they wrote, "If Minister XX continues to treat China's health care system in this way and fails to be restricted and corrected, our only choice is to resign as an apology to the world!"
+刘晓程对副总理直言不讳地讲道:“有些人不是以天下社稷为己任,而是’唯上唯书不唯实’。长此下去,中国的医疗卫生事业非毁在这些人手里不可!中国的 医疗事业已经到了非改革不可的时候了!”
+后来发生的ー系列事情,充分证明了他的正确性。
+Liu Xiaocheng spoke frankly to the Vice Premier: "Some people do not take the country and the people as their own responsibility, but only focus on their own interests. If this continues, China's healthcare industry will be ruined by these people! China's healthcare industry has reached a point where reform is necessary!"
+Subsequently, a series of events proved his words.
+年,中国爆发了震惊世界的“非典”,令中国政府及国人猛醒。卫生部部 长被撤职。“非典”过后,政府亡羊补牢,增加投入,但仍然没有从根本上解决问题。 多少有识之士发出强烈呼吁:“中国爆发’非典’是偶然中的必然。中国必须加强医疗体制的改革!”
+In 2003, China experienced the shocking "SARS" epidemic, which awakened the Chinese government and people. The Minister of the Ministry of Health was dismissed from his position. After the SARS epidemic, the government increased investment to address the problem, but the issue was not fundamentally resolved. Many insightful individuals appealed strongly: "The SARS outbreak in China was inevitable accident. China must strengthen the reform in healthcare system!"
+年12月17日,《参考消息》转载美国《时代》周刊一篇题为《世界卫生组织官员认为中国公共卫生系统需要改革》的文章写道:“联合国1998年的调查发 现,中国贫困线以下的人口中,不少人因为曾经生过ー场大病致贫”，“全国4000个 基层防疫中心要自己提供50%以上的预算,而在其他多数国家,类似机构都是由国家出资”，“许多在毛泽东时期已经基本得到控制的传染病现在又重新抬头,肺 结核、乙肝等传染病现在又开始扩散。
+In December 17, 2003, "Reference News" reprinted an article from the US magazine Time titled "WHO Officials Believe China's Public Healthcare System Needs Reform". The article stated that "In 1998，an UN investigation found that many people living below the poverty line in China fell into poverty because they had suffered from serious illnesses", "4000 grassroots epidemic prevention center in the country have to provide more than 50% of their budget themselves, while in most other countries, similar institutions are funded by the state", "many infectious diseases that had been largely controlled during the Mao Tse-tung era have now resurfaced, and diseases such as tuberculosis and hepatitis B are now spreading again."
+现在中国有5%的人是乙肝病毒携带者,而在美国只有1%。世界卫生组织2000年的ー份报告显示,191个成员国中,中国的医疗体系排名第144位,落后于印度尼西亚和孟加拉。中国卫生部统计显示,去年中国有81万人感染了血吸虫病,几乎比1988年增加了一倍”，“在中国的所有国际 组织都发出了明确信号:中国的公共卫生系统需要改革。但是迄今为止,我们还没 有看到任何回应。”
+In China, 5% of the population are carriers of the Hepatitis B virus, compared to only 1% in the United States. According to a report by the World Health Organization in 2000, China's healthcare system ranked 144th out of 191 member countries, behind Indonesia and Bangladesh. According to statistics from The Ministry of Health of the People's Republic of China, last year 810,000 people were infected with schistosomiasis in China, nearly doubling the number in 1988. "All international organizations in China have sent a clear message: China's public health system needs reform. But so far, we have not seen any response."
+年,国务院颁布了《突发公共卫生事件应急条例》《中医药条例》《医疗废 物管理条例》《乡村医生从业管理条例》……
+In 2003, the State Council issued Regulation on the Urgent Handling of Public Health Emergencies, Chinese Medicine Ordinance, Regulations on the Administration of Medical Wastes, Regulation on the Administration of the Practice of Rural Doctors, and more.
+温家宝总理上任不久就说:“要把群众看病贵、看病难的问题当作本届政府的 ー项重要工作。”
+Premier Wen Jiabao said shortly after taking office: "Treating the high cost of medical treatment and difficulty of seeing a doctor as one of the key tasks of this government."
+这一切,都印证了刘晓程三年前的呼吁。但在当时,他提出的许多建议、多次进谏,都在毫无反馈的时光中无声无息地消失了。他只能发出无奈的感叹:“难哪！ 医疗界的改革太难了！”
+All of this confirms Liu Xiaocheng's appeal three years ago. However, at that time many of his suggestions and proposals received no response. Helplessly, he could sigh : "It's difficult to promote reform in the medical community.
+邓小平同志曾说过:“经济体制改革必须和政治体制改革同步。”中国医疗体制的改革必须涉及政治体制改革。这远远不是ー个刘晓程所能改变的。
+Comrade Deng Xiaoping once said: "Economic system reform must be synchronized with political system reform." The reform of China's healthcare system must involve political system reform, which is not something that Liu Xiaocheng can change.
+他感到自己虽然坐在中国医学科学院党委书记兼副院长的位置上,但他仍然是棋盘上的ー个小卒。尽管他使出浑身解数,可他瘦弱的肩膀仍然推不动这部陈旧的机器,因此陷入难以名状的苦闷之中。他觉得自己下过乡,当过“黑五类”,饱尝过蹉駝岁月之磨难,也留过洋,受过中央总书记接见,与美国总统座谈过,大荣大辱都领教过,到了这把年龄,一切都看淡了 ,唯独看不淡的是那份为人为医的天职。
+He felt that even though he sat in the position of the Party Secretary and Deputy Director of the Chinese Academy of Medical Sciences, he was still a small pawn on the chessboard. Despite his best efforts, his weak shoulders were still unable to move this outdated machine, thus he fell into an indescribable state of depression. He was once set down to the countryside, being labeled as the "Five Black Categories" and endured the hardships of life. He had also studied abroad, met with the General Secretary of the Communist Party of China and had discussions with the President of the United States. At this age, he had become indifferent to everything, except for his unwavering dedication to the medical profession.
+古语说,不为良相则为良医。他觉得中国的医疗改革,任重而道远,自己已经 51岁了,再这样耗下去实在耗不起,与其整天在文山会海、接来送往的繁杂琐事中空耗生命,莫不如趁自己还有足够的体力和精力,做点儿カ所能及的事,为中国的卫生事业闯出一条新路,为饱受病痛折磨的心血管病人带来一点儿福音,也算不枉 活一生。自己瘦弱的肩膀既然推不动事业的发展,就下去建一所梦想中的医院,用 实际行动去为老百姓造点儿福吧。
+As the old saying goes, if one cannot become a good prime minister, one should become a good doctor. Liu felt that the healthcare reform in China was a long and arduous task. But he is already 51, he could not afford to waste any more time on endless paperwork and trivial matters. Instead of wasting his life on these things, he wanted to use his remaining strength and energy to do something he could, to find a new way for China's healthcare system and bring some good news to the patients suffering from cardiovascular diseases. It would not be a waste of life if he could build his dream hospital with his weak shoulders, and bring benefits to the common people through his practical actions.
+年12月31日,当人们沉浸在新千年到来的喜悦之中,一个知天命之人却 站在新旧千年的交叉路口上,迎着扑面而来的千年之风,向卫生部正式提出:第一 辞去一切官职,第二要求提前退休。因为只辞职不退休,还要受人事制度约束,不 能随便离开单位易地工作。
+于是,他再一次向自己、向传统观念、向医疗体制发出了挑战。
+On December 31, 2000, while people were immersed in the joy of the arrival of the new millennium, a person who understood his destiny stood at the crossroads of the old and new millenniums, facing the strong wind of the new century and proposing to the Ministry of Health that he asked for resignation from all his official positions, and requested an early retirement. Because if he only resigned without retiring, he would still be constrained by the personnel system and could not easily leave his unit for work elsewhere.
+Thus, he once again posed challenges to himself, traditional concepts, and the healthcare system.
+从中央到下属的各级组织,纷纷向他发出挽留与恳谈。但,一切努力都是枉然。领导和员エ们,为他举行了盛大的告别宴会。
+ Organizations at all levels, from the central to the subordinate, sent him requests to stay and pleas to reconsider. However, all efforts were in vain. As a result, the leaders and employees had to hold a grand farewell party for him.
+临走前,他把所有的荣誉证书付之一炬。帮他收拾东西的党办主任看到这么多国家级的荣誉证书化为灰烬,十分心疼,几次呼喊着从火堆里抢出来:“哎呀,这是全国先进工作者证书,烧了多可惜呀「’
+Before leaving, he set fire to all his certificates of honor. The Director of the Party Office who helped him pack saw so many national-level certificates turn to ashes, feeling heartbroken. He had tried several times to save them from the flames, shouting " Oh my God, this is the certificate for national advanced worker, it's such a pity to burn it! "
+刘晓程却说:“留着它有什么用?过眼烟云,什么都没用了。”他只让党办主任留下ー个蓝色医疗证;这个留着,等我得大病的时候用。”
+But Liu Xiaocheng said, "What's the use of keeping them? It only belongs to the past and now it's useless." He only let the Director of the Party Officekeep the blue medical certificate, saying, "Keep this, I'll use it if I get seriously ill."
+无官一身轻,万岁老百姓。
+Without any official position, he is now free as a common people.
+年元月,ー个挣脱了体制束缚、摆脱了功名利禄、打碎了世俗桎梏的人, 迎着新千年的曙光,气宇轩昂地走出了办公室,目送他的是一片惋惜而又充满敬佩 的目光……
+In January 2001, a man who had broken free from the shackles of the system, freed himself from fame and fortune, and shattered the shackles of convention, walked out of his office under the dawn of the new millennium. Everyone watched him away with regret and admiration...
+在当今这物欲横流的世界里,有几人能够抵住官位的诱惑,又有几人能挡住金钱的吸引?反之,为金钱和官位折腰,甚至断送性命的人,却如雨后春笋,屡禁不绝。相比之下,我们不能不为刘晓程超凡的人生境界而赞美、而叫好,而献上一束鲜花了。
+In today's world of materialism, how many people can resist the temptation of official positions, and how many can resist the lure of money? On the contrary, people who bow to money and power, for which some even cost their lives, are as common as mushrooms after rain, and are difficult to eradicate. In comparison, we cannot help praising and applauding Liu Xiaocheng's extraordinary life state, and offer him a bouquet of flowers.
+我可以丢掉一切,唯独丟不下病人
+"I can give up everything, except for my patients,"
+刘晓程说:“我上辈子可能欠别人的太多,这辈子来偿还了。” 他从澳大利亚留学归来时,就梦想有一天在中国的土地上创建一所世界一流的心血管病医院,让国人也享受世界一流的医疗服务,从而实现自己“博爱、济贫” 的抱负。
+ Liu Xiaocheng said, "Maybe I owed someone too much in my previous life, and I have to repay it in this life." When he returned from studying in Australia, he dreamed of building a world-class cardiovascular hospital in China so that the Chinese people could enjoy world-class medical services and realize his ambition of "Universal Love and charity."
+然而,岁月沧桑,花开花落,梦想一直还是梦想,转眼年过半百,但他心中的梦想并未因时光的流逝而泯灭。辞官以后,他决心要实现这个梦。他很快就遇到了知音,天津市委、市政府,天津开发区管委会的几位领导全力支持他提出的宏大构想一在天津经济技术开发区（英文字头缩写TEDA,简称“泰达”）创建一座 世界一流的国际心血管病医院。
+However, time passed, flowers bloomed and withered, and the dream remained a dream. As he turned fifty, his dream had not been extinguished by the passage of time. After resigning from his official position, he was determined to realize this dream. He soon found a kindred spirit, and several leaders of the Tianjin Party committee, Tianjin People's Government, and the Administrative Committee of Tianjin Economic-Technological Development Area (abbreviated as TEDA) fully supported his grand idea of building a world-class international cardiovascular hospital in the Tianjin Economic-Technological Development Area (abbreviated as TEDA) .
+企盼十几年的梦,终于可以实现了。
+After more than a decade of anticipation, the dream can finally come true.
+岁的他,完全沉浸在实现梦想的兴奋中。就像14年前到牡丹江一样,他以 超人的精力,火一般的激情,率领几十名职エ,ー边借天津开发区医院的房舍开展心脏手术,ー边创建心血管病医院。
+At the age of 52, Liu is completely immersed in the excitement of realizing his dream. Just like 14 years ago when he went to Mudanjiang, he led dozens of medical professionals with his superhuman energy and fiery passion to perform heart surgeries on the premises of the Tianjin Development Area Hospital, while establishing the cardiovascular hospital
+“这两年是空前的辛苦,却是空前的欣慰厂’这是刘晓程最深切的感受。
+“These two years have been extremely hard, but also extremely fulfilling," This is the deepest feeling of Liu Xiaocheng.
+年10月末的一天傍晚,秋风瑟瑟,凉意袭人。从天津塘沽狭窄的火车站 ロ走出一位憔悴不堪的中年农民,怀里抱着骨瘦如柴的妇女。他们从牡丹江上车 坐了二十几个小时的硬座,他足足抱了她二十几个小时。
+On a windy and chilly evening in late October 2002, a haggard middle-aged farmer with a thin, emaciated woman in his arms walked out of the narrow Tanggu railway station in Tianjin. They had been on a hard-seat train for over twenty hours from Mudanjiang, and he had been holding her for over twenty hours.
+这妇女患有严重风湿性主动脉瓣、二尖瓣双瓣膜心脏病,已属晚期,心衰三度,不能行动,体重不足38公 斤。她的生命就像秋风ー样盘旋在细若游丝般的呼吸中,随时可能飘走。十几年 来,他们倾家荡产跑了好多家医院,最大的收获就是那份沉甸甸的、被宣判死刑的病历……这次,他们终于打听到刘晓程的下落,就怀着最后ー线希望千里迢迢跑来 找他。
+The woman suffered from severe rheumatic mitral and aortic valvular heart disease in the late stages, with Third degree heart failure and inability to move, and weighed less than 38 kilograms. Her life was so vulnerable as if she would pass away at any moment. They had spent their life savings and visited many hospitals over the past decade, but what they got was the heavy and death-sentence-like medical records. This time, they finally found out where Liu Xiaocheng was, and came to him with their last hope after traveling a long distance.
+中年农民抱着妻子ー出站口,有人迎了上来:“请问你们是从牡丹江来的吧? ”
+“嗯哪。你是……”中年农民不觉ー愣。
+A middle-aged farmer holding his wife was greeted at the station exit: "Are you from Mudanjiang?"
+ "Yes, we are. And who are you?" The middle-aged farmer was surprised. “我是刘院长派来接你们的。”在电话里得知病人不能行走,刘晓程派孔祥荣 主任开车来接他们。
+"Director Liu sent me sent to pick you up.”Upon learning that the patient could not walk, Director Liu Xiaocheng sent Doctor Kong Xiangrong to drive to pick them up.
+ー听是刘院长派车来接自己,这对走投无路、连卧铺都买不起的农民夫妇来 说,实在受宠若惊,眼里顿时泪花闪闪。
+Hearing that Director Liu sent a car to pick them up, the farmer and his wife, who were penniless and couldn't even afford a sleeper ticket, were overwhelmed with gratitude and tears filled their eyes.
+可是,面对被多家医院宣判死刑、随时可能死去的重患,面对刚刚起步、还没有拿到心脏手术正式批文的开发区医院的有限条件,这个手术到底做还是不做?重 大的抉择考问着刘晓程,也考问着与他共同创业的全体职エ。
+However, facing the critically ill patient who had been declared terminally ill by multiple hospitals and could die at any time, and facing the limited conditions of the hospital, which had just started and had not yet obtained the official approval for heart surgery, whether to do the operation or not became a major decision challenging Liu Xiaocheng and all his colleagues with whom Liu started the business.
+做,失败了,对刘晓程、对刚刚起步的事业的负面影响是不可低估的;不做,找个借口将病人推出去,等待病人的只有一个字:死。而且病人的病情容不得半点儿拖延。
+ If they did it but failed, the negative impact on Liu Xiaocheng and the fledgling hospital would be immeasurable. If they didn't do it, and made an excuse to refuse the patient, the patient would only face one fate: death. And the patient's condition couldn't tolerate any delay.
+有过无数次类似经历的刘晓程,丝毫没犹豫,手ー扬,命令道:“准备手术「’这 是刘晓程一贯的作风。
+Liu Xiaocheng, who had countless similar experiences, didn't hesitate for a moment. He moved his hand and commanded, "Prepare for surgery." This was Liu Xiaocheng's usual style.
+月27日,天津市卫生局组织专家来评审开展手术的条件,答应下周一（10 月31日）发批文。但病人的病情已无法再拖,刘晓程恳请卫生局领导和专家组,破 例批准他先手术后补批文。他为病人高度负责的精神感动了大家,默许他“违法” 于次日进行手术。
+On October 27th, the Tianjin Health Bureau organized a panel of experts to evaluate the conditions for performing the surgery and promised to issue the approval on the following Monday (October 31st). However, the patient's condition could no longer be delayed. Liu Xiaocheng pleaded with the leaders of the health bureau and the expert group to make an exception, allowing him to perform the surgery before the approval was granted. His sense of responsibility for the patient moved everyone, and they silently allowed him to "break the law" to perform the surgery the next day.
+麻醉师是借的,体外循环医生是借的,手术室护士长是现请来的……
+The anesthesiologist was borrowed and so was the extracorporeal circulation doctor , and the operating room chief nurse was newly hired.
+月28日9点,全院职エ聚集在手术室门口,一双双沉重的目光,默默地目送着病人进了手术室……这是医院的第一例心脏手术,大家都知道这次手术成败的 分量。对全院来说,她不仅是一条生命,而且是ー个开端。从上午9点一直到深夜 23点,ー连!4个小时,全院职エ的心都一直悬着。
+At 9 o'clock on October 28th, all the hospital staff gathered at the entrance of the operating room, silently watching the patient enter the operating room with heavy hearts. This was the hospital's first cardiac surgery, and everyone knew the weight of its success or failure. To the hospital, she was not just a life, but also a beginning of this new hospital. From 9 am until 11 pm, for a total of 14 hours, the hearts of all the hospital staff were hanging in suspense.
+ー个濒临死亡的灵魂一直徘徊在无影灯下。刘晓程要为病人心脏实施主动脉瓣、二尖瓣双瓣膜替换术,而且由于病人肝功能极差,渗血不止,无法关胸。23 ：15, 死神终于退却,手术获得了极大成功。
+A soul on the brink of death lingered under the shadowless lamp. Liu Xiaocheng had to perform double valve replacement of aortic and mitral valves. on the patient's heart. Additionally, due to the patient's poor liver function and continued bleeding, he couldn't close the chest. At 23:15, the Grim Reaper finally retreated, and the surgery was a great success.
+月28日从此成为泰达国际心血管病医院的纪念日---为了纪念ー个普通 农妇的新生,也为了纪念救死扶伤精神在国际心血管病医院永远发扬光大。
+October 28th became the commemoration day of TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH), to commemorate the rebirth of an ordinary farmer woman and to perpetuate the spirit of saving lives and helping others in the hospital forever.
+术后,8名医护人员对病人日夜轮流监护。病人没有毛衣,护士长车慧将自己 的毛衣送给她;医生护士每次打饭都多打ー份,给买不起饭菜的病人丈夫。
+数天后,病人痊愈出院了。农民夫妇握着刘晓程的手久久泣不成声,末了说 道:“俺们这辈子报答不了你,只能等下辈子报答了「’
+After the surgery, eight medical staff took turns to monitor the patient day and night. The patient had no sweater, so the head nurse, Che Hui, gave her own sweater to her; the doctors and nurses always ordered an extra portion of food for the patient's husband who couldn't afford
+meals.A few days later, the patient recovered and was discharged. The farmer couple held Liu Xiaocheng's hand and wept for a long time, saying, "We cannot repay you in this lifetime, we can only repay you in the next."
+如果不是遇到刘晓程,如果不是医院为她免去两万多元的医疗费用,如果不是 全体医护人员对他们关怀备至,这对濒临绝境的农民夫妇,很难说会走到哪ー步。
+If it weren't for Liu Xiaocheng, if it weren't for the hospital waiving their medical expenses of over 20,000 yuan, and if it weren't for the caring attention of all the medical staff, it's hard to say where this farmer couple on the brink of desperation would have ended up.
+刘晓程任心外科医生25年,手术8000多例,不知经历过多少这样的事情。患 者的感谢信多得数都数不清。老抗联战士、黑龙江省老省长陈雷同志赠给他一幅 牌匾,刻着“晓界生死,程接古今”八个大字。
+Liu Xiaocheng has been a cardiothoracic surgeon for 25 years and has performed over 8,000 surgeries. He has experienced countless similar situations, and he has received numerous letters of gratitude from patients. The old veteran of the Anti-Japanese War and former governor of Heilongjiang Province, Comrade Chen Leitong, presented him with a plaque inscribed with the words" Xiao Jie Sheng Si, Cheng Jie Gu Jin"
+但,刘晓程不是神医,在拯救濒危病人的手术中也有失败的时候。
+However, Liu Xiaocheng is not a miracle doctor. There were also times when he failed to save endangered patients during surgery.
+一名23岁的年轻人两年前在某医院做了心脏肿瘤切除,但术后效果不佳,又 复发了,生命垂危。一家三口苦苦哀求刘晓程为其做心、肺移植术。刘晓程深知这 种手术风险极大,成功率极低,尤其这种晚期肿瘤加上第一次手术已形成广泛粘连 的病情,更增加了手术的风险。
+Two years ago, a 23-year-old young man underwent heart tumor removal at a certain hospital, but the postoperative effect was not good and it recurred, putting his life in danger. His family begged Liu Xiaocheng to perform a heart and lung transplantation for him. Liu Xiaocheng knew very well that the risks of such an operation were extremely high and the success rate was very low, especially in this late-stage tumor case with extensive adhesion resulting from the first surgery, which further increased the risk of surgery.
+但不做心、肺移植,病人必死无疑。做,也可能生, 但没有十分把握。如果失败了,他也可能因此而名誉扫地,可他必须竭尽全力去 做,这是他做人的准则。
+However, if the patient didn't receive the heart and lung transplantation, he would undoubtedly die. If he did it, he might live, but there was no absolute certainty. For Liu Xiaocheng, if he failed, he might lose his reputation, but he had to do his best, which was his principle as a human beings.
+“我不敢保证他能活,但我会尽全力。”他坦诚地告诉病人家属。
+"I cannot guarantee that he will survive, but I will do my best," he told the patient's family.
+手术那天,小伙子面带微笑向亲人告别,看来他心里做好了各种准备。
+On the day of the surgery, the young man smiled and said goodbye to his relatives, as if he had prepared himself mentally for all kinds of outcomes.
+手术进行了十几个小时,很遗憾,死神还是夺走了年轻人的生命。遗体已经装上车了,家属却坚决不走,必须要见刘院长,谁劝都不听。
+The surgery lasted for more than ten hours, but unfortunately, the angel of death still took the young man's life. The body had already been loaded onto the vehicle, but the family insisted on seeing Director Liu, and no one could persuade them to leave.
+大家都为刘晓程捏了一把汗,以为家属要找他算账,就说:“刘院长,你可要挺 住啊!”
+Everyone was nervous for Liu Xiaocheng, thinking that the family was going to hold him accountable, saying "Director Liu, you must hang in there!"
+刘晓程却说:“没什么挺不住的,我们尽力了ド’
+However, Liu Xiaocheng said, "There's nothing I can't handle. We did our best."
+没想到,死者父母见到刘晓程却扑通一声跪下了,拽都拽不起来。
+Unexpectedly, the parents of the deceased knelt down as soon as they saw Liu Xiaocheng and couldn't be pulled up.
+“刘院长啊,我儿子上手术台前一再叮嘱我,说他死了也要我来谢谢您!”死者 父亲握住刘晓程的手,悲恸欲绝,“刘院长啊,我替我儿子来向您道谢了。您为他尽 カ了!”
+"Director Liu, my son repeatedly told me before he went into surgery that even if he died, I had to thank you in person !" The father of the deceased held Liu Xiaocheng's hand, grieving and thanking him, "Director Liu, I am here to thank you on behalf of my son. You did your best for him!"
+此情此景,催人泪下。不是为了生者,而是为了告慰死者,来感谢一位并没有救活死者的医生。
+The scene was so emotional that it brought tears to everyone's eyes. It wasn't for the living, but to console the dead by thanking a doctor who tried his best but still failed to save the patient.
+“我很遗憾,没能救活他。”刘晓程的声音沙哑,他已经耗尽了体力与精力。
+"I'm sorry I failed to save him," Liu Xiaocheng's voice was hoarse, he had already exhausted his physical and mental strength.
+“刘院长您千万别这么说,您已经尽力了。我儿子死而无憾了！”
+"Don't say that, Director Liu. You did everything you could. My son passed away without any regrets!"
+没过几天,这位名叫郑铭长的死者家属将一幅写着“仁心仁术除疾患,全心全意为患者。柳叶神术冠天下,济世丹心惠众生”的牌匾,送到了刘晓程面前。
+A few days later, the family of the deceased, named Zheng Mingchang, presented a plaque to Liu Xiaocheng with the words ""With compassion and skill, he cures illnesses, dedicating his whole hearts to patients. As a remarkable expertise,Liu Xiaocheng is renowned worldwide, and his benevolent spirit benefits all beings."
+死者家属给医生送牌匾,在当今的医疗界,谁曾听说过?
+Who has ever heard of a family of the deceased giving a plaque to a doctor in today's medical community?
+中国的老百姓已经够苦了, 我们还是为老百姓积点儿德吧!
+The Chinese people have suffered enough, let's accumulate some virtue for them!
+与刘晓程一起共事的人都承认,刘晓程的精力过人,工作效率更惊人。
+Those who worked with Liu Xiaocheng all recognized that he had extraordinary energy and astonishing work efficiency.
+年3月28日,新医院破土动エ,不到一年半,2003年9月26日,投资7.2 亿、亚洲最大、占地11万平方米的泰达国际心血管病医院,在天津经济技术开发区 举行隆重的开业典礼。
+On March 28, 2002, the groundbreaking ceremony for the new hospital was held. In less than a year and a half, on September 26, 2003, the TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH), which cost 720 million yuan, was opened with great ceremony in the Tianjin Economic-Technological Development Area.
+这座设有600张病床,集医疗、教学、科研与康复四位一体的心血管病医院,是 天津经济技术开发区继摩托罗拉、丰田、雅马哈、雀巢、三星等3700家企业之后,又 ー家令世界瞩目的企业。
+This cardiovascular hospital, which has 600 beds and integrates medical treatment, teaching, research, and rehabilitation, is the latest world-renowned enterprise to settle in the zone after 3,700 other companies such as Motorola, Toyota, Yamaha, Nestle, and Samsung.
+卫生部副部长朱庆生同志在开业典礼上宣读了吴仪的贺信。信中写道:“心血
+管病是人类健康和生命的主要杀手之一。我国现有400万心血管病人等待手术, 而全国每年仅能完成4万多例。泰达国际心血管病医院的建成,将为改善我国心 血管病的治疗做出贡献,给广大心血管病患者带来福音……”
+At the opening ceremony, Vice Minister of the Ministry of Health Zhu Qingsheng read out a congratulatory letter from Wu Yi, which reads "Cardiovascular disease is one of the major killers of human health and life. There are currently 4 million cardiovascular disease patients in China waiting for surgery, while just over 40,000 surgeries can be completed per year in the whole country. The construction of TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH) will contribute to improving cardiovascular disease treatment in China and bring good news to cardiovascular disease patients..."
+这所世界一流的医院,是刘晓程的理想、意志与追求的完美体现,它处处充满了人文关怀。医院里刻着刘晓程一生的座右铭“博爱济世”。走廊里,装有防止病 人摔倒的软包扶梯;住院处设有病人休息的阳光室;宽敞、舒适的病人家属等候区, 摆有沙发、茶几、大型薄屏彩电……
+This world-class hospital is a perfect reflection of Liu Xiaocheng's ideals, will, and pursuits, and it is full of humanistic care everywhere. The hospital bears Liu Xiaocheng's lifelong motto "Universal Love and Alleviating Suffering". The corridors are equipped with soft package escalators to prevent patients from falling; the admission office has a sunny room for patients to rest; the spacious and comfortable patient family waiting area is furnished with sofas, coffee tables, and large thin-screen color TVs...
+病人可以享受高档的“总统”病房,也可以享受 50元一天的二人普通病房。所有病房都配有日本原装多功能床、电话、小型薄屏彩电、卫生间、热水、纯净水、中央空调,医院还设有咖啡厅、商业街、花店、贵重物品 存放处、24小时快餐厅、商务中心、屋顶儿童乐园。
+Patients can enjoy the high-end "presidential" ward or the standard double ward for 50 yuan per day. All rooms are equipped with Japanese multifunctional beds, telephones, small thin-screen color TVs, bathrooms, hot water, purified water, central air conditioning, and the hospital also has a café, shopping street, flower shop, valuables storage, 24-hour fast food restaurant, business center, and rooftop children's playground.
+医院配有世界最先进的各种检测、治疗心血管疾病的高科技仪器:双梯度核磁共振、十六排CT、ECT、平板式数字减影心导管机、三维实时成像彩色В超……还 有一台病人不用穿刺动脉做心脏造影,就可以确诊有无心脏病的世界第三台、欧亚第一台电子束СТ。
+The hospital is equipped with the world's most advanced high-tech instruments for detecting and treating cardiovascular diseases, such as dual-gradient nuclear magnetic resonance, 16-row CT, ECT, flat-panel digital subtraction angiography machines, and real-time 3D imaging color ultrasound... There is also the third machine in the world and the first in Eurasia that can diagnose heart disease without the need for arterial puncture.
+在这儿,病人不用端着大小便到处找化验室,医院特为他们设 立了可以传递标本的特殊卫生间。化验室设有全自动条码扫描、运送、分检、离心、取样的检验线,按一下电钮,就通过自动物流系统传到化验室,医生可以通过信息 系统随时看化验结果。全院看不到胶片和纸张,这是中国真正的数字化医院。
+Here, patients do not need to carry their bodily waste to different laboratories for testing. The hospital has special bathrooms where specimens can be sent for testing. The laboratory has fully automated barcode scanning, transportation, sorting, centrifugation, and sampling lines. With just a press of a button, the specimens are sent to the laboratory through an automatic logistics system, and doctors can view the results at any time through the information system. The hospital is truly digitalized, and there are no films or papers visible throughout the hospital.
+刘晓程以院长身份公开向社会承诺:“国际心血管病医院对每种疾病将实行公 开、透明的每收费限价,保证收费低于医保部门核定的单病平均收费标准,保证以优质的服务为广大群众解除疾苦。坚决杜绝吃回扣、收红包、大检查、大开方的各 种不正之风!”
+As the hospital's director, Liu Xiaocheng publicly promised to society that "TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH) will implement transparent pricing for each disease and ensure that the charges are lower than the single-disease average charge standard set by the medical insurance department. We are committed to relieve the suffering of the people with high-quality services. We will firmly put an end to the unhealthy tendency such as kickbacks, red envelopes, excessive examinations, and over-prescription!"
+医院规定,对请不起专家的贫困病人,将主动为其安排专家,而专家的报酬将在医院的二次分配中解决,与病人交费不挂钩。
+The hospital stipulates that for poor patients who cannot afford specialists, the hospital will proactively arrange specialists for them, and the specialists' remuneration will be solved through the hospital's second distribution, which is not related to the patients' fees.
+医院对各种医疗设备及药品全部实行公开竞价招标。由于对厂家压价压得太 低,厂家推销员拖着哭腔说:“刘院长你压得也太狠了,还让我们厂家活不活?”
+ The hospital adopts open competitive bidding for all medical equipment and drugs. Due to the low price pressure on manufacturers, sales representatives from the companies even pleaded with tearful voices, saying, "Director Liu, you're pressing us too hard. Will our company still survive?"
+刘晓程却说:“你还是考虑让老百姓活不活吧!这些仪器和耗材的价钱,最后都要压到老百姓头上。中国的老百姓已经够苦了,卖房卖地来看病。我们还是为老百姓造点福吧!我们ー不要回扣,二不需要培训。你把压到老百姓头上的虚高价钱压到最低,看我们能不能接受?”
+However, Liu Xiaocheng replied, "You should consider more about the common people ! The prices of these instruments and consumables will eventually be paid by the common people. Chinese people have already suffered too much. They sell houses and land to seek medical treatment. Let's bring more benefits to the common people! We don't want kickbacks, and we don't need training either. You need to push down the inflated prices that paid by the common people and see if we can accept them."
+王铁林是刘晓程的大学同窗,曾与刘晓程共同创建了牡丹江心血管病医院,是刘晓程的金兰之交。这次得知刘晓程又要创建国际心血管病医院,王铁林毅然辞去珠海中山大学第五医院院长之职,到这担任行政副院长,跟刘晓程一起创建这所医院。
+Wang Tielin, Liu Xiaocheng's university classmate and a close friend, had previously co-founded the Mudanjiang Cardiovascular Hospital with Liu Xiaocheng. Hearing Liu Xiaocheng decide establish an international cardiovascular hospital , he resigned from his position as the director of the fifth affiliated Hospital Sun Yat-sen University  without hesitation and then join this new hospital as the deputy dean, working together with Liu Xiaocheng to establish it.
+这位中国医院建设和装备学会副秘书长兼《中国医院建设和装备》杂志副总编,在中国医疗建设方面享有很高的声誉。这次建筑国际心血管病医院,创造了 包括开办费在内每平方米6000元的最低成本,以及利用不到一年半时间建成一座 大型现代化医院的世界纪录。
+Wang Tielin, serves as the Deputy Secretary-General of the China Association of Medical Equipment Hospital Architecture and Equipment Branch and the Deputy Editor-in-Chief of the Chinese Hospital Architecture & Equipment magazine, enjoying a high reputation in the field of medical construction in China. During the construction of TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH), he achieved the lowest cost per square meter, including start-up expenses, at 6,000 yuan, and set a world record by completing a large-scale modern hospital in less than a year and a half.
+在购置设备的竞价中,刘晓程和王铁林一个唱红脸,ー个唱白脸。刘晓程思维 敏捷,口才雄辩;王铁林性格内向,沉稳多思。两人对西门子、飞利浦等几十个商家 单兵教练,轮番轰炸,让商家分头单独报价,从上午一直唇枪舌剑到第二天凌晨 4点。
+During the bidding process for equipment procurement, Liu Xiaocheng and Wang Tielin played different roles. Liu Xiaocheng was quick-thinking and eloquent, while Wang Tielin was introverted and thoughtful. They took turns pressuring dozens of vendors, including Siemens and Philips, bombarding them to provide separate quotations. This intense negotiation lasted from morning till 4 a.m. the next day.
+商家从未见过这样的院长,人家都是趁机想大捞一把,他俩却分文不要。商家 不得不被院长的人格所折服,最后以令人咂舌的低价成交:一台全功能手术台从 18万降到10万,刘晓程还向厂家白要了两台； 700张日本原装全功能病床以2. 5折成交,还白送两套总统电动轮椅;一台西门子呼吸机要价4万美元,最后以1.9万 美元成交。
+The merchants had never seen a director like this before. Others would take advantage of the situation to make a big profit, but these two didn't want a single cent. The merchants couldn't help but be impressed by the director's integrity. In the end, they made an astonishing deal: a fully functional operating table was reduced from 180,000 to 100,000 yuan, and Liu Xiaocheng even managed to get two additional ones for free from the manufacturer. They also negotiated a deal for 700 original Japanese fully functional hospital beds at 2.5 times below the original price and received two sets of presidential electric wheelchairs for free. A Siemens ventilator was originally priced at $40,000, but it was finally sold at $19,000.
+三天三夜,成交了 !.8亿元人民币的仪器和设备。
+In just three days and three nights, instruments and equipment worth 180 million yuan were successfully procured.
+在这里,病人不用给医生送红包,医生绝对不敢拿你的小命“开玩笑”。刘晓程不仅率先垂范,而且公开宣布:“那些被红包喂肥了的’专家’,技术再好也不能登上我们搭的舞台,因为我们的薪水填不满他们的欲壑!救死扶伤的事业是有灵魂的人从事的事业,没有同情心的人是不能从事这种职业的!如果发现哪个医 生收红包,将立刻开除!”
+In this hospital, patients do not need to give doctors red envelopes, and doctors would never dare to make fun of people’ lives. Liu Xiaocheng not only sets an example himself but also announces, "Those 'experts' who have been fattened by red envelopes, no matter how skilled they are, will never step into our hospital because our salaries cannot fulfill their insatiable desires! The mission of saving lives and providing medical care is a pursuit of those with a soul. Those without compassion cannot engage in this profession! If any doctor is found accepting red envelopes, they will be immediately dismissed!"
+早在牡丹江心血管病医院,曾发生过这样的事。刘晓程发现一名弟子多次向病人索要钱物,多次批评屡教不改。最后一次,病人借钱给弟子买了两条烟。刘晓 程得知此事后对弟子说:“你不配做我的弟子,我们从此断绝师徒关系！但我给你找条出路,送你到北京中日友好医院去进修!”弟子哭了,一再认错。
+Similar things have occurred in the Mudanjiang Cardiovascular Hospital. Liu Xiaocheng discovered that one of his students repeatedly extorted money and items from patients, despite repeated criticisms and admonishments. In the final instance, the patient borrowed money to buy the doctor two cigarettes. Upon hearing that, Liu Xiaocheng said to his mentee, "You are unworthy of being my mentee, and our teacher-student relationship ends here! However, I will find a way for you and send you to China-Japan Friendship Hospital.|
+刘晓程却愤然道:“病人连手术费都交不起,天天吃窝头！你竟然去搜刮病人 的救命钱,你还有良心吗?你不配当医生!”两人从此断绝了师徒关系,但仍然是朋友。
+Liu Xiaocheng angrily retorted, "The patient can't even afford the surgery fees and has to eat plain buns every day! And yet you should extort money from for them, do you have any conscience left? You're not worthy of being a doctor!" From then on, their mentor-mentee relationship was severed, but they remained friends.
+刘晓程对国际心血管医院的全体职エ讲道:“大家都得挣钱养家糊口,这是生 存的需要。但别忘了我们手中操着他人的性命,我们不能昧着良心赚黑钱！我要让你们有尊严,有人格,合法地通过劳动获得应得的报酬！而不能收受红包,让老 百姓骂我们是毫无人性、毫无自尊的白眼狼!”
+Liu Xiaocheng spoke to all the staff at TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH), "Everyone needs to earn a living, to support their families and that’s the basic need of survival. But let's not forget that we hold people's lives in our hands. We can't earn dirty money without conscience! I want you to have dignity, and to receive fair compensation for your labor in a legal way. We can't accept red envelopes and let the people call us heartless, self-respectless wolves!"
+但在当今,不正之风猖獗,职业道德沦丧,孔方兄主宰一切的现实中,不少人对刘晓程的做法感到不可思议。有人甚至提出非议:“他是为了赚大钱オ提出辞职 的。这所国际医院一定有他的股份,要不他オ不会下那么大气力呢!”
+However, nowadays. Corruption is rampant, professional ethics are lost, many people find Liu Xiaocheng's actions unbelievable. Some even criticized him, saying, "He resigned just to make big money. He must have shares in this international hospital; otherwise, why would he put in so much effort?"
+刘晓程却淡然一笑,快言快语道:“我要想赚钱还不容易吗!我可以去国外,也可以去‘走穴‘,一年赚个几百万不成问题!何必要什么股份?再说,这是政府投 资的非营利性公立医院,没有我刘晓程一分钱。
+Liu Xiaocheng smiled lightly and said bluntly, "If I wanted to make money, wouldn't it be easy? I could go abroad or do some freelance work, earning millions yuan easily in a year. Why would I need shares? Besides, this is a non-profit public hospital invested by the government. I don't have a penny invested.
+钱是身外之物,生带不来,死带不去,要那么多有什么用?人各有志。我感兴趣的不是钱,而是建医院。如果需要, 我可以再建几所这样的医院,这就可以大大缓解心脏病人看病难的问题了。我オ 不在乎别人说什么呢。谁愿意说谁说,事实会证明一切!”
+Money is something outside of me; it can't buy health or rebirth and can't be taken away when we die. What's the point of having so much money? Everyone has their own goals. I'm interested in building hospitals instead of money. If needed, I can build more hospitals like this to greatly alleviate the problem of heart disease patients struggling to get medical treatment. I don't care what others say and the facts will prove everything!"
+这些年来,刘晓程一直在自我牺牲,在国内国外都是这样。正因为他的牺牲, 从而改变了多少病人及家属的命运?正因为他的牺牲,又改变了多少医生的命运? 他的弟子遍布广东、厦门、大连、北京、牡丹江等许多城市,他们都成了当地心外科 的顶梁柱。协和医院的副主任医生苗齐、泰达国际心血管病医院的心外科主任孔祥荣,都是刘晓程手把手带出来的弟子。
+Over the years, Liu Xiaocheng has been self-sacrificing, both when he was at home and abroad. It is because of his sacrifice that the destinies of countless patients, their families and doctors changed . His students are spread across many cities, including Guangdong, Xiamen, Dalian, Beijing, and Mudanjiang, and they have all become the backbone of local cardiovascular surgery departments. Miao Qi, the Deputy Chief Physician at Peking Union Medical College Hospital, and Kong Xiangrong, the Director of TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH) are both students personally trained by Liu Xiaocheng.
+刘晓程决心把这所国际心血管病医院建成一座技术现代化、管理科学化、人员素质高能化的世界一流的医院,把它办成一所深受百姓信赖、收费合理、真正救死 扶伤的医院。因此,必须有一个卓越的专家群体,有一批优秀的管理人才。
+Liu Xiaocheng is determined to transform this international cardiovascular hospital into a world-class hospital with advanced technology, scientific management, and highly skilled personnel and one that is trusted by the people, with reasonable fees, and genuinely saves lives and helps the injured. Therefore, it is necessary to have an excellent group of experts and a team of outstanding management personnel.
+他以自己独特的人格魅力,吸引了国内外大批致カ于救死扶伤事业的有识之士及医学界的精英。他的研究生同窗、麻醉专家薛玉良,心内科专家熊鉴然,心内科专家齐向 前,放射专家朱杰敏,他手把手教出来的大弟子、心外科专家孔祥荣,超声专家黄云 洲,受聘于沙特阿拉伯皇家医院手术室护士长的车慧……ー批“海归”骄子及医学 专家纷纷舍弃高额的薪水,投奔到刘晓程麾下。
+ With his unique charisma, he has attracted numerous visionary individuals and medical elites from both domestic and international backgrounds who are dedicated to the cause of saving lives. Xue Yuliang, his former post-graduate classmates and also an anesthesia expert; Xiong Jianran, a cardiology expert; Qi Xiangqian, a cardiology expert; Zhu Jiemin, a radiology expert, as well as Kong Xiangrong his top student and also a cardiothoracic surgery expert, and Huang Yunzhou, an ultrasound expert are just a few examples. Many "overseas returnees" and medical professionals have forsaken high salaries to join Liu Xiaocheng's team. Che Hui, who was appointed as the head nurse of the operating room at a royal hospital in Saudi Arabia, is one of them.
+“刘院长身上闪光的东西激励着我们,呼唤着我们,使我们心灵深处蕴藏的美 好理想被激发出来,燃烧起一股干事业的热情。他的人格魅力就像一双红舞鞋,跟 他在ー起就像着了魔似的,即使累得筋疲カ尽也心甘情愿。”
+"Liu Director's shining qualities inspire us, calling out to us, igniting the beautiful ideals hidden deep within our souls and fueling a passion for accomplishing great things. His charisma is like a pair of red dancing shoes, and being with him feels like being under a spell. Even if we are exhausted, we willingly embrace it."
+“刘晓程的品格光彩照人,他是时代的楷模。我佩服他的学识和胆量,更佩服 他不媚上,不卑下,处处为老百姓着想的品格。”
+"Liu Xiaocheng's character shines brightly, and he is an exemplar of our time. I admire his knowledge and courage, but more importantly, I admire his integrity of always considering the well-being of the common people."
+“我来这里不是为了来挣钱,而是为了实现ー个医务工作者的人生价值,为了 刘院长提出的博爱、济世的抱负。我喜欢这里纯洁、简单、没有内耗的人际关系,エ 作起来痛快!”这是投奔者的心声,也是对刘晓程的评价。
+"I came here not to earn money but to fulfill the life value of a medical professional, to fulfill Director Liu's vision of Universal Love and Alleviating Suffering. I love the pure, simple, and harmonious interpersonal relationships here. It feels refreshing to work in such an environment!" This is the voice of the followers of Liu Xiaocheng, and it is also their evaluation of him.
+一次聚餐,精明干练的护士长车慧向刘晓程敬酒,风趣地说:“院长,我们每个 人都擎起一片天,就会托起你这轮太阳。你这太阳的光芒再回照到我们身上,我们 将永远跟国际心血管医院在ー起!”
+During a gathering, the capable head nurse, Che Hui, raised her glass to Liu Xiaocheng, humorously saying, "Director, if each one of us holds up a piece of the sky, we will support you as the sun. When your sunlight shines back on us, we will always be with the TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH)!"
+是的,刘晓程把博爱、济世的阳光洒向医院的每ー个角落,洒向每一位患者和 职エ。患者没钱回家,他悄悄掏钱塞给患者;全院号召献血,他第一个伸出胳膊;医 院新调来职エ,他为他们安排好大到住房、孩子上学,小到煤气、冰箱等一切日用 品,乃至一把门锁……有人说,刘晓程是一座纵览群山的高峰,迎风斗雪,奇绝险 峻。有人说,他是虚怀若谷的大丈夫,内心坦荡,豪情万丈。
+Indeed, Liu Xiaocheng spreads the sunlight of Universal Love and Alleviating Suffering to every corner of the hospital, illuminating every patient and staff member. When patients have no money to go home, he discreetly gives them money. When the hospital is called upon to donate blood, he is the first to extend his arm. When new staff members arrive, he arranges everything for them, from accommodation and enrollment of their children to daily necessities like gas, refrigerators, and even a door lock. Some say that Liu Xiaocheng is a towering peak, braving snow and wind, awe-inspiring and perilous. Others say he is a magnanimous man with a broad heart, open-minded and full of passion.
+但是,人生总有遗憾,刘晓程最愧疚的是对不住亲人。他不止一次地说:“如果 真有来世,我什么都不干,一定做个好父亲、好丈夫、好儿子厂’
+However, in life, there are always regrets, and Liu Xiaocheng's greatest regret is not being able to fulfill his duties to his loved ones. He has said more than once, "If there truly was an afterlife, I would do nothing but be a good father, a good husband, and a good son."
+今生今世他是永远做不到了。在北京工作的妻子,对拼命三郎的丈夫永远牵着ー颗心,因为他也是个心脏病患者。她对他的奢望不高,只希望他活着,只要他 活着就好
+In this lifetime, he can never achieve that. His wife, who works in Beijing, always carries a worried heart for her hardworking husband because he himself is also a heart disease patient. Her expectations for him are not high; she simply hopes that he stays alive, as long as he is alive, everything is good.
+为了尽孝,刘晓程把90岁高龄的父亲接到天津开发区。尽管近在咫尺,他也 只能隔三岔五打个电话,个把星期闪电式地看一眼风烛残年的老父亲罢了。
+In order to fulfill his filial duty, Liu Xiaocheng brought his 90-year-old father to the Tianjin Development Area Hospital. Despite being close by, he could only call him occasionally and visit his elderly father for a brief moment every couple of weeks.
+采访者变成患者,明天我将走上手术台
+ I am an interviewer, Tomorrow I will receive an operation.
+也许,这就是天意。
+Perhaps, this is fate.
+我和刘晓程来自同一座城市,但并不相识。2003年10月8日,佳木斯准备出 一本报告文学集,朋友邀我来写刘晓程,这オ第一次结识他。
+Liu Xiaocheng and I are from the same city, but we didn't know each other. On October 8, 2003, Jiamusi was preparing to publish a collection of reportage, and a friend invited me to write about Liu Xiaocheng. That was the first time I met him.
+我也是个心脏病患者,2003年9月做了心脏支架,但术后感觉一直不好。采访时,我请刘晓程看看我做心脏支架造影的片子。他和几位专家会诊后告诉我,说我 心脏除了支架部位还有六处病变,最严重的部位已经堵塞了 90%,随时可能发生 心梗,要想彻底解决心脏问题,必须搭五至六个桥,建议我尽快做搭桥手术。
+I am also a heart disease patient. In September 2003, I had a Heart Stent Implantation, but I had been feeling unwell since the surgery. During the interview, I asked Liu Xiaocheng to review my cardiac stent imaging film. After consulting with several experts, he told me that my heart had six additional lesions besides the stent area. The most severe blockage had reached 90%, and I could have a heart attack at any time. To completely resolve my heart problems, I needed to undergo bypass surgery to graft five or six vessels. He advised me to have surgery as soon as possible.
+Chapter Nine
+听到这番话,我完全惊呆了,悲哀与绝望一下子把我吞没了。想想啊,ー个拳 头大的心脏除了支架部位,居然还有六处堵塞。这哪还是什么心脏,简直是ー只破 筛子啊!令人费解的是,一个月前我刚刚做完支架,当地医生说我心脏还有两处堵 塞,但短时间内不会发生危险,他们并没有告诉我这么严重啊!而且,不单是对疾 病与死亡的恐惧,还有导致这场疾病的原因带给我的委屈与愤慨,远比疾病带给我 的痛苦更加令我难以承受。
+Upon hearing these words, I was completely stunned. Grief and despair engulfed me in an instant. Just imagine, a small heart should have six additional blockages besides the stent area. What kind of heart is this? It's more like a broken sieve! It's bewildering that just a month ago, after having the stent placed, local doctors informed me of only two blockages in my heart, assuring me that there was no immediate danger. They didn't disclose the severity to me! Not only am I afraid of the disease and death, but also the injustice and indignation caused by the factors leading to this illness, which is far more unbearable than the pain inflicted by the disease itself.
+我父母都没有心脏病,都是七八十岁オ过世。而我这个国家一级速滑运动员 出身的作家,身体一直很棒,精力充沛过人。我先生总是亲切地叫我“活兔子”。
+Neither of my parents had heart disease and they both passed away in their seventies or eighties. As a writer with a background as a national-level speed skater, my health had always been excellent, and I had an extraordinary level of energy. My husband affectionately called me an "energetic rabbit."
+ 我曾孤身ー人赴俄罗斯、乌克兰、韩国、比利时、荷兰等好多国家采访,连战火纷飞的车臣都去过。我一生都坚持锻炼,2000年冬天,每晚还游泳1000米呢。可是三 年后的今天,我竟然变成了一个亟待拯救的心脏病重患。这个极大的落差实在令我无法接受。
+I had traveled alone to various countries for interview, including Russia, Ukraine, South Korea, Belgium, the Netherlands, and even the war-torn Republic Of Chechnya. I I have been exercising all my life. In the winter of 2000, I even swam 1,000 meters every night. But today, three years later, I have turned into a critically ill heart patient in desperate need of salvation. This tremendous contrast is truly something I cannot accept.
+我知道,这完全是因为创作《盖世太保枪口下的中国女人》那部电视剧造成 的。长时间的过度疲劳,加上屡遭侵权与伤害,接连打了三起官司,我受不了那种 投告无门、欲哭无泪、长达数年的摧残与折磨,得了严重心脏病。
+I know that all of this is entirely due to the creation of the TV series A Chinese Women at Gestapo Gunpoint. Prolonged excessive fatigue, coupled with repeated infringement and harm, and three consecutive lawsuits, I couldn't bear the torment and devastation of being helpless, on the verge of tears, for several years, which led to severe heart disease.
+当时,眼看着自己自费赴欧洲采访、呕心沥血三年的作品被他人夺走,谁能不 玩命地抗争啊?可现在ー想,与生命相比,一部电视剧又算得了什么?三起官司都 赢了,又怎能弥补我生命的巨大损失?那些侵权事件只不过是我生命之旅一段令 人唾弃的游戏,应该把它扔进垃圾袋,让它永世不再打扰我的宝贵人生了 !
+At that time, seeing my self-funded trip to Europe for interviews and the three years of painstaking effort being taken away by others, who wouldn't fight desperately? But now, when I think about it, what does a TV series matter compared to life itself? Even though I won all three lawsuits, how can it make up for the enormous loss in my life? Those infringement incidents were nothing more than a despicable game in my life. They should be thrown into the garbage bag, never to disturb my precious life again!
+当一个人濒临死亡,她对生命的诠释与理解,跟以往有着截然不同的含义。
+When a person is on the brink of death, their interpretation and understanding of life will be completely different.
+可是,人生最大的悲哀莫过于清醒过来已近黄昏,一切都悔之晚矣。
+However, the greatest sorrow in life is to wake up when dusk is approaching and realize that it is too late for regrets.
+我本来是来采访的,现在却成了亟待拯救的病人。这种极大的落差几乎把我 击倒了。
+I initially came here for an interview, but now I have become a patient in desperate need of salvation. This tremendous contrast almost knocked me down.
+我觉得生命随时可能离我而去,可我还有多少创作计划没有实施,还有多少美 好人生没有享受啊?我是那么热爱生活,热爱创作,热爱人生,现在,这颗破碎的心 却跟我过不去了。我对刘晓程说:“我オ60岁,正是创作的黄金时代。我不要多, 再给我15年就行。我太爱创作了。”
+I feel that I might die at any moment, but I still have so many creative plans to be fulfilled and so many years of beautiful life to be enjoyed. I have such a deep love for life, for creation, for living. Now, this broken heart is causing me so much pain. I said to Liu Xiaocheng, "I'm only 60 years old, which is the golden age of creation. I don't need much, just give me another 15 years. I love creating too much."
+刘晓程却说:“把你那颗破碎的心交给我吧。15年太保守了,你准备再创作20 年吧。”
+But Liu Xiaocheng said, "Give your broken heart to me. Fifteen years is too conservative. How about preparing to create for another 20 years?"
+我知道他在安慰我。
+I know he is comforting me.
+刘晓程找来内科副主任林文华医生当我的“保健医生”,并给林主任下了“死令”,要他指导我用药,必须保证在我术前不发生意外。
+Liu Xiaocheng sought Dr. Lin Wenhua, the associate chief physicians of the Department of Internal Medicine, to become my "care physician." He issued a "death order" to Dr. Lin, instructing him to guide my medication and ensure that no accidents occur before my surgery.
+我觉得刘晓程这个人物太难得了,在当今医疗界实属凤毛麟角。我决定把这篇报告文学写完再手术,我要向约稿的朋友有个交代,万一我没有走下手术台那就 遗憾了。我要告诉那些像我ー样徘徊于生死边缘的心脏病同胞:中国有这样一位 院长,有这样一所医院
+I feel that Liu Xiaocheng is an extraordinary individual, a rare gem in today's medical community, so I decide to finish writing this report literary work before the surgery. I want to fulfill my commitment to my friends who commissioned the work. It would be regrettable if I couldn’t survive the surgery. I want to let those who, like me, hover on the brink of death know that in China, there is such a excellent director like him, and there is a wonderful hospital like the TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH).
+于是,我揣着这颗破碎的心,忍受着随时发生的心绞痛,用我顽强之笔,蘸着生 命之墨,竭力撰写着这篇报告文学。我每天都如履薄冰般地走在生命的边缘,很怕 ー不小心踩重了,踩碎了十分脆弱的生命,使我过早地陷入死亡之谷。
+So, carrying this broken heart, enduring the angina that could strike at any moment, dipping my resilient pen into the ink of life, I am diligently composing this report literary work. Every day, I walk on the edge of life as if treading on thin ice, afraid that one wrong step will crush the fragile life and plunge me prematurely into the valley of death.
+从此,一向活泼、开朗、奔放的我,一向与歌声和笑声相伴的我,却再也不能从 心底发出笑声了。我曾试图用美国总统罗斯福的名言擦拭我心灵的泪:“将死亡视 为不可逃避的平常事实而加以接受,便可以永远地解脱对死亡的恐惧。”
+From that moment on, I, who used to be lively, cheerful, and unrestrained, always accompanied by songs and laughter, can no longer let out laughter from the depths of my heart. I tried to wipe away the tears in my soul with the famous quote of U.S.President Roosevelt, "Accept death as an unavoidable fact, and you can be forever freed from the fear of death."
+我也曾试 图用创造人类奇迹的科学家霍金的痛苦来稀释我的痛苦,用他的意志来坚强我的 意志。但我却发现,我不是一位伟人,我只是ー个平凡的作家。一向自诩无比坚 强、任何苦难都不曾使其低头的我,原来如此脆弱,如此不堪ー击。生命原来如此 脆弱。
+I also attempted to alleviate my pain with the suffering of the scientist Hawking, who created miracles for humanity, and strengthen my will with his determination. However, I discovered that I am not a great figure; I am just an ordinary writer. I, who always boasted of being immensely strong, never bowing down in the face of any hardship, turned out to be so fragile, so vulnerable. Life is indeed so fragile.
+傍晚,我和先生漫步在海边,看潮起潮落,听渔歌唱晚,看美丽的タ阳西下,倾 听他人的欢声笑语,而我却只有忧伤和叹息。万家灯火照不亮我阴暗的心,强劲的 海风吹不散我心头的愁绪。然而,不管有多么痛苦,我都必须接受这个残酷得令人 绝望的现实。这就是命运。
+In the evening, my husband and I strolled along the beach, watching the ebb and flow of the tide, listening to the fishermen's evening songs, and watching the beautiful sunset. I heard the joyous voices and laughter of others, while I could only feel sad and sighs. The myriad lights of the households couldn't illuminate my darkened heart, and the strong sea wind couldn't dispel my melancholy. However, no matter how painful it was, I had to accept this cruel and despairing reality, this is fate.
+在这段时光里,我深切地感受着一个人对于生命的强烈渴望,感受着病人渴望 医生来拯救自己生命的殷切企盼,感受着任何人都无法排遣的无望与悲怆,也感受 着一个人徘徊于生死边缘的孤独与无助。
+During this period of time, I keenly felt the intense longing for life that one person possesses, experienced the fervent hope of a patient yearning for a doctor to save their life, felt the hopelessness and sorrow that no one could dispel, and also experienced the loneliness and helplessness of lingering on the brink of death.
+我体会着400万心脏病同胞所遭受的、 任何语言都无法描述的痛苦煎熬。而我只需要煎熬几个月,可那400万同胞却要 煎熬几年,十几年,甚至一直煎熬到死。那是怎样ー种漫长而绝望、痛苦而无助的 煎熬啊?
+I understood the indescribable suffering endured by four million heart disease patients. While I only had to endure for a few months, those four million patients had to suffer for years, even decades, until their death. What an agonizing, prolonged, hopeless, and painful ordeal it must be!
+我的心脏病同胞们,我太理解你们了 !
+My fellow heart disease patients, I truly understand you!
+年3月8日,我终于完稿了。
+On March 8, 2004, I finally completed the manuscript.
+夜里,我给先生写了一封长信。尽管刘晓程一再说:“雅文大姐你应该相信我, 我一定要还给你生命!”可我知道,心脏手术风险很大,我必须做好各种准备。
+At night, I write a long letter to my husband. Despite Liu Xiaocheng repeatedly saying, "Yawei, you should trust me. I will definitely give you back your life!" But I know that heart surgery carries great risks, and I have to prepare myself for that.
+把该做的事情都做完了,把该交代的事情都交代完了,3月9日,在先生的陪 同下,我住进了我所描写过的泰达国际心血管病医院。
+Everything prepared , on March 9, I get hospitalized, accompanied by my husband,into the TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH) that I had depicted in my writing
+月15日,刘晓程将亲自为我主刀手术。
+On March 15th, Liu Xiaocheng personally performed the surgery on me.
+日晚,手术部主任薛玉良来询问我以往麻醉的情况,是否有过敏史;担任手术助手的外科医生王正清、张嵬来询问我是否是疤痕体质;手术室的两名护士也前 来探望。医院规定,凡是手术,相关医护人员都要来探视病人。
+On the evening of the 14th, the head of the surgical department, Xue Yuliang, came to inquire about my previous anesthesia history and whether I had any allergies. The surgical assistants, Wang Zhengqing and Zhang Wei, asked if I had a tendency for scarring. Two nurses from the operating room also came to visit. It was a hospital regulation that all relevant medical staff should visit the patient before surgery.
+晚间,中国作协领导打来电话,黑龙江作协领导和文学院领导来看望我,好多 朋友都打来电话安慰我、鼓励我。两位素昧平生的外企大学教师---我忠实的读者,听说我要手术,竟然专程从北京跑到天津医院来为我祈祷。他们二人和林文华副主任将手搭在我的手上,虔诚地为我祝福,为我祈祷,祝福我闯过这道生死大关。那个场面太感人了,令我刻骨铭心,永志难忘。
+In the evening, leaders from the China Writers Association called, and leaders from the Heilongjiang Writers Association and the literature institute came to visit me. Many friends called to comfort and encourage me. Two foreign university teachers whom I had never met, but are loyal readers of my work, heard that I was going to have surgery. They actually traveled all the way from Beijing to the hospital in Tianjin just to pray for me. The two of them, along with the associate chief physicians Lin Wenhua, placed their hands on mine, sincerely blessing and praying for me, wishing me success in overcoming this life-and-death ordeal. That scene was incredibly touching, etched into my memory, and unforgettable.
+亲爱的读者,明天,我将带着亲人与朋友的祝福走上手术台了。
+Dear readers, tomorrow I will step onto the operating table with the blessings of my loved ones and friends.
+我无法预测我生命的裂谷到底有多深,我不知道我脆弱的生命能否跨过这道裂谷。如果跨过去了,我将获得新生;如果跨不过去,我将化作一缕白烟,同这美好而残酷的世界永别了。那么,这篇作品将成为我的遗作。
+I cannot predict how deep the chasm in my life is, nor do I know if my fragile life can cross that chasm. If I can cross it, I will gain a new life. If I cannot, I will turn into a wisp of smoke, bidding farewell to this beautiful yet cruel world. Then, this work will become my legacy.
+亲爱的读者朋友,无论我能否再见到你们,都请你们记住,这里有一位院长,有 一所医院,有一群生命的守护天使……这里,将会给濒危的心血管病人带来生的希 望 无论你是富人,还是穷人。
+Dear reader friends, whether or not I can see you again, please remember that there is a dean, a hospital, and a group of guardian angels of life here... It will bring hope for endangered cardiovascular patients, regardless of whether you are rich or poor.
+再见了,我的朋友!
+Farewell, my friends!
+补记:我终于活过来了!
+Update: I have finally survived!
+当我周身插着各种管子躺在监护室里昏睡着,只觉得有人拍了拍我的脸,说: “醒醒吧,雅文大姐!今天是3月16日了。手术做完了,给你搭了六个桥,把你破 碎的心修好了。”
+As I lay in the intensive care unit, with various tubes inserted all over my body, I was in a drowsy state. I felt someone gently patting my face and saying, "Wake up, Sister Yawen! Today is March 16th. The surgery is done, and they have performed six bypass grafts to repair your broken heart."
+我听出是刘晓程,却睁不开眼睛。我的第一反应是:我还活着！但又不太敢相 信,这么快就手术完了,不太可能吧?我哪里知道,从3月15日上午9点20分我 被推进手术室,已经过去二十多个小时了。医生从我两只小臂及胸内取下3支动 脉,为我心脏搭了 6个桥,手术做得非常成功。
+I recognized the voice as Liu Xiaocheng's, but I couldn't open my eyes. My initial reaction was: I'm still alive! But I couldn't quite believe it. Could the surgery really be over so quickly? Little did I know that more than twenty hours had passed since I was wheeled into the operating room at 9:20 am on March 15th. The doctors took three arteries from my forearms and chest to create six bypass grafts for my heart. The surgery was a great success.
+当确信一切都是真的,我无法描述我对刘晓程及所有医护人员的那份感激,任何语言都是苍白、无カ的,只有真正“死”过一回,亲身经历过获得第二次生命的 人,才能体会到什么叫救命之恩。
+Once I was certain that it was all real, I couldn't describe the gratitude I felt towards Liu Xiaocheng and all the medical staff. Any words would be pale and insufficient. Only someone who has truly "died" once and experienced receiving a second chance at life can understand the profound sense of gratitude for being saved.
+接下来,在我处于极度虚弱,刀口剧痛,连咳痰、翻身、喝水一切都不能自理的日子里,我受到医护人员的百般呵护。从监护室到普通病房,从护士长、护士、护エ 到林文华副主任以及我的外科主治医生王正清,都时刻监护着我的病情,帮我服 药、捶背、翻身、洗头……对我照顾得无微不至。
+Next, during the days when I was extremely weak, experiencing intense pain from the incision, unable to do anything independently, even coughing, turning over, or drinking water, I received meticulous care from the medical staff. From the intensive care unit to the regular ward, from the head nurse, nurses, and attendants to the associate chief physicians Wenhua and my attending surgeon Wang Zhengqing, they constantly monitored my condition, helped me with medication, massaged my back, assisted with turning over, and even washed my hair... They took care of me in every detail.
+我第一次感到病人在医院里是主人,而不是处处要看医护人员脸色甚至用“红包”去取悦他们的“小媳妇”。可我仍 然心存疑虑:是不是因为我采访过刘晓程,所以他们对我格外关照?
+For the first time, I felt like a patient was the master in the hospital, rather than having to constantly please the medical staff or even give "red envelopes" to win their favor. But I still had doubts: Was it because I had interviewed Liu Xiaocheng that they were especially attentive to me?
+林文华副主任的一句话,使我感到ー丝释疑。他说:“这里是一年一签合同,实 行全员聘任制。所以人人都要把自己最优秀的一面展现给患者,展现给工作。”
+看来,体制决定着一切。
+Words from the associate chief physicians Lin Wenhua alleviated my doubts. He said, "Here, we have annual contracts and implement a system where all staff members are appointed. Therefore, everyone has to show their best side to the patients and in their work." It seems that the system determines everything.
+我能下地走动了,看到许多病友都享受着和我同样的待遇,听到病友对医护人员赞不绝ロ,我还采访了两名外国病人,心中的疑虑这オ打消。
+I was able to walk around and see many fellow patients enjoying the same level of care as me. I heard praises from patients towards the medical staff, and I even interviewed two foreign patients. The doubts in my heart were then completely dispelled.
+岁的艾尔伯特是来华工作的加拿大人,3月22日半夜11点,突发心梗,凌晨2点,被救护车送到泰达国际心血管病医院急诊室。当时,他胸痛剧烈,血压下 降,病情危重。
+Albert, a 46-year-old Canadian working in China, experienced a sudden heart attack at 11:00 pm on March 22nd. By 2:00 am, he was brought to the emergency room of TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH) by an ambulance. At that time, he was suffering from severe chest pain, a drop in blood pressure, and his condition was critical.
+曾在加拿大工作多年的内科主任齐向前医生,立刻给他做了心脏介入手术,放了一个支架,病情明显改善,第二天就下床走动了。但要彻底解决心脏问题,还需做搭桥手术。但加拿大保险公司不相信中国的医疗技术,不同意支付艾尔伯特的保险。艾尔伯特却说:“不支付我自费也要做!这医院太好了。
+Dr. Qi Xiangqian, the chief of medicine who had worked in Canada for many years, immediately performed interventional cardiology on him, placing a stent. His condition significantly improved, and the next day he was able to get out of bed and walk. However, to completely resolve his heart problem, he needed to undergo Coronary artery bypass grafting. The Canadian insurance company, however, did not believe in the medical technology in China and refused to cover Albert's insurance. However, Albert said, "Even if I have to pay out of my own pocket, I want to have the surgery done in this hospital. It's excellent here.
+在加拿 大,只有我太太照顾我,在这里大家都来照顾我,我非常满意。”后来,加拿大保险公 司给刘晓程打来电话,最终同意支付艾尔伯特的保险。于是,艾尔伯特成为发达国 家在中国做心脏搭桥手术的第一人。而且,加拿大的保险公司与泰达国际心血管 医院正式签约,今后加拿大人在中国突发心脏病,都到该院来就诊。
+In Canada, only my wife look after me, but here everyone takes good care of me, and I am very satisfied." Later, the Canadian insurance company called Liu Xiaocheng and ultimately agreed to cover Albert's insurance. As a result, Albert became the first person from a developed country to undergo Coronary artery bypass grafting in China. Moreover, the Canadian insurance company officially signed a contract with TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH), so that in the future, if Canadians experience a sudden heart attack in China, they can come to this hospital for treatment.
+但是,台湾出生的美籍华人陈先生就没这么幸运了。51岁的陈先生在外企中芯国际公司任职,3月12日凌晨1点,突发心梗,凌晨2点,被救护车送进天津某大 医院急诊,一直等到下午2点,陈先生已经神志不清,医院オ为他做了心脏造影,并 放入ー个支架。
+However, Mr. Chen, a Taiwanese-born American citizen, was not as fortunate. Mr. Chen is 51 years old and works in Semiconductor Manufacturing International Corporation. At 1:00 am on March 12th, he experienced a sudden heart attack and was brought to an emergency room in a major hospital in Tianjin by an ambulance at 2:00 am. He had to wait until 2:00 pm in the afternoon, by which time Mr. Chen was already in an altered state of consciousness. The hospital then performed a cardiac angiography and inserted a stent for him.
+医生说他心脏发生弥漫性病变,需要做搭桥手术,但远端血管太 细,搭桥只能解决80%的问题。陈先生夫妇感到痛苦而茫然,跟医护人员搞得很 不愉快。有关保险公司同意用直升机送陈先生去香港或台湾手术,又怕途中发生 意外。
+The doctor said that he had diffuse coronary artery disease and needed to undergo Coronary artery bypass grafting. However, the distal blood vessels were too narrow, and the bypass surgery could only solve 80% of the problem. Mr. Chen and his wife felt distressed and bewildered, which led to a tense relationship with the medical staff. The insurance company agreed to transport Mr. Chen to Hong Kong or Taiwan by helicopter for the surgery, but they were concerned about potential accidents during the journey.
+这时,台湾长庚医院著名心脏专家李英雄先生通过朋友打来电话,让陈先生立刻去找刘晓程。于是,他们来到国际心血管病医院。看过造影片子,刘晓程说: “我可以解决你全部的心脏问题。”
+At this time, Dr. Li Yingxiong, a renowned cardiac specialist from Chang Gung Memorial Hospital in Taiwan, called Mr. Chen through a friend and urged him to immediately seek Liu Xiaocheng's assistance. Consequently, they went to TEDA International Cardiovascular Hospital (TICH). After reviewing the angiography films, Liu Xiaocheng said, "I can solve all of your heart problems."
+陈夫人顿时激动得热泪盈眶:“上帝,我们终于从地狱逃了出来,来到了天堂。 我真不敢相信中国还有这么好的医院,这么好的医生!真不知该如何感谢你们ド’
+刘晓程为两名外国人成功地各搭了五个桥,目前二人均已康复。后来,陈先生 听说医院为ー个被遗弃的孤儿做手术,还寄来了 10000元赞助费。
+Mrs. Chen was instantly moved and tears welled up in her eyes. She said, "Oh my God, we have finally escaped from hell and arrived in heaven. I can't believe there is such a good hospital and such excellent doctors in China! I don't know how to thank you enough." Liu Xiaocheng successfully performed five bypass surgeries for the two foreigners, and both of them have since recovered. Later, Mr. Chen heard that the hospital had performed surgery on an abandoned orphan and sent a sponsorship fee of 10,000 yuan.
+术后第19天,我怀着虽然虚弱但却“健康”的心,带着外科全体护士送给我的 中国“同心结”,带着内、外科主治医生的叮嘱,在我先生和孩子的陪同下,踏上了回家的路。
+On the 19th day after the surgery, with a weak but "healthy" heart, I embarked on the journey back home accompanied by my husband and child, carrying the Chinese "heart knot" given to me by the surgical nurses and the instructions from the attending surgeons in both the general surgery and the cardiac surgery departments.
+没有比此时此刻更能体会活着是多么美好的了。
+There is no better moment than this to truly appreciate how wonderful it is to be alive.
+坐在车里,有一种恍若隔世之感,对窗外的一切感到既陌生,又亲切,有一种看 不够的贪婪。20天前还枯黄的树已经变绿了,ー排排小白桦顶着鹅黄色的新绿, 在风中轻轻摇曳。阳光暖暖的,风柔柔的,树绿绿的,一切都是那么美好。来时的 灰暗心情已经全部消失,生命又属于我了,我心中又充满了新的希望。
+Sitting in the car, I feel a sense of detachment from the world outside. Everything appearing is both unfamiliar and familiar. I, with a greedy desire, try to take it all in. The trees, once withered and yellow just 20 days ago, are now lush green; rows of small white birches are adorned with a fresh golden green, gently swaying in the wind. The sunlight is warm, the breeze is gentle, the trees are verdant—everything is so beautiful. The gloomy mood I had when I arrived has completely vanished, and life belongs to me once again, filling my heart with new hopes.
+一路上,我一直在为自己庆幸,庆幸上苍让我结识了刘晓程,结识了这所医院。 可是,另一种思绪却不时地缠绕着我,令我胡思乱想……
+Throughout the journey, I have been grateful for myself, grateful that fate allowed me to meet Liu Xiaocheng and come to this hospital. However, another thought occasionally lingers and troubles me, causing my mind to wander...
+我在想,假如那位朋友没有邀我来采访刘晓程,那么,我对自己的病情可能ー 直糊里糊涂的,说不定哪天会突发心梗……假如我不是一名作家,不享受医保,我 只是穷山沟里一名农妇,或者只是一名每月仅有一二百元的下岗女工,根本没有能 カ支付两次十几万元的手术费用,那么,我将如何面对这场灾难?又将会有怎样ー 番人生结局?
+I wonder, what if my friend didn't invite me to interview Liu Xiaocheng? Then, I might have remained oblivious to my own condition, and who knows, one day I might have suffered a sudden heart attack... If I weren't a writer, but someone without medical insurance such as a peasant woman living in a poverty-stricken mountain village, or a laid-off female worker surviving on a monthly income of only a couple hundred yuan, how would I face this catastrophe? What would be the outcome of my life?
+转而又想,我那400万像我一样徘徊于生死边缘的心脏病同胞,他们什么时候 也能像我ー样,获得手术机会,轻轻松松地活下去?中国老百姓看病贵、手术难的 问题,什么时候才能真正得到解决?
+On the other hand, I think of the 4 million heart disease patients who, like me, are teetering on the edge of life and death. When will they have the opportunity to undergo surgery and continue living easily ? When will the problems of expensive medical expenses and inaccessibility surgeries for the Chinese people truly be resolved?
+最后,我要告诉朋友们:好好珍爱自己的生命吧,生命属于我们只有一次!
+Lastly, I want to tell my friends: Please cherish your lives, for we only have one life to live!
+(Originally published in "Beijing Literature" 9th Issue, 2004)
+（原载《北京文学》2004年第9期）
+==卷四：8.难回故里==
+卷四：8.难回故里
+难回故里 Hard to go back home
+郭冬
+我舅,台湾海军陆战队上尉,河南籍老兵,一生中挫折大于平顺。像很多漂泊 的中国人ー样,他把“回家”当成了无可置疑的生命追求与归宿,然而“叶落”却未能“归根”。
+My uncle was a former Taiwan Marine Corps (TMC) captain from Henan province, who encountered more setbacks than smooth sailing throughout his life. Like many wandering Chinese people, he considered "going home" as an their pursuit and destination in life. However, the "fallen leaves" were unable to "return to their roots."
+舅舅走了,和他相同命运的老兵已经或即将抵达天国。这些被政治强カ所侵吞的ー批特殊人,早被自己原先所属的社会所抛弃,因而他们就比其他海外游子, 更渴望被原来的生存空间接受。
+My uncle passed away, and so did other veterans who suffered the same fate . These victims of politics, have long been abandoned by the society they originally belonged to. Therefore, they yearn more than other overseas compatriots to be accepted by their homeland.
+他们正在带走ー个时代,那个时代中关于他们的秘密,将沉入深不可测的海底,无声无息地融化。而他们,这些在历史记录中原本就是缺位或ー笔带过的小人 物群体,再过二三十年,也就成了远离后人记忆的缥缈的孤帆远影。
+They are taking away an era with them, and the secrets about them from that era will sink under the sea and dissolved into nothingness. As for them, this group of insignificant individuals who were not recorded in history or just briefly mentioned, they will not be remembered in another twenty or thirty years.
+当舅舅在台北荣民总医院辞世时,我清楚,夺走舅舅生命的,剥夺他回家意愿 的,不仅仅是病魔,甚至不仅仅是众所周知的两岸局势。
+When my uncle passed away at Taipei Veterans General Hospital, it became clear to me that what took his life and kept him from returning home was not only his illness but also the Cross-strait tensions.
+第一章你从哪里来,我的舅舅
+Chapter 1  The truth of uncle's origins
+初次见面
+First Encounter
+年4月23日,ー个普通的日子,母亲派我接舅舅。
+April 23, 1988, an ordinary day. My mother sent me to pick up my uncle at the train station.
+母亲交代的线索是,你舅洪洲,57岁,台湾人,乘坐京广线列车抵达北京站。
+The only clue my mother gave me was that my uncle, Hongzhou, 57 years old, a Taiwanese, would arrive at Beijing railway station by train.
+我不知道这个年月会被载进中国当代史,一当然,舅舅并非历史人物,他在 庞大的台湾海军陆战队中,不过是个退役上尉;我也没有意识到ー个世人瞩目的事件正急剧降落到我们居住的这片土地上。
+Little did I know that this date would be recorded in contemporary Chinese history. Of course, my uncle was not a historical figure; he was just a retired captain in the Taiwan Marine Corps (TMC) . Nor was I aware that a momentous event was about to rapidly descend upon the land where we resided.
+没有车次、时间,只有等待。我站在熙熙攘攘的人流中,ー见港台模样的壮年 男性出站,就迎上搭话:“请问是洪洲先生吗? ”
+Without knowing the train number or time, all I could do was wait. Standing among the bustling crowds, whenever I saw a middle-aged man who appeared to be from Hong Kong or Taiwan, I approached and asked, "Excuse me, are you Mr. Hongzhou?"
+“不,不是,不是不是。”
+"No, no, I'm not. "
+无数张矜持或自负的脸面从身边闪过,无数只滑轮皮箱从脚边拉走
+Countless faces flashed by, and numerous wheeled suitcases were pulled away at my feet.
+那个下午,我伫立在北京站出口,足足等了两个小时。
+That afternoon, I stood at the exit of Beijing railway station, waiting for a full two hours.
+I turned around and headed home, thinking to myself, "I won't wait anymore. When he left home years ago, he made my grandmother wait in anguish for a lifetime. Now it's my turn to wait."
+姥姥临终前对舅舅的评价是,到底不是亲生儿子啊,说走就走了,连个信也没有。姥姥对舅舅的彻底失望,使我一直不肯原谅这个没有见过面的人。
+Upon her death, my grandmother's last impression of my uncle was that he wasn't her biological son after all and that's why he left without saying a word or leaving a letter. My grandmother's complete disappointment made me unwilling to forgive my uncle, even though I had never met him.
+我掉头往家走,心说:不等了,当年他离家出走,让姥姥苦等了一生,现在又轮 到我来等。
+Thus, I turned around and headed home, thinking to myself, "I don’t want to wait anymore. When he left home years ago, he made my grandmother wait in anguish for a lifetime. Now it's my turn to wait."
+第二天凌晨,尖锐的电话铃声长响不断,是母亲的电话。她的语气充满兴奋: “你舅昨天午夜到家,飞机降落在天津,他是从天津搭乘出租车到北京的。”
+The next early morning, the telephone kept ringing . It was my mother calling. Her voice was filled with excitement. "Your uncle arrived home yesterday at midnight. The plane he had took landed in Tianjin, and then he took a taxi from there to Beijing."
+我才知道,舅舅作为台湾当局“允许民众赴大陆探亲”方案实施后的首批老兵 之一,是从台湾飞到香港,后经罗湖口岸到广州,再到北京的。他们这些想家想了近40年的人们相约着出来,就像鸟儿逃离了樊笼。
+That's when I learned that as one of the first batch of veterans allowed by the Taiwan authorities to visit the mainland under the "Allowing People to Visit the Mainland" program, my uncle flew from Taiwan to Hong Kong, then crossed the Luohu Port to Guangzhou, and finally arrived in Beijing by train. These people who had been missing home for nearly 40 years made an appointment to visit their home in mainland, just like birds finally escaping from their cage.
+舅舅没能购买到从广州直达北京的火车票。他在信中说,想圆梦,沿着京广线 一路看下来,看内地,看河南,看黄河,ー解思乡之苦。
+My uncle failed to buy a ticket of the nonstop train from Guangzhou to Beijing. In his letter, he mentioned that he want to fulfill his dream of traveling along the Jingguang Railway where he can see the mainland, the Henan province and the Yellow River so as to relieve his homesickness.
+年的广州车站售票窗口前,人头攒动,纷乱熙攘。舅舅已经不习惯无序 状态,惊讶地注视着推来操去的人潮。他不知道,大陆的改革正从这个门户,壮阔地涌向北方大地。
+In 1988, the ticket windowa at Guangzhou railway station was crowded and chaotic. My uncle, not accustomed to such disorder, watched in astonishment as the bustling crowds moved around. Little did he know that the reforms in mainland China were surging towards the northern lands through this gateway.
+有人走到他身边,是票贩子。“北京软卧哦?没福气啦!”贩子劝他,“改搭飞机快得很咧!”舅舅急于逃离广州,立马从皮夹里抽出美元,以3倍价格购买了抵达天津而不是北京的飞机票。
+Someone approached him; it was a scalper. "Soft sleeper to Beijing? What a pity! No ticket left! " . The scalper persuaded him, "Take a plane instead; it's much faster!" Eager to escape Guangzhou, my uncle immediately took out US dollars from his wallet and purchased a plane ticket to Tianjin instead of Beijing for triple the price.
+我直奔母亲家,推开门,正见舅舅的笑脸。
+I rushed to my mother's house, pushed open the door, and saw my uncle's smiling face.
+ー股暖暖情谊径直地流淌到我心里。
+My heart was warmed immediately by some kind of kinship.
+这就是后来留在我印象里的舅舅。他壮壮实实,腰板挺得很直,是那种训练有 素的军人气质;他身着毛料西装,染过的头发有序地分梳在两边;眼睛不大,一笑就 眯起来,显得很亲切。
+That's my impression of my uncle from then on. He was sturdy and stood upright , displaying the demeanor of a highly trained military man. He wore a woolen suit, and his dyed hair was neatly combed on both sides. His eyes were not big, and narrowed when he smiled, which made him look so kind.
+这是ー张和善的面孔,和善到让你忘记了姥姥的哀怨,忘记了几十年生活境遇的区别,忘记了彼此的距离,仿佛大家从来就是这样ー起生活,素无间隙。
+He has a kind face, so kind that it made me forget my grandmother's resentment, forget decades of different life and the distance between us. It felt as if we had lived together all along.
+舅舅第一次置身于我们这个人丁兴旺的大家庭,喜得不知怎么办オ好。他看 看这个,看看那个,老是眯着眼笑。
+ Being in our big family for the first time, uncle was overwhelmed with joy, looked here and there and always had eyes squint when he smiled.我扎进厨房,赶紧干活。在中国人欢聚的场合,吃饭是第一位的。
+I hurried into the kitchen and start working. In Chinese family reunion, eating is of utmost importance.
+舅舅随我进了厨房,慈爱地看着我,将红包塞给我。可能是青少年时代屡经冷遇,我一直不习惯收礼,再说昨天还在埋怨人家,今天咋好收红包呢?
+My uncle followed me into the kitchen, looking at me lovingly and putting a red envelope into my hands. Due to the indifference I met with in teenage years, I was not accustomed to receiving gifts. Besides, I was complaining about him yesterday, so how could I accept his red envelope today?
+舅舅看出了我的尴尬,用毋庸置疑的口气说:“小冬,这是’人头份’,大人小孩 都有份!”他抓住我的手不放,很有力气。他的手又宽又厚,无名指上戴着ー个很大 的绿翠戒指。
+Seeing my embarrassment, uncle comforted, "Xiaodong, don't be shy . Take it. Everyone will have a red envelope. It's yours!" He held onto my hand firmly, his grip strong. His hands were big, with a large emerald ring on his ring finger.
+舅舅在北京住了两个月。最让他骄傲的是,当返乡老兵凑在台北聊天时,旁人说大陆亲戚要钱要物,而舅舅却说他收到的东西多得带不走。在往后多年的日子里,一提这事,他就笑眯了双眼。
+My uncle stayed in Beijing for two months. The proudest moment of him was when he chated with other veterans who had also come home,  others were complaining that their mainland relatives asked him for money and gifts , while he could show off having received so many things that he couldn't take them all. In the following years, whenever this was mentioned, he would smile.
+听妈妈讲那过去的事情
+Listening to my mom tell the past events
+“老天送给我们ー个舅舅。”
+"God sent us an uncle." I said.
+妈妈摇头:“哪里!你舅50多年前就在咱家落根,和咱们血脉相连了。” 妈妈就给我们兄弟姐妹讲开了一
+My mom shook her head, saying, "No! Over 50 years ago, your uncle joined our family and we became part of each other ." My mom began to tell us siblings about the story of my uncle's origin.
+你们都知道的,你舅不是我亲弟,这要从家世说起。
+As you all know, your uncle is not my biological brother, but let's start with our family background.
+你姥姥是河南人,家境殷实,嫁给你姥爷后,光景就差下来。可姥爷没让姥姥失望,他是个有远见的人,早早从商,到县城开办馒头铺,起名玉兴馍铺。 凭着诚信发达,雇伙计,买骡子,还盖起了二层小楼。
+Your grandmother was from Henan, and her family was well-off, but after marrying your grandfather, their fortunes declined. However, my grandfather didn't disappoint my grandmother. He was a visionary and started a business early on, opening a steamed bun shop in the county called Yuxing Steamed Bun Shop. Through honesty and hard work, he made a fortune, hired employees, bought mules, and even built a two-story building.
+你们都知道孟子的话,“不孝有三,无后为大”,你姥姥接受的就是这种文化。她接连生养我们姐妹イ三,没有儿子。不管族人是否数落,她自己就被“无 后”的观念压得抬不起头。痛苦的还在后头,我的姐姐和妹妹先后死于疾病, 只剩下我这个中腰的。尽管我从小学念到师范,成绩拔尖,远近有名,但都不 能给这个家庭带来继承香火的荣耀。
+According to Mencius, "Having no male heir was once considered as one of the three most unfilial behaviors." That was the cultural belief of your grandmother. She gave birth to us three sisters one after another but had no son. Regardless of whether our relatives criticized her, she was burdened by the concept of having no male heirs. Worse still, my older sister and younger sister died from illnesses, leaving only me, the middle child. Despite excelling academically and being well-known for my excellent academic performance from primary school to college, I couldn't bring the glory of carrying on the family's lineage.
+一件偶然的事情挽救了这个家。那是1932年,时逢大灾,黄河泛滥,土路上满是背井离乡的人。有人捎来口信,说一家逃荒人要给儿子找条活路。
+A chance event saved this family. It was in 1932 when a major disaster occurred. The Yellow River flooded, and the roads were filled with people forced to leave their homes. Someone brought news that a refugee family was looking for a chance for their son to live.
+姥爷当即说:“咱认下这个儿,让他传宗接代。”姥姥自然同意,买了小孩衣服,我们一家三口搭坐驴车,往邻村赶了去。
+Your grandfather immediately said, "Let's adopt this child and let him continue the family line."  Of course, your grandmother agreed. We bought clothes for the child, and the three of us traveled by donkey cart to the neighboring village.
+那是个风沙天,很冷。我们进了人家里,就见ー对衣衫褴褛的夫妻在等。
+It was a windy and sandy day, very cold. As we entered the house, we saw a ragged couple waiting.
+男孩2岁,没穿衣裳,裹在ー堆破布里。我伸出手指逗他,男孩闭着眼睛全无反应。他娘怕我们不要,赶紧解释:“小孩没奶吃,到现在还不会说话。”
+The 2-year-old boy was not wearing clothes; he was wrapped in a pile of tattered cloth. I reached out my finger to play with him, but the boy kept his eyes closed and showed no response. His mother, fearing that we would dislike him, quickly explained, "The child have no breast milk to drink and still can't speak."
+你姥姥的眼泪掉下来,低头给孩子穿衣裳,又掏出准备好的10块银圆,捧给逃荒人。那夫妻俩又喜又悲,千恩万谢地去了。走出门口,他们再次回头张望穿 上了新衣裳的男孩,但孩子仍旧闭着眼睛没反应。
+Tears welled up in your grandmother's eyes. She bent to dress the boy, then took the prepared 10 silver dollars and handed it to the refugee couple. The couple was both happy and sad, repeating their thanks as they left. As they walked out the door, they turned back to look at their child wearing new clothes, but he still had his eyes closed and showed no response.
+你们猜得对,这就是舅舅了。
+You guessed it right; that boy was my uncle.
+家里算是有了儿子,之后请客接风,把男孩视为珍宝。
+With a son in the family, we held a celebratory feast, regarding him as some kind of treasure.
+当地一位有相面奇术的方士称:“这孩子命里缺水,必须取个多水的
+名字。"
+ A local fortune-teller specialized in physiognomy said, "This child's destiny lacks water, so he must have a name associated with water."
+一番推算之后,算命人拍了板:“水大为洪,有水必有洲,就叫’洪洲’吧。”
+After some calculations, the fortune-teller said, "Water brings forth floods, and where there is water, there must be land. Let's name him 'Hongzhou' (Floodplain)."
+我突然有了悟性,拦住妈妈的话:“是不是水太大,把舅舅放到了被水包围的 '洲‘ーー台湾岛?”
+Getting the idea, I interrupted my mother, " That's why my uncle is destined to be confined to Taiwan Island?"
+妈妈警告我:“不要乱讲话,你舅可能还不知道自己的身世!”
+My mother warned me, "Don't speak recklessly. Your uncle may still not know his true identity!"
+舅舅的回忆
+Uncle's Memories
+一夜之间,舅舅完成了身份的转换。
+Overnight, my uncle underwent a complete transformation of identity.
+他照样挺着军人的腰板,照样洋溢着军人的气质,可腰里拴上了妈妈家门的钥 匙。他喜欢听钥匙啪啦啪啦撞击的声响,那意味着找到了家,他喜欢这种提示
+He still stood upright like a soldier and exuded the qualities of a military man, but now he had the keys to my mother's house dangling from his belt. He enjoyed the sound of the keys clinking together, as it meant finding a home. He cherished such kind of reminder.
+他哼着常香玉、马金凤、崔兰田的豫剧段子,进进出出居民楼。
+He would hum the Yu opera excerpts of Chang Xiangyu, Ma Jinfeng, and Cui Lantian as he went in and out of residential buildings. 邻居们会说话儿:“是舅舅来啦?看您姐弟俩长得多像!"
+The neighbors would say, " Your brother came to see you ? Look how much you siblings resemble each other!"
+舅舅笑眯了眼:“亲姐弟能不像?”
+Uncle would smile with narrowed eyes and say, "Can't siblings look alike?"
+那时,我遍查报纸,都找不到河南豫剧团到京演出的消息,只好一趟趟送来赶制的豫剧录像带,像《卷席筒》《斩包拯》《穆桂英挂帅》《花木兰》《秦雪梅吊孝》《抬花轿》《香囊记》《陈三两爬堂》,足有二三十盘。那是舅舅最快乐的时光,他和着豫剧带子的旋律,用戴着绿翠戒指的大手,一下一下拍打着沙发扶手,不时哼唱出 声来。
+During that time, I searched through newspapers but couldn't find any news about the Henan Yu opera Troupe performing in Beijing. So I would diligently bring home videotapes of Yuzhou opera shows that were rushed and recorded, including "Rolling the Mat," "Zhan Baozheng," "Mu Guiying Takes Command," "Hua Mulan," "Qin Xuemei Mourns Her Mother," "Carrying the Bridal Sedan Chair," "Fragrant Sachet Chronicles," and "Chen Sanliang Climbs the Stage," totaling about twenty to thirty tapes. It was the happiest time for my uncle. He would accompany the melodies of the Yu opera tapes, using his big hands adorned with the green jade ring, repeatedly tapping the armrest of the sofa while occasionally humming along.
+我知道,舅舅渴望这种温馨的家庭生活,已经很久了。但有时,他也会发出ー 声悠长的叹息。
+I knew that my uncle had long yearned for this warm family life. However, sometimes he would let out a long sigh.
+我忍不住,就问舅舅为什么叹气。舅舅的眼圈红了:“想你姥姥咧,她一天好日子没过上,要是能像现在这样,手拉手,ー起看戏听戏,我死也知足了 〇"
+Unable to hold back, I asked my uncle why he sighed. His eyes welled up with tears as he replied, "I miss your grandmother. She never had a good life. If we could be like this now, holding hands and watching plays together, I would die content."
+那天,舅舅向我讲述了他的童年一
+That day, my uncle shared with me memories of his childhood.
+你姥姥,我叫娘。在娘身边的日子,是我这辈子最有福气的时候。娘爱爹爱,我从2岁玩到6岁,凡事不愁。那时,咱家乡下有地,县城有铺,是出名的 好人家。
+Your Grandma, namely my mother. The days by mother's side were the happiest and most blessed times of my life. Mother and father both loved me. From the age of 2 to 6, I had nothing to worry about. Back then, our family had land in the countryside, and a shop in the county town, known for being well-off.
+一次,馍铺伙计耍笑我的处境是要星星不给月亮,我ー听就吵着让爹给摘 月亮。爹是铺东家,平常少言寡语,伙计害怕他,我可不怕。爹聪明,用剪子把 蛋糕皎成月牙,月牙黄黄的,他捧在手心里哄我:“看,刚给我儿摘下的月亮,趁 着软,快吃吧。”
+Once, the employee from the steamed bun shop made a joke about me, saying I wanted stars but wouldn't settle for the moon. Hearing that, I insisted that dad pick the moon for me. Dad owned the shop and was usually reserved. The worker was afraid of him, but I wasn't. Dad was clever. He used scissors to shape a cake into a crescent moon, yellow and shining. He held it in his palm and coaxed me, saying, "Look,my baby. I just plucked this moon for you. It's soft now , so eat it quickly."
+说来好笑,昨天你妈告诉我,就因为爹娘偏疼我,她那时还哭了咧。
+It's really funny . Yesterday, your mother told me that she once cried because mom and dad favored me.
+我像富家子弟那样,6岁念书。只要我愿意,爹能一直供我,可惜我不成器,ー进学堂就逃课,跑到村外瞎折腾,结果只念了两三年。这是我这辈子最 悔的事。
+I was like a rich child, staring going to scholl at the age of 6. As long as I wanted to study, dad will support me financially all the way.
+Unfortunately, I was undeserving. I skipped classes as soon as I entered school and ran around outside the village aimlessly. As a result, I only studied for two or three years. It's the biggest regret of my life.
+我闹出了圈,给家里惹过大祸。
+Once, I did something that put the family in big trouble.
+一次,绑匪趁我出村玩耍,劫了我,要价1〇担赎粮。尽管咱家不短吃喝, 可1担100斤,10担粮是1000斤啊,够全家吃上一年的。这对小生意人来说, 等于揭了房顶啦。
+While I was playing outside the village and was taken away by
+kidnappers who demanded a ransom of 500KG grains . Even though our family was not lacking in food, but the 500KG grains is enough to feed the whole family for a year. For small business people like us, it was a huge loss.
+我被绑匪关在茅草屋里,心想爹ー准不赎我了,就闭着眼睛等死。那时, 我小心眼里好怕呀。
+I was kept in a thatched hut by the kidnappers, thinking that dad must be unwilling to pay me. I closed my eyes, waiting for death. But actually I was so scared in my mind.
+谁知没过多久,绑匪“咪当” 一声拉开门,朝我说:“你爹来了,回家吧。”
+But soon, "Bang !" , the kidnappers opened the door saying, "Your father has come. Go home."
+我以为是绑匪戏耍,不理他。可绑匪又说:“你爹来了,回家吧!”
+I thought they were playing a trick on me, so I ignored them. But the bandits said again, "Your father has come. Go home!"
+我腾地跳起来,站在屋门ロー看,可不,爹来了,正卸车哩。那骡车上码的 粮食好高啊!我见着绑匪没哭,被关在茅草屋里没哭,可一见骡车上像小山一 样的粮食,我哇地哭了!那是爹娘起早贪黑干活挣的哩!
+I jumped up and looked out the door. That's exactly dad! He was unloading the "ransom grain". The grain on that mule cart was so massive ! I hadn't cried in front of the kidnappers and even when I was locked in the thatched hut. But when I saw a larege amount of"ransom grain" on the cart, I burst into tears! It was what mom and dad worked hard day and night to earn!
+爹抱起我,用手帕给我抹泪。他的眼神,让我ー辈子忘不了,多疼爱、多 怜惜!
+卸完车,爹把我安顿在空车上,他ー个指头没戳,一句气话没说,搂着我就赶车回家。娘在村口等了一整天,她泪流满面地把我抱在怀里,我当时就感动 得哭开了。就为这,我心里许下愿,要当孝子,日后为爹娘养老送终!
+Dad lifted me up and wiped away my tears with a handkerchief and I will never forget his eyes that full of love and compassion!
+After unloading the grian, dad settled me on the empty cart. He didn't scold me. Instead, he just hugged me and we hurried back home. Mother had been waiting at the village entrance all day. With tears streaming down her face, she held me in her arms, and at that moment, I was so moved that I cried and I promised to myself to be a filial son and support mom and dad in their old age.
+家里的买卖越做越大,人家的馒头是一斤5个,咱的馒头随便抓起4个, ー称准有1斤多,不使碱,面白面暄,价钱还便宜。爹会做生意,给老客户发了优惠折子,回头客越来越多,馍铺就开了分号。爹成了县城里的人物,他仍旧 少言寡语,可在街上一走,人们全迎着这位身着狐皮长袍的老板打招呼。爹不再干活,凡事不问,全交给账房管,伙计也多了起来。
+The family business grew as years went by, for the steamed buns in our shop was not only cheap but also of good quality. And dad was good at doing business. He gave discounts to regular customers, bringing people back again and again. As a result, the steamed bun shop opened a branch. Dad became a prominent figure in the county but he remained reserved. When he walked on the street, people would greeted this boss a fox fur robe. Dad no longer worked and didn't ask about anything; everything was handed over to the accountant to manage, and there were more employees.
+要是没有后来的变故,这个家的日子该有多好!
+If it weren't for the changes later, we would live a much better life.
+爹不大回家了,在外头娶了二房,就是你二姥姥。我们私下管她叫老二。
+Father married a second wife outside and rarely came home.We privately called her "Lao Er" (Second).
+当时,我是孩子,不明白爹为啥娶二房。俺娘是全村公认的美女子,她双眼皮,大眼睛,黑黑的头发拢在脑后,又能干又善良,我可为娘骄傲了。那ー 次,娘哭了,哭过后,她平静地对爹说:“恁别在外头住,搬回来ー起过吧。”
+At that time, I was a child and didn't understand why dad would marry a second wife. My mom was recognized as a beauty in the whole village with double eyelids, big eyes, and black hair tied at the back of her head. She was capable and kind-hearted, and I was so proud of my mom. That time, mom cried, and after crying, she said to dad calmly, "Don't live outside, move back home together."
+就这样,老二进了家,我的好日子也到了头。这老二比娘年轻多了,仗着爹宠幸,把谁都不放在眼里。一天,那年轻女人戳着我的头说:“嘿,小子,你大了,不能吃白饭,卖馍去吧〇”老ニー句话就改变了我的身份,这样,我10岁那 年,就成了小伙计,每日领馍外卖,回家报账交钱。卖不掉,没饭吃。
+That's how Lao Er entered the family, and my good days came to an end. Lao Er was much younger than Mother, and she didn't care about anyone because dad favored her. One day, that young woman poked my head and said, "Hey, kid, you've grown up. You can't just eat for free. Go sell steamed buns!" Her words changed my status. So, at the age of 10, I became an worker of the shop, delivering steamed buns for takeaway every day. If I couldn't sell them, I had nothing to eat.
+有一次,没卖完馍,老二不让吃饭。娘看见,不干了,她碰上讨饭逃荒的都 送馍,咋能看我饿肚子?老二不怕娘,喊开了:“这小子是啥人,凭啥吃白饭?” 娘平时不多言语,可这会寸步不让:“啥人?他是我的儿,吃白饭也理当!”老 ニー甩头,叭地把笼屉扣上了。
+Once, when I failed to sell all the steamed buns, Lao Er didn't let me eat. Mom saw it and couldn't stand it anymore. She even gave away steamed buns to those who begged for food during famine times. How could she let me go hungry? Lao Er wasn't afraid of Mom，shouting, "Who is this kid? For what reason can he eat for free?" Mom, who usually didn't say much, stood her ground, "Who is he? He is my son! Of cause he can eat for free. " Lao Er turned her head, slammed the bamboo steamer shut.
+平时的积恨涌上心头,我跺脚朝老二喊:“你个贱小婆!”
+Resentment accumulated over the years surged within me. I stomped my feet, shouting at Lao Er, " What a wretched woman!"
+我把“贱”字拉得又重又长。娘愣了,赶紧回身护住我。
+ I elongated the word "wretched" in a loud voice. Mom was stunned and quickly turned to protect me.
+老二“嗷”地ー叫扑上来,隔着娘,照我脸上就是一巴掌。
+Then Lao Er let out a loud roar and pounced on me, reaching across my mom to slap me in the face.
+小冬啊,就从那时起,我右边的耳朵聋了,到现在还听不真。
+From that moment, Dong, my right ear became deaf, and to this day, I still can't hear clearly.
+后来,日本鬼子打来了,馍铺开不成了。我姐,就是你妈,去抗日;老二生了儿子,爹带着老二单过。自打那以后,这个家就散了,从此我再也没有见过爹。
+Later, the Japanese invaders arrived, and the shop couldn't continue operating. My sister, namely your mother, then joined the War of Resistance Against Japan, while Lao Er gave birth to a son, and my father lived with her. Since then, our family fell apart, and I never saw my father again.
+娘领着我躲日本兵,回到村里。娘种地纺线,有口馍,先给我吃;扯块布, 先给我做衣服。我懂事早,每日抢着帮娘担水劈柴,怕娘想姐心疼,总是哄着她高兴。要是用几个字形容我和娘这8年的日子,那就是:相依为命！后来, 抗战胜利了,姐来信让我们去江苏徐州找她,我们三口才算团聚了。
+Mom led me to hide from the Japanese invaders and returned to our village. She worked in the fields and spun thread. As long as he got some food,she would give me first. And she would use any available cloth to make clothes for me. I matured early and eagerly helped my mother carry water and chop firewood every day. I was afraid that my mother would worry my sister and feel distressed, so I always tried to make her happy. If there are a few words to describe the last 8 years of my life with my mother, that will be we are dependent on each other! Later, when the war ended, my sister sent a letter inviting us to join her in Xuzhou, Jiangsu. It was only then that our small family could be reunited.
+不知妈啥时进屋的。
+I don't know when my mother entered the room.
+妈插话:“洪洲呀,咱们从江苏徐州迁到湖南长沙,是1948年吧?”
+She interjected, "Hongzhou, we moved from Xuzhou, Jiangsu to Changsha, Hunan in 1948, right?"
+舅说:“是的,姐。”
+Uncle said, "Yes, sister."
+妈终于道出了应当在1948年说的话:“那是咱家最难的日子,你姐夫买了扁担夢筐,要你卖菜贴补家用,你、你怎么不吭一声就离开家了?”
+Finally, my mother spoke about something that should have been said in 1948, "Those were the hardest days for our family. Your brother-in-law bought a carrying pole and a large bamboo basket, planing to let you sell vegetables to support the family. Why didn't you say a word and just leave home?"
+我知道,这是舅舅最难过也是最难面对的事情。
+I understood that this was the most difficult and painful thing for my uncle to face.
+他挺直的腰板弯下来,声音低得像自语:“我那是被抓壮丁抓走了……” 妈的声音也软下来:“你知道咱娘伤心一辈子临终还念叨洪洲洪洲的吗?” 舅受不住了,他抬起头,眼眶里溢满泪水。
+His straightened back bent down, murmuring, "I was taken away for conscription..." Mother's voice also softened. "Do you know that our mother was heartbroken her whole life and even muttered your name on her deathbed?" Uncle couldn't hold back anymore. He raised his head, tears overflowing from his eyes.
+“我,我,我呀……”舅说,“我想娘想了一辈子啊,姐!”
+“I, I, I...”Uncle said, "I’ve also missed our mother my whole life, sister!"
+他爆发出一声男子汉的呜咽。
+He let out a sob.
+舅舅失踪的真相
+The Truth behind Uncle's Disappearance
+舅舅为什么出走? 我家两代老人为这个问题寻思了半辈子。现在,我从妈妈 与舅舅断断续续的谈话中,摘出了下面这段家事。
+Why did Uncle leave ? This question has puzzled two generations of our family for half a lifetime. Now, from the sporadic conversations between my mother and uncle, I have extracted the following family story.
+让我们回到1948年的长沙。
+Let's go back to the year 1948 in Changsha.
+那时我还没出生,上面有三个哥姐。爸爸在20世纪末被中国作家协会授予抗战作家纪念牌,当年他是报纸主编,写过发过很多抗战诗歌,可战争ー结束,他就失 业了。
+I wasn't born yet, but there were three older siblings above me. At the end of the 20th century, my father was awarded the War of Resistance against Japanese Writer Commemorative Plaque by the Chinese Writers Association. He was a newspaper editor and had written and published many poems in the theme of War of Resistance against Japanese However, when the war ended, he became unemployed.
+爸爸送爷爷去台湾时,停靠在广州黄埔港的轮船“噗噗”地冒着白汽。时任国民党军军官的爷爷紧紧拥抱着爸爸,颤声说:“我的儿子,报馆关张了,你失去薪俸, 老人孩子等着吃喝,为什么还留在大陆?”爸爸不回答为什么,只是坚定地重复: “我不走。”爷爷踏上轮船的那一刻,说了一句令爸爸终生难忘,后来几次转述给我 的话:“你,真的相信那些’左‘派朋友?”
+When my father accompanied my grandfather to Taiwan, the ship docked at Huangpu Port in Guangzhou was emitting white steam. My grandfather, who was then an officer of the National Army, held my father tightly in his arms and said in a quavered voice, "My son, the newspaper has closed down, you have lost your salary. The elderly and children are relying on you for food. Why are you still staying on the mainland?" My father didn't answer why, he just repeated, "I won't leave." At the moment my grandfather boarded the ship, he said something that my father would never forget, and later recounted to me several times: "Do you truly believe those 'leftist' friends?"
+爸爸的眼泪流下来。这是父子俩多年不同的政见。
+Tears streamed down my father's face. It was a disagreement in political views between father and son that lasted for many years.
+招手,招手,招手;再见,再见,再见。
+Waving,; goodbye.
+那逐渐缩小的身影,最后消失了,永远消失在了两个人的生涯里。
+That figure of grandfather became smaller and eventually disappeared, forever disappearing from the lives of those two individuals.
+爸爸和爷爷从此没能再见。
+From that day on, my father and grandfather were never able to see each other again.
+冬季的长沙,空荡而寒冷。
+Winter in Changsha, empty and cold.
+爸妈、姥姥、舅舅和我哥姐,一家老少七口人围着炭盆吃饭。那时,爸爸做起小 生意,妈妈钩织帽子外卖。不巧,幼小的哥姐赶上发烧,两支盘尼西林下去,家里就 断了炊。
+My parents, grandmother, uncle, and my older siblings, a family of seven, gathered around a charcoal brazier to eat. At that time, my father started a small business, and my mother crocheted hats to sell. Unfortunately, my older siblings fell ill with a fever. After paying for two doses of penicillin, our family go bankrupt, unable to afford food.
+炭盆里发出的红光,越来越弱,最后,火星全熄了。姥姥叹着气,把炭盆扣到木 门外,家里没钱买木炭了。妈妈钩织帽子的手,冻肿得老高。
+The red glow from the charcoal brazier grew weaker and weaker until the sparks extinguished completely. Grandmother sighed and placed the brazier outside the wooden door. We couldn't afford to buy charcoal anymore. My mother's hands, used to crochet hats, were swollen from the cold.
+那年舅舅18岁,挑着夢筐上街卖菜。
+That year, my uncle was 18 years old and went out to sell vegetables carrying a large bamboo basket.
+他心气老高,每逢迎着太阳上菜的时候,都在盘算ー个希望,咋能让家里的日子变ー变呢?
+With high aspirations, whenever he faced the sun while selling vegetables, he pondered how to change the poor situation of our family.
+变化的时刻来了。
+Then, the moment of change arrived.
+两个军人兜头迎上来,舅舅刚想招呼买菜,两人开口 了 :“喂,送你去个吃饭的 地方。”
+Two soldiers approached him, and just as my uncle was about to greet them, they spoke: "Hey, we'll take you to a place where you'll have free food."
+舅舅看势头不妙,抓起夢筐要跑,但一个人已经按住了他的肩。舅舅挣扎着 喊:“我有娘,得问娘!”另ー个人随手撇了夢筐说:“先看看兵营再问娘。”
+Sensing something is not right, my uncle grabbed the bamboo basket and tried to run, but one of the soldiers held onto his shoulder. Struggling, my uncle shouted, "I have a mother, I have to ask my mother!" The other person casually tossed aside the bamboo basket and said, "Let's see the barracks first, then ask your mother."
+在抓兵人的押解下,舅舅挪动着双脚。
+Under the escort of the soldiers, my uncle shuffled his feet.
+那时,舅舅是个没有见过世面的乡村孩子,不知道全国的战争形势,不知道辽沈战役中解放军全歼国民党军47万人,淮海战役接着开打;不知道国民党军屡战屡败、屡败屡退,为补充兵力而大规模抓壮丁;不知道共产党已经在筹备建立中华人民共和国。
+At that time, my uncle was a naive village boy who had barely left the village. He didn't know the overall war situation in the country, unaware that in the Liaoshen campaign, the Communist People's Liberation Army had annihilated 470,000 National Army, and the Huaihai Campaign was about to begin. He didn't know that the National Army had suffered repeated defeats and retreats, leading to the massive conscription of able-bodied men. He was unaware that the Communist Party of China was preparing to establish the People's Republic of China.
+被50年后的舅舅评述为“是权カ之争也是治国方略之争”的这场国共战争, 给予当年舅舅的心理感受只是恐惧与茫然。舅舅分不清共产党、国民党、解放军、 国民党军,更不知道自己成了壮丁。
+This war between the Communists and the Nationalists, which my uncle would later describe as a "struggle for power and national governance strategy," only instilled fear and confusion in his young mind. He couldn't distinguish between the Communist Party of China(CPC), Kuomintang (or the Nationalist Party of China) , the Communist People's Liberation Army, and the National Army, let alone realize that he had become one of the conscripted men.
+走啊走,太阳升高了。
+Uncle walked and walked, and the sun rose higher.
+舅舅心里也升起了一个太阳,早先盘算的那个希望亮堂起来:穿上一年半载军 装,拿上钱回家,娘和姐就能吃饱饭了 !
+In his heart, there was also a sun rising, illuminating the dreams he had been thinking about: "As long as I wear a military uniform for a year or two, then I get some money and go back home so that mom and sister could have enough to eat!
+舅舅轻松起来,索性挣脱押解人的手臂,自己大步走进了兵营。
+Feeling relieved, my uncle managed to free himself from the grip of the escorting soldiers and confidently strode into the barracks.
+历史在这里停住了脚步,舅舅的农民身份就在这一刻结束,从此,他成了国民 党军士兵。
+From then on, my uncle's identity as a farmer ended. From then on, he became a soldier in the National Army.
+第二章一江之隔
+Chapter 2: Separated by a river
+海峡这边与那边
+On one side of the strait, and on the other
+国民党军队伍不分日夜一径朝南开,舅舅慌起来,他知道家在北边,想逃走,可就地正法的案例使他的思维转了向。舅舅在这个乌合之众的群体里第一次认识了 自己的智慧和组织能力,他鼓动伙伴,先干,瞅机会跑。
+The National Army marched day and night, heading south without a break. My uncle grew anxious. He knew his home was in the north, and wanted to escape. However, given the risk of being condemned to death, he changed his mind. Within this 'rabble', my uncle discovered his own intelligence and organizational skills. He rallied his fellows and planned to take action and seize an opportunity to flee away.
+军队再歇脚的时候,他们南行到了一个无名的小岛。所有的士兵都在叫骂,不 明白军队为啥不打仗,径直朝远离家乡的蛮荒之地撤退。
+When the army rested, they reached an unnamed small island. The soldiers were all cursing, unable to understand why the army didn't go to the battlefield and was instead retreating to a remote and desolate land far from their hometowns.
+舅舅继承了爹娘少言寡语的性格,这使他在那批叫骂的士兵中显得老成稳重, 从而引起了长官的注意。几个月后,舅舅没找到逃跑机会,反倒ー步ー步升任当了 排长,每日带着士兵在小岛上操练。
+My uncle inherited his parents personality, being reserved, which made him appear more mature and steady among the soldiers who were cursing. This caught the attention of the commanding officer. Several months later, my uncle couldn't find an opportunity to escape, but instead, he was promoted step by step and became a platoon leader. Every day, he led the soldiers in training on the small island.
+他后来对我说,在这段日子里,能够冲淡他思 乡情绪的是ー只白色小狗。那狗儿每日夜间定时叫他起床查夜,于是舅舅就不管军规军法,醒了就抱着狗儿在兵营里巡查。新兵都害怕他的威严,说没见过排长的 笑脸。可舅舅说,如果不是怕牵连整排人,他早开小差找娘去了 !
+He later told me that during this time, the only thing that could alleviate his homesickness was a small white dog. The dog would wake him up every night to check the surroundings. So, my uncle disregarded military regulations. When he woke up, he would patrol the barracks while carrying the dog. The new recruits were all afraid of his authority, for they had never seen their platoon leader smile. But my uncle said that if it weren't for the fear of implicating the entire platoon, he would have secretly gone to find his mother!
+小岛上的日子有了头,队伍集合待发。ー心一意指望回家的士兵,在茫茫大海的涛声中,在人民解放军的炮声中,在大船停泊、小船乱撞的码头,在万千士兵向北 方捶胸顿足的哭喊声中,在无数人抓着绳梯苦苦爬向大船舱门的时刻,骤然明白了 自己的处境。
+The days on the small island came to an end, and the troops assembled for departure. The soldiers, who had hoped with all their hearts to return home, suddenly realized their situation amidst the sound of the roaring sea, the artillery fire from the Communist People's Liberation Army, the bustling docks with large and small ships colliding, the desperate cries and shouts of thousands of soldiers towards the northward direction, and the countless people desperately climbing the rope ladder to reach the entrance of the large ship
+年,120万大陆国民党军人、军属分批登上了开赴台湾的舰艇。那时,舅 舅撒手放走了悲声哀号的小白狗。
+In 1949, 1.2 million mainland soldiers of the National Army and their families boarded the ships bound for Taiwan in batches. At that time, my uncle bid farewell to the grieving little white dog.
+经过整编,舅舅进入了正规的海军陆战队。这海军陆战队是台军参谋本部直属的战略预备队,专门担负陆上、海上快速反应作战任务,是被视为“攻势作战”的 兵种,也是被其他士兵羡慕的兵种。
+After reorganization, my uncle entered the Taiwan Marine Corps (TMC). The Marine Corps was a strategic reserve force directly under the command of the General Staff Headquarters of The Ministry of National Defense of the Republic of China (MND). It was responsible for rapid response operations on land and at sea, considered a "offensive warfare" branch, and envied by other soldiers.
+就在这个部队乱哄哄换防时,舅舅出乎意料地见到了一个极为重要的人。
+Just as chaos ensued during the rotation of troops, my uncle unexpectedly saw a very important person.
+那时,舅舅率队在台湾ー个小城市的车站待命。他正窝火的当儿,身边走过了 几位年长军官。舅舅看呆了,为首的人儒雅挺拔,像谁呢……像、像、像姐夫!那当 然不是姐夫,从年龄上说,应当是姐夫的父亲!
+At that time, my uncle's unit was stationed at a train station in a small city in Taiwan. While he was feeling irritated, several senior military officers walked by him. My uncle was stunned when he saw the leader among them, who was refined and upright, resembling someone... , resembling my brother-in-law! Of course, it couldn't be my brother-in-law; considering the age, it should be my brother-in-law's father!
+各位读者,舅舅的姐夫,就是我的父亲啊!
+Dear readers, my uncle's brother-in-law is my father!
+舅舅腾地跳起来,他知道,迟上几分钟,在人山人海中就永远找不到长官了!
+My uncle jumped up in a hurry. He knew that if he hesitated for a few minutes, he would never be able to find the officer amidst the crowd!
+舅舅火速冲上前,叭地立正、行礼。儒雅挺拔的长官站定,和蔼地说:“小鬼,你 有事?”舅舅说:“长官,我姐夫是X X,您是不是……”
+My uncle rushed forward, stood at attention, and saluted. The refined and upright officer stopped and kindly asked, "What's the matter, young lad?" My uncle said, "Sir, X X is my brother-in-law, are you his father?"
+舅舅紧张地看着长官,好似那人决定着他的命运。长官笑了,一把抓住他的手 说:“好哇好哇,我们是亲戚,我给你留个地址!”
+My uncle nervously looked at the officer, as if that person held his fate in his hands. The officer smiled and grabbed his hand, saying, "Good, We're relatives. I'll leave you an address!"
+我爷爷从勤务兵手里接过笔,匆匆写着字。这位高官在返回大陆无望的第二 年,接走了除我父亲以外的所有家眷。
+My grandfather took the pen from the orderly and hastily wrote down the address. In the second year when there was no hope of returning to the mainland, this high-ranking official took away all the family members except my father.
+天助我家。许多年后,就是凭着这层关系,我们在台湾的叔叔姑姑,当然还有 舅舅,到北京找到了我们一家。
+Fortune favored our family. Many years later, it was through this connection that our relatives in Taiwan, including uncles, aunts, and of course, my uncle, found us in Beijing.
+在台湾,不能忍受的事接连发生。最可怕的是头几年部队开不出饭,士兵日日 以番薯、野菜充饥。
+In Taiwan, unbearable things happened one after another. The most terrible thing was that for the first few years, the army couldn't provide enough food, and the soldiers had to rely on sweet potatoes and wild vegetables to alleviate their hunger.
+官兵不知道,蒋介石当局与美国签署了有关共同防御的规定,把从大陆带来的 黄金倾力投入军费里。几十年后公布的数字证明,20世纪50年代台湾军费开支占 财政总预算的70%以上,60年代还占50%,而官兵与家属却在他们“同心同德、返乡复国”的教义下忍饥挨饿！
+The soldiers didn't know that the Nationalist Government of Chiang Kai-shek had signed an agreement with the United States on joint defense, and they poured the gold brought from the mainland into military expenses. Decades later, the revealed figures proved that in the 1950s, Taiwan's military expenditure accounted for over 70% of the total budget, and in the 1960s, it still accounted for 50% or more. Meanwhile, the soldiers and their families suffered from hunger under the doctrine of "unity and return home."
+从策略上看,蒋介石当局将台湾作为休养之地,推出“一年准备,两年反攻,三 年扫荡,五年成功”的计划。也就是说,蒋介石当局预计在!954-1955年重新占领 大陆。
+From a strategic point of view, the Nationalist Government of Chiang Kai-shek saw Taiwan as a place for rest and implemented a plan called “prepare for one year, counterattack in two years, sweep out the enemy in three years and succeed within five years.” In other words, the Nationalist Government of Chiang Kai-shekes expected to reoccupy the mainland between 1954 and 1955.
+成为牺牲品的,不光是1949年赴台的60万官兵与60万随军家眷,加上1950 年从海南岛、舟山群岛等地陆续赴台的官兵及家眷,赴台者已达200万之众。
+The sacrifices included not only the 600,000 soldiers and 600,000 accompanying family members who went to Taiwan in 1949 but also the 2 million soldiers and their families who arrived in Taiwan from Hainan Island, Zhoushan Islands, and other places in 1950.
+蒋介石当局只好草草安置眷属,台湾的学校、寺庙、农舍、牛棚塞满了大陆人。 这些后来被称为“眷村”的贫民窟,全台湾有763个,眷户高达96082家。后来从眷 村走出来的名人,比如宋楚瑜、吴小莉、李立群、邓丽君等人,在撤至台湾初期,都与 他们的父兄共渡艰难,不得不以番薯、菜叶充饥。
+ The Nationalist Government of Chiang Kai-shek hastily settled the family members. Schools, temples, cottages, and cowsheds in Taiwan were packed with mainlanders. These slums, later known as "military dependents' villages," numbered 763 across Taiwan, with a total of 96,082 households. Many celebrities who later emerged, such as James Soong, Wu Xiaoli, Li Liqun, and Teresa Teng, experienced hardships with their fathers and brothers during the initial period of retreat to Taiwan and had to rely on sweet potatoes and vegetable leaves to satisfy their hunger.
+就像割倒的韭菜那样,ー拨ー拨的士兵倒下去了。饥饿,浮肿,水土不服。
+Like fallen chives, soldiers toppled one after another. Hunger, edema, and difficulties adapting to the new climate.
+舅舅饿得头昏眼花,站不直身子。那年头,如果石头是软的,他也会往嘴里填。 舅舅和老兵们凑ー堆,常常互相按脸按腿,比比谁按下去的小坑深,接下来就是骂 娘,把这个龟孙那个龟孙的劣迹痛数一番,横竖不管军规军法。
+My uncle was so hungry that he felt dizzy and couldn't stand up straight. In those days, if stones were soft, he would have stuffed them into his mouth. My uncle and the old soldiers gathered together and often pressed each other's faces and legs, competing to see whose indentations were deeper, and then they would curse and recount the shortcomings of officers, disregarding military rules and regulations.
+之后就是痛哭。
+After that, they would burst into tears.
+台湾海峡被封锁了。再大胆的人也不敢冒“通敌叛国”罪名叨唠回家,于是, 士兵们就在军营里发疯般地哭爹喊娘。
+The Taiwan Strait was blocked. Even the boldest individuals didn't dare to risk being accused of "collaboration and treason" and talk about going home. So, the soldiers went crazy in the barracks, crying and calling for their parents.
+舅舅独自守着无边无涯的大海,一宿一宿地落泪,一宿一宿地与娘说话。他想起了我姥姥纺纱织布的情景,那时姥姥哼着豫剧唱腔,他围着织布机跑,边耍边应和;他想起了我姥姥牵着他的小手串门的情景,姥姥帮他穿上锦缎丝袄,戴上撑有 两根铜棍花瓣的帽子,那花瓣一走ー颤,惹得一街娃儿艳羡;
+My uncle guarded the boundless sea alone, night after night, shedding tears and talking to his mother who is far away from him. He recalled the scene of my grandmother spinning and weaving and humming the tunes of Yu opera while he ran around the loom, playing along. He remembered my grandmother holding his small hand as they visited their neighborhoods, my grandmother helping him put on a silk jacket embroidered with brocade, and wearing a hat with two copper stick petals, which would tremble as long as one moved, attracting envy from children on the street.
+他想起了我姥姥受二 姥姥排挤的情景,发誓终生保护我姥姥不受气;他甚至幻想满地跑着他洪洲的娃儿
+He remembered my grandmother being mistreated by Lao Er and swore to protect my grandmother from any harm. He even fantasized about running around with his own children.
+深沉难耐的苦,是从故乡从亲人中被剥离出来的孤独之苦。舅舅不知道,那苦 オ刚刚萌芽,它将发芽长大,之后缠绕舅舅一生,逼得他后来几近发疯。
+The deep and unbearable suffering was the loneliness caused by being separated from his homeland and loved ones. My uncle didn't know that this pain had just sprouted and would grow, haunting him for his entire life and almost driving him to madness.
+退役的日子 Life after retirement
+大半辈子的光阴,说没就没了
+Half a lifetime of time vanished, just like that.
+舅舅受不了部队里种种非人道束缚,以台湾海军陆战队第651团上尉副连长 的职务提前退役,兵籍号码629581。按规定,他享有终身俸。由于习惯了简朴生 活,他每月花销不多,后来又找了一份工作,日久天长,积蓄渐渐多起来〇
+Unable to bear the inhumane restraints in the military, my uncle retired early from his position as a deputy platoon leader with the rank of captain in the Taiwan Marine Corps (TMC) 651st Regiment, with service number 629581. According to regulations, he was entitled to a lifelong pension. Since he was accustomed to a simple life, his monthly expenses were not high. Later, he found another job, and over time, his savings gradually increased.
+Chapter Eleven
+一天,他在同乡老柳家喝酒,悲痛中突然倒地,这时他才知道,无痕的是积淀进 心底的哀伤。老柳太太果断地招呼人把舅舅抬进了医院。
+One day, while drinking with fellow villagers at the Liu family's house, he suddenly collapsed in sorrow. It was then that he realized the hidden sorrow that had accumulated in his heart. Mrs. Liu decisively called for someone to take my uncle to the hospital.
+心肌梗塞。
+Heart Attack
+医生说:“你岁数大了,不要吸烟不要喝酒不要急躁。”
+The doctor said, "You're old, don't smoke, don't drink, and don't be irascible."
+他听话,戒了烟酒,那时房价正低,他打算购买ー套房子,在台北过安生日子。
+He followed the doctor's advice, quit smoking and drinking. At that time, housing prices were low, so he planned to buy a house and live a peaceful life in Taipei.
+老柳太太也是河南人,这个家她说了算。爽快热情的柳太太当机立断:“洪洲 兄弟,把房子盖我家房顶上,咱就成了一家人!”
+Mrs. Liu, also from Henan, had the final say in their household. The generous and enthusiastic Mrs. Liu made up her mind, saying "Brother Hongzhou, let's just build a house on top of my house, and we'll become one family!"
+这里是台北万大路,穷人居住的地方,面临着城市改造。
+Liu’s house was on Wanda Road in Taipei where most people are poor and faced urban redevelopment.
+舅舅犹豫,怕给别人添麻烦老柳是厚道人,退伍老兵,看太太定了调,就也カ劝舅舅搬了来。
+My uncle hesitated, afraid of causing trouble for others. Mr. Liu, being an honest man and a retired soldier, saw that his wife had made up her mind and persuaded my uncle to move in as well.
+舅舅禁不起两人劝说,敲定了,盖房!
+Unable to resist their persuasion, my uncle agreed and they started building the house!
+盖了三间。原来楼下的三间,柳先生一家照旧住;楼上新起的三间,是舅舅的 家。后来,舅舅说,那盖房钱足够在好地界买套新房。
+Three rooms were built in total. The original three rooms downstairs remained occupied by the Liu family, while the newly built three rooms upstairs became my uncle's home. Later, my uncle said that the money spent on building the house would have been enough to buy a new house in a better location.
+就这样,舅舅成了柳家人。每日下班回来,一起吃饭、打牌、聊天,倒也其乐 融融。
+可后来,舅舅发现事情不对,柳太太掌管着老柳的账目,也月月收走他的退休 金,
+That's how my uncle became a member of the Liu family. They would eat together, play cards, and chat after work every day.But later, my uncle discovered that something was wrong. Mrs. Liu controlled Mr. Liu's finances and would even take away his retirement pension every month.
+舅舅开销得伸手要钱。
+ My uncle had to ask her for money to cover his expenses.
+舅舅不愿被管束,在ー次取来退休金后,留下一半,柳太太就变了脸。
+My uncle didn't want to be controlled, so one day he withdraw his retirement pension on his own but left half of it . However, Mrs. Liu's attitude changed.
+这之后,柳家的孙子孙女三天两头缠着舅舅要零花钱,柳太太与女儿每逢出国 旅游也张ロ朝舅舅要钱。
+After that, the grandchildren of the Liu family would frequently pester my uncle for pocket money, and Mrs. Liu and her daughter would often ask my uncle for money whenever they went on international trips.
+舅舅每日上班,越来越少在柳家吃饭,也越来越懒得爬回自己的二楼新居,但仍旧仗义地缴纳着生活费,也照样管着柳家孙子孙女的零花钱。他有时也反问自 己:咋把日子过成这样了呢?但他总是有理由说服自己:人家把你送进医院救了你 的命,这恩情不比啥大?
+My uncle started to work everyday so he ate less and less at the Liu family's house. He also didn't go back to his new apartment, but he still paid his share of the living expenses and continued to give pocket money to the Liu family's grandchildren. Sometimes he questioned himself, "How did I end up living like this?" But he always found reasons to convince himself: "They saved your life by sending you to the hospital. Isn't this favor just as significant?"
+寻找大陆亲人
+Searching for mainland relatives
+当年血气方刚的士兵,背驼了,腰弯了,白发上头了。许多老兵如同当年舅舅的景况,在路上被抓到兵营,家里毫不知情,因此,多年来,他们只想传递给亲人ー 句话,就一句:我活着。为这三个字,老兵们忍了十年、十年又十年,但后来不能忍 了,爹娘逐渐衰老了。他们开始冒着坐牢的危险相聚,商讨怎样将话递给爹娘。
+Those young and spirited soldiers of the past have now become hunched, bent, and with gray hair. Many veterans, just like my uncle back then, were captured on the road and taken to military camps without telling their families. For many years, all they wanted to convey to their loved ones was "I am alive." The veterans endured for ten years, then another ten years, all for those three words. But eventually, they couldn't bear it any longer as their parents grew older. They began risking imprisonment to gather together and discuss how to deliver the message to their parents.
+各位读者,这里说的“坐牢的危险”并不夸张。台湾作家廖信忠在《台湾老百姓自己的故事》里用“白色恐怖”形容当时台湾的政治氛围,“这个词对于台湾的意 义,大部分就是指国民党自统治台湾以来对异议分子或嫌疑者的肃清及迫害。台 湾人民长期处在这种环境里,有话不敢说,有意见不敢表达”;
+Dear readers, the mention of the "danger of imprisonment" here is not an exaggeration. Taiwanese writer Liao Xinzong described the political atmosphere in Taiwan at that time as the "White Terror (Taiwan)" in his book Our Taiwan in These Years. This term mostly refers to the elimination and persecution of dissidents or suspects by the Kuomintang since they ruled Taiwan. The people of Taiwan lived in such an environment for a long time, where they dared not speak their minds or express their opinions."
+廖信忠还提到这种政治高压对下一代的渗透:“蒋中正的影响カー直到20世纪80年代末90年代初都 还存在,在我小学时都还要背’蒋公遗嘱’,音乐课也要学唱’蒋公纪念歌’;而每次 老师ー提到蒋介石或'国父’孙中山先生时,大家都要正坐或立正一下表示尊敬。”
+Liao Xinzong also mentioned the infiltration of this political pressure on the next generation: "Chiang Kai-shek's influence persisted until the late 1980s and early 1990s. . When I was in elementary school, we had to memorize "Chiang Kai-Shek 's Last Testament" and in music class, we had to sing the "Chiang Kai-shek Memorial Son". Whenever the teacher mentioned Chiang Kai-shek or Father of the Nation: Sun Yat-sen, we had to sit up straight or stand at attention to show respect."
+世纪80年代后期,我在台湾的叔叔委托我给他寄一本《鲁迅书信集》,按照他的指点,我首先将《鲁迅书信集》包上封皮,写上其他书名,寄至香港,然后由香 港朋友改换成香港印刷品包装,再寄至台湾。叔叔在信中说:一定要谨慎,查出来 是要坐牢的!
+In the late 1980s, my uncle in Taiwan entrusted me to send him a copy of Selected letters of Lu Xun. Following his instructions, I first covered the book with a different book cover, wrote other book titles on it, and sent it to Hong Kong. Then, my friends in Hong Kong would replace the packaging with Hong Kong-printed materials before sending it to Taiwan. My uncle wrote in his letter: "Be careful, if it is discovered, we will go to jail!"
+像老兵的忍耐达到极限ー样,这个时代的忍耐也涨到了极限。
+Just like the veterans' endurance reached its limit, the endurance of that era also reached its limit.
+年1月1日,全国人大常委会发表《告台湾同胞书》,称人民解放军停止对金门炮击,希望实现通航通邮。
+On January 1, 1979, the Standing Committee of the National People's Congress issued the "Message to Compatriots in Taiwan," ordering the Communist People's Liberation Army to stop the bombardment of Kinmen (Quemoy) and expressing the hope to open up postal and transportation (especially airline) links between Mainland China and Taiwan.
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+年,台湾《时报周刊》、台北《展望》杂志社就“中国统ー”主题举办专题座谈会。
+In 1981, China Times Weekly (CTW) and Look Magazine in Taipei held special symposiums on the theme of "China's Reunification."
+年6月,由蒋经国之子蒋孝武任社长的台湾《自由中国之声》杂志发表专 论,主张中国和平统一分“三个阶段”进行。
+In June 1982, an article was published in The Voice of Free China magazine, with Jiang Xiaowu, the son of Chiang Ching-kuo, serving as the president, advocating for peaceful reunification of China in "three stages."
+后来,美籍华人陈香梅谈到了这段历史。她在2004年8月21日答新华社记 者问时,披露台湾老兵回乡探亲问题由邓小平率先提出。她说,20世纪80年代初, 邓小平向她提议,可以先让在台湾的老兵回家探亲,说大家都是中国人,都有父母、 兄弟姐妹、老婆、孩子。于是,陈女士就去台湾,向台湾方面转达了这层意思。
+Later on, Chinese American Chen Xiangmei talked about this period of history. In an interview with Xinhua News Agency on August 21, 2004, she revealed that it was Deng Xiaoping who first proposed the idea of allowing Taiwanese veterans to return home to visit their families. She said that in the early 1980s, Deng Xiaoping proposed to her that veterans in Taiwan should be allowed to go home to visit their families, saying that we were all Chinese and had parents, brothers and sisters, wives and children. Consequently, Ms. Chen went to Taiwan to convey this message to the Taiwanese government.
+老兵们从台湾当局禁止收听的大陆广播中,知晓了有关探亲的一切信息。就为邓小平上述通情达理的见识,舅舅念念不忘邓小平的恩德。他最后一次到北京 时,有位艺人给他画像,把他的脸孔描画得蛮像邓小平,舅舅竟然乐出了声,把它带 回台湾,贴在了自家墙头上。当然那是后来的事。
+The veterans learned about all the information regarding visiting their families from mainland broadcasts that were prohibited by the Taiwanese government. Because of Deng Xiaoping's sensible insight, my uncle never forgot Deng Xiaoping's kindness. During his last visit to Beijing, an artist drew a portrait for him, depicting his face resembling Deng Xiaoping. My uncle was so delighted that he brought it back to Taiwan and hung it on the wall of his own home. Of course, that came  later.
+老兵们费尽心机地寻找着与家乡沟通的途径。功夫不负有心人,机会来了。
+The veterans made every effort to find ways to communicate with their hometowns. Finally, their efforts paid off. The opportunity came.
+那是ー个阳光明媚的日子,老兵们邀请几位赴台的香港生意人喝茶。戴着金丝眼镜的香港人很斯文很仗义,说都是中国人都是手足同胞都有父母妻小自然可 以转信;老兵们感动得眼圈发红,说不会让他们白干,自会付些酬劳。
+It was a sunny day when the veterans invited several Hong Kong businessmen who had visited Taiwan to have tea. These Hong Kong individuals, wearing wire-rimmed glasses, were cultured and generous in aiding needy people. They said that as compatriots who also have loved parents, wives, and children, they were ready to help them relay letters. The veterans were deeply moved, their eyes welling up with tears, and they vowed not to let the businessmen work for free.
+香港人说,那就不客气了,在商言商,冒着杀头危险转信还是要多收些手续费的。老兵们放下茶碗,齐刷刷声明不怕花钱。香港人说生意人讲信用,你们五天后交信交钱,两个月 后自会见到大陆亲人回信。
+The Hong Kong individuals replied that they would not stand on ceremony. Business just does what business does. Given there was a risk of severe punishment, they would still charge a higher fee for relaying letters. The veterans put down their teacups and unanimously declared that no matter how much money it costs, they would pay for it. The Hong Kong businessmen asked the veterans to trust them, and to  hand over the messages and payment after five days and promised that  the veterans would receive letters from their relatives on the mainland within two months.
+老兵们呼地站起来相拥而泣。他们全不顾茶馆高雅幽静的氛围,不睬茶客们 抗议的目光,只管捶胸顿足,高喊老天开眼了。
+The veterans suddenly stood up and embraced each other in tears. They paid no attention to the elegant and tranquil atmosphere of the tea house, ignoring the disapproving glances from other customers. Instead, they shouted desperately , "Heaven has finally opened its eyes!"
+舅舅兴冲冲地跑到彰化市去找我叔叔要地址,爷爷和叔叔都住在彰化市。与 舅舅比起来,我爷爷幸运得多,他早就托付九龙的朋友转信,舅舅去彰化时,爷爷、叔叔已经与爸爸互通过好几封信了。
+My uncle hurriedly went to Changhua City to find my another uncle  to ask for the address of my family. Both my grandfather and my another uncle lived in Changhua City. Compared to my uncle, my grandfather was much luckier. He had entrusted a friend in Kowloon to relay letters long before , and by the time my uncle went to Changhua, my grandfather and uncle had already exchanged several letters with my father.
+我爷爷一生低调,信中从不炫耀个人业绩。父亲告诉我,爷爷オ华横溢,诗书棋画均有造诣,说我们后代无人能及。讲到通信,还有个趣事。我爷爷能写一手好 字,他在托付九龙朋友转信前,就亲临香港将写给我父亲的信直接寄到了湖北云梦老家。爷爷当然不知道我们早到了北京,他的信居然没有被拦截,直接投递到了村 庄。
+My grandfather led a low-profile life and never boasted about personal achievements in his letters. My father told me that my grandfather was talented in various fields, including poetry, calligraphy, weiqi, and painting, surpassing any of his descendants. Speaking of exchanging letters, there is an interesting story. My grandfather had excellent handwriting. Before entrusting his friend in Kowloon to relay the letters, he personally went to Hong Kong to sent a letter to my father in Hubei Yunmeng, our ancestral hometown, during his visit to Hong Kong. Little did my grandfather know that we had already moved to Beijing. Surprisingly, his letter was not intercepted and was delivered directly to our village.
+那是我们的“文化大革命”期间,海外来信一律被视为投敌叛国的证据,可就 因为信封上的ー笔好字,生产大队会计舍不得上交,把它珍藏下来了。爷爷没能够 坚持到我父亲以大陆作家身份访台的90年代,他老人家由于中风,在病榻上躺了 几年,80年代后期就故在彰化了。
+It was during the "Cultural Revolution," a time when overseas letters were considered evidence of betrayal or treason. However, because of the beautiful calligraphy on the envelope, the accountant at the production brigade couldn't bear to hand it over and kept it as a treasure. Unfortunately, my grandfather didn't live long enough to see my father visit Taiwan in the 1990s as a mainland writer. Due to a stroke, he spent the last few years of his life bedridden and passed away in Changhua in the late 1980s.
+舅舅开始书写生平第一封信。他很不自信,不停涂改,后来还是把笔交到了老 柳女儿 个中学生手里。舅舅说一句,中学生写一句,正写在兴头上时,柳太 太插了一句:“洪洲,你别是剃头挑子ー头热吧?”舅舅看了她一眼,发现她表情怪 怪的,大有不愿意舅舅与大陆亲人联系之意。
+My uncle began writing his first letter. Lacking confidence, he made constant revisions. In the end, he handed the pen to the daughter of Liu, a middle school student who wrote what my uncle said simultaneously. They were both quite engrossed in the process when Mrs. Liu interrupted and said, "Is it just spur of the moment?" My uncle glanced at her and noticed her strange expression, sensing that she was unwilling to let him establish contact with his mainland relatives.
+老兵们的信足有一提包,连同另ー提包台币,以及几十年沉甸甸的期盼,全部 交到了香港人下榻的饭店。戴着金丝眼镜的香港人仍旧很斯文很仗义,慢慢重复 着请放心之类的安慰话;老兵们也仗义地邀请香港人喝酒,举杯庆祝就要实现的愿 望,他们似乎已经难以承受即将到来的喜悦之重。
+A full bag of the veterans' letters, another full bad Taiwanese dollars and decades of anticipation were entrusted to the hotel where the Hong Kong businessmen stayed. They still wearing their wire-rimmed glasses, remained cultured and generous, repeating comforting words like "please rest assured." In return, the veterans hospitably invited them for a drink, raising their glasses to celebrate the impending realization of their wishes. It seemed that they were overwhelmed with the joy that was about to come.
+之后是等待,等待。ー个月,两个月,半年,所有的老兵都没有收到回信。
+Then came the endless waiting. One month, two months, half a year passed,but none of the veterans received any replies.
+ー个在老兵们心中多次跳闪的猜疑变成了判断,那被事实证明了的判断如同 钢鞭一般直抽老兵们的心窝:香港人敛足钱,回港过好日子去了 !被欺骗的老兵悲 愤地集体号啕,当他们醒悟到要清算几位香港人的无耻行为时,オ发现根本就没有 留下他们的任何信息。
+The suspicions that has risen in the veterans' hearts multiple times turned into fact, which was proven true and broke their hearts: those Hong Kong businessmen had taken the money and returned to Hong Kong to live a good life! The deceived veterans collectively wailed in sorrow and anger. When they realized they needed to hold several Hong Kong individuals accountable for their despicable actions, they discovered that there was no trace of their whereabouts.
+天无绝人之路。与老兵一样,这个时代的有识之士在保持了数十年的缄默后, 迸发出ー叠震耳欲聋的吼声。
+There is always a way when there seems to be none. Like the veterans, the enlightened individuals of this era, after decades of silence, letting out a deafening roar.
+年4月,高雄市议会通过提案,要求国民党当局准许外省籍人士与大陆亲 人通信,“以慰亲情”！
+In April 1986, the Kaohsiung City Council passed a proposal demanding that the Kuomintang authorities allow Mainlander in Taiwan to communicate with their mainland relatives to relieve their homesickness.
+年成立的民进党,主张“人权至上,不分党派,人道为先,亲情第一 ”,于
+年初发动“返乡省亲运动” ！
+In 1986, The Democratic Progressive Party (DPP) was established, advocating for "human rights supremacy, transcending party affiliation, prioritizing humanitarianism, and placing family ties first." In early 1987, they launched the "Homecoming and Family Reunion Movement"!
+年4月18日,多位国民党籍“立委”提出质询,要求台湾当局重新检讨 “三不”政策,以符合现实需要!
+On April 18, 1987, several Kuomintang "legislators" raised inquiries, demanding that the Taiwanese government reconsider the The Three-Noes Policy to meet the needs of reality!
+年5月2日,台北6000余位大陆籍人士成立了 “外省人返乡探亲促进会”,要求准许他们返回大陆故乡。他们穿着写有“想家”两字的白衬衫,散发传单,游行示威。5月10日,他们齐聚台北中山纪念馆前,举办“遥念母亲”活动。这 个组织的声明打动了无数人的心:
+On May 2, 1987, more than 6,000 Mainlander in Taiwan in Taipei established the "Association for Promoting Homecoming Visits by Mainlander Taiwanese" and demanded permission to return to their mainland hometowns. They wore white shirts printed with words "Missing Home" and distributed leaflets while marching in demonstrations. On May 10, they gathered in front of the Chiang Kai-shek Memorial Hall in Taipei and held an event called "Distant Thoughts of Mother." The declaration of this organization touched the hearts of countless people:
+由于严厉的禁制,40多年来,多少人把刻骨铭心的思亲念头压抑在内心深处,我们已为国民党耗尽了宝贵的青春,并已沉默了40年,现在该是我们大家团结起来,站出来讲话的时候了。我们只求,父母若健在,让我们回去奉上一杯茶;若不在,则让我们回去献上一炷香
+Due to strict restrictions, for over 40 years, many people have suppressed their heartfelt longing for their families deep inside. We have exhausted our precious youth for the Kuomintang and remained silent for 40 years. Now is the time for all of us to unite, speak up, and take action. We only ask that if our parents are still alive, let us go back and offer them a cup of tea; if they have passed away, let us go back and burn incense in their honor.
+舅舅这个生有反骨的人,无疑支持所有抗议活动。他是国民党员,曾经信奉国 民党中央,但当腐败现实击碎了他的返乡梦想之后,他就自由脱党,拒交党费了。
+My rebellious uncle undoubtedly supported all the protest activities. He was a member of the Kuomintang and used to believe in the party's central leadership. However, when the harsh reality shattered his dream of returning home, he left the party and refused to pay party fees.
+年初,蒋经国指示有关部门研议开放民众赴大陆探亲的可能性。
+In early 1987, Chiang Ching-kuo instructed relevant departments to study the possibility of allowing the public to visit the mainland to reunite with their relatives.
+年7月27日,台湾交通主管机关、内政主管机关联合宣布,解除自1979 年4月实行的不许台湾同胞以港澳作为出境旅游第一站的限制,允许台湾民众前 往香港旅游,但不准进入大陆。此举使两岸离散的有钱人陆续前往香港会面。
+On July 27, 1987, the Ministries of Transportation and Interior,  jointly announced the lifting of restrictions that had been in place since April 1979, which prohibited Taiwanese compatriots from making Hong Kong or Macau their first destination for outbound travel. Taiwanese people were allowed to travel to Hong Kong but were not permitted to enter the mainland. This move led to the wealthy individuals who had been separated across the strait gradually traveling to Hong Kong for meetings.
+年10月14日,国民党中常会通过了台湾居民赴大陆探亲方案,“允许民 众赴大陆探亲;除现役军人及公职人员外,凡在大陆有血亲、姻亲、三等亲以内之亲 属者,均可申请到大陆探亲”。
+On October 14, 1987, the Kuomintang Central Standing Committee passed the proposal for Taiwan residents to visit the mainland, "allowing people to visit the mainland; except for active-duty military personnel and public officials, anyone with relatives up to the third degree of kinship on the mainland can apply to visit the mainland."
+冰山坍塌了。
+The iceberg collapsed.
+这之前,我家也从爷爷信中知道了舅舅的地址,于是托香港朋友转信,一封、两 封,在丢失了几封信以后,终于有一天,舅舅收到了我们的信,而我家也收到了舅舅 通过香港朋友转寄来的信。
+Before that, my family learned my uncle's address from my grandfather's letter. So we asked a friend in Hong Kong to forward the letters. After losing several letters, one day, my uncle finally received our letter, and my family also received the letter my uncle had sent through our friend in Hong Kong.
+读者朋友,请注意这里,舅舅在万大路住所丢失过几封信,我后面还会提到这 件事。
+Dear readers, please pay attention here. My uncle lost several letters at his residence on Wanda Road, and I will mention this later.
+从那以后,舅舅再不用别人代言,他用心一笔一画地向我们诉说着真情。
+Since then, my uncle no longer needed someone else to write on his behalf. He personally write letters to convey his true feelings to us.
+从1948年提着扁担夢筐跨出家门的那个早晨起,舅舅最不能忘记的,就是自 己终日看惯了的、将头发盘在脑后的日日操劳的我姥姥。在他眼里,娘就是村庄, 就是家园。他盼了太多的时日,渴望像小时候那样在娘怀里哭泣、倾诉,可终于,这 些期盼在1975年,他45岁正领兵操练的辛苦岁月,变成了永不能实现的梦想。
+Since that morning when he stepped out of the house carrying a shoulder pole and a bamboo basket in 1948, the thing my uncle would never forget was my grandmother, who worked tirelessly every day with her hair tied up behind her head. In his eyes, grandmother was the village, the home. He had waited for too many years, longing to cry and confide in his mother's arms like he did when he was a child. But finally, in 1975, when he was 45 years old and leading troops in training, those hopes turned into an unattainable dream.
+我姥姥是在当代中国的“史无前例”时代,因感冒转肺炎离世的。她熬到了 “文革”结束前1年,经历了我家最屈辱的日子。噩耗在10年后オ传递给了舅舅, 当舅舅从北京家信中知道姥姥病故的消息时,哭得瘫软在地上。他在心中一次次 描绘的与娘相聚相拥的亲热画面,为爹娘端饭送水的温馨场面,都在那一刻坠落在 地板上了。当时,舅舅就发誓,不能为爹娘养老送终,也要回乡建墓立碑。
+ During the "unprecedented" era of contemporary China my grandmother passed away due to a cold that turned into pneumonia. She endured until one year before the end of the Cultural Revolution and experienced the most humiliating days for our family. The news of her passing was transmitted to my uncle ten years later. When my uncle learned about my grandmother's death from the letters sent from our home in Beijing, he cried and collapsed on the ground. The warm scenes he had repeatedly imagined, reuniting and embracing his mother, serving meals and water to his parents, all vanished at that moment. At that time, my uncle swore that if fail to take care of his parents in their old age, he should return home to build graves and for them
+后来,就有了 !988年4月23日,舅舅作为民众赴大陆探亲首批人中的ー员, 从台湾到香港到广州到天津,再到北京我们家的那次行动。
+Later, on April 23, 1988, my uncle became one of the first group of people to visit the mainland for family reunions. He traveled from Taiwan to Hong Kong, then to Guangzhou, Tianjin, and finally to our home in Beijing.
+那一次,我们不许舅舅花钱,送给他的东西不算,还为他购买了不少礼物。比 如,送给台湾荣民总医院医生的珍贵狐皮,因为那位医生主刀救了他的命;送给柳 太太的兰州夜光杯,因为柳太太在他病情发作时果断送他上医院劳苦功高;送给エ 厂老板的宜兴紫砂茶具,因为老板对他很关照;送给エ厂小友的玉镯,因为小友们 常给他过生日……
+On that visit, we didn't let my uncle spend any money. Apart from the things we gave him, we also bought him many gifts. For example, we gave a precious fox coat to the doctor at the Taipei Veterans General Hospital because that doctor saved his life. We gave a Jiuquan luminous cup to Mrs. Liu because she decisively sent him to the hospital when his condition worsened with great dedication. We gave Yixing purple clay tea sets to the boss at the factory be cause the boss took good care of him. We gave a jade bracelet to the young friends at the factory because they often celebrated his birthday.
+舅舅整理了两大皮箱礼物,满心欢喜,因为他能够以自己的方式还报台北朋友 对他的关爱了。可是,他也发愁,这一路太辛苦,要从北京到广州,经罗湖口岸到香 港,飞到台湾,再从台湾桃园机场回到台北万大路,
+My uncle carefully packed two large suitcases of gifts, feeling joyful because he could repay the kindness of his friends in Taipei in his own way. But he also worried because the journey was too arduous, from Beijing to Guangzhou, passing through the Luohu Port to Hong Kong, then flying to Taiwan, and finally from Taoyuan Airport to Wanda Road in Taipei.
+“到桃园机场是夜里,连公车都 没有,只好搭计程车!”舅舅叹ロ气。我知道,舅舅舍不得乘坐出租车,他对别人大 方,可把再少的钱花在自己身上也心疼。我担心的是另外一件事,这一路行程,对 舅舅这样患有陈旧性心梗的病人来说,是个可怕的考验。
+"When I arrived at Taoyuan Airport, it was late at night, and there were no buses. I had to take a taxi!" my uncle sighed. I knew my uncle was reluctant to take a taxi, for he was very stingy with himself
+but generous to others but felt pained even spending a small amount of money on himself. However, I was concerned about another matter: this journey would be a terrible test for my uncle, a patient with a history of heart attacks.
+舅舅历尽辛苦,终于回到台北了。后来我才知道,那夜,柳家全体人都开灯等 候着舅舅。当他肩扛手提地跨进万大路家门时,老老少少都跑出来,把我们全家十 几口人精心准备的大大小小礼物,兴奋地拉拽进了各自房间。当舅舅无奈地爬向 二层自己的住所时,还能听见柳家女人孩子分抢东西的嬉闹声。如果不是因为后 来柳太太与舅舅发生了剧烈的争吵,大概他们的日子会一直这样过下去。
+My uncle went through hardships and finally returned to Taipei. Later, I learned that on that night, the entire Liu family turned on the lights waiting for him. When he shouldered his bag and stepped into the door of the Wanda Road house, people of all ages rushed out and excitedly dragged in the various gifts that our whole family had carefully prepared. As my uncle reluctantly climbed to his second-floor residence, I could still hear the playful noise of the Liu family's women and children fighting over the gifts. If it weren't for the intense quarrel that later broke out between Aunt Liu and my uncle, their days would probably have continued in this manner.
-. Translator: 谢佳玉 Xie Jiayu [[Report_CN_EN_02]] Proofreader: 张玉燕 Zhang Yuyan 《大记录》 1087 pp., 1176110 characters
+第三章 第三次回大陆
+Chapter 3: Return to the Mainland for the Third Time
+回老家
+Returning to Hometown
+年10月,舅舅第三次到北京。他将返回河南老家为爹娘建墓立碑。
+In October 1990, my uncle returned to Beijing for the third time. He was going back to our ancestral home in Henan to build graves for his parents.
+前面说过,我姥姥生有三女,长女、三女早年夭折,因此姥姥随二女即我母亲生 活,并拉扯大了我们五兄妹。姥姥故去后,她老人家的景泰蓝骨灰坛就供放在母亲 家,像她老人家生前那样与我们照旧ー起生活。我姥爷根据新中国的一夫一妻制, 与二姥姥在贵州定居,姥爷于1962年故于灾荒,二姥姥还健在。
+As I mentioned earlier, my maternal grandmother had three daughters. The eldest and the third daughter passed away at an early age. Therefore, my grandmother lived with her second daughter, who is my mother, and raised the five of us siblings. After my grandmother's passing, her blue-and-white porcelain urn was placed in my mother's house, just like when she was alive, continuing to be a part of our lives. According to the monogamous system in the new China, my grandfather settled in Guizhou with his second wife. My grandfather passed away in 1962 during a famine while his second wife is still alive.
+亲爱的读者,下面的事情有些琐碎,可是,这些事情改变了舅舅的一段人生计 划,所以请您慢慢看。
+Dear readers, the following events may seem trivial, but they had a significant impact on my uncle's life plan, so please bear with me as I explain.
+舅舅以他多年带兵形成的组织能力实施着自己的心愿。第一,他计划为我姥爷兄弟两人在老家各建一座墓,我姥爷的墓分为三室,除姥爷与姥姥各居一室外, 还留有二姥姥之位〇
+Using his organizational skills developed over many years of leading troops, my uncle began implementing his plans. Firstly, he planned to build two tombs for my grandfather and his brother in our ancestral home. My grandfather's tomb had three chambers, with one chamber for my grandfather, one for my grandmother, and the remaining one for his second wife, Lao Er.
+第二,他联系上了远在贵州的二姥姥,请求二姥姥同意为我姥爷移墓。第三,他联系上了我姥爷弟弟的孙子金柱,因为要为姥爷弟弟即金柱爷爷 建墓,要金柱协助。
+ Secondly, he contacted Lao Er, who was living far away in Guizhou, and requested her permission to move my grandfather's tomb. Thirdly, he got in touch with Jinzhu, the grandson of my grandfather's brother, as he needed assistance in building a tomb for Jinzhu’s grandfather.
+这三件事,舅舅筹备了两年半。除我二姥姥坚决拒绝为姥爷移葬外,其他事情 都很顺利。舅舅偕我母亲先行赴县里联系丧葬事宜,我母亲在县里有些声望,县乡 又注重政策,所以很快落实了墓地。其余,舅舅统筹安排,把活儿摊派下去,造墓的 造墓,刻碑的刻碑,打棺材的打棺材,有条不紊。
+My uncle spent two and a half years preparing for these three matters. Except for Lao Er adamantly refusing to move my grandfather's burial site, everything else went smoothly. My uncle and my mother went to the county in advance to handle the funeral arrangements. My mother had some influence in the county, and the local authorities also valued policies, so the cemetery was quickly arranged. With my uncle's overall planning and delegating of tasks, everything proceeded in an orderly manner. Those responsible for building the tombs built them, those responsible for carving the gravestones carved them, and those responsible for making the coffins made them, all in a systematic manner.
+这里说的金柱,小我几岁,早年随他母亲从村里进了安阳市。他母亲开烟酒小 店,他在工厂干供销。金柱受了舅舅的委托,闲时就到乡下督エ。他母亲与舅舅是 叔伯姐弟,以前虽无往来,可这次一见面,他们的激动与热情并不亚于我家。
+The person mentioned here, Jinzhu, is a few years younger than me. In his early years, he moved from the village to Anyang City, Henan Province with his mother. His mother ran a tobacco and liquor store while he worked in a factory handling supply and sales. During his free time, Jinzhu would go back to the countryside at my uncle's request. His mother and my uncle were cousins, although they had no previous contact. However, when we met this time, their excitement and warmth were no less than that of our family.
+舅舅回乡,惊动了县对台办,县上人再三表示欢迎舅舅落户,乡里也说要为他 分地盖房。舅舅不知是否动了心,没答应也没拒绝,只是搓着大手笑。毕竟,他少小离乡,时时惦念的就是这一方水土。
+My uncle's return to the hometown attracted the attention of the county's Taiwan Affairs Office, and they repeatedly expressed their welcome for my uncle to settle there. The village also promised to allocate land for him to build a house. My uncle neither accepted nor rejected the offer; he simply rubbed his hands together and smiled. After all, he had left his hometown at a young age, and he always yearned for thia place.
+年11月,天气冷了。舅舅筹划的送姥爷姥姥返乡的大事启动了。我向单 位请了假,捧着姥姥的骨灰坛,随舅舅、妈妈回老家。
+In November 1990, the weather turned cold. The grand event planned by my uncle to bring back our grandparents' ashes to the hometown began. I took leave from work and accompanied my uncle and mother to our ancestral home, holding my grandmother's porcelain urn.
+如同舅舅1988年在广州车站购票那样,卧铺票极难买,我在北京站排了半宿 队オ拿到了去往安阳的硬卧票,心疼得舅舅ー个劲地说:“回北京的票得让金柱帮 忙买!”
+Similar to my uncle buying train tickets at the Guangzhou station in 1988, it was extremely difficult to get sleeper tickets. I waited in line at the Beijing station for half the night and managed to secure hard sleeper tickets to Anyang. My uncle felt sorry for me and said, "We'll have Jinzhu help us buy the tickets for our return to Beijing!"
+我们到达安阳车站时,天刚刚放亮,金柱迎上来。那是我第一次见到柱子,他 个子不高,胖墩墩的,ー只眼睛有些红,满脸挂着淳朴的笑。我与妈妈被安排坐进 吉普车,金柱却拦下了舅舅。我就听见车外金柱与舅舅的对话。
+When we arrived at Anyang railway station, it was just getting light outside. Jinzhu came to greet us. It was my first time meeting him. He was not tall, a bit chubby, with a slightly red eye, and a simple smile on his face. My mother and I were arranged to sit in a jeep while Jinzhu stopped my uncle. I overheard their conversation from inside the car.
+金柱:“舅,我娘昨天回村,把烟酒带了去,让您别再买了。”
+（我想,姨真厚道,办丧事要用不少烟酒呢。）
+Jinzhu: "Uncle, my mother returned to the village yesterday and took the tobacco and liquor with her. She told you not to buy them anymore."
+(I thought to myself, Auntie is really generous. Funeral arrangements require a lot of tobacco and liquor, after all.)
+舅舅:“柱子,我送给你母亲的日本彩电收到没有?”
+Uncle: "JinZhu, did you receive the Japanese color TV that I sent to your mother?"
+金柱:“收到了收到了,您给的24K足金戒指,我给了妈,还有给XX、XX、X XX的,谢谢啊。”
+Jinzhu: "Yes, we received it. Thank you for the 24K pure gold ring you bought. I gave one to my mom, one to XX, XX, and XX. Thank you."
+舅舅:“怎么不知道回封信呢,让我记挂。”
+Uncle: "Since you've received .Why didn't you send a letter in return? I've been worried."
+金柱:“……”
+Jinzhu: "..."
+舅舅:“金柱,我问你,我上次寄给你的20件台湾产新衣服,让你分给XX、X X、XXX,你怎么都换成了旧衣服,让人家骂我?……”
+Uncle: "Jinzhu, let me ask you this. Last time, I sent you 20 brand-new clothes made in Taiwan and asked you to distribute to XX, XX, and XXX. How come you exchanged them all for old clothes which made people scold me?..."
+我有些吃惊,赶紧看妈妈,正好迎上她的目光。妈妈显然也不知道这件事,对 我摇摇头,我明白她要我别管。
+I was somewhat surprised and quickly looked at my mother, who happened to meet my gaze. Obviously, she was also unaware of this matter and shook her head, indicating that I shouldn't get involved.
+舅舅与金柱上了车,空气很沉闷。金柱没话找话:“舅,你们回北京从郑州搭火车吧?”
+My uncle and Jinzhu got on the car, and the atmosphere became oppressive Jinzhu tried to find something to say: "Uncle, are you returning to Beijing by train from Zhengzhou?"
+舅舅没吭声,好像还在生 气。我问:“车票好买不?”金柱瞟了一眼舅,ロ气大起来:“俺亲妹子在郑州铁路上 工作,铁路局就跟咱家开的ー样。”我赶紧敲定:“柱子,三张郑州到北京的火车卧 铺票,交给你办行不?”金柱眨着那只很红的眼睛ー 口应承:“没问题。”我用手推舅 舅:“金柱帮咱买火车票呢〇”舅舅的脸开朗起来了。
+My uncle remained silent, seemingly still angry. I asked, "Are train tickets easy to buy?" Jinzhu glanced at my uncle, saying, "My younger sister works at the railway in Zhengzhou, and the railway bureau treats us just like family." I quickly made a decision, "Jinzhu, can you help buy three sleeper tickets from Zhengzhou to Beijing?" Jinzhu blinked his reddened eyes and readily agreed, saying, "No problem." I nudged my uncle with my hand and said, "Jinzhu will help us buy the train tickets, okay?" My uncle's face brightened up.
+吉普车向我们祖辈生活过的村庄疾驶,我的心装满了神圣,我要将姥姥送还给 她所思念的这片土地,要在这个地方陪舅舅生活几天,一同圆他的故乡梦。
+The jeep sped towards the village where our ancestors lived. My heart was filled with a sense of reverence. I wanted to return my grandmother to the land she longed for, and I intended to stay with my uncle in this place for a few days, fulfilling his dream of returning to his hometown.
+ー辆手摇纺车在我眼前晃动,是姥姥在讲述她的青春,是姥姥在讲述老辈人的 故事。就从这辆纺车里,摇出了绵长的线,线儿像这个中原村庄的历史一样长,像 这里人们的情义ー样长。现在,我陪姥姥回村了,这个令姥姥和舅舅梦魂牵绕的村 庄一定很美丽吧?
+ A spinning wheel appeared before my eyes, and it seemed to tell the story of my grandmother's youth and the tales of the older generation. This is spinning wheel spun a thread as long as the history of this central plains village, as long as the bonds among the people here. Now, I accompanied my grandmother back to the village. This village that haunted my grandmother and uncle for years must be incredibly beautiful, right?
+ー个小时,两个小时,那坑坑洼洼的土路颠簸得我骨头生疼。我紧紧抱住姥姥 的骨灰坛,不敢说话。
+An hour, two hours, the bumpy dirt road shook my bones and made them ache. I tightly held onto my grandmother's ashes and dared not speak.
+太阳升得老高了。终于,咔的一声,吉普车很响地拉上手刹,停稳了。
+The sun was high in the sky. Finally, with a loud "click," the jeep pulled up the handbrake and came to a stop.
+我睁开眼睛,跳下车,顿觉茫然。这个仿佛滞留在苍茫旷远历史中的小村庄, 就是姥姥和舅舅铭心刻骨思念的家乡?盘桓于中原大地几千年的那文明种族的活 力,在哪儿呢?留在这里厮守着村庄的后人们,你们明亮的瓦房呢?你们可心的新衣呢?你们如同集市一样繁华的小街呢?我去过改革春风掠过的江南土地,那里, 每踏上一步,都像是踩着一首亮丽的田园诗。
+I opened my eyes, jumped out of the car, and felt a sense of confusion. Is this small village, seemingly trapped in a vast and distant history, the hometown that my grandmother and uncle missed so much? Where is the vitality of that civilized race that has thrived in the Central Plains for thousands of years? Where are the bright tiled houses of the descendants who guard this village? Where are their beloved new clothes? Where is the bustling little street, vibrant like a marketplace? I have been to the Jiangnan land having going through reforms, where every step feels like walking on a beautiful pastoral poem.
+这里是初冬。我拉好毛围巾,树叶黄了,飘零的树叶落在我肩上。一条枯瘦的 狗夹着尾巴,从吉普车旁倏地跑过。紧跟着,我看见了在路上找食的羊、猪、鸡、鸭, 尽管它们看来瘦弱无カ,可却像自己的主人ー样享受着无人干预的自由。
+It was early winter here. I wrapped my woolen scarf tightly around my neck. The leaves had turned yellow, and falling leaves landed on my shoulders. A skinny dog passed by with its tail tucked between its legs. Following closely behind, I saw sheep, pigs, chickens, and ducks searching for food on the road. Although they appeared thin and frail, they seemed to be enjoying the freedom of being their own masters.
+舅舅俨然成了人物,认识与不认识的村民们都围上来,数说着他的孝道。舅舅 在头里走,步履稳健,后面簇拥着一群大人和孩子。我猜想他当年带兵打仗就是这 样在队伍的前面走。
+My uncle became a prominent figure. Villagers, whether familiar or unfamiliar, gathered around him, praising his filial piety. Walking at the front, my uncle showed a steady stride, followed by a crowd of adults and children. I imagined that this must have been how he led troops and marched at the front.
+舅舅被引到ー间土屋里,我和妈妈坐在当院。很快,我发现事情不对劲了。用 土坯垒起的小院满是人,大家争着朝舅舅的小屋挤,出来的人面带笑容,没进去的 人着急万分。
+My uncle was led into a mud house, and my mother and I sat in the courtyard. Soon, I realized something went wrong. The small courtyard made of adobe was filled with people, all scrambling to squeeze into my uncle's little house. Those who came out wore smiles on their faces, while those who couldn't get in were anxious.
+My grandfather from the clan accompanied my mother into the house, and with a solemn expression, he called my uncle to the funeral hall. My uncle hurriedly put away the gifts, but the crowd did not disperse.
+我也挤进去,ー看,便退了出来。原来舅舅在兴致勃勃地分发礼物,他见男的 发电子手表,见女的给纯金戒指。喜出望外的男人女人们张着两手,不出声地在空 中争夺物件。
+I squeezed my way inside but quickly backed out. It turned out my uncle was enthusiastically distributing gifts. He gave electronic watches to men and pure gold rings to women. The delighted men and women extended their hands, silently competing for the items in the air.
+族里爷爷陪着妈妈进屋了,表情严肃地唤舅舅一道去灵棚。舅舅赶忙收起礼 物,可人群并不离散。
+An old man from the clan accompanied my mother into the house, and called my uncle to the funeral hall with a solemn expression. My uncle hurriedly put away the gifts, but the crowd did not disperse
+村里空地上搭起了庄重肃穆的灵棚,姥爷、姥姥的遗像悬挂正中,供桌上摆放 着水果点心饭菜,还有香炉蜡抨以及ー些供器;灵台左右两侧悬挂着白布帘,是守灵的位置;灵台下,两ロ黑漆棺材很厚重醒目。族里爷爷介绍说,棺木如何如何好, 油漆了多少多少遍,舅舅点着头。
+A solemn and dignified mourning hall was set up on the open space in the village. The portraits of my grandfather and grandmother hung in the center, while the altar table displayed fruits, snacks, meals, as well as incense burners and various offerings. White curtains were hung on the left and right sides of the memorial tablet, signifying the location of the vigil. Below the memorial tablet, two black lacquered coffins stood prominently, heavy and eye-catching. The elder in the clan introduced how excellent the coffins were, mentioning the number of times they had been painted, and my uncle nodded in agreement.
+姥姥的棺木里放了骨灰坛,姥爷的棺木里放了我从北京买来的一套西服,还摆 放了舅舅带来的一些物品,以及老礼道规定的东西。
+Inside my grandmother's coffin was the urn containing her ashes, and inside my grandfather's coffin was a set of suits I bought from Beijing, along with some items brought by my uncle and the customary items according to the old ritual.
+因贫穷而寂寞的小村喧腾起来,杀猪的、炒菜的、蒸馍的、摆席的,穿梭不停,周围十里八村的乡亲听说有个台湾孝子回乡办丧事,也纷纷赶来看热闹。这个村庄 的人气就像滚开了锅的沸水。
+The once impoverished and lonely village became bustling. People were busy with slaughtering pigs, stir-frying dishes, steaming buns, and setting up tables. People from the surrounding villages and beyond heard that a filial son from Taiwan had returned to his hometown to hold the funeral for his parents, and they all came to watch the funeral avidly. The atmosphere in the village was as lively as boiling water in a pot.
+我们全都穿上了粗白布孝服,立在灵棚下,迎送着ー批批吊唁的远亲与宾客。 所有前来吊唁的人都会对舅舅说上一句:“爹娘没白疼你ー场啊!”
+We all dressed in coarse white mourning clothes, standing under the mourning hall, welcoming distant relatives and guests who came to pay their respects. Everyone who came to offer condolences would say to my uncle, "Your parents didn't raise you in vain!"
+我想,对舅舅来说,这是最中听最受用的夸奖。这句话这场面,他一定等待多 年了。
+I believe that for my uncle, this was the most comforting and the nicest praise he has ever heard. He had been waiting for this moment and these words for many years.
+那天夜里,我与舅舅为姥爷、姥姥守灵。
+That night, my uncle and I at the wake for my grandparents' spirits.
+长明灯亮着。
+The eternal flame was burning.
+舅舅突然对我说:“小冬,办完丧事,我死也闭眼了。”
+Suddenly, my uncle said to me, "Xiaodong, when the funeral is over, I can finally close my eyes."
+我不许他瞎说。
+I didn't allow him to say such things.
+舅舅的表情极为平静,他说:“先前我就剩这一件事没办,现在办了,心就 安了。”
+My uncle's expression was extremely calm as he said, "This was the one thing I had left to do. Now that it's done, my heart is at peace."
+我知道,舅舅的心脏先天狭窄,在台北万大路发病那次,荣民总医院为他做了 冠状动脉造影,造影显示:三根主动脉,ー根堵塞,ー根正常,ー根发育不良。医生 连续疏通那根堵塞的动脉血管,竟然失败了,最后,没有安放支架,也没有“搭桥” 〇 医生拉着舅舅的手,郑重地说:“您是依靠ー根正常动脉支撑的人,要比任何人都在 意自己。”
+I know that my uncle has congenital heart stenosis. During the incident on Wanda Road in Taipei, the Taipei Veterans General Hospital performed a coronary angiography for him. The angiography showed that out of the three main arteries, one was blocked, one was normal, and one was underdeveloped. The doctors attempted to clear the blocked artery but failed. In the end, no stent and bypass was placed. The doctor held my uncle's hand and solemnly said, "You are someone who relies only on one normal artery for support. You have to take better care of yourself than anyone else."
+我安慰舅舅,说科学正在进步,说只要小心不会出问题,说好日子刚开头要有 信心,说他的生命属于全家,说我姥姥、姥爷的在天之灵会保佑他。
+I comforted my uncle that science is advancing, that as long as he is careful, nothing will go wrong, that the good days are just beginning and he should have confidence, that his life belongs to the whole family, and that my grandparents' spirits in heaven would protect him.
+舅舅不作声。他这个人就是这样,你很难说服他什么。有时我觉得自己难以企及他独自遨游了太久的境界。我感觉到,坐在灵棚里的他,仿佛是在面对他自己 的遗骸,从容地盘点着如何发落自己。我突然想,他是不是想在这片土地上落户, 百年后也葬在爹娘身边?
+My uncle remained silent. That's just how he is; it's hard to convince him of anything. Sometimes I feel that I can hardly reach the level he has attained through his solitary wanderings. I sensed that as he sat in the mourning hall, it was as if he was facing his own remains, calmly assessing his fate. I suddenly wondered if he wanted to settle in this land and be buried next to my grandparents a hundred years later.
+第二天上午9时,是出殡的时辰,即“辰时发引”。摔盆、烧纸、起杠,鼓乐齐鸣, 花圈挽联纸人纸马一片。舅舅打幡,我搀扶着妈妈,出殡队伍浩浩荡荡不见队尾。
+The next morning at 9 o'clock was the time for the funeral procession, known as the "Chen Shi Fa Yin." The sound of smashing bowls, burning bank notes of the dead, and beating gongs and drums filled the air. Floral wreaths, couplets, paper figures, and paper horses were everywhere. My uncle carried the funeral banner, and I supported my mother as we joined the procession. The funeral procession was immense, and there seemed to be no end to it.
+至今我也不明白,哪些是孝属哪些是亲友哪些是观者,大概金柱爷爷那ー支的后人 很多吧。只记得通往墓地的路有3里地长,70岁的母亲本已坚持不住,而到达墓 地前的几十米,整个队伍的行进改成了疾跑,这一点杠夫本有交代,但母亲还是几 乎瘫倒在我身上。
+ To this day, I still don't understand who among them were relatives, friends, or spectators. Perhaps many were descendants of Grandfather Jinzhu. I only remembered that the road to the cemetery was three miles long, and my 70-year-old mother was already struggling. But in the final tens of meters before reaching the grave, the entire procession began to run, as if it had been arranged by the pallbearers. However, my mother almost collapsed in my arms.
+之后,杠夫将棺木摘肩落地,大绳将灵棺缓缓系入墓内,我清清楚楚地看到,姥爷这ロ墓里,除了姥姥外,还留了二姥姥的位置。
+Afterward, the pallbearers lifted the coffins from their shoulders and gently lowered them into the grave with the help of a large rope. I clearly saw that in my grandfather's grave, in addition to my grandmother, there was also a place reserved for my second grandmother.
+我姥爷弟弟的那口墓里,也系下了由舅舅定做的黑漆木棺。
+In my grandfather's younger brother's grave, there was also the tailored black lacquered wooden coffin bought by my uncle.
+那天,酒席摆了一路,十里八村相识不相识的人不用招呼,坐下就吃就喝,女 人、小孩儿的嘴里口袋里都塞得鼓鼓囊囊的。
+That day, a large feast was prepared, and people from the surrounding villages, whether familiar or unfamiliar, sat down to eat and drink without being invited. Women and children's mouths and pockets were filled to the brim.
+晚上,舅舅订了电影放映。人们如同过年一样,在屏幕正反面摆放了多排条凳,女人边嗑瓜子边聊天,男人边抽香烟边看电影,个个悠闲。小孩则在屏幕下钻来钻去。
+In the evening, my uncle arranged for a movie screening. People set up multiple rows of benches on both sides of the screen, just like during the New Year's celebration. Women chatted while eating snacks; men smoked and watched the movie, all leisurely. Children played around under the screen.
+我们回了屋,就听见金柱妈正对舅舅说笑。金柱妈从年轻时进安阳市就很少回村,这次为办丧事,特意关闭她的烟酒小店回来了。她黑黑瘦瘦的,ー开ロ就笑, 看着挺厚道。她说话速度很快:“洪洲啊,别忘了给我烟酒钱,烟是XX条,酒是X X箱,糖是XX斤,ー共是XXX元人民币。”
+When we returned to the house, we heard Jinzhu's mother laughing and joking with my uncle. Jinzhu's mother rarely came back to the village since she moved to Anyang City when she was young. She specifically closed her tobacco and liquor store and came back for the funeral. She was thin and dark, but she smiled a lot and seemed kind-hearted. She spoke quickly, saying, "Hongzhou, don't forget to give me money for cigarettes and alcohol. XX packs of cigarettes, XX crates of liquor, XX kilograms of sugar. So that will be XXX yuan altogether."
+这话可不厚道,我方明白自己原先估计的金柱妈自愿奉献烟酒钱是没影的事。 话说回来,这次发送的死者不是有金柱妈的公公吗?从情从理说,她怎能朝舅舅要 钱呢?我是小辈人,不便说话,倒是旁边陪同的乡干部打抱不平了:“这位大姨,您 的烟酒咋按高价算呢?比咱乡里商店的货贵多了!”
+That was an dishonest. I could clearly see that my initial estimation of Jinzhu's mother voluntarily purchasing tobacco and alcohol was far from reality. Moreover, the funeral was also held for Jinzhu's mother's father-in-law? From a moral standpoint, how could she ask my uncle for money? As a younger generation, it wasn't appropriate for me to speak up, but a local official who accompanied us couldn't tolerate it and said, "Auntie, why are you calculating the cigarettes and alcohol at such high prices? They are much more expensive than the goods in our village stores!"
+金柱妈收了笑,眼ー瞪,就要发火。
+Jinzhu's mother stopped smiling and stared, ready to get angry.
+舅舅赶紧给金柱妈搭了个台阶,高门大嗓地招呼:“姐,金柱,咱结账!”
+My uncle quickly tried to defuse the situation and said loudly, "Sis, Jinzhu, let's settle the bill!"
+我就见金柱揉着那只很红的眼睛,掏出已经准备好的本本,开始念账了。账老长,什么墓碑、刻字、棺木、油漆、轿夫、香烟、白酒、面粉、生猪、青菜、豆腐、粉条、供 品、响器班、放电影,念了一页又一页,舅舅手里没有计算器,也不打算盘,只是听。
+I saw Jinzhu rubbing his red eye and taking out a prepared notebook, starting to read the bill. The bill was long, mentioning everything from tombstones, engravings, coffins, paint, sedan bearers, cigarettes, liquor, flour, live pigs, vegetables, tofu, noodles, offerings, musical instruments, to movie screenings. She read page after page, and my uncle didn't have a calculator or abacus in his hands; he just listened.
+金柱准备得很充分,高声大嗓地念着,直到舅舅摆手叫停,这账就算结完了。 我知道,舅舅先前把一大笔美元交给了金柱,金柱现在就是报告这笔美元的去处 吧。之后,舅舅分别递给金柱妈与金柱一些钱和首饰,大概这些礼物的数量未及他 们的期望值,所以两人从屋里出来时,脸都拉得老长。
+Jinzhu was well-prepared, reading with a loud voice, until my uncle waved his hand to stop her, indicating that the bill was settled. I knew that my uncle had given a large sum of dollars to Jinzhu earlier, and now he was reporting on what those dollars were spent on. Afterward, my uncle handed some money and jewelry to Jinzhu's mother and Jinzhu respectively. Perhaps the quantity of these gifts didn't meet their expectations, so when the two came out of the house, they were disappointed and annoyed.
+后来我问过舅舅:“那账对不对?”舅舅笑了,他眯着眼反问我:“你说对不对? ” 他后来告诉我,预算里已经留出了贪污账,幸亏没超得太多。
+Later, I asked my uncle, "Was the bill correct?" My uncle smiled and squinted his eyes as he asked me in return, "Do you think it was correct?" He later told me that he had already factored in embezzlement in the budget, luckily without exceeding too much.
+舅舅居住的小屋又挤满了人,没有得到手表与戒指的伸手抢,竟然把手伸到了 舅舅的口袋里,而得到东西的人也不走,磨着舅舅请戏班唱三天大戏。
+My uncle's small house was crowded once again. People who didn't get a chance to get the watches and rings reached their hands into my uncle's pockets. And the ones who received the gift didn't leave; they insisted that my uncle hire a theater troupe to perform a three-day play.
+我和妈妈在院里坐着,一任舅舅兴致盎然地散发他带来的最后财物。突然,舅舅拨开人群脱身出来了,他脸孔涨红,似乎有些恼。看身后没人跟上来,他从裤兜 里摸出五个红绒小包递给我说:“就剩这五个戒指了,你替我保管。”我ー看,那全 是有台湾良记银楼保单的足金戒指,就赶紧掖进口袋里。回到北京后,舅舅用去三 枚,至今还有两枚我替他保管着。
+My mother and I were sitting in the courtyard while my uncle enthusiastically distributed his remaining belongings. Suddenly, my uncle pushed through the crowd and came out. His face was red, and he seemed annoyed. Seeing no one followed him, he reached into his trouser pocket and took out five small red velvet pouches, handing them to me, saying, "These are the last five rings. Please keep them for me." I took a look, and they were all pure gold rings from Taiwan's Liangji Silver Shop, each with an insurance policy. I quickly tucked them into my pocket. After returning to Beijing, my uncle used three of them, and I am still keeping the other two for him.
+第三天五更,我和舅舅都睡不着,就在村头溜达。
+On the third day, before dawn, neither my uncle nor I could sleep, so we strolled at the village entrance.
+舅舅对我说:“没有你姥姥、姥爷收留,我早死在逃荒路上了。”
+My uncle said to me, "If it weren't for your grandparents taking me in, I would have died on the famine-stricken road."
+我心说,我们ー家老老少少几年来小心谨慎呵护的这个秘密,敢情您早就知道 了,
+I thought to myself that this secret that our entire family has been carefully guarding for years, it seems like you already knew about it long ago.
+于是追问一句:“您咋知道自己身世的?”
+So I asked him, "How did you find out about your background?"
+舅舅说:“我还是小孩子的时候,就有村里人告诉我了。所以,我一直感谢爹娘 花1〇担粮食赎我之恩。”
+My uncle said, "When I was still a child, someone in the village told me. That's why I've always been grateful to my parents for spending  500KG grain in redeeming me."
+现在,我觉得什么都能对舅舅说了,就把想了好几天的另ー个问题和盘托出: “舅啊,我不知道您的亲爹娘是朝哪个方向逃荒走的,您要是愿意,我陪您朝那个方 向磕头,也算谢他们生您ー场。”
+Now, I feel like I can tell my uncle everything, so I finally brought up another question that had been on my mind for several days, "Uncle, I don't know which direction your biological parents took when they fled the famine. If you're willing, I'll accompany you and kowtow in that direction as a way of expressing gratitude for their giving birth to you."
+这毕竟是舅舅与亲生爹娘相守相离的土地,他们的血脉,他们的亲情,是生死 不变的永恒事实。我想,这里不正是舅舅与亲爹娘对话的最好时机与场景吗?
+After all, this was the land where my uncle was separated with his biological parents. Their bloodline, their bond, was an unchanging and eternal fact of life. I thought this would be the best opportunity and setting for my uncle to have a conversation with his biological parents.
+完全没想到,舅舅ー摆大手,口气不容置疑:“我在海边想的是你姥姥、姥爷,从 来没想过他们。生我不养我的人……”
+Unexpectedly, my uncle waved his hand dismissively, with an unquestionable tone, and said, "When I was on the seaside, all I think about is only your grandparents instead of the people who gave birth to me but didn't raise me...I’ve never thought about them."
+他没有说完。
+He didn't finish his sentence.
+冬天的晨曦露头晚,我看不清楚舅舅的表情,可感觉到了他的失望。他的失 望,似乎不是来自将他遗弃的亲生爹娘,而是来自多年期盼的实现。在年复一年的 期盼中,他将脚底下这块生他养他的土地描画得特别美好。其实,当他第一次从北 京返台听见其他老兵议论时,就应当有这份心理准备的。
+On a winter morning, the dawn was late to appear, and I couldn't see my uncle's expression clearly, but I could sense his disappointment. His disappointment didn't seem to come from his biological parents who abandoned him, but from the realization of his long-awaited dreams. In years of anticipation, he painted this land beneath his feet as something exceptionally beautiful. In fact, when he first returned to Taiwan from Beijing and heard the discussions among other veterans, he should have been mentally prepared for this.
+他分明叹了一口气。也许是感到了灵与肉的分离。他的身子是着着实实落在 故土上了,可他这个人却成了故人眼里的台湾客人。他在心里积蓄几十年的炽热 情感,本来是要倾カ抛洒在故乡沃壤中的,可现在他突然明白自己与这片土地,与 自己想了几十年的这个村落,一丁点关系都没有了。乡干部昨天还在等待他关于 分地盖房的答复,他该怎样回答呢?
+He let out a sigh. Perhaps he felt the separation of spirit and flesh. He was stepping on his homeland physically, but he himself had become a visitor in the eyes of the locals. The intense emotions he had accumulated in his heart for decades were meant to be poured out on the fertile land of his hometown, but now he suddenly realized that he had no connection with this land and the village he had longed for over the years. The village officials were still waiting for his response regarding land distribution and house construction. How should he answer?
+舅舅和我坐在田壇上,各想各的。许久,他用大手捏碎了一块土坷垃,下了决 心:“一回家!”
+My uncle and I sat on a field terrace, lost in our own thoughts. After a while, he crushed a clump of soil in his large hand and made up his mind: "Let's go back home."
+我明白这两个字的含义。就从此刻起,他放弃了脚下这块抚养他长大的土地, 割舍了这个曾经带给他无尽欢乐,令他疯狂思念过的家乡。现在,他只有北京的姐 姐家了。
+I understood the significance of these two words. From this moment on, he gave up the land that had raised him, severed ties with the homeland that had once brought him endless joy and intense longing. Now, he only had his sister's home in Beijing.
+吃早饭时,一位爷爷建议,村里人会堵着我们要钱,不如赶明儿个清早上路
+During breakfast, an elderly man suggested that the villagers might confront us and demand money, so it would be better to leave early the next morning.
+说来有点黑色幽默的味道。第四天早晨,我们在村领导的指挥下,爬上拖拉 机,就像做了亏心事的人ー样,匆匆逃离了那个曾经被舅舅日想夜思,现在又埋葬 着亲人的故乡。
+It had a touch of dark humor. On the fourth morning, under the command of the village leaders, we climbed onto a tractor and hastily fled from the homeland that had once haunted my uncle and now buried his loved ones.
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+拖拉机轰轰地驶在起伏不平的黄土路上。抬眼望去,收了秋的大地一片平坦。 我突然想起“平均”这个概念。大自然不讲平均,物竞天择,动物纷争。现如今的 社会也不讲平均,改革催生的竞争意识已经铺遍大江南北。想过好日子的父老乡 亲们啊,应该上哪里竞争,上哪里去淘换自己那一份幸福呢?为什么一定要厮守着 姥姥们留下的老纺车老田地老房子呢?
+The tractor roared along the bumpy yellow dirt road. Looking up, the land that had been harvested appeared flat. I suddenly thought of the concept of "average." Nature doesn't adhere to the principle of average; it's survival of the fittest, with animals competing against each other. Nowadays, society also doesn't adhere to averages; the spirit of competition spurred by reforms has spread across the country. For the fellow villagers who aspire to a better life, where should they compete? Where should they go to seek their own happiness? Why must they cling to the old spinning wheel, old fields, and old houses left behind by their grandparents?
+小路上蹿来ー辆自行车。听姥姥说,我妈是全县第一位学会骑自行车的女学生。那时,不仅全县闺女艳羡的目光追踪着妈妈,就连绑匪也寻思开了活计。幸而我妈离家抗日去了
+Suddenly, a bicycle came zooming by. Grandma told me that my mom was the first female student in the entire county to learn how to ride a bicycle. At that time, not only were the girls in the entire county envious of my mother's skill. She even attracted the attention of the kidnappers. Fortunately, my mother left home to join the War of Resistance Against Japan.
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+骑自行车的是一位不相识的女子,她大概有30多岁,将头包裹在方布巾里,只 露出了眼睛。她边挥舞手臂,边朝我们叫喊。我寻思该不是要钱的吧?
+ The woman riding the bicycle was a stranger to us. She appeared to be in her thirties, with her head wrapped in a square cloth, only her eyes visible. She waved her arms and shouted towards us. I wondered if she was asking for money.
+拖拉机慢下来,那女子就紧蹬车轮,跟着拖拉机并头骑。拖拉机轰轰地叫着,女子就盖过拖拉机的声音,大声朝我们喊话,她说自己是谁家的媳妇正在打离婚要上城打工朝舅 舅借些盘缠钱……
+The tractor slowed down, and the woman pedaled closer, riding alongside the tractor. Despite the roaring noise of the tractor, her voice overpowered it as she shouted loudly towards us. She claimed to be someone's wife and said she was seeking a divorce to go to the city for work. She asked for some money as a loan from my uncle..
+舅舅没有吱声,他是个要面子的人,我知道,他带来的钱已经花净,要不,后来在郑州买火车票、吃饭,他不会任我掏钱。
+Uncle remained silent. He was a proud man, and I knew that the money he brought had already been spent. Otherwise, he wouldn't have let me pay for the train ticket and meals later in Zhengzhou.
+金柱食言了,没有帮我们买火车卧铺票,他和他的母亲,就像那些吃完酒席的 人ー样不辞而别。
+ Jinzhu broke his promise. He didn't help us buy sleeper tickets for the train. He and his mother left without saying goodbye, just like those attending the feast.
+我趴在郑州火车站窗口,对ー脸冷漠的女售票员说:“这是我们的证明,购买到北京的卧铺,软卧硬卧都行。”
+I leaned against the ticket window at Zhengzhou Railway Station and said to the indifferent female ticket seller, "This is our ID cards. I want to buy 3 sleeper tickets to Beijing, either soft or hard sleeper."
+叭一三张硬座票飞出来,这就是说,老人们只能坐硬座到北京。
+Suddenly, three hard seat tickets were handed out, which meant that mom and uncle could only sit in hard seats all the way to Beijing.
+我赶紧把脸贴近窗ロ,请求道:“两张,行不行?给老人!”
+ I quickly leaned closer to the window and pleaded, "Can you help us buy just two sleeper tickets. We got 2 old people here!"
+女售票员梗着脖子不看我,用河南话喊:“下ー个!”
+The female ticket seller just ignored me and shouted in the local Henan dialect, "Next!"
+我们没有地方可去,离开车还有七八个钟点的时候,就站在郑州车站前圈起的广场候车区里,排在队首,以为能够按序上车。哪知道,后来广播里刚一宣布准许上车,队列就乱了,没有人维持秩序,没有人排队,我们立即被后面不排队的强大人流推擦着,一下就冲散了。
+We had nowhere else to go. When there were still seven or eight hours before the train departure, we stood in the waiting area at the square in front of Zhengzhou Station, lining up at the front, thinking that we could board the train in order. Little did we know, as soon as the announcement allowing boarding was made on the loudspeaker, the queue became chaotic. There was no one maintaining order, no one forming a line. Immediately, we were jostled and pushed by the big crowd behind us who didn't bother to queue properly, and we were quickly dispersed.
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+我从来没有见过那种阵势,人们挥舞着拳头,生生打开前面的人,自己往前冲。 我死死护着妈妈往前跑,只怕妈妈跌倒。及至上了火车,才发现舅舅没有跟上来, 就返身去找舅舅,走了好远,才见舅舅坐在通道上已经动弹不得,蜂拥而上的人群 似乎没有看见地上的人,呼啸着穿过他。
+ I had never seen such a situation before. People were waving their fists, forcefully pushing their way through the crowd, even pushing others aside. I held onto my mother tightly and ran forward, fearing that she might fall. When we finally got on the train, I realized that my uncle hadn't made it aboard. I turned back to look for him and walked a long way before finding him sitting on the aisle, unable to move as the surging crowd seemed oblivious to the person on the ground, rushing past him.
+我赶紧搀起舅舅,那一刻,我发现他的脚已经难以吃劲。后来,他靠着我的臂 膀好不容易上了火车。列车启动后,我反复与列车长交涉,才换上了一席软卧。就 那样,妈妈与舅舅合坐在ー张软卧铺上。
+I quickly helped my uncle up, and in that moment, I noticed that his legs were already weak. Later, with great difficulty, he managed to board the train leaning on my arm. After the train started moving, I repeatedly negotiated with the train conductor until we were able to exchange for a soft sleeper berth. That way, my mother and uncle sat together on one soft sleeper bed.
+故乡的风,在火车两侧呼啦啦地吹。小村庄低落下去,最后和遥远的地平线ー 般高了。舅舅闭着眼睛,不肯扭过头回望他的故乡。自此,他与它不再彼此相属。
+舅舅到底坐上了京广线的火车,那个在台湾拟制的,给他带来过无限希望和遐 想的返回故乡的梦,现在是结束了。
+The wind of my hometown blew vigorously on both sides of the train. The small village gradually receded just as low as the distant horizon. My uncle kept his eyes closed, refusing to turn his head and look back at his homeland. From then on, they no longer belonged to each other.
+My uncle finally boarded the train on the Beijing-Guangzhou line, the dream of returning to his hometown that had brought him infinite hope and imagination, now coming to an end.
+我想,在他心里,故乡一定幻化成了碎影,星星点点隐进他深沉的记忆中。
+I believe that in his heart, his homeland must have transformed into fragmented shadows, scattered and hidden deep within his memories.
+实实在在的是伤痛。北京医院的X光片显示,舅舅的脚踝骨折,必须打石膏。
+The pain was real. The X-ray at a Beijing hospital revealed that my uncle had a fractured ankle and needed to have a cast applied.
+第四章家在哪儿
+Chapter 4: Where is Home
+办理收养公证
+Applying for Adoption Notarization
+年5月,舅舅第五次到北京。
+In May 1993, my uncle went to Beijing for the fifth time.
+温馨的家庭阳光,是怎样辐射进舅舅心房的?一什么事?什么时候?通过 哪ー扇门窗?
+How does the warm family sunshine radiate into Uncle's heart? Through what event? When? And through which door or window?
+哦,是我们合家商议,要给舅舅安排ー个未来的家。
+Oh, it’s when my entire family decided to arrange a future home for my uncle.
+舅舅的态度很坚决:我不娶太太,把小冬过继给我,我有了这个女儿养老送终, 再无所求。
+My uncle's stance was firm. He won't get married. He only wanted to adopt me. He said with me supporting him as his daughter in his old age, and he would had a full life.
+那时,舅舅的身体已经很不好,连续心绞痛,多次住院了。老来无依的担忧袭 击着他,他需要一个能够养老的家。
+At that time, my uncle's health was already poor. He suffered from frequent angina and had been hospitalized several times. The worry of being alone in old age haunted him, and he needed a home where he could spend his twilight years.
+对舅舅的请求,爸妈慨然允诺,看来他们已经商量好久了,我与丈夫泰来虽然 刚刚知道,但也没意见。
+My parents readily agreed to my uncle's request. It seemed that they had already discussed it for a long time. Although my husband Tailai and I had just found out about it, we also had no objections.
+不管把家安在哪儿,我们都得去公证处办理过继公证。
+No matter where my uncle decide to settle down, we have to go to the notary office to apply for the adoption notarization.
+北京市公证处的民事组长是个胖胖的女同志,她纠正我说:“是办理收养公证。”同时告诉我们程序:先办大陆公证,之后由台湾海峡交流基金会核准大陆公证书后,再到台湾方面办理收养公证。
+The head of the Civil Affairs Division at the Beijing Notary Public Office is a chubby female comrade. She corrected me and said, " What you should apply for is the adoption notarial certificate." She also informed us about the procedure: first, we need to apply for the notarization in the mainland of China, and then, after the mainland notarization is approved by the Straits Exchange Foundation, we can proceed with the adoption notarization on the Taiwan, China .
+于是,我们按照要求,分别东奔西走,准备了一大摞证明材料:台湾的、大陆的, 舅舅的、爸妈的、我的、丈夫的,工作单位的、派出所的……然后,我们又偕三位老人 ー起到公证处办理手续。还好,事情算是顺利,过了一段时间,我们就领取了京证
+台字〔1993〕第492号收养公证。公证书这样记录着:
+So, as requested, we rush round, preparing a pile of relevant testimonial materials from Chinese Taiwan, the mainland of China, our workplaces and the local police station... and materials of uncle, my parents, me, and my husband. Then, with the accompany of three elderly people in my family, we went together to the notary office to complete the procedures. Fortunately, everything went smoothly, and after some time, we received the Adoption Notarization Certificate in the mainland of China which reads:
+兹证明洪洲与XX、XXX （作者注:XX、X XX是我父母亲的名字,下 同）商定,并征得被收养人郭冬的同意,洪洲于1993年8月23日收养XX,X XX之女郭冬为养女，洪洲为郭冬的养父。
+北京市公证处 公证员XX
+年9月7日
+This certifies that Hongzhou, XX, and XXX (Note: XX and XXX are the names of my parents, the same applies below) have agreed, and with the consent of the adoptee Guo Dong, Hongzhou adopted Guo Dong as his daughter on August 23, 1993. Hongzhou is hereby recognized as Guo Dong's adoptive father.
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+Notary Officer XX
+Beijing Notary Public Office
+September 7, 1993
+公证书是法定机关对于民事上权利义务关系所做的证明,舅舅自然懂。领到 公证书时,舅舅已经回到台北,我就在电话里给他一字一字地念,他显然十分重视。 我的话音刚一落,他就落实道:“这就是说,自1993年9月7日起,北京市公证处确 认了我和你的养父养女关系!”
+The adoption notarial certificate is an official certification by a statutory authority regarding the rights and obligations in civil matters, and my uncle understood its significance. When he received the notarial certificate, he was already back in Taipei, so I read it out to him word by word over the phone, and he clearly valued it. As soon as I finished speaking, he confirmed, "So this means that as of September 7, 1993, Beijing Notary Public Office has confirmed our father-daughter relationship!"
+我说:“是啊是啊,舅呀,我是不是得改称呼啦?”
+I said, "Oh, Uncle, should I change how I address you?"
+舅舅在电话那头哈哈大笑,他说:“等台湾公证员协会的文件下来,咱就改口! 我要告诉所有战友,我有个教授女儿!”
+Uncle laughed heartily on the other end of the phone and said, "Once the documents from the Taiwan Notary Public Association come, we'll make the switch! I'll tell all my comrades that I have a professor daughter!"
+我赶紧声明:“舅,是副教授!”
+I quickly clarified, "Uncle, I’m just an associate professor!"
+舅舅说:“那你明天当正的,我后天再告诉他们!”
+Uncle replied, "Then you'll become a full professor tomorrow, and I'll let them know the day after!"
+我说:“行!”
+I said, "Okay!"
+我们就笑。说实话,我很感动,也很感谢,舅舅为人低调内敛,他在不经意间冒 出的话,说明他因我而骄傲,这是我们交往中出现的绝无仅有的一次话题,以后再 也没有过。
+We laughed. Honestly, I was deeply moved and grateful. Uncle was usually reserved and understated, but his casual words showed that he was proud of me. It was a unique topic that arose in our relationship, and it never happened again.
+那是个秋天,可春风吹进了舅舅的心田,他的希望发芽长叶了。后面的事情如 我们所愿,台湾海峡交流基金会于1993年12月31日发来了公证书核对证明 文本。
+It was autumn, but a spring breeze blew into Uncle's heart, and his hopes began to sprout and grow leaves. As we had hoped, the Straits Exchange Foundation sent the notarized verification of the adoption on December 31, 1993.
+舅舅收到台湾海峡交流基金会发来的公证书核对证明文本后,抛却了所有的 不快。按照程序,他再到台北公证员协会办理完我们的收养公证,新生活就要开 始了！
+After receiving the notarized verification from the Taiwan Strait Exchange Foundation, Uncle let go of all the unpleasantness. Following the procedure, he went to the Taipei Notary Public Association to complete our adoption notarization, and a new life was about to begin!
+这时,一件意想不到的事情发生了。
+However, at that moment, something unexpected happened.
+前面提到,如果不是因为柳太太与舅舅发生了剧烈的争吵,他们的日子会一直 在万大路过下去。从舅舅的薪水不再交给柳太太起,他们之间的相处就存了疙瘩。 后来,舅舅不断回大陆,不断动用自己的储蓄,这就使柳太太十分气恼。
+As mentioned earlier, if it weren't for the intense quarrel between Mrs. Liu and Uncle, their lives would have continued on Wan Da Road. Since Uncle stopped giving his salary to Mrs. Liu, there was a rift between them. Later, Uncle kept returning to the mainland and using his savings, which infuriated Mrs. Liu.
+大概读者 也猜到了,舅舅与柳太太的最大冲突,就在于舅舅发现了被柳太太扣押的北京来 信。在舅舅看来,亲人所书写的每一封信,都是他生活的光亮,是他生存的寄托,更 何况柳太太扣掉的是来自北京的最初两封信,那时舅舅正望眼欲穿地等待着亲人 的消息。这是他们仅有的一次吵架,也是终结他们关系的争吵。这场无人能够调 解也无可避免的战争爆发后,柳太太冲上楼,把舅舅的铺盖和箱子ー股脑扔到了楼 梯口!
+As readers may have guessed, the major conflict between Uncle and Mrs. Liu arose when Uncle discovered that Mrs. Liu had withheld the letters from Beijing. To Uncle, each letter written by his family was a source of light in his life, a solace in his existence. Moreover, Mrs. Liu had withheld the first two letters from Beijing, the very letters Uncle had been eagerly waiting for from his loved ones. This was their only fight, and it marked the end of their relationship. After this unavoidable and irreconcilable war erupted, Mrs. Liu rushed upstairs and threw Uncle's bedding and suitcase down the stairs!
+舅舅陷在沙发里,往舌头下塞了一片硝酸甘油,之后拉开搁放存折的抽屉。如 果此时他给我打个电话,事情还有逆转的可能。我会劝他冷静,还会给柳太太打电 话,尽量平息他们的矛盾。
+Uncle sank into the couch and put a tablet of nitroglycerin under his tongue. He then opened the drawer where he kept his bankbook. If he had called me at that moment, there might have been a chance to reverse the situation. I would have advised him to stay calm and would have called Mrs. Liu to try to alleviate their conflict.
+可是没有,舅舅习惯了自我决断。他的存款已经不够在 繁华的台北市买房,他当天就去往台北新庄市购买了一套两居室。他要用那所新 房迎接我和泰来的到来。
+But it didn't happen. Uncle was accustomed to making decisions on his own. His savings were no longer sufficient to buy a house in bustling Taipei, so he immediately went to Xin Zhuang in Taipei and purchased a two-bedroom apartment. He intended to welcome me and Tai Lai in that new home.
+离开万大路时,舅舅将当年花重资建盖的二层小楼与冰箱、彩电、录影机、空 调、衣柜等所有值钱物件都留在了柳家。他弯下腰,拥抱着已经坐在轮椅上的战友老柳。
+When leaving Wan Da Road, Uncle left behind the two-story building he had built at great expense, as well as the refrigerator, color TV, VCR, air conditioner, wardrobe, and all other valuable items in the Liu family's possession. He bent down and embraced his fellow soldier, Liu, who was already confined to a wheelchair.
+他们互相都感受到了对方的衰老,都预感到是最后的告别,便手拉手,强忍 眼泪,互道珍重。柳太太一定后悔了,她跟着不望她一眼的舅舅,追到院门ロ,伤感 地说:“洪洲,有空来坐坐。”
+They both felt each other's aging and sensed that it would be their final farewell. Holding hands, suppressing their tears, they bid each other farewell. Mrs. Liu must have regretted it. She followed Uncle who did not even look at her to the courtyard gate, saying sorrowfully, "Hong Zhou, come visit when you have time."
+舅舅的男子汉尊严昂起了头,他转过身,不看她,一字ー顿地说:“我日后如果 讨饭……”
+Uncle, with the dignity of a man, raised his head and turned away without looking at her, saying firmly, "If I ever have to beg in the future..."
+柳太太赶紧说:“哪里、哪里会讨饭,你是吉人自有天相厂’
+Mrs. Liu interrupted, "No, you will never have the chance to beg. You are a good people who will have good fortune."
+舅舅只管说下去,仍旧一字ー顿:“我日后如果讨饭,走到你这ー家,要绕过,去 下一家!”
+Uncle continued, word by word, "If I ever have to beg in the future and happen to pass by your house, I will go around and visit the next one!"
+他拖着行李箱,头也不回。
+He dragged his suitcase and didn't look back.
+坦率地说,我后来反省过这件事,也给柳太太打过电话。且不说舅舅当年将房 子建在柳家屋顶上是对是错,只说他迁离万大路,离开柳家这件事,难说是上策,因 为那套位于台北新庄市的新房,后来招惹了无人能够预料的灾祸。
+To be frank, I later reflected on this matter and also called Mrs. Liu. Setting aside the question of whether it was right or wrong for Uncle to build the house on top of the Liu family's roof, leaving Wan Da Road and the Liu family was not necessarily the best decision, for it turned out that the house in Xin Zhuang City, Taipei, brought my uncle an unforeseen disaster later.
+迁进新庄市新房最初的日子愉快无比。没有人管束,没有人伸手要钱,自己是 自己的,自由自在。舅舅变得轻松起来,时常哼着豫剧唱段。他有了自己的电话, 老是打电话问我愿意当记者还是教书,说他主张泰来当自由撰稿人。
+The initial days of moving into the new house in Xin Zhuang City were incredibly joyful. There was no one to control him and no one asking him for money. He was his own master, free and at ease. Uncle became more relaxed and often hummed tunes from Yu opera. He had his own telephone and would frequently call me to ask if I wanted to become a journalist or a teacher. He advocated for Tai Lai to become a freelance writer.
+后来他又想 起给自己找个活,说我们仁可以ー起经商,他喜欢前店后厂的房,他愿意坐堂卖货, 让我们当老板。总之,舅舅经常为自己一厢情愿的翻新花样,激动得睡不着觉。
+Later, he thought about finding a job for himself and suggested that we start a business together. He liked the idea of having a shop in the front and a factory at the back, and he was willing to sit in the shop selling goods while we acted as the bosses. In short, Uncle often indulged in his own wishful thinking and got so excited that he couldn't sleep.
+就在我们以为交上好运,好人得了好报时,舅舅在台北办理的公证活动撞上了
+红灯
+Just when we thought we had good luck and that got rewarded for our good deeds, something went wrong with Uncle's notarization process in Taipei.
+我知道,舅舅这ー辈子最怕填表写字,最不愿意与老兵之外的人打交道。可这 两件事,他都赶上了。
+I knew that Uncle dreaded filling out forms and writing, and he was reluctant to interact with anyone except for veterans. But he encountered both of these things this time.
+当舅舅将一摞材料送进台北公证员协会的窗口后,公证员告诉他,台北市收养 政策有多条规定,舅舅只有一条不符合,那就是:养父养女年龄应当相差20年。舅 舅绝望地申辩:“我和外甥女年龄相差19年零8个月,是19年零8个月、19年零8 个月啊!”公证员温和而果断地摇摇头:“先生,不能办理。”
+After Uncle handed over a stack of documents through the window of the Taipei Notary Public Association, the notary informed him that there were several regulations regarding adoption in Taipei, and Uncle only failed to meet one: the age difference between the adoptive father and daughter should be 20 years at least. Uncle desperately argued, "The age difference between me and my niece is 19 years and 8 months! It's just 2 months from the standard." The notary gently but decisively shook their head and said, "Sir, it cannot be processed."
+舅舅跌坐在公证员协会门口,用手捂着胸口。
+Uncle slumped down at the entrance of the notary public association, holding his chest with his hand.
+后来的事情发展令我吃惊,一生宁折不弯的舅舅竟然违了自己的性格,独自去 寻访前台湾“行政院长”郝柏村。
+What happened later surprised me. Uncle, who had always been unyielding, went against his own character and visited the Premier of the Republic of China (ROC) , Hau Pei-tsun, alone.
+舅舅这样一位普普通通的老兵,怎么敢惊动郝柏村?他为什么去找郝柏村,而 不是别的主管高官?我倏地想起了舅舅给我讲述过的一段经历。
+How could Uncle, an ordinary veteran, dare to disturb Hau Pei-tsun? Why did he go to see Hau Pei-tsun, instead of other high-ranking officials? Suddenly, I remembered a story Uncle had told me before.
+金门之战
+The Battle of Kinmen
+年,舅舅带给我们ー包邮票。他点着其中一枚的画面说:“在这个地方, 我九死一生!”
+In 1992, Uncle brought us a package of stamps. Pointing to one of them, he said, "In this place, I narrowly escaped death!"
+那是金门。
+It was Kinmen.
+我叫起来:“哇,舅,你敢跟解放军开战!”
+I exclaimed, "Wow, Uncle, you dared to fight against the Communist People's Liberation Army!"
+舅舅眯着笑眼,只有饱经沧桑的人才能表现出那份淡定。
+Uncle squinted his eyes with a smile, displaying the calmness that only someone who had experienced many hardships could show.
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+我为此去查金门史料。
+I decided to look up the historical records of Kinmen.
+金门岛及烈屿、小金门,大大小小计13个岛屿。大金门岛长20公里,东距厦 门10公里,形状似哑铃,东部多高山,西部多丘陵,北岸为黄白色沙质硬滩,适宜大 规模登陆。
+Kinmen Island, along with Lieyu and Lesser Kinmen Island, consists of a total of 13 islands. Kinmen, Main island is 20 kilometers long and 10 kilometers east of Xiamen. It has a dumbbell-like shape, with high mountains in the east and hills in the west. The northern coast is composed of yellow-white sandy beaches, suitable for a big landing.
+那时,在美国艾森豪威尔政府的支持下,蒋介石当局频频向金门增兵,除了大担、二担两个小岛已有蒋军驻守外,至1958年夏季,金门已增至10万蒋军。无疑, 金门成了两军必战之地。
+At that time, with the support of The Eisenhower Administration, the Nationalist Government of Chiang Kai-shek frequently reinforced Kinmen. Apart from Dadan Island and Erdan Island, two small islands already occupied by the Kuomintang (KMT) forces, there were 100,000 KMT soldiers stationing in Kinmen by the summer of 1958. Undoubtedly, Kinmen had become a battleground for both sides.
+年7月17日晚,中国国防部部长彭德怀传达了炮击金门的决定。
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+On the evening of July 17, 1958, China's Defense Minister Peng Dehuai conveyed the decision of the bombardment of Kinmen (Quemoy).
+年7月18日晚,毛泽东召集各军事部门负责人开会指出:金门炮战,意在 击美。
+On the evening of July 18, 1958, Mao Tse-tung convened a meeting with military department heads, stating that the bombardment of Kinmen (Quemoy) aimed at attacking the United States.
+年7月19日至8月中旬,解放军调集兵力,在福建前线部署了地面炮兵 36个营、海岸炮兵6个连,459门火炮,海军80余艘舰艇和海、空军200余架飞机。
+From July 19 to mid-August 1958, the Communist People's Liberation Army deployed 36 Field artillery battalions, 6 Coastal Artillery companies, 459 artillery pieces, more than 80 naval vessels, and over 200 aircraft from the navy and air force along the Fujian front.
+金门炮击最激烈的时刻,蒋介石派遣蒋经国到金门督战。
+During the height of the bombardment of Kinmen (Quemoy), Chiang Kai-shek dispatched Chiang Ching-kuo to oversee the battle.
+蒋介石操着浙江奉化口音对儿子说:“我最不放心金门,那个岛离大陆太近,离台湾却很远,我10万将士人人抱定拼死一战的决心,坚守5日,美国必会出兵助战。如3天都守不到,那 就没有人会来救它了。你要常去金门,越有紧急情况越要去。金门必须确保无虞, 那里的事情办不好,你就不要回来。”
+Speaking in his native accent from Fenghua, Zhejiang, Chiang Kai-shek said to his son, "I'm most worried about Jinmen. That island is too close to the mainland but far from Taiwan. Each of the 100,000 soldiers there is determined to fight to the death and hold on for five days. The United States will surely send troops to assist if we can't hold on for three days. If we can't hold on for even three days, no one will come to rescue it. You must frequently visit Kinmen and go there whenever there is an emergency. Kinmen must be secure. If things there aren't handled well, don't bother coming back."
+为遵父训,蒋经国一生共去金门123次。
+Following his father's instructions, Chiang Ching-kuo visited Jinmen a total of 123 times during his lifetime.
+美国政府不负蒋介石所望,紧急向台湾海峡调遣海、空力量。美国海军第七舰 队主力远道而来,美国第一批海军陆战队近4000人在台湾南部登陆,远在中东地 区的第六舰队舰只也驶向台湾海峡。不到1〇天,小小的台湾海峡就布满了航空母 舰、重型巡洋舰、驱逐舰等各种现代化军舰,而天上也盘旋着第九十六巡逻航空队、 第一海军陆战队航空队的飞机。台湾海峡成了举世瞩目的战场。
+The U.S. government lived up to Chiang Kai-shek's expectations and urgently deployed naval and air forces to the Taiwan Strait. The main force of United States Seventh Fleet came from afar, and the first batch of nearly 4,000 U.S. Marines landed in southern Taiwan. The naval vessels of United States Sixth Fleet, located in the Middle East region, also sailed toward the Taiwan Strait. Within less than ten days, the small Taiwan Strait was filled with various modern warships, including aircraft carriers, heavy cruisers, and destroyers, while aircraft from The 96th Aero Squadron and The 1st Marine Aircraft Wing hovered in the sky. The Taiwan Strait became a highly watched battlefield.
+舅舅部队在这时接到了上岛命令。
+At this time, Uncle's unit received the order to go to the island.
+那不过是小金门的ー个岛屿,上司规定,要派员先行侦察,然后根据侦察结果 部署作战计划。
+It was just a small island in Lesser Kinmen Island. The superiors stipulated that personnel should be sent for reconnaissance first, and then operational plans should be deployed based on the reconnaissance results.
+命令一下达,没有打过仗的士兵便人人自危。ー个说法不胫而走:解放军海陆 空拉好了一张网,谁上金门谁个是死!
+Once the order was issued, soldiers who had never been in battle felt anxious. A saying went viral: the Communist People's Liberation Army had set up a net on land, sea, and air, and whoever went to Kinmen was as good as dead!
+与舅舅相熟的人央求:“洪洲,不要派俺啊。”
+People familiar with Uncle pleaded, "Hongzhou, don't send me."
+与舅舅不熟的人央求:“长官,我还小,俺娘等俺养老啊。”
+People unfamiliar with Uncle also pleaded, "Commander, I'm still young, my mother is waiting for me to support her in her old age."
+舅舅担任分队地面指挥,原本不执行具体任务,然而他禁不起年轻部下的央 告,竟身先士卒地跨上了战车。按规定,四人ー车,也就是说,还有三个士兵应该与 他同车。
+Uncle was assigned as the ground commander but wasn't supposed to carry out specific tasks. However, he couldn't resist the pleading of his young subordinates and ended up being the first to board the vehicle . According to the regulations, there should be four soldiers in one vehicle , which meant three more soldiers should have joined him.
+“老吴厂”舅舅大手ー摆,招呼战友;
+“Wu”, Uncle, with his broad gestures, beckoned to his comrades,
+“他们小,咱俩去执行任务,两人ー车”
+" They are too young. Let's go on the mission together, just the two of us in one vehicle ."
+老吴磨磨蹭蹭,不情愿地钻进车,发动机轰响起来。舅舅挂上挡,ー脚踩下油门,老吴嘶叫起来:“洪洲,娘就俺ー个儿呀”
+Reluctantly, Wu climbed into the vehicle , the engine roared to life. Uncle shifted into gear and pressed the accelerator, and Wu shouted, "Hongzhou, my mother is relying on me alone!"
+Old Wu shouted, "Hongzhou, my mother is relying on me alone!"
+舅舅立马踩住刹车,痛痛快快地说:“好,你下车,我自己去!”
+Uncle immediately stepped on the brakes and calmly said, "Alright, you get off, I'll go alone."
+他的平静与宽容,令老吴和所有的士兵吃惊。
+His calmness and tolerance surprised Wu and all the soldiers.
+老吴下车后,跺着脚对跑远的战车喊:“洪洲,你回不来,俺为你娘送终”
+After Wu got off the vehicle , he stomped his feet and shouted to the retreating vehicle , "Hongzhou, if you don't come back, I'll take care of your mother!"
+那是一次凶吉难测的侦察。舅舅开着美制两栖突击战车,轰隆隆地下海,又轰 隆隆地爬坡登陆。28岁的舅舅也许并不知道打什么仗,也并不愿意伤害谁或被谁 伤害,可是当没有人情愿执行任务的时候,血气方刚的他宁愿代替兄弟们上阵。
+That was a reconnaissance mission full of uncertainties. Uncle drove an American-made Assault Amphibious Vehicle (AAV), roaring and plunging into the sea, and then rumbling up the slopes to land. At the age of 28, Uncle perhaps didn't know what kind of battle he was about to face, nor did he want to harm anyone or be harmed. But when no one was willing to carry out the mission, his youthful ardor led him to take the place of his brothers in battle.
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+天上盘旋着低空搜索的共产党飞机,车旁穿梭着炸开花的弹皮。海涛阵阵,硝 烟茫茫。ー个小时,两个小时,三个小时……在每一分每一秒都存在死亡威胁的恐 怖时刻,舅舅的水陆战车跑遍了小岛的每一个角落。
+ Communist aircraft hovered low in the sky, and shells exploded around the vehicle, creating bursts of smoke. The sound of the waves and the vast expanse of gunpowder filled the air. For one hour, two hours, three hours... in every minute and every second of terrifying moments with the constant threat of death, Uncle's amphibious vehicle traversed every corner of the small island.
+“报告,”舅舅用无线电喊话,“岛上空无一人,报告完毕「’
+“Report,”Uncle radioed, "There is no one on the island, report completed."
+“很好,返航!”对讲机那头喊。
+"Very well, return!" came the response from the other end of the intercom.
+我们不知道舅舅是不是愿意返航,反正,当金门之战后的第四年,也就是1962 年,蒋介石计划反攻大陆,拟派海军陆战队从青岛登陆,舅舅第一个报了名。他的 想法很单纯:山东紧挨河南,从青岛登陆就跑回河南老家,谁给他蒋军卖命!当然, 由于蒋介石取消了登陆计划,舅舅也就放弃了自己逃跑回家的梦想。
+We didn't know if Uncle was willing to return or not. In any case, in the fourth year after the Battle of Kinmen, which was in 1962, Chiang Kai-shek planned a counterattack on the mainland and intended to send the Marine Corps to land in Qingdao. Uncle was the first to sign up. His idea was simple: Shandong Province is adjacent to Henan Province, so he would land in Qingdao and then run back to his hometown in Henan. Who asked him to devote himself to the Jiang's army! However, since Chiang Kai-shek canceled the landing plan, Uncle also gave up his dream of escaping and returning home.
+接下来的事,使舅舅兴奋了许多年。
+What happened next excited Uncle for many years.
+孤胆作战的舅舅,受到了嘉奖。颁奖会上,39岁的国民党第九师师长郝柏村向他走来。
+Uncle, who fought alone, received commendation. At the awards ceremony, General Hau Pei-tsun, the 39-year-old commander of the Kuomintang's 9th Division,
+approached him.
+郝柏村是蒋军中最年轻的将军。这位黄埔军校第12期毕业生,1956年初就担 任金门防卫司令部的炮兵指挥官,睿智过人,他上任后就推倒金门炮兵阵地上的全 部沙包掩体,建立了永久性的钢筋水泥掩体,因此,当解放军的密集炮火摧毁了岛 上蒋军几乎全部通讯系统时,唯独郝柏村的师部通讯还一直与“总统”办公室保持 着联系。
+Hau Pei-tsun was the youngest general in the National Army. He was a graduate of the Whampoa Military Academy's 12th class and had assumed command of the Kinmen Defense Headquarters' artillery unit in early 1956. He was remarkably wise. Upon taking office, he demolished all the sandbag bunkers on the artillery positions of Kinmen and built permanent reinforced concrete shelters. Therefore, when the intensive artillery fire from the Communist People's Liberation Army destroyed almost all of the communication systems on the island, only Hao Bocun's division headquarters remained in contact with the "President's" office.
+据统计,郝柏村当时驻守的小金门承受了解放军发射炮弹总数的近一半,有 578人阵亡。在ー次视察途中,郝柏村刚离开厕所,一发炮弹便轰然炸掉了厕所的 左角。这个长着浓眉的郝柏村,简直就是蒋军中的传奇人物。
+According to statistics, the Lesser Kinmen Island., where Hau Pei-tsun was stationed, endured nearly half of the total number of shells fired by the Communist People's Liberation Army, with 578 soldiers killed. During one of his inspections, just after Hau Pei-tsun left the restroom, a shell hit and blew up the left corner of the restroom. This thick-browed Hau Pei-tsun was truly a legendary figure in the National Army.
+岁的将军把金灿灿的绶带披在28岁的舅舅肩头上,他大概是舅舅一生中接 触过的最高级别长官。最让舅舅不能忘记的是下面的场景,郝师长使劲摇着舅舅 的手激动地说:“洪洲啊,你是我们大家的榜样!”
+The 39-year-old general draped the golden ribbon over the shoulders of the 28-year-old Uncle. He was probably the highest-ranking officer Uncle had ever come into contact with. The scene that Uncle could never forget was when General Hao grasped his hand tightly and said excitedly, "Hongzhou, you are an example for all of us!"
+气壮山河的呼声,长久不息的掌声,全场有节奏的“洪洲一洪洲一”的呐 喊声,无疑是舅舅此生获得的最高赞誉。所有人都看到,冷面的舅舅,绽开了一脸 灿烂的猩红。
+The resounding cheers, the prolonged applause, and the rhythmic shouts of "Hongzhou, Hongzhou" throughout the venue undoubtedly constituted the highest praise Uncle received in his lifetime. Everyone could see that the usually stern Uncle had a bright, radiant smile on his face.
+年后,金门之战渐渐演变成了象征性战役。中共中央、中央军委规定,逢 年过节停炮三天;再往后,一般炮弹只装宣传品,打炮就变成了政治攻势。这样的 “炮战”,从1958年秋冬延续到1979年元旦,整整打了 20年。舅舅早就不闻不问, 也早就不提当年之勇了。
+After 1958, the Battle of Kinmen gradually evolved into a symbolic campaign. The Central Committee of the Chinese Communist Party and the Central Military Commission stipulated a three-day ceasefire during holidays and festivals. Later on, ordinary shells were filled with propaganda materials, and the artillery fire turned into a political offensive. This kind of "artillery battle" lasted for 20 years, from the autumn and winter of 1958 to New Year's Day in 1979. Uncle had long ceased to pay attention and no longer mentioned his past valor.
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+第五章舅舅的婚姻
+Chapter 5: Uncle's Marriage
+年4月,舅舅第六次进北京。
+In April 1995, Uncle went to Beijing for the sixth time.
+他明显衰老了,进家一会儿,就歪躺在床上。
+He's visibly aged and would lie down on the bed shortly after entering the house.
+我守在舅舅身边,劝他长留北京,或是购置ー套房子,娶个老伴;或是搬进我和
+泰来的家,安度晚年。
+I stayed by Uncle's side, persuading him to settle in Beijing and buy a house, and find a companion for his old age. Alternatively, I suggested he move into my and Tailai's home to spend his twilight years.
+“我何尝不想有个家?”舅舅坐起身,叹ロ气,“小冬啊,我也本是有过家眷 的人!”
+"I do want to have a home," Uncle said, sitting up and sighing. "Xiaodong, I was once married!"
+我不相信。与舅舅办公证时,我无数次阅读过他的户籍,那上面明明填写的是 “未婚”。他是在何时、何地有过家眷,能在何时、何地有过家眷呢?
+I didn't believe him. When we applied for his ID card, I had read his household registration countless times, and it clearly stated "unmarried." When and where did he have a family and how ?
+舅舅赶紧说:“小冬,你别用这样的眼神看我。这件事在我心里存了太久,我本 来想烂在肚里的。”
+Uncle quickly said, "Xiaodong, don't look at me with that kind of expression. This matter has been weighing on my heart for too long. I originally wanted to keep it to myself."
+我不吭声,舅舅这人独处惯了,心里搁得住事,他不想告诉人的,你再问也 没用。
+I remained silent. Uncle was accustomed to solitude, capable of keeping all the things to himself. If he didn't want to tell anyone, no amount of questioning would yield an answer.
+我把茶杯捧给舅舅,他开始述说了。一段陈年往事,随着茶水飘出的雾气,徐 徐铺展开来。
+I handed Uncle a cup of tea, and he began to speak. A long-forgotten story unfolded slowly with the mist from the tea.
+读者朋友,我想您听完,可能会和我ー样感慨,舅舅的这段经历,简直就像个民 间故事。
+Dear reader, I believe that after listening, you may feel the same as me. Uncle's experience is like a folk tale.
+江西妹俚A Jiangxi woman
+这件事,发生在舅舅被抓壮丁后不久,1948年的冬季。
+This incident occurred shortly after Uncle was conscripted in the winter of 1948.
+舅舅换上军装,随部队往南开,一天一天地行军,走到江西收了脚。舅舅当然 不知道蒋介石登陆台湾之前背水ー战的攻略,还奇怪队伍怎么会在江西安营扎寨, 让他们过上了农家生活。
+Uncle changed into his military uniform and marched south with the troops. Day after day, they stopped until they reached Jiangxi. Uncle had no knowledge of Chiang Kai-shek's strategy of fighting to the death before retreating to Taiwan. He found it strange that why the troops would set up camp in Jiangxi, allowing them to experience life in rural areas.
+舅舅出身农民,进小村如鱼得水,每日抡镐挥锹、担水劈柴,毫不惜カ。身边几 个没出过村的河南小兵都听舅舅的话,指望舅舅能带他们回家。
+Coming from a peasant background, Uncle adapted easily to the village life, wielding a hoe and shovel, carrying water and chopping firewood without hesitation. The few young soldiers from Henan who had never left their village followed Uncle's lead, hoping he could bring them back home.
+那是个偶然,排长发现了舅舅的鼓动能量,命他做了班长。于是,就在江西ー 个偏僻的小村庄里,舅舅成为村民们热议的人物。
+It was a coincidence that the platoon leader noticed Uncle's leadership qualities and appointed him as a squad leader. Thus, in a remote village in Jiangxi, Uncle became a person of great interest among the villagers.
+紧跟着,美事从天降。
+Soon after, a stroke of luck came his way.
+房东大妈对舅舅说:“班长呀,你多大?”舅舅正要担水,停下脚步说:“周岁18 咧,大妈。”房东拉住舅舅的扁担,扯他进场屋,郑重地说:“我看你是个下カ气做活 的人,我家妹俚20岁,许给你愿意不?”舅舅憋红了脸,抓住扁担要走。房东说:“上 面长官管不到你的,不说谁晓得?往后她就是你的人,随你到哪里去。”
+The landlady asked Uncle, "Squad leader, how old are you?" Uncle, about to fetch water, stopped and said, "I just turned 18, aunty." The landlady grabbed hold of Uncle's shoulder pole and pulled him into her courtyard. She said solemnly, "I can see that you're a capable and hardworking person. My younger sister, is 20 years old. Would you like to marry her?" Uncle blushed, held onto his shoulder pole and tried to leave. The landlady said, "Your superiors won't have any say in this. Who would know if we didn't tell them? From now on, she will be yours, and you can take her wherever you go."
+妹俚在里屋嗡嗡地织布,麻麻利利,织出的布泻到了地上。妹俚一定是听见了,织布机突然没了声响。
+The girl was humming as she wove cloth in the inner room, working diligently and skillfully. She must have heard the conversation, for the sound of the weaving machine suddenly ceased.
+妹俚结结实实,人好手巧,咋能让她失望呢?
+The girl was kind and dexterous, and how could Uncle let her down?
+舅舅的血ー热,忘记了我姥姥。他吐出了一个字:“中。”
+Uncle's blood boiled, and forgot about my grandmother. He uttered a single word, "Okay,I will marry her."
+就这样,没有法律文书认定,只有月亮做证的是,我们这一代有了个舅妈。咱们假定舅妈叫崔氏,在村庄由班长说了算的小天下,舅舅不请示,不汇报,与崔氏过上了新婚日子。他差不多忘记了自己是一个兵,也忘记了带弟兄们回家的承诺。
+That's how it happened. Without any legal documents and with only the moon as a witness, we had an aunt. Let's call her Cui. In this small village where the squad leader's word was law, Uncle didn't seek permission from or report to anyone and started a new life with Cui. He almost forgot that he was a soldier and the promise he made to bring his comrades home.
+天暖了,舅舅赶着拉犁的牛下田,崔氏在田壇上跟着走。舅舅说:“恁和我,就 是牛郎织女。”崔氏崇拜地望着舅舅:“你晓得的蛮多嘲。”舅舅大笑:“我娘会讲好 多故事,会唱好多戏文哩!”
+As the weather warmed up, Uncle plowed the fields with the oxen, and Cui followed along in the field. Uncle said, "We are like the Cowherd and Weaver Girl." Cui looked at Uncle with admiration and said, "You are knowledgeable ." Uncle laughed, "My mother used to tell me many stories and she can sing many drama text."
+村庄里有条沿河的沟,长了满满ー沟绿野菜,舅舅查岗回来,就与崔氏一起给猪挖野菜。崔氏说:“卖了猪,有了盘缠,我跟你回家看娘。”舅舅就拉住她的手,指 着延伸进荒野的黄褐色土路说:“就从这儿往北走,恁记住,是河南。”
+There was a ditch along the river in the village, filled with wild green vegetables. After patrolling, Uncle and Cui would gather the vegetables for the pigs. Cui said, "Once the pigs grow up and sold out. We will have some money, I'll go with you to visit your mother." Uncle held her hand and pointed to the dusty road extending into the wilderness, saying, "We'll head north from here, remember, it's Henan."
+崔氏是个贤惠女人,没出过村庄,踏踏实实持家,一心一意跟定了自己的男人。 每当黄昏时分,舅舅就帮她挑好水,烧上几把柴,不等饭熟,就去兵营吃饭了。崔氏 不知道,就是那座简陋的茅草房,成为舅舅生平唯一的小家;她给予的温暖,也是舅 舅这一生中难得的情爱。
+Cui was a virtuous woman who had never left the village. She managed the household well and devoted herself wholeheartedly to her husband. Every evening, when dusk approached, Uncle would help her fetch water and gather firewood, but he would leave and eat at the barracks before the meal was done. Cui didn't know that their modest thatched cottage had become Uncle's only home in his entire life. The warmth she provided was also a rare affection in Uncle's life.
+可惜,日子仅仅过了两个月,猪儿长得正壮实,队伍就开拔了。
+Unfortunately, their time together lasted only two months, just as the pigs were growing strong and sturdy, the unit was ordered to move out.
+舅舅记起了自己是ー个兵。他对泪水涟涟的崔氏说:“我要是回来,ー准接你, 咱们去找我娘,往后和娘过日子;要是2年没音讯,你就改嫁。”
+Uncle remembered that he was a soldier. He said to tearful Cui, "If I come back, I will definitely come for you. We'll go find my mother and live with her. But if you don't hear from me for two years, then you should remarry."
+崔氏顺着长满野菜的绿沟跑,踩塌了一沟野菜;之后又跳上延伸进荒野的黄褐色土路,如果队伍往北开,她就跟着走。可队伍朝南开了,崔氏一屁股坐在路边大 哭起来。
+Cui ran alongside the ditch filled with wild vegetables, trampling over them. Then she jumped onto the dusty road extending into the wilderness. If the unit headed north, she would follow. But the unit went south, and Cui sat down on the roadside and burst into tears.
+从此,这个队伍再没有给过舅舅一方像江西村庄那样的自由天地,他也就永远 失去了逃离队伍的可能。
+From then on, this unit never gave the same freedom that Uncle had experience in the village of Jiangxi. He had lost the possibility of escaping from the unit forever.
+从此,那ー沟绿野菜,那沿沟奔跑的自己的女人,幻化成了硕大的影像,在舅舅 脑海中闪回了一辈子。
+And that ditch filled with green vegetables, that woman who ran along the ditch, transformed into a vivid image that haunted Uncle's mind throughout his life.
+舅舅喝着茶,不再说话。
+Uncle drank his tea and fell silent.
+我脑海里一直晃动着那个沿沟追跑的年轻女子形象。有谁知道,这女子是多 么悲哀、多么绝望?她等待了多少年?吃了多少苦?算起来,现在舅舅65岁,崔氏 应该是67岁,正常的话她当健在。我就对舅舅说:“有没有地址?我陪您去江西走 ー趟!”
+In my mind, the image of the young woman chasing after him along the ditch kept swirling. Who knew how sad and desperate she was? How many years has she waited? How much hardship has she endured? Considering that Uncle is now 65 years old, Cui should be around 67 if she is still alive. So I said to Uncle, "Do you have an address? I'll accompany you on a trip to Jiangxi!"
+舅舅染过的头发有序地分在两边,微微晃动:“十多年前,我就给这个小村写过 信,人家没有回音,怕是改嫁了,咱对不起人,不能再打扰了。”
+Uncle's dyed hair was neatly parted on both sides and swayed slightly. He said, "Over ten years ago, I wrote a letter to this small village, but there was no response. Perhaps she has remarried. I have already caused enough trouble, and I shouldn't disturb her anymore."
+我知道,蒋介石政权逃台初期,为反攻大陆,下达了禁婚令,禁止所有赴台军人 结婚;违者,军法处置。
+I know that during the early period of Chiang Kai-shek's regime's escape to Taiwan, a marriage ban was imposed to prevent all soldiers going to Taiwan from getting married. Violators would face death penalty.
+就这样,无数赴台军人沸腾的情爱、宝贵的青春年华,都被葬送进冷冰冰的反 人性的禁婚令里。数万万老兵被抓时孑然ー身,返乡时依旧孤影相伴。我的叔叔, 一位卓尔不群的国军文员,在禁婚令废止后,只好与一位自己不喜欢的女子结婚, 抑郁追随了他终生。
+In this way, countless soldiers' passionate love and precious youth were buried in the cold and inhumane marriage ban. Tens of millions of veterans were left alone when they were captured and remained solitary when they returned home. My uncle, an outstanding soldier of the National Army, had no choice but to marry a woman he didn't like after the marriage ban was lifted. He lived his life in depression.
+我想探究到舅舅的心底,就问:“舅啊,您在台湾过了大半辈子,就没遇见ー个 可心女子?”
+I wanted to delve into my uncle's innermost feelings, so I asked, "Uncle, didn't you meet a woman you liked during your time in Taiwan for more than half a lifetime?"
+舅舅的话又让我吃惊了,他说:“怎么没有?我还有儿子呢。”
+Once again, my uncle's words surprised me. He said, "How could I not? I even have a son."
+唉唉唉,你这个舅舅啊,到底藏掖着多少我不知道的事!
+Oh, Uncle, how many things are you hiding from me?
+“都是陈芝麻烂谷子的事了,”舅舅说,“哪里想瞒你!”
+"It's all trivial matters of the past," my uncle said, "I didn't intend to hide them from you!"
+我续了水,茶水飘出的雾气重新弥漫开来。往事一定触动了舅舅的伤处,他用 大手捧着茶杯,讲得很慢,语调里掺着凄凉。
+I refilled the water, and the mist from the tea began to diffuse again. The past must have touched a sore spot in my uncle's heart. He held the teacup in his large hands and spoke slowly, his tone filled with sorrow.
+读者朋友,下面的事情,就像一部出乎人们意料的悲剧作品情节。
+Dear readers, the events that follow are like unexpected tragic plot twists in a play.
+台北之恋
+Love in Taipei
+舅舅是个不畏惧军法军规的人,当他意识到已经没有可能再与崔氏团聚时,正 好遇到一位姑娘。
+My uncle was a man who had no fear of military law and regulations. When he realized that it was no longer possible to reunite with Mrs. Cui, he happened to meet a young lady.
+姑娘是居住在眷村的大陆女子。舅舅没有说她的姓名,我们姑且称她为郑小 姐。郑小姐是护士,干干净净,犹如天使一般圣洁。他们可能在谁家初遇,也可能 被谁介绍相识,这些都不知道,知道的是他们经历了花前月下的盟誓,度过了海边 肌肤相亲的夜晚,他们焕发出了年轻人轰轰烈烈的激情,决心永生永世不分离〇
+The young lady was a woman from Chinese mainland living in the military dependents' village. My uncle didn't mention her name, so let's call her Miss Zheng for now. Miss Zheng was a nurse, pure and clean, as if she were a holy angel. They might have met at someone's house or been introduced by someone; it's unknown. What we know is that they experienced a passionate courtship under the moonlight, spent nights by the sea intimately, and they radiated the fiery passion of young people, vowing never to be separated for eternity.
+如果就这样悄悄幽会,如果就这样组织ー个地下家庭,他们说不定能够坚守到 废止禁婚令的一天,那时将这份纯洁的爱情告白于天下,他们就成为世界上最幸福 的伉俪。
+If they quietly continued their secret rendezvous and formed an underground family, their love might be gone public when the marriage ban was lifted. At that time, they could have proudly proclaimed their pure love to the world and become the happiest couple in the world.
+可是,有一天事情急剧地朝反方向逆转。
+However, one day things took a sharp turn in the opposite direction.
+那是ー个没有月亮的夜晚。他们原约定晚上7点见面,这时舅舅接到了公务, 原本应该辞掉约会,可他辞掉了公务。他站立在街头的屋檐下等候。
+It was a moonless night. They had agreed to meet at 7 o'clock in the evening, but my uncle received official duties and should have canceled the appointment. However, he canceled his official duties instead and stood waiting under the eaves of a street.
+点,8点,9点……舅舅的脚麻木了,腿麻木了。军人不喜欢坐,他是个固执 的人,郑小姐不来,他就会永远站下去。
+o'clock, 8 o'clock, 9 o'clock... My uncle's feet and legs grew numb. Soldiers don't like to sit; he was a stubborn man. If Miss Zheng didn't come, he would stand there forever.
+第二天凌晨3点,郑小姐到了。
+At 3 o'clock in the morning of the next day, Miss Zheng arrived.
+舅舅等待她开腔,或是解释,或是抱歉,不管说什么,舅舅都希望郑小姐说点什 么。可是,没有,郑小姐什么都没说。
+My uncle waited for her to speak, to explain or apologize, no matter what she said, he just hoped she would say something. But she didn't say anything, not a word.
+军人胸腔里的怨火倏地蹿出来,他伸出大大的巴掌扇过去。
+The resentment in the soldier's chest burst out, and he slapped her with his big hand.
+郑小姐的眼泪涌出来,她猛转身,怀着愤怒疾步去了。
+Tears welled up in Miss Zheng's eyes. She turned around abruptly and left angrily.
+没有人举报舅舅。所有战友都想修复这场历时不足1年的恋情。人们说解铃 还须系铃人,唯有舅舅道歉才能挽回爱情。人们说舅舅脾气太大应该好好改ー改, 可舅舅说她小郑心里有我自然回来,没我不回来也不可惜!
+No one reported my uncle. All his comrades wanted to mend this relationship that had lasted less than a year. They said the one who started it should be the one to end it, and only by apologizing could my uncle salvage the love. They said my uncle had a bad temper and should change for the better. However, my uncle said, "If Zheng Xiaozheng still loves me, she'll naturally come back. If she doesn't come back, it's not a loss!"
+不知道郑小姐心里有没有舅舅,也不知道那晚她迟到的原因,反正,郑小姐没 有回来。
+It was unknown if Miss Zheng still loved my uncle or the reason for her lateness that night. Anyway, Miss Zheng did not come back.
+几个月后,舅舅的战友老张带来的消息令所有人大吃ー惊:郑小姐生下了舅舅 的儿子。
+A few months later, everyone was shocked by the news brought by my uncle's comrade, Lao Zhang: Miss Zheng had given birth to my uncle's son.
+舅舅捶胸顿足,才知道郑小姐那晚迟到的原因可能与怀孕相关。
+My uncle beat his breast, realizing that the reason for Miss Zheng's lateness that night might be related to her pregnancy.
+可是,心寒彻骨的郑小姐没有留给舅舅认错的机会。舅舅的战友老张说,郑小 姐患了精神病,住进医院,只能将儿子送还给舅舅。
+However, the heart-chilling Miss Zheng did not give my uncle a chance to apologize. Lao Zhang, my uncle's comrade, said that Miss Zheng had developed a mental illness and was admitted to a hospital. They could only send the son back to my uncle.
+不管舅舅多么渴望以自己的儿子为中原父母续上香火,不管舅舅多么憎恶束 缚人性的军法,他都清楚自己的处境。为军规,他无法收留儿子;为儿子,他不能让 孩子蒙羞成长。唯一的办法,是将儿子暂时留在有妻有女的战友老张家里。
+No matter how much my uncle longed to continue his family line with his own son, no matter how much he detested the binding military law, he understood his predicament. Due to the regulations, he couldn't take in his son; for his son's sake, he couldn't let the child grow up in shame. The only solution was to temporarily leave his son in the care of his comrade Lao Zhang, who had a wife and daughter.
+就这样,儿子随了张姓,为不忘家乡,起名张中原。
+That's how his son became part of the Zhang family, taking the surname Zhang. And in order to remember his hometown, they named him Zhang Zhongyuan.
+张中原一天一天长大,他知道洪洲叔叔与父亲亲密无间,知道洪洲叔叔总是给 他钱花,不知道洪洲叔叔每月向父亲提供着他的全部生活开销,也不知道他的生母 长年住在医院里。
+Zhang Zhongyuan grew up day by day. He knew that Uncle Hongzhou and his father were close , and Uncle Hongzhou always gave him pocket money. However, he didn't know that Uncle Hongzhou provided his father with all his living expenses every month, nor did he know that his biological mother lived in the hospital all year round.
+张中原长成了壮小伙。老张无数次地说:“洪洲,告诉孩子实情吧。”可舅舅 说:“老张,再等等吧,你付出的心血太多,那样对你不公平啊「’
+As time went by, Zhang Zhongyuan grew into a strong young man. Lao Zhang had said countless times, "Hongzhou, tell the child the truth." But my uncle said, "Zhang, let's wait a little longer. You've put in so much effort; it wouldn't be fair to you."
+张中原到了娶妻的年龄,舅舅花钱筹办了婚事;张中原到了生子的年龄,生了 两个女儿--张台凤、张台凰,舅舅倾其所有。应该说,除了没有名分,舅舅也算儿 孙满堂了。
+When Zhang Zhongyuan reached the age to marry, my uncle spent money to arrange the wedding. When he reached the age to have children, he had two daughters—Zhang Taifeng and Zhang Taihuang. My uncle gave everything he had for his son's family. It could be said that apart from the lack of official recognition, my uncle had a houseful of children and grandchildren.
+张中原有一份稳定的收入,每日骑着摩托车去公司上班,舅舅看着高兴。
+Zhang Zhongyuan had a stable income. He commuted to work on a motorcycle every day, which made my uncle happy.
+日子就这样一天一天地过,没有大惊大喜,也没有大悲大怨。平安是福,舅舅 这样说。
+Days passed by peacefully, without great joy or sorrow. "Peace is a blessing," my uncle would say.
+可是,有一天,不平安了。
+But one day, peace was shattered
+报信人说,32岁的张中原在台北出了车祸,当街身亡。
+The messenger said that 32-year-old Zhang Zhongyuan had been killed in a car accident in Taipei, right on the street.
+梦想,又一次被轰毁。
+Dreams were once again shattered.
+舅舅觉得天塌下来了。他闭住眼睛,泪水横流,恨不得死在当街上的是自己。
+My uncle felt like the sky was falling. He closed his eyes, tears streaming down his face, wishing that it was himself lying dead on the street.
+孙女台凤、台凰的母亲,就是舅舅的亲儿媳,决定改嫁,后来偕二女嫁到了另ー 座城市。自此,舅舅已经没有太多理由去看望自己的骨血。他偶尔带上ー笔钱看 望孙女,倒使儿媳妇吃惊。就这样,舅舅与她们越来越少走动,更无法亲ロ言说事 情真相。到老张去世后,已经无人为整个事情正名。
+The mother of his granddaughters, Taifeng and Taihuang, who was also his own daughter-in-law, decided to remarry and eventually moved to another city with their two daughters. Since then, my uncle had fewer reasons to visit his own flesh and blood. He would occasionally bring some money to see his granddaughters, much to the surprise of his daughter-in-law. As a result, my uncle interacted less and less with them and couldn't even speak the truth about the situation. After Zhang's death, there was no one left to set the record straight for the whole situation.
+他只剩下了自己。
+He was alone.
+幼年失去父母,中年失去妻子,晚年失去儿子。
+He lost his parents in his youth, his wife in middle age, and his son in old age.
+人生的几股飓风刮过去了,风过无痕。
+The hurricanes of life had swept past, leaving no trace behind.
+公安局的罚款
+The fine from the Public Security Bureau
+其实,我们说服舅舅居京的工作已经进行好几年了,舅舅就是担心时局有变, 不敢住在北京。却不过我们的盛情,这次进京,他ーロ就答应了。
+In fact, we had been persuading my uncle to take a job in Beijing for several years. He was concerned about the changing political situation and was afraid to live in Beijing. But despite our insistence, he finally agreed this time to come to Beijing.
+到京两天后,舅舅感到体力恢复了些,爸爸陪着他去派出所报户ロ。
+Two days after arriving in Beijing, my uncle felt his strength returning. My father accompanied him to the local police station to register his residence.
+舅舅的腰板又挺起来了,用木梳将头发有序地分在两边,不知道他是不是想以 那种训练有素的老兵形象进出共产党的派出所,反正他的神态很好。
+My uncle straightened his back, used a wooden comb to neatly part his hair on both sides. I don't know if he intended to present himself as a disciplined old soldier when entering and leaving the Communist Party's police station. He appeared in good spirits.
+我们完全没想到,ー个意外的变故中止了本可能实现的计划。
+We never expected that an unexpected incident would disrupt the plans that could have been realized.
+户籍科的年轻民警看看机票说:“先生,您超过了 24小时,按规定得去局里报 户口。”
+The young police officer from the household registration department looked at the plane ticket and said, "Sir, you have exceeded the 24-hour limit. According to regulations, you need to report to the local bureau."
+年迈的爸爸陪着有病的舅舅叫了出租车,去局里报户口。没有人告诉他们详 细地址,两位老人找啊找,找了两个小时。路上,舅舅就感到心绞痛,含了硝酸 甘油。
+My elderly father accompanied my sick uncle and hailed a taxi to go to the local bureau to report the residence. No one told them the detailed address, and the two elderly people searched and searched for two hours. Along the way, my uncle felt angina and took a nitroglycerin tablet.
+区公安分局户籍科的民警很和气,但也很坚决:按规定,罚款500元人民币。
+The police officer from the household registration department in the district was friendly but firm: according to regulations, there was a fine of 500 yuan.
+舅舅的脾气上来了 : “我要不报户ロ呢?”
+My uncle's temper flared up, "What if I don't report my residence?"
+民警依然和气而坚决:“您自己负责后果。”
+The police officer remained friendly yet resolute, "You will be responsible for the consequences."
+罚款交了,临时户口报上了,而舅舅也躺在床上了。
+The fine was paid, and the temporary residence was reported, but my uncle was also lying in bed.
+晚上,他单方面推翻了集体确认的家庭结论,一句话甩出来:“我是外乡人,绝 不把家安在北京!”
+That night, he unilaterally overturned the collective consensus on the family's decision and blurted out, "I am an outsider, I will never settle my family in Beijing!"
+这句话算是板上钉钉,到死他都没有更改。
+This statement was final, and he never changed it until his death.
+我说:“舅舅,派出所罚款,事出有因,我有责任,应当在24小时之内去派出所说明,但这是个偶然,它与您定居北京没有必然关系。”
+I said, "Uncle, the fine from the police station has a reason, and I should take the responsibility. I should have gone to the police station to explain within 24 hours, but it's just an accident. It doesn't necessarily mean you can't settle in Beijing."
+这话讲出来,我都觉得太原则,硬邦邦的,好像是在念文件。舅舅ー摆手,根本 不想听。
+When I said these words, I felt that they were too principled and rigid, as if I was reading from a document. My uncle waved his hand, not wanting to listen at all.
+我换个角度说服他:“您是大陆人,叶落归根总要回乡啊。”
+I tried to persuade him from a different angle, "You are a mainland Chinese, and as the saying goes, fallen leaves return to their roots. You should come back to your hometown."
+舅舅纠正我:“大陆、台湾都是中国的,台湾也是我的家。”
+My uncle corrected me, "Both Chinese mainland and Chinese Taiwan are part of China, and Taiwan is also my home."
+这是我第一次知道舅舅的观点,他反对“台独”。
+It was the first time I learned about my uncle's viewpoint. He was against "Taiwan independence".
+我挨着舅舅坐下来,轻声问:“您真的不想回大陆吗?”
+" I sat down next to him and asked softly, "Do you really not want to go back to Chinese mainland?"
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+舅舅好久オ说:“哪里是我不想……”
+My uncle took a long time to speak, "It's not that I don't want to..."
+两行浑浊的泪水从他紧闭的眼窝中流淌下来了,他的声音充满了委屈:“是人 家不要我啊。”
+Two muddy tears flowed from his tightly closed eye sockets, and his voice was filled with grievances, "It's that people don't want me."
+年1月,舅舅大病初愈,第七次来北京。
+In January 1999, my uncle came to Beijing for the seventh time after recovering from a serious illness.
+我从舅舅脸上读出了岁月的沧桑,他的背微驼,已经不再拥有军人挺拔的形 体。但是,我知道,他心里永远有一股坚韧的精神。
+I could see the traces of time on my uncle's face, his back slightly hunched, no longer possessing the upright posture of a soldier. However, I knew that he always had a resilient spirit in his heart.
+果然,舅舅说:“明年咱俩去贵州,看望你二姥姥。”
+Sure enough, my uncle said, "Next year, let's go to Guizhou to visit Lao Er."
+我说:“您还想为我姥爷迁墓啊?”
+I said, "Do you still want to relocate my grandfather's grave?"
+舅舅用手撑着沙发扶手,慢慢坐下来:“看天意吧。”
+My uncle supported himself on the armrest of the sofa and slowly sat down, saying, "Let's see what fate has in store."
+我一口答应去贵州。当时我没有料到,老天可能不会恩赐给我们这个机会。
+I readily agreed to go to Guizhou. At that time, I didn't anticipate that fate might not grant us this opportunity.
+舅舅摆手时,我见他的手指空空的,就问:“舅,您的戒指咋没了?”
+When my uncle waved his hand, I noticed that his finger was empty, so I asked, "Uncle, where is your ring?"
+舅舅手上的戒指老是被人要走。我曾经为他购买过ー块上好的玉,舅舅回台 北到金店打了一个金配玉的大戒指,戴了 2年就没了。
+My uncle's ring was always being taken away by someone. I had once bought him a good piece of jade, and my uncle had it made into a large ring in a gold shop in Taipei. However, it was lost after wearing it for two years.
+舅舅说:“让台湾工厂里的小女工抓跑了。”
+My uncle said, "One of the young female workers in the Taiwanese factory took it."
+我埋怨他:“戒指很大呢,小女工要你就给?”
+I complained to him, "The ring is quite big, and you just gave it to a young worker?"
+舅舅一笑:“钱是身外物呀。”
+My uncle laughed, "Money is just an external possession."
+我说:“舅,您下次来,我送您ー块缅甸A翠,咱打ー个更大的戒指,您不能再 送人。”
+I said, "Uncle, next time you come, I'll give you a piece of Burmese jadeite, and we'll make an even bigger ring. You can't give it away anymore."
+舅舅笑得很开心:“一言为定。”
+My uncle laughed happily, "Deal."
+我与舅舅早已经像父女ー样生活,每次他进京,我都会给他准备ー笔零用钱。 舅舅每次委托我兑换的美元,我都坚持在他离境前塞回他的皮箱。
+I have been living with my uncle as if he were my father. Every time he came to Beijing, I would prepare some pocket money for him. Every time my uncle entrusted me to exchange US dollars for him, I insisted on putting them back in his suitcase before he left.
+舅舅临走前委托我给他买些礼物,说是所在工厂里有位常姓女工,在他住院期 间受老板委托负责护理,不怕脏累,极其友好,要买高级狐皮送给常小姐,还要买ー 件上好的皮夹克送给常小姐的先生,常家先生开计程车,用得上。我都照办,到王 府井建华皮货店买了上等皮货。
+Before leaving, my uncle entrusted me to buy some gifts for him. He said there was a female worker surnamed Chang in the factory who had been entrusted by the boss to take care of him during his hospitalization. She wasn't afraid of dirt or tiredness and was extremely friendly. He wanted to buy a high-quality fox fur for Miss Chang and a fine leather jacket for Miss Chang's husband, Mr. Chang. Mr. Chang worked as a taxi driver and could make use of it. I followed his instructions and bought a top-quality leather goods at the Jianhua Leather Shop in Beijing Wangfujing Street .
+那时,我还没有注意这位常姓女工,不知道她已经介入了舅舅的生活。
+At that time, I didn't pay much attention to this Miss Chang and didn't realize that she had already involved in my uncle's life.
+我和哥哥商量,既然无法劝说舅舅居京,就动员他在北京找一位太太,随他去 台湾,帮他料理生活。舅舅考虑了两个月,直到离京オ点头同意。 我与哥哥在婚介所为舅舅填表寻偶,大概想去台湾的人不少,没几个月,女方 填写的约见单就累积了厚厚一摞。我们锁定了一位50岁的护士长,我用挂号信, 将护士长的照片及详细资料寄给了舅舅。
+My brother and I discussed that since we couldn't persuade our uncle to settle in Beijing, we should encourage him to find a wife in Beijing who is willing to accompany him to Taiwan and take care of his daily life. After considering for two months, my uncle finally agreed with a nod. My brother and I filled out a matchmaking form for my uncle at a matchmaking agency. There were quite a few people interested in going to Taiwan, and within a few months, we had accumulated a thick stack of meeting requests filled out by prospective matches. We decided on a 50-year-old head nurse, and I sent her photo and detailed information to my uncle via registered mail.
+一封,没有回信,两封,还是没有回信。
+One letter, no reply. Two letters, still no reply.
+我耐不住,就给舅舅打电话。
+I couldn't wait any longer, so I called my uncle.
+电话是个年轻女人接的,我吓了一跳,赶紧说:“你好,请问你是哪位?”
+A young woman answered the phone, which startled me. I quickly said, "Hello, may I ask who you are?
+对方很警惕:“你是谁?”
+The other person was cautious and asked, "Who is this?"
+我说:“我是北京的,请让我舅舅听电话。”
+I said, "I'm from Beijing. Please let me talk to my uncle."
+对方说:“他不在。”
+"He's not here."
+我说:“请你转告我舅舅..”
+I said, "Please let him know that I called."
+女人已经挂断了电话。
+The woman hung up the phone.
+我暗自思忖:她是谁呢?常小姐吗?可口音是北方人啊。
+I wondered to myself, who was she? Miss Chang? But her accent sounded like someone from northern China.
+晚上,舅舅回电话了。
+In the evening, my uncle called back.
+我问:“舅舅,您收到我的信没有?”
+I asked, "Uncle, did you receive my letters?"
+舅舅很惊讶:“没有啊!”
+My uncle was surprised and said, "No!"
+我说:“是挂号信呀。”
+I said, "They were sent by registered mail."
+舅舅在北京的一次家庭聚会上说过,他有个单独信箱,那信箱里存着他的希 望,他每天都要开锁看信。说完,他还乐呵呵地添了一句:“谁写信多,我回来有奖 励呀。”那时,我们都笑起来了。
+My uncle had mentioned at a family gathering in Beijing that he had a separate mailbox where he kept his hopes, and he would unlock it every day to read the letters. After saying that, he happily added, "I'll have a reward for whoever sends me the most letters when I come back." We all laughed at that time.
+电话那头,舅舅没吭声。
+On the other end of the phone, my uncle remained silent.
+我明白是怎么回事了。怕舅舅为难,我岔开话题:“舅啊,我当教授了,批文下 来啦。”
+I understood what was going on. Afraid of causing difficulties for my uncle, I changed the subject and said, "Uncle, I've become a professor. The approval dcame through."
+这个原来带给过我们无比快乐的话题,此刻如同直落进棉花垛里,没有激起任 何回响。
+This topic that had once brought us immense joy now fell into a pile of cotton, without eliciting any response.
+“舅啊,你有事要告诉我? ”我问。
+"Uncle, is there something you want to tell me?" I asked.
+舅舅果然说了:“今天接你电话的人叫樊月,山东人,她嫁给了我的战友,战友 上个月死了 ,她没地方住,坚持要住在我这里,我怎么撵她她都不走,我又不能推操 拉拽,只好自己搬到外面住。你给我打电话时我就在别人家。”
+As expected, my uncle spoke, "The person who answered your call today is Fan Yue, a woman from Shandong. She married my comrade-in-arms, who passed away last month. She has nowhere to stay and insists on living with me. No matter how I try to drive her away, she won't leave. I can't push or drag her, so I had to move out and find a place to stay. When you called me, I was at someone else's house."
+又停了停,舅舅说:“樊月不走,一定要嫁给我,她从家里追到家外,见人就说我 收了她,很烦人。她比你都小,我怎么能娶她?她成天叨叨的,我不同意不成。”
+He paused for a moment and continued, "Fan Yue won't leave. She insists on marrying me. She followed me from my home to outside, telling everyone that I accepted her. It's annoying. She's younger than you, how can I marry her? She nags all the time, and I can't agree to it."
+我的心倏地沉下,沉到了没有回声的深渊。
+My heart sank abruptly, sinking into an abyss without echoes.
+我只好问:“樊月品行怎么样?”
+I had no choice but to ask, "What is Fan Yue's character like?"
+舅舅:“她对我倒是蛮好的,给我换着花样做饭,把屋子收拾得亮堂堂的。咳, 你不知道我这个屋原来有多乱!她还说要给我养老送终,不嫁我不离开台湾……”
+My uncle replied, "She's pretty good to me, cooks different dishes for me, and keeps the house clean and bright. Oh, you don't know how messy my place was before! She even says she wants to take care of me in my old age. If I don't marry her, she won't leave Taiwan..."
+我的舅舅啊,您那种贯彻终生的成熟的清醒,到哪里去了?
+Oh, my uncle, where has your mature and clear-minded judgment gone?
+我握着话筒,说着自知软弱无力的话:“您可要考虑好呀,舅！”
+I held the phone, uttering words that I knew were weak and powerless, "Uncle, you really need to consider it carefully!"
+舅舅倒是胸有成竹:“你放心好了,按婚姻政策,我得回大陆登记。那时先到北 京,
+让你妈和你看看,你们批准了再结婚,行不?”
+Uncle seemed confident, saying, "Don't worry. According to marriage policies, I have to register in Chinese mainland. I'll go to Beijing first at that time and let your mother and you take a look. If you approve, then we can get married, alright?"
+说到最后,他竟然笑起来。我能想象他眯缝着笑眼的样子。
+At the end, he even laughed. I could imagine his smiling eyes squinting.
+舅舅的心灵是不设防的心灵,他的善良永远如一泓清泉,明澈澈的。
+My uncle's heart was an unguarded one, his kindness forever like a clear spring, transparent and pure
+遗留的事情
+Things after death
+当舅舅从感情上已经接受樊月的时候,我就知道,他涉进了一条不归的河,他 绝没有机会再从河的另ー头返回。可是我无法终止他的行为。
+When my uncle had already accepted Fan Yue emotionally, I knew that he had entered a river from which there was no return. He would never have a chance to come back from the other side of the river. But I couldn't stop his actions.
+舅舅不再给我们写信,甚至不再打电话。
+Uncle no longer wrote us letters, nor did he call anymore.
+年末,舅舅患直肠癌,做了切除手术。他不会再来北京,我原希望能够跟 他在北京长谈的梦想算是破灭了。
+At the end of 1998, my uncle was diagnosed with rectal cancer and underwent surgery. He wouldn't come to Beijing anymore, and my dream of having a long conversation with him in Beijing was shattered.
+我不知道舅舅怎么会得了那种积劳积怨方易形成的气滞肠寒无法善终的绝 症。他知足常乐、豁达开朗、淡然处世、与人无争,老天怎么会把这场灭顶之灾抛给 他呢?
+I didn't know how my uncle ended up with such a terminal illness, a culmination of accumulated grievances and unresolved issues in his body. He was content, optimistic, indifferent to worldly matters, and never sought conflict. How could fate throw such a devastating calamity upon him?
+年春节,我拨通了舅舅的电话。
+During the Chinese New Year in 1999, I dialed my uncle's number.
+舅舅ー听到我的声音就很感动,他说,正在做化疗,情况不是很好;他已经把遗 产分配好了,让我转告母亲,也要我放心。我知道,他是暗示我,给我母亲与我都留 够了钱。
+Uncle was touched to hear my voice. He said he was undergoing chemotherapy and his condition wasn't good. He had already arranged his inheritance and asked me to inform my mother, assuring me not to worry. I knew he was hinting that he had set aside enough money for both my mother and me.
+我的眼泪流下来,这时候怎么能谈遗产呢?
+Tears streamed down my face. How could we talk about inheritance at a time like this?
+舅舅说:我知道你想来照顾我,按规定,除了你母亲,你们谁也不能来台湾,可 是你母亲年近八旬,难以承受舟车之劳了。
+Uncle said, "I know you want to come and take care of me, but according to regulations, except for your mother, none of you can come to Taiwan. However, your mother is almost eighty years old and it would be difficult for her to endure the hardships of the journey."
+我想,当时樊月一定不在舅舅身边,因为舅舅为了让我高兴,还唱起了《卷席 筒》,在北京家里时,他一高兴,就把录像带推进录像机里,用河南话说上一声:看看 《卷席筒》!
+I thought at that moment Fan Yue must not have been by my uncle's side because, to make me happy, he even started singing "Juǎn Xí Tǒng" (a popular song). When he was at home in Beijing, whenever he felt joyful, he would put a videotape into the VCR and exclaim in his Henan dialect, "Let's watch 'Juǎn Xí Tǒng'!"
+舅舅放下电话的时候,心情一定是沉重的,因为第二天,远在澳洲的大姐就给 我打来了电话。舅舅要大姐转告我,他已经与樊月结婚,因无法向我启齿,没敢在 电话里告诉我。
+When my uncle hung up the phone, he must have been feeling heavy-hearted because the next day, my eldest sister, who was far away in Australia, called me. Uncle wanted my sister to tell me that he had already married Fan Yue. He couldn't bring himself to tell me over the phone.
+后来,从台湾人嘴里,从大姐到台湾户证所查阅的户籍资料里,我知道了事情
+的大致面貌:
+Later, from the mouths of Taiwanese people and the household registration information searched by my eldest sister at the Taiwanese household registration office, I learned the general outline of the situation:
+樊月,山东某市郊区女工,相貌姣好,在大陆死了丈夫后,嫁给台湾老兵;老兵死 后,她在限期离台的最后日子里,ー举迁进舅舅住处,展开女人的全面攻势,要求嫁给 舅舅;当舅舅处于癌症化疗阶段时,她不顾医生再三阻拦,坚持偕舅舅从台湾飞到香 港,后经罗湖口岸到广州,再去往山东。
+Fan Yue, a female worker from the outskirts of a city in Shandong Province, was a beautiful woman. After her husband died in Chinese mainland, she married an old Taiwanese veteran. After the veteran passed away, in the final days before the deadline for her to leave Taiwan, she forcibly moved into my uncle's residence and launched a full-scale emotional assault as a woman, demanding to marry my uncle. During the period when my uncle was undergoing chemotherapy, despite the doctors' repeated objections, she insisted on accompanying my uncle from Taiwan to Hong Kong, then crossing the Luohu Port to Guangzhou and finally heading to Shandong.
+年1月15日,在北方严寒彻骨的季节 里,在她老家与舅舅完成婚姻登记手续,并举办婚礼,大碗喝酒吃肉,之后オ放舅舅独 自返回台湾。按照台湾规定,新婚妻子要在大陆等待,直到批准方可入台。
+On January 15, 1999, in the bone-chilling cold of the northern season, in her hometown, she completed the marriage registration and held a wedding ceremony with my uncle. They drank heavily and ate meat from large bowls. Afterward, my uncle could be allowed to return to Taiwan alone. According to Taiwanese regulations, the newlywed wife had to wait in Chinese mainland until approval was granted for her to enter Taiwan.
+就是那次的寒冷与酒宴,整个摧毁了舅舅正在恢复的身体机能,全面激活了经 过化疗本已被抑制的癌细胞。那一次山东之行,樊月稳稳地把持局面,不准舅舅赴 京,不准通知北京任何亲人,不准北京亲人参加婚礼,甚至不准舅舅触摸电话机。
+It was the cold trip and the feast that completely destroyed my uncle's recovering physical functions, fully activating the cancer cells that had been suppressed by chemotherapy. During that trip to Shandong, Fan Yue firmly took control of the situation. She didn't allow my uncle to go to Beijing, inform any relatives in Beijing, or let Beijing relatives attend the wedding. She even prohibited my uncle from touching the telephone.
+舅舅到底是舅舅,他固守了自己行为的最后防线。他坚持将自己终生所有钱 款,分成几个存折,除樊月外,留给我母亲的存款是!00万台币,并将分配结果告知 常小姐和几个战友。
+But my uncle was still my uncle. He held on to the last defense line of his own actions. He insisted on dividing all his money into several bank books. Apart from Fan Yue, he left a deposit of 1 million Taiwanese dollars for my mother. He informed Miss Chang and several comrades about the distribution results.
+这就是舅舅最后告诉我的都“分配好了”。当然,善良的舅舅不会想到,他留给我们的存款,一旦通过樊月之手,就根本到不了我们手里。樊月凭借着信誓旦旦的“转交”保证,到底将几个存折都拢在了自己手里。
+That's what my uncle told me last, that "everything has been distributed." Of course, kind-hearted as he was, my uncle couldn't have imagined that once the money passed through Fan Yue's hands, it would never reach us. Fan Yue, with her solemn promise of "handing it over," had ultimately kept all the bank books in her possession.
+最善良者也许是最不幸者。不设防的舅舅,良心安歇了。他没有想到欺骗,特 别是来自枕边女人的欺骗。
+The kindest person is perhaps the most unfortunate. My uncle, who didn't have any defenses, had his conscience at rest. He didn't anticipate deception, especially deception from the woman lying next to him.
+年5月1日,我给舅舅住宅打电话,没人接听。
+On May 1, 1999, I called my uncle's residence, but no one answered.
+我顿感不祥,急拨给舅舅工厂的常小姐。常大叫:“你舅舅过世了,4月30 日!”我心一沉,紧问:“舅舅过世时你在身边吗? ”常答:“没有,他过世后我只看望 了一次,医院就不许我去了!”停了停,她补充道,“洪州先生给你母亲留了 100 万！”
+我放下电话,放声大哭！
+I felt a sense of foreboding and urgently called Miss Chang from my uncle's factory. She shouted, "Your uncle passed away on April 30th!" My heart sank, and asked anxiously, "Were you with him when he passed away?" Chang replied, "No, after he passed away, I only visited him once, and then the hospital didn't allow me to go anymore!" After a pause, she added, "Mr. Hongzhou left 1 million for your mother!"I hung up the phone and burst into tears!
+哭后,我不能相信,要自己证实。现在我的电话本上一片红色笔迹,就是那时抓起一支正在阅卷打分的红笔书写的。
+After crying, I couldn't believe it. I had to confirm it myself. Now my phone book is filled with red ink, written with a red pen I grabbed while grading exam papers.
+我打给台湾荣民总医院:“我是北京,请转接太平间！”
+I called the Taipei Veterans General Hospital and said, "I'm from Beijing, please transfer me to the mortuary!"
+我对太平间说:“我是北京,请查ー下是否有位叫洪洲的先生死于4月30日?” 那边有了回复:“是的,一位叫洪洲的先生死于4月30日早晨。”
+I asked the mortuary, "I'm from Beijing, please check if there was a Mr. Hongzhou who died on April 30th?" They replied, "Yes, a Mr. Hongzhou passed away on the morning of April 30th."
+我的眼泪再度涌流。
+Tears streamed down my face again.
+我又给泌尿科打电话:“我是北京,请查ー下,洪洲先生是不是死于直肠癌?”
+I called the urology department and said, "I'm from Beijing, please check if Mr. Hongzhou died of rectal cancer?"
+回复:“不,不是。”
+The reply came, "No, he didn't."
+我再给心血管科打电话:“我是北京,请查ー下,洪洲先生是不是死于心梗?”
+I called the cardiology department and said, "I'm from Beijing, please check if Mr. Hongzhou died of a heart attack?"
+回复:“请找病房,洪洲先生住A191病房23床。”
+The reply came, "Please contact the ward. Mr. Hongzhou was in Ward A191, Bed 23."
+我打给病房:“我是北京,我是病人家属。请找合作病房主任,我想查询A191 房23床病人洪洲的死亡原因。“
+I called the ward and said, "I'm from Beijing, I'm a family member of the patient. Please find the head of the cooperating ward. I want to inquire about the cause of death of Mr. Hongzhou in Room A191, Bed 23."
+回复:“病人死于心力衰竭与直肠癌并发症。”
+The reply came, "The patient died of heart failure and complications from rectal cancer."
+据知,舅舅临终前痛苦万分,他始终记得樊月要给他养老送终的承诺,因此他 的叨念一遍比一遍凄凉:樊月怎么还不来?
+It is known that my uncle suffered immense pain before his death. He always remembered Fan Yue's promise to take care of him in his old age, so his lamentations became more and more desolate: Why hasn't Fan Yue come yet?
+据负责老兵事宜的台湾退伍会皇辅导员介绍,舅舅最后的历程应该是:
+According to the counselor Huang from the Taiwanese Veterans Association in charge of veterans' affairs, my uncle's final journey should be as follows:
+年1月20日,舅舅自山东独自返回台湾。
+On January 20, 1999, my uncle returned to Taiwan alone from Shandong.
+年4月15日,舅舅因直肠癌复发,住进台湾荣民总医院。此时直肠癌已 达四期,医生只好切除部分直肠,做了人工肛门,外接粪袋。
+On April 15, 1999, my uncle was admitted to the Taipei Veterans General Hospital due to a recurrence of rectal cancer. By this time, the cancer had reached stage four, and the doctors had to remove a part of the rectum and create an artificial anus with an external fecal bag.
+年4月30日凌晨,舅舅心力衰竭,肌体全面崩溃。临终前他不再讲任何话。
+In the early morning of April 30, 1999, my uncle suffered heart failure, and his body completely collapsed. He no longer spoke before his death.
+年4月30日,台湾退伍会迅速封闭舅舅的新庄住宅,查看票据,发现舅舅 存折里仅剩2万元台币。所有大额存款,于1999年1月初樊月返山东前被悉数取 出。退伍会还惊讶地发现,新庄住宅已经过户给上面提到的女工常小姐!
+On April 30, 1999, the Taiwanese Veterans Association quickly sealed my uncle's residence in Xinzhuang and checked the bills. They found that there were only 20,000 Taiwanese dollars left in his bank books. All the large deposits had been withdrawn before Fan Yue returned to Shandong in early January 1999. The association was also surprised to discover that the ownership of the Xinzhuang residence had been transferred to the female worker mentioned earlier, Miss Chang!
+皇辅导员在电话里对我说:我们为房产事研究过,如果新庄住宅是最近过户的,我们会保护洪洲先生的利益,以洪洲病重神志不清为由,退伍会向有关方面申 请过户无效,可是ー查底档,发现新庄住宅已经在2年前就过户给了常小姐!
+The counselor from the Veterans Association said to me over the phone, "We have researched the property matter. If the transfer of ownership of the Xinzhuang residence is recent, we will protect Mr. Hongzhou's interests. We can apply to invalidate the transfer on the grounds that Mr. Hongzhou was seriously ill and mentally unstable. However, upon checking the records, we found that the Xinzhuang residence had already been transferred to Miss Chang two years ago!"
+明白了。樊月在2年前,她上一位丈夫还在世时,就为征服舅舅做努力了,这 一点在她后来与我通电话时得到了证明。据知,常小姐在发现樊月的攻势后,捷足 先登,竟然软磨硬泡地以极少的台币购得了新庄住宅的产权,不过允许舅舅长期居 住在这套新宅。我与皇辅导员同样不理解,舅舅为什么能够突破自我保护的底线, 将正居住着的房产转让给常小姐呢?常小姐怎样说动了舅舅?与舅舅有着怎样的 约定?这个谜底,在活着的人中,恐怕只有常小姐自己清楚。
+I understand now. Fan Yue made efforts to conquer my uncle even when her previous husband was still alive, as I later confirmed in a phone call with her. It is known that after Miss Chang discovered Fan Yue's intentions, she acted swiftly and managed to acquire the ownership of the Xinzhuang residence for a minimal amount of money. However, she allowed my uncle to continue living in the house. Counselor Huang and I couldn't comprehend why my uncle would surpass his self-protective boundaries and transfer the property to Miss Chang. How did she persuade my uncle? What kind of agreement did they have? Only Miss Chang herself knows the answer to this puzzle.
+退伍会放弃了对新庄住宅产权的查证,立即赶赴银行验看账目,发现舅舅账目 上,除了上面说到的2万元台币外,还有利息10万元台币未及动用。哦,舅舅到底 为自己留存了一笔可能被樊月忽略的利息款!
+The Veterans Association gave up on verifying the ownership of the Xinzhuang residence and immediately went to the bank to inspect the accounts. They discovered that besides the mentioned 20,000 Taiwanese dollars, there was an additional 100,000 Taiwanese dollars in interest that my uncle had not utilized. Ah, my uncle had left himself a sum of interest that Fan Yue might have overlooked!
+皇辅导员说:“正是洪洲先生这两笔钱加上当月退休金,退伍会才能给舅舅办 ー个比较体面的葬礼。”
+Counselor Huang said, "It is precisely because of these two amounts, combined with the monthly pension, that the Veterans Association can arrange a relatively decent funeral for your uncle."
+年5月5日,身着ー袭黑色衣裤的樊月抵达台湾。
+On May 5, 1999, Fan Yue arrived in Taiwan, dressed in black attire.
+年5月12日,樊月以遗孀名义参加了我舅舅的追思会。面对来自台湾四 面八方的老兵,披着黑纱的樊月不停跪拜,不停鞠躬,也不停地收取着礼金。她漂 亮的脸上流着汗,神色倦怠,人们都说她可怜。
+On May 12, 1999, Fan Yue attended my uncle's memorial service in the name of his widow. Facing veterans from all over Taiwan, Fan Yue, draped in a black veil, continuously knelt, bowed, and accepted monetary gifts. Sweat streamed down her beautiful face, and she appeared fatigued. People pitied her.
+追思会很隆重,几十位战友前来告别,花篮花环连成一片。我姑姑姑父代表我 们全家参加追思会,也送给了樊月ー笔不薄的礼金。
+The memorial service was grand, with dozens of comrades bidding farewell, and flower baskets and garlands forming a sea of flowers. My aunt and uncle attended the memorial service on behalf of our entire family and also presented Fan Yue with a generous amount of money.
+舅舅被安葬于台北县荣民墓地,樊月没有接受骨灰,委托退伍会代为保管。
+My uncle was laid to rest at the Taipei County Veterans Cemetery, and Fan Yue did not accept his ashes. Instead, she entrusted the Veterans Association to take care of them.
+年,我们为姥爷、姥姥和舅舅在北京建了墓,这是ー块很大的多穴墓地。 我们希望,舅舅永远结束颠沛流离的日子,不再遭遇童年的绑架、青年的抓壮丁、壮 年的妻离子散,不再受到贪财人的算计,不再孤独厮守。他的生命将得以轮回,就 像小时候那样,又安睡在我姥爷、姥姥身边。
+In 2006, we built a large multi-grave cemetery in Beijing for my grandfather, grandmother, and uncle. We hoped that my uncle would forever put an end to his tumultuous life, no longer experiencing the kidnappings of his childhood, the conscription of his youth, the separation from his family in his prime years, and no longer being manipulated by greedy individuals. He would no longer be lonely and would find solace. His life would come full circle, just like when he peacefully slept by the side of my grandparents in his childhood.
+现在,我的首饰盒里躺着ー块碧绿鲜亮的缅甸A翠,也许有一天,我们能把舅 舅的骨灰迎回来,那时,我就可以把这块绿翠送给舅舅了。
+Now, lying in my jewelry box, is a vivid and bright green Burmese jadeite. Perhaps one day, we can bring back my uncle's ashes, and at that time, I can present this green jadeite to him.
+舅舅,中国的一位普通人。没有人知道他出生于何省何县,没有人知道他生身 父母的姓名、籍贯; 他在河南人看来是台湾人,他在台湾人看来是大陆人,他在北京 警方被认为是台湾同胞,他在河南众亲友以及台湾柳太太、常小姐眼里是拥有财富 的单身男人,他在妻子樊月眼里是个能够带来户籍与金钱的台湾丈夫。
+My uncle, an ordinary person in China. No one knows which province and county he was born in or the names or hometowns of his biological parents. To the people in Henan, he was considered Taiwanese; to the people in Taiwan, he was seen as a mainlander ; to the Beijing police, he was regarded as a compatriot from Taiwan; to his relatives and friends in Henan and to Mrs. Liu and Miss Chang in Taiwan, he was a financially well-off single man. To his wife, Fan Yue, he was a Taiwanese husband who could bring her household registration and money.
+这关乎ー个哲学命题一他是谁?从哪里来?
+This raises a philosophical question: Who is he? Where does he come from?
+舅舅以长达68年的时间,不懈地寻找自己的家。这是灵魂对自己生命源头的 膜拜,是生命对精神初始地的回归。不论这ー辈子有无荣华富贵,有无官位俸禄, 有无困顿屈辱,甚至有无肉体的生命形态,都不打紧,那种膜拜与回归正是中国化 的人生归宿,它将无可阻挡地奔向安身立命之所,就仿佛是在完成前生的约定。
+For 68 years, my uncle tirelessly searched for his own home. It was the homage of his soul to the origin of his life, the return of his spirit to its initial place. Regardless of whether he had wealth, official positions, or prestige in this lifetime, or whether he experienced hardships, humiliations, or even changes in his physical form, it doesn't matter. That homage and return are the true destination of a Chinese-style life. They will inevitably strive towards finding a place to settle down, as if fulfilling a predestined agreement from a previous life.
+可是,当那终生约定不复存在的时刻,当那遥远的家园轰然坍塌的时刻,舅舅 应该对谁膜拜?朝哪里回归?
+However, when that lifelong agreement no longer exists, when that distant homeland collapses, who should my uncle pay homage to? Where should he return to?
+现在,围绕舅舅涌动过的ー层涟漪已经复归平静。可是,还有多少像舅舅ー样 归心似箭的台湾老兵找不到回家的路?还有多少像樊月那样在法律许可范围内以 结婚名义堵截老兵返乡的人?还有怎样厚重的国民劣根元素,那些与他沾亲或不 沾亲的乡友故人,打压着与舅舅ー样的老兵?
+Now, the ripples that once surrounded my uncle have returned to calm. But how many Taiwan veterans, who are eager to return home, are still unable to find their way? How many people, like Fan Yue, legally use marriage as a means to block veterans from returning to their hometowns? How bad are the elements of national inferiority that oppress veterans like my uncle, whether they have connections with him or not?
+历史的书记官,从不记录小人物徒劳的牺牲。可是,我的舅,天底下有着与我舅 相同命运的或生或死的舅舅们啊,你们是否打算宽恕这个民族对你们牺牲的遗忘?
+哦,宽恕会留下无奈和辛酸;可不宽恕,你们、我们、大家,这个民族,还应该做些 什么呢?
+The scribe of history never records the futile sacrifices of ordinary people. But my uncle, and all the uncles out there who share the same fate, whether living or deceased, will you forgive this nation's forgetting of the sacrifices you made?
-. Translator: 王芳玲 Wang Fanglin [[Report_CN_EN_12]] Proofreader: 胡欣怡 Hu Xinyi《大记录》 1087 pp., 1176110 characters
+Oh, forgiveness will leave behind helplessness and bitterness. But if we don't forgive, what else should you, us, everyone, and this nation do?